My Trip To PR (Puerto Rico)

Happy Friday everyone, hope you all are having a good day and enjoying yourself!! Not going to lie…..It really doesn’t feel like Friday today, I actually woke up unsure if it was Friday or not and then I learned it was Friday, which is weird, I think the trip I just came back from sorta messed up my days a bit…..regardless I hope you’re all well and keeping safe! Now you may have noticed I hadn’t written in while, with the exception of yesterday’s post stating that I’m back and better than ever lol (if you get it, you get it)

Anyway so we don’t delay on what this post is about, you can probably take a huge wild guess, seeing that I’ve just come back from an unexpected vacation, I thought I’d share my experience on that with you guys, now even though I say unexpected, I did know about it, I just weren’t expecting myself to go to it, it was actually a last minute decision when I decided and it was preety hectic as well, I was calm about it though, everything else was kinda chaotic, not too much though, to jump into it…..I finally went on a trip to Puerto Rico, it was the first time I had ever been there, which you would think I’d gone a lot seeing that my mom is from there, buuut no I’ve never been to Puerto Rico until recently, like literally went on the day of my 3 year blog anniversary!

I was there for a week, left Sunday (July 11th) and came back early in the morning on Monday (July 19th) the flight was actually pretty cool….I was a bit nervous going on a plane, although it wasn’t my first time, but it’s been a while, but while on the plane I actually found myself loving being on it, it took about 3 and half hours to get there from where I’m from, but it wasn’t all that bad, to be fair I did have my headphones in throughout the trip heading to PR that and I was enjoying looking out at the sky through the window soooo that’s the flight part of the journey (I did have a picture of it, but it wasn’t off of my phone so sorry about that)

Now let’s get into the days of the adventure shall we!?

Day 1 (Uno) -Settling In Morovis (July 11th)

My first day in PR was…..very hot, like the heat was intense, it was sooo humid over there, however Puerto Rico’s heat is a lot different then the heat in New Jersey, where I’m from, also you’ll find if ever any of you decide to take a trip over there, just know that the weather is very weird, one minute it’s hot and another minute rain shows up, like literally it’ll rain then stop and the suns and repeat after that, I thought my mom was kidding, but she wasn’t when she told me about it every time she would go, now I can say I’ve experienced it myself!!

When I got to Puerto Rico though, I wasn’t actually sure what to expect, obviously it’s an Island so I expected that, as for everything else I didn’t know what I was going to be exploring until I got there, it was nice, just very hot, we didn’t really do too much the first day, we did a little bit of running around, grabbed some food, which by the way I ordered in Spanish…..we’ll half Spanish, but I still tried so I was proud of myself for attempting to order in Spanish, I know a bit, but not that much, I do understand it, I just don’t know how to really speak it, yeah I know….

There’s a couple of things that I learned while there on the first day and one of those things is there are some very windy roads, like you’re always turning corners and you’ll find out how small the roads are, highways are different, regular roads, let’s just say there should not be a two entrance on some of them, that’s how tight the roads are seriously, on a different note….you’ll also learn there are a LOT of animal, cows, chickens, lizards, Horses, just a lot of animals and in the morning if your not an early person just know the roosters will wake you up, especially if you’re a light sleeper who likes sleep…..I didn’t mind it, I wake up pretty early anyway, not super early, but early enough!

Another thing you’ll notice is there’s a lot of natural fresh grown fruits and vegetables, although I probably seen more fruits then veggies, the supermarkets are a bit different, but also not different, but there are places you wouldn’t normally see on a regular basis unless you lived in PR, now that I think about it Day 1 was pretty eventful even though we didn’t do too much!

Day 2 (Dos) – Cero Gordo Beach (July 12th)

We’ve entered day dos in PR, up early had coffee, took a few photos on this day, I wrote in my journal/notebook, I made sure I took one with me so I could have an idea for when I came back to share on the blog, but when I took some photos I was just getting the hang of the manual setting of the camera I have and so I was excited so I mentioned it…..fast forwarding toward what the day for Day 2 was like, we went to a beach, now I’m not the biggest fan of beaches, it’s like my least favorite place to go, beaches are beautiful don’t get me wrong…..I just don’t like to go to them, I sit in the sand and watch and listen to the waves, everyone knows how calming they are, but going in the water…..is a meh for me, that being said, I did go into this beach water, it was pretty clear and you could kinda see everything, lots of seaweed in the water, which I didn’t like….although it made me laugh because it tickled my feet,

but I still didn’t like the feeling, also the water at this beach was EXTREMELY SALTY, I know beaches are meant to be like that, but I’m telling you if you went to this one and went under the water and came back up, your sinus would be CLEARED so if you’re having a bit of Sinus issue this water will clear it *snap* like that lol I only went into this beach water once and then I just sat in the sand, wrote in my journal and took pictures of the scenery around me which was nice there was a lot of Pelicans and a lot of them we’re flying in the air and then just dove in the water and it always looked like they were hurting themselves, but they were just looking for food so no worries! I also experienced an albino crab in the sand, I took a video of it, it did not like being bothered, I don’t have the video on the computer, but I do have a picture so you’ll see it in a moment!

After we finished on the beach we got a few icy’s I had a coconut one and snickers, I didn’t quite like the coconut one, okay I did, but I didn’t and that’s because I don’t like actual coconut flakes, I like the flavor of coconut, but not the flakes, the actual coconut itself and so forth and my icy had a lot of the flakes and I could not enjoy it, the snickers one however was great….I had it a little bit after we were meant to leave, but hey it was still good!!

Day 3: Tres -Goza Landia (July 13th)

Day 3 of PR the morning started on the delayed side in terms of breakfast, it took forever just to get a couple of sandwiches, but just leave it there on that! Day 3’s journey was a bit of a long one, it took a while to get to where we were going, but when we did get there…..it was good time, we went to this Waterfall place, but it wasn’t your typical kind of waterfall, this waterfall you could actually swim in which was very nice, also it felt like a hike to me, because we kind of did sorta hike, there were different sections of the Waterfall place we were at that you could go into,

If you wanted to be at the very top you had to walk a distance, if you wanted to be at the bottom you only had to go a little while, we ended up in the middle section, it was the one we chose, but also one I preferred, plus there was a lot of people at the top of the waterfall and we were kind of looking for less people so the middle worked just fine, it was pretty deep too the water, it didn’t look it, but when you go into it, you see it, it wasn’t too deep, I can’t handle water that’s too deep….it frightens me also I’m not that great of a swimmer anyway sooo yeah lol…..

The best part about this Waterfall place was you could swim in it while enjoying the view as well, if I had to say what my favorite place was, this would be it, because it’s so different, you wouldn’t think you could swim in a waterfall like that, you also had places to sit if you wanted to get out of the water a bit, didn’t have to worry about no sand, although you did have to watch your step because it’s quite slippery! There were moments where I felt like I was rock climbing and I don’t know I just felt like I was in my element in that place, the waterfall place is what I mean, it was just a cool experience and the best thing I ever got to do, if anyone reading this ever goes to Puerto Rico go to that place, I think you’ll enjoy it!!

Also I saw some turtles, I saw a crane, Crawfish and Shrimp, it was a good time, I really enjoyed myself there!! P.S. I also tried a passionfruit for the first time, it wasn’t bad!!

Day 4: (Cuatro) – Colorful Shopping Center (July 14th)

Day 4’s journey…..we didn’t really do all that much for day 4, not a lot was happening entertainment wise, sooo we ended up exploring the shopping centers around wherever the heck it was, I don’t remember the name of the area we were in, now I call it the colorful shopping center because it was colorful, I didn’t actually take pictures of it because I didn’t feel like I needed to really bring my camera so sorry for that…..after we did some shopping and looking around, we went for something to eat, I tried this place called Mango where they have a lot of fresh food, I saw it last time and wanted to try it so when we went again I made sure to give it a look….surprisingly it was pretty good, their stuff is healthy, I had a veggie power bowl, I’ve been changing my way of eating, I don’t want to say I’m Vegetarian exactly because I still eat Chicken, I just don’t eat pork or beef anymore, but I eat more fish then chicken sooo….

I’m just eating better for myself let’s just say that….the Veggie power bowl was good, I was curious to try it, I thought it was going to be a hot meal with rice and steamed Vegetables ….but it was cold…..I then came to the conclusion that it was a salad…..but let me tell you it was an amazing salad, like I enjoy a good salad here and there, my favorite salad is the Parmesan Cesar salad from Wendy’s, but this one like I don’t know what it was, but it was lovely, it had Spinach, tomatoes, black beans, cheese and I think some other stuff, I can’t remember and the dressing was great, I think it was an Italian/Vinaigrette type dressing, regardless it was lovely and I loved it, very nice, I also had a Banana Strawberry smoothie with it, that was nice too, I did take one photo though,

I took a picture of a rainbow, it was raining when we got back and getting dark at the same time, but luckily I was able to catch the rainbow before it disappeared fully, it’s a little dimmed, it was kind of faint by the time I caught it, but hopefully you can still see it okay!

Day 5 (Cinco) – San Juan Beach (July 15th)

Day 5….we went to another beach…..again not a big fan of beaches….however I liked this beach more than the first one, the first one was nice don’t get me wrong, but I don’t know I liked this one more, also the water was pretty clearer here, it was clear in the other one too, just want to let you know that, both beaches had clear water, this one was clearer though and less Salty, it has salt obviously, I mean it is a beach after all, but it wasn’t too much of it compared to the first one we went to! One of the reasons I enjoyed this beach a lot was for the simple fact that it had a LOT of stones for me to choose from, like a lot, I mean we practically on a mountain of rocks when we went sooo….of course I was going rock and shell hunting on it, I mean wouldn’t you!?

You see I’m a collector of stones and shells sooo seeing that, I was loving every moment, I had a bag full of it, that’s how many I had, okay half a bag, I tried not to go too crazy, although I still ended up grabbing a good amount…..leave me alone okay, It was my first time in Puerto Rico sooo if there’s nice stones and shells I’m grabbing them!! I enjoyed the water this time while there like there was a shallow section, where the waves weren’t so in your face that’s where I was, also the waves were too much, because there were big rocks blocking it from splashing on you, but it wasn’t blocking it too much to where the waves weren’t able to go over it, they were nice!!

This beach was very beautiful, you could see little fishes in the water, they’ll stay by your feet if you let them and if you don’t move, but they won’t harm you, I think they just like the company, I saw a duck as well and a few doves, there were boats going by, it was just really nice, after being there for a couple of hours, we eventually let and got something to eat, the food was somewhat alright, but it wasn’t the greatest where we stopped, which is a shame because it a famous place, but hey they can’t all be great, I didn’t mind them though!!

Last journaled entry

Day 6-Seis Day 2 in San Juan Battlefield Fort (Going Sight Seeing)

We’ve come to Day 6, Friday’s journey…..back in San Juan this time with a different agenda, SIGHTSEEEING!! It was a pretty good time, saw a lot of different things, we went to this historical place that’s pretty popular, we had a bit of lunch at this GREAT restaurant, oh my gosh, had the most amazing appetizer, it was fried plantains (Tostones Rellenos) which is stuffed plantain cups if that makes sense and on top was shredded king crab and let me tell you, I was in love,

It was soooo good like, I couldn’t stop talking about it, it was that good, also I love food so when I eat something and I can’t stop talking about it, you know you did good!! I also had a seafood Mofongo, so it had shrimp….squid and clams or mussels one of them…..but I can’t stand clams and mussels sooo I just ate the shrimp and the squid, yes I like squid, but I also like fried calamari soo, I actually thought the squid was octopus, but then I learned it was squid, but it taste just like octopus, the squid was cooked with the shrimp though,

I’m a weird one, I’ll try anything as long as it’s good and squid and octopus is good to me, also in case you’re wondering what Mofongo it’s pretty much the same thing I had for an appetizer only mushed up and it’s good, I had my seafood Mofongo with garlic sauce, it was a good lunch! After lunch we then continued to walk around the area and continue our sightseeing, we ended up checking out this historical fort place, fun fact the fort that we visited was actually once a battlefield in the war days, like a base in a way, they would look out for any invaders or ships and that and then eventually it turned into a popular spot for tourist to check out, which is pretty cool, it’s also kind of like a castle, like it looks like one and you’re able to explore the inside of it, I didn’t get to unfortunately,

cause it was closed, but I did see a lot of it so it was okay, the hills on the fort are tall and it’s a bit of a walk, not too bad, it’s more intimidating to walk it looks wise, but actually walking it, not as bad, you get there pretty quick actually!! After exploring the area and taking lots of pictures, we headed back to where we stayed, but not before getting Gelatos, it was actually my first time trying it and it’s pretty darn good, I wanted to try this Strawberry Cheesecake flavor with vanilla…..but they didn’t have it, so instead I picked Coffee and Vanilla and that was delicious, I’m glad my back up was a good choice, but yeah day 6 was eventful!!

That’s everything I’ve journaled out, Day 7 and 8, we didn’t really do too much, plus it was the weekend we we’re going back, although Sunday night before our flight back we went to the movies over in PR and watched Black Widow….it was pretty good, I enjoyed the movie, I also had a mac and cheese in the theater and this Hershey triple chocolate cupcake, both good by the way and after the movies, we headed straight toward the airport, we meant to get some dinner, but we didn’t, however we could’ve because our flight got delayed, the pilots were late so we had to wait up until almost 3am before we headed back to the states…..and thinking about that is making me tired lol

Overall my first time in Puerto Rico…..it was a good experience, I’ve never been there until the days i’ve been, but it was a good time, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy myself, I did! Would I ever live there….no not at all…..I hate the heat and even though it’s beautiful and really nice, it just doesn’t feel like a place for me to live, but visiting it, yeah sure why not, I’d go back to a few places here, like that Waterfall place, the beach in San Juan with all the rocks, the place with the food, with the Tostones Rellenos topped with King Crab and that historical fort area, I liked that a lot, maybe one day I get to actually go inside it, but that’s all for my journey and exploration of Puerto Rico, there’s a lot of places I haven’t gone just yet, but i’m sure I’ll discover them at some point, I hope you liked this adventure post, enjoy the pictures, I’m really proud of them so I hope you like them as well!!

It’s about 10pm now sooo, I probably should sign off now, you have a goodnight and I’ll see you in my next post, have a happy rest of the weekend!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

June 31st….Oh Wait No It’s July….

This is just a joke guys, I know there isn’t a 31st in June…..a little shocking that we’re in July already…..I think everyone is surprised, it don’t feel anything like July yet, it’s a bit weird, hopefully the start of the month has treated you all well so far, even though we literally just started, the one thing I can say is that we’ve entered the month of my blog anniversary, it’s not yet….but it is coming soon and I have no idea what I should do for it…..I’ve been trying to come up something different to do, we’ll be going on 3 years here on the 11th of this month, 2 more weeks….actually a week from this Sunday coming up, so not this Sunday the following one, just making sure I’m making sense here!

Now I know that I’m not really looking to do anything too grand for my 3 years of blogging, I’m not really a showy kind of person, but I do want to do something special, now I’ve been thinking about this….had I not already brought in a podcast 4 months early that could of been a cool thing to bring in, but it’s here now, which is good, I’m happy that I decided to give it a go when I did! By the way it’s actually 3 months not 4, I introduced the Podcast here on the 3rd of April, but my first episode was uploaded the 19th of March, although on Spotify it will say the 20th, same as when Animal Crossing New Horizons was released (don’t ask) yeah I know, not sure why I did it like that, I think I just wanted to test it out before anything, at least that’s what I’m thinking!

But yeah, Podcast is already a thing soooo, I have to add something else, I did have some things in mind…..one of them I’m going to do when the anniversary arrives, it’s just a post that I’m going to do talking about what it’s been like blogging for 3 years….nothing too special there, but besides that I’m still trying to figure out what would be good to bring here….I could always poll it and have you guys be apart of it, which I wouldn’t mind, I’d love to include you guys, only if you want that is! I could add some choices I have in mind that you could choose from ooor if you have any suggestions on what you’d like to see/read mainly, if anything comes to mind, I could also go based on topics that I did before that you want me to do more of, for example Now Playing….you can choose an artist or song that you want me to listen to and I will give my thoughts on that artist/song the best way I can, stuff like that, just to shake things up, but of course, it’s your choice if you want to do that!!

I don’t know, I just want to do something different this time around and I would love for you guys to be apart of it with me, it’s been quite the journey, even though somedays it doesn’t feel like it, I can’t believe we’re close to 3 years on here though, SUPER close too….I know we’ve got some time left to decide, but I just thought I’d write about where my mind has been these past few days on the very first day of July! Have I mentioned how it doesn’t quite feel like July yet!?

Anyway, I hope you’re all doing well on this fine evening, you have a good rest of the day, stay cool and hydrated, as well as safe!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

DragonFly Season…. (Part 1)

Hope you guys are having a nice Monday! I’d like to say that I am, but I’m not going to sit here and lie to you, I haven’t really been in the best of moods for the past 2 days now, 3 if you’re counting today…..I’ve been trying to get out of my head, but I’ve been finding myself in this deep thought process this past weekend, although I’m always thinking, but it’s a different kind of thought mode I’m in, I’m just feeling a whole lot of emotions that I’m trying so hard to push down, but it’s been really hard!

One of the reasons that I know why I’m feeling this way is because…..well it’s coming to a year that I’ve lost my dog, which probably doesn’t mean anything to those reading this and that’s okay, I know it’s different for everyone and I don’t expect you to feel this feeling with me, that’s not what I want anyway….it’s going to be a year on Sunday the 27th, I’ve been trying not to get emotional about it, to a lot of people losing a pet probably isn’t a thing to get all upset about, but for me…..it was really hard, my dog wasn’t just a pet, she was more than to me, I’ve had a lot of different pets in my life a few cats, dogs from before, fishes, a turtle for a second ha….but Peanut…the name of my dog

She was something, she loved being around everyone, she was a people kind of dog, if you didn’t like dogs, she was going to be the one to change your mind, that’s how loveable she was! She didn’t like other dogs though, at least if she did, she showed it very oddly, always barking at them she was…..she was sweet, but for some reason she also had this mean side to her, but I loved her anyway…..I kind of remember when we got her, she was still kind of a puppy and she was a little shy when I first saw her!

Fun fact:

I didn’t actually pick her, she was picked for me, but even though I didn’t necessarily choose her, she choose me which lend me to be stuck with her….and from there in a very weird way, we bonded! I say very weird way because she was completely opposite to me, but I sometimes felt deep down we were a little similar….I know it’s weird, I mean she was a dog and I’m human, but I like to think your pet reflects you and for that reason can become pretty similar to you as well! Even though she had a way to get under my skin with the things that she did, like how she’d always growl at me and do things out of spite….I loved her, no matter how crazy she’d drive me, she was my fur best friend….I never allowed her in my room and then after a while I would let her in, sometimes she’d wait for me to invite her in and other times she’d just barge in whenever she was feeling extra bold, she was always a sassy one, but that was my Peanut….I wouldn’t have traded her for the world!

I hated the way I lost her and I don’t really like using that word, because of how strong it is, but it’s how I feel and felt then, I really didn’t like the way she went, I won’t ever talk about it on here because it’s too personal, but with what happened…..I think it’s going to be a thing that bothers me for a long time, I’ve grown to accept what happened even though I wish it didn’t, I’ve accepted it! I always think about her and sometimes I wish she was still here so I could hug her and mess with her and just let her know that I really did love her, I loved her so much,

She was the first dog I ever had that I bonded with, she didn’t always listen to me at times, she didn’t even take me seriously when I would yell at her whenever she did something wrong, she didn’t like when I yelled at her, but I knew that she loved me, she showed it in her own way, but I still knew it! I miss her a lot, always, there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about her, she helped me through a lot even though she never knew it and for that I’ll always be grateful for the time I did get with her, despite what happened, I’ll always be thankful for the moments that I was able to share with her as well as the moments she brought to me and for the special opposite bond we had!

You will forever be my Firefly and Dragonfly at times and I know you’ll always be with me cause you follow me wherever I go, well when you feel like it that is…..I love you Peanut, Thank you for everything! That’s one of the reasons I’ve been a little down these past few days, the closer it gets, the more it starts to get to me, but I’m doing my best to not think on it so much, it’s extremely hard, but I’m trying….as for everything else I’m trying to work through that too, if anyone is reading this, I just want to say thank you for listening to me, it means a lot!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

There’ll Always Be A Rainbow Hanging Over Your Head

Not the exact lyrics of the song Rainbow by Kacey Musgrave, but it’s close enough, yesterday I sat outside I ended up having a bit on my mind and I didn’t know why or where it came from, it just kind of showed up out of nowhere so after I had dinner I just sat outside for a couple of hours, plus it was pretty nice out so I thought why not, little did I know we were getting a bit of a thunder storm towards the late evening, that didn’t stop me from continuing to hang out outside though, I love the rain, so I didn’t mind sitting outside with it, plus I was under something to keep me dry so it was all good!

I purposely went towards the rain though, because like I said I love the rain and I love the feel of it and also I like to get my hair wet whenever it rains, it’s one of my favorite reasons to why I like the rain, call me weird if you want I already know it! I tell you something sitting outside while it’s raining is pretty peaceful and very very nice, the thunder and lighting flashing in the sky can be pretty freighting, but the rain itself is very calming, I can sit and watch it for hours if you let me, I’ve done it a few times already!

I don’t know what it is about the rain I just always liked and appreciated it…..but that aside….yesterday I didn’t really know why I was randomly feeling things after a while I just started singing to myself, I sang a song by one of my all time favorite artist, you might have already heard me talking about her a few times, Alexz Johnson is her name, but I ended up singing a song from her latest album Still Alive, which is also the name of the song I sang to myself, I love that song, it’s so good! Not too long after singing the song to myself…..I’m not really sure what made me look at the sky, well I always look up at the sky, but when I was sitting there in my own mind, I glanced up and I saw something, that something was a rainbow…..

I had to double check because it was a little hard to tell at first when looking at it, it appeared slightly faint, but visible enough to notice it, like it wasn’t the brightest, but you still saw it and when I confirmed the rainbow indeed in the sky, it made me happy and smile a bit, I when to grab my camera so I can take a photo of it, but I then came to the realization that the battery had died, I couldn’t even turn the camera on I forgot to charge it and of course the one time I would’ve liked to have captured that, I couldn’t, but I was okay with it, I took it as maybe I was just meant to see it and not photograph it, I also wanted to take a picture of the sky because it was a very pretty color as the sun was setting and all, but again I couldn’t lol, but regardless, it was a good moment, it made me feel a little better seeing it,

Next time I’ll make sure that my camera’s charged, but this time round, it was just good to see it…..It’s one I won’t forget, well I’m going to try at least, but I’m sure I’ll always remember it, I just wanted to share that it was kind of on my mind a bit!

Hope you’re all doing well!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

2 Years Of Blogging (Part 2)

Hiya, hope you’re all doing well, I know it’s been a week now since my first part of this post, I have been meaning to write the second part to it, but I didn’t want to write it, until I knew I felt good enough to write it and so that’s why it’s taking me a bit to get to this post, I didn’t want to rush it by any means……now to be completely honest…….

Where this post is going I don’t know, i’m kinda just going to go with it, it might just be a theme here now that i’m thinking about it, but let’s just see where this post chooses to travel…..okay so I know I didn’t quite go into details of what 2 years of blogging has felt like or has been in the first part of it…….and to share some thoughts on that part…….i’m not really sure what to express on what it’s been like…….when I first started this blog, it was to have it be a place where I felt I could express myself, there was no theme at all to it, it was just a blog of expression, however I felt I tried to express

myself in the best way that could……for while I feel like I did that okay if that makes sense!? To be fair I still consider this to be my blog of expression, there have been times where I tried to come up with a theme…..and I always had trouble with that…..

You see although I can theme certain things out…..blogging was one of those things I found hard to give a theme to…….there were many times where i’d worry and go into overthink mode wondering if I was doing all of this right or not and i’d even stress myself out about it and sometimes it’ll get to a point where I would stop writing for a while and i’d go back and fourth with myself on whether I should continue with this blog, you know the natural worries when it comes to having a blog and that……

There were times where i’d notice i’d write about anything whether it made sense or not, just because I felt I needed to post all the time and I guess doing that probably didn’t help creativity wise……let’s just say there’s a lot i guess I can talk on……that’d make it a very long post ha!! One of the main things though was, I made this blog to have as an outlet to express when I didn’t feel I was able to in the way I wanted to,

but even then I still felt it hard to express at times……when it comes to personal things even though i’ll express on it to an extent……you’ll never see me go into full details to whatever i’m expressing about and i’m detailed person irl (in real life) by the way, but if it’s too personal, although I won’t say exactly what it is about, i’ll still express on what i’m feeling just differently……that said, there were moments where I stopped expressing because I didn’t want it to come across a certain way…….yet I knew I had things I wanted to share that was kind of personal that I wanted to get out

Again it’s actually quite a lot now that i’m writing about it, there might just be a part 3 here……if so it’ll be shorter in words, but these 2 years on this blog well they’ve been something and by something I mean a mixture of different emotions and thoughts and all that jazz, again i’ll shorten it in the next part, I didn’t think there’d be so much expression happening to describe blogging for two years, but here we are, i’m going to try and make this 3rd and last post part the overall view of having this blog shorter

There’s still some stuff I want to express on because I don’t feel this to be finished so, I hope you all enjoy this second part in someway and if you haven’t read the first part you can find it here: 2 Years Of Blogging (PartΒ 1)

To be continued and finished……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Be Prepared…..

Before we start going on with this topic first i’d like to give it a bit of light by saying that this title, is also a song title, from one of my favorite movies the Lion King, I wrote it out and thought of the song because yeah I just did!!

Now this may get serious, but it may not, i’m not really sure how i’m expecting this post to go and maybe I don’t need to, so i’m just going to let it flow out how it’s wanting to……they say it’s important to be prepared always, yet at times there are moments that even when you think you’re prepared, there’s always a chance something’s going to end up catching you off guard……no matter how many times you may do your best to make sure

You’re not missing something, a lot of those times you may because you can’t be prepared for everything, sometimes a lot of the things that happen, comes from it being unexpected and yeah not knowing what to expect can get stressful and there’s going to be moments where you may get frustrated or angry even, but when we start to feel those emotions……we have to keep in mind that it’s not going to always be something we can control.

Things happen and sometimes even when you’re prepared, it doesn’t mean that you’re always going to be fully prepared, prepared……maybe that doesn’t make much sense…..but what i’m trying to get at is……even when things seems to be a little out of control……be prepared for the moments that you’re not prepared for, it’s like that saying expect the unexpected….

A lot of the time we don’t know a lot that is going to happen, but it doesn’t mean that we can’t always suit up for it in the best way possible, we may not know what’s to come, but we have to believe that whatever it is, it’ll be good in someway and who knows it may just be the very thing that we’ve been looking for without realizing or most likely something we didn’t see coming that we didn’t even think about in the first place!!

When we least expect it, we will soon find or come across something that might just be hard to explain at this moment, but will soon make much more sense to where we know and feel it to be just that thing that we needed……it’s all about patience and trusting the process that whatever is coming, we may not always be entirely prepared, but for the most part we’re still prepared in a way, though there’s times we don’t always expect it.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

You Were Here…..

How to start this…….you were here……you were here yesterday with me……you might’ve also been hanging around in general, but I knew that I wasn’t going crazy and today proved it right with your little paw prints appearing all over the place……but I knew you were with me yesterday at first I thought I was just over my head and that it was just me,

but nope it was you, you were here and for a good while too at that, you stayed with me, sure you went in and out a few times, but you always came back for a bit and when you did, you always sat right next to me even when I moved about, wherever I went you laid next to me……I know you eventually left though, but within the moments that you were around

I was happy and glad that you had visited and I made sure to appreciate your presence for the time you were here for…….i’m not really sure where you entered first, but I guess that’s not all that important, all that matters is that you were here and you let me know you were here and for that i’m happy……I miss you everyday my crazy girl, thank you for coming by to visit and for spending some time with me in the process……

It was good to have you around again, even if it was only for the moment. I’m sure you’ll make your presence known again when you’re not busy doing whatever you’re doing, be it running around, driving people nuts or just being peanut haha, you know i’ll keep looking for you, but until then……I’m glad to know you’re doing okay and are well, I love you and I look forward to your next visit, be good and try not to cause too much trouble alright!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Daytime Firefly

So I see you came by for a visit, I knew that was you the other day and to see you again this morning, I knew you showing up by my window wasn’t just me being crazy haha…..where you came from i’ll never know, all I know is that you showed up during the daytime, when fireflies usually come out towards the night……maybe that was your way of letting me know that yes that was you the other day and you were just saying hi this morning!!

I thought I heard you yesterday a few times, at first I thought it could’ve just been me hearing things, but than again I don’t think it was, I know how you sound and whether it was just me or my thoughts about you being around was right and you were following me making sure I was okay and that, you always did follow me around and sometimes it drove me nuts, you didn’t know how to stay still, but I could never blame you for it, it was just you!!

I mean it was in your nature…….although it’s only been a few days, I miss you everyday my crazy girl……the way you’d spin around every time you thought we were going outside, how you’d get so excited about EVERYTHING!! So hyper you were, the word calm never appealed to you, you just did your own thing, we couldn’t tell you anything……..

It’s really hard not seeing you, right now you’d be sitting by my door or near it in someway or sitting by the front door, you always liked doing that for some reason, i’ll never understand that……and even though it’d do my head in, i’m going to miss how you’d let me know someone was at the door even when I was already heading towards it lol, again you were crazy,

but I loved you for it anyway……I know i’m going to have to keep strong and get through this somehow……and I know I will get through it, but that doesn’t mean i’m not going to wish you were here…..now even though your not with me, with me……I do know you’re around in your own way, i’m sure you haven’t quite left my side, again you were always near me,

but it’s just different and i’m having to find ways of dealing with it right now I don’t know if you’ll understand that…….it’s weird because I didn’t think it’d be this tough, yet it is…….and maybe that’s because we’ve had you for so long……but I know that eventually it won’t be so hard, yeah i’ll still miss you, but it’ll become a little easier……I just need to give it a bit…….

but i’m gonna try and be strong and keep looking up and around for you, you’ll probably show up unexpectedly, but I know you’ll make sure I know you’re with me someway, like today….you don’t know that fireflies don’t show up during the day much, but again you always did do what you wanted and you showed up anyway, just like the little rascal you are!!

Thank you for that, I know you felt me missing you and you made sure to let me know you were okay and it made me happy knowing that, I even saw you Ang flying around to give me reassurance that all is well and fine, thank you as well for that……I miss and love you so much my now little firefly……You behave yourself and please listen to Angel don’t cause him too much trouble alright…..knowing you though you still might, because of how sassy you are, but I just wanted to let you know I saw you and heard you and that i’m always going to look for your face!! I love you peanut!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa