There’s only 2 more days until the Super Blue Moon, and just like me, I’m sure everyone has been feeling the effects of it the more it approaches. Now I’ve dealt with the supermoon before, never have I ever experienced it the way I’m experiencing it this time around!

It feels like my life and everything around me have been turned upside-down, inside out and back in looping form. The inside of me has really been shaken up more than what I both would like and expected…for the past week I’ve felt on edge, my sleep hasn’t really been doing great, and my anxiety has EVERYWHERE!

It’s been very chaotic as well, and let me tell you, I really don’t do well under pressure. I’ll admit that I’ve let my anxiety get the best of me this entire week apart from yesterday, where I actually felt GREAT better than the other days, and I thought it was going to be okay from there and out….and now we’ve reached Saturday….

I was meant to get up early and ended up getting up later than I needed to, and that kind of stressed me out bringing back the feelings of being on edge again, which also brought back my anxiety.

I actually had to have an inner conversation with myself, and it felt right to do….I was expressing about needing to learn and give myself permission to relax, and now I’m laying down, but I feel bad because there are things that need to be done and I’m not doing them.

Even though my body is telling me to chill and get proper rest, my mind wakes me up telling me I need to get up, so that’s a little exhausting to deal with….and just so you know, I’m not usually this honest about my feelings.

I like to express myself in other ways without being direct on how I’m actually feeling, but it feels I need to face my own worries and really say what I feel, so here I am doing the thing I normally would be afraid to do.

Everything is just a little heavier this time round, and on a regular day, I’ll tell you,”I got this, I’m good, don’t worry.” This time, I’m saying… “A little hand would be nice.” I’m the kind of person who will take on a lot and not really ask for much, but even I have breaking points as everyone does.

I know this supermoon is telling us to really look deep within and around us to see what we like and don’t like, how to improve, and know that it’s okay to have our moment to do things we wouldn’t usually have confidence to do or that we keep putting off for later.

This week has been BRUTAL, at least for me! I find myself viewing the whole effects of the new moon that just happened, and the supermoon being filled with stress and anxiety, not realizing that it’s not trying to bring those things intentionally, but tell us that it’s time to step into the light that keeps trying to shine on us even though we keep hiding from it.

It’s a challenge I’m really not used to, and to get used to it, I know I have to stop worrying myself and stressing myself out, because I know good things are coming and I just need to be patient and trust that this is a transformation that is going to be for the better.

My patience has kind of gone away from me, and I’ve over thought a lot, I always overthink… Maybe all of this is just my time to recalibrate, brainstorm, and focus on what needs focus. Embrace moments of creativity and leave the worries to the side as they will get sorted.

As Katrina from Animal Crossing says:”Bad times are just times that are bad.”

We can’t always take things seriously. The universe never gives us more than what we can’t handle, and even though this week has felt unbearable to take on by myself, I know that I am strong, I am supported, I am loved and that I’ll be okay, it’s just part of the journey and I just need to hang on a little bit longer.

Much love

Lexa 💚💚💚