Jan 19, 2019

I’m just gonna start this entry by saying i’m pretty tried today, i’ve been having a bit of of a day, I haven’t really been able to think straight properly, I actually tried to write a poem on that, but I couldn’t really think of anything else, there’s only 4 lines in it, I might come back to it in time though who knows………I did write two other poems though, one i’m sharing with you guys and the other one, i’m gonna keep in my journal only.

I have no idea what to write about here and I don’t want to write about how my day’s been because you guys shouldn’t have to read that, I want to talk about something that’s better than that, not exactly sure what I want to write about, but I want it to be something you guys can enjoy in the moment even though i’m not sure how i’ll turn out, but we’ll see.

It took me a bit, I actually started drifting off as I was trying to figure out what to write about, I think I want to share a memory with you guys, this might not be a very long post, but hopefully you guys still enjoy it. This memory comes from a moment that I had a long time ago and it was when my friend Angel was still around, he had stayed over my house and this was in the morning, we were watching this cartoon by the name of Teen Titans Go.

Now this show isn’t my favorite show, it’s okay, it has some good episodes to it, but there was this specific episode, I think it’s called 40% 40% 20% anyway, we’re watching this show and there’s this song that played, also this episode, a lot of people enjoyed, myself included because it was the closes thing we got to it being like the original Teen Titans………but back to the story, so there’s a song called Night Begins To Shine in the episode and long story short, the minute my friend Angel heard it he immediately loved it and went to download it.

I didn’t think they’d actually have the song to where he’d be able to download it right away, but they had it and well he continuously played it non stop while he was at my house and mind you although it wasn’t a bad song I wasn’t at the time super into it, but I didn’t mind it either, however he played it so much because he knew that I was going to get annoyed with it and what happened, I got annoyed with it.

He kept saying to me how great of a song it was and tried singing along to it, he didn’t really know the words, but that wasn’t going to stop him from singing to it and because he played it so much, I ended up getting the song stuck in my head and you can probably guess the look I gave him because of that, I was so mad……….we all know how hard it is to get a song out of your head especially when it’s a really catchy one and he knew that too and thought it was hilarious.

It’s not a surprise though, he always played weird songs that ended up getting stuck in your head later or made you give him a weird look, he didn’t care though, he’d still play them half of the time we just laugh at him and shake our heads, he was a character, but we loved him anyway.

Now that i’m looking back at it though, I guess it was kinda funny, still annoying, but also pretty funny too, at least I can say I have very interesting friends as well as great ones, btw thinking about that memory made the song get stuck in my head a bit which is great, i’m not singing it now though so that’s good, but if it comes back, i’m gonna be annoyed, but also laugh about it.

If you guys have a memory you want to share that you always look back and laugh at, feel free to comment it down below, i’d love to hear about it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Just Sing A Little Song

You ever just find yourself singing a random tune out of nowhere and while you’re singing that tune, you start to realize that for some reason, it kinda brings up your mood no matter what the song is about……..i’m always making random songs up, lately I find when i’m thinking too much or i’m bored or something, i’m always coming up with all these weird songs, literally I just made up this random song that had to do with something that i’m contemplating about and also one on what I should write about.

It doesn’t matter what i’m doing really, sometimes i’ll just make random songs up and add on to it as i’m still singing them, unless I write them down though, I won’t remember them after i’ve sung them to myself, I don’t know if that’s just me or if there are other people who also make up random songs that really don’t have much meaning behind them, but are just being sung in the moment, whether it’s while you’re cleaning up, trying to decide on something or just because you feel like singing in the moment about anything really, it doesn’t have to be on a specific topic, it could be because you find singing to be something enjoyable and everything.

Just like dancing, dancing even if you can’t dance is good when you need to feel better, I actually read somewhere that singing and dancing for a bit, can improve your mood, that’s probably because it brings out the natural happy chemicals in your brain, which is also know as Dopamine, but we’ll just call them happy brain chemicals and make it simple. I’m not sure if I actually had a point with this, if there was one, I think it was just what the title says whenever you find yourself thinking too much or feeling a little low or you just feel like letting what’s on your mind out within a song, just sing that little song of yours and hopefully you feel better and a little calmer as well.

Think of it as being in a musical, for a lot of people it may get annoying, but for those who just need to sing a random tune to themselves about what’s in their heads or something, it won’t be so bad, you might just have a smile on your face from it, even if it’s a small one.

How do you guys like to get things out, do you sing a random tune to yourself or is there something else that works for you, let me know in the comments below. 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Music Song Review/Song Interpretation: Car Radio By Twenty Øne Pilots (Inspired By Accidental Blogger)

This post was originally written Nov 30th (Last Day Of November) 

Hi there, so today I want to touch upon something different, today I wanted to talk about a song and kinda breakdown the lyrics to what my interpretation of it is, this might seem familiar, I did one on one of my favorite bands (PVRIS) with their song Same Soul and I wanted to try it again, but with a different band this time. I got this idea from another blogger that I recently found by the name Accidental Blogger and in one of the posts that I read from him, he talks about this duo band that i’m sure most of you might know, but also may not know at the same time and that duo band go by the name of Twenty One Pilots.

They’re pretty well known and some might even say that they’re underrated, others might say they’re overrated, I don’t know everyone has different opinions, but whether you love the band, hate them or just aren’t the biggest fan of theirs, but don’t mind them, you do have to give them some credit, because they really know how to make music and their specific way of making music involves dealing with internal issues like mental illness such as depression and other serious things as well.

Now I wouldn’t call myself a Twenty Øne Pilots fanatic or anything, but I do like them, as well as enjoy their music, at least the ones that i’ve heard anyway. In the blog post that I read, he talked about how Twenty One Pilots are his escape when it comes to music, he listens to them when he’s having one of those days and also on regular days when he’s not, so to pretty much sum up the post, he just really loves the band in general. He said the reason he loves TØP is because and i’m gonna quote exactly what he said “Their music is realistic” now hearing their music you probably would agree with him, I mean I sure do…….listen to some of their lyrics to their songs and tell me if they aren’t deep and real with it too, just saying!?

Anyway moving on to the title of this blog post, let’s talk the song Car Radio and try our best to breakdown the lyrics to it. Now i’m only breaking down a certain part in the song because it had me really think about it when I read it properly, the lyrics are: 

“Oh dear, I don’t know if we know why we’re here
Oh my, too deep – please stop thinking
I liked it better when my car had sound
 “

There’s a whole lot more that go with these lyrics, but the reason I want to talk on this one is because when I read it, I was a little taken back, not because of the lyrics, but because when you really think about it after reading that line, you might find yourself thinking “wait why are we actually here!?” and then it might cause you to go into deep thought mode wondering why………but to put that thought aside and really sit with these lyrics, trying to break them down and understand them better, in this whole song if you’ve ever listened to it or if you’ve never heard it before, the whole premise of it from my interpretation is pretty much well…….how do I explain it in a way that would make sense!?……..

Okay think of it this way: You’re trying to sleep at night, you feel relaxed you start to unwind and drift into dreamland, uhh, but wait!! Your mind has other plans for you and those plans are to stay up and contemplate EVERY. SINGLE. THING. yeah……I know, what I just described is basically what the song is about to me, just one sleepless night only, you’re not sleeping, you’re in a car and you have no radio whatsoever, because someone stole it and now you’re stuck with your own thoughts.

Fun fact actually……well not really it’s kinda sad a bit, but the song actually came to life because the front singer of TØP, his name is Tyler and……well here’s a quote from him explaining it which says……..I was late to class and I forgot to lock my door and when I came back out everything had been gutted and stolen out my car.” So yeah, that’s how the song was born.

Let’s move on to the rest of the lyrics that follow the song Car Radio, this is where it gets super super deeep, because in the song he talks about how, because he has no radio in his car, he’s now left thinking……..and we all know what happens when we start thinking and I mean really thinking. It may start fine, you know you think random things like “hmmm I wonder who was the first person to eat a taco and what was their reaction the first time they had it!? Did they love it or did they hate it!?” Then out of nowhere your mind takes a sharp turn down a dark road and now you find yourself thinking of every thought and emotion you thought were long buried, to only realize you didn’t bury them deep enough……….and other random things too. This whole song, is  filled with all the thoughts you can think of, put together into one song which to me is incredible, when you really read into it.

Now there’s a specific part in this song that I want to talk about a bit, because of how deep it is, I was reading it back to myself to kinda get a better understanding so I could interpret it better and I have no words, i’ll try and find some in a second, but first let’s look at the the lyric that i’m talking about which goes: 

I’m forced to deal with what I feel
There is no distraction to mask what is real

I know this is just a short line of words, but those lyrics, that lyric alone, is deep and mind blowing. There’s no other way to interpret that, because just by reading that line………you become speechless like……….when I read it, all I could say was, that’s deep and that was it, you don’t need an explanation to what that means because it’s really clear, I could go into it, but it’ll just end up being a whole new topic and I want to try and keep this post from drifting off.

The writing style that TØP have with their songs including Car Radio like, most people wouldn’t even dare try and cross that line, because it’s just too real, not many people want to go that deep because to them, it’s a very scary place to go, only because it forces you to deal with those demons that we all have inside that we just aren’t ready to cope with……….but Twenty Øne Pilots however, yeah they aren’t afraid to go there, because that’s how they work, that’s the writing style they chose to go with and I feel like that’s why a lot of people can relate to them because their music is so relatable, also their personalities are one of a kind which is probably another reason a lot of people like them so much.

I’ve only observed them once when they won I believe two awards, I can’t remember which award show it was, all I know is that they won twice. I feel, it might’ve been for their song stressed out and also maybe breakout duo band or something, I don’t know, don’t quote me on it, but I remember watching them when it was announced that they won and they could not believe it whatsoever, I think they didn’t even have a speech prepared because they they didn’t think they’d win……..but to touch on their personalities from that award show, you can tell that they aren’t for the fame at all, they’re just all for the music and the way they are, their just chilled guys who are very, very humble and don’t really care that much on making it mainstream, because for them again it’s all about the music, which is great because I love it when you have bands or artists that you can really hear and see how much they care about their work and the music that they’re making, that’s the kind of people I like.

Also I was remembering a part in the award show when they won the second time I think and Tyler made Josh say something, I believe he said something along the lines of “I’m trying to get him to talk more, because he doesn’t talk much” i’m not sure if those were his exact words or if it was close to what he said, but I thought that was funny, also I think Tyler was talking more on Josh talking more when it comes to award shows or something but i’m not entirely sure, but yeah, I think i’m gonna have to look more into TØP, because i’ve really enjoyed talking and writing about them, I didn’t think i’d write this much.

If you want to check out the blog post I was talking about, you can find it here: https://writingmyheartout25.wordpress.com/2018/08/26/music-my-escape/ and while you’re looking at that post check out Accidental Blogger’s other posts and show them some love and support as well while you at it, i’m sure they’d really appreciate it, also feel free to share your interpretations on Car Radio if you’ve heard it in the comments below, thank you and I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~ 

Source for the lyrics: https://genius.com

Decided On A Title For This, I’m Calling It: Movie Talk……Yeah That Should Be Good!!

I’m not quite sure what it is that I want to title this post yet, but by the time you guys read this, i’m sure I would’ve come up with something. Alright so i’ll be honest, i’m a little lost on what to write today, I had something earlier and at first I thought it was starting out alright, but after a while of writing it…….I don’t know I wasn’t feeling it as much. What I was originally going to write first, was all about bad movies………well not to the extreme, I was gonna write how there’s two different kind of bad movies, you have the bad movies that you know are bad, but you still kinda enjoy in a way and then you have BAD movies to where, they just leave you completely disappointed after watching it.

With what I just said though, I was trying to explain how with me……….i’m not a super movie fanatic the way other people might be, so movies rarely leave me disappointed. It’s different with me, if I like a movie it will stick in my mind for a very good while and if I don’t, I just don’t watch it again, simple. The reasoning for why I wanted to talk about bad movies is because yesterday, I came across a video and it was a review on the Powerpuff girls movie, I don’t know if any of you know about the Powerpuff girls, but it was one of my favorite shows growing up as a kid and they made a movie about it.

Just to give you a quick synopsis on the whole thing, the movie is based around 3 girls named Blossom, Bubbles & Buttercup and they all have superpowers, now you might be asking “Why do they have superpowers or how did they get it!?” That I can tell you……….it all started in a laboratory, there’s this professor he goes by professor utonium (but he’s just referred to as professor in the show and movie) he goes and tries to create perfect little girls to pretty much have as his own, but before he created them, he had this monkey I guess as a pet or something.

Long story short, while the professor was creating the girls, you know adding sugar, spice and everything nice……..the monkey wasn’t happy because I guess it was feeling neglected and jealous, I can’t really remember everything about the movie because it’s been so long, but to sum up everything, the girls were mean’t to just be normal, but also not at the same time and well the reason for them having superpowers was because the monkey went crazy in the lab and started destroying everything and he made the professor accidentally drop this Chemical X into the mixture of where the girls were being created and that’s pretty much how the Powerpuff girls were born.

The whole point of me explaining that was because that’s how I came across the youtube channel, he was reviewing that movie, by the way the channel is called Channel Awesome, however the one reviewing the movie I just mentioned goes by the name of Nostalgia Critic and the way he does things is he just does what his name says, he reviews a movie (all the throwbacks mainly) and sometimes tv shows as well and criticizes them, saying whether he liked it or hated it. The good news is he actually didn’t mind that movie. The bad news is, the movies he did mind were movies I actually enjoyed as a kid and still enjoy on occasions, those movies are: The Cheetah Girls (the first one) Inspector Gadget: The Movie & Camp Rock 1 & 2.

Yeah he really hated those and what I was trying to get at before was that when it comes to movies, I don’t really hate the bad ones even if a lot of people see them as bad. I just watch them and if I don’t like it, I just move on and watch something else. I don’t really sit down to talk about what I didn’t like in a movie, because I don’t really know how to criticize movies anyway. I may be able to do it with music, well at least when it comes to my favorite artists, considering i’m more of a music person than I am of movies. So if I were to say I don’t like something, it would be more with music and other things of course than with movies, only because I feel I would do well in that department then in the movie genre scene, if you get what I mean!?

So that’s all I was trying to say in my other post that I haven’t finished, although I don’t really have to now, because I pretty much summed it all up here, I actually think a lot better than I did earlier………so yeah, I guess I ended up telling you about it anyway…….huh never mind. P.S. I know I may have sounded weird explaining the show well movie, but I promise this was a real thing, the Powerpuff Girls was awesome!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Just Chatting Away

Hey everyone I hope you’re all doing alright, okay so just to give you a heads up, i’m very tired, but I will give you guys a post before going to sleep, don’t you worry. Right now it’s around 11:30pm so close to midnight as i’m writing this, I don’t know why I tend to wait this late to write at times, but it’s happening, this isn’t gonna be a very long post I don’t think…….i’m gonna do my best to make sure it’s not. Now i’m not really sure what to write about here for you guys, I could write about my day, but there wasn’t really all that much to it, I just pretty much did the things I always do.

My day was a bit weird earlier though, I don’t know why, but I became very anxious for some reason out of nowhere, I didn’t wake up feeling that way, it sorta just hit me randomly, I calmed myself down though, but it did appear a few times throughout my day, i’m okay now though, I was just having a weird day is all, but i’m fine now.

What else can I tell you!? Oh I might have something worth sharing, so I was watching this video earlier and it was on one of my favorite bands, you know the one, yes PVRIS. I was watching one of their live shows and Lynn Gunn was singing one of her songs off their album All We Know Of Heaven, All We Need Of Hell, the song that she performed is called What’s Wrong but she did a stripped down version of it, so instead of singing it the original way, she sang it with just the Piano and her voice. Long story short, she was towards the ending of the song and in the song she sings the line “No I never sold my soul”

Now when she sings that line, she repeats it a couple times in the song, so she sings the lines a couple times and after she sang it, she asked the audience to sing along, and get this………….okay so you know how we all have things that bother us, it can be the smallest of things, but we’ll make it a little bit bigger than what it is, because there’s just something about it that just drives you a little mad and this, this is just one of those things that drove me mad………..So she tells them to sing along to the song…………and guess what they did, yeah that’s right…….NOTHING, NOT ONE SINGLE LINE WAS SUNG WITH LYNN!!!………I know you’re probably like “okay why is that a big deal!?” You want to know why, i’ll tell you why, how can you go to a concert or festival and not sing along to the song!?

I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND THAT!? I mean okay I get it if you’re new to the band and don’t really know them all that well or any of their songs, BUT IF YOU’RE THERE AS A FAN OF THE BAND OR ARTIST YOU WENT TO SEE AND YOU DON’T SING ALONG TO THE SONGS THEIR PLAYING FOR YOU, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEIR ASKING YOU TO JOIN IN AND SING ALONG……….WHY ARE YOU THERE FOR!? Like you know what I mean!? I just don’t get it, like okay maybe I am over reacting a bit and who knows, maybe some of them we’re still learning the song, but still.

I enjoy going to concerts or being at events where the crowd is apart of the show. Like I can’t believe i’m bringing this up……….but I was at Disney on Ice, with my mom and little cousin, last week I believe and obviously there were kids there and one of the parts to the show was Frozen………now i’m not a HUGE fan of Frozen, it’s okay, but when the song Let It Go came on………….you should’ve heard the crowd it…..was…..beautiful hearing all the kids in the arena and maybe even parents I don’t know, it was wonderful just hearing them sing along to the song and the feeling it brought, that was the best and when that happens at concerts or events in general where the crowd gets involved………it’s just the greatest feeling ever!!

So watching Lynn sing one of her songs in a stripped down version and her wanting the crowd to join in at a certain part of the song AND THEY DIDN’T, yeah that bothers me, I was like “someone tell me why no one is singing with Lynn!?” I also said if that was me and I was at that concert and Lynn told me to singing along………i’d sing at the top of my lungs if I had to, just because Lynn wanted me to sing with her, seriously. I guess I can’t get super upset though, I mean let’s face it we all had moments where we’ve been to a concert or an event where, we really didn’t know the song or where you see or hear everyone else cheering for something and you feel left out because you don’t actually know what it is they’re cheering for……….it happens, but I still wish some people sang along to the song though, it just makes me happy inside when everyone just joins in.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Happy Halloween Everyone!!

Okaaaay so this shouldn’t be a long post at all, I just wanted to share a little story that might be interesting, but might not be interesting as well to you guys. If you’re wondering what i’m talking about, i’m gonna explain now, sooo I went to share my latest blog post on my instagram earlier (the Halloween themed/Christmas movie one) it was fine, but what happened was I posted another post before it (the one before it was the video that I recorded the other day well last Friday) I didn’t realize that the sound wasn’t turned on and that I turned it off unknowingly, I thought it was only for the moment, so when I posted it no one could hear what I saying in the video.

Long story short I went to re-post that one and re share it onto my twitter and my other post (the halloween one) I also shared to my twitter and thinking I was deleting the video tweet one, I went back to my instagram and re posted that one and I went to look at my other post and when I looked at that post everything that I had wrote on the  caption……wasn’t there and I was like, wait what happened so I went back to my twitter and realized that I deleted the wrong tweet and yeaaah I wasn’t happy, because me deleting that tweet, pretty much deleted the post as well, but I shook it off and tried to re-post it again and guess what………SAME THING HAPPENED!!!

I mean the post was there for a bit and then after a little while, it just disappeared as if it didn’t want to be there or something and I didn’t even delete it. The first time okay I did, but that was because I had to re post it because the caption wasn’t there, so after dealing with that I pretty much just replaced the photo and wrote a whole new caption for it because I didn’t want to write the same caption a 3rd time, talk about it really being Halloween right!? In all fairness i’m not really quite sure what happened exactly and why my post just disappeared like that, that’s never happened before so it was a bit odd but yeah, I just wanted to share that because, I don’t know I thought it was super weird that, that happened not once, but TWICE.

I know that probably isn’t the most important thing or it might not even be weird to you guys…….buuuut to me, yeah super weird and I said to myself, first time really getting into the spirit of Halloween and that happens……..yeah i’m not posting anything on Halloween anymore, not because that freaked me out or anything…..okay maybe just a little, but also i’m not really a huge fan of it anyway………..You don’t have to say it by the way, i’m probably just over reacting and shouldn’t think of it has a huge deal, but i’ll still add it to the list of weird things that happened.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Do You Prefer Halloween Or Christmas Movies!?

Sooooo we all know that Halloween is tomorrow well in an hour or so, i’m sure a lot of you are excited and maybe some of you don’t really care, i’d consider myself in the “eeeeh i’m not really feeling this holiday” circle, but I know a lot of people embrace the spirit of halloween and everything. I haven’t participated in halloween for i’d say about 3 years now, the last time I did was back in 2015 and I was spending it with a friend, after that I just wasn’t super interested in halloween anymore, maybe i’ll get into again sometime later but for now, it’s not really my thing.

Since we’re on the topic of Halloween though, I know there’s a lot of things people look forward to when it comes the creepy scary holiday, some for the costumes, others for the candy and then you have those who don’t really care all that much for the holiday entirely, but just enjoy it because of the theme movies that come with it, which had me thinking, although I know Christmas isn’t for 2 more months, well considering that November is almost here, technically, it isn’t for another month, but even though we still have a few months or a month to go, i’m curious to know……….do you guys prefer Halloween movies oooor do you like the Christmas themed ones instead!?

I know some like the creepy scary kind and others prefer the warm and cozy feeling that the Christmas ones bring. Now if you were to ask me which ones I prefer, i’m not sure if i’d be able to really say, I don’t really watch a lot Halloween movies, so maybe Christmas movies, although I don’t watch a lot of them either, i’m more on the I prefer Christmas songs the most, I just like music, but we’re talking movies so I won’t talk too much on music here.

If I had to pick, I would saaaay……..probably Christmas movies, only because I tend to come across them the most when Christmas comes around, however I do like a few Halloween themed movies, well just not the horror kind, you know the super scary ones. I’m talking Nightmare Before Christmas kind of movies………..you know what i’ll just list a few for you guys, if I had to pick Halloween themed movies i’d go for:

(These won’t be in any specific order or anything)

  1. The Nightmare Before Christmas
  2. Hocus Pocus
  3. Halloween Town
  4. Twitches (one and two)
  5. Corpse Bride
  6. Monster House

and I don’t know if this is considered a Halloween movie, but i’d also watch Coraline, even though the first time I watched it, I had a nightmare that same night……..okay it wasn’t a huge nightmare, I just dreamt of having buttons for eyes which is very creepy if you think about it……….like seriously imagine having buttons for eyes!? Yeah no thank you.

Back to the blog post though, I also found myself enjoying the 90’s scary kids show Are You Afraid Of The Dark!? which was surprising to me by the way, because I didn’t think I would. I also enjoyed the show Sleepy Hollow, not a 90’s kids show of course, I just loved the show, weeell at least season 1 & 2, there was 4, but season 3 I try to forget and 4 I didn’t watch, they ruined a good chemistry between two great actors that’s all i’m gonna say with that show, but yeah……….so those are just a few of my favorite Halloween movies and some tv shows as well.

I know I also talked about Christmas movies, i’ve watched a lot, but the one that I watch the most when it comes on is the Grinch That Stole Christmas. I could list more, but I wanted to keep things Halloween based, even though i’m not the biggest fan of Halloween, it only seems right to do it that way so yeah. When we get close to Christmas though i’ll make another list, but with just Christmas movies aaaand maybe some of my favorite Christmas songs who knows (I might)

Anyway that’s all from me, let me know whether you prefer Christmas movies or Halloween based movies and with all that I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa ~

 

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