Month: September 2018

Monday’s Journal Entry: Just A Walk In The Park (Sept 24,2018)

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Hey everyone, I hope you’re all enjoying your day, I just wanted to share my latest journal entry that i’ve written in my thought journal yesterday, it’s all about my day yesterday, I hope you don’t mind me sharing it.

Just A Walk In The Park (Monday Sept 24, 2018)

 

Today I decided to take a little walk in the park, my morning didn’t quite go the best, but I won’t talk about that, let’s just skip to what my walk in the park was like. So I got to the park and sat on one of the benches that was there, I was expecting to write in my thought journal while I was there, but I didn’t really know what to write about so after being there and sitting on the bench for a bit, I decide to get up and wander around, I went and walked to where that river trail is, the one i’m always telling you guys about, I didn’t go down the trail though, I still have to do that, but I did look at the river for a bit, after doing that I then walked along the park trail, I think there were some kids playing by the little playground before I got there because as I was walking down the park trail, I stopped at some really neat chalk art drawings, I even took a photo of them, I thought it was really cute.

 

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They even had a hopscotch game, now I haven’t played hopscotch in forever and so I thought i’d relive a little bit of my childhood and play it again, it was quite nice to go back relive that moment of my childhood. They also drew some chalk bubbles which was nice, there was a dog face as well, a few flowers and some other little drawings too, I took some pictures of them, only of certain ones though. I would’ve taken a picture of all of them individually, but I forgot to put the battery back into my camera, I had it charging the other night and forgot to put it back once it was fully charged, and so I had to use my phone aaaand well, I don’t have a lot of space on my phone so I was only able to take a few pictures, I had to delete some photos off my phone before I took anymore pictures, that’s how much space I have on my phone haha.

 

 

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I also ran into a baby squirrel, it was the cutest little thing I tell you, never saw a baby squirrel before at least not that I remember, but I saw the baby squirrel on the pathway that I was walking and at first I thought it was hurt, because it wasn’t really moving it was just standing in one spot, but the closer I got to it, I saw that it was fine. I’m not sure why it was in the middle of the pathway, but I stopped in front of it and looked at it, it started moving a little slowly, anytime I tried to get closer to it, it would get a little startled so I left it alone, I ended up seeing it twice, once when I walked past it and when I was coming back into the park. The second time it jumped at me, well not like at me, at me if that makes sense, but a little which startled me a bit and I think me getting startled, may have startled it a bit as well, but the squirrel was okay which was my concern.

It was so cute though, I didn’t take a photo of it which I wish that I had, as you know though I didn’t have my camera well I had my camera, but the battery wasn’t in it and I didn’t have enough space on my phone, plus I wasn’t even thinking about taking a photo I just wanted to make sure it was okay. After coming across the baby squirrel I then walked down towards this waterfall that was nearby and was just admiring it as I walked, I ended up going down the path to where it was, to give it a closer look. I also sat with it for a good while……you know being out in the park, walking with nature and just being with yourself as well is actually quite nice, i’ve found that i’m really enjoying just being with myself lately.

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I’ll be honest with you guys, I use to not like going places by myself, because I always thought it was a little weird to just be somewhere with just yourself and I would always think what if I have something I want to talk about, who am I gonna tell!? but I find that sometimes you don’t always need to be with someone, that it’s okay to just take yourself out to enjoy the day even if you’re just heading to the park or going for a walk, yeah sure it may feel completely weird and uncomfortable at first when you try it, but the more you do it, the less weird it’ll become, after that it’ll just become a natural thing. Ever since I first took that walk to the park and continued going after that, i’ve found myself really enjoying my own company, even though I always head to the park to think, but even if I have a lot of stuff on my mind, I still do my best to try and enjoy something. Being there yesterday and looking at the waterfall, taking everything in, while listening to music……..it was very nice and calming, plus I felt happier as well and it’s been a while since i’ve felt that.

So that was my journal entry, well most of it, I did add different stuff to it while writing, but yeah I just wanted to share my day with you guys, I hope you enjoyed it, anyway I hope that you all have a lovely day/night and or evening.

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All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

Tuesday’s Journal Entry: Sit and Enjoy The Day With Me (Sept 18, 2018)

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Hiya everyone, I hope that the day is treating you all well, I wanted to share a bit of my day from yesterday with you guys, like how I spent 3 HOURS, yes you read that right 3 hours at the park, that’s the longest i’ve ever spent in the park and I was by myself, normally if I spend longer than an hour at the park or anywhere for that matter, i’m there with someone, but yeah no I literally was in the park for 3 hours and if you’re wondering why I spent that long at the park well in all honesty i’m not sure, it just started out with me going for a walk and normally go to the park for an hour, but when I arrived there I walked around a bit and then went and sat down on one of the benches.

I went to sit on the one that I normally sit on, but it was wet from it raining a bit in the morning or night and so I ended up sitting on the bench across from the one I always sit on and to be honest I think I like that bench a bit more than the other, i’m sure you’re probably thinking what i’m on about and that they’re just benches and i’d say yeah you’re right, but that’s just me……moving on, the weather was something yesterday, it looked like it was gonna rain again, but it didn’t, it was half sunny and half cloudy, but you knew that it was gonna rain at some point, you just didn’t know when. With the way it was the weather, I thought it was gonna rain while I was at the park writing, although I enjoy the rain, I wouldn’t have loved it if it rained while I was writing, however it didn’t rain while I was there so that was quite nice.

I sat on the bench for a good while, I brought my thought journal with me and started writing while also listening to music, I was listening to one of my favorite artist her name’s Alexz Johnson, sometimes you just need a muse or inspiration to write to and she was the first person I thought of listening to, it was a really nice day. This is gonna sound a bit random, but I took a few breaks from writing to take in everything and admire the scenery around me while I was at the park and I would say one of my favorite moments would have to be watching dragonflies fly about, I don’t know, it was just great to watch because they just fly around without a care in the world.

Being there for 3 hours, was actually quite nice, I didn’t expect to be there for as long as I was, I mean I did bring my journal to do a little bit of writing, but I didn’t realize I was writing so much in my thought journal. When I realized it was 12pm, I stopped writing, even though I wasn’t quite finished with what I was writing, I figured though I was there since about 10am so I felt it was time to get back home, another reason was because it was going to rain and I didn’t want to be there when it started, however it didn’t work, because after I left the park I went to Dunkin Donuts to grab a coffee and a donut as well because I wanted it. There wasn’t really anyone in the Dunkin Donuts when I went not until I was leaving anyway.

When I left and started heading back home that’s when it started to rain so even though I left the park early, I still ended up getting caught in the rain which I didn’t really mind anyway because I love the rain, however it was starting to come down pretty hard, not too hard, but enough to get soaked in, so my plan to get home before the rain came down, yeaaah it didn’t really go through……but I enjoyed it. It was getting a little windy though, but it was still pretty okay even though I was soaked. For some reason I get happy when it rains, i’m not quite sure why, but there’s just something about the rain that makes me very happy inside, after having a pretty alright day yesterday, I came back home and just did my best to stay warm considering it was very cold and all.

That was pretty much my day yesterday, I only wanted to share this with you all because I actually enjoyed myself and it was quite nice to just be in the park for that long with just me, I don’t normally do that so it was different, but yeah that was my day yesterday, it wasn’t anything big, I just really enjoyed the day, anyway I hope that you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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My Inspiration Has Run Dry, That’s What’s Going On……Care To Share A Little!?

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Hey everyone, I hope you’re all doing well and I hope the weekend is being good to you……….if you’re wondering, yes I just quoted a song, you may know it as Torn by Natalie Imbruglia (i’m not quite sure how to pronounce her last name actually ha) it’s a good song though and I enjoy the way she sings the song, however my favorite version is One Direction’s version, I like the way Harry sings that part of the song (the title of this blog) it’s so good if you want to hear it i’ll leave it here : One Direction – Torn (Natalie Imbruglia cover in the Live Lounge) If you’ve already heard both versions, tell me which one you prefer!? I personally like both versions I think they’re both great, although I would lean towards One Directions take on it a little bit more.

Anyway that’s not what I wanted to talk about, even though I did open up with that, what I did want to talk about though is inspiration and not quite having it most of the time……..as you may all know I always only write one blog post when I write, I don’t always post what I write though, sometimes i’ll just write, but won’t always post it, which I know isn’t any good, because you’re mean’t to always write and post at least something new even if it’s not everyday when blogging……..When it comes to writing all the time though, I don’t always have the inspiration to write and I like to write on topics that inspire me and whatever comes to mind for me, which i’m sure that a lot of you can relate to, but i’m also sure you know what it’s like to want to write, but not quite have the inspiration to do so.

It can be very frustrating when you go to write a new blog post, but once you’re staring at that blank unwritten page, you then feel stuck and find that like the title of this blog post you’ve completely run yourself dry of inspiration, which can then put you in a not so great mood and sometimes it’ll have your mind going into all sorts of states mainly the “So what do I do now!?” kind of mind and that is the state that i’m in at the moment along with, is it wrong to ask for a little inspiration if you feel that you might need some a little!? Some may say it is and some may say it’s not, me…..i’m not sure……due to the fact that I find it weird to ask and i’m not sure if I should feel that way or not!?…….

What are your thoughts on asking for a little inspiration when you just don’t have any, do you think that we should ask sometimes or should we just suck it up and come back when we do have something!?

As much as i’d like to write more, this is actually all I have for now………I think I just passed my recent record on shortest blog post with this one ha, I know that is not my best writing sorry about that, maybe i’ll have something later who knows, but for now I hope that you all are having a lovely day and that you have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Random Topic Of The Day: Let’s Talk Video Games And Themes (Animal Crossing One Of My Favorites)

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Well hello everyone and welcome to MY BLOG!!! Hope you’re all well, if you’re wondering why I just opened up my blog post that way it’s because while I was writing the first sentence to this blog post, I thought about a Youtuber I enjoy watching his name is MatPat and on his channel he talks about games and films, but he theorizes it and the opening to his videos are “Well hello everyone, welcome to GAME THEORY or FILM THEORY…..you get it haha……if you’re interested in watching his stuff you can find it here Game Theory and here Film Theory I think you’ll enjoy it, at least I hope you do.

Anyway that’s not what I wanted to talk about, it was just something that came to mind so I thought i’d share that with you and it also is a different opening, I hope you enjoyed that, but yeah today’s topic is a random one, that actually just came into my mind literally a few minutes ago (well by the time you read this, those few minutes would have long passed so it just came to me randomly, yeah) i’m not really sure how long this post is gonna be, but yeah we’ll see.

Right now it’s around 2:30pm afternoon time of course and I just started writing…..what you don’t know is i’ve been trying to write for a goood while now, I was hoping that something would come to me to write about and nothing came at least not until now. I thought maybe if I watched a video of some sort there would be some kind of topic I could possibly share my thoughts on and yeahhh…….nothing spark my creativity nor gave me some kind of inspiration, that was until I started listening to some music. Now you’re probably thinking it’s normal music, you know favorite artist kind of music and if you thought that……boy were you wrong, but that’s okay, it happens, no needs to worry (no that’s not a typo I did that on purpose)

The kind of music i’m talking about is theme music, specifically game theme music, why am I talking about game themes, well i’m glad you asked (I know you didn’t ask, but just go with okay) I’m talking about game themes because a game theme inspired this blog post, so I thought i’d just share my thoughts on that with you guys, which I hope you don’t mind…….the game that i’m talking about here just to get to it is Animal Crossing, I don’t know if a lot of you have ever played or heard of the game, but it’s one of my favorite games to play. For those of you who don’t know what the game is about, well you pretty much just build your own town, well at least in the New leaf one, there’s so many different versions of the game, There’s the original Animal Crossing game, then you have Wild World, City Folk and so many others. I would say that it’s one of the best games to play, along with it being addictive when you first start playing it, but it’s fun though.

I haven’t played the game in ages at least not the ones where you build your own town, I just recently started playing Happy Home Designer again and I forgot how fun it was and how much I missed the games. I recently just found this youtuber who plays a lot of different kind of games and does reviews as well for games, but one of the main games that she plays is Animal Crossing and i’m really enjoying her channel, at the moment i’m watching her play ACPC (Animal Crossing Pocket Camp) I just forgot how good Animal Crossing is, just talking about it makes me want to play it again, but yeah i’m getting off track here what I wanted to talk about with the game is the music that plays within the game, it’s soooo goood, SO GOOD. I have certain favorites that I enjoy, if I had to choose one though I would say the cafe music, there’s just something about it that I love it’s great.

The main song that I wanted to talk about, is the one that gave me the idea of this blog post and that song is called 2pm and it’s from City Folk, I think that’s the third installment from the Animal Crossing Series (I checked I think it is yeah) City Folk is probably one of the best Animal Crossing games from the franchise, everyone that’s played the game, would probably rate it as one of their top favorites and I would say it’d be mine as well. Going back to the 2pm song from City Folk, the reason i’m bringing it up is because that theme when you listen to it, fits sooooo well when you have no idea what to do and that’s pretty much what was happening with me today.

I did a few things not a lot, but a bit and after I finished those things I wasn’t quite sure what to do, I cleaned certain parts of my room, getting rid of stuff I didn’t want nor needed, then I came over to my computer to write something and I couldn’t, I literally sat in front of my computer screen and stared at the blank unwritten post, I then went outside sat out there for a few minutes, then came back in hoping that would help and it didn’t, so I just started listening to the Animal Crossing soundtrack i’m not quite sure why but I did and it was an hour long, but yeah I listened to it and when 2pm came on (the song) it gave me an idea to write about Animal Crossing and the music in it, I didn’t think the blog post would be this long though, I guess I must really love the game to write about it.

I started writing this blog post trying to talk about how certain video game themes go with the mood you’re in as with how most songs tend to do as well, but then I realized half way in while writing this post, this just became me fangirling (excitedly freaking out) about the game which I didn’t expect to happen and said to myself I think I should’ve made this into a video instead of writing about it because I feel it would’ve been more of a video idea then a blog post idea, but I had already started writing so much on the topic soooo I just continued, I know that this isn’t really useful information, but it was something that came to mind and I wanted to share it, anyway that’s all I have for today, sorry if this isn’t your kind of read, I just got a little excited about this topic, it’s one of my favorite games……yeah…..anyway I hope you’re all having a lovely day and that you have a great night/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

P.S. I just learned we’re getting another Animal Crossing game next year aaaand, one of the characters from Animal Crossing is gonna be in the new Super Smash Bros game that’s gonna be so awesome!!!

The Sound Of Silence…..

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Hey everyone I hope you’re doing well this afternoon, today’s blog post topic is gonna be a little different, it’s not really based off anything in particular…….today’s post as you can tell from the title of it, is all about the sound of silence. Sounds fun and interesting right ha, probably not, but yeah i’m not quite sure what I want to talk about today, so I just thought i’d come up with something random, plus i’ve found myself listening to the natural sounds around me and oddly enjoying it I guess you can say.

It’s probably really weird, I guess the more you speak on it, it does sound quite weird. I just hope that it’s not super boring to you guys, umm but yeah…….have you ever just sat back and listened to the natural sounds around you!? it’s quite interesting because when you’re just still and everything around you isn’t making much noise you actually hear more, I know that probably sounds very confusing and will probably have you go “what” (you can’t tell, but I just laughed at myself because saying “what” is reminding of a wrestler, hey you might actually know this wrestler for those who use to watch it back then Stone Cold Steve Austin, yeah he use to say that and for some reason it’s really funny because it’s a little bit random but then again it’s not at the same time)

Anyway back to what I was originally talking about, the sound of silence, it’s quite interesting actually because you wouldn’t really think that silence has a sound to it considering it’s called silence for a reason am I right!? However it actually does, now would I be able to tell you exactly what that sound is!? No because how would you even describe silence and is it even possible to describe it!? Not quite, but if you had to describe it, how would you!? See to me silence has a very calm and mellow feel to it especially when it’s very cloudy out after it just rained, I say that because that’s exactly how it is right now where i’m at. Now maybe you’re thinking you’re just talking rubbish right now, how does silence even have a sound!?

Well like I said before, yeah it’s called silence so how is that possible and my answer to you would be…..it is, but it’s only when everything around you is quiet that you hear it, for example a minute ago it was silent outside my window, but now a car is leaving a driveway so it’s not anymore at least for the moment that is, now when that car leaves, it will become quiet again and when that happens, the silence will then return.

I’ll give you a few things that happened within the silence for it to become un silent (probably not a word, maybe it is, but either way i’m gonna use it)

  • A car left a driveway
  • My phone went off telling me I had a notification of some sort
  • Crickets were chirping outside of my window
  • A dog barked

Now those were just a few things that happened within the silence to make it where it wasn’t silent anymore, now it probably was very boring to read I know, but I just wanted to give you a few examples, another thing i’ll add is me talking while I write, I always do that though, because it helps me think better and my thoughts tend to come out the way I want them to (most of the time that is) Even when it’s silent though, you still are able to hear some kind of sound, it can be a small sound or a very large one to where it may startle you a bit, but we know that after those sounds have passed, the silence will return……….Have you noticed that whenever you sort through your thoughts and feelings, that your mind too because more calm and silent!?

As some of you may know, I have this thing where most of the time my mind likes to bring a lot of information to me, causing me to overthink things that in all reality don’t really need to be over thought (I hope I made sense there) lately though it’s been quite nice to me and hasn’t gotten out of hand, which i’m happy about because I found that overthinking things just makes everything else a mess, so to have it where I feel not super overwhelmed with a wave of constant overthinking, it feels nice, very nice actually. You tend to realize when you’re mind becomes still and calm that everything around you also becomes still and calm, okay maybe not everything, but i’d say a good amount does and so when you feel that calmness and you feel that……In all honestly I don’t even know what else to put here, uhhhh but when you feel the stillness (well I guess that would be it) when you feel the stillness of certain things around you, it sorta gives you a sense of peace and understanding, I don’t know if that makes sense but yeah.

The sound of silence, actually has a sound to it…….you just kinda have to really listen to hear it as well as feel it, because believe it or not you can feel it, I can’t explain it exactly but you do feel it, if I had to describe it, i’d say it’s confusing, weird, but also oddly nice let’s just say it’s one of things you can’t really describe you just have to be with it, in order to get it……..yeah……..so that’s my thought for today nothing too exciting nor super long, just simple and a good amount if I had to put it a certain way.

How would you describe the sound of silence if you had to describe it!? Have you ever experienced the same thing and if so how does/did it make you feel!? I hope you all are having a lovely day and I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

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All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

 

This Month in Books: ‘Everything That We Are and Ever Have Been’

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This was a very interesting read, I enjoyed this ^_^

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Dear Reader,

This month’s books newsletter has a lot to say about identities — mistaken, misunderstood, transformed, false, fictional or as anonymous as the op-ed.

In his interview with Cooper Lee Bombardier, Thomas Page McBee says that when he transitioned, he “just felt so limited, so suddenly afraid of becoming the kind of man I’d grown up in fear of.” Becoming someone you don’t want to be, he realizes, happens when you have not come to terms with who you already have been, or who you’ve failed to be:

I’m of the belief that we all have to face our own rejected parts — what Jung calls our shadows — in order to genuinely make a cultural shift.

When identities shift, cultures will follow; there is political power generated by self-actualization. As Alana Mohamed writes in her review of Michelle Tea’s essay collection Against Memoir, “It’s a forceful thing…

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Topic Of The Day: Why Is It That Our Voices Sound Weird To Us Then To Others!? (Inspired Blog Post)

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Hey there everyone hope you’re all having a lovely day, so today’s blog post is gonna be a little different, normally when I go to write a new blog post I normally don’t know what to write about, today however I do, while I was having my coffee I went and watched some youtube videos just to kinda start off my day a bit and one video caught my attention, it was very interesting and I learned a lot from it, if you are interested in watching the video you can watch it here: Why You Don’t Like The Sound Of Your Own Voice

The speaker touching upon this topic is named Rébecca Kleinberger in the video she talks about the way our voices are and why we don’t like the sound of our own when we hear it back recorded. Did you know that our voices change depending on who we’re speaking to!? Also the way our voices are can determine a whole lot of different things such as depression, certain diseases and just a whole lot of interesting stuff. She also talked about how Alexa the device can tell when you’re pregnant before you even know based off your voice!! that probably sounds weird and you’re probably like “yeah okay” but seriously watch the video she’ll explain it better than I can, when I heard that I was like “WAIT WHAT…….SERIOUSLY!? ” everything she discussed when explaining how our voices are, really had my mind going. Who would’ve thought that just based on our voices so much can be detected and figured out!? That is some mind-blowing stuff there.

The reason I wanted to talk about this was because she also talked about how our voices the way we hear them, is completely different to how everyone else hears them as we all know, but what really had me go “Huh, I didn’t know that” (well there was a lot of different things that made me say that haha) but the main thing that caught my attention was when she talked about how when our voices are being recorded and we hear it back, it sounds weird to us, which is very true. I remember the first time I recorded a video of myself singing and hearing my voice back, was the weirdest thing to me because when you sing whether it’s your profession or just for fun, hearing it out loud whether you have a good singing voice or not is different to when you hear it on video or just when listening to it through audio, it can also be the same when you’re just talking.

Whenever I would record a video for my channel with just me speaking, it still sounded weird to me and I always thought…..”Is that what I sound like, why is my voice so deep!?” (my voice being so deep was the main thing though) it always just sounded like a completely different person to me. I remember I would ask my friends how my voice sounds when i’m talking to them and they never could give me an answer, it would always just be one of those what do you mean kind of questions and i’d explain to them how deep my voice was to me when I would speak to them on the phone in person. To them though my voice sounded fine, so i’d always say that maybe it was just me.

I would always still wonder why it was, my voice sounded so weird when being recorded to when i’m just speaking and from listening and taking in what Rébecca (the speaker) was explaining, I found out why that is, the way she explain it was we have, 3 different kinds of voices, outward voice, inward voice and inner voice. I hope i’m not confusing you, i’m trying my best to explain what she was saying in my own words, so I hope i’m coming across okay.

She also talked about how, the way we hear our own voice, she described it as having a mask on and trying to see that mask (more like hear since we’re talking about voices) but not having much luck seeing it, due to the fact that when we try to see the front of the mask, we just end up seeing the inside of it. She then explained how our inner voice is pretty much the puppeteer behind our outward and inward voice and how our brains don’t really pay any mind to our voice, if that make sense, for example think of it like this: You’re talking to someone, be it friend or someone you just met and you’re having this conversation right, yet you feel like you’re just talking to yourself and when you ask that person if they’re listening to you they go “yeah I hear you” and then you go, “yeah i know, but are you listening though!?” that’s what our brain does it hears the voice we speak, but doesn’t actually listen to it, it’s quite funny to think about because you would think your brain would be listening to you, only to find out it’s not, I hope i’m explaining everything okay, i’m trying really hard to make sense here, but i’m not sure if I am haha.

What I was trying to get at was how amazing it is knowing that a lot can be picked up just based off the sound of our voices and how different it is to us when we hear it being recorded compared to just talking normally, as well as to how other people hear it. There was another thing that she said and what she said was because our voice is something we hear the most, we actually hear it less, which can be very confusing to a lot of people, but it has to do with the way we hear it within ourselves compared to when it’s being projected out in the air, I can’t really explain it well so i’ll let her explain that part. It’s amazing though, it really is!! You don’t really think about stuff like that because it’s just  something you do casually, so you don’t really pay that much attention to it, but when you really look at it from that side of town you find that there’s always so much more to something and that right there is incredible.

There was a whole lot that she spoke on, but the last thing I want to talk about that I learned was how when it comes to our inner voice, we all know that sometimes it’s impossible to turn it off at times, but for some it’s much more difficult to stop which is why people with schizophrenia deal with all the emotions that they do, because they aren’t able to make out the difference voices coming from inside and outside their heads and with that kind of information you kinda are given a glimpse to the way their minds work knowing they aren’t able to tell the difference between their inner and outward voices and with that it can also give you a different perspective on the mental illness they go through on a daily basis.

I really enjoyed that video, it was actually quite interesting to learn because again you wouldn’t normally think about why our voices sound different to us compared to when others are hearing it, along with how our voices can pretty much tell you a lot about yourself…….it’s weird and fascinating at the same time, but yeah I enjoyed that a lot, anyway that’s my blog post for today just something different, fun, interesting at least I hope it was ha.

Tell me what you’re thoughts are on this topic!? Did you find it interesting, Did you not, did you already know some of this, feel free to share your thoughts. I just wanted to touch up on this topic because it was very interesting to me and I wanted to share this with you guys and just talk about it, but yeah I hope you enjoyed it, anyway I hope you all are having a good day and I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

Why Is Simple Complicated!?

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We’ve all been there before, we come across a pathway or just something that should be simple and easy, yet we tend to make what should be easy to us 1000 times harder. Why is that!? why is it that we feel that simple just isn’t enough!? why do we feel the need to over complicate things!? These are the questions that we should ask ourselves a little more often. We as humans always feel as though keeping things simple and just simple in general is really hard to keep up with and the thing is……it’s actually not, we just think that it is, because we always feel the need to rationalize everything that we do, say or feel and that’s something we shouldn’t have to do, we get so caught up trying to figure everything out that we forget that we don’t really have to have everything figured out.

Sure there we’ll be things that we have to really sit down, take in and think about, but not everything has to be in that same format, it’s okay to just not over analyze everything, I mean think about it!? When was the last time you dealt with something to where you probably thought “Oh gosh this is gonna stress me out isn’t it!?” but once you came face to face with it, you then realized that it wasn’t as bad as you thought it was gonna be. Think of it this way: You have a workspace right!? you do what you do and let’s be honest here, we’ve all ended up turning our workspace into our personal, “let me just place this thing right here and i’ll get back to it later” place.

Come the next day we then add something new to that workspace and the process then continues, until we have to use that workspace again and then come to the realization that we can’t, because it is filled with a whole lot of unnecessary things. Here we are now stuck having to clear and put back everything that in all honestly could’ve been avoided if we just put them back in their original place the first time. You see where i’m going with this!? The whole workspace scenario could’ve been so simple, had we not continuously added stuff to our workspace, then we would’ve been able to use it when we needed to use it. We have the choice to make things simple for ourselves, but for some unknown reason we don’t, we just feel complicated it the best thing for us when in all reality it just leaves us stressed out, tired and just not wanting to deal with anything.

If we just learn to work on making things a whole lot more easier for ourselves and a whole lot more simple as well, we would find that we end up feeling a whole lot better and less stressed out all the time. I mean why would you want to be stressed all the time!? I know that stress is something that’s gonna happen at times, but if it’s happening all the time that’s when you should really stop and think about everything you’re doing.

When things start to get just a little too complicated, really ask yourself “is it really complicated or am I just making it really complicated!?” If you find yourself having to really think about it, then it might just be you over complicating it. It’s nothing you can’t fix though, you can always make things simple for yourself, all you gotta do is just really look at everything and decide is this really worth stressing over!? If you find that it’s not then just let it go and move on, however if it’s still bothering you a bit, you can always  write it down, come back to it later and when you do come back to it, look it over and see if it still has an effect on you, if it does try looking into why that is and see if you can break it down to where it becomes easier to work through.

Every complicated issue that we have, most of those issues aren’t as complicated as we make it seem, for some it might be, because everyones different, but that doesn’t mean you can’t work through them and make those issues or whatever it is that is making you stress, a little less stress and what’s complicated, simple. Try to make things less stressful for yourself by making everything you do a little more simpler, it might just work and change your life for the better. Everything can be really simple if we just let it.

Anyway that’s all I have for now, i’m gonna sign off a different way today if you don’t mind and say that I hope you all are enjoying your day and are having a good one, with that I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

Inspirational Quotes About Simplicity Robin S. Sharma Quote “Never Overlook The Power Of Simplicity.” (18 – QUOTES FAMOUS

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Clash Between Happiness/Unhappiness

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Happiness is a choice and a precious thing to have, if we don’t have happiness then we’re just living in a life to where we’re just trying to get through the day and just having a life to get through the day all the time, isn’t really much of an exciting life to have. We all get unhappy at times it’s just apart of being human, but letting ourselves be unhappy everyday and not trying to find some kind of happiness within the things that we enjoy isn’t good because then we just end up becoming stuck and you never want to be stuck.

The reason i’m talking upon the topic of happiness and unhappiness is because, i’m going through a stage of trying to find happiness within myself again because i’ve realized that I haven’t been all that happy lately and i’m not quite sure why that is, it could be a numerous of different things, i’ve constantly been deep in my emotions and trying to figure them out and by me doing that I find that i’m probably making myself more unhappy with trying to figure them out. I use to be able to make myself happy with the smallest of things and lately that hasn’t been happening, I keep focusing on the the things that i’m not happy about and you should never put your focus on what doesn’t make you happy, even if you’re going through some really difficult times, you should always look for the things that do bring you some kind of happiness even if it’s just for a moment.

We have to remember that we hold our happiness and all of the things that bring us happiness, it doesn’t matter whether we have bad days or hard times happening in our lives, we should always do our best to keep our heads up and focus on what brings us joy and makes us feel good regardless of what is happening. Although that may be easier said then done considering there will be things that do halt us from being happy, we have the choice to either have it continue to stop us from feeling happy or we can just move on and make our own kind of sunshine as that saying goes, the only person that can truly stop us from being happy and doing the best we can each day is ourselves.

They say that we are our longest commitment and that is true, which also means we have the power and choice to choose what we bring into our lives and what we bring in our lives, we have to then decide whether or not it’s good for us and whether it makes us happy or not and that can be a very tough decision because the things that once made us happy can change and believe it or not that can also go for the people in your life, if someone once made you happy, but you find that being around them just isn’t the same anymore then that definitely can be a tough decision to make because, although you know what your doing is gonna be good for you, the people that you choose to either not be around or step away from a bit, it may not make them happy because they will feel because they did so much for you and have always been there for you that they should automatically be apart of your life, which can lead to you being in a tight corner.

Being put in a tight corner can be very overwhelming because now you’ll have to really think about what to keep and what to kinda push away from you that you feel isn’t bringing joy and happiness into your life. Overthinking things though can put you in one of those moods to where you become unhappy especially when your overthinking about how you’re gonna go about everything and I guess for me that’s what has been going on and what’s been keeping me from being happy, because of the fact that i’m constantly  thinking about everything too intensively, when I know I don’t need to, but I find that overthinking is one of those habits of mine that I tend to do a lot and I wish I didn’t.

Just like happiness is a choice so is unhappiness, if you continue to let yourself be unhappy then you’re always gonna be unhappy, especially if your making yourself settle for things that you know you don’t need to settle for. You should never let yourself settle for things because your use to them or because you feel that you deserve it, we’re all human and us humans we make a lot of mistakes, some that we don’t acknowledge upfront which then causes us to put them to the side and by us putting it to the side we then store it to be reviewed for later or we try and forget them as if it never happened.

What we don’t realize though or what we always forget is that our minds are very powerful and with us humans we give a lot of energy to our thoughts, however we give power to the thoughts that don’t really bring us any good and so while we may try and forget the thoughts that we don’t want to remember, those thoughts don’t just go away, they stay with you for a long time if you just try and forget them and not confront them. Now even though we may not be able to forget certain things that happen to where they are now filed into our minds that doesn’t mean we can’t forgive the things that happened, although i’m aware that there are a lot of situations that are hard to forgive because it probably made such an impact on your life to where it ended up leaving you with a mental, emotional or just a scar in general, but I feel that forgiving a situation that happened even though you feel it shouldn’t be forgiven can really help you heal.

Forgiving yourself too is super important especially if you feel that you let yourself down in a way or you feel like you put yourself through so much to where it could’ve been avoided or just because you feel as though you need to, what i’m saying is with the way our minds work and the stuff that we think about, our thoughts are the root to happiness and unhappiness, so if our thoughts are filled with negativity and just everything that isn’t good for us then it’s gonna become our reality and you never want to have your reality be filled with negativity, so always keep in mind that whatever you think be it about yourself or if you are just think about whatever just do your best to make sure it’s in good light, another thing that can effect our happiness is the way we choose to live.

If you know the way you’re living isn’t quite making you happy try changing things up a bit, maybe rearrange your room, get rid of things you don’t really need, you know express your feelings, if you’re unable to express it out loud, try expressing it in a different way like writing for example, writing can help you get your emotions out when you’re unable to out loud or if writing isn’t your thing, maybe art is so try painting or drawing, just anything you feel helps you express yourself. When you change certain habits or things in your life, you can help yourself not only heal and feel better but you’ll also bring a little bit of happiness back into your life as well, even when days are tough.

Remember happiness comes from within ones self and the way one is living, so if one of those things are effecting you in anyway and is preventing you from finding happiness maybe try looking from within or around you and see if there’s anything there you might want to change or get rid of so that way you can be happy once again, but also keep in mind that when you’re running low on happiness try and find something to bring a little bit of that happiness back to you, even if it’s not for a long period of time.

When you do feel that happiness coming through be sure to hold on to it and keep it close by just in case you feel you need it again. Anyway that’s all I have for today I hope you’re all able to take something from todays post and for those who are also struggling to find their happiness at the moment, I hope that you’re able to find something that picks up your mood a bit and brings joy to you in some way, but anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Thought Of The Day #3: Emotions and Expressing Those Emotions

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Hey there everyone, I know that I haven’t written much lately and there isn’t really an excuse I can use, because well…….yeah there just isn’t any. I just want to let you know though that I have been writing, there are a lot of unfinished blog posts saved in my drafts and some blog posts that are finished, but I haven’t posted them because I just didn’t feel like they were any good, but if you want i’ll post them. Moving on though, i’m here to talk to you about how i’ve been feeling lately, but i’m not quite sure how to really put it into words so i’ll just try and explain it as best as I can……..just letting you know this may be a very long one so I hope you stick with me……

Right at this very moment i’m as calm as I can keep myself, but earlier I wasn’t as calm as I am right now, in all honesty I was such a mess this morning that I think i’ve literally tired myself out, now I could rest and relax, but I also can’t at the same time, because if I rest anymore, i’m not gonna do anything and we (by we I mean me) can’t keep putting off writing, we started this for a reason and it’s time I actually put this blog to good use and not sabotage it like i’ve been doing, not on purpose of course, I just haven’t been feeling the best, but every time I think about it, shouldn’t that be a reason to write!? That way you’re able to get everything your feeling out……maybe yeah, I always try and bring positive posts though because I want to be able to bring a little happiness into your lives just in case you’re running low on it………but how are you mean’t to bring happiness to others when you yourself aren’t really that happy!? (9/6/18)

I have to always remind myself that you can’t make everyone happy, the only person you should always make sure is happy is yourself and if your not happy then there’s no way to share your happiness with others. I’m just gonna tell you how my morning went if that’s okay with you guys…….so I went for a walk today because I had a whole lot on my mind, I constantly wake up now with something being on my mind, i’m not gonna really express what that thing is because it’s personal, but anyway, so I went for a walk hoping I would be able to clear my mind in some sort of way and gee if that didn’t feel like the longest walk of my life……..I walked to that park that I once told you guys about, I got there and the first place I went was to where that river is, well the entrance way of the trail with the river at the bottom of it, there was someone there fishing just in case you were wondering.

Anyway so I leaned up on the entrance way, looking towards the river, the ground and the trees and I tried so hard to hold in my emotions because I didn’t want to let them out, like literally while I was walking I was holding them in and I guess once I got to the park leaned up on the entrance way of the trail, I couldn’t hold it in anymore even though I tried so hard to………you see when it comes to me, what you don’t know is whenever i’m feeling a certain way, I normally tend to keep it to myself because I don’t like putting my emotions on everyone and if I do talk about how I feel I only talk to certain people about it, so mainly my close friends and my boyfriend, mainly my boyfriend though, you’re probably wonder why not go to your family about your feelings and to answer your question……….that’s hard because even though I shouldn’t feel this way, I just feel like I can’t talk to them about how i’m feeling and that may sound weird but it’s true.

I use to always try to express myself to them when I was younger, but I never could get my words out with them and I just wouldn’t feel comfortable enough to go to them about my feelings, plus I never felt like they would understand me and how my emotions work if that makes sense. So that’s why if I ever felt I needed to go to someone about my feelings I would always go to my close friends about it and then after a while I met my boyfriend of over a year and so I just started telling him about my feelings and I don’t know…….I just always felt I could talk to them and him easily, I mean let’s be real we all have someone where if we needed to speak about something important or just need someone to listen to us for a couple of hours about whatever, we know that they’ll be there and we don’t ever have to think “Okay should I bring this up if i’m feeling this way!? Are they gonna really listen to me though if I talk about it!? or What if i’m just putting too much on them with my thoughts and emotions!? those kinds of questions.

We always try and avoid putting our emotions on people because we feel that we’re just gonna ruin their mood and become a huge burden on them and so that’s why some of us or lot of us just end up keeping our problems and emotions to ourselves, so when we find someone to talk to and really listen to us and I mean really listen……it means a lot because you know in that moment, your feelings matter and that you don’t need to worry about being a burden on someone because they too get it and they know how it feels to want to express yourself, but feeling like you’ll just be a downer if you do, plus they know how much it means when someone’s able to lend a helping hand or in this case ear, especially when you really need it and having that kind of person is the best because they don’t ever make you feel bad about having feelings and wanting to express them in someway, they just let you express it however way you need to express it.

It’s also a bonus when you can talk to someone and they have a whole lot of patience for you, because we’ve all had those moments where sometimes our words don’t catch up with our brains in time or we have what we want to say in our minds, but we just aren’t able to get them out into words right away and even though you’re freaking out inside having a conversation with yourself thinking why you aren’t able to get your words out or about how long you’re taking to express yourself, they aren’t really bothered about it because they probably know how hard it is as well to get everything you’re feeling out right away, so they’ll alway reassure you that everything okay and for you to just take your time and having that kind of person to lean on for emotional support means the world.

Communicating with people nowadays especially about your feelings you don’t really get that too often and if you do everyone expects you to just come out with it as if it’s that easy and for someone like myself, it’s not that easy, I have a problem expressing myself out loud because I never know what to say or how to word everything, whenever I try and speak as everyone always says to me, my words just end up jumbling all over the place and it makes it seem like I don’t know what i’m talking about or i’m not making sense and that can get to me, especially with the way that I am, because not only do I have a problem talking out loud, it doesn’t help with the fact that my anxiety will kick in sometimes when i’m trying to communicate out loud. It also doesn’t help when people know how you are and the way you get when communicating, yet still when they’re talking to you, the way they express themselves is the complete opposite to how you express yourself and so the whole conversation just ends up being not a conversation.

There’s two types of people:

Those who hold in their emotions and try and deal with them calmly, but when expressed they like to take their time to be able to gather their thoughts before they express them.

Those who hold in their emotions, but when they are expressed it ends up just blowing up everywhere and it’s hard to have a proper conversation with them. 

Lastly we have those who just express their emotions right when their feeling them no matter how the conversation turns out, but at least they said what they had to to say, I know I said two, but as I was writing I thought of a 3rd person, so now it’s 3 types of people.

Moving on though, I just feel like I can only express myself with certain people because I feel they get me more and I can just express myself without feeling rushed or as if i’m being a burden to those i’m expressing my feelings to. I also feel you shouldn’t have to explain why it is you’re able to talk to certain people about your true feelings compared to if you were to try and express your feelings to family members, sometimes that’s just how it is and some people may think that you should be able to, but it’s not always that way for some people, some feel a lot more comfortable talking about their feelings to their friends or partner then with a family member, you shouldn’t feel bad or have others make you feel bad about who you express yourself to. If you feel better after expressing your feelings to those who not only make you feel comfortable, but also make it easy for you to approach them, then that’s all that should matter, at least your getting your feelings out and not keeping them to yourself.

Everyone has someone they naturally gravitate towards be it emotionally, mentally or just in general and there’s nothing wrong with that at all. So that’s my thoughts, I hope you don’t mind me sharing this with you guys, i’ve just been really feeling my emotions lately and I always try and sort it myself, but it’s not always easy so I think for now on whenever I have a tensely arising emotion happening, I think i’m gonna write about it because I feel writing helps me really deal with it and it makes me feel a little better as well, anyway I really hope that you guys are able to take something from this and that I helped a bit for those who also have these feelings. I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

(Originally Written Sept 6th)