2 Years Of Blogging (Part 2)

Hiya, hope you’re all doing well, I know it’s been a week now since my first part of this post, I have been meaning to write the second part to it, but I didn’t want to write it, until I knew I felt good enough to write it and so that’s why it’s taking me a bit to get to this post, I didn’t want to rush it by any means……now to be completely honest…….

Where this post is going I don’t know, i’m kinda just going to go with it, it might just be a theme here now that i’m thinking about it, but let’s just see where this post chooses to travel…..okay so I know I didn’t quite go into details of what 2 years of blogging has felt like or has been in the first part of it…….and to share some thoughts on that part…….i’m not really sure what to express on what it’s been like…….when I first started this blog, it was to have it be a place where I felt I could express myself, there was no theme at all to it, it was just a blog of expression, however I felt I tried to express

myself in the best way that could……for while I feel like I did that okay if that makes sense!? To be fair I still consider this to be my blog of expression, there have been times where I tried to come up with a theme…..and I always had trouble with that…..

You see although I can theme certain things out…..blogging was one of those things I found hard to give a theme to…….there were many times where i’d worry and go into overthink mode wondering if I was doing all of this right or not and i’d even stress myself out about it and sometimes it’ll get to a point where I would stop writing for a while and i’d go back and fourth with myself on whether I should continue with this blog, you know the natural worries when it comes to having a blog and that……

There were times where i’d notice i’d write about anything whether it made sense or not, just because I felt I needed to post all the time and I guess doing that probably didn’t help creativity wise……let’s just say there’s a lot i guess I can talk on……that’d make it a very long post ha!! One of the main things though was, I made this blog to have as an outlet to express when I didn’t feel I was able to in the way I wanted to,

but even then I still felt it hard to express at times……when it comes to personal things even though i’ll express on it to an extent……you’ll never see me go into full details to whatever i’m expressing about and i’m detailed person irl (in real life) by the way, but if it’s too personal, although I won’t say exactly what it is about, i’ll still express on what i’m feeling just differently……that said, there were moments where I stopped expressing because I didn’t want it to come across a certain way…….yet I knew I had things I wanted to share that was kind of personal that I wanted to get out

Again it’s actually quite a lot now that i’m writing about it, there might just be a part 3 here……if so it’ll be shorter in words, but these 2 years on this blog well they’ve been something and by something I mean a mixture of different emotions and thoughts and all that jazz, again i’ll shorten it in the next part, I didn’t think there’d be so much expression happening to describe blogging for two years, but here we are, i’m going to try and make this 3rd and last post part the overall view of having this blog shorter

There’s still some stuff I want to express on because I don’t feel this to be finished so, I hope you all enjoy this second part in someway and if you haven’t read the first part you can find it here: 2 Years Of Blogging (PartΒ 1)

To be continued and finished……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Slow Down….

When you find some pressure on the rise or you’re feeling a little irritated, take a moment to just slow down a little, feelings of pressure and stress can cause irrational ways of thinking and with that you won’t really be able to focus much on anything……so take a moment to firstly breathe when you feel the height of the pressure and guide yourself to slow down a bit.

I know it’s probably not the easiest thing to do once you’re already in a state of pressure, but it’ll help to re focus your thoughts to become a little more clearer, all while helping you to get back to a clam state of being…..now it may take some time before you’re fully back to feeling at ease again and that’s okay, it’s not about how quickly you can do it, but just taking the moment to become aware so that you can not only process things,

but also just be fully present towards what you’re doing…..slowing down doesn’t always necessarily have to mean doing things slow, it can mean to just….take your time and maybe take things in a little more, look around a bit and while you’re at it, breathe a little deeper than you might’ve before.

Try and appreciate the small things that you maybe missed before, find enjoyment it all that you do big or small, but most importantly have patience and trust that it’s all going to work out and be alright!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

No Need To Try So Hard…..

Ask yourself this question…..why do we try so hard!? Did you answer it!? If so what did you say!? When we try hard to get things right, most often we find that it turns out not so right all the time, why is that!? Well it’s exactly what it is, we’re trying too hard, when in reality, we don’t need to.

Now you might be saying to yourself, well how else are we meant to do it!? Try hard a little less possibly….!? Yes I know how exactly!? Well for one, we gotta relax and chill out, breathe and let things flow at a natural state,

When we try too hard, we create resistance, which also invites stress, causing us to feel overwhelmed by everything and let me tell you it’s not a great feeling you know……we’re only adding pressure to ourselves by doing that, if we constantly worry about things not being a certain way and trying to get it right all the time, we wouldn’t have things be as natural as they are would we!? It’s okay to push yourself harder then you might normally at times, but when you start trying so hard to the point where you’re stressing yourself out, that is the moment where you need to step back and take a couple of breathers otherwise, you’re going to drive yourself mad.

Although it’s great to want to push yourself to be better, we don’t always have to try so hard to do that, we can do that and do our best all at the same time, minus the stress and feelings of being overwhelmed, just because something may seem or feel not all that great, doesn’t mean that is isn’t all that great, sometimes we may need to just relook at things or tweak something in order for it to make sense and come out right…..

It’s good to go on what you feel, but sometimes what we may feel to be not so good in our heads, actually isn’t all that bad, just keep that in mind……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Blogmas….

So blogmas, where to start…..it is quite the keep up let’s just say!! This is my first time really trying this out, although I don’t feel i’m doing it properly, but writing a post everyday, I mean normally it’s hard to keep on top of blogging about things all the time, but once you sorta or really sign yourself up to make sure you blog and write something everyday up until a certain day……*sigh* goodness, it’s not as easy as it seems, i’ll tell you that,

Especially when you don’t always have interesting topic to talk about, a lot of the time I just come up with stuff and go based off feeling instead of really sitting down and planning out what my posts should be like and that’s probably why i’m finding Blogmas to be quite the task, right now it’s around 10pm and since going along with this monthly blog challenge,

I normally would start writing a little bit earlier, like in the afternoon around 12pm and for the past two days, both days being weekends, i’ve been wanting to simmer down and give it a bit and it’s not because I haven’t been wanting to write, I just haven’t been super inspired when it comes to topics, again I do most of my postings off of feeling and just choosing the first thing that comes into my mind, so if i’m not feeling the desire to write

I just won’t and that’s because I don’t want to just post for the heck of it and if I do happen to post a non interesting post, I also explain and say “hey I don’t really have anything interesting to talk about, but I hope this post is alright” I try not to write uninteresting posts, but sometimes you don’t always know what’s good and what’s not, I can’t really tell the difference if i’m being honest, but I still always try to make it somewhat interesting!!

That all being said, although Blogmas is a task and you find you have to keep at it, it’s not really been demanding, at least it hasn’t felt demanding, to me anyway, I think when it comes to challenges, in this case I get it can feel very stressful because you have to get something out at a certain time,

I think it helps to not stress with it, because if you do then you’ll feel on edge and start panicking about how you have to get a post out, but if you take your time with it and stay calm, you already know in your head, you have to write something, so it’ll automatically be natural for you to post.

It’s kinda like when you know you have to get up at a certain time and your body keeps that as a reminder and it makes sure you are up either before your alarm or when it rings, so it becomes a natural reaction, you don’t have to stress about it or worry or make yourself feel on edge,

You’ll just naturally know “okay better get writing” whether that’s early in the morning, mid afternoon or late in the evening as long as your post is ready before midnight or before you’re heading to bed then you’re good, back to blogmas though, it hasn’t been too stressful for me, even when i’m having days where i’m just everywhere let’s just say, even on those days, writing a post a day especially as a challenge, i’d say it’s been okay!!

Do I always have interesting things to write about!? NO, but for me, I find when even when I don’t have a good topic to share, having these chatting sessions and just talking or writing more like in this case, helps, it’s good to have posts where you just want to talk, we don’t always have to be interesting, we can just be human and talk about whatever it is thats in our heads or whatever you choose to write about, sometimes I want to talk about nothing, sometimes something and other times specifically!!

I think that’s okay and if you guys want to write about something or nothing, all that jazz, that’s okay too!! It’s why most of us created our blogs in the first place right!? We all just wanted a place to talk…….well that is all I have, I don’t know how long this post is, but I hope you enjoyed it for what it was, whatever that is exactly…….you all have a goodnight or good day wherever you are and i’ll send over a new post for you tomorrow!!

P.S. We’re at 11pm again…..

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Do You Believe In Things That You Don’t Understand!?

That was a line from the song that everybody if not most people know called Superstition by Stevie Wonder, a good, but also classic song might I add…..so as you may all know, today is Friday the 13th, for a lot of people this day is seen to be quite the luck and I don’t mean good luck, in all honesty I don’t know why this day is seen as such bad luck, but it is and has been for many, many lifetimes, come to think of it, who felt this day to be bad luck anyway!? The world may never know, but personally it’s just a day.

I think you take with it how you want to take with it, will I say it’s bad luck, I don’t know, i’d be lying if I said I too don’t believe in the whole superstition ways of life, now do I go to extreme’s with it……I don’t think so, however I do have certain things here and there that I like to be on the safe side with, yeah I know, crazy!! Why would I believe in that if it’s not real, I mean weren’t they created to scare people or be pulled as some kind of prank!?

Possibly, I believe it, but some things you just want to be safe on and there’s nothing wrong with that, whose to say that some of them aren’t real!? We really don’t know……when it comes to Friday the 13th being a day where lot of people see it as a not so great day, well I don’t know, can a day really be unlucky!? I’d say it really depends on how the days going, one day can go by smoothly, while another may go by a little roughly……

Sometimes you can just tell when a day is going to be one of those days, just by the slightest of things happening around you, but it doesn’t mean that you won’t be able to turn it around in someway, it’s just going to take a bit of extra energy to do so.

Now would you consider those days to be unlucky too or would you just pull through it!? Exactly, just because today’s day is considered a superstition day, doesn’t mean it actually is, if we consider one day to be unlucky than we might as well say the rest of the days are unlucky!!

Friday the 13th is just a day that sometimes can be an extra energy kind of day, is it an overall bad day!? I wouldn’t say so, but everyone will have their own perspectives on it and that’s completely fine, but if we’re talking about superstitions all together, well it’s a thing that can be seen as ridiculous and not so ridiculous, it all really depends on what you believe in.

Sometimes with superstition we naturally kinda take on it, without really being aware they we’re taking on it, so for example:

Salt, if we spill it accidentally or something, we’ll throw it over our shoulders just to be on the safe side, which shoulder!? I can’t remember I think it’s the left, but it might be the right, all I know is it gets thrown over a shoulder, but that is the kind of thing that most or some of us will sorta do without really thinking about it…..even if we don’t believe in all things superstitious, there’s always something to it that tends to stay with us.

So which Superstition do you believe in!? Do you even believe in Superstitions, if so do you think Friday the 13th is actually unlucky!?

P.S. Here’s a new doodle that I made yesterday, I took some stuff out from it and added a few things to it today, I prefer it this way then to how I had it before, don’t worry not a lot was taking out!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

I Think I’m Going To Make This A Short One……

I’m going to be real here, i’ve been slightly stressing out on what to write about today, I don’t have anything interesting to talk about so i’ve been trying to do other things for the time being so that way in case something did pop up to me, i’d be able to write about it, but all that came up was me getting anxious for what, I have no idea, I just was and still am a little!!

I think maybe today I just need to calm, no need to get stressed because you don’t have something to write about right!? If I happened to have something come up before I head on to bed, then i’ll try and write it before then, but if not, I hope this post is okay for now……..

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

For The Moment….

For the moment, you have to let it go, I know it’s hard and you may not want to, but for the moment you have to, it’ll come back around, you just have to give it time to do so, everything takes time, no matter how fast we may want it to go or how bad we want it to happen, it’s still going to take time, if we tried to rush everything we had going on, we wouldn’t be able to see all the progress we’ve made along the way, when we try and rush things we don’t give it the time it needs to fully unfold, sure it can turn into a stressful matter because we don’t know how everything will play out….

Not knowing can get pretty frustrating, but trying to rush things to happen is much more frustrating, because you’re expecting there to be quick results, you’re wanting everything to happen right away, you gotta give it the time it needs to come together, what is yours, will always be there for you, it’s not going anywhere, just because it may go for a while doesn’t mean that it’s going to go forever, it’s still there, but sometimes it has to go away in order for it to come back to you better.

It’s not always clear why and at times it’s not going to be and that’s okay, but you need to know there’s nothing to worry about, things just need time, you gotta give it time, trust that everything is working in the order it needs to, for the moment let the worries, stress and everything else go, put it to the side and let the control of wanting everything to play out a certain way go.

Everything will soon fall into place, but for the moment let it go, anytime you’re feeling this way, look back at this post or find a way to sit with this feeling and accept it, don’t fight it so much, instead try and look at it with different eyes, try to understand it and even if you don’t truly get it, know that that’s okay, but don’t feel you need to give up, you don’t have to give up,

Just GIVE IT TIME, LOOSEN UP and relax, stop stressing, it’s going to work out and it will come together, so take a breather, recollect and trust, keep that hope close to you and keep it in a place of safe keeping until then.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Meditation…..

Happy Friday Everyone!! Hope you all are doing well and have had a good week and day, my day was okay, not too bad, since we’re at the end of the week I thought let’s talk upon the topic of meditation.

Disclaimer: This was the post I was talking about guys, here’s the heads up!!

Back to the post, meditation what is it!? Well if you ask me, I would have to look up the actually definition of it to have a better understanding of, but for the most part it’s pretty much just a way of relaxing, clearing the mind, body all that jazz!! It’s a good way to destress, so they say and by they I mean people who actually meditate, now I said in my last post that i’d tell you about the times I tried meditation, which I will, right now so you guys don’t have to wait too long, the first time I tried mediating……

I wasn’t sure if I was doing it right and I found it a little weird while I was doing it, a lot of things are pretty weird to me these days to be honest, the first time I tried it, I watched a 5 minute meditation video and it was one of those guided meditation videos, you know where they talk you through it telling you to breathe in and out and to focus on your breathing and so on.

Again it was only 5 mins, but for a 5 min video it did take a bit of time to get through, the reason I feel I didn’t do it right is because, I know with meditation you’re supposed to relax, but I am terrible at relaxing which i’m sure you all know by now, I was trying to follow along and really listen to the voice and what they were saying, meditation isn’t hard, but it also is…..

When meditating you have to learn to clear your mind and relax both the mind and body so that way it works, but with me, well I don’t meditate often for one, this was kinda my first time really trying it out, i’ve never really done a guided meditation before that’s why it felt so weird also when it comes to clearing of the mind…….i’m not the greatest with it at all,

I’ll still have thoughts just swarming around my head, so trying the guided meditation where they talk you through it, yeah it didn’t really help all that much, I wasn’t chilled out or relaxed after listening to it, however listening to mediation music without the talking, has helped to keep me calm…..for the most part anyway, I still have moments where even when i’m listening to some kind of meditation music or atmospherical music that is calming, I still go in and out of intense emotions, stress anxiety things like that.

I just don’t really know how to stop thinking that’s my only problem, I think too much and I don’t allow myself to relax mentally and just in general, but after a while I slowly turn my focus on the music and what i’m doing, be it reading, doodling and sometimes writing, when it comes to writing I mainly do it in silence because it’s the only way I know how to focus on it and when it comes to everything else, I try and zone out for the time being so I don’t go and drive myself mad with all the thinking and everything in between.

Point of story, meditation is good, you just gotta allow yourself to relax and just not worry about everything else for a bit, it’s not easy to do and if your a thinker like I am, it’ll take some time getting use to, but i’d say if you’re having a hard time relaxing, just take your time with it,

Slowly find your way through, for some people it takes longer to relax, but you have to allow yourself to relax, otherwise you won’t, believe me!! If you work better having someone talk to you, try a guided meditation if you relax better when there’s little noise meditation music should help, I recommend the atmospheric kind, but you can just chose what you like, which ever works best for you, however way you’re able to relax go for it.

I’m still getting the hang out what meditation is and finding the best way to relax, i’ve listened to a few good meditation songs already and just calming music in general as background noise, ones without words and are hours long and when I say hours I mean 3-11, well the one I was listening to yesterday is about 11 hours, almost 12 (11 hours, 55 mins and 01 second)

Although that’s very long, it’s a nice one!! Now i’m going to be honest here, you need a lot of patience meditating, if you aren’t the patient kind, I don’t know if quiet meditation will be the thing for you, you might find other things that help you relax and that’s fine, everyone has their way of relaxing, but I still think having calm music in the background for a bit

Can really help to put you in a relaxing mode, even if it’s just playing while you’re doing something else, but again however way you relax is fine!!

I think that’s all I have for you guys on this post, i’m going to be honest, I don’t even know how I wrote all this, my brain right now is pretty much done for the day, it’s so done that my words aren’t matching up properly when I speak, which i’m doing as i’m writing this, the only thing that my brain is able to do is make me sing a song that I heard earlier today and is now stuck in my head, it’s a good song so i’m not too bothered about it!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

P.S. I want to share a doodle, before I post this, but I don’t have one now, well I do, but I kinda want to create a new one, so what I will do is, i’m going to post this and doodle away and then tomorrow I will update this post and share it with you guys once it’s done, either that or i’ll choose a random one I already have, but until then I shall leave this…..

Insert Doodle Here: Update I have now shared the doodle that I wanted, I had to outline it before I posted, still have decided on any colors yet, hopefully something pops up, if you guys have any suggestions go on and share them if you like, i’ll write a post on a few of my doodles so far once i’ve brighten them up with colors, hope you all are having a good day!! ^_^

Uploaded Dec 8, 2019

Meditation Music…..

So recently i’ve been listening to some meditation music, you know the kind that’s meant to help you relax and zone out for a while, for the most part it does calm things down, I mainly listen to it when i’m doodling or reading or when I want to drown any other noise out around me, some are good and even have a few favorites, others I can only listen to them for a short period of time and slightly over, meditation music is pretty,

Although I enjoy the atmospheric ones the most, but regular meditation music is good too, you’d be surprised on how many there actually are!! You go and look up a specific kind based on mood and that and i’m telling you you’ll find and have a whole list and more to choose from, it’s insane!! There’s literally a category for everything, you’ll never run out of options.

I listened to one today, I was thinking a lot and had things in my mind, I did get them out by writing a bit, it wasn’t anything feeling wise, well not particularly that anyway, it was more me thinking of someone, so I wrote something, but I haven’t posted it, it’s kinda just written down thoughts that was in my mind, but I looked up some meditation music to help calm down,

There was a lot of options again, I ended up going back and forth on a few, until I settled for a specific one, the one I chose was supposed to help clear the mind and keep you from overthinking as well as help reduce anxiety, it was working, the only thing I would recommend when listening to it is,

Just listen to it, grab a book, sketchbook, coloring book anything that is keeping you distracted or at least occupied for the time being and put it on in the background and zone out, make sure you don’t go doing something else while it’s playing that might heighten stress levels and that, because then it won’t work, with meditation music you have to be relaxed in order for it to do it’s job correctly, so that’s the only recommendation I have.

Other than that you should be fine, choose one that works best for you or best with your mood, however you want and just enjoy!! That’s all I have for now, this isn’t the post that I was talking about yesterday that i’d post, but it does have to do with meditation, it’s pretty much the same, but i’m talking about meditation music and not meditation itself, that post will be tomorrow, i’ll make sure to talk about it fully from when I tried it.

What’s your favorite kind of meditation music, do you prefer regular kind, nature sounds or the atmospheric “spacey” kind!?

Here’s another doodle I did today, I haven’t added any colors yet as you can see, any suggestions are welcome though!!

P.s. Here’s the song if you want to hear it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wLffJhxlXKE&t=2561s

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

If Words Were Bullets, We’d All Be Wounded Or Worst…..

Not all words are bullets, but majority can be……if we’re not careful, we learn that we can do a whole lot of damage with them. Sometimes we don’t really think about the way we say things and if we do, sometimes they can still come out in a way where we don’t realize just how much it can effect a person…..a lot of what we say sometimes we say it out of spite, why!?

Because we’re angry and upset, but just because we’re upset, it doesn’t mean we should throw knives at a person, however most people still do, with words you can say anything, but our words and how we say them will determine what the outcome turns out to be. If we say something in an attempt to hurt someone, well that doesn’t make us good people does it!?

We’re just doing it out of spitefulness and that’s not how things should be, we should learn how to say something without it coming across negatively, however sometimes we end up in a gray area, because we could use our words and use it with kindness or in a way that isn’t hurtful, but it may still end up still coming off that way, a lot of the time we don’t know how to say things without it coming off a certain way, some of us say things based off how we feel and also because we don’t know another way to say it.

We don’t think about the effects of it, until after everything is said and done, we say what we say within the moment and then later think about it, for some it can be the other way around, where they think first and say later and I gotta say when it comes to those people, we could learn a thing or two, but it’s not always like that, some people would rather it be said then and there and that’s fine, but at the same time, if we’re not careful in the way we say things, it’ll turn sour real quick and then we’ll find a very big mess at our hands, with words we don’t think they do much, but they do.

We can always go back and rethink how everything played out and then come back and re discuss it to clear out any miscommunication that might’ve been taking in, at the start of a conversation, doing that actually works, because if one party felt a certain way, we’d be able to sort it out to make sure that everything is set right and make things better, vice versa.

That being said though, sometimes you’ll find yourself in the middle of a war zone trying your hardest to dodge any minefields that are hidden beneath, if you’re lucky, sometimes you make it out alive, other times you have no choice, but to stand your ground and go to war……

However you don’t always have to, you can always choose when to pick your battles, it’s not always easy though when it comes to choosing them, sometimes we don’t know when the best time and when it’s not, I guess you kinda just gotta look out for it or just go in either way, but it doesn’t mean we have or need to charge through with every blow or explosion we hear.

When it comes to choosing, we either look out for it, charge through and if it’s a battle we don’t have to particularly take part in, if it came to a point where we have to step in and go to war (hoping it doesn’t over escalate) we should at least be mindful in what we say, but most importantly, we should always be careful when heading into the battlefield, the mission is to defuse not infuse…..once that’s mastered, we will all know how to heal each other.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Penciled Version
Pen Version

Side Note: I thought i’d add one of my drawings to this post, why well I wanted to have some kind of cover for this post, last time I shared one of my doodles, I said that I would add the penciled part to it as well as pen, I have not decided on a color for it yet, so that’s why you’re seeing it like this, if you guys have any suggestions to what colors I should use, feel free to share it would really be helpful and i’d appreciate it as well, thank you!! ^_^