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All About Writing (Nov 16, 2018)

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Today has been a day, i’m saying that as if the day just flew by already haha, no it’s only around 3pm at the moment as i’m writing this, if I were to tell you what my days consist of, you’d look at me as if I was nuts, not because I do a lot, or anything, it more because I just pretty much do the same things all the time, not that interesting I know. I’ll be honest I don’t really know what to write about today, I pretty much did most of my writing in my writing journal, I wrote about 12 pages of whatever was on my mind, insane right!? I didn’t quite expect to write as much as I did and even when I was writing there I didn’t know what I was gonna write about, I just started writing and whatever came out, came out………it’s crazy how just writing things out helps you.

I know I have loads of journals, but I gotta say I didn’t think i’d ever write this much in my life compared to how much i’m writing now, hopefully that made sense. I use to just write whenever I was really feeling something and that use to be rare, this year I find myself writing more than I ever would have imagined, everyday I feel something and now whenever I feel something I find myself reaching for my pencil and ready to write. I use to be so cautious though of the things i’d write, I only wanted to write positive stuff as best as I could………that’s what my thought journal was for, now I barely write in that which is weird. I only ever write in my writing journal and that’s where I write my thoughts now and I mean my actual thoughts. 

Not my “let me try and write this a certain way to where I only understand”……..I won’t lie to you, I only would write a certain way in my thought journal because well, for one it was the only way I knew how to express myself, without really expressing myself, if that makes sense………another reason was……..I guess……I was scared to really put down how I was feeling, because to me it was just me focusing on the negatives and I didn’t want to do that, that’s why when I started my thought journal I said to myself it would only be used for a positive outlook and then later I started realizing I was writing my actual feelings more and more and I couldn’t write it any other way, so I stopped writing it in.

Then when I heard about morning pages to where you learn that the purpose of it, is for you to get everything that you’re feeling out, not matter what it is, you just write, no cover ups or anything, just full on writing and having that option to where you’re like “So wait I can write anything!? no matter what it is, I don’t have to write it a certain way or anything!?” having that put in front of you, saying no strings attached, all you gotta do is write, it gives you both this sense of “okay I think I can do that” as well as “Wait can I do that!?” I don’t know, it’s helpful and it gives you that feeling of trust in a way if that makes sense, like as if you’re being told “hey you can do it and I believe in you”, I don’t know if that’s a good example, but I hope you know what I mean when I say that.

I guess what i’m trying to say is, i’m glad that writing was always one of my favorite things to do and i’m glad that I learned all about morning pages even though, I tend to write them in the evening a lot of the time………being able to just write without having to think about it too much, really really does help, plus once you’ve written down everything that you wanted or you were feeling, it always makes you feel better and it gives you that sense of focus that you need when everything seems like it doesn’t make sense and when it starts not to make sense, writing let’s you just drift away and escape from it all, well at least for me it does. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Listen To Yourself When It Tells You Not To Listen To YourSelf

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I know the title’s probably confusing you guys, so i’m gonna explain it in the best way that I can on what I mean. The reasoning for this title is, because we all have a habit of going so deep within ourselves, well more like our minds like to make us go deep with ourselves and pick every flaw we have, as well as choosing memories that we try to avoid, all because it just likes putting all these negative emotions and feelings in front of us, so that way we go off track and wander off into that neck of the woods, even when we tell ourselves to avoid that part of the woods, sometimes we listen and sometimes we go and wonder off anyway. 

We all have moments where the negativity in our heads become so strong that it kinda makes it hard to ignore them and although we try and try to push them aside when they start to creep up, they never like to stay put. Negativity loves to get in our faces and make us believe that everything that we’re feeling, every little thought and worry that we have is worth stressing over and it’s not, it’s really not, yet, no matter how many times we tell ourselves to stop stressing and not think so much on it, we all know that sometimes it’s just easier said then done.

We can have days to where we listen to ourselves about it, but most of the time, although we try, we let our minds win and that’s not good because if we keep letting our minds win when it comes to negativity, we’re always gonna embrace the negatives and you never want that. Unraveling and drowning ourselves in our own negative thoughts………..we’re stronger than that and we don’t need it…….we don’t need it at all and that’s why I say listen to yourself, when it tells you not to listen to yourself. By telling yourself not to listen to your own thoughts anymore, when it comes to the negatives, you give yourself the chance to put your focus onto things, worth focusing on while giving yourself a better outlook and mindset as well.

I know that sometimes it can be super, heck extremely hard to try and keep yourself from going down that neck of the woods, believe me I know, but every time you find yourself or feel yourself wandering off, stop and really think, “Is this thing that i’m stressing on and overthinking really that important and is it doing me any good, am I benefitting from it!? If you find yourself unable to come up with anything useful, then wander off somewhere else because it’s not worth it.  Also remember sometimes we are our own worst enemy and although we should always trust ourselves, sometimes we have to keep ourselves from invading our own personal space at times. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Evening Blog Pages (Nov 11, 2018)

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They say the best way to get what you’re feeling out is to write it down, which I did, I wrote a new evening page in my writing journal a little bit ago on what was in my head. When it comes to me it never seems to be just one thing though, it’s always a bunch of different things, you know trying to figure out everything, wondering whether or not i’m doing okay…….you know just mainly stuff like that, which I know I shouldn’t stress myself over on, it’s just hard sometimes, because it’s like, I know me stressing isn’t really gonna do anything, it’s just gonna make me more and more stress and do I want that, of course not I don’t want to constantly worry all the time and constantly have in my mind “am I doing okay!?” “is everything gonna turn out alright!?” I just want to know and trust that it will be if I just let things happen gradually, without any worries.

I just always tend to have this thing where I constantly worry and wonder about what the future is gonna hold for me and how it’s gonna be, I mean heck i’m sure we all do. We all worry about how everything is gonna turn out for us, it’s just that feeling of wanting to know, but knowing you don’t know, that stresses you out, because you just want some clarification that everything is gonna be okay, you’re gonna be okay and that  everything you’re hoping will turn out well, does………I don’t know………They say anxiousness comes from overthinking everything, If I wasn’t so good at overthinking, I know I wouldn’t worry so much, i’m sure everything will be okay and that everything else will be okay.

I just have to keep my brain and thoughts in order and do my best to only focus on being in the moment and not worrying so much, as well as just staying confident on everything that i’m doing and believing that everything will turn out okay in the process and just keep going and continue doing my best and working as hard as I can, because those are the thoughts that I should be holding on too and keeping my focus on.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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I Don’t Even Know, What To Title This

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Hey everyone, i’m back with another blog post, i’m gonna try and make this one not so long, so that way I can get some sleep, you’re probably thinking “well gee why don’t you just sleep if you’re so tired!?” I could do that yeah, buuuut I told myself i’d write two blog posts today, since I not only didn’t record a new video, but I also haven’t uploaded my other video from last Saturday, which is kinda stressing me out a bit, but that would be my fault because, I could’ve did it earlier, but I didn’t so I have to deal with it of course.

I will upload it in the morning though, although it should’ve been uploaded already, talk about making things harder on yourself right!? It’s just too much at times, especially when most of your days are up and down, there isn’t really ever a middle ground most times, but I guess it could be if you just make the most of it right!? As well as making things a little bit easier for yourself and not stressing yourself out every minute of the day with trying to do everything all at once or thinking you have to do loads, because you really don’t have to, you just have to find some kind of balance to where everything seems manageable. Maybe by doing that, it will become less overwhelming and you’ll tend to feel a little bit at ease doing things that way……….am I making sense!? I hope so, right now I don’t have any idea whether or not what i’m writing is coming out right, that’s how tired I am at this very moment, but i’m trusting myself and hoping it is coming out okay.

Do you guys just have days like that where, sometimes you just write, but you’re not quite sure if what you’re writing about is coming out alright or if it’s making any sense or is that just me!? I can’t be the only one, I hope i’m not the only one……I think we all tend to have days like that, I feel with days like that, it might actually be good, because then whatever has been hiding away from you, could come out without a care and then maybe you’ll feel better because of it.

I mean who says we can’t have days where we just write whatever is in our minds or just random posts to where it doesn’t have to make sense for once it can just be freely writing, if that makes any sense, I don’t know if it does, but I hope you all know what it is that I mean………I feel i’m gonna look back on this post and just go “WHAT DID I JUST WRITE” I might regret it, I might not, hey I might just even look back and laugh at it or even be surprised I don’t know, I guess i’ll see tomorrow morning.

I’m gonna head to sleep now, okay i’m gonna get a snack first and then head to sleep, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening, it’s gonna be something looking back at this post tomorrow.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Care To Sit And Chat!? (Nov 9, 2018)

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Disclaimer: This was written earlier around 4pm my time, it’s close to around 10:30pm now just to give you guys a heads up, it was my earlier thoughts and I just kinda wanted to share a bit.  

Okay so i’ve been sitting at my computer for a good few minutes now, trying to figure out what it was I wanted to write about. I was considering writing a little love letter, like an ode to my boyfriend, but I didn’t think you’d want to read that so I changed my mind and kinda instead felt maybe I should hand write one, I honestly feel that would mean a lot more then writing it on my blog. I’ll be honest with you though, I don’t really have a topic to write about at the moment, so i’m pretty much just writing as I go, just to see what comes out and maybe they’ll be something there as i’m writing you know!?

I guess I could try and tell you guys what’s in my head or how my day was and what I did, it might be boring though, but maybe you’ll enjoy a bit of it……..I don’t know. I’ll start by telling you the reasoning for me wanting to write something sweet for my guy at first, don’t worry it won’t be super sappy promise, well i’ll do my best to make sure it’s not. The reason I first thought about writing a sweet little letter to my boyfriend as a blog post is because today is his birthday………unfortunately I was unable to spend it with him, due to him living not near me, he’s from the UK, so you can probably guess what kind of relationship we’re in………..

It’s hard, because I wanted to be able to spend his birthday with him, the same way he spent mine with me and knowing I couldn’t be there on his birthday, it sucks you know…….but to look on the bright side of it, at least i’ll get to spend part of it with him when we speak soon, so that’s good, I get to see his face and that smile that I love so much………yeah sorry it’s kinda headed in the sappy lane, i’ll switch over to something else in a second don’t worry.

I don’t normally write stuff like this because I don’t know……..I just feel like I shouldn’t write it, but when your mind is constantly just thinking of that person, it hard not to want to get it out a bit, he’s my world and the light of my life and I guess all of this is because i’m missing him and I just always want him near me you know!? I know that we’ll get there soon though, just gotta keep going and work hard so we’re able to get that even when somedays are harder than most. I just wanted to get that out a bit, also Happy Birthday my love if you’re reading this, I miss and love you loads.

Switching over to something less sappy though don’t worry I won’t go on and on about it even though I could and would but, I won’t put you guys through that. Let’s talk on what else happened today, like for one I was super tired this morning, still am, I didn’t sleep til about close to 2am last night because I was writing a blog post, which is kinda my fault, I could’ve wrote it earlier, buuut I didn’t so, you know you get what you give, is that the saying!? I’m not really sure, it might be.

Anyway my day didn’t quite start til about 11am. I didn’t wake up at a 11am, I woke up early, I just didn’t have the energy to start anything til around that time, okay close to 12pm more like. I was gonna do a new video of my what I like to call chatting session All Things Random and I set everything up to do it, but it was almost 3pm when I was thinking of recording and I like to record early so I don’t have to record while people are around, plus I didn’t want to record the video and me be super tired while recording, so I decided to do that tomorrow instead.

After deciding that I was like okay so i’m not doing that today, so i’m gonna try and write 2 blog posts today so that way I feel a little productive and I don’t feel like I didn’t do anything. So because now I said that, I have to go through with it and I don’t have any idea of what my next post is gonna be about a little later tonight, right now it’s around 5pm close to 5:30pm and it looks and feels like it’s 8pm, but it’s not, so that’s fun. That’s pretty much all that happened throughout my day, oh also to update you from my last blog post Ashley Tisdale is making a music video for her new single Voices In My Head and i’m super excited about it, it’s been too long and I can’t wait to see how it comes out, I feel it’s gonna be really good knowing Ashley, I like all her music videos to be honest.

So yeah that’s all I have for you guys, my day’s been pretty alright in case you guys think that I didn’t have a good one, I did, just had a few moments is all. I hope you don’t mind these kind of posts, I guess you can call them evening blog pages, now that i’m really thinking about it, I might just write this one in one of my journals as well and I might do more of these every now and again, not all the time just certain days, anyway I hope you all are enjoying the night, i’ll see you again before going to sleep with something new.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Now Playing Ashley Tisdale, Song Of The Day/Night: Voices In My Head

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Now before you ask, I just want to let you know that i’m actually having a pretty good night, although i’m super tired, but I needed to write a blog post because I didn’t yesterday, so if I have to stay up until midnight or even later I will, if it means posting something new, it’s only 11pm at the moment, but it is close to midnight and I normally try and fall asleep around that time so i’m hoping I don’t make this blog post a long one.

The reason for this title here, is because I just listened to Ashley Tisdale’s new single Voices In My Head and I loved it!! Now a lot of you might know of her and a lot of you might not, but that’s okay no worries, i’ll tell you a bit on her, like for one, she’s mainly known as an actress, you might’ve heard of the movie called High School Musical……yeah Ashley plays the character Sharpay Evans, she also starred in Suite Life Of Zack And Cody, she had her own spin off after High School Musical called Sharpay’s Fabulous Adventure, so she’s pretty much apart of the Disney Channel circle, well she was.

She’s been in a whole lot of other movies, she also I believe directed and guested starred on a show called Young & Hungry, which i’ve watched, but haven’t finished watching so I have to catch up, even though I think the show finished already so I think I just have to watch it, but yeah Ashley’s known, but I don’t think she’s super big, but she’s known.

Anyway back to the song, which again is great, really great……..well to me anyway, I don’t know if you guys are gonna like it, but if you want to hear it, i’ve added it for you if you’re interested, I loved it though, had a big smile on my face while listening to it. I only heard it once, buuut once is enough to get me to like it and it’s Ashley of course i’m gonna love it!!! I’ve been waiting for new music from her for soooo long and finally she’s released a new single, how amazing is that!!? Okay caaaalm…….caaalm…….alrighty, okay.

Like I was saying, Ashley’s great and her voice is great as well, now her voice isn’t like everyone else’s, but I still find it to be very unique, it’s not like super powerful, but I find her voice is still very lovely. Now although a lot of people know her as more of an actress and of course a lot of people know that she has a voice on her because of High School Musical, what a lot of people don’t know is Ashley did and does music as well, besides her singing and starring in High School Music (1, 2 & 3) She actually had two pretty good albums (in my opinion).

Her first album being Headstrong, which is a classic and one of my favorite albums to go back and listen to, whenever I want to relive part of my young years (i’m not that old don’t worry, still young) I still have that album til this day actually (there’s a story on the first time I owned it, but I won’t bore you guys with that one…….I hope i’m not boring you guys now) Headstrong released back in 2007 and her other album Guilty Pleasure released back in 2009, was also pretty good. That album, i’d say was a little bit more on the mature side, more than headstrong was, but I liked that it didn’t go too overboard, however I still would say that it was mature for it’s time, just when it comes to certain songs, but it wasn’t like super bad on the mature scale, which is good.

Both albums we’re great, I loved them, like I said not only do I have Headstrong, but I also own Guilty Pleasure too, I was a pretty big fan of Ashley, not like super, but a big fan, you know sometimes you have those artists that you love and then you have your all times favorites. Ashley Tisdale is on my favorite artist lists, so there’s all time favorites, favorites, artists you like and then you have the “ahhh their alright” kinda artist. You know what i’m talking about…….and if you don’t, well then don’t mind me, i’m just in a really good mood and have this crazy amount of energy for some reason and decided to write my blog post for tonight all about Ashley Tisdale and you know what I don’t regret it, because this is actually the first blog post where I knew everything I was gonna write.

Probably my quickest one too, I started this close to 11:30pm and it’s around 12:30am midnight at the moment and that may seem like a long time to you guys to write on a post, buuut for me, it’s not, I normally take longer and that includes on shorter posts then this. I don’t really have much else to say, although it’s practically 1am……update it’s now around 1:30am as i’m finishing this so i’m just gonna leave this post here and get some sleep now………I hope you all have a great night/morning and or evening.

 

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

Now Playing PVRIS, Song Of The Day: Same Soul

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Okay so, i’m not quite sure how long this post is gonna be, i’m hoping it’s not too long though, but we’ll see. I wasn’t quite sure what to write about today, I kinda sat looking at my computer and all around my room, trying to think and so I just went with whatever was in my head the most which so happened to be a song by one of my favorite bands, that I constantly mention I know, but for some reason I woke up with the song in my head so I thought let’s talk about the song and you know see what it’s about, shall we!?

So as you can see from the title the song that we will be touching upon today is called same soul and it’s by PVRIS (the band that never seems to leave my mouth, not that I mind, I don’t know if you guys do though…..hope not) anyway same soul I feel is a pretty self explanatory kind of song, however I also know that some people might have a different perspective as well as a different interpretation of the song which is cool because all songs with meaning always tend to leave you wondering what the song is about, especially when you have songs that are hard to get right away.

Here are the lyrics of the song Same Soul from the first verse to the chorus:

 [Verse 1]
Where does your body go when I leave you alone?
Would your heart know if I met you in a brand new set of bones?
‘Cause you may see me in different bodies
Hiding below with the same soul

[Pre-Chorus]
I could have walked by you a thousand times
Different places, different lives
I could have been someone you don’t recognize
Different figure, new design

[Chorus]
I’m just a body that you used to know
I’m just somebody that you used to know
I’m just a body that you used to know
Used to know, used to know, used to know

So as you can see, pretty self explanatory right!? Lynn Gunn the front singer of PVRIS talks about possibly meeting someone more than once to what we know, if that makes sense, just to explain it a bit more, in this she talks past lives pretty much. Now some may say that past lives isn’t really a thing, while others would most likely, maybe disagree, if you’re asking me whether I believe in the whole past lives topic, I would say that I wouldn’t completely rule it out. I mean don’t you guys ever wonder why sometimes we connect to people right away and why it is that some people we encounter can seem familiar to us!? It’s that feeling where you bump into someone and you just have this strange connection to right away, but you know even know each others names yet!?

In this song, I feel it relates to past lives, even Lynn herself talked upon past lives in a podcast. Having that thought and feeling as though you could have possibly met someone before, it really gets you thinking………a lot of us don’t really think on whether or not we had multiple lives before hand, apart from the one we are living now, I think that some of us or maybe even all of us had, however some of us can recall it very vividly then most of us, which is pretty interesting if you think about it.

Here’s the second verse and the pre chorus:

[Verse 2]
Where did your heart stay in all those years away?
Did I make your body shake?
Could you feel me riding through the airwaves?
In all those yesterdays were you always hiding below?
No, I didn’t know

[Pre-Chorus]
I think we’ve loved a thousand lives
I try to find you every time
Searching for those same wide eyes
That locked me in, in my first life
Do you remember my old names?
Recognize my other face?

This song definitely hints at being about past lives here, especially when she sings the lines of the pre-chorus, talking about loving the same person more than once and trying to recognize that person as they are now (I think we loved a thousand lives, I try to find you every time) she even sings the lines: Do you remember my old names!? Recognize my other face!? which to me SCREAMS THIS SONG IS ABOUT PAST LIVES…..ehm…sorry about that.

Now after looking at the lyrics again, I came to the thought, that maybe it’s not about past lives entirely, some parts could also be seen as maybe knowing someone from childhood, but then either you move away or they move away as kids and then one day you end up bumping into them again, but you don’t really quite recognize them at first, but once you really start to get to know them, that’s when it all comes back to you, you know them and are familiar with them because you use to be friends before.

You both see now though how much you as people, have changed since that time, so it’s kinda like you’re having a conversation with them, asking them whether they still remember that version of you, before you both grew up to be the new versions of who you are now, if that makes any sense at all, I really hope that did, I was trying so hard to word all that right as best as I could. Like I said earlier this song could be interpreted in a lot of different ways, but I feel this song is leading a whole lot toward it being about past lives, but that’s just my interpretation on it. I have no idea why I woke up to that song in my head, but hey it gave me the idea to write a blog post on this soooo, i’m happy.

Now I don’t know about you guys, but I actually felt this post to be a whole lot challenging to write about then my other posts. I didn’t think i’d ever come across the thought to write upon topics like this, although I always sometimes think about this topic and other topics of course, this is the first one to where I felt I wanted to put my thought on, but although it was challenging, I actually enjoyed writing about it because these are the kind of things that can get you really thinking, which is good if it’s stuff like this.

What was your most challenging blog post to write about, if you too had an experience like that and what’s your interpretation on the song that I just covered!? Do you believe in past lives, do you think that the only life we have is the one we’re living!? Feel free to share your thoughts if you like, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

If you guys are interested in hearing the song so that you can get a better interpretation on it or you just want to listen to it, you can listen to it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmweQs1-XH8

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Dream Journal: Mystery Song

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Dreams we all have them and by dreams i’m talking actual dreams you know the ones, we’re you go to sleep and you soon find yourself in this whole other place or scenery that isn’t always familiar to you, yet you might feel you know it or you might not feel anything at all. Sometimes we’ll just end up finding ourselves wandering around aimlessly somewhere, swimming in the ocean, hey sometimes your dreams won’t make any sense at all.

Sometimes you’re aware you’re dreaming, other times you won’t even notice that you are and so you continue the dream as if you’re part of it all the time, which probably doesn’t make any sense I know, but neither do our dreams at times, why you may ask……..I don’t quite know!? Don’t you just hate how sometimes our dreams can feel and seems so real, yet we know that they aren’t entirely!?

Dreams are quite interesting though, because you can actually learn a lot when it comes to them, we all know that even when we’re asleep that our minds are always awake which is why most of the time we have dreams. Our dreams interpret things from our waking lives into our sleep state, sometimes we get it and sometimes we don’t………majority of our dreams though have hidden meanings to them that most times we’re able to decipher and find out what they actually mean, while other times they’re just pretty random and don’t really have much to them when trying to figure them out.

The reason i’m talking about dreams here is because last night I had one and I don’t know why, but I wanted to talk about it. Now this is a pretty random one so it may not make any sense and i’m not sure if there’s a meaning to it, but I just thought it was interesting and I wanted to share it, it shouldn’t be a long post, but we’ll see…….. i’ll only tell you what I remember from it, but yeah here we go onto my dreamland:

Okay so I remember walking into my moms shop, my mom owns a nail salon, I remember walking inside, not sure how I got there and why I was there, but I was…….anyway so I walked in, there’s two floors I was on the first one, her shop is on the second floor and the first floor is where the other people who work there, do hair. So as I was walking towards her shop, I heard this song and I really liked it, but I never heard it before, but the song sounded like it had already been made in real life, it had this up beat melody and there were lyrics, so this song was pretty much like a full song.

I stopped walking and was trying to figure out what the song was about and really listen to it, I think I was listening to the chorus part of it and as i’m listening to it, I said to myself how the song sounded like it could be like a really nice country song, like the new country you know artists like: Mickey Guyton, Kasey Musgraves, but also people like Sara Evans, Miranda Lambert people like that…….but in my dream I remember saying how the song sounds like it would go well with Sara Evans voice or I think I remember saying another name like Danielle I can’t remember, I do remember Sara Evans though.

Long story short, I was listening to the song that i’ve never heard before, but knowing it sounded very good and oh so real and I remember going to write down the lyrics to the song, well the ones I tried to remember at least, only……….I couldn’t remember the lyrics and in my dream I tried so hard to remember it, but I couldn’t and then in the end I ended up going upstairs to where my mom worked. (End Of Dream) 

When I got up in the morning though, there we’re only a few lines that I got from the dream so I wrote them down, but yeah that dream felt so real and that song sounded like I had listened to it before, but I also knew that I didn’t at the same time, it was mad I tell you. Have you guys ever had dreams like that where you hear this really amazing song fully finished, but when you awake in the morning, you then come to realize that, the song in your dream last night, doesn’t actually exist and that your brain just April fooled you without it being April!?

That’s not right brain……..I actually liked that song, it was good. Let me know if that’s happened to you, anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Morning Pages/Evening Pages

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Have you guys ever written morning pages before, have you even heard of it!? I’m not quite sure whether I heard of it or not, but i’ve never written anything on it before, now what I mean on that is when it comes to morning pages, I never thought about participating in it, today was kinda the first time I slightly participated in it, I say slightly, because I didn’t finish what I was writing and I seem to be doing that a lot actually, lately if I write in my thought journal, I don’t really finish writing out what at the time I wanted to write out, which i’m not exactly sure why I do that.

For those who aren’t familiar with morning pages, what they basically are is……..weeeell to me and maybe to a lot of others who’ve heard of them, they’re pretty much morning journal entries. I actually feel there’s a difference between regular journal entries and morning pages, journal entries you write whatever you want to write, it could be about what you’re feeling, what you’re happy about stuff like that, but with morning pages you pretty much just write everything that’s in your head when you wake up in the morning, so if you’re feeling crappy, you write it out, no filters or anything, just everything that’s going on in your head on a piece of paper. I tried doing that this morning…..okay it wasn’t in the morning it was more around 11am which to me is close to the afternoon, so I guess they were more afternoon pages than morning pages.

If you’re wondering why I decided to talk upon morning pages, i’ll try and it explain as best as I can…….sooo yesterday I kinda didn’t have the greatest night, like I was alright, it wasn’t a bad day, but I had a moment during the night where I started overthinking something and when I overthink, I don’t quite know how to stop myself from overthinking, which tends to put me in certain moods that I don’t like, I get very frustrated with myself and upset as well because of the fact that I constantly overthink things and although I really try not to, I still end up doing it and I don’t really understand why that is.

Back to why i’m talking about morning pages, while I was overthinking, this might sound weird but……….sometimes when I am feeling something, I like to google it, which I know isn’t probably the best thing in the world, because then you have different things telling you stuff that will cause you to overthink more and yeaaah, you guys know what I mean. Anyway so I looked up why I was overthinking so much and I found different articles on ways to stop overthinking and one of the tips was to start morning pages. Everything that is in your head during the morning just write it out, they even said it didn’t have to makes any sense, because we’d be the only ones reading it, they also said there’s no wrong way to write morning pages……..yet I felt this morning I wasn’t quite doing it right which is weird.

I was writing my thoughts, but I found myself trying to think about how to word everything and call me crazy or tell me i’m wrong, but I don’t think you’re meant to wonder on how to write morning pages, I think you’re just meant to just write and not think about how to write it, that’s why I felt I was doing it wrong………I mean like how do you mess up morning pages when all you have to do is write about everything that’s in your head, I just don’t understand it!?………and I have a thought journal where I write down my thoughts, but that journal I also tend to think about how to say things because i’m not good with words all that much. Is it just me or do any of you feel like that as well!? I hope i’m not the only one and if I am, well then I sure need to not try so hard if i’m gonna start writing morning pages don’t I!?

Hopefully all of this made sense somehow, have you guys ever tried morning pages or even heard of it, if so do you feel that it helps you get on with your day better or do you still find yourself overthinking certain things either way!?

 

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

Update: I actually finished writing my morning pages from earlier in my journal, so now it’s more of an evening pages, if that made sense……I wrote about 3-4 and a half pages of thoughts, so yeah, hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

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Off Days

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We all deal with them at times, sometimes they’ll happen even when you’re having a good day. I’m sure we all know what off days are, but for those who may be a little confused to what i’m talking about, off days are just days where you just don’t feel the best, compared to how you’re feeling on other days, if that makes sense……….I had an off day yesterday, I mean I was alright, but I also wasn’t feeling the greatest at the same time, I started going into deep thought mode and when that happens it causes me to overthink on things that I shouldn’t be overthinking.

I always try and keep myself from putting all my energy into the thoughts that run in and out of my mind, but for me it’s sometimes hard, because once i’m in a deep thought kind of mode, it’s hard for me to snap out of it right away and I probably said that in another blog post before, but I don’t remember……….I guess you can say anytime I find myself in deep thought, most of the time those are my off days, however sometimes when I am in deep thought, it’s not always an off day, it’s just me thinking very deeply on something, sometimes I don’t even know what I think about half the time, I just think, if that makes sense and I don’t know why.

Yesterday though, I just wasn’t feeling the best, i’m not sure why, but I just know I wasn’t………..you know, I was trying my best though to keep myself away from my thoughts, but it was hard. I didn’t have a bad day though, it was alright, I just knew that I wasn’t there fully, I was out with my mom and one of my little cousins and you know we had a nice time i’d say, but when we were heading back home after we dropped my cousin off, while in the car, I just couldn’t help, but go into deep thought mode and even when we got back home, I still wasn’t feeling the best.

When I got back, I tried to write something and I just couldn’t figure out what to write. I stared at my computer just trying my hardest to come up with something, you know just anything to kinda get me out of being in my mind and I couldn’t, so instead of trying to put my thoughts to the side…….I tried to sit with them and write them out in the best way that I could and you know i’ve said this so often that I know I probably sound like a broken record at times, but it’s hard for me to explain my thoughts, sometimes I even have trouble really explaining it when writing, although I feel like writing my feelings and my thoughts are a lot easier then expressing them out loud.

I wrote in my journal yesterday, because although I tried, I didn’t write here, but even when I didn’t work on a new blog post, I still felt like writing something. Now I didn’t really finish that journal entry that I wrote, but one of the things that I wrote in it that I sometimes find myself doing is……whenever my mind goes into deep thought, again like I said it overthinks a lot of things and makes me kinda in a way doubt myself in a lot of things as well, causing me to feel bad about myself and I know that isn’t right, i’m trying to work on that, but it’s not always easy though. I’m gonna share part of what I wrote in my journal here, because i’m not exactly sure on how to explain it any other way, if that makes sense.

Here’s part of my journal entry:

“I know that I have the power to switch my mind over to something better, but sometimes it’s hard, especially when what you’re feeling comes out of nowhere……I want to be able to have it not be that way……….but it’s when you don’t know what it is that you’re actually feeling to where it can cause you to think the most on it.” 

So that’s just a little part I was writing about the first day of it being November, I wasn’t even sure on what I was gonna write about in my thought journal yesterday……..but I ended up writing a little about my day and how I was feeling and when I wrote the part about not knowing how you’re feeling at times, to where it causes you to think more, I actually stopped and was like woah because that’s something that I do. Anytime I find myself in deep thought, but i’m not exactly sure on how i’m feeling, that’s when I think the most, because i’m trying to figure out what exactly i’m feeling and why it is that i’m feeling that way and a lot of the times I don’t know and i’m sure for some of you out there, it’s like that for you as well.

So yeah……..that’s just a little, well more than a little take on my day yesterday. I don’t really know what else to say here, I just felt I had to write that, I didn’t like not writing yesterday, I wanted to, but you know……..sometimes your mind kinda prevents you from doing so, because it has a lot running in and out of it, with trying to figure things out and trying to constantly fight off and away those negative feelings and thoughts that try and take over.

Although we try and avoid off days, eventually we’re gonna run in to them and we can always do our best to keep going and not get so wrapped up in it, but sometimes you just gotta let yourself have those off days, that way you’re able to deal with them right then and there and not have to worry about dealing with them all the time, because let’s face it no one likes having off days all the time.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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