Dealing With Funks (Inspired By AmyRightMeow)

Hey there everyone hope you’re all doing well, todays topic on todays post is a bit on the serious side of town, now I didn’t really expect to write about this, but as I was having my morning coffee, I came across this video of a Youtuber that I recently found, and got into and in her video she talked about dealing with funks and it made me want to share my own kind of funks with you guys if that’s okay!?

Everything she explained in the video was exactly how I was feeling this past week, now i’m not one to really talk about my feelings much unless somethings really bothering me to where I feel I need to let it out somehow and when that happens I will usually write it down. In the video she explained what it’s like when she goes through funks in her life and how when she’s going through them, she tries to sort through it by herself and even questions why it is she feels the way that she does.

One of the main things that she expressed that really stuck with me, was when she said whenever she tried to comfort herself, she just ended up getting angry instead of making herself feel better, because her mind kept telling her that she shouldn’t be feeling the way that she was, because there’s bigger problems in the world then her problems and hearing that was like wow to me, because that’s the same way I think and i’m sure there’s a lot of you guys out there as well who may feel the same way.

This past week was really tough to get through, I won’t go too much into it, i’m gonna try and keep this post as minimum as I can. This past week wasn’t my favorite week, as much as I tried my hardest to keep myself calm and do my best to stay as positive as I could, it was really hard, I couldn’t keep my emotions and thoughts in order and it drove me mad, because I wanted so bad to pick myself up and make the most of those days and I couldn’t and me not being able to do that, made me very frustrated, it felt like I didn’t have control of anything.

I couldn’t stay focused even when I tried, I was constantly in my own mind having battles with myself, I tried to help myself feel better, but it always felt like there were two versions of me. I was trying to help the other version of me up, but that version of me kept refusing my hand, telling me that it was fine and it didn’t need help and it was okay, but the version of me that tried to help the other part of me, knew that it wasn’t.

Eventually though, everything that I kept in and was feeling, I did let it out and when I did I actually felt a lot better, well mostly, I still kinda felt a bit of the effects of it, but I did feel better, yesterday was probably one of my favorite days that I’ve had in a very long time, because I was happy, I felt like me again and it’s been a while since that happened. Instead of feeling okay all the time, I felt pretty good, which was nice, however feeling okay is good too, if you’re not feeling the greatest, but you find that your feeling decent and or alright, then you can give yourself a little smile because I know that sometimes for some even that’s hard.

We all go through some really tough moments in our lives and most of us feel as though when that happens we can deal with it and handle it on our own, but sometimes although we don’t like asking for it, sometimes a little help is what we need. So if you’re struggling to get through the day or you’re just not feeling your best, know that it’s okay to not only feel the way that you do, but also don’t be afraid to talk to someone if you know that you need to, handing things on your own is fine and all if you know you can deal with it, but if you find that you’re really struggling, don’t be afraid to ask someone for an ear to listen to, believe me you’ll feel a lot better for it.

One last thing, if you’re feeling as though you’re not doing okay in your life, know that you are, even when your mind is telling you that you aren’t. We can be our own worst enemy at times, but we have to remember and keep telling ourselves that we’re stronger then what our mind tells us and that even on our worst days, everything is gonna be okay, it may take some time, but it’ll be alright. Be proud of how hard you try even when it’s just getting up and doing your best to put and keep a smile on your face, that is something and that means you’re doing well.

If you guys are interested in checking out the video that I mentioned earlier in this post, you can watch it here: Dealing with Funks – (illustrated story) By AmyRightMeow

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Autumn Leaves (Inspired By An Ed Sheeran Song)

Hey everyone I know it’s been a while, I hope you’re all doing well, today’s blog post maybe very short or a little long i’m not sure, i’ll try my best to make sure it isn’t too long, since we’re in the month of October I wanted to talk upon the season of Autumn also known as Fall since we’re now in it, we all know that Autumn is the season of change and just like the seasons change so do us humans, we all grow up to be a certain way, but we all know that we aren’t always gonna be the same as we once were.

No matter how hard we try to, there’s always gonna be some part of us that breaks away from certain things, the same way leaves break and fall off a tree when it’s the ending of Summer and the beginning of Fall, I guess what i’m saying is we’re like a tree kinda, we start off as a seed planted in soil and as we grow we start to gain a little personality, we start to become interested in things and each interest that we take upon, become our leaves, if that makes sense.

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Now the leaves that we start with, aren’t going to be the leaves we always keep with us because as we know leaves don’t stay on a tree for long, eventually they fall off one by one, as those leaves fall off and float down to the ground we can’t really stick them back onto our branches because once they fall off they fall off, with leaves we can have so many, but eventually those leaves will fall off, whether we want them to or not. Sometimes we don’t even realize that some of our leaves have fallen off, it just happens so quickly to where we don’t even have time to react to it.

When we do realize one of our leaves have fallen off though, we take it in, especially if it was something super important to us at the time. Now leaves don’t have to only be about our hobbies or things we’re interested in, sometimes leaves can be friends that we keep or family members even and sometimes we have to realize that those things too can fall off, some mutually, some expectedly, we’ll even have those leaves that just aren’t good for us anymore so we as the tree will shake them off and sometimes they’ll just fall off on their own, because maybe it’s just meant to be that way.

Leaves fall off trees for a reason and they grow new ones every spring for a reason and that’s because they’re meant to fall off, so they can make room for new and improved ones. So when our leaves fall off it’s only because we’re growing and trying to improve ourselves, now with that happening it’s not always gonna be easy, although I just compared us to trees and everything, we’re not trees, we’re humans and us as humans, we’re gonna have a few leaves fall off us and it may hurt when that happens, you may feel bad about it happening, you’ll have times where you won’t even know that it happened, it’ll just dawn on you when you least expect it…….

but when that happens, when you find that a few of your leaves have fallen off, know that it’s okay to reflect on it if you need to, you might not quite understand it, because not everything has a clear understanding, but sometimes it’s not having that clear understanding to where you oddly understand it.

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Just because old leaves break off, it doesn’t mean that new leaves won’t grow. Sometimes we sit and wonder why certain things happen, why we fall out with certain people and when those kind of things come into our mind, we really go through them and maybe we shouldn’t do that so much, once in a while yeah sure, maybe you need a clear understanding, but when it comes to other things that we can’t seem to wrap our heads around, maybe that’s because there’s nothing to wrap our heads around.

Sometimes it just happens and we don’t always know why, but we shouldn’t dwell on it, sometimes it’s just best to accept it and move on, it doesn’t mean you can’t feel a certain way about it, but once you accept the fact that, that leaf fell off, just think to yourself that maybe that was for a reason, whatever reason that may be.

It may take time to accept it depending on how much of an impact a situation, a relationship or even just something you once took an interest in was to you, but eventually you’ll come to terms that maybe it was for the best, when that happens don’t you feel bad about it, because you held on to those leaves for as long as you could, but now we have to make room for new and better things for us and we should always want better things for ourselves.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Pep Talks With Coffee And Me……Plus Learning To Spend A Little Time With Yourself…….

Have you ever given yourself a pep talk before you did anything first!? If so let me know how that goes for you and if it makes you feel any better, does it give you more of a confidence boost just share your thoughts, I would really like to know. The reason why i’m asking is because today I had to give myself a pep talk for the very first time in a long time, now a lot of you who read my blog posts probably know that I don’t leave my house much due to the way I am, but lately i’ve been slowly progressing and getting out more, mainly with just going and sitting in my backyard. I’ve actually been sitting in my backyard a lot more recently, I use to go like once or twice, but lately i’ve been going in my backyard a lot more than I normally would, i’m finding myself to really come to enjoy sitting in the back and just kinda taking everything in and sitting with my thoughts.

Anyway back to pep talking, so like I just expressed normally I just sit in my backyard but today was different, why was it different you may or may not ask and wonder!? Well today was different because for the first time in a very long time, I decided to take myself out for coffee, because I really wanted it, now i’m sure all of you are thinking “Why would you take yourself out for coffee, don’t you have a coffee maker at home!? (maybe you’re not thinking this I don’t know) but to answer your question if you have thought it…….yes I do have a coffee maker at home, but I was really feeling for french vanilla coffee today and we don’t have french vanilla, plus I kinda wanted to walk at the same time so I thought “You know what!? i’m gonna go walk down to Dunkin’ Donuts and get me a french vanilla coffee” if some of you are wonder why french vanilla, well that’s because french vanilla is my all time favorite coffee, I love it!! I have other favorites, but yeah I won’t bore you with that lol……..anyway……..So yeah I got dressed and took my dog for a walk first before I went to get coffee (btw I got my coffee a little late it was like 11am when I went so yeah, i’m sure it doesn’t make a difference though)

After I walked my dog, I gave her some water and some food and this is where the adventure starts for me……..okay so before I left the house again, I had to make sure I had everything that I needed, I always do that before I go anywhere or leave somewhere just to make sure you know!?…………So once I checked my bag to see if I had everything, I then headed on down to my destination and it was alright not too bad, every step I took, I gave myself a little boost of confidence saying “See this ain’t so bad” and also “you’re doing great” a little way of walking I then thought to myself, do I have my headphones!? cause I kinda wanted to listen to some music and so I stopped to check my bag to see and what a surprise………I didn’t have them…….thought to myself “YEP forgot my headphones”

Now what i’m about to say is a thing that actually came out of my mouth, I then said this “looks like it’s just me and thoughts then….great” not kidding that’s actually what I said and you can’t see me right now, but i’m laughing to myself because I just remembered I said that…….moving on………so i’m walking to get my coffee, observing everything, taking in the scenery. Half way of walking I start to contemplate in my mind, don’t worry I was just contemplating what it was I wanted to order, I knew I wanted coffee, but as you know, there’s a lot of coffee to chose from, but I was just thinking if I wanted a hot coffee or a cold one, reason being was because it was sorta hot out today and I wasn’t sure if I wanted a hot beverage on a hot day, I mean who wants that right!? (if you’re the type of person who does get hot beverages on a hot day, then power to you no judgement here)

So long story short I get to my destination I even said it as if I was a GPS when I walked close to it……..i’m not kidding (I know i’m a nerd, but I embrace it) anyway so I get to Dunkin’ Donuts and when I was walking in I saw this girl with a dog outside, I said hi when I walked in, the dog was cute it was a pug just in case you were wondering, so I go inside and there were a few people in front of me and while they were ordering, I of course start scanning the menu and then I realized while in line…….I forgot my glasses………i’m not really the best at seeing from afar…….soooo I had to just squint my eyes to see what I wanted, now my eye sight isn’t that bad or anything, I just can’t see that well from afar mainly with words……anyway I ordered my stuff and then went back home, after a little while of eating my stuff, I went to the backyard again and sat there for a good while and was just you know taking stuff in and everything.

Now what I realized today was, it’s been a good while since I hung out with myself, I mean normally i’m with myself in room all the time and you would think that it wouldn’t be weird because i’m always to myself, but when you take yourself out be it going to get coffee or just even going for a small walk by yourself, it’s a different feeling compared to just being with yourself in your home you know!? Going to get coffee by myself…….I mean it wasn’t weird, but it also was at the same time, I don’t know if that makes sense, but yeah it was a bit odd, because I don’t normally take myself out. Now this may sound like i’m going off topic but hear me out, some of you know that I loved where I use to live, it was one of my favorite places ever and there was a time where I did go on walks by myself, whether it was to meet up with my friend or getting something from the store and it was like I enjoyed it there more then I did going to get coffee today.

Now i’m not saying that it was terrible going for a walk and treating myself to some coffee outside my home, i’m just saying it was a bit weird for me because i’m not use to taking myself out and just treating myself to things, sometimes that even happens when i’m with people and they tell me to get something that’s on the expensive side of town because they know I don’t treat myself but 1. I’m not really into getting myself super expensive things especially if I know i’m not really gonna use it or if i’m just not feeling it, in order for me to get something that’s a bit more expensive compared to what I’d normally spend money on, I would have to really like it or really want it and 2. The things i’d normally get for myself don’t really cost that much and that’s because again i’m not into super expensive things, I prefer to just get stuff that i’m gonna use and that I know will bring me more joy for example: journals, band/graphic tees, books, I love Funko pops as well certain ones, stuff like that, you know things that I feel would mean more to me.

Now there are a few things that i’ve bought myself before that was on the expensive side of town and some I use and others I don’t use that much which is why I don’t buy things nowadays, but my point is I don’t really treat myself to stuff that often only when I really want it or if i’m interested it in and it’s not just things i’m talking about here, I don’t treat myself to much in general. It’s pretty rare for me to just take myself out, enjoy the day and spend time with myself outside of home, in all honestly I actually prefer to be home instead of going out, if I go out I like to be with someone I just feel it’s more fun that way, but i’m also realizing that it’s okay to treat yourself once in a while and just be with yourself even if you’re just going for a walk. Sometimes you need that alone time to gather your thoughts, really get to know yourself as a person more and just see how you feel sitting or spending time with yourself, sure if you’re not use to getting yourself out and treating yourself to not just things, but also a good time, it’s gonna feel weird and you’ll most likely feel very uncomfortable in your own skin, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t at least give it a try, do go for that walk alone and do sit with yourself.

Pushing yourself to kinda get out a bit more or treating yourself to things, can help you really get to know yourself on a deeper level to what you’re use to. You might find a lot of new things out about yourself that not even you knew and you may think “we’ll i’m with myself 24/7 what wouldn’t I know everything about myself!?” There might be a lot of things that you don’t realize about yourself actually…….I found out today after a very long time, that when I push myself and help myself do things that i’m not use to, I actually feel a little better, I won’t lie to you……I was actually super nervous leaving the house, I mean I walked my dog first and that’s not something to be nervous about of course, but it was knowing once I finished walking my dog, I would be walking alone to get coffee and it may sound dumb and not that big of a deal, but when you’re use to something and then you find yourself pushing past the things you’re use to……it can be kinda scary and it’ll make you anxious, but once you set your mind to it, you don’t try and second guess yourself and you just kinda go for it, you realize it’s not so bad.

It’ll be weird yeah, but if you just kinda give yourself that pep talk to boost your confidence a bit so you don’t try and psych yourself out, then you’ll find yourself just going with it pretty much. So if you think about maybe going on that walk alone, maybe treating yourself to some lunch or something, give it a try, see if it’s something that you might enjoy and if you do, see if you want to do it again. Don’t let your mind keep you from wanting to do certain things and don’t be afraid to spend a little time with yourself. You don’t even have to do anything big, just sitting alone in the backyard with you and your thoughts will do, once you find yourself doing that and you start to feel comfortable enough in your own skin and mind, try going for a good walk by yourself and just keep working towards certain things until you feel really confident within yourself to want to do a bit more and all that.

Work at your own pace and don’t worry about everyone else, just do things when you feel you’re ready for them. You’ll know you’re ready when something inside you kinda gives you that push and you find yourself just kinda doing things that you normally wouldn’t do, everything will just come to you and you won’t know why, but you’ll find yourself just going with it and when that happens, you’ll see that you’ve reached a certain level on your confidence bar which is good and it’s also something to be proud of yourself for, because it means you’re growing and coming into your own little by little.

Annnnd that is all from me for today, I don’t really have much to say, buuut I hope you were able to take something from this and that it helped some of you in some way, anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

A Few Topics In One Blog Post That Are Important To Take In and Keep In Mind….

You ever find yourself stuck in the middle of something to where no matter how hard you might want to ignore it or try to ignore it, it’s quite impossible!? Yeahhh I know that feeling all to well too, you think to yourself is there anyway to ignore it!? and the truth is……not really you have to sometimes face it and deal with it in the best way that you can, even when you don’t really want to. So what do you do when all you want is to focus on yourself, but there’s always something there to kinda take you off balance!? Just go with it, but also remember not to let yourself be consumed by the chaos of it all, if you find yourself getting too overwhelmed with a situation happening know that it’s okay to remove yourself from that said situations if you really need to.

If you still feel like you’re stuck in the middle of it and something in you is telling you to let it be, you can either politely remove yourself from it or speak about how you feel on the situation, either one of those will not only keep you from feeling uncomfortable, but you would have also let your feelings known and may have even defuse the situation a bit while you’re at it. We all know that with certain situations there are things we can add our input to, but there will also be situations where sometimes it’s better not to say anything, we all know that saying that goes “somethings are better left unsaid” which is true, i’m learning that not everything needs a responds, but i’m also learning that you shouldn’t stay quiet for everything either, if you know that something is messing with you or there’s a situation to where you can’t just ignore it then definitely speak up on it.

I always feel that if you’re going to speak up about what you feel you need to speak up on, you should always handle it maturely……..sometimes though even when you do handle it maturely the other person or whoever you’re talking to, may not handle the situation in the same way and that’s something that can really get to you and can make you have a very sour taste in not only your mouth, but in your mind as well and when that happens……weeeell, let’s just say it’s not good……..especially when there are two people with similar mindsets and personalities in a way. It can be very tough getting to someone who’s mindset is a mindset that you know deep down is hard to change, not saying you should ever change anyone and what they think because it’s not gonna happen especially when they have always used that way to help them in life.

What I am say though is when dealing with people who are hard to reach and you see that the conversation isn’t really getting anywhere, it’s best to just stop talking and move on from the situation because 1. It’ll keep you from getting annoyed fully while having a headache at the same time and 2. There’s no point in talking to someone who you know isn’t going to listen when it comes to what you’re wanting to say, however if you get the opportunity where the moment has presented itself to express your thoughts and emotions on something that still isn’t quite fixed, then give it another try and if it’s still the same then just leave it because you’re not gonna get anywhere, all you’re gonna do is  continue to tire yourself out or get very fired up trying to get to someone who isn’t really gonna hear you anyway.

People who like to throw you into the mix of things without any warning because they need a second opinion on something or they like to target you on things, those are the kind of people you need to keep your eyes peeled for and kinda step away from a bit and just stay to yourself, but if you know that it’s impossible to keep away from people like that, just continue to stay to yourself, aquatint them, but make sure that you keep the things that are closest to you near you at all times, there’s a saying that goes “not everyone needs to know everything about you” they may know some things, but only share what is close to you with those who are sincerely important to you and who only bring joy, happiness and positivity into your life, because those are the ones who are gonna continue to be there for you when it matters most.

There’s nothing wrong with setting a few boundaries with people, especially if you know that they aren’t going to bring what it is that you need into your life, don’t let those kind of people who only tend to bring more negativity into your atmosphere tell you that you shouldn’t place boundaries with them. If you feel within yourself that the people you’re normally around or that you encounter aren’t the best people to keep in your circle and that they aren’t helping you in a positive way, know that it’s okay if you find yourself distancing away from them. It doesn’t mean you don’t care or love them in anyway, it just means that they aren’t the best people to have around when you are trying to move forward in your life, they may see and take what your doing as cruel and offensive, but don’t let that discourage you and make you feel a certain way, if it’s not good for you then it’s okay to let it go or at least distance yourself from it.

You may feel a little bad about it and think to yourself did I do the right thing!? but I want you to know that sure you may question yourself and think that what you did was horrible, but sometimes in order to live the life you want and in order to grow while going for your goals in life, you have to do that because that’s how you become a little more happier and that’s when you find yourself developing more confidence in yourself. Think of it as your some kind of animal so for example: A hermit crab or a snake just any animal that either outgrows it shell or sheds it’s skin, think of yourself as that animal and know that eventually there’s gonna be times where we outgrow certain things and sometimes people are one of them, think about it.

We’ve all have or had friends that we’ve hung out with since we were either kids or that we’ve met a little later in life, but we also know that we’ve had friends that we kinda drifted away from and haven’t spoken to in years not because we wanted to, but because either they weren’t healthy for us or because we outgrew them with the changes due to our personalities, mindset, different perspective on things, stuff like that and that isn’t a bad thing or anything it just happens, it doesn’t mean you planned on not speaking or hanging out again, it’s just something that happens to us in our lives, we’re always gonna outgrow something eventually that’s just apart of life. You can try and stay where you are, but you know that deep down, it isn’t gonna make you very happy, so when it comes to outgrowing something just embrace it and go with it, sure it may seem weird and uncomfortable at first, but once you let it sink in a bit, you’ll find that it’s not so bad.

Annnnnd that is all from me today, I hope you were able to take something from this and I hope I was able to be of some help if anyone out there is going through something like this, i’m learning a lot still and i’m just trying to embrace it a bit everyday, you don’t have to embrace it fully all at once, you can just do what i’m doing and let it come to you little by little, anyway I hope you all have a lovely night/morning and or evening 🙂

 

 

All The Love

~Lexa~

Feeling Like You’re Not Making Progress (Inspired Blog Post)

So I was watching one of my favorite Youtuber’s earlier and the video that I watched was titled “When You’re Not Making Progress” the topic was discussed by a British Youtuber named Lucy Moon, she talks about a lot of different things on her channel, surrounded by life, she has podcast and this really cool monthly series called The Sunday Social (I don’t always watch them on Sundays I pick and choose when I want to watch it haha……ehm…..anyway) her channel is pretty much on the lifestyle sort of town at least I would say, she runs her channel a specific way that I enjoy, but anyway back to the topic of this blog post…….So I was watching her video and she was talking about how when it comes to making progress in our life be it within ourselves, relationships, the things we do and just life in general, no matter how hard we work sometimes for some people we don’t always end up where we think we should be.

She also talked about how it can be very frustrating to know that you’re putting in the hard work with everything that you’re doing and you still end up not really moving in the direction that you want to move in and having that feeling of “well i’m doing everything here and yet I still feel like i’m getting nowhere” that kind of feeling can really put a damper on you and make you unmotivated to want to do anything. She also talked about what she learned saying, even when it gets to that point, you should still keep pushing and work hard because even though you may not be at that point in your life that you want to be, you should still keep going because eventually all that hard work will pay off in the end, so that’s what I want to talk about.

I want to put my thoughts in to what she was saying in her video because when I watched it, everything she was saying, I too had those feelings before and i’m still going through those feeling in a way sometimes, but i’m also learning that if you want to get somewhere, hard work, determination and consistency (is the key word for me) is what you have to keep your focus on if you want to move forward, as well as small steps too. She then compared her life and work schedule with all of her friends, saying how they’re doing so much more than what she’s doing and said how everyone knows that comparing yourself to others isn’t the best thing to do, we all do it and it’s just one of those habits that we find hard to get rid of, because most times we’re surrounded by people who have already achieved so much and here we are just kinda on the same boat, floating by wishing we were in their shoes and that kind of thing can lead to discouragement for some people.

We start to think to ourselves “oh well, since i’m not where everyone else is in my life, is it even worth continuing doing what i’m doing!?” and the answer to that is yes, do continue, because yeah sure it’s hard and it’s super super frustrating to put so much hard work, heart and soul into something and yet still feel like no matter how much hard work you put in to everything, it’s like you still don’t move and you know you’re working really hard, but sometimes things just don’t happen to us as quickly as others or as we would like it too, but even when that happens that still shouldn’t discourage you from continuing building what it is you have already built for yourself.

We get so caught up in other people lives that, we start to have this mindset because someone else did it, we did it……..but they’re moving forward and we’re in the same position and with still being where we are, we tend to kick ourselves down and wonder why we can’t have that kind of life and the thing is, we can…….we’re just too afraid to and so instead of working toward giving ourselves the kind of life we want to have, we just kinda start to envy other people for having the exact life we dream of having and that’s not good, because we shouldn’t ever compare our lives to someone else’s. Everyone has a story to them that we don’t know and everyone has a battle they go through that we don’t see or even acknowledge. My point though is I went off topic…….I meant to talk about making progress no matter how slow you go, but it just ended up turning into when you’re not making progress so we’re just gonna roll with it okay, yeah, cool….awesome!!

So let’s talk feeling like you’re not making progress especially when everyone around you is in a world where everything they do gets them to a place so much faster compared to where it gets us……..we all know that progress is all about doing things in the pace you’re able to handle, hence why it’s called progress, it’s all about how much and how well you’re doing that will determine how everything else is gonna go in your life, so if you do things slowly it might go a little bit slow, but if you’re the kind of person to get things done when they need to be done then, you’re not really gonna have a problem with getting to the places that you want to get to. Some of us are turtles (me) and others are bunnies (my boyfriend) just giving you some examples on what i’m talking about.

Anyway you shouldn’t think of progress as a race is what i’m getting at, everyone has their own pace that they go at, some are slower while others are a bit faster and that’s okay, you don’t need to try and out run everyone, you just do things your way and at your own pace. Progress is all about building, it takes time to progress in something, first comes an idea of some sort, then there’s a goal you’re trying to reach and then from there you keep working toward building to get to that goal and the more you keep on going the quicker you get there, it may not be right away, but you’ll always come close to reaching it.

Progress like I said takes time, sure we may all want things to happen to us right away, but if we’re being real we know that it’s not, it doesn’t mean we won’t ever get there it just means that we’ll have to go through the dirt a bit to get there. I’m not saying you have to throw yourself through the dirt fully (okay maybe sometimes) but you’ll have to get a little messy and you’ll find that getting a little messy is sometimes worth it………..unless you just bought yourself some new clothes and you’re having the best day ever and then out of nowhere something happens to where you get your clothes dirty and your now standing there shocked, angry and ready to scream your heart out because you just got your new clothes dirty…….but besides that getting messy is worth it sometimes.

It’s okay if you start things off a bit late or slower than others when trying to make progress in reaching your goals, keep in mind that in order for others to have reached their goals it too took them some time, but they still got there and you will too. Don’t sweat on how long it’s taking you to reach your goal, it may not happen for you right then and there, but know that you’ll get there soon enough, just keep on going and keep on working hard and know that eventually your time will come, the more progress you make from constantly going, the closer and sooner you’ll get to where you want to be. Keep your head up, mind focused and keep on filling that progress bar of yours, you’ll be happy that you did and remember don’t worry about what everyone else is doing because it only matters what you’re doing and how proud you’ll make yourself in the end.

That is all from me for now, I hope this helps some of you and you’re able to take something from this, if you’re interested in wanting to watch the video I was talking about you can watch it here: When You’re Not Making Progress (Lucy Moon) It’s a really good video and me watching it helped me feel better about myself and it helped me just kinda accept that it doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you just keep going and i’m doing my best to remind myself everyday of that. Maybe you’ll also learn something from this video like I did and who knows you might actually find yourself someone new to watch, I would recommend watching her other videos too because I think she’s great, I love watching her videos because 1. Their cozy, 2. You can sometimes learn from her videos and 3. She’s just great, I know I said that already, but it’s true……but yeah I hope that you enjoy the video. If you don’t that’s fine, it doesn’t have to be for everyone, but I just wanted to share this with you guys just in case you want to check it out, if you do like Lucy Moon and content videos show her some love and support, i’m sure she’ll appreciate it, but anyway I hope you’re all having a lovely day and if not well I hope you find something to make your day better 🙂 (Originally Written Aug 13th) 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Who Am I!? Well I Ain’t Perfect I’ll Tell You That One……..(Inspired Blog Post By The Art Of Blogging)

Who am I!?………that is the question that I tend to ask myself most days along with being asked that in a blog post I read today. We all go through that stage where we think we have everything figured out whether that has to do within ourselves or just in general, but the truth is there are somethings we don’t have figured out and knowing that can be a bit scary and it’ll sometimes make you go down a road of whether you think what you’re doing is even worth it or make you go into a really deep hole of thoughts and what not, but i’m starting to learn that you don’t really have to know everything, we always pretend that we do, but in reality we know that…..we don’t and that’s not to say it’s a bad thing it’s just how it is, but that doesn’t mean we can’t learn along the way, but I wanted to answer certain questions from the blog I read today because it really had me thinking, so with the questions i’m gonna be honest even if I don’t have the answer i’ll still try.

One of the questions that was asked was who are you really!? This is gonna be something, but I did say i’d be honest and i’m sticking to that…..okay let’s answer.

Who am I really!? that’s actually a tough question when you’re really thinking about it……..I’m not quite sure actually sometimes I think I know, but then I still find myself trying to figure it out at the same time. Somethings about me though: I am a very random person, I’m very talkative when I want to be, but also if i’m really excited about something, when i’m into something and when i’m really happy…..uhhh I am a person who loves to write, i’m a collector of certain things like journals, pebbles/stones, CD’s (if I like them) and fun collectables. I’m a wanderer at heart, daydreamer (hence the blog name ha) you know this gets harder when you really have to think about it………i’m a girl that deals with anxiety as some of you may know, sometimes I feel a little misunderstood, but I deal with it, because it’s hard to have to explain what it is your feeling all the time without you constantly being questioned. I can be easily distracted at times, i’m stubborn at times as well, but one of the main things about me is I lack self confidence when it comes to the things I do, I try my best to really believe in myself and get myself moving, but I don’t really do that great of a job at it………people say that i’m stronger than I think, but I don’t know if that’s true because lately I find myself really needing people……..you see this girl tries to help everyone else, but honestly this person……me…….she can’t even help herself…….and the reason for that is she doesn’t know how to help herself move on to the things she feels and knows she deserve at least that’s what her mind keeps telling her……..I don’t know how to just stop making excuses on why it’s hard for me to just do what I say i’m gonna do……….I try so hard to stay as positive as I can, but yet inside i’m really struggling and i’m afraid of what I don’t know. I’m the type of person who constantly isolates herself from certain people, i’m the kind of person who feels she needs someone there in order to move forward and that is really sad……..I shouldn’t have to depend on people to help me, I should be able to do it myself at least a little bit and yet I tell myself I can’t and I keep myself from reaching my full potential that I know deep down I have and if I just put my mind to it I know I can do it……..i’m a procrastinator, i’m an optimist who really should be a realist at times and know that I can’t keep thinking that everything’s gonna work out just like that, I have to keep in mind that you have to work hard for stuff and really push yourself if you want to get where you want to be. I’m sure there’s more to me than I know, but if continue to list we’ll be here forever, let’s just say I have my good traits and I have my bad traits as well.

The next question that was asked was: What is it that you want more than anything else!? that’s a good question isn’t it!?

What is it that I want more than anything else? You know this may sound cliche and what not but all I want more than anything else is to be happy and live a simple life, I know that sounds crazy right!? no but seriously, I just want to be be happy doing what it is I want to do while also living a simple life with the one I love, sure that might sound cliche and boring, but that’s want I want more than anything else. I would also like to be able to make some kind of difference and inspire people as well in the best way that I can and I also want to improve myself more and really work on the things I know I need to work on.

The third question we have here is, What do you hate the most about yourself!? Now this wasn’t the actual third question, but i’m only writing about the ones that I feel i’d be able to answer properly so yeah.

What do you hate most about yourself!? This is gonna get real deep i’m sure……one of the things I hate about myself would have to be the way I let my mind take over causing my emotions to go into hyperdrive, now me doing that also causes my mind to take control over everything and it causes me to get very anxious and I start to freak out over the smallest things, sometimes they’re important, other times they’re not. Whenever my anxiety hits, it really hits, they say you have the power to control your emotions and the way you think which sure that maybe true, but it’s not always that easy, another thing that I hate about myself is how I don’t let myself reach my full potential as I stated earlier, I can give myself the push for a bit and then I stop myself from ever achieving what I possibly could have achieved if I just kept going and didn’t give up so quickly. My lack of self confidence is another thing I hate about myself, I know I already spoke on this, but that is another thing I don’t like and the thing is I know I have it in me, I just don’t give myself permission to really embrace it like I should…….I hate how sometimes I don’t stand up for myself when I know I should and I hate that I have the power to change the things that i’m talking about here and yet the only thing i’m good for is putting myself down and giving myself the pity treatment and that’s not right, I shouldn’t do that, I should be lifting myself up and trying to be a better version of myself everyday……..I know I have my best moments sometimes, but I should be doing my best to make sure I give myself all the best moments I can, even when i’m not 100 percent, I should still try and give things my all.

There’s a few things I learned about myself and that i’m still learning, for one I have to learn to be a little more brave and less afraid, I have to learn that hard work isn’t something I should continue to be afraid of, if anything I should be happy to want to better myself instead of keeping myself in the same hole, that i’ve been in for a good amount of time, I need to stop being this timid person who feels like she isn’t capable of making progress in her life and getting herself to a place of success and happiness, i’ve gotta really change the way I live and let myself strive for the things I know I deserve and let myself feel what it’s like to be confident because I know I am, I just gotta keep reminding myself that i’m confident, strong and capable of great things and if I just give myself that push i’ll see that and i’ll know that the person I once was before she’s still in there and no matter what she thinks of herself, she’s still a great person inside and out.

The last question I wanted to answer was the question: If you had just enough time on this planet for one last blog post, what would you write about? 

If I had just enough time on this planet to write one last blog post, I would write about having more confidence in yourself and not letting life past you by, i’m really starting to learn that life is really short and it takes something small to happen to really get you to see the bigger picture of what’s important……….what’s not important is being afraid to succeed and just seeing how far you’re able to go in this life you have, you shouldn’t give up on yourself, you should always do your best no matter if it’s perfect or if it’s just decent, as long as you did your best, that’s all that really matters. We can only do, but so much and it’s up to us to really figure out what it is we want to do. It doesn’t have to be complicated, it can be really simple just make sure once you have an idea of what you want you go after it and do the best that you can to get where it is you want to go, don’t be like me and think that waiting around for it is gonna work because it’s not, you have to really put yourself out there and take that chance whatever that might be, it may be uncomfortable at first, but once you keep easing your way in, it’ll start to get easier. You just gotta give yourself that push and keep going otherwise you might regret it if you don’t. Don’t regret it, Embrace it.

For those wondering what blog post i’ve been talking about this whole time, the blog post that inspired me to want to answer these questions came from a blog called Anyone can blog, you can find it here: ANYONE Can Blog this blog post was so good that I had to reblog it, it really gets you thinking about everything, it was posted by a blogger name Christian Mihai he has this blog called The Art Of Blogging, one of my favorite blogs so far, I think there’s other people who are apart of that blog as well, but yeah go and show them some support and read the blog as well because it really does get you thinking, it’s mainly about blogging but you can learn a lot from their blog, but anyway that is all from me for now I don’t think I have anymore else to say here, I pretty much wrote you all the things you didn’t know about me, uhhh I hope you are able to take something from this and maybe learn a thing or two as well, I hope that you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

P.S. I just wanted to share that today marks a month of me blogging on here so I just want to say a quick thank you to those who support my blog and actually take the time to read my blog posts and enjoy it as well, it really means a lot so thank you so much ^_^ (Originally written Aug 10th, Finished Aug 11th at 5:22pm)

Those Who See Your Light, Catch It And Then Release It Are The Kind Of Supporters You Should Keep……

Now you’re probably wondering where exactly am I going with this when you see the title of this blog post and honestly, i’m not sure where i’m going with this, but I do hope it goes somewhere and it makes some kind of sense when you read it. I wasn’t really sure what kind of post I would be writing about today, I normally start my writing around the early afternoon, sometimes in the morning depending on which direction my brain wants to go that day, but i’m writing this blog post around 2:30pm my time not too far from 3pm so by the time you read this it would already have past of course…….I wanted to talk about supporters you know those who support you, but not just that, they also try and help you grow more and see you as this light that because they know how talented you are and how much potential you have, they do their best to try and help you see that as well if that makes sense, i’m sure I already spoke about having a good support system and having those who see the best in you when you don’t really see it in yourself, heck no I know I did, but i’m trying to explain this differently so I really hope i’m able to do it right.

Supporters are something special, you could do something for a bit and go around trying other things in the process and they’ll always cheer you on no matter what it is you do, they will always let you know that they are there rooting for you even when you’re not your best self. Those are what I like to call true supporters because they will always take your best interest at heart and they’ll always want to see you do well for yourself, but the most incredible thing that I love about true supporters is they don’t expect you to be perfect and they will always make sure you know that if you ever need a hand they are there.

No ones perfect, no amount of trying to be perfect will make you perfect, most people think that in order to get somewhere you have to do everything right and make sure that you don’t ever make a mistake, because the minute you make a mistake that’s it everything comes crashing down and everyone who once supported you all turn their back on you because you did something wrong……but those who turn their back on you and give up on you before you could even stand up to explain or try and make things better, those aren’t your kind of supporters, because even if you mess up and you find yourself as low as dirt, those who really took the time to understand you and get to know and see the person inside they always stay, you may think you’ve lost everyone, but the true supporters and those who are on your side will continue to be on your side no matter how bad you fall and hurt yourself.

People with a deeper soul and who also deal with accepting that they aren’t perfect are always drawn to those who embrace and accept their imperfections, even if sometimes they have doubts within themselves, they still appreciate and admire those who have falling so deep, but have always found a way to get back up and still walk through so much even when that person ends up becoming lost and not really having a direction in that moment. There’s a saying that goes: not all who wander are lost, which is true, but I also would say that if you do become lost, you will eventually find your way by wandering a bit, but just know that people respect those who fail miserably because they know that a real human being isn’t perfect no matter what anyone says.

Everyone has their flaws, but just because we hit a few bumps along the way doesn’t mean that we’re failures, there will always be someone there who sees you as something more than what you think you are and while you’re doing your best to share your light in the way you’re able to even though you know that you’re not perfect, know that the people who support you endlessly will catch some of the light that you hold within and save it for you just in case you ever burn out. Know that they’ll bring you the light that you shared with them without knowing, they will give it back to you to let you know that they believe in you as well as to let you know that when you are down they will lift you up with all the love/light and support they have for you and help keep you going whenever you feel like you’re unable to.

That kind of love and support is one of the best feelings in the world hey even universe because when you have people or even one person believe so much in you to the point where you start to believe in yourself nothing in the world would be able to top a feeling like that, sure you have similar feelings like that, but not to the point where you really feel it so much it, you become speechless and sometimes emotional. For those who show you that you are more than what you care to believe, those are keepers and also the kind of people who truly resonate with you, always keep those true supporters close by and let them know from time to time, how much you really appreciate them and how grateful you are to have them be apart of not just the things you do, but also how grateful you are to them for taking the time to really understand you as person each time you grew into someone new and how much gratitude you have for them not ever leaving your side or giving up on you even when they probably should’ve, but the fact that they didn’t and they still believed and saw greatness in you that’s real support.

That is all from me for now, I just wanted to let you know I started writing this yesterday but didn’t finish until now so the time finished 3:43pm Aug 9th with a little bit of editing at around 10:50pm. Anyway hope you all are able to take something from this blog post, I know I probably said this before in one of my other blog post, but thank you to those who take the time to read my blogs and are supporting it, it means a whole lot and I appreciate all of you so much so thanks again, i’m gonna do my best to continue to bring you all the best possible blog post that I can, i’m not perfect at them, but I always try my best, but it means a lot knowing that you all still enjoy it, hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening. 🙂

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

(Originally Written Aug 8th)