Remembering Christina Grimmie (Blog Post)

To write or not to write that is the question isn’t it!? The answer, well….I’m not really sure, I want to write, it’s just trying to figure out what topic I’d like to discuss is where the issue is…..it’s not really an issue, I just don’t know what this post is going to be about, I’m hoping that as I’m writing this post, something will find a way to come up! In the meantime, if you don’t mind I’d like to share upon my latest Podcast episode with you, in the latest episode I discuss all about Christina Grimmie, who if you don’t know was a great and talented artist, however she passed on this very day, 5 years ago today…..

I’m not really sure why, but I felt like talking about her and so I recorded a whole episode yesterday, sharing my thoughts and just remembering her a bit, If you’d like to give it a listen you can check it out here: Remembering Christina Grimmie (Music, Personality ect…) You can also listen to it on Spotify!

I didn’t personally know Christina, but I used always watch her videos on Youtube, where she first showcased her talents and she was always a favorite channel of mine to watch, I always considered her voice to be very powerful, if you took a glimpse into her personality as she was talking and then you heard her sing right after, you wouldn’t believe how strong her voice to be, but she always had this something special with her, hard to explain, but you could always feel it and I guess that’s why a lot of people gravitated towards her and kept a know on her!

Now I wouldn’t call myself the biggest fan of Christina’s, but I really did like her a lot, I always loved hearing her sing and just getting to see her personality that she would share with everyone, after she started becoming more recognized for her talents, you knew that she was going to be something and she was, like I said I didn’t really follow her that much when she started becoming a bit more well known, but I would always check in here and there with her and her music and it’d always take me back to when she first started on Youtube or shall I say within her early years of Youtube, I don’t think I was around when she first, first started…..but I do remember the beginning parts to when she was just getting started if that makes sense!

Some of what I said here, is what I said in that episode, only there’s more within it…..if I’m being honest it’s been a very long time since I’ve really thought about Christina Grimmie, that being said, I never forgot about her, I still listen to a few of her songs and when I do I always think about how great she really was and how much I miss hearing her voice, she was a one of a kind, kind of person and I know that a lot of people that knew her and enjoyed her presence, be it music, personality and just her overall, will always miss her too and will never ever truly forget about her, she’ll always be remembered for the impact that she left in peoples lives, big or small!

Christina you will always be remembered and missed dearly, I know I already said it in my episode, but thank you for the time that you gave us while you were here, even when it may seem like we’ve forgotten there will always be something to help us remember you and everything that you left, you’re a soul that left too soon, but one that will always live on for many many lifetimes and wherever you are, I hope that you are happy and still sharing that wonderful and powerful voice of yours as well as your personality, rest well and know that those that still keep you in mind will always love you! Thank you for everything.

P.S.

Here’s one of my favorite cover songs by Christina, I love Jason Mraz’s version as well, I mean it is his song, but Grimmie’s version…. is definitely worth a listen: I Won’t Give Up (Christina Grimmie’s Version)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June Reminds Me Of The Color Yellow….

Good Morning Everyone! Hope you all are having a good Monday and enjoying the time off with Memorial Day if do have time off, we’re getting close to the afternoon hour and pretty close to closing this month as we move on into the month of June, it’s a bit crazy innit knowing that May’s pretty much over, it feels like some of these months have came by a bit slowly while some not so slowly, it’s like they arrive hang out for a pretty good while and then go off on their merry way!

For the month of May I feel like it just arrived, but is also now just leaving and that’s something I always tend to feel each time it comes around I don’t know why, but it’s always like that…..to give some thoughts on May well….I feel like it’s been a pretty alright month, it had it’s mixture of good and not good parts, but for the most part, I wouldn’t say it’s been that bad, now from the title you can see I went ahead and gave June a color, if I had to give May a color, I’d say she’d be….like a Green mixed with Violet and other warm colors!

I know it’s probably very weird to want to give months a color, but sometimes when thinking about whatever months arriving I can’t help, but feel a color with them and yeah that’s just what I think them to be…..actually if I had to pick a color for May…..it’d be the album cover of Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album, which was released in May….pretty much, now I thought and felt the color Pink when thinking about May….. I just didn’t want to say Pink, but if I’m being honest every time I look at that album….it feels like it, although I will still consider May to be a Green/Violet color mixed with other warm colors!

I gotta say real quick the album artwork for Still Alive, is probably by far one of my all time favorites it’s so simple, but it’s got this all around aura of innocence’s, but not that entirely, just by looking at it, you get a breath of fresh air it’s just got this something to it that is hard to explain, it’s my favorite album art and it’s just her with a nice pink background and other colors added, the simplicity of it is what I like pretty much!

Back to talking about the month of May…..it’s been alright, I mean May is my birth month, so I think I’ll always have a soft spot for it and I think I would consider it a favorite month of mine, not just because I was born in that month, but because I just kind of always liked it…..but we’ll be soon moving on from May and entering the month of June in a couple of hours and who knows what will come with June, it could be anything, maybe some of you already know what will be arriving, but it’s okay if you don’t, sometimes not knowing can be good, we all enjoy a little surprise!

Until we see June…..let’s continue to enjoy the rest of May’s company in the last hours of the month and wish her safe travels with the rest of her upcoming journey, thank you for hanging out with us May, we shall see you on your next visit!

P.S.

Seeing as I spoke about Alexz Johnson in this post, I just wanted to share that she read my thoughts about her latest album in my last blog post….and she liked it…my day is made!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Still Alive By Alexz Johnson

Goood Morning, hope you’re all having a good one so far! Today we’re going to finally get to the post that I’ve been meaning to get to, we’re going to be discussing one of my all time favorite artists Alexz Johnson and her latest album Still Alive! Now I’ve been doing a bit of thinking and by a bit of thinking I mean I literally just thought about this a minute ago as I’m writing this post…now the thought here is that I’m going to give my thoughts in a form of writing with each track we take a look at within the album in the best way that I can express them, because for some reason I feel like with this album, I can better explain it in writing then when verbally talking about it.

That being said, I still am going to give other thoughts on it in one of my podcast episodes, well I’m going to try to anyway, I want to express on this album in both a writing sense and as a podcast episode because I feel there’s just so much to this album that is hard to explain in just a few words, plus I thought writing my thoughts on the album would be better than listening to an hour long podcast so to save you all from that we’re going to focus on giving our best thoughts in a blog post instead lol!

First up on the album is a song called Saving The Train:

When I first heard this song I actually didn’t really know how to describe this one, the first verse talks about about learning to let go of certain baggage’s, you know releasing all the things that we find hard to get rid of, be it emotionally, mentally things like that, as for the chorus I still don’t quite know what exactly it means, I felt like it could’ve been related to saving of a relationship in a way, but I’m still trying to figure out what it means, for the most part one of the messages in this song is in order to heal from past situations and just in general, you have to let them go so you have a better and clearer mindset/headspace….It’s a good song!

Next Up…..Chicago:

One of my favorites on the album, this one speaks of going on a journey full of adventure, moving forward, it’s also got a bit of self discovery to it! It’s also got a relationship feel to it, but it’s more rocky this time around, despite all those thoughts, it’s a pretty great song, the bridge is my favorite part she’s got some great vocals there which is why I like it, it’s simple, but still good, the whole songs great really!

Moving on to the third track of the album which is called…..Running With The Devil :

This song is actually one that’s been revisited, as well as Chicago and apparently Saving The Train (which I didn’t actually know) and a couple more that we’ll get to, pretty much this whole album is filled with songs that have been revisited and done differently then it’s original counter part except for maybe 4 songs some are new ones, but Running With The Devil, this one at one point I wasn’t the biggest fan of when I heard the very first version, I didn’t hate it, there was nothing wrong with it, it was just one of those songs that I never listened to that much,

That was until this album came out, now it’s one that is probably one of my if not favorites than most liked, I listen to it more now than I did the original…..there’s a lot that you can take from this song, for me I felt this song to be about facing inner demons, you know like when you just got a lot going on, but you don’t really express on it, it’s also got a hope feeling to it, there’s so much to this song that is just hard to explain so just listen to it and maybe it’ll make better sense, but this is a good song and is worth checking out!

4th track off the album is…..Living In Colour:

Yes that’s how color is meant to be spelled, I’m not trying to be fancy, it’s literally how it’s written on the album and in the UK so it’s right okay! Now that that’s settled…..I flipping love this song, it’s different to what I’m used to from Alexz, but I love it, it’s got a retro vibe going with it, it’s got a groovy sound, it’s such a great song, it’s all about living in the moment of things and just enjoying yourself in whatever you do…..there’s more I’m going to say with it, but later, just know it’s a good one, you might have to listen to it a few times to get into it, but it’s so worth it!

Mambo #5….okay not really, but we are taking a look at track 5 which has got to be one of my all time favorite songs off this album and that song is….. Still Alive:

This is probably one of the best songs off this album it’s soooo good, super emotional of course, she wrote this in tribute to her sister that had passed away from Cancer, it’s just such a beautiful, beautiful song, everyone just needs to give it a listen and check it out for yourself….I’m telling you, you’ll love it!

Moving on to track number 6…..Lost and Found:

This is a good song, I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s good, I did say this has a feeling about speaking your truth, it’s the only way I knew how to best describe the song, it might have a completely different meaning to it then what I thought it to be, also this is another revisited song that she did, but give this one a listen see what you think!

Track 7….Shout:

This song is different to the one I know, which by that you can probably guess it’s revisited and you’d be right, I remember hearing this version for the first time and just not being used it, I’ve listened to the original so many times, I mean it’s one of my all time favorites and to hear this one, I didn’t know what to expect, which version do I like better!? Both I love the original and really like this version too, I do have to say that some things with it haven’t changed, while other things did! So you’re still getting some of the original listen with it, but you also get something new at the same time which is a nice balance, like they both maybe different in a sense of arrangements and swapped lyrics here and there, but they’re still both great in their own way so I’m with it and I hope you guys give both versions a listen, I love this song!

On to the next one that is track 8…..Swallowed:

Second to last revisited song, Swallowed is an interesting song, the best way I was able to describe this song is similar to what anxiety and paranoia might feel like and I’m only saying that because of the lyrics, when you listen to it, you might sense a worry of many things, so like when she’s singing the lyrics it can sound like she’s having a bit of an overthinking moment happening, however when the chorus kicks in, it fades away, like I said it’s very interesting that for me it’s hard to really put words to it, my interpretation might now actually be what it means, but then again it is my interpretation of it, it’s going to mean something different to everyone, but nonetheless, it’s a pretty nice song and deserves to be listened to!

3rd to to last song, which is track 9 we have a very good song in…..No Shame :

I LOVE THIS SONG! It’s got such an upbeat chill vibe to it to where you just can’t help, but get into the groove of it, I can’t explain this one, just listen it, the lyrics literally speak for themselves, just by hearing the song….you’ll understand why it’s called No Shame, like Alexz knows what she wants with this song, but the way she does it, is clever, it’s tempting this song and I’m HERE for it!

Yaaaay I love talking about this one, I present to you my other favorite song, track 10…..Golden:

This is the other emotional song besides Still Alive, this song is so beautiful and breathtaking, her vocals are just heaven here, literally she’s got sooo much soul in this song and the best part about is it’s for her Daughter, need I say anymore!? I love it, it just leaves you in tears and fills your heart up, this song is literally Golden point blank, seriously listen to it you’ll fall in love with it, I promise, I always get happy when this song comes on, whether I’m sad, happy, just not feeling the day, the minute this song comes on…..my emotions and feelings don’t matter, they don’t exist, all that exist is this song and Alexz Johnson’s vocals with it and that’s the truth!

Last, but certainly not least…..we have the last revisited song on the album and last song of the album…..Weight:

Can I say favorite!? Cause it definitely is, it’s got a really nice message to it, it talks about feeling like you have so much going on like literal Weight that you’re carrying, feeling like you can’t ever catch a breath, but it also talks about not having to carry it all alone that when you need someone to take a bit of the load off, that they’re will always be someone there to be that support, at least that’s my interpretation of it anyway, I sometimes feel it’s got a bit of a different meaning going on with it, but I still feel like that’s what it can mean too! This ones a really good one, like I said it’s one of my favorites and I enjoy singing along to it when it comes on or to myself at times, it’s just that good!

Final Thoughts!?

Listen to the album, take in her beautiful powerful soothing voice, enjoy the lyrics and just bask it in man, it’s definitely one of her best albums, along with A Stranger Time, that was a good album, but Still Alive there’s just something about it that I can’t explain, maybe it’s just Alexz, every time she drops a new album or a song, I love it instantly, I’m probably being bias here, because she’s one of my favorite artist, but she never makes a bad song, even with the songs I don’t really listen to often, I still don’t think of them as bad, sometimes you just have certain songs you prefer more over the others, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’re bad, they’re just not ones that are often listened to, this album though is just *chef kiss* beautiful, I think most of you will enjoy it, but that is all my thought for the album, definitely check it out!

P.S.

It’s still May so the anniversary of it still counts, so with that Happy 1 year anniversary Still Alive, I love you!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Truthfully Speaking….

Hiya….I don’t know how I should start this…..there’s a lot I want to say to you, but I find it hard to say it, I know we have days that we talk and days that we don’t, I’ve accepted that’s how it is at the moment with us right now….I know we both got our own journey that we’re on, in yours you’ve got it and are very confident, in mine, everything is kind of new still to me, but I’ve been doing my best to go more out of my comfort which is something we got to talk about by the way! I think of you always, you probably know that though by now, I can sense you probably think of me too, I hope at least lol…..I miss you always nothing new, there’s times that I want to call you, just to hear your voice and to also talk to you for a bit, but I don’t because I know how busy you are…..and if I’m being honest I sometimes think you won’t answer if I do anyway!

If I was able to write a song to you on what I’ve been feeling I would, I know that’s random, but it was the next thing that came to my head so I said it, but I’m also not saying I haven’t written lyrics for you…..I’m just saying…..also me writing that helped to get nerves out, don’t ask me why I’m nervous I just am…..I guess in a way this is the first time where I’m trying to be completely open with you to my feelings that I always have trouble expressing to you…..you’ll ask me if I’m okay and I’ll always say yeah, but there will be things that I won’t say as well and I know you’re the same way….. I know that’s why you don’t really say much these days, I always feel you want to, but I also know that you feel you work it out best alone and I never want to push you to saying things you aren’t ready to say…..I’ll always give you the time that you feel you need, even when all I want to do is talk to you, I’ll always have patience for you.

I love hearing from you, you have no idea how much that brightens my day! That aside…..How you been!? I hope you’re doing okay and I hope your family’s doing alright too as well your nan, I hope she’s been okay!? I hope everything’s been going well with what you’re doing and that you’re enjoying yourself with it all! I’ve been watching some of your videos and I always see how happy you are doing it which makes me smile, I love it when you smile and are happy though…..I know this week was hard, did you feel it!? If so I felt it too…..did you know there was a Lunar Eclipse yesterday, I know you don’t like hearing these facts, but you know I always like telling you them anyway,

It’s just me! I don’t know what else to say…..I feel I might’ve said everything I needed, but I also feel I still got more I want to say, maybe I’ll say it when we have a proper talk if you want to do that! I think that’s everything for now, before I finish up this post message for you, I just want you to always know and remember how much I love you, no matter what goes on and how much we talk and how much we don’t…..just know I love you and that I always will that’s never going to change…..hopefully you read this, because it’s kind of why I wrote it lol…..I’d used the sticking out of the tongue icon here, but I’m on my computer writing this…..hold on wait 😛 never mind that works, hopefully you laughed, yes I know I’m weird you don’t have to tell me….okay I’m done….for now!

P.S.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Dappy lately…..especially I.O.U that keeps coming on for some reason and it’s not me choosing to play it, it just comes on by itself, although I have been purposely listening to Beautiful Me and No Regrets mainly Beautiful Me though, I forgot how good both those songs were….Oh and Grease has been coming on a lot as well, can you guess what song!?

All The Love Always ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Just Called To Say I Love You….

I woke up with this song in my head earlier this morning for some odd reason, hence the reason for the title! When I randomly started singing this song I was thinking about how I don’t really sing Stevie Wonder songs out of nowhere to myself unless a Stevie Wonder song comes on, so I like to think that maybe someone is sending a telepathic message to me or something who knows…..to be honest I really don’t listen to this song all that often, I just tend to sing along to it whenever I hear its somewhere, so for it to just come to me randomly like that especially today….is very interesting!

Seeing that we’re talking about the song, I just want to let you know real quick that I only really know the chorus of the song, I think if you were to play it from the beginning and told me to guess what the song is, I wouldn’t know until maybe as it’s just heading into the chorus ha, but then again I might surprise myself I don’t know! I went ahead and looked up what the meaning of it meant and it pretty much said that you don’t need a special occasion to tell someone you love them, sometimes it’s the smallest gestures that will be just enough to where they they know you care about them, it’s a good song even if I don’t really listen to it!

That’s all I have to say for this post, I didn’t really expect to write too much about the topic, I just had the song in my head and felt like sharing on it, but before I wrap up this post, I’ve got a bit of updating to do on where we last left off in my latest post

Update Time:

I just wanted say that I know it’s been a while since my last post, which was two weeks ago yesterday….sorry about that, I’ve been taking a bit of time to give myself a break a bit, not just with writing, but with recording as well on my podcast, which is the first time since I’ve started it that I hadn’t recorded in a while, it was a bit weird if I’m being honest…..I’ve also been a bit under the weather recently, but I should be returning soon to everything! I didn’t forget about where I left off in the last post where I was suppose to share on Alexz Johnson’s latest album Still Alive,

I will be bringing that to you guys, I’ve actually recorded the episode about 3 times…..maybe 5 or so on my podcast and I’ve just not been happy with each one I’ve done, but I really do want to give my thoughts on the album because it really is such a great one and is definitely worth sharing!

So that will be if not the first one back, the next one after whatever the first episode back will be, I haven’t decided just yet….I’m not sure how I’m expecting it to come out, I think just when I feel it to be good enough for me in a sense to where I feel I’ve done my best with it and also to where it’s not an hour long haha, yeaahh so far that’s just how it’s been coming out, but I’m going to get it, I know it! I just hope you all enjoy it when it’s done, sorry for the delay of it I just want to make sure I’m giving the best content that I can give to you guys, be it writing or podcasting even though there are times where I feel I don’t really know what I’m doing on both sides, but I just try to keep doing my best with it and hope that it turns out okay!

Alrighty then, I shall leave you with two things,

1. if you would like to check out my latest podcast episode, you can have a listen to it here: Let’s Talk: Grease (Music Soundtrack) as you can obviously tell already, I went a bit out of my comfort zone and discussed upon a topic that I don’t normally talk about which is movie related, but also one that I tend to stay away from, not because I don’t like it, I just have my personal reasons for it…..which you’ll find out about in the episode!

Just to make it clear, I only talk about the main songs of the movie and maybe a bit about the movie itself, you’ll have to find out what I mean, I’m not giving it away haha! No it’s a really good episode, I think I’d consider it one of my favorites that I’ve recorded, which is big for me to say, because I was a bit surprised to how it came out, so do check it out, it’d really mean a lot and I’d appreciate you all forever ha! You can also find it on Spotify as well, hope you enjoy it!

Lastly, but certainly not least, I just want you guys to know….especially you if you’re reading this…..you know who you are, hopefully, you should at least lol…..

“I just called to say…I love you, I just called to say I care…I just called to say, I love you and I mean it from the bottom of my heart”

-Stevie Wonder

Photo by Miha Arh on Unsplash

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Next Up….Still Alive By Alexz Johnson (Updated) With Added Thoughts

Good Afternoon and Happy Monday, hopefully it’s a good one for you all so far! I’m feeling pretty good today, I’m a lot older than I was yesterday…..still getting used to that though, but other than that, I’m feeling pretty alright, hope you all enjoyed your weekend by the way…..have I mentioned it’s now Tuesday, no!? *Writes in Tuesday* sorry about that, I tend to confuse the days….hope you’ve all been having a good day so far, my mood today is a bit less energetic compared to yesterday, but I still feel pretty okay I’d say!

So today’s topic of the day is a Now Playing as you can see up there in the title, at least that’s what it was supposed to be, I think I’m going to move this post to a different day so it matches with the podcast episode that I want to re record! I’ve been doing a lot of these lately, that being due to the fact that there’s a lot of artists that I like talking about…..originally I had this in mind as a Podcast episode where I’d go over the track list and give my best thoughts about it and I’ve done that…..only it turned into an hour long episode and I didn’t feel like anyone would want to listen to me talk for an hour, plus I wasn’t able to really share it on the day of the anniversary like I wanted…..there’s some reasons there, but I’m not going to get into that, personal stuff!

So I went ahead and recorded it again to see if I’d be able to have it be less of a long episode which I did manage…..but I kinda want to do it over again because I want to get it right, not saying the first two ones weren’t good I just feel like I could do better with it so because I missed both the anniversary upload I wanted originally to do and missed my first Monday episode upload….I’m going to try my hand at it again tomorrow and possibly have it scheduled for either Friday or Saturday! Friday seeing as though she released the album on a Friday last year on the 8th of May, only instead of the 8th it’ll be the 14th…..and Saturday being because she had a listening party for the album, buut it was on the 15th of April….that I didn’t know,

I was there for the listening party, but I forgot that she did it in April…..however because it’s the 15th this Saturday and this past Saturday was the 8th, the day the album was released….I’m probably going to lean more toward Saturday in posting it, even though it’s already a year since the albums release, but it’ll be a year and a 1 week so I feel like it’ll still counts, plus 5 is my lucky number, I like to think of it to be lucky anyway, so the 15th is looking like the choice and winner here! I also kinda had something I was going to try my hand at on Friday, even though technically the topic I have in mind was an April thing that I had no clue about until April was pretty much over…..

but the day being the 14th still in a way makes it count and that’s the story I’m sticking with alright, I’m still thinking on that one though, but I might just do it, so stay tune for all of that! That’s pretty much all I got for this post, keep a look out for my album thoughts on Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album coming to you guys this weekend and whatever I have for you guys this Friday!

P.S.

Don’t know why I’m just thinking about this now, but I probably should do these type updates more often for my podcast, might be useful….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Today’s Theme Word Is….Why!?

Confused aren’t you!? Yeah I figured I mean who writes that as a title….apparently this girl here! Now I’m not going to ask any why questions, because then it’ll just bring down the mood of things, what I’m going to do instead is try my best to turn it in a way, you might be thinking to yourself what I mean on that…..let me just state that I don’t really know myself I’m just going to go with it here! We have the word Why as our theme and we’re wondering what’s going on with it, well they’re both starter titles of two songs that ended up in my head, one of the songs that started my day was Sabrina Carpenter’s song Why which is one of my favorites by the way, I woke up singing it myself this morning for some random odd reason, didn’t question it, I just simply went with it while it was hanging about.

Then we have the song Why So Serious by Alice Merton, which I just found out is a UK artist a bit of moment ago when I looked up the meaning to the song, because it got stuck in my head, I mean I did listen to it a bit earlier today which could be the reasoning for that, but I also was listening to other songs which means either one of those songs could’ve gotten stuck in my head, but nope just this song so far, not that I’m bothered, I actually really like the song, I was just curious to what it actually meant and I found out what it meant and then I laughed and smiled to myself because it’s meaning is something that is hard for me to get passed, not in a bad way, just more on the sense of taking it as advice in a way, pretty much the song is all about trying to take life less seriously, which is something I always tend to have a bit of an issue with, I do try, but there are times when my mind gets the better of me and makes me worry about the smallest things that I know aren’t necessarily a big thing….it’s just how my mind is okay!

That aside, I like the song, both songs actually, but Why So Serious by Alice Merton is really good song, I just finished discuss a bit about it on my new episode of my podcast, yeah that podcast that I keep mentioning here and there, just to remind you guys in case you want to check it out, speaking of reminders this song is actually written as a reminder for Alice like, she wrote the song as a note for herself, I won’t get too much into because I actually spoke about it in my recent episode, even though I already kind of told you it’s meaning there still is a little bit more too it, not too much, but a bit and I actually think it’s pretty cool how she chooses to go about writing her songs….

I know that obviously everyone writes from personal experience and everything, I mean I like to think that every kind of music has something personal about it….whether it’s by lyrics or just instrumental wise, you can tell a whole lot on what someone is trying to say with an instrument, sure there aren’t any words to interpret it’s meaning and emotion, but if you really listen to an instrument at times you can just feel what it’s trying to communicate, sometimes without realizing it, it can catch you off guard, but I guess we can save that one for another time, because that’s not what this post is about is it!? I mean it can be, but I think I’ll save it for later, I didn’t quite expect it to go that deep there…..but you can always feel what an artist is saying with how well they express through their lyrics and I always love hearing it,

Sometimes it’s one of the best ways you can relate to and Why So Serious is one of those songs that I find myself connecting to a bit, plus you got to love it’s groovy electropop sound to it….I just found out she in the electropop genre, which is pretty cool, I only have one rule with music, I just gotta like it and it has to make sense so I guess that’s two!? As long as I feel the song and connect to it or just enjoy it in general I’m perfectly fine with it and I like Alice Merton, so far, she’s a pretty good artist…..same goes for Sabrina Carpenter she’s got some good songs too and she’s a good actress as well, definitely recommend checking them both out if you never heard of them before or are just curious!

PROMO TIME:

Seriously guys, I get really weird doing this, believe me okay….but I just uploaded a new episode to my podcast talking about Alice Merton and her song Why So Serious as well as some other things so if you want to check that out you can find the episode here: Now Playing…..Why So Serious by Alice Merton on Anchor where I normally record and it’s also on Spotify along with all the other episodes I’ve done *hint, hint* but yeah, check it out if you get curious, alright promo over!

Hope you all are having a good one!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing….Car Radio By Twenty One Pilots (Part 2!? I Might’ve Discussed This One Already… Let’s Just Call it A Revisit)

Good Afternoon, hope everyone’s doing alright! Now before I actually get to this topic, I’m not exactly sure if I already had a look at this song and spoke upon it, I just wanted to give thoughts to the lyrics and express my thoughts on the possible meaning in my own words of it…..if I already did talk on it sorry if this is a repeat, but if not then cool! Now onto the topic of today…..

Artist: Twenty One Pilots

Song: Car Radio

Album: Vessel

Why are we talking about this song today!? Well truth is…..I just wanted to look at the lyrics of it honestly and see if I can do a proper review on it, in a sense….now just to put this out there in case some of you that do read my posts are reading this now or maybe some of you have just discovered my blog site…..I know I already talked about Twenty One Pilots and I expressed how I’m not a HUGE fan of them, in a sense of I don’t really keep up with them, I do like some of their songs though and I think they’re very talented artists, even though I may not know too much about them, I still enjoy some of the music that they bring to their fans! I also like to think of them as very nice people which I’m sure they are!

Now on to the song that is Car Radio…..I can’t really say when I first heard this song and where I was when I heard it for the very first time, but I do remember hearing for the first time and watching the music video to it if that makes sense!? I can remember watching it on the tv somewhere and seeing Tyler, I believe his name is and him being in a….what looked like a red room on the floor and then randomly jammin’ it out on stage alongside his drummer and friend Josh. That is the best way I can describe ever encountering the song, now when we think of the lyrics or look at the lyrics, there’s a lot of deep meaning obviously to it…..you really feel each emotion that he brings to the song, to highlight a few of the lyrics, first you got the opening which reads:

” I ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire, exhale desire, I know it’s dire my time today….I have these thoughts so often I ought, to replace that slot with what I once bought, cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence…”

and then the one line I want to add is…..

“Sometimes quiet is violent”

Now with those lines alone, you obviously can see the frustration, well what I would call frustration anyway…that Tyler is delivering here, we all know the whole feeling of becoming hopeful and excited by something and then feeling like you have to dim it down because maybe in the moment, it can feel a little too good to be true right!? Now there’s that line of pondering, where you’re feeling yourself thinking about things a little too much then you probably should, mash that with the line “Sometimes quiet is violent” and you’ll soon find yourself just caught in this moment of just overly thinking, now you’re feeling overwhelmed, you don’t know what to do with yourself and you’re trying everything and anything just to get yourself out of that thought mode…..now we come to the lines that read:

“I’m forced to deal with what I feel, there is no distraction to mask what is real”

This line alone, first let me just say, is probably one of my favorite lines in this song, because it just without warning drops a whole lyric that makes you take a moment to come to the realization of, no matter how much we try and keep our minds distracted from all the worries, doubts, fears, whatever we’re stressing ourselves out about and pretty much says that not even music can be a distraction to what we’re feeling in the current moment that we’re feeling it and it’s a bit odd because a lot of the time we listen to music to escape or just because we love listening to it, but if you really think about it, we tend to only hear a song and sing along to it if we know it or it’s a favorite of ours,

Only do we truly listen to a songs lyrics….when we’re in the state of mind of feeling a certain emotion, if you notice it’s not until we’re feeling a bit crappy or just not having the best of days to where we really hear the lyrics of song, I mean it doesn’t necessarily have to be when you’re feeling low, it could be when you’re happy as well, but a lot of the time we pay attention to the lyrics when the day just feels off…..why is that!? It’s kind of like your ears just know the right moment to listen, the only time we actually truly listen to the lyrics of a song beside on a not so great day, is when we’re listening to it for the very first time, after that we already know the song, we’ll sing to it, do a little dance and just pretty much hear it from then on….we don’t listen to it until a random time calls for it, which is really weird…..

I guess in a sense, maybe we don’t always listen to the lyrics closely because in the moment we don’t need to, we just enjoy it, but it’s when we’re “in our feelings” so to say and I mean that more on the term of just in general, when our minds are becoming to feel as though it’s on an overload setting….where music just knows what it is we need, sometimes we need to force ourselves to deal with sitting in silence and dealing with whatever it is that keeps clouding our minds and trying to get through the issue that we keep trying to avoid and procrastinate on, which is why you’ll find some songs tend to come on more regarding that feeling if that makes sense!?

Like you have different categories for each emotion, guess that’s why we keep making playlists! That aside, Car Radio is literally the song to play when you know how you’re feeling and you just need to allow those feelings to take place as they’re happening, because sometimes that literally all you can do, play a song let it say how you’re feeling and hope that it does it’s job and helps you to feel a bit better in getting whatever it is you needed to get out….out!

Now I know there’s a lot more to the lyrics of Car Radio, but I actually feel I’ve said what I wanted to say with certain lyrics, I also feel like I already discussed on the second verse of this song in one of my old posts can’t tell you if it was the one on Twenty One Pilots or one of my entry post where I would just write on my thoughts, but I feel I brought that up already and so I think I’ve said what I felt I needed to say in a sense to these lyrics, I didn’t know where this was going to go I was just hoping it would make sense as I was going along with it, I just wanted to talk a little on it!

I really love the lyrics to this song, it’s got so much depth to it and it’s like what you expect it to be, it doesn’t give you any idea of being something else then what you see it as, it’s literally just saying “this is me, this is what I’ve been feeling, here you go” this song is not afraid of showing it’s vulnerable and real authentic side here and that is what I love and appreciate about it, It’s one of my favorite songs by the duo and I just love everything about it, it gives you a lot to feel to where you just resonate with it…..if it’s your kind of thing anyway, everyone’s different!

That’s pretty much it, hope you all are enjoying yourselves today!

P.S.

There’s two different versions of this song, I just found that out recently, I’m sure most of you already know about it though, I just thought it was cool!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’ve Got The Month Of May

I was going to go with N’SYNC, but I chose to do it old school and go with The Temptations, plus I thought it was best suited seeing that I literally do have the month of May so it works out! I seriously cannot believe that we have just arrived at the end of April, I do got have to say though, I do appreciate how the months are taking their time to arrive, at least that’s how I personally feel, can’t really speak for everyone else, but I like to think that each month so far has stayed a while, in a sense of they haven’t over stayed, but have just been enjoying themselves for the time they were here for, it’s nice, but that’s just how I have been looking at it, might be weird to say, who knows!

Now although May is set to arrive in a couple of hours, we still have to spend one more day with April and really let her know that she did alright, sure we probably had our up’s and downs, but I got to say that I have a soft spot for April, I mean she gave us a beautiful Super Moon the other night, so gorgeous it was, I didn’t get a photo on the day of it, but I did get one where it was big and bright before the actual Pink Super Moon, I did see it glow though! April for me, has it’s mixed feelings, I do like it, but it also makes me go “oh gosh” that’s only because it’s quite a special and important month to me in many different ways, but yeah April and I see eye to eye and at times don’t, but I still like to acknowledge it as well!

When it came to the month of April, I won’t say it was bad, but it definitely had it’s frustrating and non favorite moments we’ll say, but all that aside, it wasn’t a terrible month, I’m going to choose to take the positives of this soon ending month that is April and I’m going to hope and count on this month that will soon be called May and just trust that all is well with it, because to be honest…..I’m slight wary on it, you might be thinking why!? I have my reasons, but I have a lot of hope that it will be fine, because I’m going to do my damn best to make sure that it is! Just like April, May and I have our moments, but it’s still the month that I have a soft spot for, can’t really tell you how it’s going to be this month, to be fair we all won’t really know how it will be…..guess we’ll find out once we’ve entered it and sat with it for a while, but until then, we’ll wish April a safe and well trip and welcome May once she’s all set!

Here’s a few photo’s I’ve taken throughout the month of April and just some personal favorites of mine ^_^ a bit crazy knowing this is the last blog post of the ending month, hope you like the photos I’ve shared, I’ve been kind into taking pictures of things that inspire me lately, not as much, but somewhat!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa