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Friday…..

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Update: I wrote this post 2 days ago as you can probably tell, but I wanted to keep it how I originally wrote it, so here are my thoughts and feelings from Friday.

I just realized that we have 3 more days left until this year switches from being 2018 to 2019……….i’d say that’s insane, but is it really!? Based off my expression that you’re unable to see, yeah it’s insane!!! This year really went by like nothing, I can’t believe this is the last Friday of the year and that December is close to being over………i’ll be honest with you I might be freaking out to myself a bit, i’m trying to stay calm about it though, i’m not exactly sure why i’m freaking out though, I really shouldn’t be, but I am.

I guess if I have to do some reflection on this year I might as well do it now, this year has brought some good and also some bad moments that I wasn’t expecting……….i’ve gone through a whole lot of emotions more this year than any other year before, I made a few mistakes, i’ve thought a lot and when I say a lot I mean A LOT……………i’ve been thinking about my future more than ever this year and what I would like for it to be like, you’d think i’d know, but i’m still not exactly sure, there are things that I want to stay in my life and there are things that I know i’m needing to desperately change.

Am I frightened about this upcoming year!?…………Yeah, I am………I don’t know what to expect and what’s gonna come from it and that’s kinda what scares me the most, it shouldn’t, but it does……….i’m hoping to really have a lot of courage and surprises coming from myself this year…………i’ve been holding on to my comfort zone for so many years now, i’m not really sure how to let go of it……..it’s very scary for me, because it’s all i’ve ever known, but I know that if I want to live a better and happier life, me keeping myself to myself and in my room 24/7 that’s not gonna make me happy, that’s just gonna keep me more closed in myself and I can’t keep doing that, it’s not healthy and I know that even though i’m really scared, I have to move on.

I have to stop being afraid and I have to let myself embrace things that i’m unsure about, if I continue to let fear keep me from moving forward, i’ll never be happy and I want to be happy and if being scared, but trying my best to move forward and not stop myself like i’ve been doing is the only way that’s gonna happen then I have to let myself be scared………and that’s something i’ve always tried to avoid, but I can’t keep avoiding it, I have to learn to face it and even if I hesitate, I can’t let those hesitations stop me unless I feel it’s really really important………..I don’t know what 2019 is going to bring and what it’s gonna be like, but i’m really really hoping that I can make this year a surprising one for myself and not let my fears interfere.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Chatting Session: Letting It Snow While Reflecting & Talking All Things Random (Dec 13, 2018)

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Disclaimer: This was written earlier in the day 

That title there kinda makes it sound like I have some kind of super power or something, although I wish I did have some kind of superpower and it would be real nice to control the weather a bit, i’m not storm from X-Men though, so I can’t do that. Even if I did have a superpower I wouldn’t chose to control the weather actually, i’d go with teleportation I don’t know I always thought i’d be cool to just be able to be anywhere you wanted in flash you know!? How about you guys, what would you’re superpower be if you were giving one!? Also I hope you’re all doing well.

Okay now that we’ve talked on what kind of superpowers we’d have if given one, let’s talk snow!! The reasoning for talking about snow is because it’s snowing where I am, not sure when it actually started, but when I woke up it was snowing which then made me start sing one of of my favorite Christmas songs, Let It Snow sung and maybe written by Dean Martin, I know he sings it, but I don’t know if he wrote it, but anyway, I like the snow, not a big fan of the cold, but the snow it’s pretty alright. It always looks so nice when it starts coming down, it starts off slowly and then quickens the more snow there is………I love the peaceful feeling the snow brings, it keeps you calm and when you’re looking at it, you don’t feel stressed, you feel cold, but not overwhelmed or anything like that.

You know it’s quite interesting when you learn that all snowflakes aren’t the same, they all fall a different way, they’re different sizes and shapes, but even though that is true, you know that they all get to the ground eventually. It’s crazy how some of them are very noticeable and then you have those that aren’t as noticeable, some are for a second and others you don’t see them, when there’s a lot of snow though, that’s when you start wanting to sing Winter Wonderland. Seeing a whole blanket full of snow is like being in a whole new world, makes you want to lay in it even though you know that if you did, you’d be freezing………i’m sure it would still feel nice though in a way ha. Everyone loves whenever there’s snow on tress, it’s probably because it gives them some sort of character, you look at them and right away you’re in awe.

The fact that it’s even snowing tells us how close Winter is, it’s literally next week I believe, gotta love the cold weather right!? You know it’s crazy because even though, i’m not a huge fan of the cold, it seems to be the one season that sticks with me through all the seasons, there’s not one day where i’m not super cold, unless it’s very very hot. If I were to turn on the fan I have, give it a few minutes or so and i’ll either be putting on a cardigan or i’m turning it off, that’s how easily cold I get, don’t know why, i’ve just always been the cold one. I’m sure you all know the movie Frozen right!? Well i’m not a huge fan of the movie, it’s not a bad movie it’s just not my favorite, but i’m pretty much Elsa when it comes to the cold, just to give you an idea. 

I’ve been doing some reflecting today a bit, which I tend to do quite often these days I find, maybe this years just a year of reflection I don’t know………Christmas is around the corner, I hope you guys are excited, it’s crazy how close it actually is, once that’s up the New Year will be here………..it feels like 2018 just started and now it’s coming to an end, I guess we say that every year don’t we!? I think it all depends on whether the year made an impact on you or not when it comes to reflecting on it. I think if the year didn’t leave you looking back on it, it wouldn’t feel like anything changed for you, it just would feel like another year.

Everything goes by so quickly, which I can see why they say not to blink otherwise you just might miss something important……..although we have our reflection kind of days, it’s not until you get to the end of the year where you find yourself really looking back on things, I didn’t really start reflecting much until the ending of 2017 for certain reasons, before then I didn’t really look back on the years prior, at least not as much as I have this year. I know we still have a few more days, 2 more weeks until this year is over, so i’ll be reflecting a bit more, as i’m sure you guys will too before we have to look back on 2018 one last time.

Let me know in the comments below what your reflections are for today and feel free to share if your guys are excited for Christmas and if you’re looking forward and are ready for 2019 to arrive.     

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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It’s Gonna Be One Of Those Days Today….

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You might be wondering what it is that I mean when it comes to the title of this and I don’t even have an answer for you to tell you what it means, but I can do my best to tell you what it feels like………..it feels weird for one and it’s literally just that, i’m just having a very weird day for some reason, I have this sort of feeling to something and I can’t explain what that is exactly. It’s like I feel alright, i’m having an alright day, but i’m just feeling very weird……….it’s hard to describe. it’s like, I don’t know……..I don’t know. Don’t even ask what it is i’m thinking about, not that you would or anything, but if you did, I wouldn’t be able to tell you anyway, does that happen to you guys!? 

Do you ever have days where, you feel fine and alright, but at the same time you also feel a little odd too!? If I had to describe it in someway I would describe it as like confusing. It’s confusing because you know you’re feeling a certain way, but you don’t know why or what that feeling your feeling is exactly, does that make sense!? I have no idea if what i’m talking about makes sense, it probably just looks like random words being mushed together to form a whole lot of sentences. 

It’s just one of those days I guess……

Let me know in the comments if you either are having one of those days as well or if you’ve ever had one of those days. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~ 

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Everything Changes Eventually (Nov 23, 2018)

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Evening Pages (Nov 23, 2018): If it wasn’t so cold outside i’d be writing this in the backyard, instead i’m writing this in my room with the window open a bit, listening to everything that’s going on outside. I did go outside though, only for a bit of course, I walked around a bit in the backyard, holding my journal and pencil close to me……as I was back there, I couldn’t help, but look at everything, I looked at the grass, the trees, I looked at the birds that flew by, just everything. As I looked around, I thought about how everything eventually changes, the seasons are a clear example of that, we all know Winter doesn’t stay long, same goes for Autumn, Spring and Summer, eventually those seasons come to pass after they’ve welcome their stay. The seasons know they can’t stay for long, which is why when their time comes to move on, they don’t, well sometimes they tend to stay longer then they should and sometimes they’ll even switch in between each other, just so they don’t have to leave so soon, at least that’s how I like to see it. (End of Journal Entry) 

This was a small entry from my writing journal, that I wrote yesterday……there was more to it, but I just wanted to write that part here and see if I could explain something different on this post. I talked about observing things in my last post and it seems as though I find myself doing that a lot, as well as reflecting on everything. While I was outside in my backyard, I was thinking on how I remember being back there and it being summer and the way I was during that time, I was a complete mess those days………i’d go back and although I wouldn’t dare admit this on any other day, I would go back there to mainly reflect and think, but whenever I’d do that, I would find myself crying a lot of the time back there too……..it wasn’t because I wanted to, but anytime I felt I needed to let my emotions out, that’s where i’d go, not a lot of people know that, so for those reading this you guys are the first to know.

I was really stressed out most of the summer and still kinda stress now, although I try and keep myself calm when I feel myself stressing nowadays, it’s not always easy though. You might want to know the reasons why I was or why I would cry to myself a lot of the time, if I sat here and told you why we’d be here all day, because there was a lot of reasons to it, one of the main reasons though was, well I was stressed for one and also because I would constantly worry about everything, whether I was doing okay, how everything was gonna go…….everything, I still worry about those things now, but I try my best to minimize how much I worry. In those days though, I think the best thing to come from all of that, was that I had my blog and my journals to write in when I needed something and although it took me a while, writing everything out I was feeling in the best way that I could, really helped.

It’s crazy how everything can just go from one thing and then be something completely different the next time you encounter it………It’s like when you really look at things from a different perspective and everything, you tend to find out different things then what you already know and in those things that you know, you find that it doesn’t matter what you do, some things are bound to change and no amount of trying to fix it is gonna work………but even then, it’s all about trying your best and doing your best to keep going, no matter the pain, stress, worry, uncertainty, all of it…….you just gotta keep going, even on those days where you aren’t sure whether you want to or not, just keep going. No matter what kind of changes take place, just try and go with it as best as you can, even if they aren’t the ideal changes that you wanted………..eventually things change and it’s just something we have to accept.   

My quote of the day:  You know I always loved Autumn, there’s just somethings about it, maybe it’s all the colorful leaves that lay on the ground or it could be the way the trees go from being brightly orange with a mix of red and yellow leaves attached………to nothing at all. It’s also the feel of it too.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Evening Pages (Nov 21, 2018)

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Do you ever just observe something just for the heck of it!? I do it all the time, not exactly sure why that is, there’s just something about really looking at something, I know that may sound very weird and all, but for me I find it to be very soothing at times, it can also be very calming and relaxing as well. I like to observe this little bracelet I have, the reason being is because of the way it looks, it’s very simple and unique to me, that being said though, it broke a while ago, but I didn’t want to get rid of it, now I know you’re probably saying why keep a bracelet that’s broken!? Right you are with that question, the reason I haven’t gotten rid of it is because I just like looking at it.

It’s a Lokai bracelet and for some reason whenever i’m overthink about something or just in deep thought, I find myself lately admiring and observing it a lot more these days, sure it’s broken and all and yeah I can’t wear it, but I can still hold it and move it around in my hand, it may seem weird to a lot of you, but I find it to be very calming when I mess with it. I’m sure we all have something we like messing with just for the heck of it or just when we feel we need to calm down a bit, sometimes just observing things can help you think better and keep you from stressing out a whole lot, even if it’s just for a little while, it’s also good for reflecting on things. 

I know this one’s a very short post, I didn’t have much to say today, i’ve pretty much been in this mode all day, so much thinking, and less talking ha, I wrote a good amount of words in my writing journal earlier today if that counts, anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening, also for those of you who celebrate Thanksgiving, I hope you enjoy the holiday and for those who don’t really celebrate it and it’s just another day, I hope you all enjoy your day, I just want to say that i’m super grateful to each and everyone of you guys, who take the time to read my posts and wanting to continue to follow along with them as well, you don’t know how much that means to me, I really appreciate it, thank you so much. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Having The Pace Of A Turtle, But Wanting Things To Go Quickly Like The Hare

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Question of the day: If you had to compare the way you do things to any animal you could think of, what animal would you be and why are you that animal!?

If I had to compare myself to an animal, I think I would be a turtle and i’ll do my best to explain why that is. You see i’ll admit i’m not the fastest person when it comes to doing things, I like to take my time with everything, make sure everything’s good, maybe that’s a bad trait and all, I don’t know……..The reason i’m talking about this topic is because I discussed this earlier in a new evening page I wrote, along with some other topics, i’m sure this will get somewhere, however i’m not sure if it’s gonna make sense, but i’ll do my best. 

In my evening page I talk how I see myself as a turtle when it come to the pace in which I do most things and to a lot of people it’s probably annoying, to them it might seem a little lazy I guess, but i’ve never really been a quick person, I like to take my time with things and let things happen naturally, however that being said, i’m also the kind of person who, at the same time likes certain things to happen right away and believe me I know it’s confusing and a little odd, I didn’t really think about it until I started writing this. I have this thing where I don’t really do things fast enough to everyones liking, i’m a laid back kind of person mixed with being sometimes energetic when either really excited or for no reason at all.

That energetic version of me as wondered off somewhere though and I don’t know when it is she’ll be back, but I do hope she returns soon. Until then, i’ve been accompanied by this calm, yet overly anxious kind of version of myself, if that makes sense……..I stay to myself a lot of the time and I don’t really go out much, lately I just sit in my room and write all the time and I do some videos and edit them here and there. A lot of people sure have taken notice though when it comes to me staying to myself a lot of the time, to them it seems like i’m doing nothing and all I do is stay in my room and okay the room thing is true, i’m not gonna lie with that, but when it comes to the nothing part, well that’s not entirely true, I may not do a whole lot like everyone else, but it doesn’t mean that i’m not doing my best and being productive or anything. 

In my evening page, I talked about how there’s a difference between me and a turtle and that difference is a turtle has a whole lot more determination then I do. I mean in the story the turtle and the hare, we all know that the hare thought it was gonna easily win the race just because it was faster and quicker then it’s competitor, he took so many breaks, while the turtle just continued on pushing and kept on going, not once did it give up, even when the hare was in the lead a lot of the time…….in the end though, we find out that the winner of the race was the turtle, because of his/her persistence and willing to keep going no matter what anyone else thought.

I could definitely learn a lot from the turtle when it comes to persistence and determination, I know nothing’s a race, but sometimes it’s hard not see everything as one when everything around you seems to be moving at full speed and you have people who are doing so much and then you look at yourself wondering what it is you’re doing wrong and yeah, maybe that’s not the best way to look at things. I should be happy and proud of where i’m at in my life or with what i’m doing, even if other people tell me i’m not where I should be. No one should be able to tell you that you’re not where you should be though, only you should have that judgement, if you like where you are then you’re doing fine in life, but if you feel that you should be working just a little bit harder, than work a little bit harder, but do it because you want to, because it fills you with joy and because you want to be better, don’t do because everyone tells you, you’re not where you should be. 

I’m gonna do my best to keep this in mind as well whenever I become sad or unhappy with where i’m at in my life or questioning whether i’m doing everything alright, I realize I have a hard time taking my own advice when it comes to stuff like this and I know I need to do better at that, comparing myself to everyone else isn’t gonna do me any good. I need to keep in mind that there’s nothing wrong with doing things at a slower pace compared to how everyone else does it, yeah I’m a mixture of both the hare and the turtle, I feel i’ll always have that hare persona when it comes to wanting things to go super quickly, but I need to accept that my pace in doing things is a turtle way of doing things and learn to also appreciate the journey of it. 

Just because I do things a lot slower than most people, doesn’t mean I have to see it as a bad thing, I should be happy that i’m a turtle, because me having a bit of that persona means that if I just stay determine and keep going without worrying about everyone else’s input or just in general, I will eventually get to a place to where i’m happy with it fully and to where I can say i’m really proud of myself for not giving up.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Evening Pages (Nov 19, 2018)

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Today’s been a bit of a stressful day, it’s a long story so I won’t go into full detail on why that is. I know that yesterday I didn’t write anything unless you count my dream journal post that was posted around midnight, then I guess I did, but I don’t feel like that counts, I didn’t post for a reason I felt I needed to take that night off from writing, which I know I shouldn’t, but I only did it for personal reasons……….moving on though………..i’ve been in my head a bit today, okay maybe a little more than a bit, you know when you have those days where something goes on in your day to where you become unable to focus on anything else, but that!?……..In all honestly i’m not quite sure where to put my head at, I try and stay focus, but it’s hard to stay focus when you just have all these thoughts trying to take over. 

You can try and ignore it, but we all know that any thoughts we try and put to the side, always ends up finding it’s way back to you. I decided to go for a walk today to try and clear my head a bit, it’s been a while, like a very long while, I kept myself cooped up in my room for a good amount of time and yeah I know that’s not really good, that’s why today I went………I forgot how nice it was to just kinda be out and about, whenever I go for walks I always tend to go the same place, I don’t really change it up much………let’s face it i’m sure we all have a favorite or certain place we like to go, whenever we need to either get away from our own minds or just head to a place where we can just relax and not worry about things for a while……….I like going to this park, well I just pretty much walk through it and head to this waterfall that I find to be a nice place to let go of my thoughts and worry for a good while. 

It was really nice, the water fall is pretty much a river, but it’s a nice river at least to me it is…….I took my writing journal with me so I could just sit and write about whatever it was my brain wanted to focus on, I ended up writing about the waterfall and the birds that would fly around it and everything, I also talk about how the smell of the waterfall reminded me of a childhood memory, weird I know. I listened to some music too while I was there, it helped me focus on my writing which was nice. It’s close to winter now which we all know the sun goes down early in the day, I was only there for about an 1 hour or so, I left around 2 and didn’t come back til around 3:30pm, I actually enjoyed being there again, I felt I really needed that. 

P.S. I was watching the sun go down a bit before I left to go back home, I don’t really see it go down often so it was good seeing it this time. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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All About Writing (Nov 16, 2018)

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Today has been a day, i’m saying that as if the day just flew by already haha, no it’s only around 3pm at the moment as i’m writing this, if I were to tell you what my days consist of, you’d look at me as if I was nuts, not because I do a lot, or anything, it more because I just pretty much do the same things all the time, not that interesting I know. I’ll be honest I don’t really know what to write about today, I pretty much did most of my writing in my writing journal, I wrote about 12 pages of whatever was on my mind, insane right!? I didn’t quite expect to write as much as I did and even when I was writing there I didn’t know what I was gonna write about, I just started writing and whatever came out, came out………it’s crazy how just writing things out helps you.

I know I have loads of journals, but I gotta say I didn’t think i’d ever write this much in my life compared to how much i’m writing now, hopefully that made sense. I use to just write whenever I was really feeling something and that use to be rare, this year I find myself writing more than I ever would have imagined, everyday I feel something and now whenever I feel something I find myself reaching for my pencil and ready to write. I use to be so cautious though of the things i’d write, I only wanted to write positive stuff as best as I could………that’s what my thought journal was for, now I barely write in that which is weird. I only ever write in my writing journal and that’s where I write my thoughts now and I mean my actual thoughts. 

Not my “let me try and write this a certain way to where I only understand”……..I won’t lie to you, I only would write a certain way in my thought journal because well, for one it was the only way I knew how to express myself, without really expressing myself, if that makes sense………another reason was……..I guess……I was scared to really put down how I was feeling, because to me it was just me focusing on the negatives and I didn’t want to do that, that’s why when I started my thought journal I said to myself it would only be used for a positive outlook and then later I started realizing I was writing my actual feelings more and more and I couldn’t write it any other way, so I stopped writing it in.

Then when I heard about morning pages to where you learn that the purpose of it, is for you to get everything that you’re feeling out, not matter what it is, you just write, no cover ups or anything, just full on writing and having that option to where you’re like “So wait I can write anything!? no matter what it is, I don’t have to write it a certain way or anything!?” having that put in front of you, saying no strings attached, all you gotta do is write, it gives you both this sense of “okay I think I can do that” as well as “Wait can I do that!?” I don’t know, it’s helpful and it gives you that feeling of trust in a way if that makes sense, like as if you’re being told “hey you can do it and I believe in you”, I don’t know if that’s a good example, but I hope you know what I mean when I say that.

I guess what i’m trying to say is, i’m glad that writing was always one of my favorite things to do and i’m glad that I learned all about morning pages even though, I tend to write them in the evening a lot of the time………being able to just write without having to think about it too much, really really does help, plus once you’ve written down everything that you wanted or you were feeling, it always makes you feel better and it gives you that sense of focus that you need when everything seems like it doesn’t make sense and when it starts not to make sense, writing let’s you just drift away and escape from it all, well at least for me it does. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Why Do We Doubt Ourselves!? (Evening Pages Nov 14, 2018)

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So i’ve been trying to figure out what to write for a bit now, i’ve been writing in my writing journal, earlier I wrote a new evening page, it was on what was in my head this morning, I started to write another journal entry on something and the title I wrote here, is the same title I wrote in my writing journal. The question I ask is why when it comes to self doubt…….why is it that we doubt ourselves so much!? It seems like when we were younger, we had more confidence then we do now in ourselves, which is crazy to look back on, i’m sure a lot of us were super energetic, didn’t have a care in the world on anything, we just all did our own thing without having to worry about it.

It’s like the older you get, the things that you would normally feel confident about as a kid, you don’t feel as much getting older. Now i’m not saying everyone does that, i’m sure there’s a whole lot of people who were the same from a child to now. However most of us, we know what it’s like to change in order to meet peoples standards the older we get. If someone doesn’t like something we do, we change ourselves so that way they do like us better, we try and mold ourselves to everyones perception of us that when it comes to really looking at yourself in the mirror, it’s hard to know who you really truly are……..and when you try to break out of those molds, you find yourself getting backlash for it.

People see that you want to change and you know you want to change, because you feel that there’s just so much more to you then what meets the eye and you want to see what that is, but not everyone will see it the same as you and that’s something that not only they need to come to terms with, but you need to come to terms with yourself. Everyone will have their opinions, judgements and thoughts about it, but you…….you have to know that this change, this thing that you find yourself in the middle of, you have to know that it’s not all bad, sure it may seems like it, but it’s not. Everyone changes and not everyone is gonna be the same for long.

If you’re going through some kind of change, maybe it’s because you need the change because maybe the way you were and the things you did before…….maybe they just aren’t meant to be there forever with you, maybe they were just there for the moments that you needed it………I find myself wondering whether the person I am now this version of me, I wonder whether I went wrong with her or something and the thing is………I actually don’t feel like I did, I know i’m not the same as I was a few months ago, a few months ago I was happy, happier than i’ve ever been, me now……..i’m half kinda happy, but also half not fully completely happy and you’re probably thinking what does this have to do with self doubt!?

Well……..when you know that you’ve changed and that you just aren’t the same person everyone was used to and that you were use to, it makes you look back on a lot of things from the moments that you were, to how you are now and it makes you question, even when you feel like this new you, this new version of you might just do you good…….it will still have you question yourself and it will leave you to doubt yourself and if you’ve always been the kind of person to have issues with self doubt, whether that be in yourself, the decisions that you’ve made, it will still effect you.

Even when it does though, you just keep in mind that everyone changes, you included, you may not understand why and you may not like it at first, but eventually you’ll come to realize that you changing isn’t a bad thing, it’s far from it. The only thing that comes from change is new opportunities and a new kind of growth, so again, no matter how many judgements you get, keep in mind that when you start to doubt yourself when it comes to how you’re doing things and all that, know that you have nothing to worry about, because you’re doing fine, you just gotta keep going and eventually you’ll see that the change you’ve come across will only be for the better even if you think it wont. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Mood: I’m Feeling Both Calm & Happy Today (Nov 12, 2018)

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How’s your day going everyone I hope you’re all doing well, right now it’s around 1pm close to 1:30pm where i’m at and I don’t really know why, but today i’m feeling really good, i’m happy which………yeah, I don’t know i’m just very happy right now, which is good. I’ve been smiling to myself for a long while now which doesn’t happen very often but i’m gonna take it and just really enjoy this because……..yeah it’s been a while, I was just posting both blog post from yesterday on my social media and when I went to post my 4 months of me blogging post it was like……….I don’t know I still can’t believe that it’s been 4 months since I started this blog, now I know that doesn’t seem like a very long time, but at the same time it feels like it’s been a very long time.

To me it feels like i’ve been blogging for longer than that, even though I just recently started not too long ago which is weird, but looking back on it………I don’t know it’s crazy like wow…….to think I came here thinking that I was just gonna use this to express my emotions, but then after a while of doing this, I was able to add some fun stuff to it, or at least what I think is pretty fun and interesting, ummm but yeah……..i’m just really happy today I don’t really have much that I want to say, i’m just feeling happy and good.

You know, it’s crazy, because when I was trying to figure out what to write, normally I sit and ponder for a very long time and get a little frustrated because i’m trying to come up with something, however today was different, I mean although I still wasn’t sure what it was that I wanted to write……I didn’t stress out about it, which i’m glad, because I don’t like stressing even though it can happen more often then I’d like, but that’s not gonna happen today, today i’m gonna take in and really enjoy this feeling of feeling good, does that make sense I hope so haha, but yeah, I feel good and that’s all I can really say at the moment.

I hope that you guys are doing well and you’re having a good day, if not I hope that you find something to brighten up your mood to where you feel better, if it’s tough today, just do your best to keep going and know that whatever it is that is bothering you, stressing you out or is just too much, it’ll get better and everything is gonna be alright, no worries.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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