Let’s Chat: How Are You!?

I’m finding myself going back and forth through two posts that i’ve pre written, but still yet to post, it’s like I don’t really know what to keep my focus on other than Animal Crossing New Horizons, which by the way (side tracking here for a brief moment) is a REALLY, amazing game!!

Well it’s pretty great anyway, the amazing part might just be me hyping it up just a little bit…..but New Horizons aside……I don’t know what or where to keep my mind on……I don’t know if any of you are having that kind of day as well or have been having those kind of days!?

Speaking of how are you all doing!? How have you been dealing and getting through all that’s been happening!? I know a lot of people are probably finding it a somewhat difficult or maybe a whole lot difficult, maybe some of you are taking it somewhat okay than most people might…..

I know everyone has different ways of dealing with things, I don’t know how a lot of you are getting through this, but hopefully you’re all doing alright and are keeping safe and well, I know it’s not been the most best of days of late, but hopefully you’ve all had something to look forward to, maybe it’s a new video game, book, music, organizing something!? You’d be surprise on what can be a big help to kick up a low kind of mood!!

This isn’t a long post as you can see…..i’m just curious and genuinely want to know how you guys have been getting through all of this and if there’s anything right now that has been not only keeping you busy, occupied and productive, but also just giving you something to look forward to and keeping your minds to not have you think about what’s going on 24/7!?

All The Love

Lexa

Has Communication Really Become So Hard These Days!?

I tell you some people sure know how to communicate……I say that sarcastically by that way, in case that was missed!! Now i’m going to try and keep things on a positive outlook to this topic, because it just seems really easy to go on a negative rant here and i’m not going to lie to you guys, buuut, it’s kinda what i’m feeling here, however i’m going to do my best to keep it the rant from overpowering here…..Let’s just talk calmly about this!!

Before anything though……..i’m going to take a small break so I can eat, i’m kinda hungry so…..be right back (Lunch Break……) Back….sorry that took a while, you know I forgot just how good goldfish snacks are, if you’re not careful you’ll end up eating the whole bag, I had to put it away from me that’s how addictive they are, still good though!!

Anyway on to the topic of communications……now we all know that communications is a way of expression, when we communicate we tell about the things that we feel as well as what we care about, but it seems these days communication is a little hard to reach at time, scratch that it’s not the communication that’s hard, but the listening that seems to be the issue at times, why is that!? When did listening become so hard to do!?

Now let’s get this straight alright, sometimes we aren’t all great listeners and when we know we should be, we still sometimes have a hard time taking things in the way we should……it’s a weird thing, but even when listening and communicating is a hard thing, sometimes we need to know when to really listen, if there’s something that needs expressing we have to learn how to shut our mouths and open our ears, that’s how we show our support and love to people and if happens that someone we may just be encountering for the first time needs to express something,

That’s how we show care and compassion as human beings, sometimes we all have a little too much we’re trying to handle, some of those things being mentally or emotionally and so forth and because we do, we just need a little support, we may not ask about it, but sometimes you can just feel it or see even, we don’t always have to show support in a huge way, sometimes a simple ear to lend can be that big support that someone needs,

Having a chat can even be a big thing for some, I don’t think we look at listening and communicating as an important thing these days, some people would rather sit silently, not saying that’s a bad thing, because it’s not, it’s just sometimes silence can seem like an enemy and can be a little loud for our psyche to deal with especially when thoughts start being added the mix.

So just because silents can be a good thing for us, doesn’t mean we always want to sit with it for a long period of time…..sometimes we need distracts that help get us out of our heads and a good distraction is communicating in what ways!? Well that depends on what’s needed,

Sometimes it’s talking about what we’re feeling, other ways it’s talking randomly and seeing how weird the conversation can get, but the take away to those conversations is also listening, opening our ears and turning up the volume a little so we’re hearing everyone word possible,

That’s how we understand each other better and sometimes by doing that we help someone feel a little better and vice versa!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Conversation With An Old Friend, It’s Been A While….

It’s around 10:30pm and my minds blank on what to write, I also need to get up really early in the morning, I don’t think I have anything at all today to share with you guys, I was trying to think of something before, but nothing really came to me…..I then tried to listen to some space ambience music to see if that would work to get some kinda of an idea or something, nada…..

I think it’s another blank day, I could tell you about a dream I had last night to make this post a little interesting and readable, it wasn’t anything too weird, in my dream though, I spoke to one of my friends, who by the way is no longer around…..but in the dream he randomly called me and I had a conversation with him and I could hear his voice too, it was the most odd thing ever, i’m not really sure if we were talking about anything important,

Maybe we did, maybe not……it felt more like a catch up conversation than something serious, it was pretty random, to me it just felt like a casual conversation where you just talk about anything, we always used to have weird conversations when we spoke anyway, in the dream we also called another friend of mine, but yeah, I really don’t know if there was anything important to it, maybe it was just that, a catch up conversation kind of dream and also him wanting to say hi and be weird and check up on me.

I don’t really know, when I woke up this morning, I was confused to why I had the dream, I haven’t had my friend visit me in a dream for some time now, but it was nice hearing from him and talking to him, even though I have no idea what we were actually talking about……

I guess if it was important he’d be sure to let me know, but I think it was just him wanting to stop by and chat for a bit, if that was you Ang….thank you for coming by in a different way too, i’m getting the feeling you were saying “yep that was me, in the dream, just saying hi, just because I felt like it” those might not be the exact words you’d use, but it would be along the lines, which I am counting because I can and just did!!

Sorry I just needed to send that out real quick, but yeah I think that’s all I have for now, i’m going to call it a night and get ready to hit the hay, I know what you’re thinking…..who says that….anymore!? i’m going now…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

If Words Were Bullets, We’d All Be Wounded Or Worst…..

Not all words are bullets, but majority can be……if we’re not careful, we learn that we can do a whole lot of damage with them. Sometimes we don’t really think about the way we say things and if we do, sometimes they can still come out in a way where we don’t realize just how much it can effect a person…..a lot of what we say sometimes we say it out of spite, why!?

Because we’re angry and upset, but just because we’re upset, it doesn’t mean we should throw knives at a person, however most people still do, with words you can say anything, but our words and how we say them will determine what the outcome turns out to be. If we say something in an attempt to hurt someone, well that doesn’t make us good people does it!?

We’re just doing it out of spitefulness and that’s not how things should be, we should learn how to say something without it coming across negatively, however sometimes we end up in a gray area, because we could use our words and use it with kindness or in a way that isn’t hurtful, but it may still end up still coming off that way, a lot of the time we don’t know how to say things without it coming off a certain way, some of us say things based off how we feel and also because we don’t know another way to say it.

We don’t think about the effects of it, until after everything is said and done, we say what we say within the moment and then later think about it, for some it can be the other way around, where they think first and say later and I gotta say when it comes to those people, we could learn a thing or two, but it’s not always like that, some people would rather it be said then and there and that’s fine, but at the same time, if we’re not careful in the way we say things, it’ll turn sour real quick and then we’ll find a very big mess at our hands, with words we don’t think they do much, but they do.

We can always go back and rethink how everything played out and then come back and re discuss it to clear out any miscommunication that might’ve been taking in, at the start of a conversation, doing that actually works, because if one party felt a certain way, we’d be able to sort it out to make sure that everything is set right and make things better, vice versa.

That being said though, sometimes you’ll find yourself in the middle of a war zone trying your hardest to dodge any minefields that are hidden beneath, if you’re lucky, sometimes you make it out alive, other times you have no choice, but to stand your ground and go to war……

However you don’t always have to, you can always choose when to pick your battles, it’s not always easy though when it comes to choosing them, sometimes we don’t know when the best time and when it’s not, I guess you kinda just gotta look out for it or just go in either way, but it doesn’t mean we have or need to charge through with every blow or explosion we hear.

When it comes to choosing, we either look out for it, charge through and if it’s a battle we don’t have to particularly take part in, if it came to a point where we have to step in and go to war (hoping it doesn’t over escalate) we should at least be mindful in what we say, but most importantly, we should always be careful when heading into the battlefield, the mission is to defuse not infuse…..once that’s mastered, we will all know how to heal each other.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Penciled Version
Pen Version

Side Note: I thought i’d add one of my drawings to this post, why well I wanted to have some kind of cover for this post, last time I shared one of my doodles, I said that I would add the penciled part to it as well as pen, I have not decided on a color for it yet, so that’s why you’re seeing it like this, if you guys have any suggestions to what colors I should use, feel free to share it would really be helpful and i’d appreciate it as well, thank you!! ^_^

From Me To You…..I Hope You Read This….

I’m writing a message right now to you, but i’m not sure whether to send it or not, i’m afraid if I send it, you’re going to ignore it and not bother looking at it and i’ll just feel like i’m talking to myself…….

I know you’re not really wanting to speak and you’re figuring everything out, although I feel you might’ve already figured what you wanted to out. I see and hear your messages loud and clear believe it or not, if only you knew how hard I try to keep myself together everyday, it’s a challenge, I don’t always win at it, but I manage to keep it at a fine level for a good amount of time……it sucks that it’s this way and I just wanted to let you know that the last message I sent wasn’t to be taken in a way that was final,

I was just giving you the space you wanted and I don’t know if that was a good thing or if it was the worst idea possible, I know you’re doing fine, I can see it. I feel like the worst person ever and that’s the honest truth, I wasn’t trying to push you away, even though you said many times that the situation would do that and although you say it’s not me, I feel like you sorta might think it is a little, I don’t know……..

I know i’ve not given back what you gave me enough and I know you’re probably hurt about it, because it’s pretty much the same situation again that you wanted to avoid…….I tried to have you avoid that, but I guess I failed at doing so, I shouldn’t, but I take great pride at blaming myself for all of this happening and I don’t expect, nor do I want you to feel bad, I’m just trying to tell you how I feel and how I have been feeling for a long time,

I wanted to talk to you about it, but I never could say that to you, because you will always just tell me that it’s not my fault and that you know I wouldn’t do that, but it doesn’t change the fact that in a way, I will always feel as though you’ll think of it as it happened again and that’s why you went away from me……I can’t help, but apologize for it, I don’t know where we’re standing right now, but I feel as though I might already know.

I always saw you as my best friend as well, but I don’t even know if you still want to be that, I feel you’re mad at me and I hate it when you’re mad at me, sometimes i’m mad at you, there’s times where I was mad at you, but didn’t tell you because I couldn’t. I know the situation is the reason for all this as well as other things, I tried very hard to fix that…..

No one listens as you know, this here isn’t about me, it’s about you and what you’re feeling, I hate not knowing how you’re feeling, i’ve asked before, but I get you don’t like repeating yourself and you shouldn’t have to, but I learned keeping things in is the worst thing you can do, but I guess maybe you felt as though telling me things didn’t matter. Like your feelings didn’t matter, which they always did to me……I don’t know if you resent me, it feels like you do, believe it or not I can feel your anger and disappoint and i’m sorry, you were the last person I ever wanted to do that to.

You know the last thing I wanted was to ever hurt you, but yet that’s what I did, i’m still trying to find a way to fix it somehow even though I know you’re most likely done, I guess sometimes you just stop caring. I wish I could that….but I can’t, no matter how hard I try, I can’t…..maybe that’s why people walk all over me, because I care too goddamn much, but i’d be lying if I said I’d stop caring. Even when people don’t want to be bothered,

I still care, most of the time I can just forget and move on, but I can’t in this case, I can’t just forget and act unbothered, because I am bothered, I can forget it for a moment, but then it rushes back like a hurricane to the point where I can’t handle it, but I do my darn best. I hate this feeling and I can’t shake it no matter how much I try to get rid of it, I don’t know how you’re doing it, but you’re doing it well, I don’t feel like a thought anymore and I guess you can say everyone was right, right!?

I’m suppose to prove everyone wrong and I don’t really know how to do that, which gives everyone the satisfaction to say I told you so, just like you said, again I don’t expect you to feel bad, not that you would for a second. I know you kept giving me options and I kept telling you not to, because I had a feeling that if you did, you would leave and I wouldn’t speak to you anymore. We’d always said we’d speak, but I guess for a long time we just ran out of words to say, you’re all about action and i’m just words and I guess everyone knows that……every conversation we had with that, plays in my head, not all at once, but in different sections, I don’t know how to action things properly, i’ve been doing my best to work at it though.

I wish I could just send this to you without having to post it, but I can’t, how else will you see this!? If you want to hate me, you can, I was suppose to keep you safe and keep you reassured, but I failed to do that, I wanted to and still do, but I can’t until I figure myself out huh!? I’m never going to wish you harm or worse things, I care too much about you to ever do that and I love you too much to do that, plus you don’t deserve it.

Major loss that’s what you said, I had a feeling you’d go, I just didn’t think you’d go completely, but what was I to expect when you said “it’s going to push me away” I really made a mess didn’t I!? I was supposed to better for you, but I don’t think I ever was, only when I was around maybe, but I wasn’t really the best supporter was I!? I was supposed to keep you out of your head, but instead I had you go back into it, maybe not on purpose,

but I did, I think about you and your health a lot and I get sad, because I don’t know how you’re doing and i’m always afraid that it’ll happen again, but this time it’ll be my fault because of the situation and I hate that I feel like that, but it’s the truth, you may not think I care, but you’d be wrong to think that. I don’t know how else to talk to you, but I don’t know if you even want to talk to me anymore, it seems like you’re better off without me from the looks of it, but I don’t know if that’s true. I used to know you so well and I still feel like I do, but at the same time I don’t, I want to talk to you so bad, but I don’t know if we’ll still have words to say to each other…..

I guess you were right when you said it’ll hurt the other person more than you, if that’s not accurate I don’t know what is. I always want you to be happy and well, you’re always in my mind when I think of that, whether you still want me in your life in someway or you would rather just pretend I never existed, I still want you to be happy, I always hope it would be with me, but if you’ve taken things as final and you’re happy not talking or everything anymore, just know i’m still going to want the best for you,

because whether you believe me or not, you deserve that and I know you know that, i’m proud of you everyday and am really happy for you, for everything, i’m happy you finally found a career your going to enjoy for the rest of your life, i’m happy for how far you came and for starting your all girls team that you wanted to create……all I wanted was to make you happy, but if i’m unable to do that, I want you to let someone else do that for you.

I don’t like thinking like that, but I wanted to say that, i’m not giving up, because I don’t want to, I just don’t know how long you’ll want to wait, but I think you might be done with waiting and I get it, you have everything set and I still am stressfully trying to figure it out, I sometimes wish I would’ve figured it out a long time ago because then I wouldn’t be worrying about everything so much now…….

And before you say it or think it, I know you tried helping, don’t ever think I forget that and that I don’t appreciate it, because I do, but like you said there was only so much you could do and if you don’t help yourself no one else will and i’m trying to that. I don’t know if I have anything else to say, but I hope you talk to me and I hope you still want me around,

I’m not going to beg you because begging and chasing isn’t the best thing to do, but I am trying to fight here in someway whether you see it that way or not, I hope you do see it because i’ve never in my life have done this before and i’m scared and if i’m being honest I have no idea what i’m doing and I just feel I keep doing everything wrong.

If you want to talk, you know I have nothing better to do at the moment and i’m just gonna say it like that because it’s true, I know you’re busy and your focusing, i’m not trying to take you away from that whatsoever, but whenever you have the time, I hope you call or message back, i’d like to hear your voice, I miss it and I miss you, but if you don’t want to do that, that’s fine, I just hope you do talk to me at least.

I’m going to stop writing, because this is starting to become very long, but I do hope you’re okay and that you’re doing well, you stay safe and be careful and I hope you’re taking proper care of yourself, seriously!! I love you with all of my heart that’ll never stop ever, no matter how hard I try at it.

P.S. Sorry for this very long post, for those reading this, I needed to get it out.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Opening Up…. (July 19, 2019)

Opening up can seem like a real task at times, you wouldn’t think it’d be as hard as it is, but when you’re someone who has a hard time really letting out your feelings and emotions you find that it’s not always easy to do.

It’s quite nerve wrecking actually, trying to get out just an ounce of words to form out of your mouth, sometimes you find yourself just staring out into space because you’re trying to find the right set of words hoping that what you’re going to say is going to make sense or come out right.

It’s why a lot of us, most of the time don’t really say anything if we’re feeling something and sometimes it’s because of the feeling it brings inside, but holding on to the emotions that we feel for too long, can sometimes wear you down, when it’s stuck floating all around in your head……

Opening up can be hard to do, but sometimes expressing our feelings, even though it doesn’t seem like it, can make a bit of a difference while also making you feel a little better in the process.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Expression…..(July 18, 2019)

Some may think that this is the same thing as feeling and emotions, but it’s not it’s just a way of letting out what you’re feeling, it can also just be a regular expression, for example, when you say “i’m so hungry I can eat a whole truck load of tacos” it doesn’t necessarily mean you’re going to eat a truck load of tacos, you’re just expressing how hungry you are, you might not actually even be that hungry, it just feels like you are.

We express what we feel and what we’re thinking, sometimes we can be a little too blunt with it, but for some it works that way, if we’re feeling something strongly, we’ll say it how we feel it or how we’re thinking it, although sometimes we’re meant to watch how we say things because it can be taken a whole different way to how we’re actually meaning for it to sound…..which can be very hard to do.

Expressing ones feelings, thoughts and or emotions can be very tricky at times, because naturally we want to say things the way we feel it, which is why if you notice, whenever we are feeling a certain way, we go into our natural fight or flight mode……naturally we want to let out everything we’re feeling right then and there, but our conscience tugs us back to help us approach those emotions and feelings in the best way possible.

Sometimes that doesn’t always occur and we end up saying things that are either out of context or the wrong way to how we wanted it to come out and that has to do with the way our thoughts are, we think of all these different scenarios and ways to approach a situations, but when it comes to actually being front and center to it, our minds start to scramble again, putting us back to square one causing us say and mix up everything.

It can be a real pain when that happens because you know what you want to say, yet you find yourself saying something completely different to what you thought about originally and that’s why if you do find yourself wanting to express something, but you feel as though it may come out wrong and not make much sense, you’re meant to pick your words carefully and that is a task on it own, if everyone was able to say what it was they wanted without any consequences, I think it’d make people understand each other and their feelings more, but it would also still hurt people in a way.

Just because I said there would be no consequences doesn’t mean that people’s feelings wouldn’t still be hurt, they’d see things differently and understand what is being said, but again it would still hurt a little and that’s why majority of the time, people don’t say anything because they don’t want to hurt others feelings, but sometimes you have to rip the band-aid off a little even if it comes out in a way you tried many times to avoid……

How we express and the way we express it can sometimes feel like walking on a mine field, because you never know where you’re going to step with it, but holding our breath and being afraid to express our true feelings shouldn’t be something we do either, we all have a voice and a right to say how we’re really feeling and thinking, it’s not always easy…….

It can be one of the hardest things to do, but sometimes we need it, so that way we don’t suppress it, doing that only starts to build anger, resentment, stress and a whole lot of deadly emotions that don’t need to be kept in.

Take it from someone who’s emotions and feelings are way beneath the surface that even when it tries to come out, it ends up just going back and hiding away again, sometimes it needs a bit of work and sometimes it just ends up coming out naturally…..it’s a win lose situation with expression, but if done in the best way possible or decently or I guess in the only way you’re able to, it’s not always all that bad.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Feelings….. (July 18, 2019)

We all have them, sometimes we wish we didn’t, but then we wouldn’t really be human would we!? Here’s the thing……sometimes we let our own feelings get in the way of how other people feel, we may not try to do it intentionally, but sometimes we end up doing it unconsciously knowing creating a bit of a mess……although we have our own issues and problems to sort through, doesn’t mean we should ignore everyone’s else’s.

It’s okay to take time to work through your own feelings and emotions, but when it’s the only thing we focus on, we tend to fail at acknowledging how someone else maybe feeling, which is important because we don’t know half of the things that people go through or deal with alone.

We say we listen and that we understand but do we really!? Believe it or not besides communication, listening and understanding (as well as other things) are the two main things that are needed in order to build a healthy and better relationship with someone, whether it’s romanic, non romantic, a friendship kind of relationship whatever, it’s important to take others emotions and feelings into account…..

Really thinking about it, it’s no wonder, most people separate from other people or keep things to themselves……we as humans aren’t the best people these days, especially when it comes to communicating, listening and understanding someone, we’re so wrapped up in ourselves and our own life, that we will just brush off anything that doesn’t revolve around our own feelings which can be quite selfish at times.

We shouldn’t be telling people to go away because we have our own things to worry about or we just aren’t feeling what their feeling, sometimes we need people or we just want to talk to someone, whether it’s a serious topic or a random one, telling someone to go away or to stop talking, causes a lot of the issues that we encounter in day to day life…….

When I was younger I used to get told all the time to stop talking so much or that something else was more important than expressing something that I wanted to express, so I know what that feels like…..the feeling of wanting to talk to someone, but being told to go away or being ignored when your saying something, it hurts….

It’s no wonder people keep things to themselves these days, I mean really who can they talk to if people don’t want to listen!? It’s why most of us develop or have some kind of mental illness, we bottle things up because we feel we have to or we think if we talk about what we’re feeling no ones going to really listen or understand anyway so why even bother!?

A lot of the time we don’t even take mental illnesses serious, even though we should because it’s one of the things that can be harmful to someones life, if not taken seriously enough, that kind of thing should never be ignored, but overall dealing with feelings, stress, thoughts anything…..

It’s not just us dealing with it, there’s always someone going through a rougher time, dismissing or skipping over how someone else feels, will only cause them to closed themselves in more and not express how they’re really feeling and if they do try to express their emotions and thoughts, they’re going to think twice about it because they don’t know if it’s okay and that they should or if it’s just going to be a waste of their time.

People can be very stubborn and not realize that, they’re not the only ones that hurt, we don’t take in other peoples feelings the way we should and it’s because of that, people will tend to distance themselves or drift away, it’s not always because they want to, sometimes it’s because they feel they can’t talk to anyone or that no ones going to listen, other times it’s fear of being rejected or that their just bothering people…….

Sometimes the best way to really know how someone is feeling is to ask them directly and not in a forceful way, genuinely ask them, how their doing and if they’re okay and want to talk, if they don’t want to talk right away give them a bit of time and try and ask again later, sometimes you have to go out of your way in order to really understand someone one, even if they don’t want to talk, try to listen and understand how their feeling,

Without criticizing them and trying to add your input in, if their expressing why it is they feel the way they do and are talking to you about it, listen!! If they say “this is how I feel and i’m telling you this is why i’m feeling it” don’t say “okay this is how your feeling, this is what I think” (sorry to say it this way, but it’s the only way it’s going to come out )

DON’T ADD YOUR INPUT……unless they ask for it and if or when they do, try and be understanding with it, help them sort through their feelings and or thoughts and help them come up with a solution to help them get through it. When expressing our thoughts and feelings, all we want and need is someone to just listen and understand…..

Just like when we are needing for someone to listen to us, we should be able to do the same for other people who are needing it, we should never make someone feel like they can’t talk about their own issues or express themselves, especially when their trying to express on something serious.

Whether we like what we’re hearing or not, we shouldn’t go shutting down other people’s emotions, we’re human and one of the things we are born with is compassion and if we can’t bother to really hear someone out when they’re begging for it secretly or desperately wanting someone to talk to, that says a lot about who we are and it’s not good……

We all have feelings and stresses in life, but we can still take time to try and get to know, as well as listen and understand someone.

Instead of judging someone and assuming all kinds of things and that, ASK!! if you really want to know or are curious on how someones doing or what’s going on in their life, just ask them, you might get a lot more out of them than asking someone else about it……

P.S. Sorry if this came out jumping at you haha, didn’t mean for that, I just had a lot to get out and this was the only way I guess I was able to get it out, hope you’re all doing well and having a good day!!

All The Love ❤ < 3

~Lexa~

Writing Prompt Friday: Message In A Bottle (June 21, 2019)

If someone told you to write a message and put it in a bottle to send out to sea, what would you write!? Maybe you don’t want to send it out to sea, but instead just wanted to write something and send it out a different way out of curiosity to who would find it and read it.

Would you even write anything and if you did would you send it out or keep it to yourself to read or leave alone!? We all have something we want to say, sometimes it’s hard to say it however, because it’s either, we’re not really open to express what it is that we feel, sometimes we think, if we say what’s in our heads it’ll be too much or it won’t be understood……

We may feel when saying something it won’t make sense and maybe we’re just rambling on about things that not even we understand once it leaves our mouths…….so with that a lot of the time we freak out and just don’t say anything because it feels easier, yet…..at the same time, it’s harder because you know you want to say something and you know it’s there, but for some reason it doesn’t come out and if it does, it doesn’t come out right…….

Which will then a lot of the time cause us to freak out more and from there we end up beating ourselves up for it and think “that was stupid” adding more and more pressure causing our thoughts to only expand in the worst things possible, asking yourself a million one questions, over analyzing and just getting so stuck in your head that you wonder, if you’ll ever get out!?

You might also wonder and ask yourself if whether you’re doing things right or just a whole lot of different questions that float around, causing your brain to just lose it’s own thoughts………tell me though, the picture above, what do you see when you look at it!? Probably nothing too special i’m sure, it might just be a random throw together creation and you might be right, but maybe some of you do see something to it, who knows.

When I look at it, I see waves just casually flowing by, but also something else I can’t, quite put my finger on at the moment……what kind of feeling do you feel when you look at it!? Maybe some of you don’t feel anything looking at it and maybe there’s a few that do feel something with it, maybe it’s the way you’re looking at it, everyone does sees things differently.

So what did you write!? You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to, it’s called a message in a bottle for a reason right!? Maybe it’s personal, embarrassing, or makes no sense just like this probably…….

If you do want to share however, i’ll listen.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~