Daytime Firefly

So I see you came by for a visit, I knew that was you the other day and to see you again this morning, I knew you showing up by my window wasn’t just me being crazy haha…..where you came from i’ll never know, all I know is that you showed up during the daytime, when fireflies usually come out towards the night……maybe that was your way of letting me know that yes that was you the other day and you were just saying hi this morning!!

I thought I heard you yesterday a few times, at first I thought it could’ve just been me hearing things, but than again I don’t think it was, I know how you sound and whether it was just me or my thoughts about you being around was right and you were following me making sure I was okay and that, you always did follow me around and sometimes it drove me nuts, you didn’t know how to stay still, but I could never blame you for it, it was just you!!

I mean it was in your nature…….although it’s only been a few days, I miss you everyday my crazy girl……the way you’d spin around every time you thought we were going outside, how you’d get so excited about EVERYTHING!! So hyper you were, the word calm never appealed to you, you just did your own thing, we couldn’t tell you anything……..

It’s really hard not seeing you, right now you’d be sitting by my door or near it in someway or sitting by the front door, you always liked doing that for some reason, i’ll never understand that……and even though it’d do my head in, i’m going to miss how you’d let me know someone was at the door even when I was already heading towards it lol, again you were crazy,

but I loved you for it anyway……I know i’m going to have to keep strong and get through this somehow……and I know I will get through it, but that doesn’t mean i’m not going to wish you were here…..now even though your not with me, with me……I do know you’re around in your own way, i’m sure you haven’t quite left my side, again you were always near me,

but it’s just different and i’m having to find ways of dealing with it right now I don’t know if you’ll understand that…….it’s weird because I didn’t think it’d be this tough, yet it is…….and maybe that’s because we’ve had you for so long……but I know that eventually it won’t be so hard, yeah i’ll still miss you, but it’ll become a little easier……I just need to give it a bit…….

but i’m gonna try and be strong and keep looking up and around for you, you’ll probably show up unexpectedly, but I know you’ll make sure I know you’re with me someway, like today….you don’t know that fireflies don’t show up during the day much, but again you always did do what you wanted and you showed up anyway, just like the little rascal you are!!

Thank you for that, I know you felt me missing you and you made sure to let me know you were okay and it made me happy knowing that, I even saw you Ang flying around to give me reassurance that all is well and fine, thank you as well for that……I miss and love you so much my now little firefly……You behave yourself and please listen to Angel don’t cause him too much trouble alright…..knowing you though you still might, because of how sassy you are, but I just wanted to let you know I saw you and heard you and that i’m always going to look for your face!! I love you peanut!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

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