Month: January 2019

Jan 31, 2019

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I don’t know if it’s just me or anything, but am I the only one that feels like the days going by both slowly and kinda quickly at the same time!? I know that probably sounds very weird and I know i’m probably not making any sense, but I just find it to be really weird………..like I know what I did during my morning, I remember it being 9am, 10am & 11am, saw a little bit of 12pm, a little bit of 1pm and now it’s literally close to 3pm, it’s only around 2:30pm so it’s not like the days zooming by, but it’s just really ODD!!

I feel like i’ve been writing all day and I know that I haven’t, I believe I started writing on here at around 12pm, I read a few different blog posts and then started writing, well not really started writing just like trying to finish some posts that I had started a few days ago and i’m still working on the same post………….I don’t know maybe it’s just me, i’m probably having a weird day or something, I had this post up for a while, well mainly just the title of the post, I knew it was going to be another entry, I just didn’t know what it was going to be about until a little bit ago actually so here we are.

I might have another post to write after I post this one, not sure, but you’ll know if you see it, but anyway I should get back to the other post I was working on that I stopped to write so I could come over to this once non written post and talk about how the day is just……..I don’t even know actually so yeah……..also I just realized that today is the last day of January………ain’t that nice!? We just got into this month and it’s already over, where is everything going, I have no idea, but it’s insane………WOW.

Just stay calm, breathe, do your best and keep going, stay calm, breathe, do your best and keep going……….Continues to repeat to self as she goes back to what she was originally doing. P.S. It is now 3pm where i’m at.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 30, 2019

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It’s nearly February now, where do the days go, I really don’t know………..I find myself in thought at the moment and i’m really trying to stay calm here, don’t you just hate it when things go from calm to chaos quicker than you have time to react!!? That’s my life, you never really know what kind of day you’re getting…………you try and stay calm, but you can never really stay calm for long, without something coming out of nowhere. I hate that feeling on not knowing what’s about to come at you, it always ends up putting me off what I should be focusing on and I hate it, I really hate it…………….

It makes my mind want to do backflips and then I start going on a thought frenzy and it ends up being hard for me to keep it from getting super out of control. I’m trying to keep calm though and not overthink on everything like I normally do…………I have to stay focus, I can’t keep letting myself get distracted and constantly worrying about everything, I need to focus on where I want to go and how I want things to work out, overthinking, worrying and looking too much into things is only going to keep me off track more.

I already worry on whether i’m on the right track, i’m hoping I am and i’m hoping i’m doing things alright, I know i’m doing my best and I need to keep that in mind without becoming super hard on myself, no overthinking or worrying or looking too much into things, just focus, breathe, stay calm and keep going, focus, breathe, stay calm and keep going……….everything’s going to be alright, relax, breathe and just keep doing your best, don’t you worry.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Ideas!?…..

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Okay so last night I was in a bit of a thought mode, i’m trying to figure out what else I can add into my blog site, I want to be able to liven it up and do a bit more with it. When I created this blog site, I wanted it to be different I wanted this to be a place where I could not only express myself, but also share some fun topics and a lot of different things with you guys, instead of just keeping it centered around one thing you know!?

I’m always coming up with all these different ideas and want to share them with you all, but a lot of the time, I stop myself from sharing those ideas, because I don’t think they’d be interesting, but at the same time when you have ideas, you should want to share them, I mean you never know who shares the same interest or what could come of it just by sharing.

There’s some things that I could and might think of adding to here, but I want it to be stuff to where when i’m writing it, i’m enjoying it and not just writing it just for the heck of it you know!? I want it where, you can feel that what i’m talking about or what i’m sharing with you guys, you can feel just by reading that it means a lot to me.

However, at the same time……….I also want to write about things that you guys who are reading my posts enjoy too, if that makes sense!?……….even though this is my blog site, i’m not the only one seeing my posts, you guys are as well and I want you guys to feel included and enjoy what you’re reading from me, because you guys are just as much apart of this site growing than just me.

I may have created it, but you guys have and are still helping me grow it and I want you to know how much I appreciate you guys for being here and how thankful and grateful I am that you guys are enjoying my posts.

So i’m going to let you guys share some ideas if you’d like to, on what else I could bring to this blog site, to where we all are able to enjoy it. Now i’m not the greatest writer and I don’t really know the whole technical stuff when it comes to building a blog site or anything like that, but i’m always trying to do my best at bringing topics where we can all have a conversation and share our thoughts and ideas and stuff like that, so if you have any fun ideas that you may want to suggest, feel free to, i’m open to hearing about it.

Here’s a little list of ideas that I have already added to my blog site:

Entries/Journal Entries: Where I talk about what’s on my mind and talk other topics.

Poems: Where I attempt to write what I think is a poem and share them on here (recent add in)

Reviews: We’ve only did songs and I tried to review an album, but yeah…..that didn’t go well, but with the reviews though we would only focus on song interpretation with a small review on the artist whose song we’re interpreting and i’ve been thinking about trying to review wrestling again, but having them only be written reviews.

I’m still on the fence with that one, because I don’t know if i’m going to be watching often, but we’ll see with this, however i’ve kinda already wrote two reviews and i’m still working on them, but i’m still not sure with it.

Uncategorized: This one will just be random posts that aren’t meant to really be in a specific category.

Let’s Talks: Where we just talk about specific fun topics such as Video games kinda, favorite movies and other things as well.

So those are just the main categories so far, I kinda want to keep it simple, so if you have any ideas within these categories, feel free to share, again i’d love to hear about it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Hobbies….

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When is something a hobby and when can you consider something not to be a hobby and instead something you should invest in for yourself!? We all have different things we may consider a hobby, be it sports, painting or just collecting things for the heck of it, but how do you know when something is just a hobby and how do you know when you should maybe take the thing you find yourself doing the most and see what can come out of it!?

You see i’ve had a lot of different hobbies in my day, I say in my day as if i’m really old or something haha, i’m still in my early 20’s and if you didn’t know that, well now you do……….i’ve been trying to figure a lot of things out for myself and I can never really seem to figure it out quite right, i’m always thinking on a lot of different things and I can never decide on what it is I want to do………

I’ll be honest it’s a little frustrating when it comes to figuring that out, you constantly ask yourself if what you’re doing is for you and all those kind of thoughts and everything……….and then you just find yourself thinking about all these other things that in all reality, don’t really relate to the things you were originally thinking about, what i’m writing about now is an example, I started writing about hobbies and now i’m here talking about this, i’m hoping it still ties in to what i’m talking about though and makes sense.

Going back to hobbies though, again how do you know if what you’re doing is just a hobby or if you should consider investing in yourself and taking what you find yourself doing the most and seeing what comes out of it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 29, 2019

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So we’re having a bit of a snow day where I am at the moment and it’s only Tuesday………the days going alright, not to bad you know, I don’t really have much to write about when it comes to this entry here, i’m kinda just writing whatever comes to me as i’m writing, sometimes I feel that when there isn’t anything you really have or want to say, sometimes just writing and seeing what comes out as you’re going along tends to work.

That being said though, i’m kinda having a bit of trouble with writing down thoughts here, the only thoughts i’ve had today were random thought, you know stuff like how you want to start your day or how you shouldn’t have had 4 cookies and 2 brownies as a midnight snack haha, well those are the thoughts that I had this morning………….you ever just talk to yourself about things!? I tend to do that all the time, i’m always talking to myself.

I know that probably sounds weird and everything, but come on we all talk to ourselves at times, they say it’s actually healthy for the mind you know, just having a casual conversation with yourself……..no i’m kidding when I talk to myself it’s mainly because i’m thinking out loud, I don’t really know how to think in my head, also I try not to think in my head too much, by me doing that i’ll just end up staying there for a long period of time and yeah wouldn’t want to do that.

I always prefer when i’m thinking out loud because I don’t know, I guess for me it just helps me think better doing it that way. I know everyone’s different though, some think better to themselves, others think better out loud and some have different ways of thinking, which is pretty interesting if you really think about it, all the ways you try and figure things out you know!?

Wow can’t believe i’ve written this much already, i’m saying that as if i’ve never written this much in my life……….I just meant as when you’re freely writing is all and didn’t have anything prepared, you know that kind of writing, who would’ve thought that it would be all about the different ways of thinking though…….I guess just writing and seeing what comes out really does tend to work, ain’t that something!!

So tell me, how do you guys prefer to think!? Out loud, to yourself or do you have a different way of thinking and figuring things out!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Catch Up….

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Boy do we all feel the stress with this one am I right!? Catching up to things can really put a real amount of pressure on you, we all feel as though we have to get somewhere within a certain time span and when we aren’t quite there to our liking, it can get really frustrating. We’re all in the catch up side of town and yeah it’s not the greatest feeling, especially when we have our minds set on where we want to go and we know that we’re working as hard as we can to get to where we want to be, it can really feel like this never ending struggle and as if we’ll never get there………but that’s not all true.

I mean sure the hard work in everything we put in might feel like a struggle and can be a real pain, but just because it’s taking us a whole lot longer than we anticipated, doesn’t mean that we won’t get to where we want to, it’s just taking a bit of time to get there is all, it’s all about patience and doing your best with everything, things take time, sure we may want things to go quicker and everything, but we also have to take in that sometimes being in the moment can work wonders as well.

It’s okay to focus on where we’re trying to get to, but we also have to keep in mind that we have to also focus on being in the moment, you know balance it out, instead of focusing so much on one thing. The main thing to keep in mind is knowing that we’re doing our best and working as hard as we can to get to where we’re aiming for, we don’t need to stress ourselves out or get super frustrated with ourselves when we know that we still have a bit of way to go.

I mean sure we’re going to end up getting super frustrated anyway and being hard on ourselves because that’s just a natural thing for us to do as humans, but when we do start to feel a little tense and find ourselves getting worked up, we have to remember to take it easy on ourselves and try and stay calm, we’re doing our best and as long as we know that and we keep working hard at everything we’ll get there.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 27, 2019

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Hey there guys, I hope you all are doing well and had a good week, so as you probably noticed, I took a bit of time off, I actually just looked and it’s been a week since I posted anything new, yeah I know, sometimes you just need some time to just I guess recharge if you want to say, i’m doing alright though just in case you’ve been wondering.

There isn’t really much to update you guys on, I know that’s probably really boring and all, all i’ve been really up to is just figuring stuff out and all that jazz, nothing too big though. I’m not really sure what exactly I want to write about so I think i’m just gonna share some thoughts in this entry, I hope you guys don’t mind………….

So i’ve been thinking about changing my theme for my blog site, but i’m not really sure what theme I want to change it to!? Don’t get me wrong though, I like the theme I have for it already, i’ve just been wanting to change it for a good while now, I don’t think i’m going to change it right away though, i’m just considering change it soon, I just don’t know to what exactly though.

Speaking of themes actually, I had another thought a little while ago on maybe having some kind of theme with my posts, now with me saying that though, i’m not sure what kind of theme posts I would write about so i’m gonna think about this one a little bit longer and see how I feel on it.

The last thought that’s sorta entering my mind is whether or not I should watch the Royal Rumble today!? You see I haven’t quite caught up with everything yet…………okay I haven’t quite caught up with it at all and I said I wanted to, but then I thought to myself just now that if I really wanted to I would’ve, yet I didn’t………hmmm, maybe i’ll just see how i’m feeling, if I really want to watch it, i’m sure I will and if not then I won’t stress on it.

How are you guys feeling today!? Have any thoughts you want to share, if so just comment down below!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Anxiety…..

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What are you doing here!? I didn’t ask for your company……I’m trying to stay calm, yet you keep wanting me to worry!?

Although you maybe trying to take over completely, I will not let you in, I will continue to stay calm and keep you from getting to me.

I maybe stressed and unable to focus, but that doesn’t mean, you have the right to try and push your way in, so go away because you’re not welcome.

You can try and scare me off, but it’s not going to work, i’m in charge, you’re just an emotion, a fear that I refuse to let win.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 20, 2019

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So i’m in the process of trying to stay calm, it’s a little hard though, because when i’m worried about something, it’s hard for me to relax………i’m just having a real hard time focusing on anything, i’ve been trying to write new poems since this morning and nothing is really coming to me, I did start on one, but i’m still working on it, i’m feeling a little on edge with everything………..I don’t know………I really don’t know………

I’m really trying to stay calm and not overthink, but when my brain’s focused on something, it stays locked on the first thing i’m focused on, but i’m trying so hard to put my focus on something else, because I know how my mind works, if it’s not occupied with something it’ll continuously wander to what i’m worrying about.

I got so many things going in and out of my head though, it’s hard to keep them all in one pile……………I’ve gotta keep my mind distracted somehow, it’s a pain when i’m worrying about things because it’s all I focus on, that’s why i’m trying to write even if it’s about my mind, because at least it’s keeping me busy and not drifting me back into my mind, i’m also trying to keep my emotions in order, it’s a little hard, but i’m doing my best with it.

P.S. I wrote another poem, but i’m still working on the first one……..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 19, 2019

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I’m just gonna start this entry by saying i’m pretty tried today, i’ve been having a bit of of a day, I haven’t really been able to think straight properly, I actually tried to write a poem on that, but I couldn’t really think of anything else, there’s only 4 lines in it, I might come back to it in time though who knows………I did write two other poems though, one i’m sharing with you guys and the other one, i’m gonna keep in my journal only.

I have no idea what to write about here and I don’t want to write about how my day’s been because you guys shouldn’t have to read that, I want to talk about something that’s better than that, not exactly sure what I want to write about, but I want it to be something you guys can enjoy in the moment even though i’m not sure how i’ll turn out, but we’ll see.

It took me a bit, I actually started drifting off as I was trying to figure out what to write about, I think I want to share a memory with you guys, this might not be a very long post, but hopefully you guys still enjoy it. This memory comes from a moment that I had a long time ago and it was when my friend Angel was still around, he had stayed over my house and this was in the morning, we were watching this cartoon by the name of Teen Titans Go.

Now this show isn’t my favorite show, it’s okay, it has some good episodes to it, but there was this specific episode, I think it’s called 40% 40% 20% anyway, we’re watching this show and there’s this song that played, also this episode, a lot of people enjoyed, myself included because it was the closes thing we got to it being like the original Teen Titans………but back to the story, so there’s a song called Night Begins To Shine in the episode and long story short, the minute my friend Angel heard it he immediately loved it and went to download it.

I didn’t think they’d actually have the song to where he’d be able to download it right away, but they had it and well he continuously played it non stop while he was at my house and mind you although it wasn’t a bad song I wasn’t at the time super into it, but I didn’t mind it either, however he played it so much because he knew that I was going to get annoyed with it and what happened, I got annoyed with it.

He kept saying to me how great of a song it was and tried singing along to it, he didn’t really know the words, but that wasn’t going to stop him from singing to it and because he played it so much, I ended up getting the song stuck in my head and you can probably guess the look I gave him because of that, I was so mad……….we all know how hard it is to get a song out of your head especially when it’s a really catchy one and he knew that too and thought it was hilarious.

It’s not a surprise though, he always played weird songs that ended up getting stuck in your head later or made you give him a weird look, he didn’t care though, he’d still play them half of the time we just laugh at him and shake our heads, he was a character, but we loved him anyway.

Now that i’m looking back at it though, I guess it was kinda funny, still annoying, but also pretty funny too, at least I can say I have very interesting friends as well as great ones, btw thinking about that memory made the song get stuck in my head a bit which is great, i’m not singing it now though so that’s good, but if it comes back, i’m gonna be annoyed, but also laugh about it.

If you guys have a memory you want to share that you always look back and laugh at, feel free to comment it down below, i’d love to hear about it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~