Hey there everyone hope you’re all doing well, todays topic on todays post is a bit on the serious side of town, now I didn’t really expect to write about this, but as I was having my morning coffee, I came across this video of a Youtuber that I recently found, and got into and in her video she talked about dealing with funks and it made me want to share my own kind of funks with you guys if that’s okay!?

Everything she explained in the video was exactly how I was feeling this past week, now i’m not one to really talk about my feelings much unless somethings really bothering me to where I feel I need to let it out somehow and when that happens I will usually write it down. In the video she explained what it’s like when she goes through funks in her life and how when she’s going through them, she tries to sort through it by herself and even questions why it is she feels the way that she does.

One of the main things that she expressed that really stuck with me, was when she said whenever she tried to comfort herself, she just ended up getting angry instead of making herself feel better, because her mind kept telling her that she shouldn’t be feeling the way that she was, because there’s bigger problems in the world then her problems and hearing that was like wow to me, because that’s the same way I think and i’m sure there’s a lot of you guys out there as well who may feel the same way.

This past week was really tough to get through, I won’t go too much into it, i’m gonna try and keep this post as minimum as I can. This past week wasn’t my favorite week, as much as I tried my hardest to keep myself calm and do my best to stay as positive as I could, it was really hard, I couldn’t keep my emotions and thoughts in order and it drove me mad, because I wanted so bad to pick myself up and make the most of those days and I couldn’t and me not being able to do that, made me very frustrated, it felt like I didn’t have control of anything.

I couldn’t stay focused even when I tried, I was constantly in my own mind having battles with myself, I tried to help myself feel better, but it always felt like there were two versions of me. I was trying to help the other version of me up, but that version of me kept refusing my hand, telling me that it was fine and it didn’t need help and it was okay, but the version of me that tried to help the other part of me, knew that it wasn’t.

Eventually though, everything that I kept in and was feeling, I did let it out and when I did I actually felt a lot better, well mostly, I still kinda felt a bit of the effects of it, but I did feel better, yesterday was probably one of my favorite days that I’ve had in a very long time, because I was happy, I felt like me again and it’s been a while since that happened. Instead of feeling okay all the time, I felt pretty good, which was nice, however feeling okay is good too, if you’re not feeling the greatest, but you find that your feeling decent and or alright, then you can give yourself a little smile because I know that sometimes for some even that’s hard.

We all go through some really tough moments in our lives and most of us feel as though when that happens we can deal with it and handle it on our own, but sometimes although we don’t like asking for it, sometimes a little help is what we need. So if you’re struggling to get through the day or you’re just not feeling your best, know that it’s okay to not only feel the way that you do, but also don’t be afraid to talk to someone if you know that you need to, handing things on your own is fine and all if you know you can deal with it, but if you find that you’re really struggling, don’t be afraid to ask someone for an ear to listen to, believe me you’ll feel a lot better for it.

One last thing, if you’re feeling as though you’re not doing okay in your life, know that you are, even when your mind is telling you that you aren’t. We can be our own worst enemy at times, but we have to remember and keep telling ourselves that we’re stronger then what our mind tells us and that even on our worst days, everything is gonna be okay, it may take some time, but it’ll be alright. Be proud of how hard you try even when it’s just getting up and doing your best to put and keep a smile on your face, that is something and that means you’re doing well.

If you guys are interested in checking out the video that I mentioned earlier in this post, you can watch it here: Dealing with Funks – (illustrated story) By AmyRightMeow

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

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