They say the best way to get what you’re feeling out is to write it down, which I did, I wrote a new evening page in my writing journal a little bit ago on what was in my head. When it comes to me it never seems to be just one thing though, it’s always a bunch of different things, you know trying to figure out everything, wondering whether or not i’m doing okay…….you know just mainly stuff like that, which I know I shouldn’t stress myself over on, it’s just hard sometimes, because it’s like, I know me stressing isn’t really gonna do anything, it’s just gonna make me more and more stress and do I want that, of course not I don’t want to constantly worry all the time and constantly have in my mind “am I doing okay!?” “is everything gonna turn out alright!?” I just want to know and trust that it will be if I just let things happen gradually, without any worries.

I just always tend to have this thing where I constantly worry and wonder about what the future is gonna hold for me and how it’s gonna be, I mean heck i’m sure we all do. We all worry about how everything is gonna turn out for us, it’s just that feeling of wanting to know, but knowing you don’t know, that stresses you out, because you just want some clarification that everything is gonna be okay, you’re gonna be okay and that  everything you’re hoping will turn out well, does………I don’t know………They say anxiousness comes from overthinking everything, If I wasn’t so good at overthinking, I know I wouldn’t worry so much, i’m sure everything will be okay and that everything else will be okay.

I just have to keep my brain and thoughts in order and do my best to only focus on being in the moment and not worrying so much, as well as just staying confident on everything that i’m doing and believing that everything will turn out okay in the process and just keep going and continue doing my best and working as hard as I can, because those are the thoughts that I should be holding on too and keeping my focus on.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

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