Sometimes a memory can come to you as a song and sometimes that song can lead to a memory. Sounds like I just said the same thing twice, maybe I did and maybe I didn’t…..but I probably did.

I never really write this deep about anything…..but being 31 now…..I know 31 can you believe it! I can’t, anyway….being in my 30s there’s a lot you think about….
most of the time it’s where you feel you want to be, if you’re even on the right path or heading in the right direction. I had the thought, “I’m not supposed to be spending” yet I do and did, because some stuff I need and some stuff I want, but that’s near or there.

Another thought I had was if I were to ever have daughters…..hold on…..i’m not saying i’m looking to be a mother just yet……i’m just saying….if I ever had daughters I already know the names i’d pick, but if I don’t ever get to have any, i’d choose to give those names to a dog or a cat or both a dog and a cat.

Why you ask!? because they would be like my fur children, if I don’t ever have any actual kids, which I said I would probably have fur children then actual kids, now I know everyone has their opinions on having children and I won’t go into that debate, you have them if you want to or don’t if that’s what you want.

Children aren’t for everyone and that is a fact, but I know there are people who wish they could and can’t and some that are deadset on not having any…..this is a topic I never thought i’d have, but here we are surprise, surprise and to think it took wondering about a daughter and if I ever one day have one…..wow!

Some part of me feels like I would do well with a girl then a boy, because I like to dress up and choose outfits, but who knows……back to music sometimes it makes you feel sad like you have to apologize for something you don’t even know what for? Sometimes you just feel sad, for no reason and you feel bad.

Music is a memory and can stir up many feelings and you just hope that you never really hurt anyone especially someone you never spoke to personally or at all…..is that weird? maybe but my brain works differently and it thinks deeply and comes up with weird moments, sanarios, and has it’s own character lineup let’s say, like you just know how people are going to be and become ahead of time. Weird yeah……I know