11:11….This Is Where You Make A Wish

Good Afternoon…..Happy Thursday or as Isabelle from Animal Crossing would say Friday’s Eve which is a bit true if you really think about it…..I mean every time Thursday rolls around you know it’s time to celebrate because that’s when you know you’re close to the weekend time! I hope that everyone’s week has been going alright….I must say this week has gone by pretty quickly don’t you think, I mean the fact that we’ve already arrived at Thursday and we’re almost at Saturday is a bit mad, but it’s also good too so I won’t complain about it!

Now I know what you’re probably thinking….what is this title of a post!? Well if you don’t already know today is November 11th, that might not seem like a very important thing and for some it might not be, as far as you’re concerned it’s just a month and a day, but the fact that we’ve come to the 11th month on the 11th day, is very big actually, it’s a bit hard to explain it, but if you know anything about it then you’ll understand what I mean here. If you don’t quite get what the importance is with 11:11 then I’m probably going to sound crazy…..but to put it in few words in the best way that I can explain it….11:11 is the number of being aligned, so if ever you are to see this number it means that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be in this moment, at least that’s part of it anyway, this number can mean a lot of different things!

Believe it or not it’s not only 11:11 that is important, although it’s what most people know of to be of importance the most, but every number is important! If you’re constantly seeing the same number all of the time however, be it a favorite number, your birthday or just a random number that you find follows you everywhere you go, you might want to look into that number, there could be a message in them for that you need to know! Every number has it’s own special thing to it, but it’s when a single number is tripled or you see it as a 4 digit, maybe 5 digit number to where it can become even more powerful!

So for example say you see the number 555 or 444 and it’s not just once that you see it, maybe you notice you’re seeing it twice in one day or every time you are out for a walk….if you’re constantly seeing these triple digit numbers, take a really good look at them….especially if ever you find yourself wondering about them and why you’re always seeing them so much! You might at times come across numbers like 2222, 3333 and are wondering what exactly they mean….just know you might want to add it to your “definitely need to look into that” list, when you start seeing 4 digits instead of 3 it means you’re meant to pay close attention!

When these numbers appear constantly they’re inviting you to research the message they have for you, so that you can understand what it is they want you to know! It probably doesn’t make much sense I know, it’s okay if this sound like a weird language, but there is something to them, if you choose to look into them! So if you ever feel yourself becoming just a little curious to why you’re always seeing the same number over and over again, it’s probably because there’s a message for you that is important for you to know! Numbers are a bit weird and they can seem quite complicated, but they can be pretty helpful in knowing things that may be going on in your life that you may not be aware of!

It’s kind of like getting a message in a bottle every day or anytime you need to know something that you may have missed, it keeps you in the know and allows you to stop and really think about certain things! It can also be a good way to know if you’re on the right track! What I mean by that is say you have an idea, but you aren’t really sure if you should go forth with it or you just need a bit of encouragement…..it could also just be maybe you’re wanting a confirmation on something that may come out to be exactly what you had in mind originally, things like that it’s the best way I can explain it at least….

There’s many ways though to find out if you’re on the right track of something, but numbers are one of the best ways of knowing more, without knowing more if that makes sense!? That way you get to understand better and really know what something is, be it a thought, emotion, a random idea, whatever it is you’re needing or may need help with!

Back to 11:11 though…..there’s more to this number then what I’ve explained, but if you want to keep it simple and you believe in what most people call superstitions, if you haven’t already…..make a wish later on tonight at 11:11pm and when you do take a deep breath with your eyes close and think of something that you would like to happen or would want and wish for it! Let the universe know what it is you have in your heart that you would like to share and if you don’t have anything specific in mind you can always just choose to have something continue that is very important to you and show that you appreciate and are grateful for those things!

You don’t have to feel like you need to say a lot, you could just say thank you to what you already have and just for the moment that you’re in and if you want you could even use that wish for someone else to have, it’s whatever you feel and how you choose to use that wish, I hope that you all choose well, take care, stay safe and have a good rest of the day!

Update

Here’s my latest podcast episode, I actually recorded it a little bit earlier during the late evening, I’m not going to lie it’s a bit of a weird one, also it’s got a bit of this post in it, but it’s not all the same, if you’re interested check it out! There’s a glitch again…so if you see episode 45 instead of 46 you know why…..I’ll give it a day to fix itself until then…..you can listen to the episode here: It’s November 11th….and I’ve Got A Few Things To Say With It Ep. 46

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Dear Little Me…..(Updated)

It’s been a while hasn’t it, if only you knew all things we have been through…..I mean seeing that you are apart of me, you probably already know huh!? I’ll be honest I wasn’t really expecting to write to you, it was only after that I read a bit of the first I guess you can call letter post that I wrote to you back in 2018 that I felt like I wanted to update you on a few things that we’ve managed to do…..I’m writing this a bit on the late side on the 15th of September nearly midnight, but not necessarily midnight it’s still around 11:30pm as I’m writing this now, I might just continue this post in the morning so I could really tell you everything that I want you to know….I’ll catch you up on what those things are soon, a part of me might keep the rest as a surprised though, see you in a couple of hours!

Good Morning me, well younger me…..it’s a little early, around 8:40am almost 9am, I don’t know if you remember us always getting up earlier than we needed to back then, there were moments when we got up a bit late as well! Sometimes we’d get up at almost 10am and if we got up at 11am we were upset the whole day…..I’m glad that I changed our sleep schedule all those times ago ha! I don’t know where to start with what’s been going on….We’ve been on quite the journey you and I, a lot of stresses, emotions both good and bad, we had some loses in our lives as well, that meant a lot to us….but on a good note, we did find someone that loves us for our weirdness as well as everything else believe it our not lol…..there’s a lot of things that’s happened since the last time I spoke to you!

We’ve been through some storms, but the one thing though that I feel you’ll really like is that…..we got through them and most of them we’re really hard, because they pushed us to really grow ourselves more and change as well, in the last letter I wrote you…..I felt like I was not doing you proud, that I had failed you as an older version of me and I never knew how to really express that in the best of ways, I only knew how to say sorry and feel bad about everything we were going through at the time…..I wanted you to be happy and I didn’t really give you that chance to be happy then….it took a long while, but I just want you to know that we’re doing good now, where we were then, we aren’t there anymore!

We managed to find our voice, now I won’t say we found it fully fully, there’s still some things that we both are still working out and trying to understand better, which is normal, because not everyone has figured everything out yet, but we have learned a lot and I can honestly say that we are becoming better versions of ourselves more and more each day! Don’t get me wrong we still have our moments where we aren’t always happy and feeling our best, but to how we used to handle those days to how we handle them now…..we’re doing pretty alright for ourselves, our emotions don’t constantly get at us the way they used to, we’ve learned to control them a lot better and not be so hard on ourselves….I mean we’re still hard on ourselves at times, but I think that’s never going to go away really, but that’s okay because it helps us to want to be better!

We’ve grown on a personal level, we’re still the same, but there our some new differences within ourselves that we’ve gained with our personality, for example….we’ve gotten a bit more sarcastic lately, we say what’s on our mind a lot more these days, a bit quickly too, might I add and we’ve gotten better at not taking up things that we know we don’t need in a negative sense….I guess you can say we’ve gotten a bit tougher and stronger since the last time, but I think part of those part of me comes from you if that makes sense, especially all the sassy parts that I wouldn’t have ever thought to come out!! All our fears that we used to worry ourselves about, we have moments where they pop up, but you’ll be happy to know that instead of always wanting to avoid them and run away, we try and face them the best we can…..we come way out of our comfort zone, well we’re nearing the surface at least, we don’t swim the best, but we do our best to get to where we want to be!

Like I said we’re still learning as we go along, but that’s only part of the journey we’re on…..it’s just the beginning and we’re just getting started, but we’re flying little me, just like you always wanted and I promise that I’m going to keep doing my best to make you proud to be me older, because I just want you to be happy and I want you to know that the adventures you go, as new and hard as they may be at times and you may feel like you’re not getting where you need to, but know that you’re always going to get where you need even when you get lost a bit, sometime you have to get a little lost before you’re found! We’re always going to be okay, I know that because I got you and I know that when I’m lost, you’ll found a way to point me to where you feel it’s best to go so I know to keep going, because together is where the magic starts to happen!

All the feelings of being scared, but wanting to still give it a shot anyway, taking those risks, I never thought we’d get to that point, but I got to say that, doing those things, makes me happy, I still get nervous and scared, but I hope that you feel happy that we’re finally doing them…..there’s still some stuff that I know I want to tell you, but I know know how to express them properly just yet, so I will leave them for another time, the moment I find those words and I’m able to piece them all together you’ll know…..I just wanted to tell you that we’re okay and that we’re a little bit more happier than we were before…..I’ll see you soon!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June 31st….Oh Wait No It’s July….

This is just a joke guys, I know there isn’t a 31st in June…..a little shocking that we’re in July already…..I think everyone is surprised, it don’t feel anything like July yet, it’s a bit weird, hopefully the start of the month has treated you all well so far, even though we literally just started, the one thing I can say is that we’ve entered the month of my blog anniversary, it’s not yet….but it is coming soon and I have no idea what I should do for it…..I’ve been trying to come up something different to do, we’ll be going on 3 years here on the 11th of this month, 2 more weeks….actually a week from this Sunday coming up, so not this Sunday the following one, just making sure I’m making sense here!

Now I know that I’m not really looking to do anything too grand for my 3 years of blogging, I’m not really a showy kind of person, but I do want to do something special, now I’ve been thinking about this….had I not already brought in a podcast 4 months early that could of been a cool thing to bring in, but it’s here now, which is good, I’m happy that I decided to give it a go when I did! By the way it’s actually 3 months not 4, I introduced the Podcast here on the 3rd of April, but my first episode was uploaded the 19th of March, although on Spotify it will say the 20th, same as when Animal Crossing New Horizons was released (don’t ask) yeah I know, not sure why I did it like that, I think I just wanted to test it out before anything, at least that’s what I’m thinking!

But yeah, Podcast is already a thing soooo, I have to add something else, I did have some things in mind…..one of them I’m going to do when the anniversary arrives, it’s just a post that I’m going to do talking about what it’s been like blogging for 3 years….nothing too special there, but besides that I’m still trying to figure out what would be good to bring here….I could always poll it and have you guys be apart of it, which I wouldn’t mind, I’d love to include you guys, only if you want that is! I could add some choices I have in mind that you could choose from ooor if you have any suggestions on what you’d like to see/read mainly, if anything comes to mind, I could also go based on topics that I did before that you want me to do more of, for example Now Playing….you can choose an artist or song that you want me to listen to and I will give my thoughts on that artist/song the best way I can, stuff like that, just to shake things up, but of course, it’s your choice if you want to do that!!

I don’t know, I just want to do something different this time around and I would love for you guys to be apart of it with me, it’s been quite the journey, even though somedays it doesn’t feel like it, I can’t believe we’re close to 3 years on here though, SUPER close too….I know we’ve got some time left to decide, but I just thought I’d write about where my mind has been these past few days on the very first day of July! Have I mentioned how it doesn’t quite feel like July yet!?

Anyway, I hope you’re all doing well on this fine evening, you have a good rest of the day, stay cool and hydrated, as well as safe!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Welcome To The Daydreamer’s Podcast

Happy Saturday, hope you all are having a good day!! Now I know that I haven’t properly talked about this so I thought I’d have this post be the introduction for it…..a late introduction, but an introduction nonetheless!! Now in case a lot of you don’t already know I went ahead and created a podcast, some of you may already know if you’ve read some of my latest posts, but if you didn’t…..I have a podcast now, it’s called Daydreamer’s Podcast and I created it out of curiosity, I was actually writing a post and had just finished posting that post when I saw an opportunity to be able to turn a post into a podcast episode and so that’s exactly what I did, so I kind of have WordPress to thank for giving me the idea of creating one, I only have 2 episodes right now, but so far I’ve been enjoying myself,

I have found that I actually get pretty excited to record the next episode, which is something that comes rarely for me, but this is something I kind of been wanting to do for a bit of a while now, I tend to talk quite a bit and sometimes a lot of the things I want to share can be too long to write in a post and so I thought this was the perfect thing to give a try, It’s something I’ve always thought of doing and it’s something that has literally presented itself to me and why not give it a shot!!

Now the content to my new Podcast is going to be a bit of everything in the sense to the way I do it here on my blog, it’s pretty much interest based, so for example music, video games and sometimes serious topics that I feel I want to share upon and discuss a bit about…..sometimes I’ll even incorporate some blog post topic for the days where I feel I want to express a bit more, the two episodes that are up now were based off two blog posts, but it’s stuff like that! I just want to create a place that everyone can just hang out and hopefully have a good time!! I already recorded a third episode which should be up pretty soon, but if you guys are curious and would like to check out the last two episodes of my podcast, that would really mean a lot to me, you can have a listen to both episodes here:

The Latest Episode:

Ice Breaker (A Blog Post)- Ep. 1

Let’s Talk: 1 Year Of Animal Crossing: New Horizons- Ep. 2

For those who do manage to check it out the podcast, first I just want to say I appreciate it in advance and I hope you all enjoy the episodes that you decide to give a listen to, with that said, Welcome to The Daydreamer’s Podcast, I’ll be your host, Alexa, but you can just call me Lex or Lexa, I prefer it anyway! I hope you’re all able to enjoy the content and atmosphere that I do my best to bring to this podcast, hope I can get some of you to hang around and stay a while!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Jump Into The Past….With Style

Have you ever wondered why we like the things we actually like!? I know, what kind of a weird question is that!? What are you even talking about exactly you might be asking!? Think about it about for a moment, take clothes for a example, we all have our own type of style, some of us like a more modern look, while others prefer a more vintage timeless look, such as myself more on the vintage side however!! Where does that come from!? I mean sure you might say it’s just we’re drawn to, it just catches out, that’s true…..but what causes us to be drawn to them in the first place!?

It’s not like we know what are style is going to be automatically, we get our inspiration from somewhere once we’re old enough to know what we like, with me I like more of a vintage look when it comes to my style in what I wear, I like feeling comfortable, but I also like clothes that give me that Flowy-ness that I need and love, to describe it better, my style is more 70’s inspired, I like to think of it as hippy/bohemian chic in a way with a hint of country style added!!

Now I don’t know why exactly I prefer it, it’s just something I’ve always been drawn to, something I’ve always felt fitted me in a sense, now what does this have to do with the title, we’ll I always find myself wondering why it is we’re drawn to the things we’re pulled towards naturally and I like to think that it has something to do with who we were or might’ve been before this lifetime that we’re in now…..crazy thought I know, this isn’t the first time I have thought of something like this and believe me it won’t be the last haha!!

It’s just interesting that’s all, when it comes to our sense of style, the way we carry ourselves and even the music we listen to they all come from somewhere and they all give us different feelings, why we feel them and where they come from exactly, it can get you thinking, okay maybe not everyone…..but if you’re the type to think about random stuff like I do then maybe this applies to you, maybe it doesn’t!! I just feel a lot of what we are has to come from somewhere beyond ourselves, small or not…..

The way I am and how I have carried myself so far, the way I feel, is what I feel is 70’s…I am a natural wanderer, I like indie style music (I love music in general, but indie style music is one of my favorites) I daydream 95 percent of the time if not mostly (hence the inspiration for this blog) and I like being in nature and enjoying scenery!! Now that may not actually mean anything involving 70’s I know, but I always felt 70’s vibe from myself it’s just something I gravitate towards without even realizing it, I am obsessed let’s face it…..now that said,

I have embraced more things out of that realm, staying on attire for a moment…..I have some clothes that don’t really say 70’s, I have this one shirt that I bought 2 years ago or something, it’s an all black lace shirt, it’s got long sleeves to it and the neck part is similar to a turtle neck, but isn’t, I didn’t know how else to explain it, don’t worry I looked it up, apparently It’s called a ruffled mock neck…..what I was getting at is, that was out of my comfort zone, lace is something I never really wear often and for me to see that and say “Hey I like this” knowing myself that it was something I didn’t think I would ever be drawn to, but it was, it was the style of it I liked and why I guess I decided to buy it, it was different than my usual everyday kind of style….

I’m sure this post doesn’t even seem like it goes with what I was originally talking about, but I will do my best to get back on track here…..sheesh who knew I’d talk this much about style…..this is new even for me lol!! My point is everything that we are and have yet to become…..was and will be inspired by something, everything that I am at this point in time and who I’ve felt for a very long time I was transforming into, stems from a 70’s point in time if that makes sense, hopefully it does, but if it doesn’t that’s okay…..even though I was born in 90’s, I feel 70’s in a sense of character and my ways of being, I don’t know about everything else in the 70’s, but as far as clothing as we talked about for like a half hour or so….it’s the kind of thing I like!!

On the other hand….I have also discovered some of my style may also come from a point in time between the 30s, 50s, and slight 60s…..if we’re going more modern like…..I am between 80s casual and 90s which works because 90’s was the era I was born in….this is the first time I ever wrote a whole post about style….I’m a little confused to why that happened, but hey hopefully it made for a good post!!

What’s your soul era and what era do you think your style fits in!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

A Process Not Too Far From Progress…..

If you were given the chance to wake up in a different world, would you!? I would just to see what it’s like for a moment…..everything is so out of wack these days, you think on whether everything will get better or if it’s just going to keep going the way it is!? Surely there has to be some kind of change, a more positive one at that right!? Sometimes you don’t know where you stand at times, whether you’re going in the right direction or if you’re just being a big ole” bobble head of a person on a certain day.

Yeah okay that last sentence was probably a weird one, but seriously it’s so hard to know how everything goes, where everything is supposed to go and if you’re able to handle it all…..most things just continue to come out of nowhere to the point where, you’re thinking whether or not you should keep a look out for something just in case something else pops up, but I guess it wouldn’t be life if those things didn’t happen right!?

It’s tough, you want to be able to keep your head up when things get a little too chaotic, but sometimes it always feels as though gravity just wants your head to be down all the time, that’s how strong negative energy is, no matter how strong you try your hardest to be, there’s always going to be a moment where you can’t help, but want to break down and just not be bothered and most people will tell you that it’s going to be okay and that things will get better, which isn’t wrong to say because it’s true,

However, sometimes it’s okay if things aren’t okay, it’s harder to try and feel positive when you’re feeling really down and out, then it is to actually let yourself feel the things your feeling. We all try and put brave faces on and seem as though we are bullet proof and that we can withstand anything, although that is true, we wouldn’t be able to do all of that, without feeling the unwanted and negative feelings that we feel. Without harsh wind storms, we wouldn’t have nice breezy days, without hurricanes, we wouldn’t be able to enjoy the calmness that the water brings, that might’ve rhymed, I don’t know, but what i’m trying to get at is, with bad comes good and with good comes bad, there’s a balance to it and with that balance,

We just need to know how to get it right or find a way to make it better somehow, sometimes it takes time and sometimes we’re able to pick it up pretty darn well, but if somethings is not okay, that’s okay and if something is okay, that’s okay!! We shouldn’t always have to feel as though we need to keep positive and not worry, it’s important to not do that of course especially if it’s excessive (is that the word!? Probably)

If you’re worrying and stressing it’s alright, it means you really care about something, if you didn’t care you wouldn’t feel those things, but just keep tabs on how much you let the meter go over…..I know it’s not always easy to keep things leveled, be it with emotions, hard days, thoughts, you name it!!

Sometimes those things do have a way at getting the better of us, but if we can handle it, we will and if not it doesn’t mean we won’t and can’t, life is hard and oh so very stressful most of the time, but life can also be pretty easy if we let it, will we!? Most likely not, but really it’s the way we choose to look at everything that will determine how well we get it right.

Just so everyone’s clear here, don’t worry i’m still learning this myself, it’s a process for everyone, but it’s a process that isn’t too far from progress…..

All The Love <3<3

~Lexa

How To Get Organized: Seriously, How Do You Do That!?…….

When it comes to organizing, we all know that it feels good to see and know that everything is in place instead of all over the place, there’s 3 types of people, there’s those who are organized to the Z (now before you say it, I know it’s suppose to be “to the T” but there’s no T in organize so I went for Zed instead, it was either that or g and I didn’t think that fit well sooo, Z it was) but anyway back to what I was talking about, 3 types of people,

Those who are organize to the Z, leaving nothing out of place and keeping things in order where it needs to be, then you have those who are so disorganized that……I actually don’t have anything to go with this one, they’re just very disorganized what else can you really say!? Probably a good amount i’m sure, I have nothing though so, on to the 3rd type…..

Which are those who want to be organized, but aren’t sure how to be, so they kinda just freestyle with it and organize in their own kind of way to what they consider to be organized, but isn’t really, so it ends up being a combination of both where it’s slightly neat, but also pretty messy, however, in a way…..it works, for them of course!!

If you were to ask me what kind of of organize I was, I probably would pick the 3rd choice, why!? Because for one, I have a certain place for everything, which means I know where I want everything to go, as well as where i’ve put everything, that being said, i’m also pretty messy, everything is pretty much everywhere and when I do think about organizing everything properly…….I never know where to start with it.

So I kinda just put all my things in certain places, never asking if the places that i’ve put them in were good places, but hey at least I know where i’ve put them right!? I do try to keep organize, which makes everything seem cluttered which it isn’t really, it just seems like it, a lot of my stuff is on the floor and no not clothes……okay at the moment there might be that as well,

but I can pick those up i’m not that messy, I was just going through clothes to see what to wear, even though I picked something out before going to be last night, I then wasn’t sure if what I chose was good, but in the end I ended up wearing it anyway, but later discovered I wasn’t going anywhere….i’m still in my clothes, I haven’t changed out of it yet

What we’re we talking about again!? Ahhh right!! I was talking about having things on the floor, making everything seem cluttered, but really it’s just because I don’t know where to put everything, with organizing it’s not difficult, but at the same time it also is, especially when organizing isn’t really your biggest strong suit, anyone can get organized though, it’s the question on how to do it properly i’m sure, i’m not an expert, if I was I wouldn’t be writing this right now, i’d just be organized,

I can work my way around other things and keeping those things whatever they are, from taking up too much space or at least from having them be everywhere, keeping them nice and neat and that, which most people can do as well, but when it comes to my own stuff or anything around me, it’s all just scattered around and is a lot, which isn’t good I know, believe me i’ve been trying to get organized for a very long time, but it’s not that easy as you think it might be, unless you’re a pro at it then that’s a different story, but if you aren’t that much of a pro, it’s quite the challenge…..

At the moment, I have a half neat, half disorganized radar which i’m trying to upgrade, because to be honest, it’s needed desperately and I don’t say nor write that word often, because it’s not a word you want to have to use a lot……so if you don’t mind I have questions, but before we get to those questions, I just wanted to say, I actually have a book, not a personal book,

I have a book that i’ve read a bit is what I mean on how to tidy and keep organized, i’ve only read a few pages, haven’t actually finished it, I mean if you buy a book on how to be more organized, i’m pretty sure you’re suppose to apply most of those things to your lifestyle in order for it work, otherwise you’re just reading a book on how to get organized, without actually being organized, it’s meant to be a helpful guide pretty much.

Now i’m sure it’s not a hard book to follow, it’s just the whole where to start thing that gets me, I always have that problem, i’m just trying to finally sort it out…..so with that, on to the questions, okay maybe not questions, but more suggested tips, not from me to you, but you to me, just so that’s clear.

What do you, how do you……okay I don’t even know how to actually ask this……okay when you guys are needing or having to get organized, what do you actually start with!? How do you choose what to do first!? and i’m not only talking about a space, I know a clean and tidy space is a good place to start, but what about when it comes to just life in general, how do you manage to get things back into order, even when it’s a big mess!?

It’s one thing I know to have the space you’re in clear of clutter and kept in a well rounded calm and relaxing atmosphere, plus a bunch of other things, but how do you manage to keep everything else in tact, minus the stress, I mean I know stress is unavoidable, when there’s a lot happening, so to rephrase that, how do you keep it at a minimum level, when trying to get organized!? I don’t know a whole lot about staying organized to the Z,

I would like to learn more on how to do it though, so if any of you have tips that you find works or have worked for you that you wouldn’t mind sharing, that could be helpful for me to maybe try and use as well, as a guide or just something to keep in mind, it would really mean a lot!!

Learning to be a bit more organized is something that I feel is needed in my life and if there’s any tips that could help me to be a little better at it while keeping me calm at the same time, I would love you guys forever…..I know that probably sounded weird, sorry, it would just really help is all, but anyway that is all I have for this post, I hope you all had a good day and are doing well and I hope you’re having a goodnight as well!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Look At Those Eyes….

Song Of The Day: Look At Those Eyes By Alexz Johnson (this is one of my favorite songs from of course one of my favorite artists Alexz Johnson, love her!! The title of this post as you can see was inspired by it!!)

They say when you look into the eyes of someone, not only do you see the window to their soul, but you also get to really see their true emotions and how their actually feeling. We always try and hide the way we feel and that’s because we try not to let people know that were struggling, it’s odd though, we’re fine with showing off the happy parts of our lives and of ourselves, but when it comes to the parts we think no ones going to want to see, we hide it and try to lock it away so we’re not asked questions.

Once we find ourselves on the low side of town, we automatically feel as though we have to discard it and put up this front and pretend that everything is okay and that we’re fine…..that we don’t have any issues and were happy, but when you really get a good look, you see that’s not the truth, that’s why we tend to avoid people, because not only are we afraid that we’re going to ruin people’s moods with our own,

but we know that if people spend even the smallest amount of time with us and catch even a glimpse into our eyes…..they will know the truth and see all the emotions and struggles we tried so desperately to keep hidden away and having people see that, makes us want to crawl away somewhere and you may ask why, it’s because we’re ashamed and embarrassed to have to let those things show, the thought of a million questions and worrying…..

It’s for that reason we avoid, it’s for that reason, we think staying to ourselves is much better than being around people, at least when we’re alone we don’t have to worry about feeling uncomfortable with ourselves, because we’ve gotten so used to the feeling. If we’re around people when we aren’t feeling our best it’s like we have to pretend again, we have to go on stage and play this part that we really aren’t familiar with, but we make sure to sell the hell out of it as best as we can, sometimes it works…..

Other times not as much, that’s only because when you have people around you that know you, it’s hard to fool them, unless your acting skills are on a high that day….but everything you need or want to know are in the way of a persons eyes, some are lost, sad, angry…..

Then you have some that are full of light and are actually fine, other times though, when you’re looking into someones eyes you’ll find that they just don’t know what to do and are just trying to get things right someway, even though they have no clue what they’re doing.

P.S. This was a journal entry I wrote a few weeks ago, I felt this to be appropriate to share today, if you have any thoughts share it down below!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

The Talk….

No not that kind of talk if your wondering, it’s more serious, although that kind of talk is serious too….we’re not going to talk about that here though. Hearing the words “we need to talk” or “I need to talk to you” is one of the few words that makes my stomach sink, I mean let’s be real,

No one like those words, it always leads to a conversation you don’t want to hear majority of the time, yet have to face sometimes. It’s just one of those talks you’d rather avoid than talk about, but it’s the only way to talk about things that need talking about, avoiding it only makes the prolong of it worst and more serious and you end up feeling terrible because you knew the conversation needed to be brought up, but refused to approach it,

because of the thought of what that talk might turn into….a lot of the time it might not be all that bad, but it doesn’t mean the thought of it isn’t…..assumptions aren’t the best way to go though, you don’t really know what you’re going to be talking about, until you’re actually talking about it, whether it is “The Talk” or not, you should still talk.

Which talk approach is your worst nightmare!? “We need to talk”, “I need to talk to you” or “can I talk to you!?” share your thoughts below

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Writing Prompt: Write About Yourself

Objective: Describe yourself, surroundings, frame of mind and emotional state, but try and write it in a third person point of you (he/she not I or me)

She wakes up to a repeated routine, washing dishes, making coffee with toast and then sits on her bed in the center of the room. She grabs a few journals from her bookcase, adds a little background noise and tries her best to look busy when deciding on what she can write about in a journal.

Her mind soon starts wandering, thinking on how she should be more productive then this. Feelings of guilt and stress come over her, making the situation look like a good place to sulk and and sit in self-pity, she tries to come up with solutions that could help her to move forward, but she lets herself think of outcomes to trying, letting in the Anxiety and giving her an excuse to not go fourth with it, knowing full well it wasn’t a good one.

She asks herself questions, that she already has the answers to, asking people for advice and tips, hoping that this time she’ll finally put them into actions herself, without the need of guidance. She locks herself away and forces herself to stay where she is, even though she knows it’s not where she wants to be, she glances outside her window, watching everyone’s life inattentive of her own, as she sees it as better. Deep in thought,

She wonders how it got so bad, but only she would know the true answer to that, it was her that held back, allowing herself to fall behind when all she had to do was try harder, she allowed her head to get the best of her in moving forward, underestimating herself and believing she wasn’t good enough. If only she would allow herself to be confident and trust in the abilities that she possesses, instead of questioning and second guessing herself, things would change and be a little better, she just can’t bring herself to believe she has it in her to do so, why you might ask!?

Fear, it’s fear that keeps her hidden, it’s the thought of being judged and feeling as if she won’t fit in wherever she goes, that she’ll feel too out of place. It’s the worry that whatever she does, won’t be good enough, those fears have always been there, but it’s not until now that they’ve started slowly coming to the surface, not fitting in never really bothered her before, but now it ends up in the back of her mind at times, those fears need to go if she wants to get anywhere and even she herself knows it’s time to move.

P.S. I hope I did this whole writing prompt right, I found this creative writing prompt website last night, okay I searched for it more like, I was curious and wanted to see what kind of prompts there were so I could try my hand at it, there were quite a few, I might try out another one, this one was fun, it actually made writing a little less intimidating….

If you would like to give it a try as well, the link is here: Creative Writing Prompts there’s other prompts on there as well if you prefer to do a different one, it’s good writing practice, at least that’s what I think prompts are for, I don’t really do them all that often ha. Hope you enjoy!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~