2 Years Of Blogging (Part 2)

Hiya, hope you’re all doing well, I know it’s been a week now since my first part of this post, I have been meaning to write the second part to it, but I didn’t want to write it, until I knew I felt good enough to write it and so that’s why it’s taking me a bit to get to this post, I didn’t want to rush it by any means……now to be completely honest…….

Where this post is going I don’t know, i’m kinda just going to go with it, it might just be a theme here now that i’m thinking about it, but let’s just see where this post chooses to travel…..okay so I know I didn’t quite go into details of what 2 years of blogging has felt like or has been in the first part of it…….and to share some thoughts on that part…….i’m not really sure what to express on what it’s been like…….when I first started this blog, it was to have it be a place where I felt I could express myself, there was no theme at all to it, it was just a blog of expression, however I felt I tried to express

myself in the best way that could……for while I feel like I did that okay if that makes sense!? To be fair I still consider this to be my blog of expression, there have been times where I tried to come up with a theme…..and I always had trouble with that…..

You see although I can theme certain things out…..blogging was one of those things I found hard to give a theme to…….there were many times where i’d worry and go into overthink mode wondering if I was doing all of this right or not and i’d even stress myself out about it and sometimes it’ll get to a point where I would stop writing for a while and i’d go back and fourth with myself on whether I should continue with this blog, you know the natural worries when it comes to having a blog and that……

There were times where i’d notice i’d write about anything whether it made sense or not, just because I felt I needed to post all the time and I guess doing that probably didn’t help creativity wise……let’s just say there’s a lot i guess I can talk on……that’d make it a very long post ha!! One of the main things though was, I made this blog to have as an outlet to express when I didn’t feel I was able to in the way I wanted to,

but even then I still felt it hard to express at times……when it comes to personal things even though i’ll express on it to an extent……you’ll never see me go into full details to whatever i’m expressing about and i’m detailed person irl (in real life) by the way, but if it’s too personal, although I won’t say exactly what it is about, i’ll still express on what i’m feeling just differently……that said, there were moments where I stopped expressing because I didn’t want it to come across a certain way…….yet I knew I had things I wanted to share that was kind of personal that I wanted to get out

Again it’s actually quite a lot now that i’m writing about it, there might just be a part 3 here……if so it’ll be shorter in words, but these 2 years on this blog well they’ve been something and by something I mean a mixture of different emotions and thoughts and all that jazz, again i’ll shorten it in the next part, I didn’t think there’d be so much expression happening to describe blogging for two years, but here we are, i’m going to try and make this 3rd and last post part the overall view of having this blog shorter

There’s still some stuff I want to express on because I don’t feel this to be finished so, I hope you all enjoy this second part in someway and if you haven’t read the first part you can find it here: 2 Years Of Blogging (PartΒ 1)

To be continued and finished……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Be Prepared…..

Before we start going on with this topic first i’d like to give it a bit of light by saying that this title, is also a song title, from one of my favorite movies the Lion King, I wrote it out and thought of the song because yeah I just did!!

Now this may get serious, but it may not, i’m not really sure how i’m expecting this post to go and maybe I don’t need to, so i’m just going to let it flow out how it’s wanting to……they say it’s important to be prepared always, yet at times there are moments that even when you think you’re prepared, there’s always a chance something’s going to end up catching you off guard……no matter how many times you may do your best to make sure

You’re not missing something, a lot of those times you may because you can’t be prepared for everything, sometimes a lot of the things that happen, comes from it being unexpected and yeah not knowing what to expect can get stressful and there’s going to be moments where you may get frustrated or angry even, but when we start to feel those emotions……we have to keep in mind that it’s not going to always be something we can control.

Things happen and sometimes even when you’re prepared, it doesn’t mean that you’re always going to be fully prepared, prepared……maybe that doesn’t make much sense…..but what i’m trying to get at is……even when things seems to be a little out of control……be prepared for the moments that you’re not prepared for, it’s like that saying expect the unexpected….

A lot of the time we don’t know a lot that is going to happen, but it doesn’t mean that we can’t always suit up for it in the best way possible, we may not know what’s to come, but we have to believe that whatever it is, it’ll be good in someway and who knows it may just be the very thing that we’ve been looking for without realizing or most likely something we didn’t see coming that we didn’t even think about in the first place!!

When we least expect it, we will soon find or come across something that might just be hard to explain at this moment, but will soon make much more sense to where we know and feel it to be just that thing that we needed……it’s all about patience and trusting the process that whatever is coming, we may not always be entirely prepared, but for the most part we’re still prepared in a way, though there’s times we don’t always expect it.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

You Were Here…..

How to start this…….you were here……you were here yesterday with me……you might’ve also been hanging around in general, but I knew that I wasn’t going crazy and today proved it right with your little paw prints appearing all over the place……but I knew you were with me yesterday at first I thought I was just over my head and that it was just me,

but nope it was you, you were here and for a good while too at that, you stayed with me, sure you went in and out a few times, but you always came back for a bit and when you did, you always sat right next to me even when I moved about, wherever I went you laid next to me……I know you eventually left though, but within the moments that you were around

I was happy and glad that you had visited and I made sure to appreciate your presence for the time you were here for…….i’m not really sure where you entered first, but I guess that’s not all that important, all that matters is that you were here and you let me know you were here and for that i’m happy……I miss you everyday my crazy girl, thank you for coming by to visit and for spending some time with me in the process……

It was good to have you around again, even if it was only for the moment. I’m sure you’ll make your presence known again when you’re not busy doing whatever you’re doing, be it running around, driving people nuts or just being peanut haha, you know i’ll keep looking for you, but until then……I’m glad to know you’re doing okay and are well, I love you and I look forward to your next visit, be good and try not to cause too much trouble alright!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Daytime Firefly

So I see you came by for a visit, I knew that was you the other day and to see you again this morning, I knew you showing up by my window wasn’t just me being crazy haha…..where you came from i’ll never know, all I know is that you showed up during the daytime, when fireflies usually come out towards the night……maybe that was your way of letting me know that yes that was you the other day and you were just saying hi this morning!!

I thought I heard you yesterday a few times, at first I thought it could’ve just been me hearing things, but than again I don’t think it was, I know how you sound and whether it was just me or my thoughts about you being around was right and you were following me making sure I was okay and that, you always did follow me around and sometimes it drove me nuts, you didn’t know how to stay still, but I could never blame you for it, it was just you!!

I mean it was in your nature…….although it’s only been a few days, I miss you everyday my crazy girl……the way you’d spin around every time you thought we were going outside, how you’d get so excited about EVERYTHING!! So hyper you were, the word calm never appealed to you, you just did your own thing, we couldn’t tell you anything……..

It’s really hard not seeing you, right now you’d be sitting by my door or near it in someway or sitting by the front door, you always liked doing that for some reason, i’ll never understand that……and even though it’d do my head in, i’m going to miss how you’d let me know someone was at the door even when I was already heading towards it lol, again you were crazy,

but I loved you for it anyway……I know i’m going to have to keep strong and get through this somehow……and I know I will get through it, but that doesn’t mean i’m not going to wish you were here…..now even though your not with me, with me……I do know you’re around in your own way, i’m sure you haven’t quite left my side, again you were always near me,

but it’s just different and i’m having to find ways of dealing with it right now I don’t know if you’ll understand that…….it’s weird because I didn’t think it’d be this tough, yet it is…….and maybe that’s because we’ve had you for so long……but I know that eventually it won’t be so hard, yeah i’ll still miss you, but it’ll become a little easier……I just need to give it a bit…….

but i’m gonna try and be strong and keep looking up and around for you, you’ll probably show up unexpectedly, but I know you’ll make sure I know you’re with me someway, like today….you don’t know that fireflies don’t show up during the day much, but again you always did do what you wanted and you showed up anyway, just like the little rascal you are!!

Thank you for that, I know you felt me missing you and you made sure to let me know you were okay and it made me happy knowing that, I even saw you Ang flying around to give me reassurance that all is well and fine, thank you as well for that……I miss and love you so much my now little firefly……You behave yourself and please listen to Angel don’t cause him too much trouble alright…..knowing you though you still might, because of how sassy you are, but I just wanted to let you know I saw you and heard you and that i’m always going to look for your face!! I love you peanut!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Processing….

You ever have a moment happen whether it was unexpected or not so unexpected and you happen to just go within that moment for a second not really knowing what to expect, but once you find yourself in it it’s not until after to where you really realize what just happened and so you find yourself just still trying to process what actually happened!?

Sometimes you have to take a moment and take things in a lot of the time it won’t really make sense and sometimes you’ll find yourself asking a lot of questions, but even when we aren’t quite sure on what exactly is going on taking the time to process things can really help you to think clearly about everything. We don’t always know what is the best way to process things at times, I don’t think there’s really a right way to process…….

I think you’re just meant to process it how you’re feeling it in the moment, depending on what you’re feeling, it might leave you filled with emotions or other feeling and sometimes you won’t always be able to control them, but as long as we do our best to keep things calm especially when not really all that prepared, then the process won’t really seem all that much, it’s also important to make sure that when we find ourselves thinking of things that need a little bit of a moment to process, we don’t go overthinking about it for too long, when we allow our brains to overthink, we give it too much power and we end up having a hard time trying to quiet it down.

So whenever it comes to processing, we just have to try and keep calm and keep our brains from over flowing with thoughts and know that if we need to feel what we’re trying to process, it’s okay to feel them feel them, when we allow ourselves to feel while processing everything, we let any pent up emotions we’ve been burying surface and allow them to release from our system, allowing us to feel a little lighter, letting the rest of our thoughts come to us a little more clearer…….fully processing things even when we don’t quite get it in the moment, can really help make things a bit easier.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Soooo I Did Something…..

After giving it a good amount of thought, I finally decided to go forth with something I had in mind for a while, I decided to start fresh and make a whole new channel, youtube channel, again it took a good amount of thought, I wasn’t completely sure on it when trying to decide, before deciding I thought about adding to the one I already had, but I felt that it would just be everywhere and I just felt the need to start something completely new away from that one, I still have it, I have all the ones i’ve made…..yeah I have 4 now……the last one was suppose to be the last one,

but yeah that changed……I really wanted to have something different with this one, which is why I went on and created a new one, kinda based around the blog actually, well it has the same name as the blog, I wanted to express in another way, so whenever i’m not really writing much, i’m sharing some stuff to be important in the moment and sometimes when you have a lot you feel like saying, it’s kinda hard to write it all, I mean you think a post isn’t all that long, until you find yourself reading it back and realize “oh well that’s quite a lot of words happening there!!”

No, but I thought for days where i’m not in much of a writing mode, I could share all that I want in a short video and get it out a bit more better when i’m not quite sure how in writing and vice versa. Now I only have two videos at the moment, I tried to share it on here, but it wasn’t quite working properly to where you could see them, but I did share the new channel, you’ll find it with the socials, twitter ect….feel free to check it out whenever

I hope you enjoy them in someway, but anyway that is all I wanted to share with you guys, just a quick post, I hope you all had a good day and your weekends been well and all and I hope your nights been well too!!

New Channel: Life As A Daydreamer

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Calm…..It’s Okay To Feel You Know!?

Close your eyes and breathe relax and breathe……it’s okay, you’re okay, we are okay. Don’t think that it’s not okay to feel the way you are feeling right now, it’s alright, everything’s alright, I know all these feelings are swirling around and it don’t quite feel all that nice, but it’s going to be fine!!

Don’t think that you shouldn’t feel what it is you’re feeling, they’re meant to come out, it may not make sense to why they’re coming out, but you’re having to release them for a reason……it’s been sitting there for quite some time now, it’s time to let them out…….just because it’s confusing considering how the days been, it’s been pretty alright yeah!?

I know you’re feeling sorry and guilty for letting whatever is going on out, but you shouldn’t be, we all need to let it out sometime, even if it doesn’t quite make sense to when it feels the need to come out, it’s time to heal, allow yourself to heal the way it’s happening and don’t be so hard on yourself about it, allow yourself to feel those emotions and know that it’s for a reason and it’s okay…..it’ll take some time, but be patient……

You’re doing alright, so there’s no need to stress yourself out about it, just trust that everything is going to be alright and it’ll all work out in time, trust yourself and believe in yourself as well, don’t fret it’s all going to be alright!! πŸ™‚

Hope You Don’t Mind Me Checking In…..

Hey……i’m not really sure how to start this conversation or slight conversation, i’m just checking in, I hope all is well and that your day was good, I know it’s a specific kind of day for you today, i’m not really sure how you’ve been feeling or if you’ve been okay, i’m sure you’ve been fine and are actually doing pretty well, I mean I know you’re doing well, but you know what I mean, not trying to be weird here or anything……

How was your day, I hope it went well and everything, I also hope that everything went well last weekend with what you had going, I didn’t forget, I know I probably could’ve messaged you this, but I didn’t know how or whether it was okay, but I still wanted to check in, since I knew what today was and just see how you were doing in someway, I hope that’s alright.

Anyway, I don’t think I have anything else to say here, but I hope you had a good day and are doing and feeling alright…..

All The Love ❀ ❀ ❀

Lexa

Hey, What’s Going On!!

Today, i’m filled with a sense of calm and some alertness, well I was earlier anyway, not really sure how those two ended up combining, but i’ll take it for what it is I suppose, how are things with you, are you well, happy, are you enjoying yourself!? I don’t really know the kind of questions to ask,

I know today’s your day and I hope things are okay with you, if i’m being honest, these past two days have been something and I don’t really know why, it could’ve been for a number of reasons for all know, today though, it’s okay……in case you didn’t know, you’ve been in my thoughts, maybe you knew that, I don’t know sometimes you can think of someone, but they don’t know that you are, but inside you hope that they can feel it or sense it, you know!? Sometimes they might and you don’t have any idea on it…..weird right!? I hope you know I miss you and always keep you in my mind,

Even when I may not know it……I don’t know what you’re up to or if you’re doing okay, but I do hope that you are and that things are going well, can you believe it’s your birthday, i’m trying to figure out how old you would’ve turned today, but I wouldn’t know, 25, 26……around those yeah!? Don’t quote me, I hope you went by Sam and said hi, I know she misses you too

We always do……i’m not getting emotional here, no matter what you may think or say alright!! It’s hard not getting to speak to you when we need to, but I know that even when we can’t hear you, that you still listen and are always there for us if anything…..i’m okay if you’re wondering, not sure on Sam, but i’ll be sure to check in on her and make sure she okay, you stop by too and see as well okay……anyway I won’t make this too long of a post, I just wanted to say a big Happy Birthday and that I hope you’ve been doing well.

Miss you always Ang….

P.S. I hope I got your birthday right, i’m sure I did though, I wouldn’t forget….

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Doodle Chats….

Hiya so how’s everyone’s day going or shall I say how has it been!? Since it’s already pretty dark out, I hope it’s been going well, my days been on a bit of a swirl around, what does that mean, I don’t know, it was the first thing that sorta came to mind…..speaking of mind i’m feeling like chatting, but nothing that’s going to be too deep, you know, i’m kinda in the mode where I need to keep my mind occupied, it hasn’t really been able to properly focus,

So I thought instead of writing about something deep or how i’ve been writing these past few days, we could just chill out and talk about something, I hope that’s alright…..i’m not really sure what’s been up today, but i’ve just not been able to really focus for some reason, i’ve actually been doodling more today then i’ve been writing and I was trying to come up with something all day to share, but nothing really stuck out to my liking and so that’s why the title for this post is doodle chats,

The concept to it is being able to just keep at a calm level while doodling and just talking about things, what things!? Who knows, I guess you can say their randomized, they probably should be around the doodles I do and why I made them, but it’s a bit hard to describe your doodles, if you freely draw based off what you’re emotions and thoughts are, the doodle I made today, I made two actually, one isn’t really finished and as for the other one,

It’s finished, but it isn’t colored or outlined, i’ll outline it tonight, not sure about coloring, because I don’t have any colors in mind for it yet, when I finish outlining it i’ll share it with you guys, maybe you can try and interpret the reason I might’ve created it, but other than that, I don’t really have much else to say here, if anything pops up i’ll share it of course.

Here’s the doodle from today, not sure if you can tell much on what it actually is, I know with drawing’s especially doodles it’s hard to really make out what the picture is, i’m not really sure myself what it is, but I do still see something in it, maybe you might as well, it might be different to what I see, but everyone’s perspective is different right!? I know it doesn’t have color so it may not look like much, once I decide on what colors to use, maybe it’ll be more clear to what it could be or maybe it’ll still be questionable ha!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa