A Slight Reflection, But Not One Completely…..

Hiya, so how has everyone’s day been!? I hope good…..today’s been a bit on the rainy side over here, but it hasn’t been all that bad so that’s something right!? I actually didn’t realize I hadn’t written anything for about 3 days, I thought it was only 2, but I guess I skipped the 27th, I remember that because I had a really bad headache that day, as for the weekend…..

I didn’t have much to write about so I didn’t write anything, I hope all of your weekends were alright though, can’t believe tomorrow is the last day of December and of 2019…….*deep breath* and *exhale* I……I don’t even know what to say really, just wow……that is all I want to say on that!!

To be honest, there’s a lot that i’ve been reflecting on with 2019 and just thinking of as whole, but I really don’t want to express on it, at least not right now anyway, sometimes it’s best to just think silently on everything at least until you’re able to really gather everything together,

It’s like if you’re searching for wood or any kind of scraps you can find to add to a campfire, you look for the best kind of wood or ones that you’re sure will burn the longest, but also have the fire last the longest so you don’t have to go and search for some for a while, you know what I mean!?

Once you actually find the wood you’re looking for, you know you’ll soon be closer to being able to enjoy the campfire and all it’s warmth and all that jazz!! What’s funny though is, i’ve never actually made a campfire before so I have no idea why I even just made that comparison, but hey, I did so…..hopefully it worked and made sense, if not just go with it okay!!

All I can tell you is i’ll be searching for some bark for a good while, before I actually enjoy the campfire and it’ll be interesting considering i’ve never made one before so, who knows how it’ll go, hopefully it’ll all work out okay though and hopefully it’ll be in the way that i’m hoping for it……the only thing that is needed is patience, faith and trust that it will work out fine!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

My (Unofficial) Blogmas Experience…..

Update: I wrote this within another post of mine that I wrote yesterday, but I decided to make it into it’s own post, I added in some new things and removed some unwanted stuff out, should’ve done it yesterday, but I didn’t think, okay I did, but also didn’t, I hope you enjoy and happy holidays as well!!

So blogmas is now over, I think, was I only supposed to write up until Christmas!? That’s how it goes right!? not sure, either way I think I made it through blogmas, yesterday was the last day for it, not sure how I did or if I did it correctly, but hopefully I did decent, these blogging challenges are quite the mystery to me still, even when they are straight forward……

One thing i’ve gathered from trying this out is, well for one it’s not that easy, there was a fews times where I had nothing to bring to you guys that was interesting…..but I gotta say i’m happy and quite pleased knowing that I gave it a shot and made myself write something everyday.

Even if it was just one post a day and most of the time, I would express how I was blank out of ideas in a few of my posts, there were also somedays where I didn’t always have the energy to want to write, but that all being said it was an experience that was fun……..when I had something to write about, now it wasn’t too stressful, but there were times where I would start to get a little frustrated, not because of having to make a deadline or anything like that, it was more not always having inspiration.

As I once shared, I tend to write with random things in mind and go based off feeling or what I have in my head and if I have nothing that’s where the frustration starts to come in with blogmas, i’ve learned that you need to have some creativity and also a map of of ideas at times, that way when you do run into a dead end of an empty box of ideas, you have something to use as backup you know, you’re not always going to have topics come to you.

Sometimes you’ll need to have something in advance, at the same time however……I liked not always knowing what I was going to write and instead needing to improvise, now did always have the greatest improvisations!? Nooo, not really, but when I did, I enjoyed writing!!

It was nice being able to share something that maybe not many people talked about before, not sure if I was meant to stay within the holiday season of it, if I was, well then I don’t think I did it all that right, but who says you can’t share and write about non Christmas related topics, during blogmas, i’m sure you can write about anything really!?

Maybe i’ll just title this post my unofficial blogmas experience, if anyone ask, there was free trial, so I signed up just to see, not really grasping the whole concept of it…..i’m pretty sure you’re just meant to write up until Christmas right!? There weren’t any special memos I missed riiight!?

Overall, blogmas was alright, there were moments where I felt it was pretty good and other times where I probably could’ve been a bit more creative i’ll admit, but I kinda liked it, it was my first time trying it out, will I do this again!? I don’t know, maybe, I might have to keep a notepad by me just in case, while also maybe doing a bit of research on how to blogmas properly.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let's Talk: The Holidays

Merry Christmas everyone and for those who don’t celebrate Christmas, happy holidays!! I hope you all had a nice and chilled out day and or overall good day and I hope you were able to enjoy yourself, I didn’t really do too much for Christmas, I saw some of my cousins later in the evening for a bit,

Originally we were meant to just drop something off, but we ended up spending some time with them, which was nice, I don’t normally see them all that much so it was different, but pretty nice too, although it didn’t really feel like a holiday, it just felt like a regular old day, except everyone was saying Merry Christmas and you had to go “oh yeah, Merry Christmas”

It’s weird, but it was alright, had a tea party with my little cousin a few times, yes you read that right, a few times, she told me to put it away and then wanted me to take them out again so that was something, I was trying to get her to play something else, she had a lot nice toys, I asked her if she wanted to play with them and she said no, so we continued to play tea party, we almost made some bracelets until we had to go, but it was fun!!

She also got mad at me for something, not sure about what exactly, but that happened, after a while though it was fine, I tell you kids are weird and very confusing sometimes, but you gotta love them right!?

After that, not much else happened really, today just felt like a regular day, nothing too fancy, just yeah, a Wednesday that was also a holiday, it wasn’t all bad though, not at all bad……now all that’s left to do is get ready for the New Year…..how do I feel you might ask!? I couldn’t tell you, i’m just going to try and make the most of these few days where 2019 is still a thing…….

Okay well that’s everything I have I guess, I could write more, but i’m not sure where else I should go with this post, so i’m just going to leave it here and just do my best to not worry or freak out about everything i’m trying not to freak out about, don’t ask okay, my brains doing gymnastics and i’m trying very hard not to get anxious…….

With that, I hope you all enjoy the rest of your night and or day depending on where you are and I hope you’re all enjoying your holidays, also let me know how you spent your Christmas or holidays, i’d love to hear about it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Christmas Memories…..

How’s everyone’s holiday going!? I hope you’re all enjoying yourself and have had a good day, today just feels like a regular old Tuesday to me even though it is Christmas Eve, but I hope you guys have enjoyed the holidays so far, we still got Christmas Day to get through, so although Christmas Eve is almost heading off into hibernation soon, we still have tomorrow to enjoy and make the most of so in case some of you are sad it’s almost over…….

Just know it isn’t quite over yet!! So question since we’re on the topic of it, how did you guys spend today!? Also when it comes to Christmas Eve do you guys open presents the day of Christmas eve or do you do it traditionally and wait until midnight when it gets close to Christmas Day!?

When I was younger, I used to wait up until midnight to open presents, everyone else would open them right away, but I followed tradition, now well I probably would just open it, however I still try and stay with tradition and wait until at least Christmas Eve, but I won’t wait until midnight,

I will wait until it gets a little dark though so around night time, I haven’t done it traditionally in a very long time, it was always fun giving yourself the anticipation with having to wait until a certain time to open any gifts you got, at least for me it was anyway, everyone else couldn’t wait, but for a while I made it my duty to wait until midnight to allow myself to open gifts, my own family would get impatient telling me to open it, but I would not,

I took it very seriously, I don’t know why I would make myself wait until midnight when I was allowed to open it the moment I got it, what a weird kid right!? Let’s be honest here, no kid would wait that long to open a gift!!

The one thing about doing that though is whenever I bought someone a gift I would make them wait until midnight rolled around to open it, i’d tell them I got them a gift, but that they would have to wait to get it, which of course they did not like very much, but that was the rules and I made sure to let them know……good times those moments were, good times.

I still think I was weird kid though…..for actually waiting is what I mean, I was an overall weird kid, but more because I actually didn’t mind waiting to open gifts, I know I probably didn’t have to explain it, but I did it anyway…..

What are some of your fond holiday memories!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Just A Quick And Short Post….

Okay so this post is a little late, it’s around 11:30pm so pretty close to midnight…….if I knew what I was writing, I’d be the one to express it right now, but I do not know therefore, i’m not really sure how this post is going to go so there’s a good chance it’ll be pretty short.

At midnight it’ll be Christmas Eve, yeah I know how crazy is that!? This year has gone by pretty quick yet also pretty smooth in terms of giving certain months their time to hang around, preferably October and November so the towards the end pretty much!! Now i’m not sure about you guys, but Christmas and the whole month of December, isn’t really feeling all that high spirited, most people love this time of the year and it should be like that for everyone, but that’s not always the case, but people should still enjoy themselves even if a lot of people aren’t really loving it this year!!

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day for me, will just be seen as another day, but for those of you who love the feeling that December brings and love Christmas, I hope you have a fantastic, beautiful and most enjoyable holiday today (kinda) and tomorrow (Wed) I say that because by the time this is posted it’ll already be midnight, which will make it Christmas Eve.

I do hope that you all have a wonderful holiday and that the rest of the year and the start of not only a new year, but decade as well….goodness gracious, that’s truly insane, I don’t even want to think about it……but, anyway you all have a Merry Christmas and a lovely day, whatever you do, I hope you all enjoy yourself massively and get at least one thing off your wishlist that you’ve been wanting and you know just enjoy everything!!

I don’t think I have anything else to say, so you have a goodnight and a good time whatever you do, i’ll write you all in my next post!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let's Talk…..

I think i’m going to keep this post short and sweet, well i’m not sure whether it’ll actually be short, but I know it won’t be super long either, I don’t know what it is, but i’m not really all that sure on today and by that I mean, that really actually, I don’t know if that makes sense….

It’s just one of those i’m not really sure how to feel kind of days, i’ve been more in thought mode than speaking mode most of the day and to tell you what i’m thinking about, well lets just say, okay well you know when you’re looking straight out towards the ocean and the waves are going in and out onto the sand, yeah that’s how my head has been, just in and out,

You’d think that be a good thing and quite calming if you’re thinking about waves, well it’s not all bad, it’s just moments when you find yourself deeply thinking where you’re supposed to be careful and you tell yourself that, but you can’t seem to keep away from the whole ocean, so to prevent a full on emotional wave, you have to snap yourself out from going that deep and i’ve been having to do that a few times today……today has been a bit weird,

but I think if you just take a bit of time and be aware of ones feelings instead of trying to ignore it it’ll keep you from having to over feel it, you know what I mean!? All i’m going to say is, if you guys are having one of those days as well don’t be afraid to accept that you’re feeling weird or sad and just not really sure on how to feel, it’s okay to allow yourself to be aware of those feelings, ignoring them will only heighten them to become louder.

You don’t have to like it and you don’t have to want to share a space with it, but it’s important to be aware of them, if you feel emotions coming along, just them out, don’t keep them buried beneath, if you need some time, take it, don’t feel like you can’t, just be aware and accept what you’re feeling. In the moment it’s hard, but eventually it’ll pass and be okay, maybe not fully, but a least you’ll feel somewhat better knowing you’ve given yourself the time and allowance to just feel what you’re feeling.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Is It Just Me Or Is The Day A Little Weird!?……

Okay so right now it’s around 11pm close to 11:30, but still around 11….I don’t know if it’s just me, but today has been and felt a little weird. Although it’s late, it doesn’t feel late and I know that today’s the Winter Solstice and that the night is longer today then it is on regular days, the day was only around for, but a few hours……it’s just a really weird day!! Maybe it has to do with Winter Solstice happening today, by the way I let everyone know that it was the Winter Solstice well, most of everybody anyway!!

I almost and that’s a big almost, forgot to post, it still feels early to me, I noticed it got to 11 and I was like *Pause video* got to write a post, I knew I had to as well, but today is just sorta off balance, for example, I literally had some pretty good amount of energy in me a moment ago, but now that i’ve realized how late it actually is, i’m starting to unwind with the night, it’s really odd how a day can feel like one thing, but you know it’s not.

It’s amazing how the body and mind react it sees “oh so it’s not 8pm, it’s actually close to midnight okay….ahhh well, looks like you’re tired now” we may think our body and minds don’t pay attention, but it does, oh it sure does, it’s like a lite switch, well, okay maybe not, but i’m sure you guys know what i’m talking about or at least know what i’m trying to say….hopefully!!

I think that’s all I got, I didn’t really have much prepared as a post today, I knew I was going to write something, but did I have a plan!? No, of course not, I just improvised and went for what I was feeling, it’s a short post, but I hope you still found it interesting, anyway, you all enjoy your night and i’ll see you all with a new post tomorrow.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa