2 Years Of Blogging (Part 2)

Hiya, hope you’re all doing well, I know it’s been a week now since my first part of this post, I have been meaning to write the second part to it, but I didn’t want to write it, until I knew I felt good enough to write it and so that’s why it’s taking me a bit to get to this post, I didn’t want to rush it by any means……now to be completely honest…….

Where this post is going I don’t know, i’m kinda just going to go with it, it might just be a theme here now that i’m thinking about it, but let’s just see where this post chooses to travel…..okay so I know I didn’t quite go into details of what 2 years of blogging has felt like or has been in the first part of it…….and to share some thoughts on that part…….i’m not really sure what to express on what it’s been like…….when I first started this blog, it was to have it be a place where I felt I could express myself, there was no theme at all to it, it was just a blog of expression, however I felt I tried to express

myself in the best way that could……for while I feel like I did that okay if that makes sense!? To be fair I still consider this to be my blog of expression, there have been times where I tried to come up with a theme…..and I always had trouble with that…..

You see although I can theme certain things out…..blogging was one of those things I found hard to give a theme to…….there were many times where i’d worry and go into overthink mode wondering if I was doing all of this right or not and i’d even stress myself out about it and sometimes it’ll get to a point where I would stop writing for a while and i’d go back and fourth with myself on whether I should continue with this blog, you know the natural worries when it comes to having a blog and that……

There were times where i’d notice i’d write about anything whether it made sense or not, just because I felt I needed to post all the time and I guess doing that probably didn’t help creativity wise……let’s just say there’s a lot i guess I can talk on……that’d make it a very long post ha!! One of the main things though was, I made this blog to have as an outlet to express when I didn’t feel I was able to in the way I wanted to,

but even then I still felt it hard to express at times……when it comes to personal things even though i’ll express on it to an extent……you’ll never see me go into full details to whatever i’m expressing about and i’m detailed person irl (in real life) by the way, but if it’s too personal, although I won’t say exactly what it is about, i’ll still express on what i’m feeling just differently……that said, there were moments where I stopped expressing because I didn’t want it to come across a certain way…….yet I knew I had things I wanted to share that was kind of personal that I wanted to get out

Again it’s actually quite a lot now that i’m writing about it, there might just be a part 3 here……if so it’ll be shorter in words, but these 2 years on this blog well they’ve been something and by something I mean a mixture of different emotions and thoughts and all that jazz, again i’ll shorten it in the next part, I didn’t think there’d be so much expression happening to describe blogging for two years, but here we are, i’m going to try and make this 3rd and last post part the overall view of having this blog shorter

There’s still some stuff I want to express on because I don’t feel this to be finished so, I hope you all enjoy this second part in someway and if you haven’t read the first part you can find it here: 2 Years Of Blogging (PartΒ 1)

To be continued and finished……

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Be Prepared…..

Before we start going on with this topic first i’d like to give it a bit of light by saying that this title, is also a song title, from one of my favorite movies the Lion King, I wrote it out and thought of the song because yeah I just did!!

Now this may get serious, but it may not, i’m not really sure how i’m expecting this post to go and maybe I don’t need to, so i’m just going to let it flow out how it’s wanting to……they say it’s important to be prepared always, yet at times there are moments that even when you think you’re prepared, there’s always a chance something’s going to end up catching you off guard……no matter how many times you may do your best to make sure

You’re not missing something, a lot of those times you may because you can’t be prepared for everything, sometimes a lot of the things that happen, comes from it being unexpected and yeah not knowing what to expect can get stressful and there’s going to be moments where you may get frustrated or angry even, but when we start to feel those emotions……we have to keep in mind that it’s not going to always be something we can control.

Things happen and sometimes even when you’re prepared, it doesn’t mean that you’re always going to be fully prepared, prepared……maybe that doesn’t make much sense…..but what i’m trying to get at is……even when things seems to be a little out of control……be prepared for the moments that you’re not prepared for, it’s like that saying expect the unexpected….

A lot of the time we don’t know a lot that is going to happen, but it doesn’t mean that we can’t always suit up for it in the best way possible, we may not know what’s to come, but we have to believe that whatever it is, it’ll be good in someway and who knows it may just be the very thing that we’ve been looking for without realizing or most likely something we didn’t see coming that we didn’t even think about in the first place!!

When we least expect it, we will soon find or come across something that might just be hard to explain at this moment, but will soon make much more sense to where we know and feel it to be just that thing that we needed……it’s all about patience and trusting the process that whatever is coming, we may not always be entirely prepared, but for the most part we’re still prepared in a way, though there’s times we don’t always expect it.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Daytime Firefly

So I see you came by for a visit, I knew that was you the other day and to see you again this morning, I knew you showing up by my window wasn’t just me being crazy haha…..where you came from i’ll never know, all I know is that you showed up during the daytime, when fireflies usually come out towards the night……maybe that was your way of letting me know that yes that was you the other day and you were just saying hi this morning!!

I thought I heard you yesterday a few times, at first I thought it could’ve just been me hearing things, but than again I don’t think it was, I know how you sound and whether it was just me or my thoughts about you being around was right and you were following me making sure I was okay and that, you always did follow me around and sometimes it drove me nuts, you didn’t know how to stay still, but I could never blame you for it, it was just you!!

I mean it was in your nature…….although it’s only been a few days, I miss you everyday my crazy girl……the way you’d spin around every time you thought we were going outside, how you’d get so excited about EVERYTHING!! So hyper you were, the word calm never appealed to you, you just did your own thing, we couldn’t tell you anything……..

It’s really hard not seeing you, right now you’d be sitting by my door or near it in someway or sitting by the front door, you always liked doing that for some reason, i’ll never understand that……and even though it’d do my head in, i’m going to miss how you’d let me know someone was at the door even when I was already heading towards it lol, again you were crazy,

but I loved you for it anyway……I know i’m going to have to keep strong and get through this somehow……and I know I will get through it, but that doesn’t mean i’m not going to wish you were here…..now even though your not with me, with me……I do know you’re around in your own way, i’m sure you haven’t quite left my side, again you were always near me,

but it’s just different and i’m having to find ways of dealing with it right now I don’t know if you’ll understand that…….it’s weird because I didn’t think it’d be this tough, yet it is…….and maybe that’s because we’ve had you for so long……but I know that eventually it won’t be so hard, yeah i’ll still miss you, but it’ll become a little easier……I just need to give it a bit…….

but i’m gonna try and be strong and keep looking up and around for you, you’ll probably show up unexpectedly, but I know you’ll make sure I know you’re with me someway, like today….you don’t know that fireflies don’t show up during the day much, but again you always did do what you wanted and you showed up anyway, just like the little rascal you are!!

Thank you for that, I know you felt me missing you and you made sure to let me know you were okay and it made me happy knowing that, I even saw you Ang flying around to give me reassurance that all is well and fine, thank you as well for that……I miss and love you so much my now little firefly……You behave yourself and please listen to Angel don’t cause him too much trouble alright…..knowing you though you still might, because of how sassy you are, but I just wanted to let you know I saw you and heard you and that i’m always going to look for your face!! I love you peanut!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Let’s Talk New Horizons (Animal Crossing)

Alright so I have attempted a few times at writing about Animal Crossing New Horizons and those times…..well……I just never quite finished them, but we will finally go and share some things with it today, now before I go and express on Animal Crossing New Horizons I just want to say that I was planning on writing a different post first, buuut then something happened and this one is going to be first written instead……..

Okay so New Horizons what can I say about it!? Well i’ve been playing this game for about two months now, I started on my Island adventure on the 11th of April even though the game made it’s debut on the 20th of March, for those of you that don’t know or have never played Animal Crossing it’s pretty different from the other Animal Crossing games we had before, however the heart of it hasn’t changed that much, so even though the series has evolved into something different instead of a town, it’s now an island,

the concept and everything that makes Animal Crossing is still there!! Now I can talk a whole lot about this game and the different things with it, but than we’d probably be here all day or so and i’m sure you all have important things to tend to so I won’t do that, I must say one of my favorite things about this game is not only the moments that you’d get from it,

but also the bonds and connections that you develop with your fellow islanders/villagers, it’s odd thing to explain, but if you ever played any of the Animal Crossing games than you know what I mean….. sometimes you find that you instantly are drawn to a villager without really knowing why and so instead of questioning it you just go with it, than you have those villagers that you know seem nice, but don’t really feel a huge connection to so you kinda just keep them where they are, as well as those that don’t really appeal to you all that much (a.k.a you don’t like them)

Then there’s the soft spot villagers/islanders as I like to call them where at first you don’t know what to feel when you come across them and so out of curiosity you invite them to your island so you can get to know them a bit more and you don’t think they’d be someone you’d become attach to or at least feel attach to, but you keep them anyway because you learn that you like them and so after having them around your island for a while,

One day you come across them and they’re having some deep thoughts and you’re curious to what they’re thinking about, could be anything (literally) and as you approach them…..you find that they’re thinking of moving, now in this moment you’re not sure whether to let them leave or have the stay, part of you wants them to stick around, but then there’s that part that…..doesn’t mind if they leave……and so after thinking on it for a bit,

You tell them…..they can go and you feel fine with your decision to have them venture out towards another Island……but then there’s this moment where you’re having a heart to heart and they thank you for being their friend and it’s in that moment you realize…..they truly meant a lot to you and you feel that deeply……..I say all this because well….. I had that moment today with a purple cat that you might all know very well named Bob,

He asked to move today and it was actually a pretty tough decision, didn’t think it’d be, but it was and i’m going to admit it…..I got a little emotional, but it’s because of what he said, I didn’t expect it, but as cheesy and lame as it is, it got me and I felt like such a nerd that a video game, better yet a villager that I never had before made me emotional….like…..WHY BOB!!!

I’m never going to forget this day….but most importantly, i’m never going to forget bob, he’s just a snack loving, bug friending……don’t ask (there’s actually a few of them to be fair) purple cat who was a delight to have on my island and to be honest….i’m going to miss him and his interesting character personality, he was one of my 3 villager move ins after playing for a while and i’m glad I got to get to know him so thank you bob, for being bob…i’m sure i’ll see you around eventually, for now you go enjoy those new snacks!!

Hope you get my letters, I sent two…..but for those who might still be reading, thanks for that, I know this is a weird post, but really this game means a lot to me and if I can express it deeply, I would, but this is long enough so i’ll just end it here, maybe i’ll make a part 2 post…….maybe….

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Hold Your Defenses…..and Judgements……

By keeping our defenses at bay we keep from allowing what could potentially cause some kind of harm from entering, meaning if we go and pull out our defenses too soon, we may accidentally expose ourselves to unwanted situations, just by unawarely stepping on an unnoticed land mine, lying around……we have to try and stand guard even when we may not agree on certain circumstances, if we don’t allow judgements to target our mind, than they can have no affect on our state of mind.

Meaning our defenses are safe from impulsive actions, it’s not about always giving a reaction or feeling the need to add an opinion to every little thing we seem to disagree upon, but by allowing the judgements to seep through like sap from an oak tree, we keep from enjoying the sweetness of the sap and instead put our focus on a more bitter taste, that is not really meant to be there, but is now, because we chose to keep our attention on what could’ve had less of an affect had we just thought it through a little.

Now this isn’t something we need to wrap ourselves in frustration with if we did happened to go on our first instinct and find that it may not have been the best reaction and only affected us in a negative way than what we may have initially intended, while in the process also plummeting our own energy in the not so best way…….when that happens, keep away the judgements towards yourself and instead try and regroup, by doing that we learn to settle the mind and bring it back from a stressful state instead of allowing it to fully go out of control, become aware of your thoughts within that moment, show patience towards yourself as you’re regrouping,

and just keep your focus centered and know that sometimes the battles we think of challenging, may not actually need to be challenged, standing ground doesn’t always mean going at the first attack and when you see judgement heading towards you, allow it, but try and keep the interaction at a minimum or don’t interact at all and keep your peace of mind at peace.

You don’t want to lose any energy that keeps you afloat, when you pass judgement or receive judgement, that energy then turns bitter causing drainage (again in the not best way) losing you to miss out on any enjoyment that you might’ve been looking forward to whether planned or not in the process, so when you feel your guard getting ready to jump on impulse or you feel a judgement coming along, remember to take a second look at it and choose that battle wisely before taking action (preserve the energy)

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

8am Chat……

Good morning everyone, right now it’s around 8:20 in the morning where I am right now, almost 8:30am by the time you see this it’ll probably be past 8, but i’ll try and get this to be up still around the morning time. I hope everyone’s doing alright and are doing their best to keep well, now i’m going to be honest, i’m not really doing the best right now, I didn’t really want to admit that, but it’s how i’m feeling so I feel I shouldn’t keep that in

I woke up a little too early this morning, about i’m going to say 7:30am, 7:40am around those times anyway, but I didn’t get up to about almost 8am…….with everything happening, there’s so much different emotions going around and a lot of people are stressing out, i’ve been trying to keep as calm as I can and stay low on the stress levels, sometimes they want to go high, but I try and keep them intact as best as possible, but I still have moments where I just don’t feel the best and my emotions start kicking in.

It’s funny though, because me and a friend of mine we’re talking yesterday about all of this stuff happening and were saying that even though theirs a lot of negative energy in terms of thoughts and emotions involving everything, we should try and look at the positives to it, now most would say there aren’t any, but there’s always a positive in something right!?

It’s just I guess it’s not easy to find one right now with all that’s going on, it’s kinda like spotting something that’s extra ordinary within a specific place and you see it and you’re so mesmerized by it, as you try and get closer a closer look at it, all these different things start happening all at once, but it’s still in your view to where you can see and just when you think you’ve caught a moment to get closer to it to where you’re almost able to grab it,

Everything just goes and starts back up again…….like seeing a very bright star in the sky in the night sky, you always feel you can grab it, even though it’s like a trillion miles away…..but maybe that’s the good thing to it, as long as it’s still in view, you’ve always got something to leave you feeling hopeful and with that, it lets you know that everything is going to be alright.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Creators Spotlight: The Flood, Midnight Mind & Paraphernalia (Updated)

Update: Okay so relooking at this, I felt I should change it, so for those reading it how it is now, just know that it won’t be like this later, some things might stay in, but the rest i’m going to try and change around…….

I got to read 3 great posts, by three great writers the other day and I just wanted to write a post about it, it was originally going to be a video that I wanted to do, but I later decided that writing on it would be better, I thought what they did was creative and I thought all of their posts were incredible and I wanted to share it in someway and I hope that’s okay

Just to give you a quick idea on what their post is about, without spoiling anything, they took a song lyric from one of their favorite artist and wrote a story with it, it was very cool, amazing and pretty creative too, very creative actually, they’re are a lot blog posts that i’ve read, but reading theirs, well let’s just say there aren’t much words I can say to describe them, but their way of writing and expression is something truly special!!

I can’t really express what i’m trying to say right now, but it’s good, when you read their posts, you’ll know what I mean right away, but i’m telling they really are amazing writers, but don’t take it from me, read their posts and have a look for yourselves, I think you’ll find it to be really interesting, I sure did!! You can check them and their blogs out here:

The Flood: A Shadow Tilts It’s Head At Me (Sarah’s Post)

Midnight Mind: Spirits In The Dark Are Waiting (Jul’s Post)

Paraphernalia: I Will Let The Wind Go Quietly (Clara’s post)

Just a heads up though when you’re reading, the posts that i’ve shared are hosted ones between the three of them, they did a collaboration post, which means they’ve gone and hosted each others post on their blogs so you’ll be reading them in a different way, but don’t worry they’ve been nice to share the links on their blogs to each others post so you can easily access them once you’re finished reading the one you’ve read, but do go over and share some love and and support toward Sarah, Clara and Jul’s blogs,

I’m pretty sure they’d appreciate it and i’m sure it’d mean a lot to them too, they’re all talented and great writers and I think they deserve for their blogs to be read so if you can and are interested do go check them out!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

I Swore Myself I’d Leave Myself Alone……

For those wondering, this line is from one of my favorite songs by one of my all time favorite artists, i’ve talked about her before, Alexz Johnson, not sure if that rings a bell, but…..the last time I talked about her, was when I was talking about her latest song called Weight, it’s been a while since I actually listened to that song, now she’s got new ones, plus a new album, that I still haven’t heard…..there’s a lot of songs from the artists I listen to that I need to check out, I always think of listening to them, but I never really get around to it, I might have to pick a day to just sit and have a listen to them.

But enough about music talk, that’s not actually where it was going….I just thought i’d have a chat about things if that’s alright…..if you do want to talk about music do let me know and i’ll make sure to write a separate post focusing on that……if you’re curious to check out the post that I mentioned you can find it here: Now Playing….Weight By Alexz Johnson

Anyway let’s have a chat shall we!?…..okay so i’m going to be honest i’m not really sure what i’m planning on talking about, I just know that i’d like to chat a bit, now normally i’d express the things i’m wanting to express, but maybe we should do it a little differently, how about we talk on the line of Alexz’s song careless and it’s meaning, now when you look at it, you’d say it’s pretty self explanatory right!? Yeah well i’d say so too, anytime I hear this song and this line comes up in the song, I always feel it and it’s because it’s a relatable line, most of us don’t know how to leave ourselves alone or better yet ease up on ourselves, we’re always so harsh for some reason.

I mean i’m sure that reason is to make sure we’re our best self, which is great, but we always tend to be the most harsh when we know we’re already feeling a certain way, it’s like even when we know we should shape up and get over our feelings, we’re still harsh about it, saying things like “you’re always doing that” “why can’t you just stop thinking so hard” and so on and it always feels like there’s two versions of ourselves the being that we are, but also this other person whose meant to be there to keep us moving or at least does they’re best to keep us on our feet……

Now we all know the saying on “tough love” and for some it works, but others not always, I mean why do we always think being judgmental and scolding ourselves is the best thing to do!? Why can’t we instead be a little patient with ourselves!? If there’s a moment where we’re feeling agitated, emotional and other non great feelings, why can’t we support ourselves for a moment and just allow ourselves to feel!?

This might sound confusing and may not make much sense……but what I mean is, we shouldn’t go screaming at ourselves because we’re feeling a certain way and we shouldn’t go judging ourselves either, getting more upset with ourselves especially when we’re already upset, doesn’t really fix things does it!? If anything it only makes us more upset,

because there’s more pressure being added, now sure pressure is apart of life, but do we really need to give ourselves more pressure!? We have to be better at being patient with ourselves and not be so harsh with the things we do, especially with how we handle our emotions and thoughts, because those are the big things that really can get to us, if we let it…….

I think instead of going for the attack, the best way to handle those moments, is to just be more aware and do our best to make sure we don’t overload and if we know we need a moment to release thoughts, emotions and so fourth, we just gotta let ourselves have that moment, but we also shouldn’t allow ourselves to get wrapped in it for too long,

Just take it as going for a walk or hiking of some sort, take that moment, but don’t allow it to overtake you when you need it and also just patience……we may need to take this line of Alexz’s song as a reminder for the times we go to be harsh to ourselves, but stop because we’re having to remember to be aware not to, maybe if we do that, we’d see a bit of a difference.

But that’s all I have, now before we close this off, I just wanted to share that, there’s a new video on my channel if you’re interested, I uploaded it Wednesday, since we’re getting close to midnight here, i’m just having a bit of a chat, but if you want to check that out, you can find it here: 7pm With A Different View but anyway I should probably head to sleep now, seeing as it’s now midnight, I hope you all are well and you guys have a good night.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

When In Doubt…..Shake Up The Energy A Bit….

There are days where sometimes our energy isn’t always quite on the high level and when we encounter those days we tend to stay wherever the energy is…..by staying with the energy we let ourselves to get pulled in deeper than we may like to, especially when it’s negatively effective, but just because we may have moments of unknown feelings lingering around,

Doesn’t mean we can’t switch it up a bit, I recently did a video talking about this on my channel, expressing different ways to shake up our own energy when it’s in a low state, you can check it out here if you like: Shake Up The Energy

It can be a little difficult finding different ways to get our energies up, but you’d be surprise on what could work, it doesn’t have to be anything big, the smallest thing can have a big effect to the way we feel, be it music, certain video games, even just sitting outside for a couple hours can change how our energies hang around us, so even when we don’t really know why we may be feeling the way we are, at least we know that there’s always something that can take the low energies that we carry and transform them to be more lighter and better feeling where we want to stand with it.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

Processing….

You ever have a moment happen whether it was unexpected or not so unexpected and you happen to just go within that moment for a second not really knowing what to expect, but once you find yourself in it it’s not until after to where you really realize what just happened and so you find yourself just still trying to process what actually happened!?

Sometimes you have to take a moment and take things in a lot of the time it won’t really make sense and sometimes you’ll find yourself asking a lot of questions, but even when we aren’t quite sure on what exactly is going on taking the time to process things can really help you to think clearly about everything. We don’t always know what is the best way to process things at times, I don’t think there’s really a right way to process…….

I think you’re just meant to process it how you’re feeling it in the moment, depending on what you’re feeling, it might leave you filled with emotions or other feeling and sometimes you won’t always be able to control them, but as long as we do our best to keep things calm especially when not really all that prepared, then the process won’t really seem all that much, it’s also important to make sure that when we find ourselves thinking of things that need a little bit of a moment to process, we don’t go overthinking about it for too long, when we allow our brains to overthink, we give it too much power and we end up having a hard time trying to quiet it down.

So whenever it comes to processing, we just have to try and keep calm and keep our brains from over flowing with thoughts and know that if we need to feel what we’re trying to process, it’s okay to feel them feel them, when we allow ourselves to feel while processing everything, we let any pent up emotions we’ve been burying surface and allow them to release from our system, allowing us to feel a little lighter, letting the rest of our thoughts come to us a little more clearer…….fully processing things even when we don’t quite get it in the moment, can really help make things a bit easier.

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa