Dear Little Me…..(Updated)

It’s been a while hasn’t it, if only you knew all things we have been through…..I mean seeing that you are apart of me, you probably already know huh!? I’ll be honest I wasn’t really expecting to write to you, it was only after that I read a bit of the first I guess you can call letter post that I wrote to you back in 2018 that I felt like I wanted to update you on a few things that we’ve managed to do…..I’m writing this a bit on the late side on the 15th of September nearly midnight, but not necessarily midnight it’s still around 11:30pm as I’m writing this now, I might just continue this post in the morning so I could really tell you everything that I want you to know….I’ll catch you up on what those things are soon, a part of me might keep the rest as a surprised though, see you in a couple of hours!

Good Morning me, well younger me…..it’s a little early, around 8:40am almost 9am, I don’t know if you remember us always getting up earlier than we needed to back then, there were moments when we got up a bit late as well! Sometimes we’d get up at almost 10am and if we got up at 11am we were upset the whole day…..I’m glad that I changed our sleep schedule all those times ago ha! I don’t know where to start with what’s been going on….We’ve been on quite the journey you and I, a lot of stresses, emotions both good and bad, we had some loses in our lives as well, that meant a lot to us….but on a good note, we did find someone that loves us for our weirdness as well as everything else believe it our not lol…..there’s a lot of things that’s happened since the last time I spoke to you!

We’ve been through some storms, but the one thing though that I feel you’ll really like is that…..we got through them and most of them we’re really hard, because they pushed us to really grow ourselves more and change as well, in the last letter I wrote you…..I felt like I was not doing you proud, that I had failed you as an older version of me and I never knew how to really express that in the best of ways, I only knew how to say sorry and feel bad about everything we were going through at the time…..I wanted you to be happy and I didn’t really give you that chance to be happy then….it took a long while, but I just want you to know that we’re doing good now, where we were then, we aren’t there anymore!

We managed to find our voice, now I won’t say we found it fully fully, there’s still some things that we both are still working out and trying to understand better, which is normal, because not everyone has figured everything out yet, but we have learned a lot and I can honestly say that we are becoming better versions of ourselves more and more each day! Don’t get me wrong we still have our moments where we aren’t always happy and feeling our best, but to how we used to handle those days to how we handle them now…..we’re doing pretty alright for ourselves, our emotions don’t constantly get at us the way they used to, we’ve learned to control them a lot better and not be so hard on ourselves….I mean we’re still hard on ourselves at times, but I think that’s never going to go away really, but that’s okay because it helps us to want to be better!

We’ve grown on a personal level, we’re still the same, but there our some new differences within ourselves that we’ve gained with our personality, for example….we’ve gotten a bit more sarcastic lately, we say what’s on our mind a lot more these days, a bit quickly too, might I add and we’ve gotten better at not taking up things that we know we don’t need in a negative sense….I guess you can say we’ve gotten a bit tougher and stronger since the last time, but I think part of those part of me comes from you if that makes sense, especially all the sassy parts that I wouldn’t have ever thought to come out!! All our fears that we used to worry ourselves about, we have moments where they pop up, but you’ll be happy to know that instead of always wanting to avoid them and run away, we try and face them the best we can…..we come way out of our comfort zone, well we’re nearing the surface at least, we don’t swim the best, but we do our best to get to where we want to be!

Like I said we’re still learning as we go along, but that’s only part of the journey we’re on…..it’s just the beginning and we’re just getting started, but we’re flying little me, just like you always wanted and I promise that I’m going to keep doing my best to make you proud to be me older, because I just want you to be happy and I want you to know that the adventures you go, as new and hard as they may be at times and you may feel like you’re not getting where you need to, but know that you’re always going to get where you need even when you get lost a bit, sometime you have to get a little lost before you’re found! We’re always going to be okay, I know that because I got you and I know that when I’m lost, you’ll found a way to point me to where you feel it’s best to go so I know to keep going, because together is where the magic starts to happen!

All the feelings of being scared, but wanting to still give it a shot anyway, taking those risks, I never thought we’d get to that point, but I got to say that, doing those things, makes me happy, I still get nervous and scared, but I hope that you feel happy that we’re finally doing them…..there’s still some stuff that I know I want to tell you, but I know know how to express them properly just yet, so I will leave them for another time, the moment I find those words and I’m able to piece them all together you’ll know…..I just wanted to tell you that we’re okay and that we’re a little bit more happier than we were before…..I’ll see you soon!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Plans & Decisions…

I’ve never been one for planning you know, which you probably do because I’ve mentioned it a few times on here, me and plans….don’t mix, however I’ve come to a point in my life where, I’m finding myself trying to plan for things which is usually not my department, but if the time has come for me to really sit and plan things properly then I’m going to do it! I’m going to put myself in an uncomfortable situation and face it the best way I can, scared and full of nerves combined!

Today has been a bit of a rough day for me, I’ll admit, I woke up with soooo many thoughts in my head and trying to sort them is completely new to me, I don’t normally sort my thoughts out well and so trying to do that today has got my head just full of aches lol…..but it’s okay because I know that there’s something that is very important I want to do and if I end up losing a little bit of sleep from it or feel myself getting slightly anxious on, I’m alright with that! Plans aren’t my normal cup of tea, but I’ve been trying to embrace it a little better instead of getting intimidated by them,

Plans are important they can help layout things so you don’t feel all over the place! Normally I like going with things naturally, but I’ve also been learning that sometimes you need to plan for things in order to work them out, if you just let things always go as they are, whatever is most important to you can get away from you and if that’s something you don’t want then you have to really work at them and take those steps to having them come to fruition and making them happen…..I’m always being told that life is short and you want to make sure you’re always giving attention to the things that matter most even if it seems hard, it can seem like you won’t get there, but if you want it enough and you believe in it enough….you already know that it can get there, you just have to take those steps to get them there!

Now with the things that I’m planning, there’s a few decisions that I’ve come to realize I need to face and deal with, even though some of the stuff may not be my favorite to want to deal with…..it’s up to me to take that breath, put on a brave face and do it anyway…..with planning you also have to make decisions tough or not, because that’s the only way for you to grow better and to experience things without all the limits of it all it all, you have to allow yourself to fly even if you are bat scared shit of it and yes I’m saying it just like that because it’s how I’m feeling it at the moment….if we continue to always keep ourselves on the ground, as safe as it may be sometimes you have to also fly or float otherwise you’ll always be there wishing you could soar that blue sky!

I recently went on a trip as you may know if you read that post and I was really nervous when I was waiting to go on the plane, but once I got on the plane…..I don’t know I was very happy, I smiled to myself knowing I did something that scared me and even when I was on the vacation I was on…..I was ready to go back on the plane……it just felt good and I really enjoyed myself knowing that I was ahead somewhere that I hadn’t been yet and that’s what I want to continue, I want to keep discovering, exploring and going on adventures…..but also I want to share that experience and so if I need to plan in order to do that, like I said…..I will!

The upcoming plan idea is to finally be able to see my love again and figure out how we can be together permanently, we both have wanted that for a good now sooo, I’m just hoping that it all goes well for us this time, which we’ll make sure it does!

Planning By A Non Planner (Personal Thoughts) Ep. 32 Daydreamer's Podcast

Hiya everyone, hope you've been having a good week so far! In today's episode, I talk about some of my own personal thoughts that I've been feeling today and about planning….something I see as intimidating normally, but I've been trying to embrace it a little better this time around and really do my best with it all! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Remembering Christina Grimmie (Blog Post)

To write or not to write that is the question isn’t it!? The answer, well….I’m not really sure, I want to write, it’s just trying to figure out what topic I’d like to discuss is where the issue is…..it’s not really an issue, I just don’t know what this post is going to be about, I’m hoping that as I’m writing this post, something will find a way to come up! In the meantime, if you don’t mind I’d like to share upon my latest Podcast episode with you, in the latest episode I discuss all about Christina Grimmie, who if you don’t know was a great and talented artist, however she passed on this very day, 5 years ago today…..

I’m not really sure why, but I felt like talking about her and so I recorded a whole episode yesterday, sharing my thoughts and just remembering her a bit, If you’d like to give it a listen you can check it out here: Remembering Christina Grimmie (Music, Personality ect…) You can also listen to it on Spotify!

I didn’t personally know Christina, but I used always watch her videos on Youtube, where she first showcased her talents and she was always a favorite channel of mine to watch, I always considered her voice to be very powerful, if you took a glimpse into her personality as she was talking and then you heard her sing right after, you wouldn’t believe how strong her voice to be, but she always had this something special with her, hard to explain, but you could always feel it and I guess that’s why a lot of people gravitated towards her and kept a know on her!

Now I wouldn’t call myself the biggest fan of Christina’s, but I really did like her a lot, I always loved hearing her sing and just getting to see her personality that she would share with everyone, after she started becoming more recognized for her talents, you knew that she was going to be something and she was, like I said I didn’t really follow her that much when she started becoming a bit more well known, but I would always check in here and there with her and her music and it’d always take me back to when she first started on Youtube or shall I say within her early years of Youtube, I don’t think I was around when she first, first started…..but I do remember the beginning parts to when she was just getting started if that makes sense!

Some of what I said here, is what I said in that episode, only there’s more within it…..if I’m being honest it’s been a very long time since I’ve really thought about Christina Grimmie, that being said, I never forgot about her, I still listen to a few of her songs and when I do I always think about how great she really was and how much I miss hearing her voice, she was a one of a kind, kind of person and I know that a lot of people that knew her and enjoyed her presence, be it music, personality and just her overall, will always miss her too and will never ever truly forget about her, she’ll always be remembered for the impact that she left in peoples lives, big or small!

Christina you will always be remembered and missed dearly, I know I already said it in my episode, but thank you for the time that you gave us while you were here, even when it may seem like we’ve forgotten there will always be something to help us remember you and everything that you left, you’re a soul that left too soon, but one that will always live on for many many lifetimes and wherever you are, I hope that you are happy and still sharing that wonderful and powerful voice of yours as well as your personality, rest well and know that those that still keep you in mind will always love you! Thank you for everything.

P.S.

Here’s one of my favorite cover songs by Christina, I love Jason Mraz’s version as well, I mean it is his song, but Grimmie’s version…. is definitely worth a listen: I Won’t Give Up (Christina Grimmie’s Version)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Truthfully Speaking….

Hiya….I don’t know how I should start this…..there’s a lot I want to say to you, but I find it hard to say it, I know we have days that we talk and days that we don’t, I’ve accepted that’s how it is at the moment with us right now….I know we both got our own journey that we’re on, in yours you’ve got it and are very confident, in mine, everything is kind of new still to me, but I’ve been doing my best to go more out of my comfort which is something we got to talk about by the way! I think of you always, you probably know that though by now, I can sense you probably think of me too, I hope at least lol…..I miss you always nothing new, there’s times that I want to call you, just to hear your voice and to also talk to you for a bit, but I don’t because I know how busy you are…..and if I’m being honest I sometimes think you won’t answer if I do anyway!

If I was able to write a song to you on what I’ve been feeling I would, I know that’s random, but it was the next thing that came to my head so I said it, but I’m also not saying I haven’t written lyrics for you…..I’m just saying…..also me writing that helped to get nerves out, don’t ask me why I’m nervous I just am…..I guess in a way this is the first time where I’m trying to be completely open with you to my feelings that I always have trouble expressing to you…..you’ll ask me if I’m okay and I’ll always say yeah, but there will be things that I won’t say as well and I know you’re the same way….. I know that’s why you don’t really say much these days, I always feel you want to, but I also know that you feel you work it out best alone and I never want to push you to saying things you aren’t ready to say…..I’ll always give you the time that you feel you need, even when all I want to do is talk to you, I’ll always have patience for you.

I love hearing from you, you have no idea how much that brightens my day! That aside…..How you been!? I hope you’re doing okay and I hope your family’s doing alright too as well your nan, I hope she’s been okay!? I hope everything’s been going well with what you’re doing and that you’re enjoying yourself with it all! I’ve been watching some of your videos and I always see how happy you are doing it which makes me smile, I love it when you smile and are happy though…..I know this week was hard, did you feel it!? If so I felt it too…..did you know there was a Lunar Eclipse yesterday, I know you don’t like hearing these facts, but you know I always like telling you them anyway,

It’s just me! I don’t know what else to say…..I feel I might’ve said everything I needed, but I also feel I still got more I want to say, maybe I’ll say it when we have a proper talk if you want to do that! I think that’s everything for now, before I finish up this post message for you, I just want you to always know and remember how much I love you, no matter what goes on and how much we talk and how much we don’t…..just know I love you and that I always will that’s never going to change…..hopefully you read this, because it’s kind of why I wrote it lol…..I’d used the sticking out of the tongue icon here, but I’m on my computer writing this…..hold on wait 😛 never mind that works, hopefully you laughed, yes I know I’m weird you don’t have to tell me….okay I’m done….for now!

P.S.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Dappy lately…..especially I.O.U that keeps coming on for some reason and it’s not me choosing to play it, it just comes on by itself, although I have been purposely listening to Beautiful Me and No Regrets mainly Beautiful Me though, I forgot how good both those songs were….Oh and Grease has been coming on a lot as well, can you guess what song!?

All The Love Always ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Just Called To Say I Love You….

I woke up with this song in my head earlier this morning for some odd reason, hence the reason for the title! When I randomly started singing this song I was thinking about how I don’t really sing Stevie Wonder songs out of nowhere to myself unless a Stevie Wonder song comes on, so I like to think that maybe someone is sending a telepathic message to me or something who knows…..to be honest I really don’t listen to this song all that often, I just tend to sing along to it whenever I hear its somewhere, so for it to just come to me randomly like that especially today….is very interesting!

Seeing that we’re talking about the song, I just want to let you know real quick that I only really know the chorus of the song, I think if you were to play it from the beginning and told me to guess what the song is, I wouldn’t know until maybe as it’s just heading into the chorus ha, but then again I might surprise myself I don’t know! I went ahead and looked up what the meaning of it meant and it pretty much said that you don’t need a special occasion to tell someone you love them, sometimes it’s the smallest gestures that will be just enough to where they they know you care about them, it’s a good song even if I don’t really listen to it!

That’s all I have to say for this post, I didn’t really expect to write too much about the topic, I just had the song in my head and felt like sharing on it, but before I wrap up this post, I’ve got a bit of updating to do on where we last left off in my latest post

Update Time:

I just wanted say that I know it’s been a while since my last post, which was two weeks ago yesterday….sorry about that, I’ve been taking a bit of time to give myself a break a bit, not just with writing, but with recording as well on my podcast, which is the first time since I’ve started it that I hadn’t recorded in a while, it was a bit weird if I’m being honest…..I’ve also been a bit under the weather recently, but I should be returning soon to everything! I didn’t forget about where I left off in the last post where I was suppose to share on Alexz Johnson’s latest album Still Alive,

I will be bringing that to you guys, I’ve actually recorded the episode about 3 times…..maybe 5 or so on my podcast and I’ve just not been happy with each one I’ve done, but I really do want to give my thoughts on the album because it really is such a great one and is definitely worth sharing!

So that will be if not the first one back, the next one after whatever the first episode back will be, I haven’t decided just yet….I’m not sure how I’m expecting it to come out, I think just when I feel it to be good enough for me in a sense to where I feel I’ve done my best with it and also to where it’s not an hour long haha, yeaahh so far that’s just how it’s been coming out, but I’m going to get it, I know it! I just hope you all enjoy it when it’s done, sorry for the delay of it I just want to make sure I’m giving the best content that I can give to you guys, be it writing or podcasting even though there are times where I feel I don’t really know what I’m doing on both sides, but I just try to keep doing my best with it and hope that it turns out okay!

Alrighty then, I shall leave you with two things,

1. if you would like to check out my latest podcast episode, you can have a listen to it here: Let’s Talk: Grease (Music Soundtrack) as you can obviously tell already, I went a bit out of my comfort zone and discussed upon a topic that I don’t normally talk about which is movie related, but also one that I tend to stay away from, not because I don’t like it, I just have my personal reasons for it…..which you’ll find out about in the episode!

Just to make it clear, I only talk about the main songs of the movie and maybe a bit about the movie itself, you’ll have to find out what I mean, I’m not giving it away haha! No it’s a really good episode, I think I’d consider it one of my favorites that I’ve recorded, which is big for me to say, because I was a bit surprised to how it came out, so do check it out, it’d really mean a lot and I’d appreciate you all forever ha! You can also find it on Spotify as well, hope you enjoy it!

Lastly, but certainly not least, I just want you guys to know….especially you if you’re reading this…..you know who you are, hopefully, you should at least lol…..

“I just called to say…I love you, I just called to say I care…I just called to say, I love you and I mean it from the bottom of my heart”

-Stevie Wonder

Photo by Miha Arh on Unsplash

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy Birthday Planet Earth!!

I’m not really sure how old you are, but all that matters is that you’re doing well and are still going strong, for everyone else Happy Earth Day!! I hope for those reading this right now that you’re doing well yourselves and are having a nice Thursday! Now for the topic….is there a topic!? Nope, not a specific one anyway, so this post is going to be pretty much whatever comes to mind, call it a surprise post if you will, might make it more interesting if you do if I’m being honest lol!!

Let’s turn it into a game, what kind of stuff can we add to this post to make it feel interesting!? Hmmm….well here’s what we know, we’re in the process of the Spring season, which is also allergy season and let me tell you, I’ve got a bit of allergies happening, but it’s going away, I’ve gotten pass the sneezing stage, where I was having a sneezing attack every few minutes these past couple of days, it’s clearing up little by little though! I know it probably hasn’t gotten interesting yet, but I’m sure I’ll get there….since it’s Earth Day, let’s talk about some Earth Day things in way, like did you know that Venus is Earth’s twin!?

Okay you probably knew that one, but did you know that when Earth had formed, it was all because an unknown planet or space rock had crashed into both Earth and Venus, but Earth had protection and it’s own armor which was it’s magnetic field, to keep it from having the massive impact that Venus took, it’s probably confusing I know, but you see at one point in space and time, you couldn’t really tell Venus and Earth apart, they literally looked the same! It took a collision to happen from another planet to have Earth be the Earth that we know and that a good amount of us out there love! With Venus on the other hand, well…..it’s full of fire, it’s literally called the hellish planet, now the debate is what’s hotter, the Sun or Venus!? Might be a stupid question, but that’s okay, because I’m the type to ask those types of stupid question and I’m alright with that!!

Seriously though I’d like to have a side by side on Venus’s heat level and the Sun’s heat level, yes the Sun might definitely win, but I like to think Venus can give it some serious competition alright, that’s just some stuff to know!

On a whole different random side note, when I played Animal Crossing: New Horizon earlier today, I expected to play the Nature Event in honor of Earth Day, in case some of you don’t know in Animal Crossing: New Horizons they have special events for certain holidays and they have a small little event for Earth Day, but anyway when I played the game earlier I was kinda looking forward to playing the event, but when I arrived at the town hall plaza, there was no Leif, no other Special Characters either…..well besides Flick the bug enthusiast, but yeah no it was just empty which was a little confusing to me, I then searched up when the Nature Day event was and I learned that Nature Day started on the 15th of this month and ended the 22nd which happens to be today! I thought that today would be the last day to do the event, whatever the event was this year, but apparently not, I personally think they should’ve kept it for the day of Earth Day as well because it would’ve worked well for one, but it is what it is!

I found out anyway that they removed some stuff from the event, which was cool (not that it was removed, just that I liked the things that they had with the event, just to be clear) wasn’t like a big thing, it was just a special bonus involving the nook miles, don’t know why they did that to be fair, but *shrugs shoulders and puts hands up* maybe I didn’t missed much after all who knows! Well that’s all of the thoughts that I have for this post, I just thought I’d share a couple things that came to mind, I know it was a bit random and I tried to keep it in the theme of today, so hopefully this was a somewhat interesting post to those reading this right now, I hope you all have a goodnight and Happy Earth Day or just Thursday!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Symptoms By Ashley Tisdale (Album Review)

May 14 2020 around 6:40pm close to 7pm

Before we get to this review I just wanted to quickly brief some things the reason I didn’t post this right after I finished my review is because I felt it was a little long with both updates I have going on right now,

I wrote the intro two days ago, but I didn’t hear the album until yesterday, the intro explains why, my mood has kinda been a weird one lately, but I did go and re listen to Symptoms and wrote all my thoughts about it after the second listen of it, I just wanted to shorten the length of this post and not have two things going on, hopefully it’s still not too long with this little update disclaimer, before we move on I just want to say that not a lots changed with my thoughts about it, only one thing, but it’s good so don’t worry…..not that you are i’m sure…..anyway let’s get to it shall we!?

May 12 2020 around 4pm in the afternoon

Okay so i’m about to re listen to Symptoms and re share my thoughts about it since my first listen of it, which was only a week ago actually, which is odd because it feels a lot longer than a week, I don’t know why!? Now i’ll be a little honest…….i’ve kinda sorta, have been putting it off, not because I don’t like it, but because I just haven’t been in the mode to sit and re hear it!!

The days I planned on re looking at it, I just wasn’t feeling it, so I would keep adding it towards a later date pushing it further and further back, but today we’re just going to do it, normally when listening to an album that i’ve gotten into or ones that I have on my listen to list that I feel I want to share and talk about, I like to record my reaction to it first and then give it at least a day to sink in before I write my thoughts on it as a post, it’s WAAAAY past a day as you already know……sorry about that…..but we are going to listen to it though and see if any of my thoughts went and changed within a week of the first listen of it, i’m excited to re hear it and get a refresher on it

Hopefully I still like the whole album, i’m sure I will, but opinions change so we’ll see!!

First song on the list…..which is the title of this album Symptoms:

Alright so here’s what I got on this song…..I felt it had a very nice chillness to it, I was feeling some emotions while listening a little, but that could’ve been some random ones trying to come up for all I know, but yeah,

There’s not too much to say on this one, the lyrics are good and so is the song….also remember when I said something changed a little from my first review of this album!? Yeah well this is what changed, when I first heard this song, I wasn’t sure how to feel about it, I knew I liked the song, but I didn’t know what to think of it at first, now i’m here to say that, it kinda feels like it could be a favorite…….probably need to hear it a third time,

before adding it to the definite list, that being said, i’ve also kinda set it out to be a favorite soooo……let’s just say……it is….but not definitely, definitely just yet, yeah!? okay glad we’ve discussed it!!

Next we have the runner up track of the album……Looking Glass

Have I set that up alright, did it make sense!? Hopefully it didn’t sound too cheesy, I know it might be a hit or miss there……i’ll take my chances….moving on though, okay so this song……..I love the grooviness of it and the lyrics are probably one of my favorites on this album, you just, you feel it……if I could describe it, i’d say it’s like a dance track, but it’s a very interesting song as well…..actually now that i’m thinking about it,

It sorta reminds me of another Ashley Tisdale song from her album Headstrong called Not Like That (which is one of my favorites off that album) because of the lyrics mainly, not comparing or anything, both songs are different of course, if you heard not like that and this song than you might hear it, but you might not as well, either way I really like this song,

my only thing with is…….I would’ve liked the beat to play by itself without some of the lyrics from the chorus finishing it off, only because I really like hearing the best, but that’s just a minor thing, when I heard it again, it really wasn’t that bad, so either way of it ending is fine, overall though the song is great, is it a favorite!? Kinda…..it’s the same as the first song, where it’s a favorite, but it’s not exactly on the favorite list, but also is…..

Let’s just say both Looking Glass and Symptoms are on the list…..they’re just written in pencil, but will soon be inked in the more I listen to them!!

In third place….no i’m kidding, the third track on this album is……Love Me and Let Me Go

Okay so this is probably one of what I would consider to be an interesting song to talk about, looking at the title you might think of it to be a specific thing, however when you hear it, you might find that it’s completely different to what you might’ve thought it to be……when I first heard this song, I felt it was a song written for herself as past tense or more like a letter to herself, but not at the same time, it’s hard to explain, but if you hear it, it might make sense, the second time hearing it though……

There was a song that actually came to mind when she was singing the lines “i’ve been chained up to my mind” and “tryna to leave it all behind” both from the first verse, however they have different lines to them, now at first I couldn’t quite put my finger on the song that it reminded me of, but after giving it a quick listen to it again…..I now know what it is…..it was a Matt Cardle song called When We Collide if you don’t know him he’s a great artist, he was actually on the X Factor (UK Version) great voice this one, but yeah this songs great, it’s actually one of my favorites,

but yes, Love Me and Let Me Go reminded me of that song, just with the way it was sung, he kinda does the same thing in the first verse of this song too and I just found it interesting that it reminded me of that, but back to the song we’re discussing off the Symptoms album it’s a great song, chorus is nice, the meaning with it is also pretty great, speaking of, I didn’t know what this song was actually about, I felt it was sung more towards herself, but when looking up the lyrics to get the lines to what I was talking about, I learned that,

I was correct in a way, it’s not a song towards herself per say, but to her Anxiety, which makes a whole lot of sense looking at it now and I gotta say I might just love it more, but even if I didn’t just find that out, I would’ve still said it was great and that I love it!!

On to one of my definite favorites on this album: Insomnia

Now I must note that when I realized this song was next when re listening to Symptoms, a smile came across my face, I LOVE THIS SONG!!!……LIKE LOVE IT!! it’s just soooo good this one, I mean if I had to describe it which I did when jotting down notes while listening to it……it’s quite subtle for one, definitely intimate, but not in the way where it’s too much, it’s the right kind okay!! There’s some temptation to it, but it’s not a bad temptation,

What I mean by that is, both the beat (music) and lyrics of the song just combined so well together, the beat does a great job at pulling you in and the lyrics just complement it sooo nicely, you know you’re getting a really nice meal with it, it’s great, I could try and explain it more, but i’m just going to tell you to listen to it, because it’s really great, after re hearing it,

I played it back about three times maybe before moving on the the next song that’s how much of a favorite of mine it is……..just…..beautiful!!

Moving on…..to track 5……Vibrations!!

Okay now just because the into of it is shorter than the others doesn’t mean that I didn’t like the song…….the same way I felt about it the first time, is the same way I feel about it now……it’s a pretty alright song, not a lot to say with it…..it’s one of those chill tracks, laying low and just enjoying the company of someone or maybe just your own company, which ever you prefer, but you can’t go wrong with a fun time and that’s what this song brings, I feel this might be a kind of soft spot kind of song, where it’s not a favorite per say, but I still can appreciate it for what it is and enjoy it at the same time!!

Track 6…….Under Pressure

Which happens to have some shorter thoughts to the one prior, which is just I love it!!…….seriously that’s all, it’s one of those relatable songs, that you feel once you hear the lyrics, the title really does say it all, but it’s a great song, but I really love about it though is, although the lyrics express on feeling under pressure, no pun intended……it also turns it around and makes it into a positive which is good……..so yeah, it’s good song!!

We’ve now reached track 7 or as I like to call it number SEVEEEEEEEN!! (if you watched my Jonas Brothers album review, you’ll get it!!) track 7…..True Romance

There’s a reason I say it like that, lately and don’t know why, but number 7 seems to be the number that just gets my emotions running because in my Jonas Brothers album review of Happiness Begins, number 7 was a favorite and had my emotions going a little and in this album review of Symptoms, number 7 happened to also get my emotions running and so i’m just accepting that it’s going to be like that with these kind of songs,

I’m not even going to express my thoughts on this one because it’s the same reaction I had when I first reviewed it, I still love it, the lyrics still get me and it’s still a favorite of mine and that’s a definite on that one!!!

Track 8……Voices In My Head

Now i’m sure most or if not some of you will remember that I gave my thoughts one this song around the time it was out for, if you haven’t you can find it here: Voices In My Head (Thoughts) because I heard this song, I wasn’t going in not knowing what to expect from it, like the other songs off the album when I first heard them, so re hearing it my reaction for it never changed, I actually love this song, it’s one of my favorite, I still listen to it from time to time and if I don’t……i’m most likely singing it to myself because it decided to get stuck in my head randomly on a certain day so yeah, but it’s great song, also very relatable and super catchy might I add!!

We’ve come to the last track of the album, track 9…..Feeling So Good!!

I actually don’t have that much to say about it…..when I first heard it I believe I had the same reaction, it a nice fun song, about feeling good and just enjoying yourself really……I did say that this could’ve been on the Happiness Begins album, because I could definitely see Joe, Nick and Kevin singing this song as well, maybe with Ashley, have them featured on it, you know…..just saying…….no, but seriously (hint, hint. wink. wink.)

Good song this one is, I feel like I heard some people in the background at the end of the song…..specifically Vanessa!? HSM cast cameo within the song!? others possibly, most likely…..who knows right!? Okay i’ll stop now, sometimes I just can’t help myself……

Final Thoughts:

Everything I said in my first reaction of it, I also said that I wish this album had more songs, because 9 wasn’t enough….still slightly feel that way with it, because I want to hear more Ashley Tisdale songs, but now i’m okay with what we got with the Symptoms album, there wasn’t one song that I didn’t like, which is good because that’s what I wanted originally and i’m glad that didn’t change in this second review of it!!

I really did enjoy re listening to it, Symptoms is a really great album, I love it and i’m looking forward to hearing more of Ashley Tisdale when we do, she really is a favorite of mine to both watch and listen to!!

That’s all for this album review, thank you for taking the time to read it if you did and I hope you truly enjoyed it, if you want to see my first reaction of when I first listened to it, you can find it here: Now Playing: Symptoms By Ashley Tisdale (Album Review) – First Reaction Review hope you all are doing well, staying safe and your days are going okay!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Chat: How Are You!?

I’m finding myself going back and forth through two posts that i’ve pre written, but still yet to post, it’s like I don’t really know what to keep my focus on other than Animal Crossing New Horizons, which by the way (side tracking here for a brief moment) is a REALLY, amazing game!!

Well it’s pretty great anyway, the amazing part might just be me hyping it up just a little bit…..but New Horizons aside……I don’t know what or where to keep my mind on……I don’t know if any of you are having that kind of day as well or have been having those kind of days!?

Speaking of how are you all doing!? How have you been dealing and getting through all that’s been happening!? I know a lot of people are probably finding it a somewhat difficult or maybe a whole lot difficult, maybe some of you are taking it somewhat okay than most people might…..

I know everyone has different ways of dealing with things, I don’t know how a lot of you are getting through this, but hopefully you’re all doing alright and are keeping safe and well, I know it’s not been the most best of days of late, but hopefully you’ve all had something to look forward to, maybe it’s a new video game, book, music, organizing something!? You’d be surprise on what can be a big help to kick up a low kind of mood!!

This isn’t a long post as you can see…..i’m just curious and genuinely want to know how you guys have been getting through all of this and if there’s anything right now that has been not only keeping you busy, occupied and productive, but also just giving you something to look forward to and keeping your minds to not have you think about what’s going on 24/7!?

All The Love

Lexa

Has Communication Really Become So Hard These Days!?

I tell you some people sure know how to communicate……I say that sarcastically by that way, in case that was missed!! Now i’m going to try and keep things on a positive outlook to this topic, because it just seems really easy to go on a negative rant here and i’m not going to lie to you guys, buuut, it’s kinda what i’m feeling here, however i’m going to do my best to keep it the rant from overpowering here…..Let’s just talk calmly about this!!

Before anything though……..i’m going to take a small break so I can eat, i’m kinda hungry so…..be right back (Lunch Break……) Back….sorry that took a while, you know I forgot just how good goldfish snacks are, if you’re not careful you’ll end up eating the whole bag, I had to put it away from me that’s how addictive they are, still good though!!

Anyway on to the topic of communications……now we all know that communications is a way of expression, when we communicate we tell about the things that we feel as well as what we care about, but it seems these days communication is a little hard to reach at time, scratch that it’s not the communication that’s hard, but the listening that seems to be the issue at times, why is that!? When did listening become so hard to do!?

Now let’s get this straight alright, sometimes we aren’t all great listeners and when we know we should be, we still sometimes have a hard time taking things in the way we should……it’s a weird thing, but even when listening and communicating is a hard thing, sometimes we need to know when to really listen, if there’s something that needs expressing we have to learn how to shut our mouths and open our ears, that’s how we show our support and love to people and if happens that someone we may just be encountering for the first time needs to express something,

That’s how we show care and compassion as human beings, sometimes we all have a little too much we’re trying to handle, some of those things being mentally or emotionally and so forth and because we do, we just need a little support, we may not ask about it, but sometimes you can just feel it or see even, we don’t always have to show support in a huge way, sometimes a simple ear to lend can be that big support that someone needs,

Having a chat can even be a big thing for some, I don’t think we look at listening and communicating as an important thing these days, some people would rather sit silently, not saying that’s a bad thing, because it’s not, it’s just sometimes silence can seem like an enemy and can be a little loud for our psyche to deal with especially when thoughts start being added the mix.

So just because silents can be a good thing for us, doesn’t mean we always want to sit with it for a long period of time…..sometimes we need distracts that help get us out of our heads and a good distraction is communicating in what ways!? Well that depends on what’s needed,

Sometimes it’s talking about what we’re feeling, other ways it’s talking randomly and seeing how weird the conversation can get, but the take away to those conversations is also listening, opening our ears and turning up the volume a little so we’re hearing everyone word possible,

That’s how we understand each other better and sometimes by doing that we help someone feel a little better and vice versa!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Why Does Everything Have To Be So Negative!?

Good day to you all, I hope you’ve all been doing well and are having a good, productive, occupied, nice kind of day with whatever you’re doing!! Let’s talk about some stuff yeah!? I feel like it’s been a while since i’ve written anything on a serious topic so let’s see what comes out with this one, that i’ve just gotten in the mood to talk about.

Before we get to writing, I just want to say that I hope you all are staying safe and well and that things are going okay with you, I know with everything going on it’s not really been the best of days lately……speaking on that topic actually, you’d think that things would be a little upbeat or at least attempt to be upbeat anyway, but it just seems as though things keep lowering on the energy level, by that I mean, negative feelings!!

I mean you do your best to keep things afloat and try and keep the energy up, but for some reason it’s like the negative over powers what could be positive!! I’m fully aware and understand the events of what’s going on in the world, I know it’s a serious manner, but that doesn’t mean we should allow the negative effects of it, to be our only focus, that being said now,

In this time it’s important to be of support to each other, be it who we’re around or even just talking via social media and that, we shouldn’t keep ourselves down and we shouldn’t let others feel down either, with what’s going on it’s important to take this time to not only give focus to the things that need our attention, but also do our best to be there for one another,

We all are feeling in different ways, some of us have learned to stay calm, some are struggling with this social distancing a little more than others and some have learned to use this time both a little and quite productively, there’s different ways we’re coping with everything going on, some of us may not know how to handle this whole thing, but that’s why we’re here.

We don’t always need to have things to say, but giving a little support towards each other does wonders believe it or not, we don’t have to keep our focus on the negatives so much, sure it’s a little difficult to do, but there’s ways to turn it around, we just have to allow ourselves to do so.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa