Happy Weekend Everyone! I hope that your day is going okay so far! I must say I’m a bit happy that this week is done and that we’ve entered the weekend….it’s been a long stressful anxious week and it’s not really been the greatest! If I’m being honest I’m still feeling quite anxious and a little overwhelmed, I thought it would go away, but no, it’s still there ha! It’s just been a really shit week and I don’t normally swear, but it’s how I feel, but I’m doing by best to try and make the most out of these days and keep positive in the best way I’m able to….key word trying….!

I normally don’t like talking about the way I’m feeling, but I don’t know how else to handle these emotions that have just come out of nowhere for me, since yesterday all I’ve been wanting to do is cry, my Anxiety has been up the wall and the sucky part is I really don’t know why…..scratch that there’s a few reasons, but I choose not to share upon them, but other than part of the reason, the other parts I really don’t know….all I know is I’ve just been feeling super stressed out this week and I’m trying to keep my emotions under control, but it’s becoming very hard….I don’t know if maybe sharing these feelings this way will help me to calm down a bit, I’m hoping it does, maybe that’s what I need a good expression session!

October has been very odd, it started off okay and not that bad, except for a couple of things and now it just feels like everything is going all over the place, so much is happening and I guess it’s happening super quickly and that’s why I’m feeling overwhelmed by it all, I’m not used to everything going by super quickly, I thought I was handling it pretty well and maybe I was, but all the craziness and just everything has started catching up to me, but I’m trying to stay calm! I’m trying not to lose control of it, because I know that if I do, it’s just going to get worst and I don’t want that to happen!

So I’m trying to keep my feet planted even if I do get pushed back a bit…I know I got to keep them planted and keep going, it’s the only way things will get better….I got a trip coming up in literally a week now and although I feel excited about it, I’m also very nervous and as much as I don’t want to be nervous I am…..I guess part of me is just hoping that it all goes well, it’s a long of way as I’ll be going to visit my partner finally being able to see him after a very long while…..not only that, but I’ll be seeing something completely new…..which is a bit scary, I mean anything new is quite scary really, but I’m excited because at least I’ll be able to see him….it doesn’t mean I’m not still nervous though! There’s just so much going on in my head and they’re all just combining together to the point where it’s just an overwhelming feeling and it’s the only feeling that I can seem focus on at the moment!

I’m just tired, but I’m still going to do my best to push through it as best as I can, I’m just hoping that the upcoming week is better than this past week and that there’s at least a good amount of fresh air to be inhaled, but for the time being I feel I just need to hold my breath or catch my breath even, before heading into the next few days coming…..I really hope that you guys are having a much better day and weekend…..it’s been quite the month and we’re just getting ready to wrap it all up, one thing I will say is…I do feel slightly better, not quite, but a bit, but hey I’ll take it and I’ll keep trying to make the most of these next few days, you guys take care!

By the way my latest podcast episode is up, if you guys want to check it out, you have a good rest of the day!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa