Let’s Talk: The Sunflower Episode (Craig Of The Creek)

Good Morning everyone, hope your Wednesday is going splendid! My Wednesday morning had a bit of a trip over, but it’s good now, I made some coffee and I’m feeling good not stressed out, not that I was super stressed out or anything, I was testing out my headphone mic to be able to record a new podcast episode later today and it was kind of getting to me a bit, but it’s working now and hopefully it continues like that, I’m starting to think I should invest in an actual, but affordable microphone, I almost got one, but then I didn’t…..ANYWAY moving on, today I wanted to discuss upon one of my favorite cartoon shows, you might’ve heard me talking about it before, but I really do love this show and so I wanted to talk about one of the recent episodes that I watched a few days ago,

I haven’t been watching it as much these days, so I was trying to catch up on the episodes that I had missed that were new and this little cute thing of an episode is now one of my favorites, like you have to watch it okay! Now you might’ve taken a gander of what episode we’ll be touching on, but for a reminder we’ll be taking a look at The Sunflower episode from Craig Of The Creek, some of you might remember and some of you might not remember, but I’ve spoken about Craig Of The Creek a few times here, now if you never watched this show or maybe heard of it, I would definitely recommend checking it out!

Before we get into the episode, I just want to say that when it comes to movies and shows, I’ve stated many times how, I’m not the best reviewer of them, like I don’t watch a show or movie to critique it and what I mean by that is I don’t normally analyze it to it’s plot and story or anything like that, because…..that’s not what I look for, also it’s not really my specialty, I just watch shows and movies for enjoyment and if I have thoughts about it after watching them, that I have in mind or I feel something maybe didn’t connect with me then I will sometimes share my thoughts based on that, but how normal show and movie critics look at these things…..I don’t do that at least I don’t ever feel I do it in the way they do, if that makes sense!? If I enjoy something I talk about it and if I don’t I on occasion talk about it!

Craig Of The Creek though, is one of my favorite shows and so when I speak about it, it’s always in good light, I never have anything bad to say about it, because I genuinely always enjoy each episode I watch and The Sunflower episode was an episode I wasn’t expecting to get…..to be fair I didn’t know what to expect from this episode, I saw the title and it automatically caught my attention and I became very curious to what that episode could possible be about, buuut I had to watch the other ones first because I like to watch things in order, I prefer anyway is what I’m saying!

When I did eventually get to this episode…..I for one, was super excited because I really missed watching this show, originally I searched for it on Youtube Tv because I wanted to watch the 5 day event episode titled Capture The Flag where Craig and all the other kids at the Creek we’re going to try and stop a ruler from the other side of the creek from taking over there side…..I have yet to watch that one, but I feel when I do it’s going to be quite the episode!!

Back to the Sunflower episode…..I wasn’t sure what to expect, but I was excited to find out what story it was going to tell and let me tell you……it was an emotional one alright, like I was not prepared to get all up in my feeling with it, but I did, well I was super close, but I felt it, I felt it very deeply, I’m just realizing that if I go into the episode fully, it’s going to be a very long post, so I think I figured out what my podcast episode will be about later……me explain and giving thoughts to this episode and what my reaction was when I watched it and I’m going to give you all a disclaimer, be prepared for some energetic energy with this one, now it might not actually be like that, but just in case it is, just know you were warned…..but this was a very adorable episode and I can’t wait to talk about it in my podcast episode, seriously, I’m super excited about it lol!

Now this post will be up in a moment, however it might be scheduled to go up at a bit of a later time today in the time your reading this, so that way I can record the episode and share it on here for you guys to listen to, if by any chance, this post is seen before I get the chance to share the episode with it, just know that it will be updated with the episode added in once it’s recorded and uploaded, so stay tuned for that!! I hope you guys don’t mind the way this post is, if you’re reading it without the episode to listen to for the moment and I hope you enjoy the episode once it’s done, see you all in a couple of hours, more or less!!

Update

Here is the episode I promised I’d update you guys on earlier, hope you enjoy it!

If by any chance the episode is appearing as Let’s Talk: June (thoughts) Ep. 26 instead of Let’s Talk: Craig Of The Creek (The Sunflower Episode) Ep. 27 just know that’s not what I’m trying to have, I’m not really sure what’s going on right now with this, maybe there’s a glitch happening that I don’t know of and it will get fixed later, but for right now, you can find the correct episode here: Just in case

Let’s Talk: Craig Of The Creek (The Sunflower Episode) Ep. 27 or you can listen to it on Spotify

Let's Talk: Craig Of The Creek (The Sunflower Episode) Ep. 27 Daydreamer's Podcast

Hiya everyone, in today's episode, we dive into one of my favorite Cartoon shows that is Craig Of The Creek and discuss a very well done and emotional episode that is beautifully called The Sunflower, I loved watching this episode and just wanted to share some thoughts on it, check it out, it's great, you'll love it!!  

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Pondering Of Emotions….

You ever feel a certain emotion, but you’re just too afraid to talk about that emotion!? Something in you wants to express truthfully to the feelings you feel, but you don’t instead you just ponder about whether or not to be expressive about it! That’s what I’m feeling right now, I know I’m having all these different emotions swimming around in my mind, but I can’t quite bring myself to talk about them and part of that reason is well I don’t like talking about how I actually feel, yet at the same time, I don’t ever know to express about, like I never know where to start, so I always find myself thinking on my emotions trying to gather some kind of words to start off….

For the past 2 days, I’ve been feeling very anxious, I could feel my anxiety jump a few levels too high to where I want them to be and whenever I get anxious I start overthinking and when I over think I go into a panic mode and then become very frustrated with how I’m feeling causing myself to later become emotional right after and I always do it and I always get mad myself for it, I know it’s something I shouldn’t be upset with myself for, but I still do!

I try not to think about it and by trying not think on it, I end up thinking on it more and then I become more frustrated on it, I got a lot of worries in me that I find hard to get rid of and I don’t know why exactly….but I know it doesn’t help to ignore the emotions or have them put away for another time, by not addressing the feelings that we find crowding us a little too much, we create more frustration within ourselves, we never really sit down and ask ourselves why we are feeling the way we are, when we feel them, we look away from them and try and distract ourselves with something else and when we feel them becoming more of a “too close step back a bit” feeling we start getting agitated by it.

We never feel like we’re allowed to feel the things we do, but the best way to handle those unpleasant emotions is to let them be, in a sense of when you feel them, let yourself feel them, don’t fight with them or push them to the side because then that creates more resistance when turning them away…..we have to tell ourselves that it’s okay to be uncomfortable with our not so great emotions, by accepting them, it makes it easier to let them go naturally without all the push backs and anger that we bring to ourselves because of them!

It’s okay to ask and question those emotions because it may help to get to the root of what is actually going on under the surface of it! If we can accept those good feeling moments where we are at our best, why can’t we do the same when we’re feeling at our worst!? There’s no good without the bad and no bad without the good, it’s all in the balance of it all, we need to feel like shit sometimes, we can’t always expect to feel like a bunch of happy dogs running around full of energy, sometimes we need to sit in a corner and just feel whatever it is we are feeling because that’s how we get over them, it’s how we start to feel better!

So if you were to ask me how I’ve been feeling…..I’m just a little Under Pressure at the moment, but I know eventually I’ll be alright! Hope all your days are going well!

P.S.

I only expressed on these emotions after watching a video last night, if you would like to watch that video, you can find it here: How To Control Your Anxiety (as an Empath)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Truthfully Speaking….

Hiya….I don’t know how I should start this…..there’s a lot I want to say to you, but I find it hard to say it, I know we have days that we talk and days that we don’t, I’ve accepted that’s how it is at the moment with us right now….I know we both got our own journey that we’re on, in yours you’ve got it and are very confident, in mine, everything is kind of new still to me, but I’ve been doing my best to go more out of my comfort which is something we got to talk about by the way! I think of you always, you probably know that though by now, I can sense you probably think of me too, I hope at least lol…..I miss you always nothing new, there’s times that I want to call you, just to hear your voice and to also talk to you for a bit, but I don’t because I know how busy you are…..and if I’m being honest I sometimes think you won’t answer if I do anyway!

If I was able to write a song to you on what I’ve been feeling I would, I know that’s random, but it was the next thing that came to my head so I said it, but I’m also not saying I haven’t written lyrics for you…..I’m just saying…..also me writing that helped to get nerves out, don’t ask me why I’m nervous I just am…..I guess in a way this is the first time where I’m trying to be completely open with you to my feelings that I always have trouble expressing to you…..you’ll ask me if I’m okay and I’ll always say yeah, but there will be things that I won’t say as well and I know you’re the same way….. I know that’s why you don’t really say much these days, I always feel you want to, but I also know that you feel you work it out best alone and I never want to push you to saying things you aren’t ready to say…..I’ll always give you the time that you feel you need, even when all I want to do is talk to you, I’ll always have patience for you.

I love hearing from you, you have no idea how much that brightens my day! That aside…..How you been!? I hope you’re doing okay and I hope your family’s doing alright too as well your nan, I hope she’s been okay!? I hope everything’s been going well with what you’re doing and that you’re enjoying yourself with it all! I’ve been watching some of your videos and I always see how happy you are doing it which makes me smile, I love it when you smile and are happy though…..I know this week was hard, did you feel it!? If so I felt it too…..did you know there was a Lunar Eclipse yesterday, I know you don’t like hearing these facts, but you know I always like telling you them anyway,

It’s just me! I don’t know what else to say…..I feel I might’ve said everything I needed, but I also feel I still got more I want to say, maybe I’ll say it when we have a proper talk if you want to do that! I think that’s everything for now, before I finish up this post message for you, I just want you to always know and remember how much I love you, no matter what goes on and how much we talk and how much we don’t…..just know I love you and that I always will that’s never going to change…..hopefully you read this, because it’s kind of why I wrote it lol…..I’d used the sticking out of the tongue icon here, but I’m on my computer writing this…..hold on wait 😛 never mind that works, hopefully you laughed, yes I know I’m weird you don’t have to tell me….okay I’m done….for now!

P.S.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Dappy lately…..especially I.O.U that keeps coming on for some reason and it’s not me choosing to play it, it just comes on by itself, although I have been purposely listening to Beautiful Me and No Regrets mainly Beautiful Me though, I forgot how good both those songs were….Oh and Grease has been coming on a lot as well, can you guess what song!?

All The Love Always ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

March With A Mix Of April

Now that March has said it’s farewells, we now welcome April…..it’s a bit crazy to know that we’ve arrived at the month of April already….. I don’t know about you guys, but I feel like this weeks been a bit on the dragging side of town….it’s only Thursday….normally the days would go by quickly and we’d be already at Friday, but this week feels like a chore to get through…..now maybe that could be because I’ve not been feeling the greatest this past couple of days….I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather, not quite like myself and I don’t want to say that it’s been a bother, but that’s exactly what it’s been…..I just not been feeling all that great these days and it’s kind of been putting me in quite a low mode and as much as I try to push through through it, it just feels hard!

These past few days I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster, one day I’m fine, the next day I want to cry a bit and that’s me being completely honest, I’m not really sure why I’m feeling this way, but it’s what I feel…..again maybe it could be because I’m not feeling all that well right now…..maybe I’m just worrying about a lot of things, which to be fair I am and that could also be the reason I’m feeling the way I am, it’s just been an odd week and we’re just coming to the end of it, tomorrow’s Friday and I’m hoping that it’s going to be better than these past few days,

If not entirely than just a little bit better…..I’m also hoping that this month goes okay, I’m not really sure what it has in store, but I just want it to be filled with good things, be it expected or unexpected, I also just want to feel better, maybe right now I’m supposed to feel how I’m feeling I don’t know! Sometimes we feel things for a reason and maybe it’s our moment to feel it how we feel it, bad or good….I think we just need to give ourselves a break at times as well as allow ourselves to have that break, because a lot of the time we don’t give it to ourselves!

We keep going even when everything is telling us to take it easy, we don’t always listen though, which is why a lot of the time we end up being forced to listen not really given us a choice…..most of us still don’t listen, but when we feel we need a break and I mean really feel it, like when you’re a bit under the weather and that, you do eventually surrender to it, even when you don’t really want to, your body and mind will always tell you yes and you’ll have no choice, but to accept it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let Things Be As They Are…..

If I could describe what today is, I wouldn’t know the first thing to compare it to…..the only thing I can say is, it’s not a bad day, it’s actually pretty nice, even though there’s something to it that I can’t quite put my finger on, but you know maybe that’s okay, sometimes when there’s something to the day that is fine, we try and question why that is and then have it end up turning into a stressful day because we don’t know what it is exactly,

When in reality, we should just be okay with not really understanding what’s going on and when I say what’s going on, I don’t mean like a bad what’s going on, I mean it more like……feeling wise, sometimes we have days that are much more on the “hmmm” side of town and with that “hmmm” you find that it comes with a calming feel to it, even when things get a bit high in the noise department, you feel your energy and vibration

Kept in tact, grounded in a way, in your mind you’re expecting something to rattle you a bit, give you a slight disturbance……funny thing actually as I was getting ready to write that disturbance sentence out, something in my room made a noise and startled me right at that moment, not a coincidence, but it made me laugh so i’m taking that as a “just messing with you bit”

As I was saying before that happened……you feel your energy and vibration kept in at a calm state no matter what goes on and it can be quite suspicious to why we feel that way, but question it and trying to dig deep to figure out why the calmness or at least trying to get an exact pinpoint to what we might be feeling, by thinking and trying to figure it out, we water down the good feeling and enjoyment that it’s bringing and allowing us to feel

Why do that!? We want to make sure it’s embraced as much as possible, if we constantly question the positive feelings that we have, we keep from getting them so often, so instead of stressing ourselves out wondering what we’re feeling and trying to get an exact answer to it, let’s try and take it as it is and enjoy it, why question it, if it’s a good kind of feeling!?

Maybe you might have a mixed kind of day where, you feel calm and alright, but you also feel a little bleh at the same time, that’s okay sometimes those kind of feelings can clash at the weirdest moment, but by keeping our focus on the alright and calm and leaving the bleh to the side,

Even when we are having a mixture type of day, taking it in as a whole and being aware and accepting it, you find that it feels nice, just as long as we acknowledge the feel good part to it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk…..

I think i’m going to keep this post short and sweet, well i’m not sure whether it’ll actually be short, but I know it won’t be super long either, I don’t know what it is, but i’m not really all that sure on today and by that I mean, that really actually, I don’t know if that makes sense….

It’s just one of those i’m not really sure how to feel kind of days, i’ve been more in thought mode than speaking mode most of the day and to tell you what i’m thinking about, well lets just say, okay well you know when you’re looking straight out towards the ocean and the waves are going in and out onto the sand, yeah that’s how my head has been, just in and out,

You’d think that be a good thing and quite calming if you’re thinking about waves, well it’s not all bad, it’s just moments when you find yourself deeply thinking where you’re supposed to be careful and you tell yourself that, but you can’t seem to keep away from the whole ocean, so to prevent a full on emotional wave, you have to snap yourself out from going that deep and i’ve been having to do that a few times today……today has been a bit weird,

but I think if you just take a bit of time and be aware of ones feelings instead of trying to ignore it it’ll keep you from having to over feel it, you know what I mean!? All i’m going to say is, if you guys are having one of those days as well don’t be afraid to accept that you’re feeling weird or sad and just not really sure on how to feel, it’s okay to allow yourself to be aware of those feelings, ignoring them will only heighten them to become louder.

You don’t have to like it and you don’t have to want to share a space with it, but it’s important to be aware of them, if you feel emotions coming along, just them out, don’t keep them buried beneath, if you need some time, take it, don’t feel like you can’t, just be aware and accept what you’re feeling. In the moment it’s hard, but eventually it’ll pass and be okay, maybe not fully, but a least you’ll feel somewhat better knowing you’ve given yourself the time and allowance to just feel what you’re feeling.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

1 Year Of Blogging With AJ Gifs Feat Paige (A Little Late I Know, July 11, 2019)

So we’ve made it, it’s now been officially a year since I first created this blog!! Yaaay i’d say a little celebration’s in order, wouldn’t you say!?

It’s not really a big one, it’s just me sharing one of my favorite gifs and the closes reaction to a yaaay that I could find and when I say find, I mean I personally searched for this, not this gif in particular though, more like (AJ Lee excited gifs) I wanted something that fit, but also something that said “I know i’m late with this post, but yaaay we made a year on this blog”

I’d say this one wins!! As I was saying though, yes i’m aware that it’s the 13th and not the 11th, originally I wanted to write something the day of it being a year, but I ended up having a bit of a busy day Thursday last week, so I didn’t really get the chance to really write anything (I went to the same place 3 times at different hours in one day)

Even though I didn’t write the day of it being a year, doesn’t mean I wasn’t thinking about writing anything for it. I mean I was thinking about how exactly I was going to start off the post as I was coming back from picking up milk from the store a few days ago, yeah I know weird…..

I even kinda wrote a draft posts in one of my journals just to kinda have an idea on what I was going for, but we all know our thoughts change and we never really go based off our first reaction or idea…….unless it’s one that sticks with you for a while then you might go with the reaction.

So 1 year of blogging, what’s it been like you might ask!? That’s a question, no i’m kidding…..see I would say it’s been great, easy and that I rarely had an issue writing, but that wouldn’t be quite accurate would it now!?

Everyone has a different kind of blogging experience and for me, my blogging experience it’d say……has it’s days……sometimes I feel great and happy with the posts I publish and share and other times I tend to struggle on what to write about (happens quite a lot actually)

Most of the time I never really know how my posts are going to come across if that makes any sense!? Blogging and to be honest i’m sure we’ve all been down this road at some point, we all know that blogging is tough and it can be very discouraging at times as well……

I can’t tell you how many times i’ve questioned my own content as well as myself, sometimes i’ll write something and worry about whether I should’ve posted it or not or if I should delete it when no reads it (I never do) but I also had to let myself know that not everything you post is going to be read and if it is, not everyone is going to react to it…….

I still have those moments at times, but I think we all do, I don’t think that it goes away, but I try to look at it as,”okay so this one didn’t do that well, we’ll just try again in our next post” I think looking at it in that way helps you to not give in to the negative feelings you feel when that happens.

Now I don’t normally express this much, but there have been a lot of moments where I wondered whether or not I should even continue blogging and whether or not my writing is even good enough…..

It’s not the first time i’ve felt like that though, it happens with pretty much everything that I start, I could be doing well with it, but then feel as though, it’s not good enough and so i’d stop……..I never really understood why that was, but it was just a recurring thing all the time, i’d start something, do well with it, feel it wasn’t good enough then stop…..*Repeat process *

I’ve backed out of a lot of things because of that pretty much and that’s due to not really having a lot of believance in myself (i’m sure believance isn’t a word, but I wanted to use it) I still struggle with that actually, but I try to pull through that as best as I can and not have it be something else I stop before it can really get anywhere, that’s why I try to mix things up on here when it comes to my writing……originally when I started my blog,

it was meant to be a place where I could express myself and get my thoughts out of my head, I was feeling a lot of things and wanted to kinda let some of those emotions out, thinking back on it however, i’m not really sure if I ever actually express the emotions I was feeling then……!?

I’m not really the best when it comes to talking about my actual feelings, i’m sure most of you already know that though……I can talk about anything else (depending on the topic that is) but try and ask me how i’m feeling and believe me you’ll be here for a while…..it actually frustrates people whenever they ask me what i’m feeling and i’m unable to answer quick enough, it’s why I don’t really bother on really expressing much.

Along the way of using this as a place to leave my thoughts we’ll say….I wanted to add a bit more to it, so I ended up adding a few of my interests as topics to write about, things that I knew or felt I could write about, favorite games, music, things like that…..i’m not really good at sticking to one topic if i’m being honest and that’s not only with my writing, but also with my personality……kinda, i’m constantly thinking of things,

So adding a bit more variety i’d say has helped me really stick with this whole blogging thing. Before I continue on, I wouldn’t actually have this blog if it wasn’t for a good friend of mine, her name is Ray and I always mention this because it was her that shared WordPress with me and helped me set it up so I always have to thank her for that one and I always will…..

Thanks Ray!! ❤ ❤ ❤

Back to the rest of this post though, I gotta say with blogging, sometimes I don’t always know what i’m doing, it can seem really complicated at times because it always seems like there’s a certain way you need to write when it comes to blogging, which can be a little frustrating, if you feel your writing isn’t the best…….not to compare here or anything, but whenever I read other blogs, I always admire the different writing styles each person has…..

Makes you sometimes wish you could write the way half of the other blogs do, most of those writers know the kind of content they want and how exactly to write on it, they just know how to really express…..but thinking that way in terms of comparing your writing style to others I guess isn’t the best way, because again everyone’s writing style is different, if everyone wrote the same it wouldn’t really be interesting would it!?

I’d be stupid to think each writer had it all figured out, when it came to what they wanted their blogs to represent or just how they wanted it to reflect them if that makes sense!?

With me and my blogging experience I still wonder on how I want my blog site to reflect me…..so far it’s uncategorized, even though there’s some categories to choose from…..it’s still pretty randomized and kinda everywhere, which I guess in a way is me in real life (just got a tad anxious writing that haha, but i’m alright)

I don’t know…..maybe I don’t need to really know exactly what i’m doing when blogging, I mean each of us started our blogs for different reasons, be it to use it as a personal outlet for our thoughts, to share certain interests, moments or maybe even to share photos and that, we don’t always need a specific theme to focus on I guess, sometimes variety is good, it can bring in different people and keep things interesting as well!!

What may not be good enough to us, might not be the same way for others, maybe my uncategorized content is my thing, maybe it brings out and suits my writing style the best who knows…..so far it’s been alright, i’ll have my best days, but I know i’ll also have my not so best days and that’s okay.

Blogging shouldn’t be all about comparing or feeling like you have to be the best in the way you’re writing, in all reality, we’re all really just writers, but in different ways, some of us are and have a bit more expertise than others, but it doesn’t mean the rest of us aren’t good….We all just have a different way of sharing, some of us like to be informative, some creative, personal, you name it……so some of us are unlisted or uncategorized,

It’s not a bad thing, it just means we can rotate through any topic we’re feeling, maybe my writing style isn’t like everyone else’s, but it’s how I write and even if I have days where I question it or myself, I should be proud and happy about it…..there’s no limit to a topic with it, so i’ll keep picking ones that I feel good about and hopefully it’s does it’s best to connect alright.

For those who have enjoyed and come back to my a bit everywhere content, I just want to say a HUGE thank you for it, knowing that some of you really do like what I write, means the absolute world to me!! This blog has grown a little bit more each time since I created it and for that I thank you as well.

Whether you’ve connected with me personally, not like personal, personal, but you know what I mean, whether you’ve liked my posts or have just taken the time to read them and enjoyed my site in general, I just want to let you know that I really do appreciate it and that i’m thankful and grateful not just for you guys, but also for giving me a chance and letting me express myself in the way I know how…..even on the days I struggle, it means a lot.

I don’t know if any of this is going to make much sense, I honestly didn’t expect this to take as long as it did to write, i’ve written and looked this over so many different times, changed a couple of things, added a bit more to it….

I really tried to lay out everything in the best way possible so, hopefully it came across alright……anyway that is all I have for you, thanks once again for all the support and for reading my content, I hope you’re all doing well and having a good day, afternoon and or night!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

P.S. I wrote this originally on the 13th, but took a bit more time with it then I expected, which is why you’re reading it now…….also if you’re wondering why I added AJ Lee gifs for this post, I don’t know I just did……

She’s just a favorite of mine so I figured why not, it was only meant to be one, but I ended up adding a few more.

Acceptance Of The Old Or Of The New!? (July 6, 2019)

I’ll be honest, this title is stumping me a little on how i’m going to write about this, even though I titled it this way, there’s always something that is going to be a little of your comfort level, but sometimes you have to try even if you aren’t sure on how it’ll go or sound in this case.

Sometime we accept certain things that we shouldn’t and push away things that can be too much to take in because it evolves changing the things we are already used to, even if those things may be good for us in the long run.

In this case we talk on the topic of change and new beginnings for something better and different…….the word different is something a lot of us don’t like really like to embrace, because it secretly has the word change, hidden within it which makes us want to run and hide from it.

Not everyone likes change as we all know, even if it’s the good kind, we prefer comfort and not having to change anything around us, we see it as why change something when there’s nothing wrong with it!? However even though it may not look like it from the surface, doesn’t mean that there’s nothing wrong hidden deep down inside…….

The insane part about it is that most of the time we know that we’ve grown or are growing out of the comfort of what we know, yet we choose to stay and continue living in the mentally discomfort of our own ways and or bad habits and lifestyle we try to keep around, knowing that it’s harmful to the growth of ourselves and personality, but we accept it thinking that we need to, when in reality it’s not an obligation to do so……we forget that as human beings we’re meant to evolve and change every now and again.

Even if we have things to us that stay the same, it doesn’t mean we fully are the same person, we change a little everyday and our perspectives on things change as well just like everything else to us…..

We may not like it, but it’s something that we have to let happen otherwise, we’re just going to be miserable and that is nothing, but the truth, the more we hold back on something that is natural to our human nature, the more we’ll continue to regret and become unhappy and we all know that regret is the one thing that we don’t want eating us alive mentally, because even when you think you’ve gotten over something, you’ll find that you really haven’t, it’s always there hidden in your mind even if it doesn’t seem like it.

Accepting something because we think we have to or because we’re used to it, will only make us angry deep under the surface and the more we continue adding fuel to it, the more we’ll start to resent and break and when we start to break everything around us starts collapsing……

Worrying about how people will feel, the way everything will go or even about other peoples lives, only adds stress to the person worrying no one else, it might worry others (people you’re close to) but it won’t do as much damage to them then it will to you and that’s because you’re the one feeling it the most which is why you stress out more, when in reality the only thing that is needed for you to focus on, is yourself in regards to the kind of change you want for you and what you’re willing to accept in your life.

If you accept what is already given, not just with other people, but with yourself and the way things are going in your life depending on whether you’re okay with it or not will depend on the way it makes you feel, if you feel good about it than, there’s no need to worry, but if deep down you’re not willing to accept it than, that should say something clearly……

Although we surround ourselves with different people and different things, we are the ones that have to be satisfied with what we bring and allow in our lives otherwise who’s the happy one!? If it’s not us we’ve done things wrong, we shouldn’t allow nor accept something just because we’re used to it or we feel we have to, not from other people, not even from our scared self, acceptance of the old shouldn’t go clashing with things that are new…..

If anything the old and new should come together in some way, because they’re just as tied together as anything else, we don’t have to get rid of what we already have, but we don’t have to just accept it either, keep what you have, but try to embrace what you can have to,

Even if you are unsure of it, you don’t want to be stuck with a routine that is draining and unfulfilling, accepting where you are and what is expected will only drive you up the walls, instead of being afraid and anxious of a new and most likely better change, try being anxious, but excited for it!!

I mean let’s face it no one is ever calm with new things and if you are, well than I don’t know how that’s possible, but I guess it can happen…….but new things should always bring you a little excitement even when it’s terrifying, I mean if you’re not scared a little, do you even really care!? Be anxious and scared, but be excited a little too, because acceptance of the old should never keep you from accepting what is new…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~