Remembering Christina Grimmie (Blog Post)

To write or not to write that is the question isn’t it!? The answer, well….I’m not really sure, I want to write, it’s just trying to figure out what topic I’d like to discuss is where the issue is…..it’s not really an issue, I just don’t know what this post is going to be about, I’m hoping that as I’m writing this post, something will find a way to come up! In the meantime, if you don’t mind I’d like to share upon my latest Podcast episode with you, in the latest episode I discuss all about Christina Grimmie, who if you don’t know was a great and talented artist, however she passed on this very day, 5 years ago today…..

I’m not really sure why, but I felt like talking about her and so I recorded a whole episode yesterday, sharing my thoughts and just remembering her a bit, If you’d like to give it a listen you can check it out here: Remembering Christina Grimmie (Music, Personality ect…) You can also listen to it on Spotify!

I didn’t personally know Christina, but I used always watch her videos on Youtube, where she first showcased her talents and she was always a favorite channel of mine to watch, I always considered her voice to be very powerful, if you took a glimpse into her personality as she was talking and then you heard her sing right after, you wouldn’t believe how strong her voice to be, but she always had this something special with her, hard to explain, but you could always feel it and I guess that’s why a lot of people gravitated towards her and kept a know on her!

Now I wouldn’t call myself the biggest fan of Christina’s, but I really did like her a lot, I always loved hearing her sing and just getting to see her personality that she would share with everyone, after she started becoming more recognized for her talents, you knew that she was going to be something and she was, like I said I didn’t really follow her that much when she started becoming a bit more well known, but I would always check in here and there with her and her music and it’d always take me back to when she first started on Youtube or shall I say within her early years of Youtube, I don’t think I was around when she first, first started…..but I do remember the beginning parts to when she was just getting started if that makes sense!

Some of what I said here, is what I said in that episode, only there’s more within it…..if I’m being honest it’s been a very long time since I’ve really thought about Christina Grimmie, that being said, I never forgot about her, I still listen to a few of her songs and when I do I always think about how great she really was and how much I miss hearing her voice, she was a one of a kind, kind of person and I know that a lot of people that knew her and enjoyed her presence, be it music, personality and just her overall, will always miss her too and will never ever truly forget about her, she’ll always be remembered for the impact that she left in peoples lives, big or small!

Christina you will always be remembered and missed dearly, I know I already said it in my episode, but thank you for the time that you gave us while you were here, even when it may seem like we’ve forgotten there will always be something to help us remember you and everything that you left, you’re a soul that left too soon, but one that will always live on for many many lifetimes and wherever you are, I hope that you are happy and still sharing that wonderful and powerful voice of yours as well as your personality, rest well and know that those that still keep you in mind will always love you! Thank you for everything.

P.S.

Here’s one of my favorite cover songs by Christina, I love Jason Mraz’s version as well, I mean it is his song, but Grimmie’s version…. is definitely worth a listen: I Won’t Give Up (Christina Grimmie’s Version)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Bursting Energy…..

Happy Friday! Hope you’re all doing well this fine afternoon…..I got a bit of too much energy right now as I’m writing this and I’m not quite sure how to handle it, I feel good today, I feel a lot better than these past 2 days, the only thing is, I just don’t know what to do with myself with this amount of energy, I don’t want to use it all in one go, I would like to pace it better, but I’m finding myself slowly draining it by each super thought that fills me with excitement or just by thinking too much about things….not in a bad way, but just by like I said getting myself excited with ideas and looking forward to things, for example I’ve got 2 podcast episodes that I’m eager to do that will be coming in the next week or 2, they’re both childhood related and I’m excited to put my thoughts on them after so long, you’ll know about them in due time don’t worry!

Now as for the other thing that always tends to leave me excited when thinking about it, is something that I find myself going back to, that I want to try, that I have yet to try my hand at, I always think about it, but I’ve not yet decided on fully giving it a go even when I do feel it! Recently I’ve been researching on it more and every time I do, I get both happy and nervous about it, but I don’t know I just feel it to be something that keeps kind of calling to me to check it out, I just get nervous!

Although, I always on occasion and if not that, then here and there looking more and more into it and I feel like it’s a good time to see about it and see if I can find myself getting used to a lot, again I just get nervous thinking about it because I don’t know if I’ll be good at it, but then I think well I won’t know unless I give it a try and it’s not something that I need to be serious about in a sense of I can just be me and do it how I feel it to naturally come out, it’s just a nervous feeling one reason being because it’ll require me to show my face again and not just my voice which is something that I haven’t quite done in the past few months and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t decided on it just yet.

I know I’m still becoming more comfortable with my voice and so combining the two is a bit nerve-racking for me, I just get very uncomfortable in front of a camera, even though I’ve done it plenty before, but regardless to if it’s been so long or not it still takes me time to adjust when in front of a camera, part of me doesn’t mind it, but there’s also a part of me that would rather not, yet I also find myself thinking about doing it again…..I’m a weird one okay, I’ve accepted it!

I’m also very expressive though, when I’m passionate about something I either talk with my hands or I move my whole body and this even happens when I’m writing, I can’t help it lol! I’m considering it very thoroughly though it’s always in the back of my mind, I feel like if it was something that I felt strongly to do where it kept coming to me…..I’d pick a random day that felt good to do it and then tell you about it after I’ve done it and that’s how you know I went for it by being very curious and then saying you know what “let’s try it” Prepare yourself because that just might happen!

P.S.

I uploaded another episode to my Podcast yesterday so I’m just updating this post to share it, it’s a bit of a weird episode somewhat, but I feel there may be charm with it, possibly lol, if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Let’s Talk: Months & Animal Crossing (Friday Mood) You can also listen to it on Spotify as well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Wrestling For Just A Moment…

Hiya so you probably seen the title, now I know that it’s been quite some time since I’ve spoken upon the topic of wrestling, now I’m only writing this post because I went ahead and spoke about this topic as one of my Podcast episodes, yesterday WWE went and released some of their superstars that have been wrestling for some time now and I felt very surprised with some that they announced have left the company and I had a few thoughts about it so I went ahead and made an episode on it yesterday, however I did forget one person when talking about the wrestlers that had been released and that person was Alesister Black!

I don’t know why I forgot to mention that he’d been released along with the ones I did mention, but for some reason it slipped my mind and thinking about it now…..maybe I forgot to mention him because, he’s probably one of the wrestlers that does leave me surprise on his release of the the company, when I watched wrestling I always thought him to be a very good and well rounded talent that WWE had at the time and to now know that he’s no longer there is a bit weird and probably a big mistake on WWE’s part for choosing to let him go!

That being said however, I also feel that with some of the other announced releases in the likes of Braun Stroman, Lana (I stick by that) Ruby Riott and even the ones that I never really got into….there was so much potential with some of them and for WWE to just say “Sayonora” I don’t know, like I feel they could’ve been used better, most of them had just been sitting on the side lines and if they did get a push or have a match, it just wasn’t all that memorable and that’s where it’s both sad and frustrating when you’re a wrestling fan or even just someone that has watched it a bit and can see potential with some wrestlers and then see them not get used in the way that you would’ve liked them to…

It’s just a shame to see these wrestlers go because in one point in time, they had this great starting career and respected and loved them and if they didn’t love them they still shared their feelings on them and eventually learned to grow with some of them, it’s just crazy, but I know that wherever they venture off too now, I’m sure they’re going to do great things, I wish them all well and I hope they find what their looking for in their next adventure and hopefully they get given a better opportunity that makes they feel happy when doing what they love!

Part of me writing this was to mention Alesister Black because I forgot to mention him, but I wish him well and I know with him, he’s going to get a lot of offers, wouldn’t be surprised if he showed up in AEW, but I wish him well as well as everyone else!

P.S.

If you would like to listen to that Podcast episode of mine that I mentioned earlier, you can check it out here: Let’s Talk: Wrestling (Thoughts on the recent releases) You can also listen to it on Spotify, I talk a good amount on it there as well as here, both similar thought, but also different ones as well, hope you enjoy!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Pondering Of Emotions….

You ever feel a certain emotion, but you’re just too afraid to talk about that emotion!? Something in you wants to express truthfully to the feelings you feel, but you don’t instead you just ponder about whether or not to be expressive about it! That’s what I’m feeling right now, I know I’m having all these different emotions swimming around in my mind, but I can’t quite bring myself to talk about them and part of that reason is well I don’t like talking about how I actually feel, yet at the same time, I don’t ever know to express about, like I never know where to start, so I always find myself thinking on my emotions trying to gather some kind of words to start off….

For the past 2 days, I’ve been feeling very anxious, I could feel my anxiety jump a few levels too high to where I want them to be and whenever I get anxious I start overthinking and when I over think I go into a panic mode and then become very frustrated with how I’m feeling causing myself to later become emotional right after and I always do it and I always get mad myself for it, I know it’s something I shouldn’t be upset with myself for, but I still do!

I try not to think about it and by trying not think on it, I end up thinking on it more and then I become more frustrated on it, I got a lot of worries in me that I find hard to get rid of and I don’t know why exactly….but I know it doesn’t help to ignore the emotions or have them put away for another time, by not addressing the feelings that we find crowding us a little too much, we create more frustration within ourselves, we never really sit down and ask ourselves why we are feeling the way we are, when we feel them, we look away from them and try and distract ourselves with something else and when we feel them becoming more of a “too close step back a bit” feeling we start getting agitated by it.

We never feel like we’re allowed to feel the things we do, but the best way to handle those unpleasant emotions is to let them be, in a sense of when you feel them, let yourself feel them, don’t fight with them or push them to the side because then that creates more resistance when turning them away…..we have to tell ourselves that it’s okay to be uncomfortable with our not so great emotions, by accepting them, it makes it easier to let them go naturally without all the push backs and anger that we bring to ourselves because of them!

It’s okay to ask and question those emotions because it may help to get to the root of what is actually going on under the surface of it! If we can accept those good feeling moments where we are at our best, why can’t we do the same when we’re feeling at our worst!? There’s no good without the bad and no bad without the good, it’s all in the balance of it all, we need to feel like shit sometimes, we can’t always expect to feel like a bunch of happy dogs running around full of energy, sometimes we need to sit in a corner and just feel whatever it is we are feeling because that’s how we get over them, it’s how we start to feel better!

So if you were to ask me how I’ve been feeling…..I’m just a little Under Pressure at the moment, but I know eventually I’ll be alright! Hope all your days are going well!

P.S.

I only expressed on these emotions after watching a video last night, if you would like to watch that video, you can find it here: How To Control Your Anxiety (as an Empath)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Muskrat Dreaming….

I have to say this title is probably one of my favorites, I only say that because it’s both made me laugh and smile, although I’ve had a few titles that’s done that soooo maybe their also favorites!? Hope you’re all having a good one today and Good morning from where I’m at, maybe it’s morning where some of you are as well, whatever time of day I hope it’s going well! You’re probably wondering why exactly I’ve titled this Muskrat dreaming, well that’s because I had a dream about well….Technically I had a dream about a Pokemon whose evolve form is based around a Muskrat at least it’s one of his evolve forms, the Pokemon that I’m talking about is Raticate…..

Now I’m not necessarily sure why I had this weird dream where Raticate was in this dream of mine, I mean it could of been a whole different animal for all I know, however when I woke up from the dream, Pokemon was the first thing to pop into my head and Rattata was the first thing I searched…..then I learned that It wasn’t Rattata, but it’s 2nd evolve form Raticate and that’s why we’re having this conversation, also it was what looked like Raticate in real time so yeahh,

Now interestingly this Pokemon known to be apart of the mouse/rodent family has three different inspired animals to it, the first is well if you didn’t guess it a Muskrat, the 2nd is apparently a Guinea Pig and the third is what’s called a Coypu!? I’ve went ahead and looked both the Muskrat and Coypu up because I know what a Guinea Pig looks like and it wasn’t the animal that appeared in my dream so I went ahead and left it out of the research…..the Coypu was definitely not the animal to appear in the dream, I think I would remember it’s teeth….plus the animal had more of a golden/light brown type fur and the Coypu has a more dark brownish fur and that’s not what I saw in the dream

The closest and similar animal to Raticate was a Muskrat and each time I look it up, it becomes more of a winner only difference is it was the Pokemon Raticate in real time and not an actual Muskrat….but if we’re really looking at it, Raticate does get it’s inspiration, well one of it’s main inspiration from the Muskrat so it fits the bill pretty darn well, also looking at the pictures it’s so cute!!

Once I learned which animal was the most similar to Raticate that was in my dream, I went a looked up the meaning of When a Muskrat appears in a dream and was surprised, it was a good thing, well depending on what happened in the dream will determine what exactly it means, sometimes it may not always be a good thing, but in my dream Raticate didn’t get hurt and so I choose to see it as a good sign for something, I don’t remember much of the dream except that I guess at some point Raticate was behind something that came down maybe a tree, it was something large anyway and then came from behind it after it went down and then sat by a bush looking at me kinda….like I said it was a very weird dream, I don’t understand it much, but it was good to see a Pokemon within my dream, odd, but good!

Has anyone ever had video game type dreams before or at least had a little bit of inspiration of video games added within their dream, what were they like!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June Reminds Me Of The Color Yellow….

Good Morning Everyone! Hope you all are having a good Monday and enjoying the time off with Memorial Day if do have time off, we’re getting close to the afternoon hour and pretty close to closing this month as we move on into the month of June, it’s a bit crazy innit knowing that May’s pretty much over, it feels like some of these months have came by a bit slowly while some not so slowly, it’s like they arrive hang out for a pretty good while and then go off on their merry way!

For the month of May I feel like it just arrived, but is also now just leaving and that’s something I always tend to feel each time it comes around I don’t know why, but it’s always like that…..to give some thoughts on May well….I feel like it’s been a pretty alright month, it had it’s mixture of good and not good parts, but for the most part, I wouldn’t say it’s been that bad, now from the title you can see I went ahead and gave June a color, if I had to give May a color, I’d say she’d be….like a Green mixed with Violet and other warm colors!

I know it’s probably very weird to want to give months a color, but sometimes when thinking about whatever months arriving I can’t help, but feel a color with them and yeah that’s just what I think them to be…..actually if I had to pick a color for May…..it’d be the album cover of Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album, which was released in May….pretty much, now I thought and felt the color Pink when thinking about May….. I just didn’t want to say Pink, but if I’m being honest every time I look at that album….it feels like it, although I will still consider May to be a Green/Violet color mixed with other warm colors!

I gotta say real quick the album artwork for Still Alive, is probably by far one of my all time favorites it’s so simple, but it’s got this all around aura of innocence’s, but not that entirely, just by looking at it, you get a breath of fresh air it’s just got this something to it that is hard to explain, it’s my favorite album art and it’s just her with a nice pink background and other colors added, the simplicity of it is what I like pretty much!

Back to talking about the month of May…..it’s been alright, I mean May is my birth month, so I think I’ll always have a soft spot for it and I think I would consider it a favorite month of mine, not just because I was born in that month, but because I just kind of always liked it…..but we’ll be soon moving on from May and entering the month of June in a couple of hours and who knows what will come with June, it could be anything, maybe some of you already know what will be arriving, but it’s okay if you don’t, sometimes not knowing can be good, we all enjoy a little surprise!

Until we see June…..let’s continue to enjoy the rest of May’s company in the last hours of the month and wish her safe travels with the rest of her upcoming journey, thank you for hanging out with us May, we shall see you on your next visit!

P.S.

Seeing as I spoke about Alexz Johnson in this post, I just wanted to share that she read my thoughts about her latest album in my last blog post….and she liked it…my day is made!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Still Alive By Alexz Johnson

Goood Morning, hope you’re all having a good one so far! Today we’re going to finally get to the post that I’ve been meaning to get to, we’re going to be discussing one of my all time favorite artists Alexz Johnson and her latest album Still Alive! Now I’ve been doing a bit of thinking and by a bit of thinking I mean I literally just thought about this a minute ago as I’m writing this post…now the thought here is that I’m going to give my thoughts in a form of writing with each track we take a look at within the album in the best way that I can express them, because for some reason I feel like with this album, I can better explain it in writing then when verbally talking about it.

That being said, I still am going to give other thoughts on it in one of my podcast episodes, well I’m going to try to anyway, I want to express on this album in both a writing sense and as a podcast episode because I feel there’s just so much to this album that is hard to explain in just a few words, plus I thought writing my thoughts on the album would be better than listening to an hour long podcast so to save you all from that we’re going to focus on giving our best thoughts in a blog post instead lol!

First up on the album is a song called Saving The Train:

When I first heard this song I actually didn’t really know how to describe this one, the first verse talks about about learning to let go of certain baggage’s, you know releasing all the things that we find hard to get rid of, be it emotionally, mentally things like that, as for the chorus I still don’t quite know what exactly it means, I felt like it could’ve been related to saving of a relationship in a way, but I’m still trying to figure out what it means, for the most part one of the messages in this song is in order to heal from past situations and just in general, you have to let them go so you have a better and clearer mindset/headspace….It’s a good song!

Next Up…..Chicago:

One of my favorites on the album, this one speaks of going on a journey full of adventure, moving forward, it’s also got a bit of self discovery to it! It’s also got a relationship feel to it, but it’s more rocky this time around, despite all those thoughts, it’s a pretty great song, the bridge is my favorite part she’s got some great vocals there which is why I like it, it’s simple, but still good, the whole songs great really!

Moving on to the third track of the album which is called…..Running With The Devil :

This song is actually one that’s been revisited, as well as Chicago and apparently Saving The Train (which I didn’t actually know) and a couple more that we’ll get to, pretty much this whole album is filled with songs that have been revisited and done differently then it’s original counter part except for maybe 4 songs some are new ones, but Running With The Devil, this one at one point I wasn’t the biggest fan of when I heard the very first version, I didn’t hate it, there was nothing wrong with it, it was just one of those songs that I never listened to that much,

That was until this album came out, now it’s one that is probably one of my if not favorites than most liked, I listen to it more now than I did the original…..there’s a lot that you can take from this song, for me I felt this song to be about facing inner demons, you know like when you just got a lot going on, but you don’t really express on it, it’s also got a hope feeling to it, there’s so much to this song that is just hard to explain so just listen to it and maybe it’ll make better sense, but this is a good song and is worth checking out!

4th track off the album is…..Living In Colour:

Yes that’s how color is meant to be spelled, I’m not trying to be fancy, it’s literally how it’s written on the album and in the UK so it’s right okay! Now that that’s settled…..I flipping love this song, it’s different to what I’m used to from Alexz, but I love it, it’s got a retro vibe going with it, it’s got a groovy sound, it’s such a great song, it’s all about living in the moment of things and just enjoying yourself in whatever you do…..there’s more I’m going to say with it, but later, just know it’s a good one, you might have to listen to it a few times to get into it, but it’s so worth it!

Mambo #5….okay not really, but we are taking a look at track 5 which has got to be one of my all time favorite songs off this album and that song is….. Still Alive:

This is probably one of the best songs off this album it’s soooo good, super emotional of course, she wrote this in tribute to her sister that had passed away from Cancer, it’s just such a beautiful, beautiful song, everyone just needs to give it a listen and check it out for yourself….I’m telling you, you’ll love it!

Moving on to track number 6…..Lost and Found:

This is a good song, I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s good, I did say this has a feeling about speaking your truth, it’s the only way I knew how to best describe the song, it might have a completely different meaning to it then what I thought it to be, also this is another revisited song that she did, but give this one a listen see what you think!

Track 7….Shout:

This song is different to the one I know, which by that you can probably guess it’s revisited and you’d be right, I remember hearing this version for the first time and just not being used it, I’ve listened to the original so many times, I mean it’s one of my all time favorites and to hear this one, I didn’t know what to expect, which version do I like better!? Both I love the original and really like this version too, I do have to say that some things with it haven’t changed, while other things did! So you’re still getting some of the original listen with it, but you also get something new at the same time which is a nice balance, like they both maybe different in a sense of arrangements and swapped lyrics here and there, but they’re still both great in their own way so I’m with it and I hope you guys give both versions a listen, I love this song!

On to the next one that is track 8…..Swallowed:

Second to last revisited song, Swallowed is an interesting song, the best way I was able to describe this song is similar to what anxiety and paranoia might feel like and I’m only saying that because of the lyrics, when you listen to it, you might sense a worry of many things, so like when she’s singing the lyrics it can sound like she’s having a bit of an overthinking moment happening, however when the chorus kicks in, it fades away, like I said it’s very interesting that for me it’s hard to really put words to it, my interpretation might now actually be what it means, but then again it is my interpretation of it, it’s going to mean something different to everyone, but nonetheless, it’s a pretty nice song and deserves to be listened to!

3rd to to last song, which is track 9 we have a very good song in…..No Shame :

I LOVE THIS SONG! It’s got such an upbeat chill vibe to it to where you just can’t help, but get into the groove of it, I can’t explain this one, just listen it, the lyrics literally speak for themselves, just by hearing the song….you’ll understand why it’s called No Shame, like Alexz knows what she wants with this song, but the way she does it, is clever, it’s tempting this song and I’m HERE for it!

Yaaaay I love talking about this one, I present to you my other favorite song, track 10…..Golden:

This is the other emotional song besides Still Alive, this song is so beautiful and breathtaking, her vocals are just heaven here, literally she’s got sooo much soul in this song and the best part about is it’s for her Daughter, need I say anymore!? I love it, it just leaves you in tears and fills your heart up, this song is literally Golden point blank, seriously listen to it you’ll fall in love with it, I promise, I always get happy when this song comes on, whether I’m sad, happy, just not feeling the day, the minute this song comes on…..my emotions and feelings don’t matter, they don’t exist, all that exist is this song and Alexz Johnson’s vocals with it and that’s the truth!

Last, but certainly not least…..we have the last revisited song on the album and last song of the album…..Weight:

Can I say favorite!? Cause it definitely is, it’s got a really nice message to it, it talks about feeling like you have so much going on like literal Weight that you’re carrying, feeling like you can’t ever catch a breath, but it also talks about not having to carry it all alone that when you need someone to take a bit of the load off, that they’re will always be someone there to be that support, at least that’s my interpretation of it anyway, I sometimes feel it’s got a bit of a different meaning going on with it, but I still feel like that’s what it can mean too! This ones a really good one, like I said it’s one of my favorites and I enjoy singing along to it when it comes on or to myself at times, it’s just that good!

Final Thoughts!?

Listen to the album, take in her beautiful powerful soothing voice, enjoy the lyrics and just bask it in man, it’s definitely one of her best albums, along with A Stranger Time, that was a good album, but Still Alive there’s just something about it that I can’t explain, maybe it’s just Alexz, every time she drops a new album or a song, I love it instantly, I’m probably being bias here, because she’s one of my favorite artist, but she never makes a bad song, even with the songs I don’t really listen to often, I still don’t think of them as bad, sometimes you just have certain songs you prefer more over the others, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’re bad, they’re just not ones that are often listened to, this album though is just *chef kiss* beautiful, I think most of you will enjoy it, but that is all my thought for the album, definitely check it out!

P.S.

It’s still May so the anniversary of it still counts, so with that Happy 1 year anniversary Still Alive, I love you!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Truthfully Speaking….

Hiya….I don’t know how I should start this…..there’s a lot I want to say to you, but I find it hard to say it, I know we have days that we talk and days that we don’t, I’ve accepted that’s how it is at the moment with us right now….I know we both got our own journey that we’re on, in yours you’ve got it and are very confident, in mine, everything is kind of new still to me, but I’ve been doing my best to go more out of my comfort which is something we got to talk about by the way! I think of you always, you probably know that though by now, I can sense you probably think of me too, I hope at least lol…..I miss you always nothing new, there’s times that I want to call you, just to hear your voice and to also talk to you for a bit, but I don’t because I know how busy you are…..and if I’m being honest I sometimes think you won’t answer if I do anyway!

If I was able to write a song to you on what I’ve been feeling I would, I know that’s random, but it was the next thing that came to my head so I said it, but I’m also not saying I haven’t written lyrics for you…..I’m just saying…..also me writing that helped to get nerves out, don’t ask me why I’m nervous I just am…..I guess in a way this is the first time where I’m trying to be completely open with you to my feelings that I always have trouble expressing to you…..you’ll ask me if I’m okay and I’ll always say yeah, but there will be things that I won’t say as well and I know you’re the same way….. I know that’s why you don’t really say much these days, I always feel you want to, but I also know that you feel you work it out best alone and I never want to push you to saying things you aren’t ready to say…..I’ll always give you the time that you feel you need, even when all I want to do is talk to you, I’ll always have patience for you.

I love hearing from you, you have no idea how much that brightens my day! That aside…..How you been!? I hope you’re doing okay and I hope your family’s doing alright too as well your nan, I hope she’s been okay!? I hope everything’s been going well with what you’re doing and that you’re enjoying yourself with it all! I’ve been watching some of your videos and I always see how happy you are doing it which makes me smile, I love it when you smile and are happy though…..I know this week was hard, did you feel it!? If so I felt it too…..did you know there was a Lunar Eclipse yesterday, I know you don’t like hearing these facts, but you know I always like telling you them anyway,

It’s just me! I don’t know what else to say…..I feel I might’ve said everything I needed, but I also feel I still got more I want to say, maybe I’ll say it when we have a proper talk if you want to do that! I think that’s everything for now, before I finish up this post message for you, I just want you to always know and remember how much I love you, no matter what goes on and how much we talk and how much we don’t…..just know I love you and that I always will that’s never going to change…..hopefully you read this, because it’s kind of why I wrote it lol…..I’d used the sticking out of the tongue icon here, but I’m on my computer writing this…..hold on wait 😛 never mind that works, hopefully you laughed, yes I know I’m weird you don’t have to tell me….okay I’m done….for now!

P.S.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Dappy lately…..especially I.O.U that keeps coming on for some reason and it’s not me choosing to play it, it just comes on by itself, although I have been purposely listening to Beautiful Me and No Regrets mainly Beautiful Me though, I forgot how good both those songs were….Oh and Grease has been coming on a lot as well, can you guess what song!?

All The Love Always ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Just Called To Say I Love You….

I woke up with this song in my head earlier this morning for some odd reason, hence the reason for the title! When I randomly started singing this song I was thinking about how I don’t really sing Stevie Wonder songs out of nowhere to myself unless a Stevie Wonder song comes on, so I like to think that maybe someone is sending a telepathic message to me or something who knows…..to be honest I really don’t listen to this song all that often, I just tend to sing along to it whenever I hear its somewhere, so for it to just come to me randomly like that especially today….is very interesting!

Seeing that we’re talking about the song, I just want to let you know real quick that I only really know the chorus of the song, I think if you were to play it from the beginning and told me to guess what the song is, I wouldn’t know until maybe as it’s just heading into the chorus ha, but then again I might surprise myself I don’t know! I went ahead and looked up what the meaning of it meant and it pretty much said that you don’t need a special occasion to tell someone you love them, sometimes it’s the smallest gestures that will be just enough to where they they know you care about them, it’s a good song even if I don’t really listen to it!

That’s all I have to say for this post, I didn’t really expect to write too much about the topic, I just had the song in my head and felt like sharing on it, but before I wrap up this post, I’ve got a bit of updating to do on where we last left off in my latest post

Update Time:

I just wanted say that I know it’s been a while since my last post, which was two weeks ago yesterday….sorry about that, I’ve been taking a bit of time to give myself a break a bit, not just with writing, but with recording as well on my podcast, which is the first time since I’ve started it that I hadn’t recorded in a while, it was a bit weird if I’m being honest…..I’ve also been a bit under the weather recently, but I should be returning soon to everything! I didn’t forget about where I left off in the last post where I was suppose to share on Alexz Johnson’s latest album Still Alive,

I will be bringing that to you guys, I’ve actually recorded the episode about 3 times…..maybe 5 or so on my podcast and I’ve just not been happy with each one I’ve done, but I really do want to give my thoughts on the album because it really is such a great one and is definitely worth sharing!

So that will be if not the first one back, the next one after whatever the first episode back will be, I haven’t decided just yet….I’m not sure how I’m expecting it to come out, I think just when I feel it to be good enough for me in a sense to where I feel I’ve done my best with it and also to where it’s not an hour long haha, yeaahh so far that’s just how it’s been coming out, but I’m going to get it, I know it! I just hope you all enjoy it when it’s done, sorry for the delay of it I just want to make sure I’m giving the best content that I can give to you guys, be it writing or podcasting even though there are times where I feel I don’t really know what I’m doing on both sides, but I just try to keep doing my best with it and hope that it turns out okay!

Alrighty then, I shall leave you with two things,

1. if you would like to check out my latest podcast episode, you can have a listen to it here: Let’s Talk: Grease (Music Soundtrack) as you can obviously tell already, I went a bit out of my comfort zone and discussed upon a topic that I don’t normally talk about which is movie related, but also one that I tend to stay away from, not because I don’t like it, I just have my personal reasons for it…..which you’ll find out about in the episode!

Just to make it clear, I only talk about the main songs of the movie and maybe a bit about the movie itself, you’ll have to find out what I mean, I’m not giving it away haha! No it’s a really good episode, I think I’d consider it one of my favorites that I’ve recorded, which is big for me to say, because I was a bit surprised to how it came out, so do check it out, it’d really mean a lot and I’d appreciate you all forever ha! You can also find it on Spotify as well, hope you enjoy it!

Lastly, but certainly not least, I just want you guys to know….especially you if you’re reading this…..you know who you are, hopefully, you should at least lol…..

“I just called to say…I love you, I just called to say I care…I just called to say, I love you and I mean it from the bottom of my heart”

-Stevie Wonder

Photo by Miha Arh on Unsplash

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa