Soooo I Did Something…..

After giving it a good amount of thought, I finally decided to go forth with something I had in mind for a while, I decided to start fresh and make a whole new channel, youtube channel, again it took a good amount of thought, I wasn’t completely sure on it when trying to decide, before deciding I thought about adding to the one I already had, but I felt that it would just be everywhere and I just felt the need to start something completely new away from that one, I still have it, I have all the ones i’ve made…..yeah I have 4 now……the last one was suppose to be the last one,

but yeah that changed……I really wanted to have something different with this one, which is why I went on and created a new one, kinda based around the blog actually, well it has the same name as the blog, I wanted to express in another way, so whenever i’m not really writing much, i’m sharing some stuff to be important in the moment and sometimes when you have a lot you feel like saying, it’s kinda hard to write it all, I mean you think a post isn’t all that long, until you find yourself reading it back and realize “oh well that’s quite a lot of words happening there!!”

No, but I thought for days where i’m not in much of a writing mode, I could share all that I want in a short video and get it out a bit more better when i’m not quite sure how in writing and vice versa. Now I only have two videos at the moment, I tried to share it on here, but it wasn’t quite working properly to where you could see them, but I did share the new channel, you’ll find it with the socials, twitter ect….feel free to check it out whenever

I hope you enjoy them in someway, but anyway that is all I wanted to share with you guys, just a quick post, I hope you all had a good day and your weekends been well and all and I hope your nights been well too!!

New Channel: Life As A Daydreamer

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

On To A New Decade…..

So we have officially entered the year 2020 and we’re already on the 3rd day of the month of January, i’d say crazy, but I mean we all know that days go by pretty quickly, it’s only where we hit a week or two where we can then say crazy!! Happy New Year by the way, you’d think i’d say that first, but nope not all all, I wouldn’t have forgotten it though…..maybe.

Anyway I don’t know about you guys, but it’s still pretty surreal to me that we are within a new decade, it still weird because I still expect it to be 2019, but I know we are no longer around that area of the teen’s and that’s odd, by the way has anyone else written down 2019 by accident even though it’s 2020 now, because I did almost, I still sometimes go to write it,

but then realize “oh yeah 2019 is over, it’s 2020 now” I think some of us still need time to let it sink in and if not everyone then just me…..I thought about writing the day of new years, but I wanted to give it a bit of time before I actually wrote my thoughts out on how it feels and all that jazz, it feels different, but also not, but also yes….does that make sense!? Let’s hope so.

Now most people will tell you that they probably have this whole year planned out, I on the other hand can’t tell you that, I mean who knows what this year has in store, a lot of unexpected things could happened in a way that is well…..unexpected, but i’m keeping my hopes that all those unexpected things that are to come with this year will be good and only good, do I know what those unexpected things are!? No I do not….

but you can only wish for the best and trust that everything will align in the way it’s meant to come together, you thought I was going to say align again right!? i’m not that predicable…..most of the time haha…..no, but seriously stressing about what’s going to happen and how it’s going to happen or when, will only leave you to stress more which will leave you to become frustrated and even though we may feel frustrated, getting worked up because we’re frustrated and don’t know how everything will go

Isn’t worth the stress, you have to trust and let it go for the moment, once you do that, you’ll soon find that everything falls where it’s meant to, but only if you let it, this is something i’m having to remind myself about and that I try to keep in mind, it’s hard, it’s not easy, but you find when you let things be and not add so much focus to it, it does work out,

So i’m not sure how this year will turn out, I mean it’s just started you know……but whatever happens and comes about, I have to trust that it’s going to be good and that things will work out and be A Okay!!

SO, how’s all of your 2020’s going so far!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let's Talk: The Holidays

Merry Christmas everyone and for those who don’t celebrate Christmas, happy holidays!! I hope you all had a nice and chilled out day and or overall good day and I hope you were able to enjoy yourself, I didn’t really do too much for Christmas, I saw some of my cousins later in the evening for a bit,

Originally we were meant to just drop something off, but we ended up spending some time with them, which was nice, I don’t normally see them all that much so it was different, but pretty nice too, although it didn’t really feel like a holiday, it just felt like a regular old day, except everyone was saying Merry Christmas and you had to go “oh yeah, Merry Christmas”

It’s weird, but it was alright, had a tea party with my little cousin a few times, yes you read that right, a few times, she told me to put it away and then wanted me to take them out again so that was something, I was trying to get her to play something else, she had a lot nice toys, I asked her if she wanted to play with them and she said no, so we continued to play tea party, we almost made some bracelets until we had to go, but it was fun!!

She also got mad at me for something, not sure about what exactly, but that happened, after a while though it was fine, I tell you kids are weird and very confusing sometimes, but you gotta love them right!?

After that, not much else happened really, today just felt like a regular day, nothing too fancy, just yeah, a Wednesday that was also a holiday, it wasn’t all bad though, not at all bad……now all that’s left to do is get ready for the New Year…..how do I feel you might ask!? I couldn’t tell you, i’m just going to try and make the most of these few days where 2019 is still a thing…….

Okay well that’s everything I have I guess, I could write more, but i’m not sure where else I should go with this post, so i’m just going to leave it here and just do my best to not worry or freak out about everything i’m trying not to freak out about, don’t ask okay, my brains doing gymnastics and i’m trying very hard not to get anxious…….

With that, I hope you all enjoy the rest of your night and or day depending on where you are and I hope you’re all enjoying your holidays, also let me know how you spent your Christmas or holidays, i’d love to hear about it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let's Talk…..

I think i’m going to keep this post short and sweet, well i’m not sure whether it’ll actually be short, but I know it won’t be super long either, I don’t know what it is, but i’m not really all that sure on today and by that I mean, that really actually, I don’t know if that makes sense….

It’s just one of those i’m not really sure how to feel kind of days, i’ve been more in thought mode than speaking mode most of the day and to tell you what i’m thinking about, well lets just say, okay well you know when you’re looking straight out towards the ocean and the waves are going in and out onto the sand, yeah that’s how my head has been, just in and out,

You’d think that be a good thing and quite calming if you’re thinking about waves, well it’s not all bad, it’s just moments when you find yourself deeply thinking where you’re supposed to be careful and you tell yourself that, but you can’t seem to keep away from the whole ocean, so to prevent a full on emotional wave, you have to snap yourself out from going that deep and i’ve been having to do that a few times today……today has been a bit weird,

but I think if you just take a bit of time and be aware of ones feelings instead of trying to ignore it it’ll keep you from having to over feel it, you know what I mean!? All i’m going to say is, if you guys are having one of those days as well don’t be afraid to accept that you’re feeling weird or sad and just not really sure on how to feel, it’s okay to allow yourself to be aware of those feelings, ignoring them will only heighten them to become louder.

You don’t have to like it and you don’t have to want to share a space with it, but it’s important to be aware of them, if you feel emotions coming along, just them out, don’t keep them buried beneath, if you need some time, take it, don’t feel like you can’t, just be aware and accept what you’re feeling. In the moment it’s hard, but eventually it’ll pass and be okay, maybe not fully, but a least you’ll feel somewhat better knowing you’ve given yourself the time and allowance to just feel what you’re feeling.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Is It Just Me Or Is The Day A Little Weird!?……

Okay so right now it’s around 11pm close to 11:30, but still around 11….I don’t know if it’s just me, but today has been and felt a little weird. Although it’s late, it doesn’t feel late and I know that today’s the Winter Solstice and that the night is longer today then it is on regular days, the day was only around for, but a few hours……it’s just a really weird day!! Maybe it has to do with Winter Solstice happening today, by the way I let everyone know that it was the Winter Solstice well, most of everybody anyway!!

I almost and that’s a big almost, forgot to post, it still feels early to me, I noticed it got to 11 and I was like *Pause video* got to write a post, I knew I had to as well, but today is just sorta off balance, for example, I literally had some pretty good amount of energy in me a moment ago, but now that i’ve realized how late it actually is, i’m starting to unwind with the night, it’s really odd how a day can feel like one thing, but you know it’s not.

It’s amazing how the body and mind react it sees “oh so it’s not 8pm, it’s actually close to midnight okay….ahhh well, looks like you’re tired now” we may think our body and minds don’t pay attention, but it does, oh it sure does, it’s like a lite switch, well, okay maybe not, but i’m sure you guys know what i’m talking about or at least know what i’m trying to say….hopefully!!

I think that’s all I got, I didn’t really have much prepared as a post today, I knew I was going to write something, but did I have a plan!? No, of course not, I just improvised and went for what I was feeling, it’s a short post, but I hope you still found it interesting, anyway, you all enjoy your night and i’ll see you all with a new post tomorrow.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

What's The Best Way To Tell A Story!?…….

You can tell a story in many different ways, from artwork, pictures, music, anything really, but what’s the best way to tell a story!? This is a question that I literally just came up with and hope to have it be a post for today, my favorite way that I feel you can really tell a story is from music.

You tell a story from the lyrics of the music you’re listening to, most people prefer the instrumentals or beats behind it, but the real gem for me comes from the way the lyrics are written, now i’m not saying all music have great lyrics, there are some songs that don’t really correlate the best with the way the music sounds, but it doesn’t mean there’s no story behind it,

It just sometimes can get lost in the way it’s being delivered, but I guess everyone has their own way of interpreting so we can’t really say much, you can only go with the genre and style of music that feels and is best to you!! If you didn’t already know, I love a great written song, hopefully that line makes sense……apart from a great writing style, i’d be lying if I said that I didn’t also appreciate the way the music gets arrange instrumentally.

Besides having a song that speaks to you or pulls you in with the lyrics, I love it when i’m hearing a song and the music, you know the way the instrumental moments wraps the song up nicely, welcoming it with open arms and just letting it be what it is, but also getting it’s moment to be what it is as well, it’s just wonderful!!

You’re getting to feel the whole essence, the whole journey that the songs goes on and with each instrument or beat if you’re more on that pitch or field……you really start to admire what the song is and what it’s about and knowing all of that, you’ll start to fall in line and space out with it, you can’t go wrong with that kind of combination you know!?

We all have songs though where we listen to it specifically for the lyrics and some just because we love the way it sounds instrumentally, but when you find that combination where both go hand in hand and you feel it from both sides, you know you’re listening to something good!!

That is my take on what I feel to be the best form of storytelling, but again there’s many ways to tell a story, another form that I like is art!! Drawing painting things like that, with art you get to see things in a whole different perspective that isn’t music related…..when you look at a picture, be it portrait or landscape, you are challenged to interpret what it is you see, what you think the painting or picture is trying to say and if you’re able to,

You then have to determine what the feeling of it is and compare it to your own, it can be the same or it might be something completely different. Art gives you the chance to create and interpret how you want to and it let’s you feel what you want without having to give reason or explanation, that’s why I like doodling, I get to make things in an abstract way without letting you know how i’m truly feeling, sometimes we don’t want to talk,

So we talk by making something if we’re able to, you can be in the worst mood and make something, but people won’t know you were in a horrible mood unless you go and tell them, but you don’t have to and that is the beauty of art making, you can create however you please and leave it all up to be interpreted and guessed upon without having to say a word.

So what in your opinion is the best way to tell a story!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Little Curious…..

You ever just wonder how things are going!? How someones doing or why the night sky looks a little better than when it’s daylight!? Do you ever just stare at the moon wondering if someone is staring at it the same moment you are!? Okay i’ll be real this is one of those posts, the ones I write from time to time, I tried to think of other things to write about, but I got nothing else to write about and this feeling has been showing up for a good few days now, originally I wrote something for it, but I didn’t post it.

I don’t know if I should combine the two or if it should just be separate, maybe it should be it’s own post, it was kinda awkward, but I guess it’s because I made it sound awkward, I mean it was just one of those “just checking in again” kinda of post, I thought it was best not posting it, so I didn’t, but it’s resurfaced and it’s the only thing that seems natural to write right now…..it’s the only thing I don’t have to think so hard on, not a lot anyway.

I do still think, it’s kinda like a hobby, although it can get pretty intense sometimes if you let it overwork you, I try to minimize that from happening, but i’m kinda in the mode of curiosity at the moment, i’m just not sure if it’s a bad thing or a good thing!? It doesn’t feel bad, but I don’t know if it’s something that’s okay to do, that being said i’m still curious.

Before I wrote this, I had to write down my curiosity in a different way, I think I got out all that I wanted to say in it, I wasn’t sure whether to write it out as a post so I decided to write it out as a personal thing instead, maybe i’ll share it one day who knows!?………going back to being curious though,

I just can’t help to always be curious, sometimes you just wonder about a lot of things and those things, well they aren’t things, but people, sometimes you just want to know how they’re doing and if they’re okay, you know things like that and sometimes you want to know if they wonder those things about you too!?

Is that selfish!? Is it wrong!? I don’t know, I guess maybe you have to stay a little curious for a while and just hope that they are and do, now i’m wondering if it’s even okay to write this and also share, I don’t really know these days, I might end up just posting this one anyway, as for the other one I originally thought about sharing, i’ll just keep that one as a draft for now.

What are some things you’re curious about!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa