October Stress…

Happy Weekend Everyone! I hope that your day is going okay so far! I must say I’m a bit happy that this week is done and that we’ve entered the weekend….it’s been a long stressful anxious week and it’s not really been the greatest! If I’m being honest I’m still feeling quite anxious and a little overwhelmed, I thought it would go away, but no, it’s still there ha! It’s just been a really shit week and I don’t normally swear, but it’s how I feel, but I’m doing by best to try and make the most out of these days and keep positive in the best way I’m able to….key word trying….!

I normally don’t like talking about the way I’m feeling, but I don’t know how else to handle these emotions that have just come out of nowhere for me, since yesterday all I’ve been wanting to do is cry, my Anxiety has been up the wall and the sucky part is I really don’t know why…..scratch that there’s a few reasons, but I choose not to share upon them, but other than part of the reason, the other parts I really don’t know….all I know is I’ve just been feeling super stressed out this week and I’m trying to keep my emotions under control, but it’s becoming very hard….I don’t know if maybe sharing these feelings this way will help me to calm down a bit, I’m hoping it does, maybe that’s what I need a good expression session!

October has been very odd, it started off okay and not that bad, except for a couple of things and now it just feels like everything is going all over the place, so much is happening and I guess it’s happening super quickly and that’s why I’m feeling overwhelmed by it all, I’m not used to everything going by super quickly, I thought I was handling it pretty well and maybe I was, but all the craziness and just everything has started catching up to me, but I’m trying to stay calm! I’m trying not to lose control of it, because I know that if I do, it’s just going to get worst and I don’t want that to happen!

So I’m trying to keep my feet planted even if I do get pushed back a bit…I know I got to keep them planted and keep going, it’s the only way things will get better….I got a trip coming up in literally a week now and although I feel excited about it, I’m also very nervous and as much as I don’t want to be nervous I am…..I guess part of me is just hoping that it all goes well, it’s a long of way as I’ll be going to visit my partner finally being able to see him after a very long while…..not only that, but I’ll be seeing something completely new…..which is a bit scary, I mean anything new is quite scary really, but I’m excited because at least I’ll be able to see him….it doesn’t mean I’m not still nervous though! There’s just so much going on in my head and they’re all just combining together to the point where it’s just an overwhelming feeling and it’s the only feeling that I can seem focus on at the moment!

I’m just tired, but I’m still going to do my best to push through it as best as I can, I’m just hoping that the upcoming week is better than this past week and that there’s at least a good amount of fresh air to be inhaled, but for the time being I feel I just need to hold my breath or catch my breath even, before heading into the next few days coming…..I really hope that you guys are having a much better day and weekend…..it’s been quite the month and we’re just getting ready to wrap it all up, one thing I will say is…I do feel slightly better, not quite, but a bit, but hey I’ll take it and I’ll keep trying to make the most of these next few days, you guys take care!

By the way my latest podcast episode is up, if you guys want to check it out, you have a good rest of the day!

Animal Crossing Direct Thoughts (Part 1) Ep. 44 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Weekend Everyone! I hope that you had a good day! For today's episode, we are discussing a bit about last week's Animal Crossing Direct that happened on the 15th of October! As you can see this is just part 1, last Friday was quite the surprise with Nintendo announcing what we'll be getting on the update next month and I'm just so excited and cannot wait for it all!! 
  1. Animal Crossing Direct Thoughts (Part 1) Ep. 44
  2. Let's Talk: The Final Ultimate Character Joining The Roster & The Upcoming Animal Crossing Direct Ep. 43
  3. Monthly Chats (October Thoughts) Ep. 42
  4. Let's Talk: Nintendo Direct Thoughts (Animal Crossing Update & October Direct) Ep. 41
  5. Let's Talk: Life Control, Care Packages & The Start Of Fall Ep. 40 (Re-Upload from Sept 24th)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

1st Of October…..Happy Weekend Everyone!!

It took me a minute to try and come up with a title…..Happy October 1st, we’ve arrived to another weekend, who else is happy!? I hope that you all had a nice week and that September left you feeling pretty okay at the end….I don’t know about anyone else, but I felt like the last day of September went on a bit long, but then again it was the last day so I guess it wanted to stay for as long as it could which is why it felt a little dragging!

That was yesterday, we’re now in a whole new month and it’s Friday can’t get any better than that am I right!? I’m feeling a little excited today I don’t particularly know why….but I’ve been trying not to question it, I’m just embracing it as it comes all while trying not to let it all out at once…..I have to keep it balanced don’t want to waste all that energy in one take! I’m not really sure what most people are hoping for out of this month, I feel like it unfold in many different ways….for me I just want to continue having inspiration and creativity flowing towards me as well as just hoping for this month to be a good one

We’ve crossed the spooky parts of town in what is October, spooky equals Halloween and Halloween equals: Candy, Costumes, Halloween movies and the things that people look forward to when October arrives! We’re also getting more colder weather, seriously…..I know in the beginning of September it felt like Summer hadn’t gone anywhere, but once we were at the last days of September…..the air changed so quick!! I went outside yesterday a few times and during the late evening I wanted to see what it was like and ooof, was it chilly out and I was only there for a split second so you know that fall has definitely arrived! After all that heat we were getting, Autumn finally showed up and let us know she was around!

So with that information, just make sure you’re grabbing your coats, sweaters, cardigan, gloves and maybe a scarf, but only if you need it of course, just make sure that you’re staying warm because that’s important coming from someone that gets cold very easily, it’s very important! All that aside, I’m excited to see what this month has in store…..I do have some ideas on what I would like to bring and share with you guys….mainly for my podcast…..in terms of this blog…..I’m hoping to get inspiration and bring some nice and hopefully interesting ideas that will be enjoyed, I’m going to try anywhere!

If I’m being honest, I’ve not really been in the zone with writing, I’ve been trying to get some posts out, but I also have been struggling to come up with ideas for this blog, so if you see I’m not writing as much just know I’ll get there eventually, I’m just trying to get inspired! I’ve been wanting to be more creative with this blog, but I’m also not sure how to do it just yet…..

Plus I’ve found that in the month of September, I was becoming a little busy, nothing too dramatic….I’ve just been preparing for a trip that I’ll be going on soon, but that’s not until the month of November, which I am super excited for by the way, I can’t wait for November to arrive…..but more on that later when we get closer to it of course!

I’m looking forward to seeing what October has coming, I hope you guys are too!

Update:

Here’s my latest podcast episode that I recorded earlier today, it’s all about the month of October similar thoughts to this post, but also a bit different, check it out!

Monthly Chats (October Thoughts) Ep. 42 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Friday and Happy October 1st everyone! Hope all is well! In today's episode, there quite a few things that we'll be discussing, from upcoming video game announcements, Halloween and what we should or are hoping to expect to be arriving within the month of October! It's just your monthly chatting sessions with a few things added to the conversation…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Dear Little Me…..(Updated)

It’s been a while hasn’t it, if only you knew all things we have been through…..I mean seeing that you are apart of me, you probably already know huh!? I’ll be honest I wasn’t really expecting to write to you, it was only after that I read a bit of the first I guess you can call letter post that I wrote to you back in 2018 that I felt like I wanted to update you on a few things that we’ve managed to do…..I’m writing this a bit on the late side on the 15th of September nearly midnight, but not necessarily midnight it’s still around 11:30pm as I’m writing this now, I might just continue this post in the morning so I could really tell you everything that I want you to know….I’ll catch you up on what those things are soon, a part of me might keep the rest as a surprised though, see you in a couple of hours!

Good Morning me, well younger me…..it’s a little early, around 8:40am almost 9am, I don’t know if you remember us always getting up earlier than we needed to back then, there were moments when we got up a bit late as well! Sometimes we’d get up at almost 10am and if we got up at 11am we were upset the whole day…..I’m glad that I changed our sleep schedule all those times ago ha! I don’t know where to start with what’s been going on….We’ve been on quite the journey you and I, a lot of stresses, emotions both good and bad, we had some loses in our lives as well, that meant a lot to us….but on a good note, we did find someone that loves us for our weirdness as well as everything else believe it our not lol…..there’s a lot of things that’s happened since the last time I spoke to you!

We’ve been through some storms, but the one thing though that I feel you’ll really like is that…..we got through them and most of them we’re really hard, because they pushed us to really grow ourselves more and change as well, in the last letter I wrote you…..I felt like I was not doing you proud, that I had failed you as an older version of me and I never knew how to really express that in the best of ways, I only knew how to say sorry and feel bad about everything we were going through at the time…..I wanted you to be happy and I didn’t really give you that chance to be happy then….it took a long while, but I just want you to know that we’re doing good now, where we were then, we aren’t there anymore!

We managed to find our voice, now I won’t say we found it fully fully, there’s still some things that we both are still working out and trying to understand better, which is normal, because not everyone has figured everything out yet, but we have learned a lot and I can honestly say that we are becoming better versions of ourselves more and more each day! Don’t get me wrong we still have our moments where we aren’t always happy and feeling our best, but to how we used to handle those days to how we handle them now…..we’re doing pretty alright for ourselves, our emotions don’t constantly get at us the way they used to, we’ve learned to control them a lot better and not be so hard on ourselves….I mean we’re still hard on ourselves at times, but I think that’s never going to go away really, but that’s okay because it helps us to want to be better!

We’ve grown on a personal level, we’re still the same, but there our some new differences within ourselves that we’ve gained with our personality, for example….we’ve gotten a bit more sarcastic lately, we say what’s on our mind a lot more these days, a bit quickly too, might I add and we’ve gotten better at not taking up things that we know we don’t need in a negative sense….I guess you can say we’ve gotten a bit tougher and stronger since the last time, but I think part of those part of me comes from you if that makes sense, especially all the sassy parts that I wouldn’t have ever thought to come out!! All our fears that we used to worry ourselves about, we have moments where they pop up, but you’ll be happy to know that instead of always wanting to avoid them and run away, we try and face them the best we can…..we come way out of our comfort zone, well we’re nearing the surface at least, we don’t swim the best, but we do our best to get to where we want to be!

Like I said we’re still learning as we go along, but that’s only part of the journey we’re on…..it’s just the beginning and we’re just getting started, but we’re flying little me, just like you always wanted and I promise that I’m going to keep doing my best to make you proud to be me older, because I just want you to be happy and I want you to know that the adventures you go, as new and hard as they may be at times and you may feel like you’re not getting where you need to, but know that you’re always going to get where you need even when you get lost a bit, sometime you have to get a little lost before you’re found! We’re always going to be okay, I know that because I got you and I know that when I’m lost, you’ll found a way to point me to where you feel it’s best to go so I know to keep going, because together is where the magic starts to happen!

All the feelings of being scared, but wanting to still give it a shot anyway, taking those risks, I never thought we’d get to that point, but I got to say that, doing those things, makes me happy, I still get nervous and scared, but I hope that you feel happy that we’re finally doing them…..there’s still some stuff that I know I want to tell you, but I know know how to express them properly just yet, so I will leave them for another time, the moment I find those words and I’m able to piece them all together you’ll know…..I just wanted to tell you that we’re okay and that we’re a little bit more happier than we were before…..I’ll see you soon!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Journey Of Learning & Growing….

One of the best things to witness is watching someone grow and evolve, be it a child, someone that you saw go through a very tough point in their life or even just you yourself, there’s no age limit when it comes to learning and growing…..you could be in your 50s and you may already know a whole lot, but that doesn’t mean you can’t still learn something new let alone won’t learn something new, there’s so much to life that will always leave us surprised even when you think you’ve seen it all already!

I’ve witness a few transformations, a lot of them may not be fully, but I’ve seen a few and the ones I have seen, still amaze me and sometimes I find myself thinking about those transformations, I’ve watched my boyfriend come out of something that he struggled with for a while, not necessarily in person, but just the aftermath of what happened in his life in that time, it’s how we met, he was just starting to get back to himself again! I’ve seen my nephew who I consider my nephew, I first met him when he was 3, so I’ve only known him for a year now pretty much and I remember how he’d never wanted to listen to anyone, you know usual kid stuff, his favorite word was always NO and you couldn’t tell him anything, without him crying and throwing tantrums and wanting everything to be his way

and then you have his mom who worked all the time and when it came to trying to stop him from having those tantrums it was hard for her to put her foot down with him, obviously no parent wants to yell at their child, any good parent anyway, it’s hard because you try to be a parent, but you also don’t want to be a parent in a sense of when your child starts throwing those tantrums and they aren’t listening to you, you don’t want to have to punish them for it, because all you want is for them to see you in the best light possible and when you come to those moments to where you know there needs to be rules……it can be hard, but sometimes you know you have to do it!

But back to what I was talking about…..all three people here have gone through big transformations and you wouldn’t believe it if I told you, my boyfriend one of the biggest transformation I’ve ever seen and also haven’t seen, but if you knew him when I met him and you were to see and learn about everything he endured, you’d be extremely surprised, it still surprises me when I think about it sometimes, just to see and learn the difference in the person that he once was to who he is now, like I wouldn’t know where to begin on that story, hopefully I’ll be able to really tell it or have him tell it one day, I mean it is story about his journey anyway and it really is a beautiful and life changing one at that! I’m very proud of how far he’s gotten, I love you Jord, forever and always!

As for my Nephew…..he’s 4 now, but will be turning 5 in November and let me tell you something, he is one hell of a smart kid, seriously and he’s gotten a lot better at really trying to understand everything, he doesn’t give you too much of a issue now when you are telling him not to do something or you’re trying to help him learn certain things, he actually listens expressing something to him which I’m glad to see, it was a mission and a half when I first met him, he talks a whole lot more now, like a lot, he wouldn’t really say much before, he was just always shy and wouldn’t come up to you, he’d just be in his own little world, now forget about it!! He will talk to you for hours if he really wanted to, he’s quite the character, very silly, but he’s the sweetest boy every, he’s very kind, he likes making people laugh and just showing you things all the time, buut don’t let his adorableness fool, he knows what he’s doing!

He’s a little demon and I say it all the time to him, which he knows too because he always laughs about it! He knows how to get what he wants, however he knows who to go for when he wants something, spoiler it’s not me, he knows better than to pull anything with me, like I said he’s a smart one, I wouldn’t be surprised if he turned out to be an evil genius, I’m joking, he’s a good kid when he wants to be, but he’s also grown to know better and I just hope that continues the older he gets!

Lastly, we come to my Nephew’s mom who has also transformed a lot from when I met her, she’s kind of hard to explain with her transformation though, but I’ll do my best, when I first started coming around and hanging out with her, she was always working, but she worked from home, so she always tried her best to balance out work and her son and when I was hanging out with her as she was working, I would notice a lot that she was having to do, when it came to her son like I said earlier it was hard for her to put her foot down with him at first, because she didn’t like having to be that….not strict parent, cause she’s really not that strict, but he’d would get babied a lot before, he still does, but it’s not so much from his mom these days, but the grandparents…..you know how that goes!

It was hard for her to tell him when he was doing something wrong and when it came to punishment so that he learns that he can’t do certain things, with work she was always stressing, she dealt with a lot….I guess the only way I can say it is her transformation comes from how she’s grown as a parent from when I met her and what I know her to be now as well as how certain parts of her personality has changed and grown, she’d always wanted to please everyone even when she didn’t want to do whatever it was that she didn’t want to do, she’s showing more of her voice with people,

Which is good and she would always feel like nothing was going her way, but now everything is now working for her which is great, in terms of her son, she’s learn to put her foot down with him more and not let him try and control her and what I love about that is, I feel since then, both her and her son have gotten more closer and it’s a beautiful things to see, because you can tell she loves her son and only wants the best for him and that’s how parent should be and he loves her which is also wonderful! I’ve witness what she had to go through before and I’m so proud of her for how far she’s come even if she doesn’t know it, she’s an amazing mom and an amazing person, as well as a really good friend and I’m glad that I got to know her and continue to get to know her, fun fact, we’ve crossed paths before me and her a few time even, but we never actually encountered one another face to face just always by a pass by, it wasn’t until she started dating my brother to where we finally met, I guess you can call it a small word!

The three people I just spoke about all mean something to me and I’m glad to know them and have them apart of my life, I’m glad that I’ve been able to experience the transformations they’ve gone through, they all have taught me a lot of things as well as important lessons and are still teaching me a lot even if they don’t know it necessarily, but I wouldn’t trade them and all that they’ve taught me for the world and if ever down the line our journey’s together were to take different paths or transform in some kind of way to where I still have them in my life, I’m always going to take what they’ve given me and do my best to make sure I never forget it!

F.Y.I. I didn’t expect to write all of this, the way I did, I just felt very strongly to write this for some reason so I did, call it a moment of a thought in time!!

P.S.

By the way, I’ve switched up my podcast episode schedule just for this week, so instead of Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I’m doing Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday (I’m going to try for Saturday anyway) again just for this week, I just felt like switching things up a a bit! You can check out yesterday’s episode here:

Take Flight Like A Bird…. Ep. 37 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Tuesday everyone, hope your having a good day! In todays episode we talk a bit about birds and the way they fly, not just about that though, it gets a bit deeper than that, we're always afraid to explore the unknown and take those big leaps that we've been wanting to take, but isn't that what life's about!? Facing those unsure feelings and seeing where it takes you, just like that Moana song, one day I'll know how far I'll go!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Up And Early….With Some Thoughts!

Good Morning! Happy Saturday hope you’re all having a very nice and relaxing weekend or just a nice weekend, if you’re up and running around today! I got up a bit early today for no reason, but then went back to sleep for a while, originally when I got up it was about 7:48am I believe, I had a feeling it was early the first time I got up, I just didn’t know it was that early and when I went back to sleep and got up again, it was about 8:26am! I tend to get up around 8am anyway so that’s my usual time of getting myself up, if my body wakes me up early….I’ll get up about 7am and will stay up during that time if I feel I can’t get back to sleep or I’m just feeling like an early bird!

but if I’m just getting up early for nothing, I’ll randomly find myself up between the times of 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am & 6am, lately though the earliest of early of me getting up will be about like maybe 5am or 6am tops the other times are only when I have too much in my head and I have trouble sleeping…..the latest that I tend to get up or prefer to get up is 9am…..sometimes on rare occasions 10am, but that’s only when I’m really really tired and haven’t slept in a while, it’s not my preferred time to get up, but when it happens I know it’s because I barely slept so I try not to beat myself up when I do get up at that time!

I don’t really know why I’m writing about this so if you’re confused well so am I, sometimes I just write whatever feels like coming out and I try not to question it, but I don’t have a clue on why I just explained all of that to you guys…..don’t mind me! Hopefully everyone’s morning has gone well, I know for some of you out there, it’s probably the afternoon or getting close to the evening time, It’s 10am now as I’m continuing writing this post….when I got up this early morning I sat outside for a bit and was taking a lot of things in, for one….you know we’ve arrived in September cause it’s getting more chilly out, although it tends to be pretty cold in the early mornings anyway, but even when it’d not super early and the suns out beaming all over you, you tend to notice how different the air is and how cooler it’s gotten compared to the other days!

You know it’s September when you start to see more Crows flying by, before you’d only see them here and there, but the amount of crows I’ve been seeing since September started just by sitting outside is a good amount to count, it’s quite mad! I know I recently talked about doing a lot of thinking about things, which I am, I’ve not stopped thinking recently, there’s a lot going on personally, some a little too personal to share on here, although sometimes I want to, but I don’t for the simple fact of, it’s not everyone’s business, there are things you keep to yourself and there are things you only share with close people…..

Sometimes though, you don’t even want to share it with the people around you either, because you feel like it will only burden them and it’s best to not say anything and deal with it yourself! However it can get a lot to handle and sometimes you don’t know what to do, but you keep trying anyway, even when you know you should probably stop…..and you want to stop, but then just when you think that everything is good…..it comes right back and you’re there having to deal with it again! You keep strong though and you push through!

but life will keep pushing you until you do something and that could either be approaching the situation and facing the music or you leave it alone and sometimes life pushes you, for you to leave it alone or for you to finally say “THAT’S IT, NO MORE” I guess it all comes back to choosing your battles knowing when to fight or to just surrender, lay down the sword and walk away…..sometimes that’s hard because it could mean leaving something that was once important to you behind…..but at some point you have to realize that you can’t fight every battle and you can’t be the one to fix everything! You can be there for people and you help them in the best way possible, but if they refuse to listen and just continuously bring nothing, but drama after drama, you have to think about what’s best for you and your health!

Ask yourself if you want to keep fighting this fight!? Don’t get me wrong some things are definitely worth fight for, like love, happiness and whatever else you feel is worth it! That being said…..there are things that don’t need to always be fought over and if you find yourself stuck in the same old storm and fighting the same battle constantly, eventually you’re not going to have enough energy left to fight or just use for yourself and that’s where you’ll need to worry because without energy, you’ve already lost the battle….so save your energy and use it wisely on what to use it on!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Spiritfarer

Good Afternoon, hope you all had a very good weekend and that you all were keeping safe as well with this Tropical Storm turned hurricane, turned back into a Tropical Storm again which I just looked into a few minutes ago by the way!, We were meant to get a lot of wind with the storm named Henri, but it ended up weakening and just giving us a lot of rain instead this past weekend and were informed a good amount of times of very bad flooding, so if anyone received a lot of flooding during the weekend with Henri, hopefully it wasn’t too bad and if it was I hope that you’re all okay!

I’m hoping you all are having a good Monday though, although we’re getting a lot of on and off rain over here, Monday has been going pretty alright, not too bad! I thought for today’s post we can talk about a video game that I have a few big soft spot for, I don’t always play it and I haven’t played it in a good while, but I still enjoy it and still consider it to be one of my favorite games to play when I do pick it up! Now the video game I’m talking about if you haven’t already picked it up by the title, which I’m sure you have is Spiritfarer…….I remember when I first saw the trailer of this game and I thought it was a pretty cool concept, if you aren’t familiar with what kind of game this is, I’ll try and explain it real quick in the best way I can!

So Spiritfarer is a very unique and beautiful kind of game, It’s one of the games that is a little deep and can really pull at your heartstrings as well….you play as this character called Stella and without trying to spoil it too much, at least I’m going to try not to anyway, but you play as Stella where she becomes the new Spiritfarer and her job is to recruit any Spirits she happens to come across that still has some kind of unfinished business of some sort and invite them to her boat to befriend, help with any request that they are asking for and eventually get them to cross over through the Everdoor (a.k.a. the after life) It’s weird because I didn’t think I’d have a hard time explaining this game, it makes sense when you actually play it and it really is a great game!

I played it to one try it out because I liked the gameplay look of it, but also because in the time I went to play it, I was dealing with a loss and I don’t know this game seemed like the kind of thing to help me understand things better in that aspect and taught me that even though it’s a hard thing to do, we can’t really stop the process of life from happening, but that no matter what, we’re always going to have those love ones there with us even if they aren’t around physically to be there, which I find to be beautiful, now even if you aren’t the most spiritual of person, it’s still a great game to try, you don’t have to believe in that kind of thing to play this game, it can just be a game with a story like all the other games!

For me though, I found that it came around when I needed it most and I’m glad that it caught my eye and that I ended up enjoying it, it really helped me in a lot of ways just like the last game I spoke about called Gris, both those games were like a healing process for me….it took a good while before I started to feel better and the fact that I had these games to help me explore my emotions and deal with them the only way I felt I knew how was great!

Plus the little spirits are adorable, okay one spoil alert, they go from hooded cloaked figures to Spirit animals that help teach you many different things and sometimes you grow a connection with them, even though you know you probably shouldn’t because after they finish their last mission, you’ll have to say farewell to them and that might get you emotional especially when it happens to be one of your favorites, but at least you’d get to hug them before they go (I love doing that) that aside though, the game is beautiful and just an overall well designed game!

I’d definitely recommend at least giving it a try and seeing how you like it for yourself, it’s proper worth it and you can learn a lot from the game and if that’s not your thing, then at least you’ll get to explore and experience something totally different with it, but if it’s not your kind of game overall….that’s completely alright and perfectly fine, not every video game is going to be enjoyed, I just wanted to share on it, it’s one of my favorites and in case someone is looking for a new game to try Spiritfarer is something I’d put out there to get discovered, definitely worth it, you can’t go wrong with it!!

P.S.

The soundtrack to this game is wonderful, Just thought I’d add that in!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Happy National Relaxation Day….

So apparently it’s National Relaxation Day…..I didn’t know that until I went onto Twitter to see Nintendo themselves posting about it with an Animal Crossing post earlier…..you’d think that it’d be easy to relax especially during the weekend, I mean that’s normally when people relax, chill and enjoy themselves, but sometimes relaxation feels like a whole task to master…..there’s moments where I can get into a relaxed state and then quickly I find myself becoming a little uneasy, it sounds a little weird, but I don’t really know how to relax if I’m being honest!

This has got to be one of my most un relaxed weekends that I have had in a very long time…it’s probably my most sleepless weekend too, I’ve just been full of a lot of thoughts lately and I’ve been trying to put them all to the side and not think so much, but it’s not really been easy, I’m not trying to complain by the way….that’s just how I’ve been feeling

All that said, my weekend hasn’t been a bad weekend, it’s just not been my favorite in terms of not being able to relax or sleep properly, other than that it’s okay…..I wish that I had more to say in this post, but I honestly cannot think at all so I’m just going to keep this one short…..I think I’m going to take a couple of days off from writing for a bit, I don’t know, I may not at the same time, although I feel I maybe should just to until I feel better, in terms of energy,

I feel I’ve been going on low energy for a bit now so depending how I feel will determine if I write often, It might not be for as long as I think so if I don’t write tomorrow, I may write Tues and if not Tuesday then Wednesday there is something I have in mind that I want to record for a podcast this week so whatever day that is, I’ll also do a post, I’ll try not to stay away too long, but if I feel that I’m not in the best headspace then I’ll have to allow myself to take the time that is needed before I come back here even though I’ll probably fight with myself on it, we’ll see what happens!

I hope you guys have a good rest of the night and that you’re enjoying your relaxation and that you’re all okay, see you soon!

Here’s my latest podcast episode if you guys want to check it out: *quick update…..I missed spelled the name of the artist, I fixed it, but some of it is still there…sorry lol*

Now Playing….Trampoline By Shaed (Feat Zayn) Ep. 33 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Friday Everyone! Hope that you're all well, in today's episode I thought we'd change up the energy and talk about some music, I'll be discussing the song Trampoline by Shaed featuring Zayn and sharing my thoughts on it, as well as the original version, this song has been in my head for a while and I just felt like talking about it!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Plans & Decisions…

I’ve never been one for planning you know, which you probably do because I’ve mentioned it a few times on here, me and plans….don’t mix, however I’ve come to a point in my life where, I’m finding myself trying to plan for things which is usually not my department, but if the time has come for me to really sit and plan things properly then I’m going to do it! I’m going to put myself in an uncomfortable situation and face it the best way I can, scared and full of nerves combined!

Today has been a bit of a rough day for me, I’ll admit, I woke up with soooo many thoughts in my head and trying to sort them is completely new to me, I don’t normally sort my thoughts out well and so trying to do that today has got my head just full of aches lol…..but it’s okay because I know that there’s something that is very important I want to do and if I end up losing a little bit of sleep from it or feel myself getting slightly anxious on, I’m alright with that! Plans aren’t my normal cup of tea, but I’ve been trying to embrace it a little better instead of getting intimidated by them,

Plans are important they can help layout things so you don’t feel all over the place! Normally I like going with things naturally, but I’ve also been learning that sometimes you need to plan for things in order to work them out, if you just let things always go as they are, whatever is most important to you can get away from you and if that’s something you don’t want then you have to really work at them and take those steps to having them come to fruition and making them happen…..I’m always being told that life is short and you want to make sure you’re always giving attention to the things that matter most even if it seems hard, it can seem like you won’t get there, but if you want it enough and you believe in it enough….you already know that it can get there, you just have to take those steps to get them there!

Now with the things that I’m planning, there’s a few decisions that I’ve come to realize I need to face and deal with, even though some of the stuff may not be my favorite to want to deal with…..it’s up to me to take that breath, put on a brave face and do it anyway…..with planning you also have to make decisions tough or not, because that’s the only way for you to grow better and to experience things without all the limits of it all it all, you have to allow yourself to fly even if you are bat scared shit of it and yes I’m saying it just like that because it’s how I’m feeling it at the moment….if we continue to always keep ourselves on the ground, as safe as it may be sometimes you have to also fly or float otherwise you’ll always be there wishing you could soar that blue sky!

I recently went on a trip as you may know if you read that post and I was really nervous when I was waiting to go on the plane, but once I got on the plane…..I don’t know I was very happy, I smiled to myself knowing I did something that scared me and even when I was on the vacation I was on…..I was ready to go back on the plane……it just felt good and I really enjoyed myself knowing that I was ahead somewhere that I hadn’t been yet and that’s what I want to continue, I want to keep discovering, exploring and going on adventures…..but also I want to share that experience and so if I need to plan in order to do that, like I said…..I will!

The upcoming plan idea is to finally be able to see my love again and figure out how we can be together permanently, we both have wanted that for a good now sooo, I’m just hoping that it all goes well for us this time, which we’ll make sure it does!

Planning By A Non Planner (Personal Thoughts) Ep. 32 Daydreamer's Podcast

Hiya everyone, hope you've been having a good week so far! In today's episode, I talk about some of my own personal thoughts that I've been feeling today and about planning….something I see as intimidating normally, but I've been trying to embrace it a little better this time around and really do my best with it all! 

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Lexa

Math Problem Solved!? Sorta

Good Afternoon everyone, hope you’re all having a nice start of the week so far, we’re nearing the middle of August now, still a bit to go though before we actually approach the end of the month! So I know you’re probably wondering what this post is all about…..it’s sorta math related, but it’s not me complaining about it this time, I mean it’s still not my favorite subject, but this time what I’ll be talking about with math is a little important……to me and I wanted to share on it because I was really happy with myself so that’s another reason I thought I’d talk about it!

Let’s get to what exactly is this math important breakthrough we’re talking upon…..okay so some of you know that Math is usually not my strongest suit I like to wear, I don’t actually wear suits, but if I did I think I’d probably be a nice looking secret agent out there don’t you think!? If we’re talking math however…..well I know it’s one of my weaknesses, I’m not quite the greatest at it, but I still attempt and try to understand it regardless, speaking of that….it’s actually what I wanted to talk about, we all know a good amount on counting money right, I’m sure we all do!

The same question goes for counting coins in replace to dollars as money counting, a lot of people might be able to do that really well….me for a very long time, I’ll admit that counting coins and giving it as money if needed, I always had a problem with that, it was always something I felt to be a little bit of a big challenge to me and yes I know, it’s coins how can you mess up coins….there’s ways, also whenever we’re given coins, be honest no one really sees them as worth much, we see it and we’d rather have someone else keep the coins or we put them in jars and never look at them again, but coins are worthy, it’s just our brains don’t see them as worthy, me well if I see a penny on the floor, I check to see if it’s on heads and if it is I pick it up and if it’s not I turn it over for someone else to find who would like a little luck and that, most of you probably don’t believe in that stuff, but I do!

If someone is having a bit of a tough day, I like to think that a penny that’s turned on heads will catch their attention and bring a little smile to them, who knows, but yeah that’s not what we’re talking about here, I just thought I’d throw that in there….but to the story we go….long story short, I was organizing my bag and well I won’t say I found coins in my wallet, they were always there I just kind of forget about them being there a lot of the time….anyway, I took out the coins and I don’t really know why I did this, but I decided to count them! Now I know the basics of coin counting,

Mainly with the quarters, you know the 25, 50, 75, 1.00 that, but when adding in dimes and nickels to the mix, normally that’s when my brain goes into a sing along of the Night Before Christmas song, where Jack sings about I think the other seasons or when he sees snow for the first time, but just the part that goes “What’s this, what’s this” yeah just that part over and over ooor the High School Musical part of Status Quo, where Sharpay sings “This is not what I want, this is not what I planned and I just got to say, I do not understand….that’s me with adding up coins together!

HOWEVER today was a breakthrough, I even took a math quiz that asked some questions about what coins equaled to the same amount and how much each amount had within the set of coins shown if that makes sense, so “Here’s a set of coins, how much is here” that kind of thing! I sat there and did my best to answer correctly to see if I understood it well enough and guess what guys…..I got it! I got 5 questions in a row correct, my lucky number by the way…..we won’t talk about question 6…..I missed counted…..not by a lot, I just went a little over when I should’ve went lower, had I counted correctly I would have definitely gotten it, but I just didn’t double check, but it’s okay!

I got 5 correct back to back and that’s a new record for me and I am proud of myself for it lol, so proud that I wanted to write about it, but yeah, August 9th, 2021….I figured out and can now say, I know how to count coins, I know you’re probably reading this and possibly went to another more interesting post or may be reading this as if I’m a little mad and wondering why I am excited about it, it’s because even though it’s a small thing, I still consider it both an achievement as well as an improvement in my math skills, I’m still not the greatest with math, but for me I see it as a step closer to getting a little bit better with it and it’s important to try your best to improve on the things that you may not be that great at, it doesn’t matter how big or small it may be a little improvement is still a pretty big achievement!

So remember don’t think small things aren’t important, if it makes you happy and you’re enjoying yourself and feel proud of yourself for it, then go right ahead and celebrate those small victories, they’re just as important as the big ones!

Sooo I also recorded this post as an episode, it’s similar with a slight different thought approach, it’s pretty much a shorter version of the story in case you don’t feel like reading this lengthy post!

Don't Stop Improving or Believing….Ep. 31 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Monday, hope you're all doing alright! In today episode, we just chat a little about self improvements and being happy and proud of yourself on any kind of achievement that you come across including the small moments in life, we always focus on the big achievements that we have in life, which is great, but it's okay to embrace and feel happy about some of the small moments that we get as well, they too can be pretty important!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Honestly….I Want To See You Be Brave (Title May Change)

There comes a moment, well I guess you can say there comes a good amount of moments in life where you have to make some really hard decisions and sometimes those decisions aren’t always the easiest, most times you’ll find that not a lot of people agree with the decisions you make, but whether they agree with them or not, it’s up us to decide what we feel works best for us and if it’s also healthy for us as well! What I mean by that is if you find that you’re in a situation where everyday it’s always issue after issue and no matter how much you try to make it better, it never feels like it gets anywhere, that’s where the really big decision comes in…..you have to ask yourself is this worth the time and energy am I sacrificing too much of my happiness trying to make everyone else happy!?

Sometimes it’s difficult because you feel like with certain situations you don’t have a choice, especially when say it’s family or really close friends or just anyone you feel a great connection with! If you are the kind of person that always puts everyone else’s needs before their own this can be especially difficult and a bit of a battle to get yourself out of, but once you do get out of it, you’ll start to find yourself getting more and more better and you’ll also start to become happier because you’re not having to always please people, you might have moments where you feel slightly guilty, but that’s only due to the fact that you’re used to helping so many people out without a single thought about yourself so it’ll feel a little weird at first of course!

However you have to know when to say no and that it’s okay to say no, as hard as it is, it’s important for your wellbeing, if you’re constantly agreeing to everything that someone says or always saying yes when really you mean no, you don’t give yourself that proper attention that is needed and when you know you have no energy left, yet you still try and give everyone what their asking you for…..it’s just going to be this endless cycle only you’ll be the one without energy while others knowing they have their own energy, continue to take all of yours!

You never want to allow yourself to enter that cycle, but then you ask yourself, how do you know you are in that situation!? Sometimes it all goes based off feeling, so if someone askes you for something or to do something, whatever the question or situation is and inside you feel like it’s not right or maybe you just don’t want to do it in that moment, yet you do it anyway because you’re being asked that’s the first sign of it’s okay to say no when you feel it to be no…..as for situations alone, you have to know which ones are worth putting yourself into and which ones are best to stay out of, it’s not always an easy thing to do, but for the best shield for yourself,

Don’t know how else to state it….it’s important to be aware of and if people choose to scold you for wanting to stay away from all the drama and not wanting to be around them because it’s never a good moment or there’s always something then just a genuine let’s spend time together or conversate and all that jazz, then those are the people you want to keep at a distance, if they can’t respect that then you’re best to just keep to yourself and look towards filling your circle with better surrounding people that you know will keep your energy high and not the other way around, the people who really care will always support you, even if they maybe don’t agree, a good support system will always encourage you to just go out there and do your best and will always want to see you happy!

I express a little more on this topic in my latest podcast episode, it’s a bit lengthy, but I felt it was important and wanted to share on it, if you would like to have a listen, check it out:

Wind Of Change….(Personal Thoughts) Ep. 30 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Wednesday! Hope you're enjoying the day…we've reached episode 30….wow! In today's episode, we go a bit personal with it, I had a lot of thoughts that I wanted to share with this episode and it's pretty much based on a situation that I'm dealing with currently! I don't normally share on personal issues, but I felt I wanted and needed to say some stuff and so this episode might be a little heavy topic wise, but I try to keep it a little light as well, without all the extra details so it's not all that bad, just some thoughts…  

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa