Alright so, i’ve sorta maybe, okay definitely caught interest in something that I feel is good, there’s so many different things to it, but because there’s so many different things to it, I am on the fence on whether I should give it a go……I mean have you guys ever found yourself so intrigued and drawn to something, but at the same time you aren’t sure whether to continue to let yourself be drawn to that thing…….does that makes sense!?
It’s like you feel it’s something good and you feel like you should try it or embrace it, but then you have that something in you that’s like mmm should I, should I not!? I don’t know……
Anyone else get that feeling with certain things!? It’s like you feel it, but then you have all these nerves coming through and you’re like ahhhh I don’t know, but you also have that thing inside you that’s like “I mean you’re here and you have looked at it quite enough so why not!?”
It’s like a kid walking into a class for the first time, but being so scared and nervous because they aren’t sure how it’s going to go, so they kinda just stay to themselves until they feel comfortable enough you know!?
So many things…..I just don’t know…..Maybe!?…..I’ll figure it out…..
Keep your focus, try not to get distracted on things that don’t matter, I get it it’s hard to stay focused when there’s so much going on around you, but you have to keep your mind on the things that matter to you, the more we focus on the things that irritate us, the more things are going to irritate us……..
Yes I know all of that is easier said then done, but you have to try, you don’t want to keep having yourself move backwards, you have to want as well as do your best to move forwards no matter how scary it may seem……
It may leave you unsure moving forwards, but it’ll make you feel so great knowing that you did it and that you are moving somewhere, yeah it can be nerve wrecking and all, but don’t you think it’ll be worth all the nerves!?
I’m sure there’s no better feeling than seeing yourself become something you never imagined and just seeing how far you can really fly!!! You know you want to and you know that you also need to, also try not to look so much into things, you’re only distracting yourself more doing that…….
Even if you feel the tension or you’re feeling stressed out and everything, just keep going and keep focused, believe me you’ll thank yourself for it.
Don’t bother with the words of other people, keep attempting that jump to fly, because trust me you can do it, it’s there, you just need to trust yourself.
Don’t think about it too hard and don’t stress so much about it, just stay focused and keep on going, you’ll get it, you just have to trust and believe.
April skies, April times, oh so many good memories….
If you ask me to close my eyes and tell you what I see
I’d tell you the 40th Anniversary of Grease, as we’re singing the songs and reciting the words to the movie at the Cinema……just having a good old time.
I see us having dinner for the first time and us laughing because you startled yourself with the mirror behind you, that was a good one!!
I see us sitting on the bench outside of the mall (shopping center) listening to our favorite song in the backseat of the car (you know which one)
Another memory coming through……it’s the one where we were running on the pitch, well you were running around with the football (soccer)
I was recording you as you were working out your shots to see if you still had it……you did of course.
I see……..okay well I didn’t really see the ball heading my way as it caught me in the stomach, but I was okay as I just laugh at it afterward even though you were bare worried…..I love that memory though.
Speaking of football…..I also see us going to a football game, my first ever football game and your first MLS game, it was really enjoyable
Although, I didn’t really know what was going on, but seeing you enjoy it, made me enjoy it.
I see you making me a surprise breakfast the day of our 1 year anniversary, waffles with baked beans on top (I know people it sounds weird, but believe me it was pretty good and i’m not just saying that, I promise lol)
There’s so many memories, I could talk about, but the love you give and show me is my favorite one and although we’re unable to spend this year together, I just want you to know how much you mean to me.
I love you with every beat of my heart my love and I look forward to creating more memories with you and spending our days and life together.
Happy 2 Year Anniversary my love, here’s to many more and to our future together, I love you millions and more than words can describe!!
Now that’s something I can do, although there’s times where I just want to shut my brain off, but doing that for just one second, is impossible, it’s like your brain forbids you from doing so…….
The minute you start to think about something, just one little thing, that’s it you’ve step on a bobby trap and now you’re going to be thinking for the next few hours, how great, I mean who doesn’t love thinking to the point of no return, I know I do……no but seriously sometimes I wonder why it is we think, not that it’s a bad thing, it’s just sometimes it can be a whole lot to deal with, especially when your emotions decide they want to get involved.
It’s like no, this is not a party, I already have all these thoughts coming in unannounced, I don’t need you here too emotions……like why is that a thing!? Why does thinking become so intense to the point where you want to just throw all your emotions at someone or at the window, I mean if we could wouldn’t we through our emotions out the window!?
I mean I might, but then I guess if you do that, you just won’t feel anything……even though it can be a pain to feel, sometimes we need to feel emotions that way they become easier to deal with and to process, although when you really think about it, it’s not always easy processing emotions……
Sometimes they end up having a mind of they’re own and then your forced to try and control them as best as you can, which isn’t always easy either…….but I tell you if thinking was some kind of contest, let’s face it we’d all be winners, even though some of us think more than others, so I guess there would be some kind of tournament for it, which makes me wonder…..
What kind of thinking tournament would it be!? Would we have to think on all things bad or maybe we’d think of fond memories, it could be a gauntlet of things who knows…….as you can tell i’ll be here thinking for a while…….
At least I have tea, just in case I start to feel stressed out or something…..
Let’s do something different today…….let’s pretend we’re painters, if you were a painter what would you paint!?…….if I were to tell you what i’d paint, i’d just say that at the moment I don’t know, right now, i’m just looking at a blank canvas trying to figure that out myself………
If I had to describe what i’d want it to look like though, I don’t know, I’d probably want it to have a calm feeling of someplace that calls to me, i’d probably would use greens, maybe some blues, browns, you know colors that feel nice and calm…….
I’d want it to have a special kind of feeling, that’s slightly hard to imagine, but is also very easy to feel, something that when you think about it, it brings the biggest smile to your face and makes you happy to be there……
You know like you’re right where you should be……I want it to be a place that isn’t too hot, but where it isn’t that cold either, a place that has just the right amount of both cold and hot……..i’d love for it to rain, not too much of course, but just enough you know, wouldn’t want it to be too big of a place, but I wouldn’t want it to be too small either.
I’d like it to be a place that makes you go, this feels right and it feels good……..i’d love for there to be cafes, but i’d also love for there to be a lot of nature around, it would be nice if it had an old timey (if that’s a word) feel too it, enough where it just feels good to be around.
Have it where it has a rustic, but slightly modern look to it, not too modern though, more like an old town where you can feel the story behind it, as well as feel yourself connecting to it……….some type of village of some sort, you know!?
I don’t know, I guess if I had to paint something, i’d want it to have those kind of descriptions to it, you know a place that feels right, the moment you’re in it…….that’s a portrait i’d hang up on my wall and look at a lot.
How about you guys, what would you paint, if you were a painter!?
Originally Written: April 21st – Finished April 23rd (1am)
Update:So just to give you guys a heads up, I watched all of the matches that took place yesterday in the Shields Final Chapter event, but I went back and rewatched everything over so I could give my thoughts to everything properly because watching it Live it’s hard to keep up……
A lot of the early stuff already written I went back and changed some things and added more to it, as well as wrote out the rest of my thoughts on the event. The first part that you’re about to read is the only original reaction that I kept and didn’t change, but the rest of what I wrote that’s all changed and added stuff.
So I thought this was going to be some kind of documentary on the Shield and their journey, but maaan was I wrong…….it turns out it’s a whole wrestling event, well it was WWE Live, i’ve never watched one of these before so this should be interesting.
Elias speaks about how he’s happy that this is the Shield’s final chapter and never having to see them again then talks about how Roman Reigns will pay for what he did to him and Mr McMahon last week and then we get a song from Elias, about the Shield……
He then of course insults the crowd while singing his song, because it wouldn’t be an Elias song if he didn’t, but it also wouldn’t be an Elias song if he didn’t get interrupted in the middle of it either.
If you’re wondering who interrupted Elias, well it was non other than the Intercontinental Champion Finn Balor, Elias of course unhappy at the fact asks Balor why he felt the need to interrupt his performance and Balor tells him how much of a fan he is of his and how he wants to Walk With Elias,
Elias not bothered to hear that Balor is a fan, tells Finn that since he’s a fan of his, he’ll let him sing with him and then Elias sings his famous song “When I Say I Love Elias, You Say Yes I Do”
The crowd didn’t really sing along at first, we then had Finn join in on the song, but decides he wants to change up the lyrics to it a bit, singing how much Elias sucks instead, gotta say Finn doesn’t have a bad voice, that was pretty good!!
Well I thought it was, Elias on the other hand did not like it, which lend him to attack Finn, starting up the match between the two.
Finn Balor Vs Elias (Intercontental Championship)
This was a good match, I had to rewatch this of course, but it was real good, both Finn and Elias did really well, both are extremely talented in the ring, they both had an equal amount of momentum going for them of there were a few nice moments during the match,
One moment was when Balor went up on the top corner ropes outside of the apron, to set up for his finisher, but Elias hits him, causing Finn to stumble off the top rope and back on the the ring apron, Elias then hits Balor with a few punches to the face……
Almost knocking him off the apron completely and on the announcers table at one point, which by the way i’m not really sure why it was that close to the ring anyway, but it was…….
Elias tried going for another attack on Finn, but Balor countered the attack, going for a sunset flip pin, almost gets the win, but was only able to get a 2 count, Finn then goes for some kind of cradle pin move, gets the whole 3 count, wins the match and retains his Intercontinental Championship.
Thoughts:This was a very well done match between the two, there was a few times where Elias was close to winning, but in the end it was Finn who made sure that title didn’t go anywhere, but well done to both Finn Balor and Elias for putting on a good performance in this matchup, I enjoyed it!!
Post/Pre Match Segment: Elias not to happy about his lost to Finn Balor, talks how Balor got lucky and then just tries to turn his focus back on his performance, but ends up getting interrupted again before he could even begin his performance when the Riott Squad heads on down to the ring……..and what do you know, they too are huge fans of Elias, ain’t that something!!
They even go out of their way to ask him if they could be the Elias Squad even though they’re known as the Riott Squad, Elias was all in for that idea of course, they even sang Elias’s song with him……well for a min, but they ended up changing the lyrics to “We Love The Riot Squad” not bad, but I think personally they could’ve rehearsed that better, but you know it was okay…….
Bayley & Ember Moon Vs The Riot Squad
I was pretty excited to see Ember get back in the ring after being out for so long, I know she was in the Women’s Battle Royal at Mania, but I didn’t watch it, but watching this match back, Ember, goodness gracious she’s something, the Riott Squad too are quite the pair as we all know, taking advantage any chance their given.
Liv Morgan especially, she did everything she could to make sure her team stayed in control of the match and it worked for the most part, until towards the closing parts of the match when she was caught red handed trying to help Ruby win, by holding her legs on the ropes as leverage after Ruby tried to use a dirty pin towards Ember to win the match, causing her to be banned from ringside.
She was not happy of course and neither were the Riott Squads’s Ruby Riot and Sarah Logan……on a good note, Liv being sent to the back after she was caught cheating gave Ember the advantage to capitalize on Ruby hitting her with her finisher the Eclipse from off the top rope, pinning her and wins the match for her and Bayley.
Thoughts:The match was pretty alright, I thought Bayley and Ember worked really well together, the Riot Squad did well too, even though I wouldn’t normally say this……
Liv Morgan, although she wasn’t apart of the match, she did a good job helping Ruby and Sarah stay in control of the match, although it wouldn’t be long before her dirty tactics played up against her leaving her to get caught red handed and then banned from ringside afterwards,
However for some parts of the match I thought Ruby and Logan, both held their own real nicely, Ember she’s amazing, Bayley is also great and overall the match was just really enjoyable!!
The Shield Final Disclosed Location Promo:
Now we’ve come to the closing parts of the Shields Final Chapter, first we got one last classic old Shield promo from a disclosed location where they talk about everything they’ve done as the Shield for the past 7 years with wanting to create a legacy of their own injustice, but how in the process of it all they ended up just starting a whole new culture in the WWE on their own terms……
Had the whole world thrown at them, but that there wasn’t anything they haven’t been through together and that come hell or high water they will go out there for their last match together and do things their way and when the Shield tell you that they will do things their way Believe That and Believe in the Shield…….
On to the Main Event…….
The Shield Vs Drew McIntyre, Bobby Lashley & Baron Corbin
The Shields final match and the final chapter to this story……..first I just want to say that watching this match a second time, I still feel the same about it like I did yesterday……….
I thought it was really great match, both teams put on one heck of a performance, Baron Corbin, Bobby Lashley and Drew McIntyre I gotta say worked extremely well together, did I appreciate them ganging up on Dean, no I did not, but as heels they did what they were supposed to do and it is what it is, although they were talking a lot of smack about how they were going to beat the Shield and become the new stable of WWE…..I will say I am impressed with the way they work as a team during this matchup,
They did gave Dean, Roman and Seth one heck a fight and stood toe to toe with them, however it’s not like we’ve never seen both teams face off before (Fastlane) but even though we watched another match between the Shield and Drew, Corbin and Lashley, each time they’ve faced off, it’s been great, so i’ll give them that one, but just that one…..
Yes they’re they’re pretty great and all when working together, but I wouldn’t call them Shield level great, they’re good, but they aren’t better than the Shield, Drew, Corbin and Lashley are teammates, while Dean, Roman and Seth are brothers. They get each other, they know each other’s strengths and weaknesses, they know how to bring out the best in each other in a way that is just incredible and that’s why they’re the best!!
Corbin, Drew and Lashley TRIED to put them in the past, but the Shield you can’t take them down, especially when they are on the same page and have the mindset to take on everyone and destroy, that all being said though of course the Shield won in the end.
We had Dean land his dirty deeds finisher and he could’ve pinned Corbin right then and there, but he ended up tagging Roman in, who tagged in Seth where they then delivered their famous Triple Powerbomb tag team finisher move for the last time and Seth pinned Corbin, giving them the win. I couldn’t be happier, it would’ve had be wrong had they given Corbin, Lashley and Drew the win, i’m glad they didn’t though.
I was real happy seeing Dean fly and just go all out and everywhere in the ring and give the fight back to Corbin, Lashley and Drew, even when they were tag teaming against him outside of the ring and trying to make everything impossible for him, he still stood his ground and kept on rolling with the punches and i’m just real proud of him, i’m proud of all of them!!
Roman and Seth, I love how they always have Dean’s back and are always keeping a look out for him……..The Shield, yeah they’re all different, but each one of them bring so much to the Shield, they understand each other, they know how each other work and that’s because they just have this connection and bond that you can’t break.
It doesn’t matter if they’re on opposite teams or not, that kind of thing doesn’t go away and no matter what anyone says there’s no Shield without Seth, there’s Shield without Roman and there’s definitely no Shield without Dean……..yes they had different paths and backgrounds to how they started, but each and every one of them all walked the same grounds, even if they didn’t know it at the time.
We all saw the kind of destruction they brought to the WWE and just the way they turned everything upside down and inside out, we all saw what they brought with them and just how they were, be it when it happened or seeing the highlights of their careers looking back at it.
After the match was over, we have the crowd give Dean and the rest of the Shield a standing ovation for just everything they’ve done in the WWE and as the Shield, the crowd chanting for them and trying to plead with Dean not to leave, which Seth let’s them know that they’ve already tried that, but once Dean’s mind is made up it’s made up………..
We then get some very heartfelt words from Seth, talking about his journey and becoming Universal champion and how him being champion wouldn’t have been possible without the Shield, the WWE Universe and The Brotherhood of the Shield……..he then let’s Dean and Roman know how much he loves them and how he’ll always love the Shield and how the Universal Championship isn’t just for him, it’s for all of them as a team.
We also got one heck of a inspirational speech from Dean, that made me tear up a bit the first time I heard it, I just smiled the second time watching it, he just talked about never taking no for an answer……
Saying if you work hard enough and you continue to fight through the obstacles in your way you can do anything you put your mind to and if anyone tries to tell you otherwise just stick the middle finger in the air and tell them the Shield said so……….i’m gonna leave it for you guys to watch because it Dean says it a whole lot better than I could.
Final Thoughts:You know I still can’t believe that there isn’t going to be anymore Shield and I especially can’t believe that we’re not going to get anymore Dean Ambrose in the WWE……….
I honestly feel it’s just going to be so odd without Dean around, but at the same time I understand and respect Dean’s decision to leave, again i’ve said this before, but at the end of the day, all I want is to see Dean happy and if he’s happy, it’s only right for us fans who love and respect as well as support, to be happy for him, it doesn’t mean we won’t miss him,
Of course we’re going to miss him, he brought so much to the WWE and gave us entertainment as well as shared with us his love for pro wrestling and let us be apart of his career with him, it’s just gonna be weird not seeing him wrestle or him giving us promo’s to look forward to…….
Dean is one of a kind and there isn’t going to be anyone who can fill his shoes, sure we have other talents that we can support and who is also good on the mic and in the ring and who kinda relate to Dean……actually scratch that, there’s no one that’s like Dean Ambrose, because again there’s just only one Dean Ambrose and like I said before people can try, but there isn’t a presence like Dean’s, he has something to him that no one can match.
I’ve always seen greatness in Dean and I know that’s he’s going to do well wherever he goes and with whatever he does, like I said I just hope Dean happy and is doing well…….I also wish the best for not only Dean, but Roman and Seth as well as they’re stepping in to a new journey with their careers too, not sure we’re they’re going to be heading next, but I look forward seeing where that is……….
Overall though everything was good, I enjoyed the Shield’s Final Chapter, i’m sad knowing we won’t get to see them in the ring together again and about Dean leaving and all, but at the end of the day, I just wish them all the very best in everything they do, but that was The Shield’s Final Chapter……
Let me know what you guys thought of the event if you’ve watched it and let me know your favorite moments were of it all!!