Tea and Cookies….

There’s nothing like a nice cup of tea, to not only keep you warm,

But also to keep you calm when you need it,

Especially when you’ve had an all over the place kind of day…..

You know what’s also great!? Cookies!!

Why!? Well because they taste great,

And because we all know they go well with Tea

Everything pretty much goes well with Tea

Well, mainly sweets……

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

So Many Things…..

Alright so, i’ve sorta maybe, okay definitely caught interest in something that I feel is good, there’s so many different things to it, but because there’s so many different things to it, I am on the fence on whether I should give it a go……I mean have you guys ever found yourself so intrigued and drawn to something, but at the same time you aren’t sure whether to continue to let yourself be drawn to that thing…….does that makes sense!?

It’s like you feel it’s something good and you feel like you should try it or embrace it, but then you have that something in you that’s like mmm should I, should I not!? I don’t know……

Anyone else get that feeling with certain things!? It’s like you feel it, but then you have all these nerves coming through and you’re like ahhhh I don’t know, but you also have that thing inside you that’s like “I mean you’re here and you have looked at it quite enough so why not!?”

It’s like a kid walking into a class for the first time, but being so scared and nervous because they aren’t sure how it’s going to go, so they kinda just stay to themselves until they feel comfortable enough you know!?

So many things…..I just don’t know…..Maybe!?…..I’ll figure it out…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Focus….

Keep your focus, try not to get distracted on things that don’t matter, I get it it’s hard to stay focused when there’s so much going on around you, but you have to keep your mind on the things that matter to you, the more we focus on the things that irritate us, the more things are going to irritate us……..

Yes I know all of that is easier said then done, but you have to try, you don’t want to keep having yourself move backwards, you have to want as well as do your best to move forwards no matter how scary it may seem……

It may leave you unsure moving forwards, but it’ll make you feel so great knowing that you did it and that you are moving somewhere, yeah it can be nerve wrecking and all, but don’t you think it’ll be worth all the nerves!?

I’m sure there’s no better feeling than seeing yourself become something you never imagined and just seeing how far you can really fly!!! You know you want to and you know that you also need to, also try not to look so much into things, you’re only distracting yourself more doing that…….

Even if you feel the tension or you’re feeling stressed out and everything, just keep going and keep focused, believe me you’ll thank yourself for it.

Don’t bother with the words of other people, keep attempting that jump to fly, because trust me you can do it, it’s there, you just need to trust yourself.

Don’t think about it too hard and don’t stress so much about it, just stay focused and keep on going, you’ll get it, you just have to trust and believe.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

April Times….

April skies, April times, oh so many good memories….

If you ask me to close my eyes and tell you what I see

I’d tell you the 40th Anniversary of Grease, as we’re singing the songs and reciting the words to the movie at the Cinema……just having a good old time.

I see us having dinner for the first time and us laughing because you startled yourself with the mirror behind you, that was a good one!!

I see us sitting on the bench outside of the mall (shopping center) listening to our favorite song in the backseat of the car (you know which one)

Another memory coming through……it’s the one where we were running on the pitch, well you were running around with the football (soccer)

I was recording you as you were working out your shots to see if you still had it……you did of course.

I see……..okay well I didn’t really see the ball heading my way as it caught me in the stomach, but I was okay as I just laugh at it afterward even though you were bare worried…..I love that memory though.

Speaking of football…..I also see us going to a football game, my first ever football game and your first MLS game, it was really enjoyable

Although, I didn’t really know what was going on, but seeing you enjoy it, made me enjoy it.

I see you making me a surprise breakfast the day of our 1 year anniversary, waffles with baked beans on top (I know people it sounds weird, but believe me it was pretty good and i’m not just saying that, I promise lol)

There’s so many memories, I could talk about, but the love you give and show me is my favorite one and although we’re unable to spend this year together, I just want you to know how much you mean to me.

I love you with every beat of my heart my love and I look forward to creating more memories with you and spending our days and life together.

Happy 2 Year Anniversary my love, here’s to many more and to our future together, I love you millions and more than words can describe!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Just Keep On Thinking…..

Now that’s something I can do, although there’s times where I just want to shut my brain off, but doing that for just one second, is impossible, it’s like your brain forbids you from doing so…….

The minute you start to think about something, just one little thing, that’s it you’ve step on a bobby trap and now you’re going to be thinking for the next few hours, how great, I mean who doesn’t love thinking to the point of no return, I know I do……no but seriously sometimes I wonder why it is we think, not that it’s a bad thing, it’s just sometimes it can be a whole lot to deal with, especially when your emotions decide they want to get involved.

It’s like no, this is not a party, I already have all these thoughts coming in unannounced, I don’t need you here too emotions……like why is that a thing!? Why does thinking become so intense to the point where you want to just throw all your emotions at someone or at the window, I mean if we could wouldn’t we through our emotions out the window!?

I mean I might, but then I guess if you do that, you just won’t feel anything……even though it can be a pain to feel, sometimes we need to feel emotions that way they become easier to deal with and to process, although when you really think about it, it’s not always easy processing emotions……

Sometimes they end up having a mind of they’re own and then your forced to try and control them as best as you can, which isn’t always easy either…….but I tell you if thinking was some kind of contest, let’s face it we’d all be winners, even though some of us think more than others, so I guess there would be some kind of tournament for it, which makes me wonder…..

What kind of thinking tournament would it be!? Would we have to think on all things bad or maybe we’d think of fond memories, it could be a gauntlet of things who knows…….as you can tell i’ll be here thinking for a while…….

At least I have tea, just in case I start to feel stressed out or something…..

Gotta love tea.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

An Hour Before Midnight…..

11pm.

I was in a deep sleep, but was awaken,

By the sound of chaos filling this house….

I try and head back to sleep, but it’s no use

The chaos only grew louder and louder….

Stuck in a tense state, wanting to scream

Wanting to shut off the noise, but unable to….

My emotions then start to go into hyperdrive

A growl with the words “shut up” escaped my mouth,

Only no one could hear…..Chaos that’s all we ever hear

……..

Outside now…..it’s calm,

No noise, just me and the cold air

I sit with my tea in hand,

Looking at the night sky, gazing at the few stars in it……

Planes in the sky, oh how I wish that was me on them.

I look around a bit and then back at the sky

Thinking to myself about everything in my mind

The night sky sure is lovely don’t you think!?

Makes you not want to leave it…….

………

Back inside, I walk around a few rooms

Now in my room, tired, but also restless

1am, the clock reads,

Around 1:30am is the time I finally get to sleep

A lot in my head though, but not too long

That hour before Midnight,

Soon turned into the morning…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

If I Was A Painter…..

Let’s do something different today…….let’s pretend we’re painters, if you were a painter what would you paint!?…….if I were to tell you what i’d paint, i’d just say that at the moment I don’t know, right now, i’m just looking at a blank canvas trying to figure that out myself………

If I had to describe what i’d want it to look like though, I don’t know, I’d probably want it to have a calm feeling of someplace that calls to me, i’d probably would use greens, maybe some blues, browns, you know colors that feel nice and calm…….

I’d want it to have a special kind of feeling, that’s slightly hard to imagine, but is also very easy to feel, something that when you think about it, it brings the biggest smile to your face and makes you happy to be there……

You know like you’re right where you should be……I want it to be a place that isn’t too hot, but where it isn’t that cold either, a place that has just the right amount of both cold and hot……..i’d love for it to rain, not too much of course, but just enough you know, wouldn’t want it to be too big of a place, but I wouldn’t want it to be too small either.

I’d like it to be a place that makes you go, this feels right and it feels good……..i’d love for there to be cafes, but i’d also love for there to be a lot of nature around, it would be nice if it had an old timey (if that’s a word) feel too it, enough where it just feels good to be around.

Have it where it has a rustic, but slightly modern look to it, not too modern though, more like an old town where you can feel the story behind it, as well as feel yourself connecting to it……….some type of village of some sort, you know!?

I don’t know, I guess if I had to paint something, i’d want it to have those kind of descriptions to it, you know a place that feels right, the moment you’re in it…….that’s a portrait i’d hang up on my wall and look at a lot.

How about you guys, what would you paint, if you were a painter!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~