Hiya….I don’t know how I should start this…..there’s a lot I want to say to you, but I find it hard to say it, I know we have days that we talk and days that we don’t, I’ve accepted that’s how it is at the moment with us right now….I know we both got our own journey that we’re on, in yours you’ve got it and are very confident, in mine, everything is kind of new still to me, but I’ve been doing my best to go more out of my comfort which is something we got to talk about by the way! I think of you always, you probably know that though by now, I can sense you probably think of me too, I hope at least lol…..I miss you always nothing new, there’s times that I want to call you, just to hear your voice and to also talk to you for a bit, but I don’t because I know how busy you are…..and if I’m being honest I sometimes think you won’t answer if I do anyway!

If I was able to write a song to you on what I’ve been feeling I would, I know that’s random, but it was the next thing that came to my head so I said it, but I’m also not saying I haven’t written lyrics for you…..I’m just saying…..also me writing that helped to get nerves out, don’t ask me why I’m nervous I just am…..I guess in a way this is the first time where I’m trying to be completely open with you to my feelings that I always have trouble expressing to you…..you’ll ask me if I’m okay and I’ll always say yeah, but there will be things that I won’t say as well and I know you’re the same way….. I know that’s why you don’t really say much these days, I always feel you want to, but I also know that you feel you work it out best alone and I never want to push you to saying things you aren’t ready to say…..I’ll always give you the time that you feel you need, even when all I want to do is talk to you, I’ll always have patience for you.

I love hearing from you, you have no idea how much that brightens my day! That aside…..How you been!? I hope you’re doing okay and I hope your family’s doing alright too as well your nan, I hope she’s been okay!? I hope everything’s been going well with what you’re doing and that you’re enjoying yourself with it all! I’ve been watching some of your videos and I always see how happy you are doing it which makes me smile, I love it when you smile and are happy though…..I know this week was hard, did you feel it!? If so I felt it too…..did you know there was a Lunar Eclipse yesterday, I know you don’t like hearing these facts, but you know I always like telling you them anyway,

It’s just me! I don’t know what else to say…..I feel I might’ve said everything I needed, but I also feel I still got more I want to say, maybe I’ll say it when we have a proper talk if you want to do that! I think that’s everything for now, before I finish up this post message for you, I just want you to always know and remember how much I love you, no matter what goes on and how much we talk and how much we don’t…..just know I love you and that I always will that’s never going to change…..hopefully you read this, because it’s kind of why I wrote it lol…..I’d used the sticking out of the tongue icon here, but I’m on my computer writing this…..hold on wait 😛 never mind that works, hopefully you laughed, yes I know I’m weird you don’t have to tell me….okay I’m done….for now!

P.S.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Dappy lately…..especially I.O.U that keeps coming on for some reason and it’s not me choosing to play it, it just comes on by itself, although I have been purposely listening to Beautiful Me and No Regrets mainly Beautiful Me though, I forgot how good both those songs were….Oh and Grease has been coming on a lot as well, can you guess what song!?

All The Love Always ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa