So it’s the end of a month that month being May and tomorrow we’ll be closer to Summer and into a new month called June…..I wish I could tell you how exactly I feel knowing we’ve reached Summer territory or just about going into a new month all together, but I really don’t know,
It’s weird because toward the beginning of this year everything felt like it was going slow….mainly around March time, that was a very long month for some reason and then everything started happening and we had to go into lockdown and practice social distancing, still do to be fair……this year just really turned everything upside down and threw us in all sorts of directions.
Now I won’t go fully into it, because I don’t really like going into things that are very personal…..but yesterday was a very odd day, well actually the odd day started Friday into yesterday…..but it was just a very busy day, but not in the way you would think…..it was also pretty overwhelming at least for me, there was just so much happening some things out of enjoyment and some not expected, but expected at the same time if that makes sense!?
It’s hard to really explain without going into full details about it, it’s like have you ever looked around and seen so much going on, yet at the same time, you find that you don’t really know how to feel!? Not only that, but you then notice how what you’re feeling is completely different to everyone’s feelings……again it’s hard to explain…..point is……
Yesterday was a lot and it took way too much energy than expected out of me……it was sorta like, the energy was borrowed in a way and once I had used it all, I had to find some more energy to keep going I didn’t really get time to find a little peace and quiet and when I did it was when a lot of things weren’t really happening…..it was just a lot to take in within the moment and just a day as a whole………it wasn’t a favorable kind of day,
but it was okay I guess……I can’t really explain yesterday…..let’s just say it was filled with a lot of emotions and some unexpected things.
When you find some pressure on the rise or you’re feeling a little irritated, take a moment to just slow down a little, feelings of pressure and stress can cause irrational ways of thinking and with that you won’t really be able to focus much on anything……so take a moment to firstly breathe when you feel the height of the pressure and guide yourself to slow down a bit.
I know it’s probably not the easiest thing to do once you’re already in a state of pressure, but it’ll help to re focus your thoughts to become a little more clearer, all while helping you to get back to a clam state of being…..now it may take some time before you’re fully back to feeling at ease again and that’s okay, it’s not about how quickly you can do it, but just taking the moment to become aware so that you can not only process things,
but also just be fully present towards what you’re doing…..slowing down doesn’t always necessarily have to mean doing things slow, it can mean to just….take your time and maybe take things in a little more, look around a bit and while you’re at it, breathe a little deeper than you might’ve before.
Try and appreciate the small things that you maybe missed before, find enjoyment it all that you do big or small, but most importantly have patience and trust that it’s all going to work out and be alright!!
By keeping our defenses at bay we keep from allowing what could potentially cause some kind of harm from entering, meaning if we go and pull out our defenses too soon, we may accidentally expose ourselves to unwanted situations, just by unawarely stepping on an unnoticed land mine, lying around……we have to try and stand guard even when we may not agree on certain circumstances, if we don’t allow judgements to target our mind, than they can have no affect on our state of mind.
Meaning our defenses are safe from impulsive actions, it’s not about always giving a reaction or feeling the need to add an opinion to every little thing we seem to disagree upon, but by allowing the judgements to seep through like sap from an oak tree, we keep from enjoying the sweetness of the sap and instead put our focus on a more bitter taste, that is not really meant to be there, but is now, because we chose to keep our attention on what could’ve had less of an affect had we just thought it through a little.
Now this isn’t something we need to wrap ourselves in frustration with if we did happened to go on our first instinct and find that it may not have been the best reaction and only affected us in a negative way than what we may have initially intended, while in the process also plummeting our own energy in the not so best way…….when that happens, keep away the judgements towards yourself and instead try and regroup, by doing that we learn to settle the mind and bring it back from a stressful state instead of allowing it to fully go out of control, become aware of your thoughts within that moment, show patience towards yourself as you’re regrouping,
and just keep your focus centered and know that sometimes the battles we think of challenging, may not actually need to be challenged, standing ground doesn’t always mean going at the first attack and when you see judgement heading towards you, allow it, but try and keep the interaction at a minimum or don’t interact at all and keep your peace of mind at peace.
You don’t want to lose any energy that keeps you afloat, when you pass judgement or receive judgement, that energy then turns bitter causing drainage (again in the not best way) losing you to miss out on any enjoyment that you might’ve been looking forward to whether planned or not in the process, so when you feel your guard getting ready to jump on impulse or you feel a judgement coming along, remember to take a second look at it and choose that battle wisely before taking action (preserve the energy)
Before we get to this review I just wanted to quickly brief some things the reason I didn’t post this right after I finished my review is because I felt it was a little long with both updates I have going on right now,
I wrote the intro two days ago, but I didn’t hear the album until yesterday, the intro explains why, my mood has kinda been a weird one lately, but I did go and re listen to Symptoms and wrote all my thoughts about it after the second listen of it, I just wanted to shorten the length of this post and not have two things going on, hopefully it’s still not too long with this little update disclaimer, before we move on I just want to say that not a lots changed with my thoughts about it, only one thing, but it’s good so don’t worry…..not that you are i’m sure…..anyway let’s get to it shall we!?
May 12 2020 around 4pm in the afternoon
Okay so i’m about to re listen to Symptoms and re share my thoughts about it since my first listen of it, which was only a week ago actually, which is odd because it feels a lot longer than a week, I don’t know why!? Now i’ll be a little honest…….i’ve kinda sorta, have been putting it off, not because I don’t like it, but because I just haven’t been in the mode to sit and re hear it!!
The days I planned on re looking at it, I just wasn’t feeling it, so I would keep adding it towards a later date pushing it further and further back, but today we’re just going to do it, normally when listening to an album that i’ve gotten into or ones that I have on my listen to list that I feel I want to share and talk about, I like to record my reaction to it first and then give it at least a day to sink in before I write my thoughts on it as a post, it’s WAAAAY past a day as you already know……sorry about that…..but we are going to listen to it though and see if any of my thoughts went and changed within a week of the first listen of it, i’m excited to re hear it and get a refresher on it
Hopefully I still like the whole album, i’m sure I will, but opinions change so we’ll see!!
First song on the list…..which is the title of this album Symptoms:
Alright so here’s what I got on this song…..I felt it had a very nice chillness to it, I was feeling some emotions while listening a little, but that could’ve been some random ones trying to come up for all I know, but yeah,
There’s not too much to say on this one, the lyrics are good and so is the song….also remember when I said something changed a little from my first review of this album!? Yeah well this is what changed, when I first heard this song, I wasn’t sure how to feel about it, I knew I liked the song, but I didn’t know what to think of it at first, now i’m here to say that, it kinda feels like it could be a favorite…….probably need to hear it a third time,
before adding it to the definite list, that being said, i’ve also kinda set it out to be a favorite soooo……let’s just say……it is….but not definitely, definitely just yet, yeah!? okay glad we’ve discussed it!!
Next we have the runner up track of the album……Looking Glass
Have I set that up alright, did it make sense!? Hopefully it didn’t sound too cheesy, I know it might be a hit or miss there……i’ll take my chances….moving on though, okay so this song……..I love the grooviness of it and the lyrics are probably one of my favorites on this album, you just, you feel it……if I could describe it, i’d say it’s like a dance track, but it’s a very interesting song as well…..actually now that i’m thinking about it,
It sorta reminds me of another Ashley Tisdale song from her album Headstrong called Not Like That (which is one of my favorites off that album) because of the lyrics mainly, not comparing or anything, both songs are different of course, if you heard not like that and this song than you might hear it, but you might not as well, either way I really like this song,
my only thing with is…….I would’ve liked the beat to play by itself without some of the lyrics from the chorus finishing it off, only because I really like hearing the best, but that’s just a minor thing, when I heard it again, it really wasn’t that bad, so either way of it ending is fine, overall though the song is great, is it a favorite!? Kinda…..it’s the same as the first song, where it’s a favorite, but it’s not exactly on the favorite list, but also is…..
Let’s just say both Looking Glass and Symptoms are on the list…..they’re just written in pencil, but will soon be inked in the more I listen to them!!
In third place….no i’m kidding, the third track on this album is……Love Me and Let Me Go
Okay so this is probably one of what I would consider to be an interesting song to talk about, looking at the title you might think of it to be a specific thing, however when you hear it, you might find that it’s completely different to what you might’ve thought it to be……when I first heard this song, I felt it was a song written for herself as past tense or more like a letter to herself, but not at the same time, it’s hard to explain, but if you hear it, it might make sense, the second time hearing it though……
There was a song that actually came to mind when she was singing the lines “i’ve been chained up to my mind” and “tryna to leave it all behind” both from the first verse, however they have different lines to them, now at first I couldn’t quite put my finger on the song that it reminded me of, but after giving it a quick listen to it again…..I now know what it is…..it was a Matt Cardle song called When We Collide if you don’t know him he’s a great artist, he was actually on the X Factor (UK Version) great voice this one, but yeah this songs great, it’s actually one of my favorites,
but yes, Love Me and Let Me Go reminded me of that song, just with the way it was sung, he kinda does the same thing in the first verse of this song too and I just found it interesting that it reminded me of that, but back to the song we’re discussing off the Symptoms album it’s a great song, chorus is nice, the meaning with it is also pretty great, speaking of, I didn’t know what this song was actually about, I felt it was sung more towards herself, but when looking up the lyrics to get the lines to what I was talking about, I learned that,
I was correct in a way, it’s not a song towards herself per say, but to her Anxiety, which makes a whole lot of sense looking at it now and I gotta say I might just love it more, but even if I didn’t just find that out, I would’ve still said it was great and that I love it!!
On to one of my definite favorites on this album: Insomnia
Now I must note that when I realized this song was next when re listening to Symptoms, a smile came across my face, I LOVE THIS SONG!!!……LIKE LOVE IT!! it’s just soooo good this one, I mean if I had to describe it which I did when jotting down notes while listening to it……it’s quite subtle for one, definitely intimate, but not in the way where it’s too much, it’s the right kind okay!! There’s some temptation to it, but it’s not a bad temptation,
What I mean by that is, both the beat (music) and lyrics of the song just combined so well together, the beat does a great job at pulling you in and the lyrics just complement it sooo nicely, you know you’re getting a really nice meal with it, it’s great, I could try and explain it more, but i’m just going to tell you to listen to it, because it’s really great, after re hearing it,
I played it back about three times maybe before moving on the the next song that’s how much of a favorite of mine it is……..just…..beautiful!!
Moving on…..to track 5……Vibrations!!
Okay now just because the into of it is shorter than the others doesn’t mean that I didn’t like the song…….the same way I felt about it the first time, is the same way I feel about it now……it’s a pretty alright song, not a lot to say with it…..it’s one of those chill tracks, laying low and just enjoying the company of someone or maybe just your own company, which ever you prefer, but you can’t go wrong with a fun time and that’s what this song brings, I feel this might be a kind of soft spot kind of song, where it’s not a favorite per say, but I still can appreciate it for what it is and enjoy it at the same time!!
Track 6…….Under Pressure
Which happens to have some shorter thoughts to the one prior, which is just I love it!!…….seriously that’s all, it’s one of those relatable songs, that you feel once you hear the lyrics, the title really does say it all, but it’s a great song, but I really love about it though is, although the lyrics express on feeling under pressure, no pun intended……it also turns it around and makes it into a positive which is good……..so yeah, it’s good song!!
We’ve now reached track 7 or as I like to call it number SEVEEEEEEEN!! (if you watched my Jonas Brothers album review, you’ll get it!!) track 7…..True Romance
There’s a reason I say it like that, lately and don’t know why, but number 7 seems to be the number that just gets my emotions running because in my Jonas Brothers album review of Happiness Begins, number 7 was a favorite and had my emotions going a little and in this album review of Symptoms, number 7 happened to also get my emotions running and so i’m just accepting that it’s going to be like that with these kind of songs,
I’m not even going to express my thoughts on this one because it’s the same reaction I had when I first reviewed it, I still love it, the lyrics still get me and it’s still a favorite of mine and that’s a definite on that one!!!
Track 8……Voices In My Head
Now i’m sure most or if not some of you will remember that I gave my thoughts one this song around the time it was out for, if you haven’t you can find it here: Voices In My Head (Thoughts) because I heard this song, I wasn’t going in not knowing what to expect from it, like the other songs off the album when I first heard them, so re hearing it my reaction for it never changed, I actually love this song, it’s one of my favorite, I still listen to it from time to time and if I don’t……i’m most likely singing it to myself because it decided to get stuck in my head randomly on a certain day so yeah, but it’s great song, also very relatable and super catchy might I add!!
We’ve come to the last track of the album, track 9…..Feeling So Good!!
I actually don’t have that much to say about it…..when I first heard it I believe I had the same reaction, it a nice fun song, about feeling good and just enjoying yourself really……I did say that this could’ve been on the Happiness Begins album, because I could definitely see Joe, Nick and Kevin singing this song as well, maybe with Ashley, have them featured on it, you know…..just saying…….no, but seriously (hint, hint. wink. wink.)
Good song this one is, I feel like I heard some people in the background at the end of the song…..specifically Vanessa!? HSM cast cameo within the song!? others possibly, most likely…..who knows right!? Okay i’ll stop now, sometimes I just can’t help myself……
Everything I said in my first reaction of it, I also said that I wish this album had more songs, because 9 wasn’t enough….still slightly feel that way with it, because I want to hear more Ashley Tisdale songs, but now i’m okay with what we got with the Symptoms album, there wasn’t one song that I didn’t like, which is good because that’s what I wanted originally and i’m glad that didn’t change in this second review of it!!
I really did enjoy re listening to it, Symptoms is a really great album, I love it and i’m looking forward to hearing more of Ashley Tisdale when we do, she really is a favorite of mine to both watch and listen to!!
It’s the 5th of May today and I believe I just rhymed a moment ago……I know this month just started a few days ago, but anyone else feel it moving a little quickly and slowly at the same time!? Just me okay…..how are you guys doing, have you been holding up well with everything!? Are you feeling okay, how’s the week been treating you so far!? I know things are still ongoing, but I do hope you’re all doing alright at least!!
On to productivity…..we all have different ways of being and keeping productive, some of us are more productive in the morning, some around the afternoon and then you have those little percentages of people that are more productive around the evening, towards the dead of night to be exact
We all have a specific time of day that we may feel more energized, creative or just have times that we prefer overall, whether those times work within or productivity or not. Now even when we try to be more productive with our time, we don’t always know the best way to keep productive, I don’t know about you guys, but I find that my productivity switches at times,
Some days I find that I can be more productive in the morning time and sometimes I do better around the afternoon, it’s actually a preferred time for me and where I feel my productivity works better, on rare occasions i’ll have some random energy that finds it’s way to me somehow and will feel inspired for a moment to use my productivity during the evening,
but those are rare times, I tend to have my productivity come through between the morning and the afternoon, but mostly around the afternoon. Some may say the mornings are better to be productive, but it’s all on where you feel most inspired and creative!! I won’t say i’m always super productive and I don’t always use my time wisely the way I should i’ll admit
but trying to focus on being more productive with my time is something, i’ve been doing my best with, trying to keep in mind and take notes on (both mentally and actually) speaking of I did a video (I know lame way to add that in…..believe me I always find it a little awkward at times doing that)
no, but I did do a video talking about Productivity and trying to prioritize our time a little better, what is expressed in the video i’ll just keep there so you can hear it for yourselves in case you’re curious, you can check it out here: Productivity & Prioritizing I feel there’s some stuff that I should probably expand on now that i’ve written this post…..if it’s still in my head i’ll do it, but for now i’ll just write it down as a later idea, I might not choose to have it be recorded in a video kind of way, but more in a way that i’ve kinda been going back in forth with as an idea for a bit now…..
Where would you guys say you’re more productive in the day!?
While I wait a bit for a good time to record a video, i’m waiting for it to get a little more quiet, right now it’s on and off on the noisy scale so i’ve still yet to record, but in the meantime, I thought i’d write a post on what’s to be discussed soon, as you can probably already guess, we will be doing another album review, but this time we are going to be expressing some thoughts on Ashley Tisdale’s latest album titled Symptoms.
Now this album came out last year, in early May (May 3rd to be exact) which might add is literally around the corner so I thought why not talk about it on the day of it’s release!! As you can see there’s a theme going where i’m just now listening to songs after it’s been out for a while….
Now I actually was going to talk about this earlier, but when I planned it, I was curious to when the album actually came out and I learned that there was still a bit of time before a year came up with album and so I thought, yeah….let’s do this on the anniversary of it which is Sunday so…..
I’m not really sure what these songs on the album will sound like, I feel it’s going to be pretty deep and that there’s going to be a lot to it, I remember Ashley talking about the album around the time it was either going to be released or was already released and she talked about all that was put into it and just how much this album means to her and so i’m looking forward to really hearing what emotions she’s laid out with this album as well as just how the songs will unfold, there’s 9 tracks on it, i’ve looked a few times
To make sure, I was trying to see if I could record while listening to it, don’t think that’s going to happen because it’s about 25 mins the whole album and i’ve only got around 21 mins on my camera so, i’m most likely just going to do it how I did it last time when I talked about the Jonas Brothers latest album Happiness Begins, plus it might be better like that anyway!!
In case you case you don’t remember or you haven’t read it, I actually reviewed, well gave some thoughts on one of Ashley’s songs already which is on the album, called Voices In My Head (if you want to check that out)
So with that song, I might have the same thoughts to it that I did before, it might change in some way, not in the case of not liking it, because it’s actually one of my favorite songs, just add on’s pretty much, as for the other songs, I have yet to hear them so I don’t know what i’m going to feel until i’ve listened to them……i’m kinda curious though, because every time I listen to an Ashley Tisdale album, there’s always 1 song that I end up not liking for some reason, on Headstrong it was Goin’ Crazy and on Guilty Pleasure it was a song called Hair…..i’m not sure if that’s going to continue,
but i’m going to keep positive on this one and just see if it can break that chain and seeing as there’s only 9 songs on this album, i’m going to have to like majority of it, for me to get the album….that being said however,
I actually just learned that Symptoms is a digital only album…….I don’t know why, but taking that into consideration……I don’t think it matters on how many songs I like now, because i’ll just be favoriting the ones I do end up liking on my Spotify!! I’m still going to keep positive on it though, I kinda want Symptoms to break the not liking 1 song on an Ashley Tisdale album not that it changes anything, I probably would’ve still gotten it anyway,
but I don’t know I just want to see if I can like this whole album without 1 being a dislike so we’ll see when I check it out soon…..but that’s all for this post, I feel this is longer than my up next about the Jonas brothers, but I guess I just had more to say with this one. Stay tune, stay safe and I hope you all are well and that your days going alright!!