You Can’t Hide From Yourself….

Let’s just get it off our chest, we’re uncomfortable…..we don’t like it and we want it to stop, buut it’s not going to is it!? As humans we always think we can escape our own uncomfortability, but the one person that you’re unable to get away from is yourself so what exactly are you doing!? You want to know why I’m uncomfortable!? Well, I’ll try to explain it in a way that, hopefully doesn’t reveal to many personal details, but to keep a long story short….I’m uncomfortable with the fact that, when I’m thinking about something that I know I want to do I will take FOREVER just to decide on it, even when I know I want to do it….

However, one thing about me that I know is my least favorite trait to my personality is…..I’m always siking myself out of things or I overthink it too much to where I already know it frustrates those around me, they don’t have to say it to me because I can feel it and by knowing that, it’ll brings me more stress and frustration because you know the reason you feel like that is due to the fact that you’re afraid to let people down, which wait for it…..adds MORE stress because you’re also fighting with yourself thinking “Why are you worrying about everyone else!?”

Asking yourself that question then just makes you want to scream because although you know why you worry, part of you just wish you didn’t worry or care so much about these things…..and all of that starts mixing together because you could never put you, nor your needs and wants first, leaving you to feel a little upset with yourself, where you’re just like “You always worry about other people and how they’re going to feel” although there’s nothing wrong with caring about others and wanting to make sure they’re going to be okay….

You as person also have to know when it’s time to say “I love you, but no” and be okay with choosing to honor yourself and the things you want to go after! That being said, we also have to live and embrace the uncomfortability of it all!! No matter what we do, we will always be uncomfortable, there’s no way of escaping it, we live to experience, we live to discover and to be amazed along with all the other emotions and feelings we go through within our journey here!

We have to be uncomfortable in order to know what we’re comfortable with, once that’s discovered, we then find and learn what our comfortablities are and how to embrace them along with the uncomfortable! It’s not something we have to necessarily like feeling, but it is something we have to accept whether we want to or not! We have to be okay with the shadow parts of ourselves…..if you really think about it, we’re practically yin and yang inside, we all have the light part of us and the dark part, if we are always leaning towards the light and pushing the dark away, we’re not really giving ourselves the chance to truly experience who we are all the way around…..which isn’t fair!

Just because something is dark doesn’t mean that there isn’t any goodness to it! I may have said this before already, but we all know how diamonds are formed, they go through a lot of pressure before turning into something beautiful!! Amethyst forms from volcantic lava and pearls can be found within oysters, before stones become stones they have to go through some kind of dark experience themselves before we get to see the true beauty of them…..it’s never easy when you feel like every wall is caving in on you or where things are just not going well whatsoever, BUT it’s important to be aware that, all of it is necessary and instead of seeing it as a negative experience automatically, we have to understand that, it happens because we’re evolving and we need it in order for our growth to thrive and for us to continue to be the best versions of ourselves that we already are wheher we see it or not!

We can’t have the good without the bad, even if we prefer it better, the more we try to resist the uncomfortable the more worst and uncomfortable it’s going to get, so allow it, accept it and be okay with it, you don’t have to love it, but honestly who loves being uncomfortable!? Allow the transformation that you’re going to be experiencing to unfold and happen and be amazed at what you see!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

So We’ve Entered December….

We’re now on the second day of December and let me tell you….it’s one of them chaotic days, you know the stressed out, everything is everywhere and all you want to do is close your eyes and take a nap and just listen to the silence around you, yeah that kind of day! It sorta slowed down a bit as I’m writing this, but earlier, there was a lot going on.

I can’t believe we’re nearing the end of the year, talk about 2021 flying by yeah!? It doesn’t help that it’s around the holidays too, I mean the holidays are ALWAYS busy with everyone doing late Christmas shopping trying to get everything done all at once and probably driving themselves mad to be fair with how hectic it gets around this time of year, I mean it never fails, but we just learn to accept it as it is!

Last week when we we’re still in the month of November, even though it ended two days ago….still, when I tell you last week was busy….it was busy….everything was happening within that whole week, Thanksgiving/my nephews birthday as well as his party after his birthday, there was just a lot of events in one day and hey you would think after it was over that you’d be able to relax somewhat, but noo, not quite!!

Now we’re in a whole new month and the years practically over…..and Christmas is making it’s way towards us, I mean it’s a couple weeks away, but if you really think about it, it’s already here, It was here once November started and once Halloween left the building…..I can’t really say what this years been like is that weird to say!? Some people might be able to talk about all that’s happened with them and everything they’ve been up to and what they’re planning on doing for the upcoming year…..however I feel like it’s still a bit uncertain just what will come for the new year….as far as what this years been like, well…..a lot of different things happened, some slightly big, some not that big!

I had a few new experiences, nothing too dramatic though, but they were still nice ones nonetheless! I did have some plans that didn’t quite go accordingly, but that’s okay, a lot of the time, things work out better when they aren’t planned, but just because, plans don’t happen in the time you want them too, doesn’t mean it won’t happen later down the line, everything happens for a reason, if it’s meant to happen it will always find a way and I will always believe that to be true, so…..if plans fell short for some of you out there this year, don’t give up on them, maybe those plans will transform into something completely different then what you might have initially thought and will end up surprising you in a way that you have yet to imagine!

Other than that, it’s been quite the year, full of many ups and downs and whirlwinds galore, 2021 has brought a lot of mixed feelings for everyone, including myself, but there’s still time to make the most of the year with these next few weeks of December, if it’s been tough, just keep doing your best and have faith that it’ll turn around soon enough! Sorry if this post is a short one…..kind of dealing with a headache at the moment, just a mild one though, plus I’ve been a bit low on energy, but I wanted to try and write something for today!

I hope that you all have been having a good day and week, take care, stay safe and happy holidays!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Happy Holidays, May It Treat You All Kind!

Ahhh the holidays…..some people love it, while others…..loath it! To be fair the holidays are always a bit of an up in the air kind of topic, it’s always getting mixed feelings whenever it rolls around! The way I see it however is, I try and make the most of the holidays, it’s not always been the greatest of times, but even then I know that you can always choose to focus on the best parts of it. I think one of the reasons most people don’t really enjoy the holidays is due to the fact that, the people they celebrated those times with are no longer around, so every time it does come to the jolliest of jolly days…..it’s hard to get into the spirit of it!

Which I understand, it’s never easy to go through life without always having that one person there to help you get through it or just help to be the best part of it….and when that person or number of people are no longer here…..it just always feels like something is missing and no matter how hard you may try to put it in the back in of your mind, you’re always going to find yourself feeling that heaviness of not having that person there.

I was thinking about this to myself not that long ago as I was washing the dishes, it’s been a bit of a morning coming from a very long eventful week, it’s not been super crazy the morning anyway, there was just something that happened yesterday evening that had the morning be a little down-ish, but I like to think that it’s a little bit better now, maybe not in a complete sense of it, but a good sense of it nonetheless!

Anyway, I was thinking to myself on how if it were possible to always have certain people with us in the sense of the people that are no longer here….we wouldn’t have to worry and they would just be with us always, but as we all are aware deep down, that’s not always possible…..and as much as I don’t want to say it, the reality of it is that it wouldn’t be life is we had the choice to have that happen.

Life is a very interesting thing, but one of the things to life is that although we have control of certain ways of life, we don’t have control of everything and that’s something that no matter how much we know it and how much we wish we did….there’s no denying that we don’t and that’s where it will always be hard, especially when it comes to those that are very special in our lives or when trying to do something even! Whether we all feel it or not, we all like a bit of control let’s face it, but it’s when there are things that are out of our control where we stress ourselves out more, knowing deep within us, there’s nothing we can do about it,

Yet we will still try and have it in our minds until we’re blue in the face because it’s just difficult to comprehend, we may accept it after fighting so long to not want to understand, but it doesn’t mean that it’s still easy…..

There’s many reasons to why the holidays are always such a rough time for most people. It could be that something big happened during that time and not in a good way, not talking on the fact of losing people here, but more in a sense of having something deep and personal happen! Maybe for some, you might’ve been battling inner demons for a specific amount of years until eventually getting through it and coming out on the other side safely or just not having the best holiday experiences, due to family not always being the best, not having anyone to celebrate it with and many other reasons.

So whenever it comes around it’s just always this….not wanting to use the word Trauma, but maybe for those out there it could be for that reason, where a big Traumatic event happened during the holidays or it just not always been positive whenever it did come to this time of year….like I said, the holiday times are rough and it’s always when it gets close to the end of the year because that’s when we do most of our reflecting, with all the things we felt, what we went through, trying to release everything in our hearts and mind in hopes that those things don’t follow us into the new year, which sometimes it does, because we don’t allow ourselves to let go of all those things that kept us up all night and feeling so stressed out!

We may feel like we let it all go, but we still carry certain events, thoughts, emotions with us and I’m not saying it’s bad, it’s good to keep things close to our hearts, it’s just the things that we choose to carry are the same things that we can’t control instead of just allowing some of those uncontrolled things to unfold the way they’re meant to all while accepting and letting go of the things that may be unfinished for a reason…..

As for the holidays, yeah it’s hectic and full of mixed emotions, but it’s not always bad, there’s always something to look forward to, we just have to be willing to see it and trust that it will always lead somewhere good, be it big or small….I think we all sometimes forget what the holidays are truly about, which is why the whole magic and feel of it gets a bit lost, but it doesn’t mean that it’s not still there, it’s always there, it can just take a while to really see it, due to the journey being a bit bumpy and going all over the place, but even then we should always try and appreciate it, because without all our journey experiences, we wouldn’t be who we are today!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

October Stress…

Happy Weekend Everyone! I hope that your day is going okay so far! I must say I’m a bit happy that this week is done and that we’ve entered the weekend….it’s been a long stressful anxious week and it’s not really been the greatest! If I’m being honest I’m still feeling quite anxious and a little overwhelmed, I thought it would go away, but no, it’s still there ha! It’s just been a really shit week and I don’t normally swear, but it’s how I feel, but I’m doing by best to try and make the most out of these days and keep positive in the best way I’m able to….key word trying….!

I normally don’t like talking about the way I’m feeling, but I don’t know how else to handle these emotions that have just come out of nowhere for me, since yesterday all I’ve been wanting to do is cry, my Anxiety has been up the wall and the sucky part is I really don’t know why…..scratch that there’s a few reasons, but I choose not to share upon them, but other than part of the reason, the other parts I really don’t know….all I know is I’ve just been feeling super stressed out this week and I’m trying to keep my emotions under control, but it’s becoming very hard….I don’t know if maybe sharing these feelings this way will help me to calm down a bit, I’m hoping it does, maybe that’s what I need a good expression session!

October has been very odd, it started off okay and not that bad, except for a couple of things and now it just feels like everything is going all over the place, so much is happening and I guess it’s happening super quickly and that’s why I’m feeling overwhelmed by it all, I’m not used to everything going by super quickly, I thought I was handling it pretty well and maybe I was, but all the craziness and just everything has started catching up to me, but I’m trying to stay calm! I’m trying not to lose control of it, because I know that if I do, it’s just going to get worst and I don’t want that to happen!

So I’m trying to keep my feet planted even if I do get pushed back a bit…I know I got to keep them planted and keep going, it’s the only way things will get better….I got a trip coming up in literally a week now and although I feel excited about it, I’m also very nervous and as much as I don’t want to be nervous I am…..I guess part of me is just hoping that it all goes well, it’s a long of way as I’ll be going to visit my partner finally being able to see him after a very long while…..not only that, but I’ll be seeing something completely new…..which is a bit scary, I mean anything new is quite scary really, but I’m excited because at least I’ll be able to see him….it doesn’t mean I’m not still nervous though! There’s just so much going on in my head and they’re all just combining together to the point where it’s just an overwhelming feeling and it’s the only feeling that I can seem focus on at the moment!

I’m just tired, but I’m still going to do my best to push through it as best as I can, I’m just hoping that the upcoming week is better than this past week and that there’s at least a good amount of fresh air to be inhaled, but for the time being I feel I just need to hold my breath or catch my breath even, before heading into the next few days coming…..I really hope that you guys are having a much better day and weekend…..it’s been quite the month and we’re just getting ready to wrap it all up, one thing I will say is…I do feel slightly better, not quite, but a bit, but hey I’ll take it and I’ll keep trying to make the most of these next few days, you guys take care!

By the way my latest podcast episode is up, if you guys want to check it out, you have a good rest of the day!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

25-26

Quite the title I know, I’m just kidding haha! Don’t really know why I chose that as the title, it just randomly came to me and I thought it was a neat one, plus it’s pretty themed too, I’m just going to say that….I’ve got a couple thoughts that I wanted to get out, I’m doing a bit of self reflecting, been kind of doing it for about a few days now, maybe a couple of weeks….I tend to self reflect on random occasions to be fair! I already sorta let most of my thoughts out yesterday as a Podcast episode, although I haven’t actually quite posted it just yet, I’ve been thinking about it though, I don’t normally like to talk upon my own thoughts and feelings as I’ve stated a few times before on here…..I don’t like talking about what I’m thinking, It feels weird to me, I don’t really like having that kind of low energy type thing….

I prefer to talk about things that I enjoy and mean a lot to me instead of my actual feelings, because no one really likes to share that kind of thing especially when you know you’re in this deep thought mode, you try and brush it off and put it away, but you tend to notice that it’s never quite far from you and with the way I always find myself thinking….no one wants to hear that all the time and that’s just how I genuinely feel, it’s why I rarely share on what I’m feeling, like I know it’s alright to share your emotions at times, but I just always find it hard for me to do, because I never can find the words to make it sound less…..complaint like, I don’t know why I always feel it to be such a bothersome thing, I just always do! I know there’s nothing wrong with it…..I just have a hard time expressing my true emotions to people,

I rather try and work through my current thoughts in the moment when I’m feeling it and not have to talk about it to people…..but I guess when you need to let it out, you need to let it out….keeping it to yourself isn’t always the best thing, although if it’s not your thing then you shouldn’t force yourself, because eventually when you feel like you’re ready to express yourself, I always feel you will in some way or form….we all have moments and sometimes we all just need to allow ourselves to have those moments, be it in private, sharing to someone else or just when you feel you may need a bit before actually being vocal about your thoughts and emotions, it all comes down to preference!

When it comes to sharing on things that can be hard to share, it’s okay if you’re the type that only shares every now and again and if you’re someone that finds it works better when you share you’re thoughts not daily, but every other day that fine too, but if you’re someone that rarely shares because you find it a bit hard or because it’s not your thing that’s alright too, whatever works best, we just got to accept the type of person we are when it comes to that, I’m in between every now and again and rarely, sharing upon my thoughts is something I don’t really like doing, but if I feel that I need to, in order to give myself a bit of a clear and refresh mind then I will even when it’s a bit hard,

For the most part though a lot of my thoughts lately are out of my worries and fears and me overthinking everything, not that I do it on purpose, I really do try not to think the way I do, but sometimes my mind can just get to me a bit, I guess you just have to allow it to be sometimes as well as do your best to not let it get to you too much! How have you all been feeling lately!?

Update A.K.A Promo Time!!

I ended up re recording that podcast episode I was talking about earlier in the post, I wanted to do it differently, so if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Just Chatting it’ll be up on Anchor as well as Spotify just a heads up (on Anchor it’ll say May 7th and on Spotify it’ll say May 8th, I think the times a bit different on Spotify I’m not really sure) but it’s just a chill chatting session on a few thoughts I had similar to this post, just with a bit more added so if you get curious check it out!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Now Playing….Car Radio By Twenty One Pilots (Part 2!? I Might’ve Discussed This One Already… Let’s Just Call it A Revisit)

Good Afternoon, hope everyone’s doing alright! Now before I actually get to this topic, I’m not exactly sure if I already had a look at this song and spoke upon it, I just wanted to give thoughts to the lyrics and express my thoughts on the possible meaning in my own words of it…..if I already did talk on it sorry if this is a repeat, but if not then cool! Now onto the topic of today…..

Artist: Twenty One Pilots

Song: Car Radio

Album: Vessel

Why are we talking about this song today!? Well truth is…..I just wanted to look at the lyrics of it honestly and see if I can do a proper review on it, in a sense….now just to put this out there in case some of you that do read my posts are reading this now or maybe some of you have just discovered my blog site…..I know I already talked about Twenty One Pilots and I expressed how I’m not a HUGE fan of them, in a sense of I don’t really keep up with them, I do like some of their songs though and I think they’re very talented artists, even though I may not know too much about them, I still enjoy some of the music that they bring to their fans! I also like to think of them as very nice people which I’m sure they are!

Now on to the song that is Car Radio…..I can’t really say when I first heard this song and where I was when I heard it for the very first time, but I do remember hearing for the first time and watching the music video to it if that makes sense!? I can remember watching it on the tv somewhere and seeing Tyler, I believe his name is and him being in a….what looked like a red room on the floor and then randomly jammin’ it out on stage alongside his drummer and friend Josh. That is the best way I can describe ever encountering the song, now when we think of the lyrics or look at the lyrics, there’s a lot of deep meaning obviously to it…..you really feel each emotion that he brings to the song, to highlight a few of the lyrics, first you got the opening which reads:

” I ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire, exhale desire, I know it’s dire my time today….I have these thoughts so often I ought, to replace that slot with what I once bought, cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence…”

and then the one line I want to add is…..

“Sometimes quiet is violent”

Now with those lines alone, you obviously can see the frustration, well what I would call frustration anyway…that Tyler is delivering here, we all know the whole feeling of becoming hopeful and excited by something and then feeling like you have to dim it down because maybe in the moment, it can feel a little too good to be true right!? Now there’s that line of pondering, where you’re feeling yourself thinking about things a little too much then you probably should, mash that with the line “Sometimes quiet is violent” and you’ll soon find yourself just caught in this moment of just overly thinking, now you’re feeling overwhelmed, you don’t know what to do with yourself and you’re trying everything and anything just to get yourself out of that thought mode…..now we come to the lines that read:

“I’m forced to deal with what I feel, there is no distraction to mask what is real”

This line alone, first let me just say, is probably one of my favorite lines in this song, because it just without warning drops a whole lyric that makes you take a moment to come to the realization of, no matter how much we try and keep our minds distracted from all the worries, doubts, fears, whatever we’re stressing ourselves out about and pretty much says that not even music can be a distraction to what we’re feeling in the current moment that we’re feeling it and it’s a bit odd because a lot of the time we listen to music to escape or just because we love listening to it, but if you really think about it, we tend to only hear a song and sing along to it if we know it or it’s a favorite of ours,

Only do we truly listen to a songs lyrics….when we’re in the state of mind of feeling a certain emotion, if you notice it’s not until we’re feeling a bit crappy or just not having the best of days to where we really hear the lyrics of song, I mean it doesn’t necessarily have to be when you’re feeling low, it could be when you’re happy as well, but a lot of the time we pay attention to the lyrics when the day just feels off…..why is that!? It’s kind of like your ears just know the right moment to listen, the only time we actually truly listen to the lyrics of a song beside on a not so great day, is when we’re listening to it for the very first time, after that we already know the song, we’ll sing to it, do a little dance and just pretty much hear it from then on….we don’t listen to it until a random time calls for it, which is really weird…..

I guess in a sense, maybe we don’t always listen to the lyrics closely because in the moment we don’t need to, we just enjoy it, but it’s when we’re “in our feelings” so to say and I mean that more on the term of just in general, when our minds are becoming to feel as though it’s on an overload setting….where music just knows what it is we need, sometimes we need to force ourselves to deal with sitting in silence and dealing with whatever it is that keeps clouding our minds and trying to get through the issue that we keep trying to avoid and procrastinate on, which is why you’ll find some songs tend to come on more regarding that feeling if that makes sense!?

Like you have different categories for each emotion, guess that’s why we keep making playlists! That aside, Car Radio is literally the song to play when you know how you’re feeling and you just need to allow those feelings to take place as they’re happening, because sometimes that literally all you can do, play a song let it say how you’re feeling and hope that it does it’s job and helps you to feel a bit better in getting whatever it is you needed to get out….out!

Now I know there’s a lot more to the lyrics of Car Radio, but I actually feel I’ve said what I wanted to say with certain lyrics, I also feel like I already discussed on the second verse of this song in one of my old posts can’t tell you if it was the one on Twenty One Pilots or one of my entry post where I would just write on my thoughts, but I feel I brought that up already and so I think I’ve said what I felt I needed to say in a sense to these lyrics, I didn’t know where this was going to go I was just hoping it would make sense as I was going along with it, I just wanted to talk a little on it!

I really love the lyrics to this song, it’s got so much depth to it and it’s like what you expect it to be, it doesn’t give you any idea of being something else then what you see it as, it’s literally just saying “this is me, this is what I’ve been feeling, here you go” this song is not afraid of showing it’s vulnerable and real authentic side here and that is what I love and appreciate about it, It’s one of my favorite songs by the duo and I just love everything about it, it gives you a lot to feel to where you just resonate with it…..if it’s your kind of thing anyway, everyone’s different!

That’s pretty much it, hope you all are enjoying yourselves today!

P.S.

There’s two different versions of this song, I just found that out recently, I’m sure most of you already know about it though, I just thought it was cool!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

2 Years Of Blogging (Part 2)

Hiya, hope you’re all doing well, I know it’s been a week now since my first part of this post, I have been meaning to write the second part to it, but I didn’t want to write it, until I knew I felt good enough to write it and so that’s why it’s taking me a bit to get to this post, I didn’t want to rush it by any means……now to be completely honest…….

Where this post is going I don’t know, i’m kinda just going to go with it, it might just be a theme here now that i’m thinking about it, but let’s just see where this post chooses to travel…..okay so I know I didn’t quite go into details of what 2 years of blogging has felt like or has been in the first part of it…….and to share some thoughts on that part…….i’m not really sure what to express on what it’s been like…….when I first started this blog, it was to have it be a place where I felt I could express myself, there was no theme at all to it, it was just a blog of expression, however I felt I tried to express

myself in the best way that could……for while I feel like I did that okay if that makes sense!? To be fair I still consider this to be my blog of expression, there have been times where I tried to come up with a theme…..and I always had trouble with that…..

You see although I can theme certain things out…..blogging was one of those things I found hard to give a theme to…….there were many times where i’d worry and go into overthink mode wondering if I was doing all of this right or not and i’d even stress myself out about it and sometimes it’ll get to a point where I would stop writing for a while and i’d go back and fourth with myself on whether I should continue with this blog, you know the natural worries when it comes to having a blog and that……

There were times where i’d notice i’d write about anything whether it made sense or not, just because I felt I needed to post all the time and I guess doing that probably didn’t help creativity wise……let’s just say there’s a lot i guess I can talk on……that’d make it a very long post ha!! One of the main things though was, I made this blog to have as an outlet to express when I didn’t feel I was able to in the way I wanted to,

but even then I still felt it hard to express at times……when it comes to personal things even though i’ll express on it to an extent……you’ll never see me go into full details to whatever i’m expressing about and i’m detailed person irl (in real life) by the way, but if it’s too personal, although I won’t say exactly what it is about, i’ll still express on what i’m feeling just differently……that said, there were moments where I stopped expressing because I didn’t want it to come across a certain way…….yet I knew I had things I wanted to share that was kind of personal that I wanted to get out

Again it’s actually quite a lot now that i’m writing about it, there might just be a part 3 here……if so it’ll be shorter in words, but these 2 years on this blog well they’ve been something and by something I mean a mixture of different emotions and thoughts and all that jazz, again i’ll shorten it in the next part, I didn’t think there’d be so much expression happening to describe blogging for two years, but here we are, i’m going to try and make this 3rd and last post part the overall view of having this blog shorter

There’s still some stuff I want to express on because I don’t feel this to be finished so, I hope you all enjoy this second part in someway and if you haven’t read the first part you can find it here: 2 Years Of Blogging (PartΒ 1)

To be continued and finished……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Slow Down….

When you find some pressure on the rise or you’re feeling a little irritated, take a moment to just slow down a little, feelings of pressure and stress can cause irrational ways of thinking and with that you won’t really be able to focus much on anything……so take a moment to firstly breathe when you feel the height of the pressure and guide yourself to slow down a bit.

I know it’s probably not the easiest thing to do once you’re already in a state of pressure, but it’ll help to re focus your thoughts to become a little more clearer, all while helping you to get back to a clam state of being…..now it may take some time before you’re fully back to feeling at ease again and that’s okay, it’s not about how quickly you can do it, but just taking the moment to become aware so that you can not only process things,

but also just be fully present towards what you’re doing…..slowing down doesn’t always necessarily have to mean doing things slow, it can mean to just….take your time and maybe take things in a little more, look around a bit and while you’re at it, breathe a little deeper than you might’ve before.

Try and appreciate the small things that you maybe missed before, find enjoyment it all that you do big or small, but most importantly have patience and trust that it’s all going to work out and be alright!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

No Need To Try So Hard…..

Ask yourself this question…..why do we try so hard!? Did you answer it!? If so what did you say!? When we try hard to get things right, most often we find that it turns out not so right all the time, why is that!? Well it’s exactly what it is, we’re trying too hard, when in reality, we don’t need to.

Now you might be saying to yourself, well how else are we meant to do it!? Try hard a little less possibly….!? Yes I know how exactly!? Well for one, we gotta relax and chill out, breathe and let things flow at a natural state,

When we try too hard, we create resistance, which also invites stress, causing us to feel overwhelmed by everything and let me tell you it’s not a great feeling you know……we’re only adding pressure to ourselves by doing that, if we constantly worry about things not being a certain way and trying to get it right all the time, we wouldn’t have things be as natural as they are would we!? It’s okay to push yourself harder then you might normally at times, but when you start trying so hard to the point where you’re stressing yourself out, that is the moment where you need to step back and take a couple of breathers otherwise, you’re going to drive yourself mad.

Although it’s great to want to push yourself to be better, we don’t always have to try so hard to do that, we can do that and do our best all at the same time, minus the stress and feelings of being overwhelmed, just because something may seem or feel not all that great, doesn’t mean that is isn’t all that great, sometimes we may need to just relook at things or tweak something in order for it to make sense and come out right…..

It’s good to go on what you feel, but sometimes what we may feel to be not so good in our heads, actually isn’t all that bad, just keep that in mind……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Blogmas….

So blogmas, where to start…..it is quite the keep up let’s just say!! This is my first time really trying this out, although I don’t feel i’m doing it properly, but writing a post everyday, I mean normally it’s hard to keep on top of blogging about things all the time, but once you sorta or really sign yourself up to make sure you blog and write something everyday up until a certain day……*sigh* goodness, it’s not as easy as it seems, i’ll tell you that,

Especially when you don’t always have interesting topic to talk about, a lot of the time I just come up with stuff and go based off feeling instead of really sitting down and planning out what my posts should be like and that’s probably why i’m finding Blogmas to be quite the task, right now it’s around 10pm and since going along with this monthly blog challenge,

I normally would start writing a little bit earlier, like in the afternoon around 12pm and for the past two days, both days being weekends, i’ve been wanting to simmer down and give it a bit and it’s not because I haven’t been wanting to write, I just haven’t been super inspired when it comes to topics, again I do most of my postings off of feeling and just choosing the first thing that comes into my mind, so if i’m not feeling the desire to write

I just won’t and that’s because I don’t want to just post for the heck of it and if I do happen to post a non interesting post, I also explain and say “hey I don’t really have anything interesting to talk about, but I hope this post is alright” I try not to write uninteresting posts, but sometimes you don’t always know what’s good and what’s not, I can’t really tell the difference if i’m being honest, but I still always try to make it somewhat interesting!!

That all being said, although Blogmas is a task and you find you have to keep at it, it’s not really been demanding, at least it hasn’t felt demanding, to me anyway, I think when it comes to challenges, in this case I get it can feel very stressful because you have to get something out at a certain time,

I think it helps to not stress with it, because if you do then you’ll feel on edge and start panicking about how you have to get a post out, but if you take your time with it and stay calm, you already know in your head, you have to write something, so it’ll automatically be natural for you to post.

It’s kinda like when you know you have to get up at a certain time and your body keeps that as a reminder and it makes sure you are up either before your alarm or when it rings, so it becomes a natural reaction, you don’t have to stress about it or worry or make yourself feel on edge,

You’ll just naturally know “okay better get writing” whether that’s early in the morning, mid afternoon or late in the evening as long as your post is ready before midnight or before you’re heading to bed then you’re good, back to blogmas though, it hasn’t been too stressful for me, even when i’m having days where i’m just everywhere let’s just say, even on those days, writing a post a day especially as a challenge, i’d say it’s been okay!!

Do I always have interesting things to write about!? NO, but for me, I find when even when I don’t have a good topic to share, having these chatting sessions and just talking or writing more like in this case, helps, it’s good to have posts where you just want to talk, we don’t always have to be interesting, we can just be human and talk about whatever it is thats in our heads or whatever you choose to write about, sometimes I want to talk about nothing, sometimes something and other times specifically!!

I think that’s okay and if you guys want to write about something or nothing, all that jazz, that’s okay too!! It’s why most of us created our blogs in the first place right!? We all just wanted a place to talk…….well that is all I have, I don’t know how long this post is, but I hope you enjoyed it for what it was, whatever that is exactly…….you all have a goodnight or good day wherever you are and i’ll send over a new post for you tomorrow!!

P.S. We’re at 11pm again…..

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa