Month: October 2018

Do You Prefer Halloween Or Christmas Movies!?

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Sooooo we all know that Halloween is tomorrow well in an hour or so, i’m sure a lot of you are excited and maybe some of you don’t really care, i’d consider myself in the “eeeeh i’m not really feeling this holiday” circle, but I know a lot of people embrace the spirit of halloween and everything. I haven’t participated in halloween for i’d say about 3 years now, the last time I did was back in 2015 and I was spending it with a friend, after that I just wasn’t super interested in halloween anymore, maybe i’ll get into again sometime later but for now, it’s not really my thing.

Since we’re on the topic of Halloween though, I know there’s a lot of things people look forward to when it comes the creepy scary holiday, some for the costumes, others for the candy and then you have those who don’t really care all that much for the holiday entirely, but just enjoy it because of the theme movies that come with it, which had me thinking, although I know Christmas isn’t for 2 more months, well considering that November is almost here, technically, it isn’t for another month, but even though we still have a few months or a month to go, i’m curious to know……….do you guys prefer Halloween movies oooor do you like the Christmas themed ones instead!?

I know some like the creepy scary kind and others prefer the warm and cozy feeling that the Christmas ones bring. Now if you were to ask me which ones I prefer, i’m not sure if i’d be able to really say, I don’t really watch a lot Halloween movies, so maybe Christmas movies, although I don’t watch a lot of them either, i’m more on the I prefer Christmas songs the most, I just like music, but we’re talking movies so I won’t talk too much on music here.

If I had to pick, I would saaaay……..probably Christmas movies, only because I tend to come across them the most when Christmas comes around, however I do like a few Halloween themed movies, well just not the horror kind, you know the super scary ones. I’m talking Nightmare Before Christmas kind of movies………..you know what i’ll just list a few for you guys, if I had to pick Halloween themed movies i’d go for:

(These won’t be in any specific order or anything)

  1. The Nightmare Before Christmas
  2. Hocus Pocus
  3. Halloween Town
  4. Twitches (one and two)
  5. Corpse Bride
  6. Monster House

and I don’t know if this is considered a Halloween movie, but i’d also watch Coraline, even though the first time I watched it, I had a nightmare that same night……..okay it wasn’t a huge nightmare, I just dreamt of having buttons for eyes which is very creepy if you think about it……….like seriously imagine having buttons for eyes!? Yeah no thank you.

Back to the blog post though, I also found myself enjoying the 90’s scary kids show Are You Afraid Of The Dark!? which was surprising to me by the way, because I didn’t think I would. I also enjoyed the show Sleepy Hollow, not a 90’s kids show of course, I just loved the show, weeell at least season 1 & 2, there was 4, but season 3 I try to forget and 4 I didn’t watch, they ruined a good chemistry between two great actors that’s all i’m gonna say with that show, but yeah……….so those are just a few of my favorite Halloween movies and some tv shows as well.

I know I also talked about Christmas movies, i’ve watched a lot, but the one that I watch the most when it comes on is the Grinch That Stole Christmas. I could list more, but I wanted to keep things Halloween based, even though i’m not the biggest fan of Halloween, it only seems right to do it that way so yeah. When we get close to Christmas though i’ll make another list, but with just Christmas movies aaaand maybe some of my favorite Christmas songs who knows (I might)

Anyway that’s all from me, let me know whether you prefer Christmas movies or Halloween based movies and with all that I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa ~

 

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All Things Random

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Hey everyone, I hope you’re all doing well, this shouldn’t be a very long blog post, but we’ll see. I just wanted to tell you guys about a video that I just uploaded onto my Youtube channel, i’ve been thinking on this idea for some time and after giving it a good amount of thought, I decided to go for it and see what I can do with it.

You might be a little confused about the title of this blog post, but it’s actually the name of the video. So just to explain it a bit, I came up with this idea of talking about different topics but in one video, I got the idea and was inspired by one of my favorite Youtubers by the name of Lucy Moon, i’ve spoken about her on here before, can’t remember which blog post I mentioned her in though, but anyway ummm she (not sure if she still does) but she has these videos where she sits and talks about whatever it is that she’s feeling or whatever topics that she wants to talk about and I use to sit there and watch them and I  really enjoyed the way you know where it felt like you were just having a one on one conversation with someone except you’re talking into camera or just listening to the person speak.

Every time I would watch it, I would get inspired to do something like that myself, now I had this idea for a good while, but I never quite went forth with it, until I started listening to this podcast, now i’ve been thinking of trying out podcasting, but as I looked into it, I realize it’s a lot of work, so I thought maybe I should come back to it and you know just until i’m feeling a lot more confident in myself to want to move over to that side of town, in the meantime though, I can make videos talking about whatever it is I want to discuss you know, plus I felt it made sense to try it out that way first considering I have a Youtube Channel and all, I hope i’m making sense here.

I’ll try and explain this next part better, so just to give you guys a little heads up on what the videos will be about, there’s not really much to explain really, all it is, is instead of just picking one topic to talk about for a video, I chose to talk about 3 different topics and make the video kinda like a podcast, buut not a podcast, it’s not a podcast really, although i’m trying to have it to where it’s close to one, but I still obviously have to work on that of course, so yeah that’s pretty much all it is, nothing too extravagant, you know, I just wanted to share that with you guys, when I finally decided on going forth with the idea I had in mind, I was super nervous, I recored the first part 3 times, the 3rd time was the final one, the other 2 attempts yeaaah……..didn’t go that well, well i’m sure they would’ve been fine if I just looked at them and picked up where I left off, you’ll probably remember me talking about them in these posts here: So That Went Well…….Camera’s…….. & Just One Of Those Days

So yeah, I don’t really know what else to saaay………except for if you would like to watch the video, it’s on my blog, if you don’t want to scroll that far though, i’ll leave it here for you guys: All Things Random in the first video I talk about: Dealing With Funks as well as Confidence and some other stuff too, two topics I actually wrote blog posts for, you guys might remember them or you might not I don’t know…….ummmm but yeah, that’s all I really want to say. I was super nervous uploading as well as recording it, but was a little excited as well, it’s a new thing that I wanted to try and so I hope it’s okay, it’s the first one so it’s not super perfect, but editing it and watching it over a lot, I feel it’s pretty alright. I also thought it was a good idea to do videos like that because I could pick topics from here if I wanted to and share and talk about them on my channel as well, so yeah.

Again if you guys are interested in checking out the video, it’s there for you guys, you don’t have to, but if you do end up watching it, thank you in advance and it means a whole lot. Anyway, I won’t make this blog post too long, so I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Let’s Talk Video Games: Bendy And The Ink Machine

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So i’ve been sitting here, really trying to figure out what it was that I wanted to write about today, no kidding, I literally was going back and forth in my head saying to myself “I don’t know what to write about” I tried coming up with something, I even tried to find some kind of inspiration of some sort, but sometimes it ain’t always easy. I watched a few videos, one of them made me laugh so hard, I went back to the part just to hear it again, ummmm, but yeah…….after I watched that video, I still had trouble figuring out what it was that I wanted to write about.

I thought to myself, “okay let’s see what we can think of” I thought and thought and tried to come up with something, then I had a little idea and said to myself…….”Weeeell Halloween is almost here so maybe we can think of a theme post for it, but I didn’t want to just do one post on Halloween because I also thought that if i’m gonna talk about Halloween I would rather do it on the day of, just to keep the theme, soooo instead of talking about Halloween as a whole, I thought maybe we can talk horror games kinda. Now before we talk horror games, I just want to let you know i’m not a huge fan of them, surprising I know, you’re probably thinking “Why talk horror games then, if you don’t like horror things!?” Okay yeah, you have a point with that question if you’re asking it, i’ll try and explain.

Okay so YEAH i’m not really fond of anything scary, it’s just not my thing, buuut sometimes there’s an exception to things, like for example when a game is played by one of my favorite Youtubers. Sometimes things or in this case a video game catches your attention and although you know it’s gonna be creepy and you’re gonna be scared while watching it……….you still end watching it anyway because……..well…..it looks pretty interesting so why not!? Now the game that i’ll be touching up upon is called Bendy and The Ink Machine, now i’m not sure if you heard of it or not, but for those who have, for most people it’s probably not that scary, but we all know that some people are different so to those people it might be.

Now there’s a lot of Youtubers who play video games and i’m sure that a lot of them also played Bendy and The Ink Machine, but the Youtuber I prefer to watch goes by the name of Jacksepticeye, I watch a lot of his videos and I have a few that are my favorite, but today we’ll just discuss Bendy. I actually finished watching the last part to that game yesterday and it was pretty interesting, yeah sure there was a lot of stuff that startled me…..okay not startled, but you know like where I jumped, which I don’t like doing mind you, but don’t worry I was cool as cool can be…….okay maybe less then that.

Anytime I watch Jack play a game that isn’t normally what i’d watch, especially when it’s in the horror category, I always react to everything he does in those games when he plays them, which i’m sure a lot of people do with their favorite Youtubers as well. Even though I do get startled, I seem to somehow enjoy them still, depending on what the game is though and Bendy and The Ink Machine is one of those games, that I enjoyed. It’s very interesting and it’s also a very great game to play or in my case just watch………pfff I wouldn’t dare buy a game that would scare me, i’d watch it though, but I wouldn’t play it myself. Now for some of you who don’t know, Bendy and The Ink Machine is a game that………I don’t really know how to explain it, but i’ll do my best.

Okay so you play as this character name Henry (don’t know his last name) but you play as Henry and you aren’t quite sure why, but you end up in this very old animation studio, where of course you draw and create animations. Now if you ever played or watched someone else play it, you’ll learn that Henry the character use to be one of the animators for the animation studio, you also find that the studio isn’t quite like you remember……….and everyone who use to work there as well, have now been turned into these creepy ink people, well more like creatures, your job in the game is to find something even though you’re not sure what it is you’re meant to find, you also need to survive in the game of course.

In the beginning you don’t even know why you’re there, but for some reason you’re supposed to be there, i’m not gonna spoil it for you, because maybe you’re playing it, but haven’t finished it or you’re thinking of watching it and don’t want to be told on more of what it’s like, I don’t know…….but I will say this because it’s pretty much what you’re gonna be doing or watching in the game, you of course will come face to face with a whoooole lot of ink people which i’m telling you are super creepy, also there’s this cardboard Bendy that is very creepy to look at every time you come across it, like super creepy the smile, just everything……….oh people love pointing out how is eyes look like pac man, which they do actually, very much so.

The whole game is in black and white with a splash of the sepia effect, hopefully i’m not confusing you guys……….the game is pretty much on the old timey scale, so like the very old fashion kind of animations. It’s a great game though, even though it’s creepy and I did get scared a couple times while watching it, I still also enjoyed it, the art style of it is great, the fan art that was created in the game is incredible, very talented people, the music is super creepy, which is saying a lot because it’s meant to be a creepy game, but yeah just everything in that game, was very enjoyable, i’d watch it again…….maybe who knows.

Yeah soooo, that’s pretty much it, oh also the Youtuber Jacksepeticeye the one I talked about, he’s in it, but as one of the voice over tape recorder voices……you’ll know what i’m talking about if you’ve watched or played the game. His name is Finn in the game so if you happen to play or watch someone else play, keep a look out, I hope you enjoyed reading this, I know that it’s a long one, but I still hope that you enjoyed it, I didn’t want to not write anything today and even though I had a hard time figuring out what to write, i’m glad that this came up as an idea, anyway I hope you all have a great night/morning and or evening.

If you’re interested in checking out the game as well as Jacksepticeye’s channel here’s a playlist of the game created by Jack himself: Bendy and The Ink Machine

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

 

Can’t Get You Out Of My Head (Title Inspired By A Song)

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What’s going on in my head you ask!? Nothing much just random tunes playing causing me to sing them out loud, you know stuff like that, we all get that, you know you’re just minding your own business, just doing your best to be as productive as you can and then out of nowhere you’re singing a tune!? Not quite sure where it came from or why that song you’re singing is in your head, but it is and now you’re stuck singing it every few minutes. I know that this is a very random topic, but it was the only topic I could think of, plus I wasn’t sure what else to write about, sooo I chose this to be my blog post for today.

Sometimes you need a little bit of random in your life and lucky for you guys, I can bring a whole lot of random to you, whenever i’m feeling it and today is one of those days, this won’t be a long post I promise, I just wanted to share with you all, the few songs that have been playing in my brain today so I hope you don’t mind me sharing, but anyway let’s get to it shall we!? First let me tell you what band started off…..so yeah, i’m kinda in a debate state of mind with myself trying to figure out what band started it, I feel it was the band PVRIS I told you about, but then another part of me is saying that it was Fall Out Boy, so we’ll just say although I love PVRIS………I’m gonna go with Fall Out Boy, because I had one of their songs in my head the most, plus I think it might’ve been the podcast I listened to earlier that was based around them that kicked started it, soooo yeaaah.

Anyway here are the top songs that we’re stuck in my head today :

  1. Sugar We’re Goin Down & Thnks Fr Th Mmrs By Fall Out Boy
  2. St Patrick By PVRIS
  3. Dirt Road Anthem By Jason Aldean

 

Those we’re the top songs that we’re in my head today, not sure why either of them came to mind, but they did. The one song I was most shocked about me randomly singing though was Jason Aldean’s Dirt Road Anthem, the only reason I was shocked about it was because I hadn’t heard that song in ages, plus I didn’t know if I’d still know it, buut I did which was weird. Sometimes it’s like that where, you think you won’t remember a song especially when you haven’t heard it in a very long time and when you do remember it, it can be very surprising, but yeah that’s pretty much all I wanted to talk about really, if you want to listen to the songs i’ve mentioned, I left the links to them on top for you guys.

Feel free to share if you also had a song or 2 or 3 even which ever, stuck in your brain today or let me know what song constantly enters your mind and just sticks with you like glue on your hands, you know what i’m talking about, no matter how much you try to avoid becoming sticky from that glue, it’ll just always end up happening anyway, it’s like a magnet, but not a magnet. Anyway that is all I have for now, but I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Just One Of Those Days

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I want to tell you guys that this blog post is gonna make sense and I know exactly what i’m gonna talk about, buuut i’d just be lying to you if I said that. My head and mind right now aren’t even in the same place to be honest, I woke up in such deep thought…….it’s like I don’t even know and I know that doesn’t make any sense, that’s just where my mind and heads at right now. I had a pretty okay day today though, i’ve just been in deep thought mode throughout, well pretty much the whole day actually, you know it’s like whenever i’m in deep thought it’s kinda hard for me to get out of it quickly and i’ll end up staying there for a pretty decent amount of time.

Mind you though, it’s been a little weird, because normally when i’m in deep thought I ponder for a very long time and all my focus just goes to my thoughts, but today even though i’ve been in my mind, I still did my best to keep my focus on other things as well, which I have to say i’m happy about, because it’s the first time where I didn’t give into my own emotions and thoughts, even though something did try and creep into my mind earlier, I shook it off though and just did my best to continue and tend to what I was doing.

Today I attempted to recorded my video again, remember I told you that it stopped midway of me talking, yeeeah it did it again, however this time, I looked at the video and everything that I had recorded was there before it stopped, after I watched it, I realized that with my camera it will only record a certain amount before it stops, so now I know that if I were to record videos, it will only record up to about 18 minutes of it. After watching back the video, I went to record where I left off, but saw that my camera battery was running low again, so I had to charge it of course, before I put it on the charger though, I went to see if the video I did yesterday recorded everything and whatta you know, it did!! I then said to myself that if I would’ve just looked the video over, I could’ve just picked up where I left off then, but I didn’t, but hey now I know right!?

So that’s been my day really, I still was in deep thought mode afterwards and there was more I was feeling, but i’m better now, i’m not in my mind as much…..uhhh….but yeah, that’s all i’m gonna talk about, not gonna make this blog post too long or anything, I just  wanted to share that, plus I felt I just needed to kinda get a little of that out……umm….but anyway, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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So That Went Well…….Camera’s……..

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I know you’re probably confused to what i’m talking about, but don’t worry i’ll explain in a second, before I do though, I just wanted to let you know that this blog post isn’t gonna be a long one, well at least it shouldn’t be a long one. Anyway let’s move on to the post shall we!? Okay so for those who end up reading this, today I tried to record a video and normally I would record on my phone camera, but I don’t have anymore space on it sooooo, there’s that, but also I wanted to see what it would be like to use my camera since 1. It has more space, 2. I thought it’d be easier to use and 3. I just thought it made sense to use it, you know!?

So I decided to record a video after a very long time of not recording, I made sure to write down what it was I was going to be talking about in it, well just the topics I wanted to discuss that is. I then set up my tripod that I recently got for my camera and i’m just gonna say it, i’m not gonna pretend that I wasn’t…….I was super nervous recording again and when I get nervous and realize i’m about to do something after a very long time or if i’m just doing something for the first time, I laugh……nervously of course……..I also talk to myself out loud expressing how I can’t believe i’m doing this or about how super nervous I am.

Long story short, I set up my tripod, although at first I had no idea what I was doing, it took me a bit to set it up until I then came to the thought of “hmmmm maybe I should read the instructions” you know, make sure i’m doing things right. So I checked the instructions and after looking them over, I ended up getting the hang of it, I attached my camera to the tripod, I then had to make sure everything was aligned right, well at least in a way that was good enough for me and after doing that for a good while, I then hit record. Again super nervous, so my words were just all over the place, I was going off topic, because that’s my specialty and all……..but yeah so, I was recording and in the beginning of me recording I went to check to see if everything was okay and if it was still recording (it was)

I was only 13 minutes into the video from the last time I checked and sigh…………this is the part where a small amount of frustration kicks in………I guess you could say it was my need to constantly talk to where, I forgot to check to see if it was still recording because while I was still talking I heard this noise and was like……..”Wait what happened!?” went over to my camera aaaaand………yeah you probably could guess what happened……..it stopped………I was in the middle of talking and it had stopped recording………which meeeeans……….I gotta do it all over agaaain, yaaaaaaay………it was great, so wonderful……..loved it!!

Haha no, but in all seriousness, it was kinda my fault……okay it was my fault, I should’ve stopped after a few minutes of talking just to check the camera and see if it was still recording. You should’ve seen me though, I was soooo peeved off that, that had happened………I tried to record again, buuuut my battery camera, no kidding (I actually said that as I was typing though, so I wanted to add that in here just for fun…….yeah…..) anyway my camera battery, was running low so I had to put it to charge, it’s charged now, but i’m just gonna start off fresh tomorrow and see if I can get it right then, sigh……..I mean in all fairness maybe that happening was just to get my nerves out, I don’t know, but…….it’s okay, it’s cool, we’ll just start again and do it over tomorrow, no worries.

That was just a little behind the scenes story, I thought, what better thing to write about then that happening, hopefully you all enjoyed it, seee told ya this wouldn’t be that long, anyway hope you all have a great night/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

Note to self check the camera every few minutes, BEFORE you continue to go on and on……

 

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One More Time And This Time We’re Gonna Do Our Best To Get It Right

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I’m kinda having a hard time figuring out exactly what to write here, but i’m just gonna let it come to me as i’m writing this so hopefully, everything that is written here makes sense. We’ll start with the title…….So just like I wasn’t sure what to write, I actually wasn’t sure what to title this and then you know, as I was thinking, I got the idea of this title and the reason why that is, is because it reminded me of a song that i’m sure a lot of you might know it’s called One More Time by Daft Punk and thinking of that song reminded me of one my best friends, so that’s why I titled it the way I did.

One more time for what you may ask, well……it can be for a lot of different things, but for me i’d say it’s more on the let’s try and do this one more time and see if we can do it right this time kind of thing, hence why I combined the two into one title. Sometimes we try something and either it doesn’t work out at first, we kinda leave it for later for too long or we’re just a little hesitant to pick up where it is that we once started and left off, because we’re either scared, or we’re not sure whether we should or not.

That’s why the title here is a little important, well at least to me it is, because it can be a reminder and can give us a little boost of encouragement to possibly just try one more time and see if we’re able to do things better with whatever it is that we want to re-try this time around. Just because we leave certain things be for a bit or a good while, it doesn’t mean that we can’t go back and give it another try. Sometimes you learn that, you know, leaving something on the shelf for a good amount time and then later coming back to it, it might just end up being better, because then the feeling it once gave you will feel like a whole new feeling and it’ll feel like you’ve just discovered it for the first time again, if that makes sense!? It’s okay to be so big on something once and then kinda leave it for a bit and then later possibly (if you wanted) come to it. It’s gonna happen, but it doesn’t mean we’ll completely dismiss it especially when it was once important to us.

I mean hey, even the best people such as artists, writers and so many others, i’m sure they all had an idea that they continuously worked on, but then later decided that it just wasn’t right at the moment, so they ended up putting it away for a bit and when they felt they wanted to come back to it, they did and maybe for them it worked out better that way…….i’m just hoping that this time it will work out better for me, but I know that it’s my job to make sure that it does and even if I feel that something’s not working, I should at least still do my best to make the most of it and not back out so quickly.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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A Little Bit Of Reflecting (Oct 21,2018)

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Today was a very something kind of day, I was having one of my deep thought kind of days and every time that happens, I become a mess, I start overthinking, stressing out, which then causes me to become very frustrated and when i’m frustrated I can get pretty emotional…….which isn’t my favorite thing, because then it causes me to lose focus on the things that I try my hardest to not lose focus on especially when i’m dealing with days like this. The only reason i’m expressing all of this is because there was a lot that i’ve realized about myself, i’ve spoken before on how I don’t give myself the chance to really let something grow once i’ve gotten it up and running, which I don’t like that I do that.

Lately, i’ve been getting very frustrated, i’m not even going to try and pretend that everything’s been all that great, everything’s okay i’ll say that, but i’m still having some trouble really enjoying my days and i’m gonna explain why that is and the reason I keep going into deep thought mode, a lot of the times. I’m not quite sure how to write this part, but i’m just gonna write it however it comes out.

I enjoy writing, being able to write helps me get my mind in order a bit……..now for the past few days i’ve been writing in my thought journal, and I found myself writing something new every day or every other day, sometimes I write a lot, other times I don’t, sometimes my entries don’t even get finished properly. When I bought that journal a few years back, I said to myself that I wasn’t ever gonna write my own thoughts, that I was gonna use it to only write positive journal entries……….now I haven’t done that in a while, but what I have done was do exactly what I told myself I wouldn’t do.

You’re probably thinking what do you mean, it’s a journal you’re meant to write down your thoughts and feelings!? Yeah I know that, but when I would write in my thought journal, i’d only write the title of what I was feeling……but whenever i’d go to write whatever I wanted to express based off the title, it wouldn’t feel like they were my words if that makes sense!? It would always feel as though someone else wrote it, yet I wrote it, you know what I mean!? It’s like if you were playing a character in a movie or something, but you’re writing instead…….and you know, you say and write all these things and when you go back to read it, it’s as if it’s not even the same person and you’ve just found this journal lying around filled with thoughts and advice on the things your dealing with.

I’ve said before how sometimes i’ll read one of my journal entries and while i’m reading it i’d be surprised, because it wouldn’t even seem like I wrote it……like if you were to say “Hey look I found this journal filled with all these different advices” changed the cover of it and then handed it to me to read……..I probably would think it belonged to someone else at first and then maybe after reading a bit of it, i’d recognize it and say “Wait this seems familiar……oh wait this is my journal!?” So it’s kinda like the way I started writing in it when I first got it, I was writing it as if someone would find it and maybe be curious to read it, but in an advice guide kinda way, I don’t really know how to properly explain it, but I hope you understand what i’m trying to say here.

Although I enjoying writing………i’m constantly trying to figure out what else I could do to keep my spirts up, stay motivated and all that. Writing is great, don’t me wrong……..I love being able to express myself in a way I didn’t think I knew how, being able to bring in some of my ideas to here, like you know talking about bands or video games that I enjoy, asking random questions, you know stuff like that……..but I feel as though I need to showcase my personality a bit more if that makes any sense, it’s like when I write about something that i’m super excited about, I really get excited, but you wouldn’t quite know that exactly, just by me writing my words.

What i’m trying to say here is, i’ve kinda I won’t say lost, but I will say i’ve just……..I just feel as if some other stuff is missing, like some excitement I don’t know………i’ve realized tonight that i’m not very nice to myself, I know i’m hard on myself, but i’m not that nice. I don’t let myself be great, anytime I have new ideas on something I stop them from taking flight before they even get on board and I can’t keep doing that if I want to see myself succeed and do well.

I’m always complicating things when I know that I don’t need to and I cause myself to constantly overthink on things which I know isn’t good……….if I were to just to stop and breathe for a second, anytime I started to worry about something and just say to myself: “Hey, what are you doing!? All these things that you’re thinking about and stressing yourself out about, aren’t that big of a deal as you’re making it………You can do these things if you just stopped worrying on how it will turn out or whether or not their good enough……they are good enough, you just have to help them come to life and show everyone how passionate you are about them, even if they don’t get it.”

Everything I just said there in that little small dialogue I created, is my problem I overthink, because I worry about whether my ideas are good enough and when I do that this thing in my mind tells me that it won’t work and I shouldn’t continue on with it, but I know by doing that, I don’t win, because I let myself talk me out of ideas that once brought me joy or that I wanted to try, all because I was scared and didn’t think people were interested………..but I know that’s not a good way to think, if I always based everything I do on whether people would like it or not, then it only hurts me, because i’m not giving myself a chance nor am I giving my ideas a chance and whether people like something or not, it shouldn’t stop you from still seeing if you could do well with it.

There’s a lot of others things to it, but lately the way i’ve been feeling is more with me  and whether or not i’m getting things right and I always just hope that I am and I think for me I just have to stop worrying and that’s something that has always been hard for me, because i’ve done it so much throughout my life it’s gonna be a little hard to get rid of it right away………but I want to be able to try a little bit more, I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and say “I’m proud of you and you’re doing very well.” while also being able to look back and be proud of something that I built myself like this blog for example.

I don’t want to be in this constant funk that i’m in, all because i’m constantly in my mind trying to figure things out when it comes to helping myself enjoy things more. I’m gonna do my best to stop worrying so much as best as I can and just try and do a little bit of everything if I feel that I should or need to, because the only person who can get me out of these deep thought sessions with myself……..is myself, I need to stop letting myself get so consumed in my own emotions and thoughts when it comes to things that I could just easily snap out of and i’m gonna do my best everyday to get better and do better, so I don’t feel the way I have again or at least as much as I have.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Answering My Own Questions To My Last Post (Asked By JanBeek)

On By Daydreamer LexIn Fun & Random Posts, Uncategorized2 Comments

So I wrote a blog post the other day asking some random questions just to kinda get to know you guys a bit, see what kind of stuff you guys wanted to share. Now i’ll be honest didn’t quite get a lot of sharing happening, which I kinda expected to happen, but that’s okay. I did get one comment however, which was very nice, I was super happy that someone took the time to share their thoughts and answer the questions I left.

The comment that I got was from a very nice lady by the name of Jan Beek, she’s also a writer, I learned some pretty nice stuff from reading her comment, I learned that she use to be a clarinetist and about her love for classical music which was very nice to learn, because I too enjoy classical music from time to time. I also learned of a new artist name Jimmy Dorsey, I wasn’t sure whether i’ve heard of him or not so I went and looked him up and found out he was an American clarinetist back in the 1950’s, pretty cool right!? I thought it was cool.

There was a lot of other stuff I learned, like how she writes better by listening to the sound of her cuckoo clock, she explained how the rhythm of the clock helps her more with her writing which was very different, but also very interesting. I learned about her ideal workspace, what her muse is, uhhh, she talked about how she always wanted to have her own all-girl group back in the day, because with the band that she liked listening to, it was an all male group, there was a lot, it was very fascinating and I really enjoyed learning about her.

After she gave her answers, she then asked me what my answers were to my own questions, so I thought i’d share my answers as a post and give credit to her for the idea while also sharing a bit of her story with you guys. She’s a very lovely lady, but anyway let’s move on to my answers…….i’m not sure how this is gonna go, but we’ll soon see.

Okay here we go (I copied my questions here so I could answer them properly):

Question #1: For those who write, do you listen to music while your writing!? If so what’s your go to playlist or artist that you enjoy listening to, if you don’t listen to music are there any other things you like to have as background noise or do you just enjoy no background noise at all when you write!?

I do listen to music when I write, not always though, i’d say most times maybe…….sometimes though I won’t even have music playing in the background, i’ll just write in complete silence, while listening to my own voice as i’m typing what I want to say. I feel it helps when i’m saying what i’m writing out loud, because then i’m able to get everything out to where it makes sense you know!?

My go to playlist for when I write, is actually a playlist I mention before called Jukebox Typewriter…….I haven’t listened to it in a while though, lately i’ve been listening to one of my favorite bands that I also mentioned PVRIS, ummm i’ve written to their songs before, I just listen to anything that gets me into the mood of writing really.

Question #2: If you were in a band, what would you name your band, what would the genre of your music be and if you had to pick anyone (favorite artist, friends ect…) to be in it, who would you chose and what instruments would you have them play!?

Okay I might’ve reached the hardest question that I asked you guys……*takes a deep breath and then releases* Alright here we go……if I had a band what would I name it!? It’s funny I use to always think about this when I was younger, uhhh…….gee I don’t know……..I think if I were to have a band, i’d probably name it something random, you know to kinda go with my personality (hmmm actually that’s not a bad name) if I ever go making a band though, i’ll let you guys know what i’ve named it haha.

What would the genre be!? I feel with me as a person, i’d probably would go with like a mixture of pop, but with the feel of country music added to it or some kind of sound that fits more with me. I love and enjoy music so much, I always do my best to give everything a chance, but i’ve always been drawn to meaningful kind of music, I love songs with meaning and to where I can relate to the lyrics, however if I like the feel to a song and I feel it’s the right kind of catchy to me, I can jam with it too.

When it comes to the people I would have in my band and the instruments they’d play!?i’m not sure, whoever wanted to join in and be apart of it would be great and whatever instrument they choose to play would be up to them, however I wouldn’t mind having a piano player and a person who plays the guitar (preferably acoustic) because those are my two favorite kind of instruments to listen to, there’s just something about them.

Question #3: If you had to create the perfect (in your book) workspace whether you’re a writer, artist (musician, drawer, painter ect…) maybe you want a space just for reading, how would you create that space!?

If I was writing and I had to make up my ideal workspace I would like it to have a cozy feel to it, you know a place where I could not only write, but also escape to if I needed to de stress or relax a bit. Maybe also have a nice view to something, like a wide backyard or just something that when I look at it, I feel calm. I’d also go with a space where I could hang some paintings or posters, as well as have spaces for books while listening to my favorite kind of music and have it be a place where I could get lost in for a while.

Question #4: If you had a muse to write about (it doesn’t have to be writing, it can be anything) What would it be and how would you describe it!? 

Okay remember when I said the band one was hard, yeeeeeah I think this one might top it………if I had a muse to write about, it would be between maybe music and the feeling of it or maybe about love. I’ve had a few muses before, to where I was inspired to write about them, but if I had to pick a muse…….hmmmm…….I feel it would all be based on how i’m feeling in the moment, It could be about love, music, a favorite artist of mine, anything that resonates with me in the moment, so a bit of everything i’d say, I hope that makes sense.

Question #5: If someone came to you and said “Hey I need some advice” what kind of advice do you think they’d ask for knowing your own personality and how would you give them that advice!?

Last question okay here we go……..

I give a lot of advice, so if someone were to say “hey could you give me some advice” knowing how I am, I probably would give them advice on topics like……..Progress and growing, learning to believe in yourself as well as taking care of yourself when you need to, just you know, life stuff I guess. I’m not the best advice giver, but I always try my best to give the best advice that I can.

Which is weird because i’m still learning things as i’m going along and sometimes with advice you can give it to someone, but not really take it in yourself. There’s a saying that goes “You should take your own advice” when it comes to taking in your own advice, that can be hard, because it’s like some of us are able to give advice easily to people, but when it comes to taking it in yourself it’s different for some reason.

I guess when you give the advice, it may reach the person you’re telling, but that advice might come back to you a little later for you to take in. it’s hard to wrap your head around, but it’s how it is sometimes. Going back to the part though where I ask how would I give that advice, I’d just do my best to help whoever i’m giving advice to on whatever the topic happens to be about. I think it’ll always just be about doing your best and doing all you can to make sure you’re happy and going with what fits you, i’m still learning to take my own advice and everything, i’m not perfect, no ones perfect really, but I do try and that’s all I can really do.

I hope all of this was okay JanBeek and to everyone else reading this, if anyone else want to answer the questions I have, it’s there, but a big thank you to Jan for sharing her answers with me and being the inspiration or muse to today’s blog post, it really means a lot so thank you again. She has a blog site if you want to check her out, you should, she’s lovely, you can find her site here: Show Jan Some Love and Support!!

Anyway, I hope you all have a great night/morning and or evening ^_^

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Let’s Ask Some Questions Shall We: I’ll Be The Interviewer

On By Daydreamer LexIn Fun & Random Posts, Uncategorized4 Comments

Now you’re probably wondering where i’m going with this, hear me out!! So i’ve been watching some moments and interviews of one of my favorite bands i’ve talked about them on here before, you may remember them as the band PVRIS, I talked about how I became a fan of theirs and also about their album White Noise, if you want to read that post you can find it here: Artist Of The Month: PVRIS (Take One White Noise Album And How I Became A Fan On The Band….Sorry If That’s Cheesy)

So I was watching some of their stuff this morning and I guess it kinda gave me an idea, I actually thought about this a while ago, when I was trying to figure out what to write about and this came to mind, so I thought i’d try it out and see how it could go. I’m hoping it goes well and I’m able to learn a little bit about you guys and you could learn a bit about me if you want and just kinda make this fun, get to know each other a bit, try something new you know, it doesn’t hurt to try right!?

So i’m gonna think of 5 different questions, random question and for those reading this if you want to answer them, great, if not that’s fine as well, it’s totally up to you, I just wanted to try something different and bring something fun to you all that I really hope that you enjoy.

Here are my 5 questions for you: 

Question #1: For those who write, do you listen to music while your writing!? If so what’s your go to playlist or artist that you enjoy listening to, if you don’t listen to music are there any other things you like to have as background noise or do you just enjoy no background noise at all when you write!?

Question #2: If you were in a band, what would you name your band, what would the genre of your music be and if you had to pick anyone (favorite artist, friends ect…) to be in it, who would you chose and what instruments would you have them play!?

Question #3: If you had to create the perfect (in your book) workspace whether you’re a writer, artist (musician, drawer, painter ect…) maybe you want a space just for reading, how would you create that space!?

Question #4: If you had a muse to write about (it doesn’t have to be writing, it can be anything) What would it be and how would you describe it!?

And Lastly:

Question #5: If someone came to you and said “Hey I need some advice” what kind of advice do you think they’d ask for knowing your own personality and how would you give them that advice!?

Those are all my questions, that I have for you guys, hopefully their decent questions, if any of you do look at this and consider answering them, I look forward to reading them and seeing what kind of stuff you come up with, their not really anything super special, but I thought this would be a good way to interact with some of you.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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