How to start this…….you were here……you were here yesterday with me……you might’ve also been hanging around in general, but I knew that I wasn’t going crazy and today proved it right with your little paw prints appearing all over the place……but I knew you were with me yesterday at first I thought I was just over my head and that it was just me,
but nope it was you, you were here and for a good while too at that, you stayed with me, sure you went in and out a few times, but you always came back for a bit and when you did, you always sat right next to me even when I moved about, wherever I went you laid next to me……I know you eventually left though, but within the moments that you were around
I was happy and glad that you had visited and I made sure to appreciate your presence for the time you were here for…….i’m not really sure where you entered first, but I guess that’s not all that important, all that matters is that you were here and you let me know you were here and for that i’m happy……I miss you everyday my crazy girl, thank you for coming by to visit and for spending some time with me in the process……
It was good to have you around again, even if it was only for the moment. I’m sure you’ll make your presence known again when you’re not busy doing whatever you’re doing, be it running around, driving people nuts or just being peanut haha, you know i’ll keep looking for you, but until then……I’m glad to know you’re doing okay and are well, I love you and I look forward to your next visit, be good and try not to cause too much trouble alright!!
So I see you came by for a visit, I knew that was you the other day and to see you again this morning, I knew you showing up by my window wasn’t just me being crazy haha…..where you came from i’ll never know, all I know is that you showed up during the daytime, when fireflies usually come out towards the night……maybe that was your way of letting me know that yes that was you the other day and you were just saying hi this morning!!
I thought I heard you yesterday a few times, at first I thought it could’ve just been me hearing things, but than again I don’t think it was, I know how you sound and whether it was just me or my thoughts about you being around was right and you were following me making sure I was okay and that, you always did follow me around and sometimes it drove me nuts, you didn’t know how to stay still, but I could never blame you for it, it was just you!!
I mean it was in your nature…….although it’s only been a few days, I miss you everyday my crazy girl……the way you’d spin around every time you thought we were going outside, how you’d get so excited about EVERYTHING!! So hyper you were, the word calm never appealed to you, you just did your own thing, we couldn’t tell you anything……..
It’s really hard not seeing you, right now you’d be sitting by my door or near it in someway or sitting by the front door, you always liked doing that for some reason, i’ll never understand that……and even though it’d do my head in, i’m going to miss how you’d let me know someone was at the door even when I was already heading towards it lol, again you were crazy,
but I loved you for it anyway……I know i’m going to have to keep strong and get through this somehow……and I know I will get through it, but that doesn’t mean i’m not going to wish you were here…..now even though your not with me, with me……I do know you’re around in your own way, i’m sure you haven’t quite left my side, again you were always near me,
but it’s just different and i’m having to find ways of dealing with it right now I don’t know if you’ll understand that…….it’s weird because I didn’t think it’d be this tough, yet it is…….and maybe that’s because we’ve had you for so long……but I know that eventually it won’t be so hard, yeah i’ll still miss you, but it’ll become a little easier……I just need to give it a bit…….
but i’m gonna try and be strong and keep looking up and around for you, you’ll probably show up unexpectedly, but I know you’ll make sure I know you’re with me someway, like today….you don’t know that fireflies don’t show up during the day much, but again you always did do what you wanted and you showed up anyway, just like the little rascal you are!!
Thank you for that, I know you felt me missing you and you made sure to let me know you were okay and it made me happy knowing that, I even saw you Ang flying around to give me reassurance that all is well and fine, thank you as well for that……I miss and love you so much my now little firefly……You behave yourself and please listen to Angel don’t cause him too much trouble alright…..knowing you though you still might, because of how sassy you are, but I just wanted to let you know I saw you and heard you and that i’m always going to look for your face!! I love you peanut!!
It’s around 10:30pm and my minds blank on what to write, I also need to get up really early in the morning, I don’t think I have anything at all today to share with you guys, I was trying to think of something before, but nothing really came to me…..I then tried to listen to some space ambience music to see if that would work to get some kinda of an idea or something, nada…..
I think it’s another blank day, I could tell you about a dream I had last night to make this post a little interesting and readable, it wasn’t anything too weird, in my dream though, I spoke to one of my friends, who by the way is no longer around…..but in the dream he randomly called me and I had a conversation with him and I could hear his voice too, it was the most odd thing ever, i’m not really sure if we were talking about anything important,
Maybe we did, maybe not……it felt more like a catch up conversation than something serious, it was pretty random, to me it just felt like a casual conversation where you just talk about anything, we always used to have weird conversations when we spoke anyway, in the dream we also called another friend of mine, but yeah, I really don’t know if there was anything important to it, maybe it was just that, a catch up conversation kind of dream and also him wanting to say hi and be weird and check up on me.
I don’t really know, when I woke up this morning, I was confused to why I had the dream, I haven’t had my friend visit me in a dream for some time now, but it was nice hearing from him and talking to him, even though I have no idea what we were actually talking about……
I guess if it was important he’d be sure to let me know, but I think it was just him wanting to stop by and chat for a bit, if that was you Ang….thank you for coming by in a different way too, i’m getting the feeling you were saying “yep that was me, in the dream, just saying hi, just because I felt like it” those might not be the exact words you’d use, but it would be along the lines, which I am counting because I can and just did!!
Sorry I just needed to send that out real quick, but yeah I think that’s all I have for now, i’m going to call it a night and get ready to hit the hay, I know what you’re thinking…..who says that….anymore!? i’m going now…..
HWAHT A DAY!! Yes I know that’s not how you spell “what” but that’s how it’s being spelled today, because trust me it fits really well with the day that I had today, I couldn’t even begin to tell you it all, I mean I could, but it’ll be a very long post, I mean if you guys are okay with that then I don’t mind.
No, but seriously today’s just been really something, like I can 100 percent say i’ve never had a day like today, EVER IN MY LIFE!! I’ll brief it for you without telling the whole details of today, even though part of me really wants to, but i’m going to keep it brief this time around, maybe i’ll tell you about it some other time, but for now, it’s just going to be brief.
Let’s just transition over to this morning, it was good, nothing out of the ordinary…….except for one thing, after coming back from getting a little breakfast from across the street to where my mom works, everything was fine when I came back, it was when I went to sit and eat to where the morning became quite interesting, first I just want to say luckily no one was around when this happened, but yeah so i’m about to get ready to eat the food I got and out of nowhere BOOM!!
Something comes crashing down, not knowing what exactly fell, my mom, my aunt, me and this other person went and looked in this back area to where my mom has breaks, so a break room pretty much and everything was intact there, we then all go downstairs, just so you guys aren’t confused, my mom works at a salon, but she works upstairs from the salon where she does nails and the people downstairs work with hair, but yeah that’s that info, we asked them what fell they say it was upstairs we say no,
but something said, check the bathroom, last place we looked, so I go into the bathroom and load and behold, that is where the noise came from, turns out the thing that came crashing down was the mirror in the bathroom……yeah not kidding, it just fell by itself, but again luckily no one was around when it fell, that would’ve been pretty bad if there was, it was quite a big mirror too, not too big, more medium, but still kinda big.
So yeah that was the first thing that happened today, some other stuff went down of course, but the biggest thing was an unexpected situation that occurred that I was not prepared for whatsoever, like at all, it was the weirdest thing to ever happen to me, interesting i’ll add, but I was not ready for all that came about, I didn’t know what to do or say, so I just let it happened the way it arrived to me, so yeah…..today was just quite the day,
Sometimes you never know what you’re going to experience or get throughout the day or days for that matter so you kinda just have to take things as they come no matter how bizarre or out of the norm it is, who knows you might have one of the best stories to tell when that kind of stuff happens and it’ll be one you might tell more than once, so yeah that was the day, it was good, but it was filled with a lot then expected……..