Up Next: Encanto (Movie Thoughts Review)

Happy Monday and Happy Martin Luther King Day! It’s been an interesting start of a Monday and by interesting I mean full of unexpected surprises and not in the best of ways, with last nights weather which was a mixture of both snow and rain it got a bit flooded, but everything is under control and it wasn’t too crazy luckily! On a whole different note, it made for a good theme as the movie that I’ll be talking about in a moment has some similar vibes to it, only without the flooding…..on with the movie talk!

Now as some of you may already know, I wrote a bit about Encanto around two weeks ago I believe or close to two weeks, I didn’t exactly give my thoughts in full detail then just some small brief ones and that’s because I wanted to really sit and discuss it, I feel with movies because we’re just seeing everything happen all at once it’s not always easy to take everything in, sometimes it’s not that hard, but other times it can be a little too much!

However Encanto isn’t one of those “too much going on” kind of movies, obviously the first reaction will always be the best reaction 9/10, but sometimes you’ll have moments where it may take the 2nd or 3rd reaction that can make a moment feel right, that’s just my personal opinion though! Honestly I just wanted to re watch the movie because I enjoyed it so much the first time, it’s probably one of my favorites at the current moment, I obviously have to watch more movies (Don’t worry I have a personal watchlist….kinda) regardless I’d still consider it a personal favorite!

Although I probably could’ve talked about it the first time in full detail, I wanted to watch it again so that way I could really gather everything in and see if I felt anything new with it, I did and didn’t, the did part is I found that I was actually more emotional watching the second time then the first and the didn’t part is I felt the same way about it the first time I watched it as well as the second time! Now I will explain my thoughts on it fully sometime this week in an upcoming podcast episode, I just wanted to share a few words and let you know what to expect coming up!

I do plan/have in mind to do the soundtrack because let me tell you Encanto’s music is *chef kiss* beautiful and it deserves to be talked about, so I hope that you look forward to that as well, not sure if I want to do that as a podcast episode or if I want to write it out or maybe do something different with it, I’ll have to decide on what I want to do there, but for the meantime keep a lookout for the upcoming episode where I go a bit into depth on the movie, I am excited and look forward to getting my thoughts out on it, hopefully you guys like it once it’s done!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Encanto (Brief Thoughts)

I know that we’re no longer in the year 2021, but I did want to talk a little bit about a movie that I watched within the closing parts of that year! I won’t be going over it in full detail, due to the fact that I would like to also give some thoughts with it in an upcoming episode, although it’s been a long while that I’ve recorded, a month actually to be fair, however I do have it in mind to get back into it…..when exactly!? That I haven’t decided, but I will try to get back to it soon!

In the meantime we’ll just discuss some of it here for now! For those wondering what Encanto is, it’s a movie, an animated Disney movie/musical that recently released I believe sometime last year (a little weird we’re saying that now, I mean 2021 was literally just last week) I don’t really know when of last year, but that’s okay I’ll just look it up once I’m done!

(Update: As I was writing that last sentence, I ended up just looking it up anyway, it released on the 24th of November)

Now if you haven’t watched Encanto yet, I would definitely, definitely recommend checking this one out, it is soooo good, it’s a bit hard to explain the story of it writing wise, I would need to re watch it again and get a refresher of it and properly allow my thoughts to really take it all in again! There was a lot to Encanto and I want to be able to give my best and honest opinions of it….SPOILER…..I don’t have a negative thought on it, I bet you thought I was going to give you a spoiler on the movie didn’t you!? Don’t worry, we don’t do that here, well at least I try not to, I don’t like spoilers myself so I wouldn’t go and do that to someone else and if I do feel like I’m going to spoil something for someone, I do make sure to give a heads up beforehand! Back to Encanto, I love the movie and I look forward to really getting into it later when I’ve taken it in for a second time!

One thing I will will say is, this movie does get you emotional, now it may not be like that for everyone, I know everybody has different emotional levels to them, but this movie left me feeling teary eyed a few times not going to lie…..then again, I’m an emotional type of person anyway, so whether I’m listening to a sappy love song or any song that has a very deep meaning with beautifully written lyrics or I’m watching a movie that maybe relatable or it’s story is too much to handle (in a good way) there’s a 95 percent chance that I will cry, but that’s just who I am, I can try and hold it, but I usually don’t if it’s an emotional moment, I just let it happen!

It’s best to allow your emotions to come out when it’s feeling something strongly and that’s not just for when you’re watching movies or listening to music, I mean that in a general sense! Going back on track though, Encanto is very beautiful….although there is a key meaning to it, you may find yourself taking more than just one message from it! Plus the soundtrack is quite interesting, but really good, although I’ve only heard it once when watching the movie, I still enjoyed it!!

There’s a lot of things you wouldn’t really expect from it until you’re watching it for yourself, but one of the things that I really do like and admire with it, is the storytelling and if you’re from a Spanish speaking family certain things within this movie will be quite relatable and even if it’s not relatable and you’re not from a Spanish speaking family, it doesn’t mean you can’t still enjoy it or feel like you can’t watch it and think to yourself “I know what that feels like” we all go through similar things in different ways, we don’t have to be the same in order to know what something feels like, we can still relate and be different!

You can learn a lot from Encanto, like I said it’s hard to describe at the moment which is why I will be re watching it so I can try and explain it better in the best way I feel I’m able to, but I would without a doubt recommend that you check it out if you haven’t already, it is a tear jerker, but it’s one of those movies that once you start watching it, just know your eyes might not leave the screen, at least that’s how I feel, I know everyone has different opinions and reactions to things so you may or may not feel the same, but it is worth giving a chance and watching, see what your thoughts are of it!

Those are some of my thoughts of it, I know it’s brief, but hopefully I was able to have it get considered to be on your watchlist and if I’ve not convinced you here, just know I will try again lol, anyway hope you all have a good rest of the day, take care, stay safe and Happy 3 Kings Day for those that celebrate it out there, see you soon!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: 7 Years By Lucas Graham

This song might be one of the hardest songs to at least try and come up with an opening for! Hope you all are having a nice Wednesday….my Wednesday is a bit all over the place, I had a bit of a sleepless night yesterday so I’m not entirely well rested, but I got a bit of sleep….and I say that because I’m writing this post at the current moment so my mind focus is half way there today which I can deal with!

I’m not really sure how many of you remember this beautiful tune let alone have even heard of it, if you haven’t listen to 7 years By Lucas Graham, I would definitely recommend it, the storytelling within this song will have you in tears and leave you with chills and if it doesn’t I still think that you will feel something with it, I mean I’ve just recently came back to this tune, like I have always know it to be around and there with all the other songs I half and half listen to on my Spotify, but before I could never listen to it often because of how moving and deep it was!

Anytime it would come on, I would skip it, not because I didn’t like it! I love 7 years like I said it’s one of Lucas Grahams best songs that he released, although I don’t listen to a lot of his stuff, I still truly appreciate it for what it is and how deep he was willing to go with the lyrics, but I always had to skip this one and the reason is because I honestly didn’t want to cry every time I heard it! I listened to this song TWICE yesterday and both times I had tears coming down my face as nerdy as that sounds, but I’ll admit it, I can’t help myself when I hear good music and to me 7 years is good music!

It’s like that with a few songs truthfully, but we’ll just keep on the topic here, I don’t know what it is about this song, it really gives you mixed emotions in a sense of you hear it and you can’t help, but to hear it more than once to really take in the lyrics, however you also don’t want to listen to it, because of how well it pulls at your emotions and gets you to really think and understand the perspective he was singing from.

It leaves you feeling as though with each lyric…..it’s not just a personal thing for him, but it feels like a personal thing to you as well, there’s a lot that is relatable about the song which is why you would feel it deep within the soul and core of yourself! It’s funny because, it was this year that this song sorta came back to me, it was when I went to PR for the first time and I heard it on the radio and as much as I wanted to skip it, I could not so I had to listen to it, after that trip though, I hadn’t heard it for a few months, until around maybe mid November I want to say to….I stop listening to music for a bit on Spotify and literally yesterday I heard it again…..

It’s actually pretty fitting for the season seeing that it was released during the month of December and if you really take it in and feel it, you’ll notice how it’s about reflection and what season do we do the most reflecting!? Winter, why!? Well the reason to that is due to the fact that it gets closer to the end of the year and so we tend to recollect every thought, every moment and just everything in general because that’s our way of getting ready for the new year to come and it’s for that reason alone that when you hear this song, you feel the winter atmosphere within it!

It’s cold and not in a heartless way, but in a way of just allowing our minds to wander and ponder about all these unknowing feelings that we kept in for so long, as well as some feelings we didn’t even know we had lingering inside of us until they decided to surface…..and it’s songs like 7 years that really gets you to do some of your own self reflection and understand certain situations better, understand your own or other people’s emotions and all that jazz! It can also help to force out anything that you felt yourself bottle up for a while,

Afraid of sharing what it is what you may have been truly feeling…7 years to me is literally what a sleepless night feels like…..not being able to rest, because you’ve got a million and 5 thoughts coming at you all at once where you feel you won’t be able to sleep until your brain is done getting rid of all those backed up junk mail that we just keep storing away up until it’s time to sort through them always on the days that you may not really want to if I’m being honest….I still feel I have more to say with this song, I don’t know how much more really, but all I know is…..I feel there’s more I would like to add giving my thoughts on the song, I’ll stop here and if I have any other feeling on it, I’ll write it down and share them, maybe as an upcoming episode or video…..if not then I’ll just part 2 it as a blog post….we’ll see how it goes!

If you’re interested in checking out the song, I’ll share the link to it for you guys! That’s everything for now, I hope you all have a good rest of the day, take care, stay safe and I’ll see you soon!

7 Years By Lucas Graham

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June 31st….Oh Wait No It’s July….

This is just a joke guys, I know there isn’t a 31st in June…..a little shocking that we’re in July already…..I think everyone is surprised, it don’t feel anything like July yet, it’s a bit weird, hopefully the start of the month has treated you all well so far, even though we literally just started, the one thing I can say is that we’ve entered the month of my blog anniversary, it’s not yet….but it is coming soon and I have no idea what I should do for it…..I’ve been trying to come up something different to do, we’ll be going on 3 years here on the 11th of this month, 2 more weeks….actually a week from this Sunday coming up, so not this Sunday the following one, just making sure I’m making sense here!

Now I know that I’m not really looking to do anything too grand for my 3 years of blogging, I’m not really a showy kind of person, but I do want to do something special, now I’ve been thinking about this….had I not already brought in a podcast 4 months early that could of been a cool thing to bring in, but it’s here now, which is good, I’m happy that I decided to give it a go when I did! By the way it’s actually 3 months not 4, I introduced the Podcast here on the 3rd of April, but my first episode was uploaded the 19th of March, although on Spotify it will say the 20th, same as when Animal Crossing New Horizons was released (don’t ask) yeah I know, not sure why I did it like that, I think I just wanted to test it out before anything, at least that’s what I’m thinking!

But yeah, Podcast is already a thing soooo, I have to add something else, I did have some things in mind…..one of them I’m going to do when the anniversary arrives, it’s just a post that I’m going to do talking about what it’s been like blogging for 3 years….nothing too special there, but besides that I’m still trying to figure out what would be good to bring here….I could always poll it and have you guys be apart of it, which I wouldn’t mind, I’d love to include you guys, only if you want that is! I could add some choices I have in mind that you could choose from ooor if you have any suggestions on what you’d like to see/read mainly, if anything comes to mind, I could also go based on topics that I did before that you want me to do more of, for example Now Playing….you can choose an artist or song that you want me to listen to and I will give my thoughts on that artist/song the best way I can, stuff like that, just to shake things up, but of course, it’s your choice if you want to do that!!

I don’t know, I just want to do something different this time around and I would love for you guys to be apart of it with me, it’s been quite the journey, even though somedays it doesn’t feel like it, I can’t believe we’re close to 3 years on here though, SUPER close too….I know we’ve got some time left to decide, but I just thought I’d write about where my mind has been these past few days on the very first day of July! Have I mentioned how it doesn’t quite feel like July yet!?

Anyway, I hope you’re all doing well on this fine evening, you have a good rest of the day, stay cool and hydrated, as well as safe!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Journey Of June….

Hiya everyone, hope you had a good day today and you’ve been keeping cool and hydrated! I can’t believe we’re already on the last day of June, I swear it feels like this month just started…..more on that later though! I don’t know why, but I always think there’s a 31st to June, but there isn’t which I find to be weird by the way, but hey that’s just how the calendar is, what can we do!?

Still though, it really does feel like we just started this month and now it’s ending….although Summer isn’t my favorite…..I do like the month of June, I didn’t think July was this close, I thought we were going to have it arrive on Friday, but turns out it’ll be here tomorrow…..well, more like midnight…..I don’t know how to feel here, I guess I should just accept it and embrace the new month arriving! It was an alright month June, it had it’s good moments and not so great moments, however I still had an alright time with it, do I wish we had more time with it!? Yeah a bit, but I know we’ll see it again…..I can’t say what July has in store, but whatever it is…..I just hope it’s good!

Sorry this isn’t that long of a post, but I did record an episode upon this topic that’s slight lengthy, but not too lengthy, it’s a bit of the same thing here, but with more thoughts added to it, which is why I didn’t say too much in this post, but I hope you like the episode on my overall feelings with the month of June, have a goodnight and let’s give July and nice warm and cool welcome…..this heat is killing me!

Let's Talk: June (Thoughts) Ep. 26 Daydreamer's Podcast

Hiya, Happy Wednesday! In today's episode, we're just having a chat about the month of June and how it's been…..can't believe it's the last day of the month….hope you like this little chatting session kind of episode! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Gris

Good evening, hope you’re all doing well and are keeping cool and safe in this very very hot weather, at least it’s super hot where I am, hopefully it’s a little cooler where you are! Hope you all enjoyed your weekend as well, my weekend was pretty alright, wasn’t too bad, It’s just been really hot that’s all, at least we’re getting rain soon so that’s good, we kind of need it! You know we’ve headed into summer when it starts getting REALLY hot!

Enough about the weather though, let’s talk about something different, let’s talk about video games and feeling, don’t worry it’ll be a good one…..I’m hoping anyway….nah you might’ve already guessed what game we’re going to be discussing, that game being Gris, I never know how it’s meant to be pronounced so I pronounce it as I see it and to me it’s like Bliss, but Gris, weird I know…..I really love this game, I haven’t played it in a very long time though, I think the last time I played it was…..about a few months ago, but the gameplay of it is so interesting, I remember when I first saw the trailer to it, it was actually from one of the video game blogs I follow on here, if I’m not mistaken it was the blog Video Games Blogger that I saw the trailer on, I thought it was the coolest looking game I ever saw and I made sure to put it one my games to get list…..I think I ended up getting it not last Christmas, but the Christmas before that!

Now even though I got the game, I didn’t actually play it until a couple months after I got it, sometimes when I buy a game, I don’t always play it right away, most times I’ll wait a while to play it, it all depends on the game really and how I’m feeling, the day I actually played the game, it was on a not so great time, I played it on the day I lost my dog, I remember I tried playing Animal Crossing, but I just weren’t feeling it that day and so I switched games (no pun intended) and played that game, I don’t know why I chose that one on that day, I guess it just felt like the right time even though I weren’t really aware of it then…..but I played it and what’s crazy about that game is, It’s all about emotions and going on a journey with those emotions, when I found out about my dog, I was having a hard time processing everything and so that game helped me to focus my attention on something else for a while

The only thing with it is that, I played it to get out of my head for a while, but I didn’t actually expect to connect with it so much, there’s a lot of depth with this game, it’s story is literally all about getting through rough times, there’s a lot of serious issues covered in it and although I knew that when I got the game, I didn’t think it was going to be so relatable in that moment, I remember playing it for a few hours that day before I started to thinking about everything again, but in the moment that I played the game, it really helped me to feel better and it helped me to kind of get through things…..it took a while before I learned to accept what had happened, but I really appreciate what this game gave me in the moment that I needed it, it took me on a journey that I didn’t expect to go on, but I enjoyed it!

Now I’m not saying I finished the game, I still have a bit to go…..I think I’m close to the end of the game, but I’m not done with it, I don’t play it all the time, only when I feel I need to and a lot of the time, when I choose to play it, it’s because I feel I need to, when I start to get a little down or I’m thinking a little too much or I’m just not in the best of moods, I play that game, I do it every time I feel low, but like I said just when I feel I need to! One of my favorite parts about the game is when I get to boss fights and as much as they give me heart attacks (not really) but I do get a bit of anxiety playing it, but that’s only because the boss fights are pretty intense, however whenever I help the character in the game overcome the fears and difficult moments that she’s faced with…..a part of me also feels like I’ve overcome something as well….that might be weird to say, but I don’t know it’s just how I feel!

Also it’s just very pleasing to the eye, it’s such a beautiful game, the art style is super fantastic, it also has some adorable moments to it, it’s a really great game, probably one of my favorites, although I don’t play it quite often, whenever I do pick it up, I always remember why I enjoy it! Now some of the boards can be very hard to get through, but you figure them out, you grow to enjoy it and embrace it for what it is, at least that’s how I see it, it’s probably different for everyone else, but I enjoy it, Gris is a really good game and I would recommend those looking for a game to try or would like to have a game to connect with to give it a go or if you just want to play it because it sounds interesting, It’s an adventure/platform type game so if that’s what you’re into, check it out, I don’t think you’ll be disappointed!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

DragonFly Season…. (Part 1)

Hope you guys are having a nice Monday! I’d like to say that I am, but I’m not going to sit here and lie to you, I haven’t really been in the best of moods for the past 2 days now, 3 if you’re counting today…..I’ve been trying to get out of my head, but I’ve been finding myself in this deep thought process this past weekend, although I’m always thinking, but it’s a different kind of thought mode I’m in, I’m just feeling a whole lot of emotions that I’m trying so hard to push down, but it’s been really hard!

One of the reasons that I know why I’m feeling this way is because…..well it’s coming to a year that I’ve lost my dog, which probably doesn’t mean anything to those reading this and that’s okay, I know it’s different for everyone and I don’t expect you to feel this feeling with me, that’s not what I want anyway….it’s going to be a year on Sunday the 27th, I’ve been trying not to get emotional about it, to a lot of people losing a pet probably isn’t a thing to get all upset about, but for me…..it was really hard, my dog wasn’t just a pet, she was more than to me, I’ve had a lot of different pets in my life a few cats, dogs from before, fishes, a turtle for a second ha….but Peanut…the name of my dog

She was something, she loved being around everyone, she was a people kind of dog, if you didn’t like dogs, she was going to be the one to change your mind, that’s how loveable she was! She didn’t like other dogs though, at least if she did, she showed it very oddly, always barking at them she was…..she was sweet, but for some reason she also had this mean side to her, but I loved her anyway…..I kind of remember when we got her, she was still kind of a puppy and she was a little shy when I first saw her!

Fun fact:

I didn’t actually pick her, she was picked for me, but even though I didn’t necessarily choose her, she choose me which lend me to be stuck with her….and from there in a very weird way, we bonded! I say very weird way because she was completely opposite to me, but I sometimes felt deep down we were a little similar….I know it’s weird, I mean she was a dog and I’m human, but I like to think your pet reflects you and for that reason can become pretty similar to you as well! Even though she had a way to get under my skin with the things that she did, like how she’d always growl at me and do things out of spite….I loved her, no matter how crazy she’d drive me, she was my fur best friend….I never allowed her in my room and then after a while I would let her in, sometimes she’d wait for me to invite her in and other times she’d just barge in whenever she was feeling extra bold, she was always a sassy one, but that was my Peanut….I wouldn’t have traded her for the world!

I hated the way I lost her and I don’t really like using that word, because of how strong it is, but it’s how I feel and felt then, I really didn’t like the way she went, I won’t ever talk about it on here because it’s too personal, but with what happened…..I think it’s going to be a thing that bothers me for a long time, I’ve grown to accept what happened even though I wish it didn’t, I’ve accepted it! I always think about her and sometimes I wish she was still here so I could hug her and mess with her and just let her know that I really did love her, I loved her so much,

She was the first dog I ever had that I bonded with, she didn’t always listen to me at times, she didn’t even take me seriously when I would yell at her whenever she did something wrong, she didn’t like when I yelled at her, but I knew that she loved me, she showed it in her own way, but I still knew it! I miss her a lot, always, there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about her, she helped me through a lot even though she never knew it and for that I’ll always be grateful for the time I did get with her, despite what happened, I’ll always be thankful for the moments that I was able to share with her as well as the moments she brought to me and for the special opposite bond we had!

You will forever be my Firefly and Dragonfly at times and I know you’ll always be with me cause you follow me wherever I go, well when you feel like it that is…..I love you Peanut, Thank you for everything! That’s one of the reasons I’ve been a little down these past few days, the closer it gets, the more it starts to get to me, but I’m doing my best to not think on it so much, it’s extremely hard, but I’m trying….as for everything else I’m trying to work through that too, if anyone is reading this, I just want to say thank you for listening to me, it means a lot!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

There’ll Always Be A Rainbow Hanging Over Your Head

Not the exact lyrics of the song Rainbow by Kacey Musgrave, but it’s close enough, yesterday I sat outside I ended up having a bit on my mind and I didn’t know why or where it came from, it just kind of showed up out of nowhere so after I had dinner I just sat outside for a couple of hours, plus it was pretty nice out so I thought why not, little did I know we were getting a bit of a thunder storm towards the late evening, that didn’t stop me from continuing to hang out outside though, I love the rain, so I didn’t mind sitting outside with it, plus I was under something to keep me dry so it was all good!

I purposely went towards the rain though, because like I said I love the rain and I love the feel of it and also I like to get my hair wet whenever it rains, it’s one of my favorite reasons to why I like the rain, call me weird if you want I already know it! I tell you something sitting outside while it’s raining is pretty peaceful and very very nice, the thunder and lighting flashing in the sky can be pretty freighting, but the rain itself is very calming, I can sit and watch it for hours if you let me, I’ve done it a few times already!

I don’t know what it is about the rain I just always liked and appreciated it…..but that aside….yesterday I didn’t really know why I was randomly feeling things after a while I just started singing to myself, I sang a song by one of my all time favorite artist, you might have already heard me talking about her a few times, Alexz Johnson is her name, but I ended up singing a song from her latest album Still Alive, which is also the name of the song I sang to myself, I love that song, it’s so good! Not too long after singing the song to myself…..I’m not really sure what made me look at the sky, well I always look up at the sky, but when I was sitting there in my own mind, I glanced up and I saw something, that something was a rainbow…..

I had to double check because it was a little hard to tell at first when looking at it, it appeared slightly faint, but visible enough to notice it, like it wasn’t the brightest, but you still saw it and when I confirmed the rainbow indeed in the sky, it made me happy and smile a bit, I when to grab my camera so I can take a photo of it, but I then came to the realization that the battery had died, I couldn’t even turn the camera on I forgot to charge it and of course the one time I would’ve liked to have captured that, I couldn’t, but I was okay with it, I took it as maybe I was just meant to see it and not photograph it, I also wanted to take a picture of the sky because it was a very pretty color as the sun was setting and all, but again I couldn’t lol, but regardless, it was a good moment, it made me feel a little better seeing it,

Next time I’ll make sure that my camera’s charged, but this time round, it was just good to see it…..It’s one I won’t forget, well I’m going to try at least, but I’m sure I’ll always remember it, I just wanted to share that it was kind of on my mind a bit!

Hope you’re all doing well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa