Simple.

You know although the word itself is simple, it doesn’t always mean that everything else is going to be simple along with it. I talked about balance in my last post and how trying to find a balance for everything isn’t always easy, that also goes with wanting things to be simple, as much as a lot of us may try and create a simple life, we also know that, that’s not always the way it’s going to go, especially when you’ve been around busy, stressful and overwhelming things.

Is it possible to be and live simple!? Yeah I believe it is, but it’s all about the way you do it though i’d say…………….if you’re use to the whole chaotic and fast pace lifestyle then, simple is going to feel like a task to get into and with all these habits that we already have within us, it’ll definitely feel like being on a whole different planet. When it comes to all things simple, it seems like it would be hard, but it’s really not, it all really depends on whether you want things to be simple or not, if you want things to be a little more calmer and less hectic or if you just prefer to be stressed out all the time and not get that moment of breath that you probably are needing.

I use to always think a lot was what was better, i’m sure that you guys probably think that or have thought that as well, but when you really think about it, having a lot is actually the opposite in my opinion, when you not only are dealing with a lot and complicating a situation or thought it just ends up bringing more stress and feelings of pressure, same as if you owned a lot of things, sure it may look nice and everything, but having a whole lot around you, especially when you’re trying to stay calm and deal with things the simple way, you find that can have an affect in someways.

I think with simple, everyones definition for it differs, I feel if things were too simple, it might leave you bouncing off the walls, but I also know that if things are too hectic it will drive you up the walls as well………..so i’m thinking that maybe, with simple, there has to be a balance with it, so however you make simple work for you, then I guess things will be fine, i’d say it’s a little simply complicated, but not too complicated I guess………

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 14, 2019

Todays a bit of weird day, a lot is going on, but not with me, however I have been thinking on a lot of different things today, i’ve also done a little bit of worry about certain things………………there’s just so much happening all at once and you think that you’re able to handle everything until you finally realize that you can’t handle everything as much as you thought you could. I’m just hoping for everything to finally have a complete balance this time, everything is just so out of order that no matter how much you try to make sure everything is in it’s right place, eventually it’ll just end up becoming a mess again.

Just a little bit more balance is all that is needed, I just want the ones I care about to be alright and happy you know!? I think that’s what we all want deep down inside, just to have those we care about well and happy, as well as ourselves happy and well too………..it can be a bit overwhelming sometimes though when you’re trying to figure out what it is you want when it comes to life and also trying to keep some sort of balance with everything else.

In those times, you wish that you had multiple versions of yourself so it wouldn’t be so much you know…………but I don’t think anyone’s created a thing where you can have multiple you’s yet, so you end having to kinda try and figure out a different way to create some kind of balance with everything you see as important or that you want to put your focus on. It’s not aways easy, but you have to say to yourself that although, we can’t seem to figure it out now, it doesn’t mean that we won’t eventually and when it comes to trying to balance everything, we won’t always be able to, but we can always try to think of something to where it doesn’t seem like too much.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 11, 2019

I’ve been doing a lot of deep thinking on a whole lot of different things, some which caused me to stress out when i’m mean’t to keep myself calm and others that caused me to get emotional, you see with my kind of thinking, it’s never really just thinking, it comes with a lot of thought and sometimes those thoughts have emotions attached to them………I have moments where i’m calm though, but it’s not all the time i’m like that.

I’m realizing that no matter how much you try not to stress and no matter how much you try to think calmly and not overthink things, i’d say 8/10, it’s just gonna end up happening either way, you can’t really escape stress, you can find ways to maintain it as best as you can, but they’ll always be something there to stress you out, no matter if it’s big or if it’s something small……………the worst feeling with stress though is when there’s someone you really care about going through it and you aren’t able to be there for them when they need you most, I mean you can try and help them in the best way that you can, but it’s hard when you see them really struggling and you can’t be there for them the way that you want to.

It’s not even just with stress, i’m talking about them struggling with stuff in general. It’s like you want to be there for them to help them get through it and yet it’s so hard you know!? It’s so easy to get frustrated, sad and stressed out, it shouldn’t be that easy, but it is and I think that’s because when we’re feeling those kind of emotions, we tend to put all of our energy on that side of the corner and when it comes to the feel good corner side, we may consider it, but it always seems to be a second option which I can’t seem to wrap my head around on why that is exactly…………..I don’t think we’ll ever truly understand with that.

I think the only thing you can really do when dealing with stress or any unpleasant feelings is to deal with it the best way that you can and as calmly as you can and when it comes to trying to help someone when they are going through a rough time, is to just be there for them as best as you can. You don’t always have to give advice or feel like you have to be this super person, sometimes the best thing you can do is just be there and listen to them and if you don’t have the best thing to say, that’s okay.

We shouldn’t feel bad or beat ourselves up for not always knowing what to say when it comes to trying to help someone out, as long as you’re there when they really need you or need someone to listen to them, then I think that’s all they can really ask for, just to have someone be there for them when they really need it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

I Think I Got It…..

So i’ve been thinking about a lot of things and some are still being registered in my brain, but there are some things that i’m feeling good about and that i’m gonna give a try, i’m not even going to say that i’m thinking about giving it a try because then i’ll end up trying to talk myself out of it and we don’t need to always do that………..I have this idea on something that I have been tossing back and forth in my mind, trying to figure out whether I should give it a go or not, now one of the ideas within the idea I have i’m not sure about still, I think i’m going to see how I feel with it later.

As for the other option I have with the thing i’ve been thinking about for a bit, I think i’m gonna give it a shot, i’ve already tried it one way so I want to see how it could go when I try it a whole new different way. When it comes to the original way I had it, I don’t know if I still want to do it that way, like I said before if it gets the point where I feel like going back that route, then i’ll add it later, but for now i’m gonna try it differently and see what I prefer better.

I could combined it with this way, but I don’t know if I really want to do that, so that’s why I feeling like trying it a different way and if I happen to want to add that in, i’m sure I will………maybe who knows. I’m kinda excited about seeing how it goes this way, I thought about it once, but wasn’t sure with it, which for some reason that’s how I always tend to operate, but this time it has to be different, it’s either I want to try it or I don’t and I don’t want to have to keep contemplating things all the time so i’m just gonna go with it and see which one I prefer and give it a try, plus it’s something I feel I want again so i’m gonna do it and i’m gonna do my best to not stray away from it and let my fears or hesitations get in the way this time around.

The only thing is, I have a lot to catch up on and that’s gonna be something, unless I just make it simple and catch up with it in a way i’m not use to, it might save me some time and i’ll be on top of everything a little quicker……………we’ll see which one I go for.

If you guy have anything you want to share or thoughts on something, just comment them down below, i’d love to hear about it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 6, 2019

Hey you guys, how’s it going!? I hope you’re doing well and enjoying the day. I’m gonna be honest I have no idea what to write about today, there aren’t any topics coming to mind that I want to talk about, not a lots going on, i’ve just been writing in my journal mainly, thinking a bit and just watching stuff………..not the most productive I know……………i’ve been trying not to stress about it though, it’s not easy when you’re not really sure what to do though. We’re almost into the middle of January which is crazy if you think about it, the year just started and it’s already starting to fly by, not too quick, but it sure is doing some speed walking, i’ll tell you that one.

I finally got past something that I was contemplating in my head about for a bit, now that i’m past it, i’m not really sure what to do next with it so there’s that………….you ever have a moment where you start to really think about something and wonder if you’re able to hold up to it!? or you think to yourself “did I make the right decision here!?” I know contemplating things all the time isn’t something you should do and i’m one to always contemplate things especially when it’s something new, I try not to, but it’s just so hard sometimes because you always want to do well with the things that you’re doing and you always hope that when you start something, that you’re not going to fall out of it you know what i’m talking about!?

I work myself up a lot with doing that sort of thing and i’m really trying to work on not having that happen every time I think about trying something new and different, I still have that thing in me though and i’m not really sure how to break out of it right away………….maybe I just need to give it some time and just kinda work through it the best way that I feel I can. I don’t want to stress myself out with this and I don’t want to have to always question everything whenever i’m interested to try something………I still find myself thinking about everything and how things will go, but this time i’m trying to keep myself from worrying about it too much and just kinda let it happen with the moment of when it happens, if that makes sense.

I really shouldn’t look too much into things, that’s only going to make me think more and the more I think the more i’ll stress myself out with everything and that’s what i’m trying to prevent from happening. There are a lot of thoughts in my head, a lot that i’m unable to randomly pick from to sort out, but this was one of the main things going around in my head…………i’m not sure where i’m going exactly, but i’m hoping that I don’t stress myself out too much this time with trying to figure it out, all I need to do is just stay calm and trust not only in myself, but also trust that i’m gonna get somewhere, I just gotta keep going even if it’s scary.

What about you guys!? Do you have anything you want to let out, if so feel free to share and comment your thoughts and feelings down below, i’d love to hear how you guys are feeling.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Anxiety Vs Intuition……

I read this article yesterday about the difference between Anxiety and intuition, the reason I looked it up is because I wanted to know if there was a difference and also because I was going back and forth with myself a bit on something and every time I would go to do what I wanted to do, I get this feeling in my stomach and so I felt the need to look up the difference between the two. If you want to read the article you can find it here: https://www.bustle.com/p/8-unexpected-differences-between-intuition-anxiety-that-could-help-you-listen-to-your-inner-voice-9078931

For those who don’t really want to read the article, i’ll give you guys some of the information that I took in from it, but before I do that, i’m just gonna explain a bit more on what the the article talked about. In the article they give you a bit of a break down on the differences on Anxiety and Intuition, it may seem like they’re really isn’t much of a difference but give the article a read and believe me you’ll soon discover that there is a big difference between the two.

When I was reading it, a lot of the stuff that was being talked about was actually pretty surprising, but also pretty interesting as well, for example: You know when people always say to go with your gut feeling!? Well in the article they quoted someone saying that when you have Anxiety it’s not a good idea to trust your gut feelings, because of the fact that with Anxiety, it always makes it seem like everything is wrong, which is very true.

Trying to go with your gut feeling when you know that you struggle with Anxiety would probably be your worst nightmare because you’ll just end up being confused on it, always wondering whether or not it’s your Anxiety or if it’s your gut feeling speaking to you when it comes to trying things and everything, which like I said would not only be a nightmare, but it would also be a big headache at that as well, because you’ll just be panicking all the time trying to figure it out.

There were a few other things in that article that I found to be very interesting, which i’ll list for you guys:

Anxiety is just a reaction when it comes to something we’re scared of or if we’re feeling threatened by something: So with this, all it is, is just our mind feeling like it needs to protect us from anything it feels will be harmful to us, sometimes it’ll even be simple things, anything that is completely new to the mind will make you feel anxious because of it being something completely different and as we all know different isn’t familiar.

However they say that if you feel that your anxiousness could be an intuitive feeling, they say to try and think about why it is your feeling anxious and where it may possibly stem from and when you’re thinking about where it comes from, they say to be honest with yourself about it that way you’ll be able to deal with it better and tell the two apart as well.

Intuition they say actually comes with a relaxed feeling instead of an intense one: This is actually one of the biggest ways to tell the two apart, they say that the big difference between Intuition and Anxiety is the way they make you feel physically and emotionally. When I read this part, I was surprised because I didn’t know that with intuition you’re meant to feel calm and not overwhelmed or stressed out, Anxiety is the complete opposite of that, Intuition is a more knowing kind of feeling that tells you, you don’t need to worry and that everything’s okay.

Anxiety tends to come with physical symptoms, while Intuitive feelings don’t: When dealing with Anxiety you’re bound to come across a few physical symptoms such as, stomach pains, panic and sometimes it’ll make you feel like you need just a little bit more breath then regular, if that makes sense, there’s other physical feelings with Anxiety, but those are just a few.

Anxiety as we all know is just built up fear that makes you want to avoid things, Intuition on the other hand is being aware of that feeling of fear, but still having the strength and courage to go against it and not let it stop you overall.

Intuition focuses on the present of things while Anxiety tends to  focus on the future of everything: Gotta love that!!……..

Anxiety is much more demanding than Intuition is: This is true, anytime time you try and listen to that inner voice of yours that actually tries to help you, here comes Anxiety with it’s own opinion trying to convince you otherwise. Nothing else can be heard, but Anxiety, it doesn’t leave you alone even when you try to ignore it, it does this thing where if you don’t listen to it, it tends to get louder, making it harder to resist it and believe me when I say, it’s a huge pain in the neck………Intuition though is a lot nicer to you, but if you wanted to ignore it, it’s actually a lot easier to ignore than Anxiety is.

Intuition is more on bigger moments while Anxiety focuses on anything and everything else: With Anxiety if it’s important, you become anxious and if it’s not important, you can still become anxious………..with Intuition it rarely focuses on the small things which is why it doesn’t bother you as much.

And lastly,

Intuition feels more detached: Meaning it doesn’t hold on to you for dear life the way Anxiety does, Intuition is more of a realization on something that comes to you, without causing you to over analyze, but when it does come to you, you’re meant to react quickly to it, without thinking so much on it and if you wait that gives Anxiety a chance to show up and try and convince you to re-think everything pretty much.

So that’s pretty much everything that was talked about in the article, I had to look back on it, to kinda get a better understanding on it again and from the list they gave, I tried to list them as well and explain them in my own words so hopefully you got a better understanding on the differences between the two, be it from my post or the article itself.

If you guys have any thoughts on the article that you’d like to share feel free to comment them down below, i’d love to hear about it, also go and check out the article as well, it’s really good.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Pain…..

“Why do we like to hurt so much!?” That’s the question that Paramore sung about in their song That’s What You Get from their album Riot. It’s a good question at that as well, why do we like hurting so much!? Is it because it’s an easier feeling to hold on to!? or it is because deep down we secretly like when we hurt!? So many questions, yet not really enough answers to them. I’m not quite sure whether to consider hurt and pain the same thing, I think they are the same, but I think they’re also different in a sense too, which would make them one in the same I guess you can say.

I mean when you feel hurt there’s some kind of pain involved and when you’re in pain, you’re hurting, I think it’s only different in the way you’re using it, you know like context wise which makes it confusing, but anyway another part to the song That’s What You Get by Paramore goes: “Pain, make your way to me, to me and i’ll always be just so inviting” 

When you really think about this line, what she sings here is actually very true, we’re always so easy to let any pain we’re feeling stay longer than it needs to, we don’t ever tell the pain and hurt to go away, it’s like we crave some kind of pain in a way and that’s the crazy part, why!? Why let pain and hurt stay around when we know it’s not doing us any good!? That would explain why we’re not satisfied with a lot of things and why it is we feel unhappy all the time………….it’s just easy to feel and deal with pain, then any other better emotions that we have. Why do we question and wonder why it is that we can’t feel happy, why we can’t feel joy or laugh and smile!?

Why are those the hardest things to feel, but pain and hurt isn’t!? The fact that we have to wonder that, should say a lot shouldn’t it!? We let it in like nothing and a lot of the time it comes around, half of the time it doesn’t even knock, it’s just there and when it does leave, it doesn’t go away permanently and it won’t go away, it’s always going to be there, but we shouldn’t have to keep letting it in so easy when it does decide to show up.

So is there even an answer to why we like hurting so much!? I don’t know, there could be, but I don’t know the answer to it…………..to me it’s unknown why we prefer to hurt then to not hurt, I think we prefer it because it’s easier, but then again it’s like we feel more pain inside, yet try and hide it as if we’re always happy and that everything’s alright, it always circles around in someway doesn’t it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~