Let’s Talk: Whatever This Post Is….

Good Evening, hope you all have been enjoying your Tuesday and are well! How’s this month treating you all so far!? For me it’s kind of odd, even though I know we’ve entered the month of July…..it still feels a little weird, not as weird, but still kind of weird! The amount of times I’ve mixed up my days with the start of July…..let’s just say if there was a jar here and I had to put say….5 dollars every time I thought it was Wednesday when it’s actually Tuesday or Monday when it’s actually Sunday, we’d have an almost, but still unfilled jar going, now I don’t do math so don’t ask me how much would actually be in the jar, if you do just know my brain might just have an error warning flashing…..okay not really, but sometimes math makes me feel like that!

Also I did try to do the math on it just now as I’m writing this, I had to use the calendar to help me a bit, because this past Saturday I did technically think that it was Sunday when it was actually Saturday…..don’t ask, I just woke up that day thinking it was Sunday, it wasn’t until I watched one of my favorite streamers to where I realized it was indeed Saturday (she doesn’t stream on Sundays) BUT considering that was the first mix up….we’d already have 5 dollars in a jar, “Technically speaking” now I might’ve also mixed up another day after that can’t really remember, sooo we could also have another 5 which would be 10 bucks already!

HOWEVER, seeing that I DID mix up Saturday with Sunday and remember it we’ll just keep it at 5 dollars, if I happen to mix up another day and remember it as well, that will add up to 10…..alright math session over, can’t believe I actually did that, little surprised….I have to say, my brain is good from all that math I just did lol! Don’t mind me I don’t really know where that came from, I kind of thought of when you have to put money in a jar every time someone swears or says something that isn’t allowed to be said or whatever people make up these days and for some reason, the mixing of the days popped up instead and that’s where the imaginative jar of money came from!!

You know this post was going to be about an episode of a show that I watched a few days ago, one of my favorite shows actually, but I’m thinking that I might change that, I just feel like I should have it be a whole new post, because this is turning into one of my random thought moments and I was not expecting that, I mean I definitely wasn’t expecting to be having math be one of the things I talked about here, I don’t even like math for the simple fact that it stresses me out, but that also could just be because I have a very hard time understanding it…..I always try to really get it, but my brain has a difficult time processing it, it’s like it’s hard for me to follow!

I don’t understand how numbers can be sooo…..complicated, it’s weird, now I’m probably going to go off track here for a moment…sorry about that, I’ll get back on track in second, but I remember I wrote a post a good while back where I discussed Numerology, although it has numbers involved…..I feel it to be more science then actual Math (Maths) probably just me here on that, that’s okay….but what I’m trying to get at is, I find the science of Numerology more interesting then Math…..now that could just be for the simple fact that I LOVE Science, it was one of my favorite subject back in my school days, still enjoy it, mainly Earth science and things like that, but Math/Maths the subject…..

I don’t know about that one, I’m always left so confused with it, but I try to somewhat get it, although I don’t think it likes me much either if I’m being honest, that aside I know that you can just grow to learn math and be better at it same with Science if you aren’t the greatest fan of it, as well as any other subject, but me and Maths don’t always see eye to eye, Numerology although yes math is a big part of it….I find it’s easier to decode because you can just look into certain numbers that you find pop out at you the most and discover a message with it, so it’s not that bad!!

Science…..it’s just fascinating to learn, well to me anyway, History well I say it depends, if it’s Geography or World Geography I find it interesting although I don’t always remember what I get from it, but it’s still cool nonetheless…..but History, HISTORY…..sometimes it can be a good thing to learn and other times you can fall into a deep rabbit hole with it where you think to yourself “probably shouldn’t have looked too far here” but at least in those moments you learn a little bit more as well, so in a way it’s both good and bad depending how you choose to see it!!

Did I say I was going to get back on track!? Sorry….I wasn’t expecting for it to turn out this way, it just sort of did…..hopefully it made some kind of sense and that it wasn’t TOO off track, if it was then…..hey maybe the post wanted it to be, it might’ve just been my brain here though, I can’t help what pops into my head at times! I hope you all have a goodnight, it’s getting late nearly 11:30pm close to midnight so I’m going to sign off now!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June Days…

Happy Friday, hope you all are having a good one! I hope the title is alright for this post, it kind of sounds like it can be a person’s name, I didn’t know what else to title it, it’s alright for now, I don’t mind it! Speaking of June, we’re coming to the last few days of it, how crazy is that! This month has been mixed for me, I’ve enjoyed it, but I’ve also felt a lot of things with it, this upcoming weekend, literally will be a very significant day for me, I’ve already spoken about it in a recent post, but this Sunday is going to be a year that I’ve not had my dog with me, probably not the biggest thing to a lot of people, but it’s big to me, I won’t discuss more than I’ve already spoken on it, but that’s one of the things that has me feeling a bit mixed with this month!

On the other hand, yesterday we got a very beautiful Supermoon a.k.a Strawberry Moon in the late evening, I made sure I was outside to check it out, I was out there from 7:30pm I’d say to pretty much midnight, although I could’ve gone outside at about 9pm-10pm, the moon took a little long to arrive, but just in case I saw it earlier I didn’t want to miss it, by the time I got inside it was 11:57pm, I didn’t realize I was going to be out there that long, but I was, when I saw it I couldn’t help, but take pictures, the plan was to only take a few and then sit with the moon…..that didn’t happen though, I did stand with it for a bit, before calling it a night, but it was really gorgeous, it was so bright, I was excited when I saw it, it was definitely worth staying out that late for, that was the good part of June!

There’s been a few good moments and some not great moments, but if I’m being honest, I kind of knew it’d be that way, there was a lot going on so I guess I’m not too surprised, although I like June….Summer, well it’s not my favorite, but it’s been okay, I still find it insane how we’re already close to July…..that’s crazy, this year seems to be going slightly faster, but it’s still in no rush which is good you know, still if feels like we just got into this month, but just like with all the other ones, they weren’t design to stay for too long, just for the time being, like I said though, we still have a few more days left to enjoy with June, so just like my normal’s say in Animal Crossing let’s make the most of the day or shall I say days!

I wanted to share some pictures that I took last night, but they aren’t coming up on my computer sooo, I’m going to have to sort that, I’ll show you guys another time! Sorry this wasn’t a long post, but before we sign off I do have something for you guys, I recorded another episode today, it’s a just chatting kind of episode, I had some thoughts I wanted to get out, I hope you guys like it!

A Penny For Your Thoughts….Ep. 25 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Friday! In this episode we go a little bit into the rabbit whole of Wonderland, sorta and talk about a very deep topic, Life Purposes…..are you holding your breath!? So am I, don't worry it's just a bit of chat on the whole topic of it, I had some thoughts brewing as well as a few emotions and so I thought I'd talk upon them! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Bursting Energy…..

Happy Friday! Hope you’re all doing well this fine afternoon…..I got a bit of too much energy right now as I’m writing this and I’m not quite sure how to handle it, I feel good today, I feel a lot better than these past 2 days, the only thing is, I just don’t know what to do with myself with this amount of energy, I don’t want to use it all in one go, I would like to pace it better, but I’m finding myself slowly draining it by each super thought that fills me with excitement or just by thinking too much about things….not in a bad way, but just by like I said getting myself excited with ideas and looking forward to things, for example I’ve got 2 podcast episodes that I’m eager to do that will be coming in the next week or 2, they’re both childhood related and I’m excited to put my thoughts on them after so long, you’ll know about them in due time don’t worry!

Now as for the other thing that always tends to leave me excited when thinking about it, is something that I find myself going back to, that I want to try, that I have yet to try my hand at, I always think about it, but I’ve not yet decided on fully giving it a go even when I do feel it! Recently I’ve been researching on it more and every time I do, I get both happy and nervous about it, but I don’t know I just feel it to be something that keeps kind of calling to me to check it out, I just get nervous!

Although, I always on occasion and if not that, then here and there looking more and more into it and I feel like it’s a good time to see about it and see if I can find myself getting used to a lot, again I just get nervous thinking about it because I don’t know if I’ll be good at it, but then I think well I won’t know unless I give it a try and it’s not something that I need to be serious about in a sense of I can just be me and do it how I feel it to naturally come out, it’s just a nervous feeling one reason being because it’ll require me to show my face again and not just my voice which is something that I haven’t quite done in the past few months and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t decided on it just yet.

I know I’m still becoming more comfortable with my voice and so combining the two is a bit nerve-racking for me, I just get very uncomfortable in front of a camera, even though I’ve done it plenty before, but regardless to if it’s been so long or not it still takes me time to adjust when in front of a camera, part of me doesn’t mind it, but there’s also a part of me that would rather not, yet I also find myself thinking about doing it again…..I’m a weird one okay, I’ve accepted it!

I’m also very expressive though, when I’m passionate about something I either talk with my hands or I move my whole body and this even happens when I’m writing, I can’t help it lol! I’m considering it very thoroughly though it’s always in the back of my mind, I feel like if it was something that I felt strongly to do where it kept coming to me…..I’d pick a random day that felt good to do it and then tell you about it after I’ve done it and that’s how you know I went for it by being very curious and then saying you know what “let’s try it” Prepare yourself because that just might happen!

P.S.

I uploaded another episode to my Podcast yesterday so I’m just updating this post to share it, it’s a bit of a weird episode somewhat, but I feel there may be charm with it, possibly lol, if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Let’s Talk: Months & Animal Crossing (Friday Mood) You can also listen to it on Spotify as well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Next Up….Still Alive By Alexz Johnson (Updated) With Added Thoughts

Good Afternoon and Happy Monday, hopefully it’s a good one for you all so far! I’m feeling pretty good today, I’m a lot older than I was yesterday…..still getting used to that though, but other than that, I’m feeling pretty alright, hope you all enjoyed your weekend by the way…..have I mentioned it’s now Tuesday, no!? *Writes in Tuesday* sorry about that, I tend to confuse the days….hope you’ve all been having a good day so far, my mood today is a bit less energetic compared to yesterday, but I still feel pretty okay I’d say!

So today’s topic of the day is a Now Playing as you can see up there in the title, at least that’s what it was supposed to be, I think I’m going to move this post to a different day so it matches with the podcast episode that I want to re record! I’ve been doing a lot of these lately, that being due to the fact that there’s a lot of artists that I like talking about…..originally I had this in mind as a Podcast episode where I’d go over the track list and give my best thoughts about it and I’ve done that…..only it turned into an hour long episode and I didn’t feel like anyone would want to listen to me talk for an hour, plus I wasn’t able to really share it on the day of the anniversary like I wanted…..there’s some reasons there, but I’m not going to get into that, personal stuff!

So I went ahead and recorded it again to see if I’d be able to have it be less of a long episode which I did manage…..but I kinda want to do it over again because I want to get it right, not saying the first two ones weren’t good I just feel like I could do better with it so because I missed both the anniversary upload I wanted originally to do and missed my first Monday episode upload….I’m going to try my hand at it again tomorrow and possibly have it scheduled for either Friday or Saturday! Friday seeing as though she released the album on a Friday last year on the 8th of May, only instead of the 8th it’ll be the 14th…..and Saturday being because she had a listening party for the album, buut it was on the 15th of April….that I didn’t know,

I was there for the listening party, but I forgot that she did it in April…..however because it’s the 15th this Saturday and this past Saturday was the 8th, the day the album was released….I’m probably going to lean more toward Saturday in posting it, even though it’s already a year since the albums release, but it’ll be a year and a 1 week so I feel like it’ll still counts, plus 5 is my lucky number, I like to think of it to be lucky anyway, so the 15th is looking like the choice and winner here! I also kinda had something I was going to try my hand at on Friday, even though technically the topic I have in mind was an April thing that I had no clue about until April was pretty much over…..

but the day being the 14th still in a way makes it count and that’s the story I’m sticking with alright, I’m still thinking on that one though, but I might just do it, so stay tune for all of that! That’s pretty much all I got for this post, keep a look out for my album thoughts on Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album coming to you guys this weekend and whatever I have for you guys this Friday!

P.S.

Don’t know why I’m just thinking about this now, but I probably should do these type updates more often for my podcast, might be useful….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Random Days Of Productiveness (Extra Boost)

So it’s Friday which technically means the weekend has arrived and who doesn’t love that!? I don’t know how you guys are getting on with your Friday, but for me….. I don’t really know where to go really, I just feel like I want to do a lot of things, but I don’t know what those things are exactly, you know what I mean!? It’s like you feel your energy is a bit like woosh,

but you have no idea why, all you know is that your mind is on go, so like you feel more productive in a way than you might on most days, I don’t know if it’s like this for some of you, but I always feel like I just have random days where i’ll get up feeling inspired to be productive out of nowhere, now i’m not saying that’s a bad thing in fact, it’s probably a very good thing, because it’s like my brain finally has something in mind

That it wants to do and so it’ll kind of give me some ideas throughout the morning to see how we want to go about things I guess you can say and this always happens, out of all the days, there’s always that one random day throughout a random week to where i’m just in this mode of extra productive, like I don’t even play New Horizons that’s how much of a mode I end up being in, I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal and it’s probably considered a good thing as well which yes……i’ll admit that!!

I just find it to be wild though how it’ll just randomly happen, it’s really weird, but I guess I shouldn’t go questioning it, those days are probably the best kind of days for me in a sense because it’s making me want to push forward than on normal days, sometimes though, when in that mode, I still have some trouble deciding on where exactly I want my focus to be on

and so it’ll leave me stressing a bit on it, but I always try and take it without having it go away from me if that makes sense!? There are days where I probably don’t use those days as well as I should, but I still try my best with it, even if I don’t always grab it right away, it’s interesting though, but good!!

Have you guys ever had those kind of days!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Saturday Evening…..Part 2 (Oct 14, 2019)

Last time on the part one side of my Saturday evening post, I talked about something I didn’t like…..being mocked, let take a read back on that shall we!?

Recap: I knew they were joking and I know that I probably shouldn’t have taken it the way I did, which I will admit, gotta gain a little bit more of a backbone I suppose, but still if you’re just meeting someone for the first time, mockery is probably not a good impression starter, because you don’t know how someone will take it, had I known the guy for a bit of time and he did that…..it’d probably be different, but I had just met him and after that happened, yeah I made sure to keep my distance from him…..

but I know it was no harm done, i’m just not a fan of mockery, unless i’m really close to you and I know i’m able to throw it back at you, playfully of course, then i’m i’m fine with it, but if i’m just meeting you for the first time and you’re just doing that off the bat, to be funny……yeah I don’t know how i’m going to feel about you too much.

And we’re back, I know that was probably lame by the way, I wanted to try something different as an opener though, was it a sink or swim!? I have no idea, let me know your thoughts on it, you might actually prefer to forget it and hey that’s okay, I might actually look back at this later in time and think “Oh gosh, that’s bad, why did I think that was good!?” I might also laugh, because I tend to laugh at most of my lame attempt at things, well things I thought would work, but probably didn’t…..carrying on now (you’re welcome) finishing the rest of my Saturday evening and night post,

Yeah the bonding, connection experiment thing, didn’t work all that well, I mean there was someone I talked to, which was nice, the chats that we had, they were alright, I can’t say they weren’t, because we did talk for quite a while, now i won’t say we bonded, bonded, at least not in the way that I would normally connect with someone, but they were pretty cool to talk to.

Overall though, I just didn’t feel like I fit in with them all that much, I felt like I was just there, tagging along and nothing else, but that…..I did debate on going home straight after the movie was finished, but I thought let me try a little bit and see what else can happen, was it worth the stay!?

Meh….it was okay, I mean I chatted with someone, but if i’m being honest, I was kinda already done being there after a while, I just don’t think that was my scene or crowd, I felt like I stuck out so much being there with everyone, everyone just pretty much did their own thing, which is fine….

It just sucks when you’re within a group and feel like you’re not suppose to be there……..but it is what it is…..I did at one point get a little anxious, started to get a little green in the gills (queasy) I just wanted to say green in the gills because I thought it was cool, yeah haha. Moving on, I could’ve really used some mint/green tea on Saturday, but I had water with me so that kinda helped keep my stomach leveled.

by the way I wasn’t like that the whole time, it was just after everyone got together again when the movie was finished, my friend likes doing group photo’s after a big movie and when there’s a lot of people, luckily though, no group photo’s we’re taken, which was great because to be honest I wouldn’t had wanted to be in the photo and I know that sounds wrong to say, but I would’ve felt awkward had we took a group photo that night.

After everything was over, I came home and had a tiny, mini breakdown to myself, I couldn’t tell you why exactly, but yeah it kinda just happened, I ended up calling a good friend of mine, one of my best friends that I hadn’t spoken to in a while and yeah we had a pretty good chat, it was nice!!

We listened to some music, watched some videos, laughed it was good, we don’t always speak, but when we do it’s always good, we ended up having a 3 hour conversation on the phone, we started at 10pm and finished around 2….in the morning, yeah I know, crazy, that’s the latest i’ve ever slept in a very long while…….but again it was good talking to her.

Saturday was something, it wasn’t a bad time, but it wasn’t the best either, I got to sorta hang out with my old friend even though I barely saw him at the same time, only in the beginning, he’s more outgoing, with me it depends who i’m around, if I feel like i’m going to get along with you pretty well, I can be pretty outgoing, but if it ends up being how it was Saturday, there’s a strong chance, that i’m going to feel pretty awkward and might not talk all that much, but it was quite the experience I guess you can say……

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Saturday Evening…. Part 1 (Oct 13, 2019)

So this weekend was something, Saturday probably more something then yesterday sorta, it’s just been a pretty weird weekend all together, shall I tell you about it!? Hopefully you said yes because i’m going to anyway, well i’ll tell you about Saturday at least….Sunday…..let’s just talk Saturday okay!!

Alright, so I went to watch a movie with an old friend on Saturday evening, plus a group of other people that I didn’t really know, but it was okay……for the most part, before I even got to the movies, I started to get really nervous, but I did my best to try and relax and tell myself it’ll be fine and everything. One thing I can tell you is I liked the movie, we went and watched Joker in case some of you are wondering, if I had to say anything about the movie, i’d probably wouldn’t know what to say actually…….

I don’t really know how to put that movie into words, but at the same time I don’t really know how to review movies in general so yeah…..however, I did feel a lot watching it, it was interesting, it had a lot of stuff to it, it was also pretty mad in a sorta gruesome way, don’t worry, I won’t spoil it, not that I could, you watch it if you want, I enjoyed it for what it was though.

but let’s move on from the movie and let’s talk the group we were watching the movie with…..i’ll say it in less words than I normally would and as nice as possible……I FELT SO OUT OF PLACE BEING THERE!!…..like extremely out of place, seriously i’m not kidding, I felt like I walked into the wrong room or something, I kept expecting something different to happen, but nothing would, I mean things happened just not in the way I liked…..

It was just wrong like trying to put a square block into a rectangle wrong, like you know when kids have those shape things to put the right shapes where they belong and most of them try and see where the other shapes can go before putting them in the right place!? Yeah it was something like that or when you put a land turtle in water knowing it’s suppose to be on land…..you get the point i’m sure, but yeah it was quite the evening/night.

I mean don’t get me wrong it was fine being with everyone and watching the movie, but goodness were the vibes just not there, as much as I probably shouldn’t say this, sitting in the movie theater with all of them, actually felt like I was sitting in the movie theater for the very first time by myself, everything just seemed and felt off, even the movie portion of it.

It was like I was placed there randomly, I kept hoping to get some kind of familiarity of some sort, but it wasn’t quite working all that well, even though I knew one person, I still felt out of place……it’s crazy, when you’re in a crowd and you see that even the person that you know is unfamiliar, you start to really think…..what’s even crazier though is a stranger can seem more familiar then someone that you actually know……which is insane!!

I say that because there was someone that I saw that seemed and looked familiar to me, yet I don’t ever recall seeing her before, but I had this feeling as though I knew her from somewhere, but I didn’t as well…..that was just a little random thing that happened, but anyway let’s continue on…..

In the beginning when I arrived at the cinema theater, there was a moment that I didn’t quite enjoy all that much, but before we get there, i’ll tell you real quick on the first meeting when I first met two of the group members, so I tried connecting by talking about anime shows, now i’m going to be straight with you, when it comes to anime, i’m not really a super fan,

Like i’m not apart of the fandom is what I mean, but i’ve watch a few shows here and there, ones that I have found interesting, long story short though, I tried to converse, start a conversation and oooh goodness did that go well *note the sarcasm i’m using here*

Okay so the person asked me how far I got into an episode one of the anime shows I was going on about and I went to explain the last episode I saw, because I didn’t know the name of the episode and yeah it just sounded like I didn’t know what I was talking about……it was so awkward……I knew what I was saying and trying to explain, but yeah the person quickly went back to reading the book they were reading and I went to say how i’m not the best at explain and they were like “I know what you’re trying to say” they most likely didn’t, but I just left it alone and wondered off somewhere……

So that happened for one……the next part is the one that I didn’t quite like very much, the same person I tried to converse with, about two anime shows, ended up doing something that I didn’t find funny and my only friend, the only person I knew in that group he joined in beautifully, but don’t worry I got him back later for it, he didn’t know, but I made sure to mess with him a bit at the moment he least expected it, it was fun.

No, but in all seriousness I knew they were joking and I know that I probably shouldn’t have taken it the way I did which I will admit, gotta gain a little bit more of a backbone I suppose, but still if you’re just meeting someone for the first time, mockery is probably not a good impression starter, because you don’t know how someone will take it, had I known the guy for a bit of time and he did that…..it’d probably be different,

but I had just met him and after that happened, yeah I made sure to keep my distance from him, I could’ve said something, but I didn’t, because I was too busy trying to keep myself calm and keep from making a bigger fool of myself…..emotionally, but I know it was no harm done, i’m just not a fan of mockery, unless i’m really close to you and I know i’m able to throw it back at you, playfully of course, then i’m fine with it, but if i’m just meeting you for the first time and you’re just doing that off the bat, to try and be funny,

Yeah I don’t know how i’m going to feel about you too much….but anyway that was just a moment during the evening I could’ve done without, but it’s fine……okay so I decide to make this a two parter post, the second part will most likely be shorter, i’m only making this a two parter because this ones pretty long already so with that, I shall see you all in the next post!!

To be continued….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa