Dear Little Me…..(Updated)

It’s been a while hasn’t it, if only you knew all things we have been through…..I mean seeing that you are apart of me, you probably already know huh!? I’ll be honest I wasn’t really expecting to write to you, it was only after that I read a bit of the first I guess you can call letter post that I wrote to you back in 2018 that I felt like I wanted to update you on a few things that we’ve managed to do…..I’m writing this a bit on the late side on the 15th of September nearly midnight, but not necessarily midnight it’s still around 11:30pm as I’m writing this now, I might just continue this post in the morning so I could really tell you everything that I want you to know….I’ll catch you up on what those things are soon, a part of me might keep the rest as a surprised though, see you in a couple of hours!

Good Morning me, well younger me…..it’s a little early, around 8:40am almost 9am, I don’t know if you remember us always getting up earlier than we needed to back then, there were moments when we got up a bit late as well! Sometimes we’d get up at almost 10am and if we got up at 11am we were upset the whole day…..I’m glad that I changed our sleep schedule all those times ago ha! I don’t know where to start with what’s been going on….We’ve been on quite the journey you and I, a lot of stresses, emotions both good and bad, we had some loses in our lives as well, that meant a lot to us….but on a good note, we did find someone that loves us for our weirdness as well as everything else believe it our not lol…..there’s a lot of things that’s happened since the last time I spoke to you!

We’ve been through some storms, but the one thing though that I feel you’ll really like is that…..we got through them and most of them we’re really hard, because they pushed us to really grow ourselves more and change as well, in the last letter I wrote you…..I felt like I was not doing you proud, that I had failed you as an older version of me and I never knew how to really express that in the best of ways, I only knew how to say sorry and feel bad about everything we were going through at the time…..I wanted you to be happy and I didn’t really give you that chance to be happy then….it took a long while, but I just want you to know that we’re doing good now, where we were then, we aren’t there anymore!

We managed to find our voice, now I won’t say we found it fully fully, there’s still some things that we both are still working out and trying to understand better, which is normal, because not everyone has figured everything out yet, but we have learned a lot and I can honestly say that we are becoming better versions of ourselves more and more each day! Don’t get me wrong we still have our moments where we aren’t always happy and feeling our best, but to how we used to handle those days to how we handle them now…..we’re doing pretty alright for ourselves, our emotions don’t constantly get at us the way they used to, we’ve learned to control them a lot better and not be so hard on ourselves….I mean we’re still hard on ourselves at times, but I think that’s never going to go away really, but that’s okay because it helps us to want to be better!

We’ve grown on a personal level, we’re still the same, but there our some new differences within ourselves that we’ve gained with our personality, for example….we’ve gotten a bit more sarcastic lately, we say what’s on our mind a lot more these days, a bit quickly too, might I add and we’ve gotten better at not taking up things that we know we don’t need in a negative sense….I guess you can say we’ve gotten a bit tougher and stronger since the last time, but I think part of those part of me comes from you if that makes sense, especially all the sassy parts that I wouldn’t have ever thought to come out!! All our fears that we used to worry ourselves about, we have moments where they pop up, but you’ll be happy to know that instead of always wanting to avoid them and run away, we try and face them the best we can…..we come way out of our comfort zone, well we’re nearing the surface at least, we don’t swim the best, but we do our best to get to where we want to be!

Like I said we’re still learning as we go along, but that’s only part of the journey we’re on…..it’s just the beginning and we’re just getting started, but we’re flying little me, just like you always wanted and I promise that I’m going to keep doing my best to make you proud to be me older, because I just want you to be happy and I want you to know that the adventures you go, as new and hard as they may be at times and you may feel like you’re not getting where you need to, but know that you’re always going to get where you need even when you get lost a bit, sometime you have to get a little lost before you’re found! We’re always going to be okay, I know that because I got you and I know that when I’m lost, you’ll found a way to point me to where you feel it’s best to go so I know to keep going, because together is where the magic starts to happen!

All the feelings of being scared, but wanting to still give it a shot anyway, taking those risks, I never thought we’d get to that point, but I got to say that, doing those things, makes me happy, I still get nervous and scared, but I hope that you feel happy that we’re finally doing them…..there’s still some stuff that I know I want to tell you, but I know know how to express them properly just yet, so I will leave them for another time, the moment I find those words and I’m able to piece them all together you’ll know…..I just wanted to tell you that we’re okay and that we’re a little bit more happier than we were before…..I’ll see you soon!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Journey Of Learning & Growing….

One of the best things to witness is watching someone grow and evolve, be it a child, someone that you saw go through a very tough point in their life or even just you yourself, there’s no age limit when it comes to learning and growing…..you could be in your 50s and you may already know a whole lot, but that doesn’t mean you can’t still learn something new let alone won’t learn something new, there’s so much to life that will always leave us surprised even when you think you’ve seen it all already!

I’ve witness a few transformations, a lot of them may not be fully, but I’ve seen a few and the ones I have seen, still amaze me and sometimes I find myself thinking about those transformations, I’ve watched my boyfriend come out of something that he struggled with for a while, not necessarily in person, but just the aftermath of what happened in his life in that time, it’s how we met, he was just starting to get back to himself again! I’ve seen my nephew who I consider my nephew, I first met him when he was 3, so I’ve only known him for a year now pretty much and I remember how he’d never wanted to listen to anyone, you know usual kid stuff, his favorite word was always NO and you couldn’t tell him anything, without him crying and throwing tantrums and wanting everything to be his way

and then you have his mom who worked all the time and when it came to trying to stop him from having those tantrums it was hard for her to put her foot down with him, obviously no parent wants to yell at their child, any good parent anyway, it’s hard because you try to be a parent, but you also don’t want to be a parent in a sense of when your child starts throwing those tantrums and they aren’t listening to you, you don’t want to have to punish them for it, because all you want is for them to see you in the best light possible and when you come to those moments to where you know there needs to be rules……it can be hard, but sometimes you know you have to do it!

But back to what I was talking about…..all three people here have gone through big transformations and you wouldn’t believe it if I told you, my boyfriend one of the biggest transformation I’ve ever seen and also haven’t seen, but if you knew him when I met him and you were to see and learn about everything he endured, you’d be extremely surprised, it still surprises me when I think about it sometimes, just to see and learn the difference in the person that he once was to who he is now, like I wouldn’t know where to begin on that story, hopefully I’ll be able to really tell it or have him tell it one day, I mean it is story about his journey anyway and it really is a beautiful and life changing one at that! I’m very proud of how far he’s gotten, I love you Jord, forever and always!

As for my Nephew…..he’s 4 now, but will be turning 5 in November and let me tell you something, he is one hell of a smart kid, seriously and he’s gotten a lot better at really trying to understand everything, he doesn’t give you too much of a issue now when you are telling him not to do something or you’re trying to help him learn certain things, he actually listens expressing something to him which I’m glad to see, it was a mission and a half when I first met him, he talks a whole lot more now, like a lot, he wouldn’t really say much before, he was just always shy and wouldn’t come up to you, he’d just be in his own little world, now forget about it!! He will talk to you for hours if he really wanted to, he’s quite the character, very silly, but he’s the sweetest boy every, he’s very kind, he likes making people laugh and just showing you things all the time, buut don’t let his adorableness fool, he knows what he’s doing!

He’s a little demon and I say it all the time to him, which he knows too because he always laughs about it! He knows how to get what he wants, however he knows who to go for when he wants something, spoiler it’s not me, he knows better than to pull anything with me, like I said he’s a smart one, I wouldn’t be surprised if he turned out to be an evil genius, I’m joking, he’s a good kid when he wants to be, but he’s also grown to know better and I just hope that continues the older he gets!

Lastly, we come to my Nephew’s mom who has also transformed a lot from when I met her, she’s kind of hard to explain with her transformation though, but I’ll do my best, when I first started coming around and hanging out with her, she was always working, but she worked from home, so she always tried her best to balance out work and her son and when I was hanging out with her as she was working, I would notice a lot that she was having to do, when it came to her son like I said earlier it was hard for her to put her foot down with him at first, because she didn’t like having to be that….not strict parent, cause she’s really not that strict, but he’d would get babied a lot before, he still does, but it’s not so much from his mom these days, but the grandparents…..you know how that goes!

It was hard for her to tell him when he was doing something wrong and when it came to punishment so that he learns that he can’t do certain things, with work she was always stressing, she dealt with a lot….I guess the only way I can say it is her transformation comes from how she’s grown as a parent from when I met her and what I know her to be now as well as how certain parts of her personality has changed and grown, she’d always wanted to please everyone even when she didn’t want to do whatever it was that she didn’t want to do, she’s showing more of her voice with people,

Which is good and she would always feel like nothing was going her way, but now everything is now working for her which is great, in terms of her son, she’s learn to put her foot down with him more and not let him try and control her and what I love about that is, I feel since then, both her and her son have gotten more closer and it’s a beautiful things to see, because you can tell she loves her son and only wants the best for him and that’s how parent should be and he loves her which is also wonderful! I’ve witness what she had to go through before and I’m so proud of her for how far she’s come even if she doesn’t know it, she’s an amazing mom and an amazing person, as well as a really good friend and I’m glad that I got to know her and continue to get to know her, fun fact, we’ve crossed paths before me and her a few time even, but we never actually encountered one another face to face just always by a pass by, it wasn’t until she started dating my brother to where we finally met, I guess you can call it a small word!

The three people I just spoke about all mean something to me and I’m glad to know them and have them apart of my life, I’m glad that I’ve been able to experience the transformations they’ve gone through, they all have taught me a lot of things as well as important lessons and are still teaching me a lot even if they don’t know it necessarily, but I wouldn’t trade them and all that they’ve taught me for the world and if ever down the line our journey’s together were to take different paths or transform in some kind of way to where I still have them in my life, I’m always going to take what they’ve given me and do my best to make sure I never forget it!

F.Y.I. I didn’t expect to write all of this, the way I did, I just felt very strongly to write this for some reason so I did, call it a moment of a thought in time!!

P.S.

By the way, I’ve switched up my podcast episode schedule just for this week, so instead of Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I’m doing Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday (I’m going to try for Saturday anyway) again just for this week, I just felt like switching things up a a bit! You can check out yesterday’s episode here:

Take Flight Like A Bird…. Ep. 37 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Tuesday everyone, hope your having a good day! In todays episode we talk a bit about birds and the way they fly, not just about that though, it gets a bit deeper than that, we're always afraid to explore the unknown and take those big leaps that we've been wanting to take, but isn't that what life's about!? Facing those unsure feelings and seeing where it takes you, just like that Moana song, one day I'll know how far I'll go!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Clocker

Happy Thursday! Hope you all are well and safe, boy was yesterday quite the day, I don’t know how many people experienced last nights hurricane, we had a lot of flooding happening, water even came into our house, it wasn’t too bad, we caught it before it got worst, but it was a good amount of water, but more like puddles of water so nothing got damaged luckily, in other places though that’s a different story, but it was okay! For those who also experienced the really unexpected bad storm, I hope you all are doing well and that it wasn’t too bad for you guys!

Now let’s talk about what this post is about…..you’re probably looking at the title going “huh!?” Clocker for those unsure, is a video game that I downloaded not that long ago, I’ve only played it once, it’s pretty much a puzzle game with a pretty neat story, you can also consider it an adventure game as well! Clocker from what I gathered playing it is about a father trying to get back to his daughter, I’ll try not to spoil the game too much in case some of you find it interesting and want to play it for yourselves, but pretty much you are given this old looking Clock by some random old guy and as you advance in the game, you find that time has stopped and you’re there trying to figure out how to restart it so that you can get back to your daughter!

There’s more to it obviously, but you have to play it to understand the concept of it! Like I said it’s a really neat game, it’s different to what I would normally play, but it’s really nice, in the game the clock that you get from the old guy, you soon discover that it let’s you control certain events so whatever is frozen you can help advance it and rewind to get through each section so you can collect the things that are needed, did I mention that the father character in the game fixes clocks for a living!? So being that you disable and reassemble clocks and watches and that, you have to get all the missing pieces that came off from the stopwatch, yeah! Like I said it’s pretty cool, I didn’t get that far into the game, I’m kind of stuck on a level, I would get so close to solving it, but will still end up missing something so I got to go back and figure it out!

I wasn’t expecting to enjoy the game has much as I did, when I first played it it wasn’t hard to understand, you start off taking apart a watch and going through the story mode of the game with certain dialogs, which was kind of fun, I liked taking apart things, I haven’t played it in a couple of weeks though, but I will eventually get back into it soon, it was really fascinating! I have a feeling I know what the message of the game is, but before I share it, I want to play it more to see if it is what I think it is, which it might end up being cause it seems to be going in that direction, but I want to enjoy the game and discover what other things it has going for it, just play it, understand it better, once I finish the game I will do a part two on it and update you on it’s story and let you know if I got the message to it correct! Hopefully I didn’t spoil anything on the game for you guys if I did….I’m sorry, but if I didn’t then cool!

I would recommend anyone who wants to try out a new game to give this one a try, the graphics and gameplay may be a little different to what you might like in a game, depending what kind of games you like and all, but I still would say to give it a try, it might surprise you and who knows it might be your new favorite game, but if it’s something that you think you personally wouldn’t go for then that’s okay too, I didn’t think I was going to go for it before I actually played it, but I also still had it in my wish list to try, because it was something that looked interesting, but everyone’s different!

If this game is something that catches your attention then go get it, it’s actually not that bad in price! I got it during a sale, but I think it’s about 6 dollars-10 the max…..correction it’s actually 4 dollars ($3.99 USD 3.59 GPB) I went and checked, but yeah you can find this game on the Nintendo eshop, if this game is something you’d consider then I definitely recommend it! Part 2 of this post will be up eventually and that post will be my full thoughts on the game once I’ve finished it of course!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Transitions With Rain….

Good Morning and Happy September 1st! Hope that you all are having a good one so far, it’s a bit mad that August is now over, which means that we’re getting closer and closer towards the cooler and colder days so say farewell to the short sleeves, capris/shorts and beach days, unless you’re planning to go somewhere where it’s summer year round or your moving to a more hotter environment if you are then you can just keep all your summer clothes out and say hi to summery weather again pretty soon! I’ll never understand how people can live in very hot places, I was in PR for a week and a few days back in July and oh my gosh, I could not handle the heat every single day, I was done with it by Day 3 of being there, I wouldn’t be able to live in a place that’s hot all the time, so it always mind boggles me how some people genuinely talk about how their going to move to places like PR or Florida!

Ask me that and I’m like no thanks, I never wanted to live in hot places, I really don’t like Summer that much, some days are fine, but after a while I’m hoping for Fall or Spring to roll around, I love Spring and Autumn, because with Spring it’s not too hot and you can enjoy the weather without it being too much, it’s always breezy during that season and with Autumn…..it’s always just cool, not too cold, you can wear cardigans, boots, sweaters, both Spring and Fall have the right amount of warm and cool and you can’t go wrong with that, might be just me that thinks that, but it’s true!

I probably already spoke about this a few times, but when I was younger I always wanted to go to the UK and visit, not only that, but I always pictured myself living there as well, I don’t know why!? I just always felt a connection with it and so it was always on my Wishlist to go over there and see what it’s like, I still feel that and still hope to go there, plus I always thought that it had pretty good weather, like over there is always just cool weather and that! I know it tends to rain over there a good amount, although I did learn recently that it’s not all of the UK where it rains! I guess we just assume that it’s always raining overseas because it’s what we hear….like I used to think that it always rained in London,

but noo, in England it doesn’t rain as much as people think, it’s actually just in Scotland that it rains mostly and if I remember correctly that’s because they’re closer to the mountains compared to other places within the United Kingdom, it’s quite an interesting thing to learn! England’s weather is similar to our weather though, which is cool, it’s nice knowing that it’s both the same and different at the same time! Don’t really know why I’m taking about the weather over in the UK, I guess it was in my mind and so I thought I’d let it out!

Let’s talk about September that was the whole point of this post anyway right!? It’s a weird start with a September for me anyway, although now that I’m thinking about it, I kind of have been feeling like that with these past few months lately, them being weird and all, not sure why, but today specifically started off weird, I woke up feeling fine and then emotions started coming to me and fear crept up on me, right when I was about to record a new podcast episode, I have no idea why it happened, but I did push through after I gave myself a bit, but it was just very weird, I recorded the episode and even talked a bit about what I was feeling and other things, I’m debating on whether or not to post it, but I feel seeing that I’ve got and mentioned it in this post that I might as well go through with sharing it!

I feel like September is going to be another odd month, but I also believe that it will hold something good and unexpected and that we shouldn’t give up on it too quickly, I mean it just started so it’s best to keep our heads up and look for the good that it has in store or at least expect what is coming without expecting it if that makes sense!? Pretty much just keep a look out for it, but still try and keep yourself productive and slightly busy and whenever it arrives you’ll be both happy and a little surprised as well, sometimes that’s the best experience!

Update:

Here’s my new podcast episode, it’s got a mixture of both August and September thoughts as well as some other things!

Let's Talk: A Bit Of August and September (Plus Some Personal Thoughts) Ep. 36 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy September 1st everyone, hope all is well! In today's episode we discuss quite a bit, it's kind of a weird one! There's some thoughts about the month of August and how it went, as well as how the start of September is going! I've also shared some personal thoughts both with the start of this month and in general, a lot of different emotions going on in this episode as well! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Zoo Adventures (Giraffe’s, Stingrays and a Dog!?)

Good Evening, hope everyone is doing well, I know in my last post I said I was going to be out a while, but I also said that I would write when I was feeling inspired as well and today I was feeling a bit inspired, now I’m not sure how long this post will be, but I just wanted to share on an experience that I had today, I’m writing this post on Sunday by the way, not sure if I’m going to be posting this right away, but I figured I still write about what I have in mind of sharing!

So I went to a zoo today, not the first time I’ve been to one, but I did do a few new things that I haven’t done before, I went with my friend/sister in law and her 4 year old son (my nephew) and it was a good time, it wasn’t too hot, which was nice after this very long of a heatwave week, it was nice and cool today even though it was pretty cloudy, but it wasn’t that bad, it was good!

I fed a giraffe which was kind of interesting, I’ve never fed a giraffe before so it was a nice experience, I tend to forget just how big giraffe’s are, like I know they’re pretty tall and everything, but when you haven’t seen one for a while you tend to forget just how tall they actually are and being in front of one today, giving it lettuce to eat….it was kind a very cool experience, I liked it! We also saw two males trying to out dominate each other…..one thing I will never understand is why giraffe’s insist on hitting each other with their long necks!? They weren’t going at it too bad, but just seeing them smack each other just to see who was the strongest…..it’s like why, but I guess that’s how it is in the animal world, it’s an odd and sometimes scary thing to see, but luckily it didn’t go too far, they were still small giraffes anyway!

I also got to feed birds for the first time, they were like little parrots or parakeets, I’m not really sure on the bird species, I wasn’t looking at the signs there, but I think they were like parakeets or something, I had one bird just sit on the stick with the bird food on it and just go to town, never had that happened before, but it was nice, we were with the birds for a good while, my nephew was trying to get the birds to come to him eventually he had a few near him, getting to feed them and everything! We went into a butterfly exhibit as well, it was nice, I’ve never been in one before, we also got to feed some goats…they’re very greedy, but also cute in their own way!

We saw some reptiles, monkeys, one monkey was loving the little playground they had and was moving on the obstacle course, he went down the slide, he was just having a great time, it was good to see! Oh get this a dog and a cheetah in the same exhibit!? Not even kidding, we were heading to go where the ponies were, my nephew wanted to ride one and as we were walking, we stopped to see a cheetah taking a nap and I noticed across from the cheetah their was a dog, like an actual Labrador retriever dog…..at first I was a little concern wondering how the dog got in there,

but I soon learned that both the Cheetah and dog were best friends and that they were raised together, plus they were only born a week apart! That’s the most adorable and cutest thing ever, never would I have guessed a dog and cheetah to be best friends and to see them in the same place, it was soo awesome!! We saw some pigs as well, I got to pet a stingray….it was odd and slimy, but pretty nice, stingrays are kind cute I won’t lie, one stingray loved getting petted he kept going around the same place just so people would acknowledge him lol! There was a lot of different animals that we saw while at the zoo, we also went on a little trolley train ride, it was pretty short, but it was mainly for the kids to enjoy so I guess it was okay, my nephew kept calling it Thomas the Train…..

Yeah he’s in that phase where everything train wise is Thomas or the other trains in that show that he knows, he’s a weird and sometimes scary kid, I say that for a reason, but I do love him, he’s a funny one! But yeah, it was good day, got to see a lot of things and experience new stuff too and see cute animals, we didn’t get to see them all, but we saw a good amount which was good!

P.S.

We got to see some turtles too, some were huge then you had the sea turtles, one of my favorite kind of turtles might I add!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Plans & Decisions…

I’ve never been one for planning you know, which you probably do because I’ve mentioned it a few times on here, me and plans….don’t mix, however I’ve come to a point in my life where, I’m finding myself trying to plan for things which is usually not my department, but if the time has come for me to really sit and plan things properly then I’m going to do it! I’m going to put myself in an uncomfortable situation and face it the best way I can, scared and full of nerves combined!

Today has been a bit of a rough day for me, I’ll admit, I woke up with soooo many thoughts in my head and trying to sort them is completely new to me, I don’t normally sort my thoughts out well and so trying to do that today has got my head just full of aches lol…..but it’s okay because I know that there’s something that is very important I want to do and if I end up losing a little bit of sleep from it or feel myself getting slightly anxious on, I’m alright with that! Plans aren’t my normal cup of tea, but I’ve been trying to embrace it a little better instead of getting intimidated by them,

Plans are important they can help layout things so you don’t feel all over the place! Normally I like going with things naturally, but I’ve also been learning that sometimes you need to plan for things in order to work them out, if you just let things always go as they are, whatever is most important to you can get away from you and if that’s something you don’t want then you have to really work at them and take those steps to having them come to fruition and making them happen…..I’m always being told that life is short and you want to make sure you’re always giving attention to the things that matter most even if it seems hard, it can seem like you won’t get there, but if you want it enough and you believe in it enough….you already know that it can get there, you just have to take those steps to get them there!

Now with the things that I’m planning, there’s a few decisions that I’ve come to realize I need to face and deal with, even though some of the stuff may not be my favorite to want to deal with…..it’s up to me to take that breath, put on a brave face and do it anyway…..with planning you also have to make decisions tough or not, because that’s the only way for you to grow better and to experience things without all the limits of it all it all, you have to allow yourself to fly even if you are bat scared shit of it and yes I’m saying it just like that because it’s how I’m feeling it at the moment….if we continue to always keep ourselves on the ground, as safe as it may be sometimes you have to also fly or float otherwise you’ll always be there wishing you could soar that blue sky!

I recently went on a trip as you may know if you read that post and I was really nervous when I was waiting to go on the plane, but once I got on the plane…..I don’t know I was very happy, I smiled to myself knowing I did something that scared me and even when I was on the vacation I was on…..I was ready to go back on the plane……it just felt good and I really enjoyed myself knowing that I was ahead somewhere that I hadn’t been yet and that’s what I want to continue, I want to keep discovering, exploring and going on adventures…..but also I want to share that experience and so if I need to plan in order to do that, like I said…..I will!

The upcoming plan idea is to finally be able to see my love again and figure out how we can be together permanently, we both have wanted that for a good now sooo, I’m just hoping that it all goes well for us this time, which we’ll make sure it does!

Planning By A Non Planner (Personal Thoughts) Ep. 32 Daydreamer's Podcast

Hiya everyone, hope you've been having a good week so far! In today's episode, I talk about some of my own personal thoughts that I've been feeling today and about planning….something I see as intimidating normally, but I've been trying to embrace it a little better this time around and really do my best with it all! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Thoughts Of July….

Good Evening everyone! Hope your weeks been well so far, it’s Tuesday almost Wednesday and we’re nearing the end of this month….I just came to the realization of that today that we’re in the last week of July! We’ve got one more Summer month to go that is August and right after that we will enter the Autumn season, crazy, crazy, crazy!! I don’t even know what exactly to say when it comes to this month, I mean a lot has happened within this month that was a little unexpected, but it’s been good I feel….I had a new experience and adventure this month and there’s a lot of changes that has either been occurring or in the works if that makes sense!?

Overall though, this month has been surprisingly good, I’d say, but it’s also been on the mixed side as well in terms of pretty good and it’s had it’s days, but other than that….I honestly don’t know what else to say, I probably said a bit of it in my last post and most of my feeling of this month in my latest podcast episode so whatever you don’t see me say here, you’ll either see some of it in my last blog post, well sorry the one before my last one, my July 22nd post or you’ll hear me talk on it in my Podcast episode! I won’t lie, the fact that the month is just coming to an end, feels surprising to me even though, it felt like it was here for sooo long as weird as that sounds…..this year in general, just feels like one day it’s speeding by and the next is just taking it’s sweeet time, not that that’s a bad thing, it’s just how I feel it to be!!

Could be different for everyone else which is most likely the case yano!? buut yeah…..not a lot of thought writing wise for this month, but I do still have thoughts which I shared in some way or form, maybe not in this post, but in my 22nd of July post and my latest podcast episode! I hope you all have been well and I hope that July has been good to you, that you enjoyed it and whatever you had planned for this month or what you didn’t have planned to where it just showed up randomly and unexpectedly…..I hope that it was good and that it made you happy or maybe you learned something new, experienced something new, whatever this month brought you, I just hope that it all went well for you,

Maybe you’re still being patient for it to arrive and when it does, I wish nothing, but the very best for you all and I hope it goes well regardless to how it shows up for you….those are my thoughts of this month, I know it’s probably short, but sometimes short is good, you don’t always have to say so much, but if you want and feel you want to that’s okay, it’s how ever you feel you want to express!!

If you would like to hear more of my thoughts of this month, check out my latest episode, I discuss upon a few different things, but I like to think they all tie in well together, I hope you enjoy it!

Monthly Chat (July Thoughts): Recharges, Changes & Experiences… Ep. 29 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Weekend, hope you've been well!! I'm back and with a new episode, in todays episode I talk about a few things on my mind, from how the months been, how it's important to take moments to yourself and recharge and a whole lot of other things as well! It's been an interesting month, full of new experiences, adventure and changes to come…..plus this summer has been pretty darn hot! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

My Trip To PR (Puerto Rico)

Happy Friday everyone, hope you all are having a good day and enjoying yourself!! Not going to lie…..It really doesn’t feel like Friday today, I actually woke up unsure if it was Friday or not and then I learned it was Friday, which is weird, I think the trip I just came back from sorta messed up my days a bit…..regardless I hope you’re all well and keeping safe! Now you may have noticed I hadn’t written in while, with the exception of yesterday’s post stating that I’m back and better than ever lol (if you get it, you get it)

Anyway so we don’t delay on what this post is about, you can probably take a huge wild guess, seeing that I’ve just come back from an unexpected vacation, I thought I’d share my experience on that with you guys, now even though I say unexpected, I did know about it, I just weren’t expecting myself to go to it, it was actually a last minute decision when I decided and it was preety hectic as well, I was calm about it though, everything else was kinda chaotic, not too much though, to jump into it…..I finally went on a trip to Puerto Rico, it was the first time I had ever been there, which you would think I’d gone a lot seeing that my mom is from there, buuut no I’ve never been to Puerto Rico until recently, like literally went on the day of my 3 year blog anniversary!

I was there for a week, left Sunday (July 11th) and came back early in the morning on Monday (July 19th) the flight was actually pretty cool….I was a bit nervous going on a plane, although it wasn’t my first time, but it’s been a while, but while on the plane I actually found myself loving being on it, it took about 3 and half hours to get there from where I’m from, but it wasn’t all that bad, to be fair I did have my headphones in throughout the trip heading to PR that and I was enjoying looking out at the sky through the window soooo that’s the flight part of the journey (I did have a picture of it, but it wasn’t off of my phone so sorry about that)

Now let’s get into the days of the adventure shall we!?

Day 1 (Uno) -Settling In Morovis (July 11th)

My first day in PR was…..very hot, like the heat was intense, it was sooo humid over there, however Puerto Rico’s heat is a lot different then the heat in New Jersey, where I’m from, also you’ll find if ever any of you decide to take a trip over there, just know that the weather is very weird, one minute it’s hot and another minute rain shows up, like literally it’ll rain then stop and the suns and repeat after that, I thought my mom was kidding, but she wasn’t when she told me about it every time she would go, now I can say I’ve experienced it myself!!

When I got to Puerto Rico though, I wasn’t actually sure what to expect, obviously it’s an Island so I expected that, as for everything else I didn’t know what I was going to be exploring until I got there, it was nice, just very hot, we didn’t really do too much the first day, we did a little bit of running around, grabbed some food, which by the way I ordered in Spanish…..we’ll half Spanish, but I still tried so I was proud of myself for attempting to order in Spanish, I know a bit, but not that much, I do understand it, I just don’t know how to really speak it, yeah I know….

There’s a couple of things that I learned while there on the first day and one of those things is there are some very windy roads, like you’re always turning corners and you’ll find out how small the roads are, highways are different, regular roads, let’s just say there should not be a two entrance on some of them, that’s how tight the roads are seriously, on a different note….you’ll also learn there are a LOT of animal, cows, chickens, lizards, Horses, just a lot of animals and in the morning if your not an early person just know the roosters will wake you up, especially if you’re a light sleeper who likes sleep…..I didn’t mind it, I wake up pretty early anyway, not super early, but early enough!

Another thing you’ll notice is there’s a lot of natural fresh grown fruits and vegetables, although I probably seen more fruits then veggies, the supermarkets are a bit different, but also not different, but there are places you wouldn’t normally see on a regular basis unless you lived in PR, now that I think about it Day 1 was pretty eventful even though we didn’t do too much!

Day 2 (Dos) – Cero Gordo Beach (July 12th)

We’ve entered day dos in PR, up early had coffee, took a few photos on this day, I wrote in my journal/notebook, I made sure I took one with me so I could have an idea for when I came back to share on the blog, but when I took some photos I was just getting the hang of the manual setting of the camera I have and so I was excited so I mentioned it…..fast forwarding toward what the day for Day 2 was like, we went to a beach, now I’m not the biggest fan of beaches, it’s like my least favorite place to go, beaches are beautiful don’t get me wrong…..I just don’t like to go to them, I sit in the sand and watch and listen to the waves, everyone knows how calming they are, but going in the water…..is a meh for me, that being said, I did go into this beach water, it was pretty clear and you could kinda see everything, lots of seaweed in the water, which I didn’t like….although it made me laugh because it tickled my feet,

but I still didn’t like the feeling, also the water at this beach was EXTREMELY SALTY, I know beaches are meant to be like that, but I’m telling you if you went to this one and went under the water and came back up, your sinus would be CLEARED so if you’re having a bit of Sinus issue this water will clear it *snap* like that lol I only went into this beach water once and then I just sat in the sand, wrote in my journal and took pictures of the scenery around me which was nice there was a lot of Pelicans and a lot of them we’re flying in the air and then just dove in the water and it always looked like they were hurting themselves, but they were just looking for food so no worries! I also experienced an albino crab in the sand, I took a video of it, it did not like being bothered, I don’t have the video on the computer, but I do have a picture so you’ll see it in a moment!

After we finished on the beach we got a few icy’s I had a coconut one and snickers, I didn’t quite like the coconut one, okay I did, but I didn’t and that’s because I don’t like actual coconut flakes, I like the flavor of coconut, but not the flakes, the actual coconut itself and so forth and my icy had a lot of the flakes and I could not enjoy it, the snickers one however was great….I had it a little bit after we were meant to leave, but hey it was still good!!

Day 3: Tres -Goza Landia (July 13th)

Day 3 of PR the morning started on the delayed side in terms of breakfast, it took forever just to get a couple of sandwiches, but just leave it there on that! Day 3’s journey was a bit of a long one, it took a while to get to where we were going, but when we did get there…..it was good time, we went to this Waterfall place, but it wasn’t your typical kind of waterfall, this waterfall you could actually swim in which was very nice, also it felt like a hike to me, because we kind of did sorta hike, there were different sections of the Waterfall place we were at that you could go into,

If you wanted to be at the very top you had to walk a distance, if you wanted to be at the bottom you only had to go a little while, we ended up in the middle section, it was the one we chose, but also one I preferred, plus there was a lot of people at the top of the waterfall and we were kind of looking for less people so the middle worked just fine, it was pretty deep too the water, it didn’t look it, but when you go into it, you see it, it wasn’t too deep, I can’t handle water that’s too deep….it frightens me also I’m not that great of a swimmer anyway sooo yeah lol…..

The best part about this Waterfall place was you could swim in it while enjoying the view as well, if I had to say what my favorite place was, this would be it, because it’s so different, you wouldn’t think you could swim in a waterfall like that, you also had places to sit if you wanted to get out of the water a bit, didn’t have to worry about no sand, although you did have to watch your step because it’s quite slippery! There were moments where I felt like I was rock climbing and I don’t know I just felt like I was in my element in that place, the waterfall place is what I mean, it was just a cool experience and the best thing I ever got to do, if anyone reading this ever goes to Puerto Rico go to that place, I think you’ll enjoy it!!

Also I saw some turtles, I saw a crane, Crawfish and Shrimp, it was a good time, I really enjoyed myself there!! P.S. I also tried a passionfruit for the first time, it wasn’t bad!!

Day 4: (Cuatro) – Colorful Shopping Center (July 14th)

Day 4’s journey…..we didn’t really do all that much for day 4, not a lot was happening entertainment wise, sooo we ended up exploring the shopping centers around wherever the heck it was, I don’t remember the name of the area we were in, now I call it the colorful shopping center because it was colorful, I didn’t actually take pictures of it because I didn’t feel like I needed to really bring my camera so sorry for that…..after we did some shopping and looking around, we went for something to eat, I tried this place called Mango where they have a lot of fresh food, I saw it last time and wanted to try it so when we went again I made sure to give it a look….surprisingly it was pretty good, their stuff is healthy, I had a veggie power bowl, I’ve been changing my way of eating, I don’t want to say I’m Vegetarian exactly because I still eat Chicken, I just don’t eat pork or beef anymore, but I eat more fish then chicken sooo….

I’m just eating better for myself let’s just say that….the Veggie power bowl was good, I was curious to try it, I thought it was going to be a hot meal with rice and steamed Vegetables ….but it was cold…..I then came to the conclusion that it was a salad…..but let me tell you it was an amazing salad, like I enjoy a good salad here and there, my favorite salad is the Parmesan Cesar salad from Wendy’s, but this one like I don’t know what it was, but it was lovely, it had Spinach, tomatoes, black beans, cheese and I think some other stuff, I can’t remember and the dressing was great, I think it was an Italian/Vinaigrette type dressing, regardless it was lovely and I loved it, very nice, I also had a Banana Strawberry smoothie with it, that was nice too, I did take one photo though,

I took a picture of a rainbow, it was raining when we got back and getting dark at the same time, but luckily I was able to catch the rainbow before it disappeared fully, it’s a little dimmed, it was kind of faint by the time I caught it, but hopefully you can still see it okay!

Day 5 (Cinco) – San Juan Beach (July 15th)

Day 5….we went to another beach…..again not a big fan of beaches….however I liked this beach more than the first one, the first one was nice don’t get me wrong, but I don’t know I liked this one more, also the water was pretty clearer here, it was clear in the other one too, just want to let you know that, both beaches had clear water, this one was clearer though and less Salty, it has salt obviously, I mean it is a beach after all, but it wasn’t too much of it compared to the first one we went to! One of the reasons I enjoyed this beach a lot was for the simple fact that it had a LOT of stones for me to choose from, like a lot, I mean we practically on a mountain of rocks when we went sooo….of course I was going rock and shell hunting on it, I mean wouldn’t you!?

You see I’m a collector of stones and shells sooo seeing that, I was loving every moment, I had a bag full of it, that’s how many I had, okay half a bag, I tried not to go too crazy, although I still ended up grabbing a good amount…..leave me alone okay, It was my first time in Puerto Rico sooo if there’s nice stones and shells I’m grabbing them!! I enjoyed the water this time while there like there was a shallow section, where the waves weren’t so in your face that’s where I was, also the waves were too much, because there were big rocks blocking it from splashing on you, but it wasn’t blocking it too much to where the waves weren’t able to go over it, they were nice!!

This beach was very beautiful, you could see little fishes in the water, they’ll stay by your feet if you let them and if you don’t move, but they won’t harm you, I think they just like the company, I saw a duck as well and a few doves, there were boats going by, it was just really nice, after being there for a couple of hours, we eventually let and got something to eat, the food was somewhat alright, but it wasn’t the greatest where we stopped, which is a shame because it a famous place, but hey they can’t all be great, I didn’t mind them though!!

Last journaled entry

Day 6-Seis Day 2 in San Juan Battlefield Fort (Going Sight Seeing)

We’ve come to Day 6, Friday’s journey…..back in San Juan this time with a different agenda, SIGHTSEEEING!! It was a pretty good time, saw a lot of different things, we went to this historical place that’s pretty popular, we had a bit of lunch at this GREAT restaurant, oh my gosh, had the most amazing appetizer, it was fried plantains (Tostones Rellenos) which is stuffed plantain cups if that makes sense and on top was shredded king crab and let me tell you, I was in love,

It was soooo good like, I couldn’t stop talking about it, it was that good, also I love food so when I eat something and I can’t stop talking about it, you know you did good!! I also had a seafood Mofongo, so it had shrimp….squid and clams or mussels one of them…..but I can’t stand clams and mussels sooo I just ate the shrimp and the squid, yes I like squid, but I also like fried calamari soo, I actually thought the squid was octopus, but then I learned it was squid, but it taste just like octopus, the squid was cooked with the shrimp though,

I’m a weird one, I’ll try anything as long as it’s good and squid and octopus is good to me, also in case you’re wondering what Mofongo it’s pretty much the same thing I had for an appetizer only mushed up and it’s good, I had my seafood Mofongo with garlic sauce, it was a good lunch! After lunch we then continued to walk around the area and continue our sightseeing, we ended up checking out this historical fort place, fun fact the fort that we visited was actually once a battlefield in the war days, like a base in a way, they would look out for any invaders or ships and that and then eventually it turned into a popular spot for tourist to check out, which is pretty cool, it’s also kind of like a castle, like it looks like one and you’re able to explore the inside of it, I didn’t get to unfortunately,

cause it was closed, but I did see a lot of it so it was okay, the hills on the fort are tall and it’s a bit of a walk, not too bad, it’s more intimidating to walk it looks wise, but actually walking it, not as bad, you get there pretty quick actually!! After exploring the area and taking lots of pictures, we headed back to where we stayed, but not before getting Gelatos, it was actually my first time trying it and it’s pretty darn good, I wanted to try this Strawberry Cheesecake flavor with vanilla…..but they didn’t have it, so instead I picked Coffee and Vanilla and that was delicious, I’m glad my back up was a good choice, but yeah day 6 was eventful!!

That’s everything I’ve journaled out, Day 7 and 8, we didn’t really do too much, plus it was the weekend we we’re going back, although Sunday night before our flight back we went to the movies over in PR and watched Black Widow….it was pretty good, I enjoyed the movie, I also had a mac and cheese in the theater and this Hershey triple chocolate cupcake, both good by the way and after the movies, we headed straight toward the airport, we meant to get some dinner, but we didn’t, however we could’ve because our flight got delayed, the pilots were late so we had to wait up until almost 3am before we headed back to the states…..and thinking about that is making me tired lol

Overall my first time in Puerto Rico…..it was a good experience, I’ve never been there until the days i’ve been, but it was a good time, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy myself, I did! Would I ever live there….no not at all…..I hate the heat and even though it’s beautiful and really nice, it just doesn’t feel like a place for me to live, but visiting it, yeah sure why not, I’d go back to a few places here, like that Waterfall place, the beach in San Juan with all the rocks, the place with the food, with the Tostones Rellenos topped with King Crab and that historical fort area, I liked that a lot, maybe one day I get to actually go inside it, but that’s all for my journey and exploration of Puerto Rico, there’s a lot of places I haven’t gone just yet, but i’m sure I’ll discover them at some point, I hope you liked this adventure post, enjoy the pictures, I’m really proud of them so I hope you like them as well!!

It’s about 10pm now sooo, I probably should sign off now, you have a goodnight and I’ll see you in my next post, have a happy rest of the weekend!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’M BAAAACK!!

Did you miss me!? I’m kidding, I was only gone for a week, nothing too big I went on a little vacation if anyone was wondering, like literal vacation, also we’ve officially made 3 YEARS on this blog on the 11th of July!! “CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES COME ON!!” I cannot believe I’ve continued this far in with this blog, even though I told myself I was to keep doing this and not allow this blog to be a thing I start and then stop, I never actually thought I’d still be writing on here and that I’d come to 3 years of it, I started this blog as a way of expression when I felt I couldn’t express myself out loud, a lot of the time it helped me to release anything I felt I was having a hard time saying, now I use it to say anything I want and talk about anything I feel I want to share!!

It really helped me to grow in different ways and helped me find that voice I was having a hard time finding for a good while, but I honestly feel like, I’ve done a good job finding that voice, even though I have some days where I may not always know what to write about, I know that when I do, this is the first place that I will go before I choose to say it out loud, that and the fact that I always find it better and easier to express my thoughts in writing before speaking it, but once I have it down on paper or blog in this case…..I then am able to share it speaking wise, without this blog, I feel like I wouldn’t know what to do with my voice, so the fact that I have something I can go to whenever I have too many thoughts that is hard to share or when I have something important to me that I want to talk on, I love that I can say it all here if I felt it to be best and that I don’t have to worry about it too much!

3 years though, is mad and I hope to continue on sharing what I feel with you guys that read and share on things that mean a lot to me, but yeah….. I will be writing and sharing on my personal vacation time and where I went and everything soon! I have a good amount of pictures to share, I’m going to have to choose which ones I share though cause there’s a lot, but I’m excited to show you all….I know I said I wanted to do something special for my 3 year blog anniversary…..I still don’t have a clue what exactly that’s going to be, sometimes I wish I would’ve had the podcast be reveal that day….but again I did it a little early, but it’s okay, because I feel like I did it when I felt I wanted to do it and I wouldn’t change it!

However I was thinking…..maybe I could have this blog go into a transition in honor of it being 3 years of me blogging, so whatever new experiences I encounter or am about to have come into my life, I can share that with you guys, have it be a journey kind of thing, I mean I did name this blog Life As A Daydreamer so it might be time to have it grow and bloom into a new thing…..it might take a bit to become what it is I want it to become or have in mind at least for it sooo bare with me, it won’t be a right away thing, but I think when I feel it to be a good time, you’ll just start seeing it happening, probably not in a big way, I’m not a showy showy kind of person, I’m more subtle and little by little

But I feel that I’ll know when to do it! Soooo expect or be on a lookout for a bit of travel stuff coming later down the line, where I share places I’ve explored, personal journeys that I might share later as well and some other stuff that I have yet to think about, but don’t expect me to not continue to not talk about music, video games and anything else that’s in my interest, because I will, that’ll be for the time remaining until my next adventure whenever that is and even after because I can’t help myself, I like talking about those things, but I feel a change is coming and I’m ready for it, a little nervous, but a lot excited too!! Here’s hoping that is all turns out well, but I have hope and believe that it will!!

Like I said….little by little, but patience is a virtue and I believe that it’ll be worth it!! Anyway stay tune for my travel destination experience that I was on recently…..I think you’ll like it!! Thank you for reading and for all your support for those that follow along, read it even if you’re just passing by and won’t read it ever again, just anyone whose liked my content and have enjoyed themselves for the moment, I appreciate and love you all and I hope you continue to go on this weird, random and wandering journey with me!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Gris

Good evening, hope you’re all doing well and are keeping cool and safe in this very very hot weather, at least it’s super hot where I am, hopefully it’s a little cooler where you are! Hope you all enjoyed your weekend as well, my weekend was pretty alright, wasn’t too bad, It’s just been really hot that’s all, at least we’re getting rain soon so that’s good, we kind of need it! You know we’ve headed into summer when it starts getting REALLY hot!

Enough about the weather though, let’s talk about something different, let’s talk about video games and feeling, don’t worry it’ll be a good one…..I’m hoping anyway….nah you might’ve already guessed what game we’re going to be discussing, that game being Gris, I never know how it’s meant to be pronounced so I pronounce it as I see it and to me it’s like Bliss, but Gris, weird I know…..I really love this game, I haven’t played it in a very long time though, I think the last time I played it was…..about a few months ago, but the gameplay of it is so interesting, I remember when I first saw the trailer to it, it was actually from one of the video game blogs I follow on here, if I’m not mistaken it was the blog Video Games Blogger that I saw the trailer on, I thought it was the coolest looking game I ever saw and I made sure to put it one my games to get list…..I think I ended up getting it not last Christmas, but the Christmas before that!

Now even though I got the game, I didn’t actually play it until a couple months after I got it, sometimes when I buy a game, I don’t always play it right away, most times I’ll wait a while to play it, it all depends on the game really and how I’m feeling, the day I actually played the game, it was on a not so great time, I played it on the day I lost my dog, I remember I tried playing Animal Crossing, but I just weren’t feeling it that day and so I switched games (no pun intended) and played that game, I don’t know why I chose that one on that day, I guess it just felt like the right time even though I weren’t really aware of it then…..but I played it and what’s crazy about that game is, It’s all about emotions and going on a journey with those emotions, when I found out about my dog, I was having a hard time processing everything and so that game helped me to focus my attention on something else for a while

The only thing with it is that, I played it to get out of my head for a while, but I didn’t actually expect to connect with it so much, there’s a lot of depth with this game, it’s story is literally all about getting through rough times, there’s a lot of serious issues covered in it and although I knew that when I got the game, I didn’t think it was going to be so relatable in that moment, I remember playing it for a few hours that day before I started to thinking about everything again, but in the moment that I played the game, it really helped me to feel better and it helped me to kind of get through things…..it took a while before I learned to accept what had happened, but I really appreciate what this game gave me in the moment that I needed it, it took me on a journey that I didn’t expect to go on, but I enjoyed it!

Now I’m not saying I finished the game, I still have a bit to go…..I think I’m close to the end of the game, but I’m not done with it, I don’t play it all the time, only when I feel I need to and a lot of the time, when I choose to play it, it’s because I feel I need to, when I start to get a little down or I’m thinking a little too much or I’m just not in the best of moods, I play that game, I do it every time I feel low, but like I said just when I feel I need to! One of my favorite parts about the game is when I get to boss fights and as much as they give me heart attacks (not really) but I do get a bit of anxiety playing it, but that’s only because the boss fights are pretty intense, however whenever I help the character in the game overcome the fears and difficult moments that she’s faced with…..a part of me also feels like I’ve overcome something as well….that might be weird to say, but I don’t know it’s just how I feel!

Also it’s just very pleasing to the eye, it’s such a beautiful game, the art style is super fantastic, it also has some adorable moments to it, it’s a really great game, probably one of my favorites, although I don’t play it quite often, whenever I do pick it up, I always remember why I enjoy it! Now some of the boards can be very hard to get through, but you figure them out, you grow to enjoy it and embrace it for what it is, at least that’s how I see it, it’s probably different for everyone else, but I enjoy it, Gris is a really good game and I would recommend those looking for a game to try or would like to have a game to connect with to give it a go or if you just want to play it because it sounds interesting, It’s an adventure/platform type game so if that’s what you’re into, check it out, I don’t think you’ll be disappointed!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa