Deep Breath……

Okay so this going to sound pretty confusing to guys, at least for a moment, my brain is filled with a bit of pressure and i’m feeling a little nervous….alright a lot nervous, there’s been something that i’ve been at that I just started really trying at, i’ve been back and forth with it in my head at first for a good while and it wasn’t until yesterday where I stopped thinking about it let’s just say…….at this moment though, i’m a bit nervous to the point where i’m kinda sitting with it for a bit, really thinking about it……

It’s only until I feel alright to say “it’s time” I know trying to delay something isn’t probably the best choice to go with, but sometimes you need a moment to really take something in before you go again, you know!?…….I probably should just start going again, instead of trying to purposely stall, stalling doesn’t really work all that well, unless you’re having to stall someone else from entering a room or something, in that case it kinda works,

But if you’re trying to stall yourself…….you’re not really helping yourself all that well are ya!? Guess not……I should probably get moving soon, let me go grab a sweater or jacket in case it’s get a little chilly……what!? I’m not stalling if that’s what you’re wondering, this weather is just unpredictable these days, gotta be prepared, is all……alright, alright i’m going!!……

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Attraction…..

They say you attract what you feel and what you think, so if your emotions and thoughts are at a higher vibration, 90-95% of the time you will always attract the things that you want and desire quicker than you might expect, if however your vibration is on the low scale, well it’s going to be harder to receive all that you’re wanting when you want it.

It’s not that we won’t get it, it’s just that sometimes we blocking ourselves temporarily from receiving it, they also say that by wanting something, you already are convincing and telling yourself that you don’t already have what you most want and desire, so instead of being like a magnet and attracting the things we want to come to us, we instead deflect our attraction…..like light off a mirror or something like that.

If you notice a lot of the things we happen to come by have all happened unexpectedly, when we think so hard on something or want something to happen really badly, we tend to cause some kind of friction, resistance more like and because we resist we keep what we want from getting to us.

When we put all our focus on wanting something to happen right away, we stop it from happening right away, instead of leaving it to have some breathing room. It’s like trying to rearranging furniture in your home, but everything is in the middle of the floor so you’re having to tightly squeeze yourself in to where there’s available space to move around.

As if it’s like a tightly condense maze, in other words with everything being in the middle of the room you’re left with, but so much space to navigate through, which will bring upon frustration and stress because you’re trying so hard to find your way through all this furniture to get to the next room.

Now unless you’re some kind of secret spy that loves tight spaces and isn’t claustrophobic there’s no need to do all that, you can get through just by moving something over if you’re able to and if not, patience shall help and eventually all the furniture will be right back in it’s rightful space.

In order to attract what it is we want, we gotta give it some kind of breathing room as well as keep from focusing on how bad we want it to happen, it should be easy yes!! Is it!? Not so much no……

What’s difficult about wanting to attract the things you’re wanting is, it requires our train of thoughts assistants and sometimes/majority of the time, it doesn’t like to cooperate all that well with us, so a lot of the time it tends to derail us off the tracks that we’re needing to stay on in order for everything to come to fruition and that can cause the attraction we have set in mind to become a little bonkers……although we may try to put the best positive energy into our thoughts and send it out into the universe to process……we end up unknowingly sending out the opposite kind of energy sometimes, why!? because we attract what it is we feel and think,

Everything comes from thought as well as emotion, sometimes we don’t realize that we’re thinking in a specific sorta kind of way and most of the time we don’t have a clue that a lot of what we think has come to life within our reality, it’s a weird, yet not so weird type of thing.

With trying to attract a certain or specific thing or so, we have to be aware of our thoughts and emotions that can be a bit on the tricky side, because our emotions and thoughts go based off our mood, well it’s the other way around more like, but regardless of that if either one falls on the not so great category scale, it can trip us up at times.

So how do we deal with that!? Well we just have to be more aware with the way we feel and think as they will come hand in hand at times, once we become more aware, everything else will come together quicker then we may expect…..all it takes is a side of fries, patience and some work, but most importantly some faith, trust, and pixie dust.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Just A Casual Post…..

It’s almost 11pm where I am and I literally don’t have anything prepared to write today……it’s just been one of those casual days I guess you can say, so I didn’t really think about what I wanted to write today, I knew I wanted to write something, I just don’t know what…..I guess we’ll just have a chatting post today, unless something happens to pop out of nowhere becoming a topic as i’m writing along, in the meantime, let’s just chat!!

What about I have no clue, all I know is it’s around 10:40pm pretty close to midnight, but also not too close, just yet anyway, it’s almost…….I don’t even have a title ready, normally I write that first, but I decided to write what I wanted before titling this post, it’s not like it’s the first time though, it happens from time to time, it’s just been a while since i’ve done that.

So how are you guys!? I don’t think i’ve ever asked you that in a whole post before, I know i’ve said I hope you all are doing well, but never how are you!? It doesn’t seem all that weird though……I hope everything’s going alright and that the week and weekend have been good for you!! If you had a rough day or week, I hope you pulled through it okay, I know some days are harder than most, but I hope you’re all doing alright!!

I really don’t know where i’m going with this post, i’m kinda just talking and I guess trying to start conversation, I know it’s probably not all that interesting, but I mean I hope it’s okay!? Maybe i’ll just stop while i’m ahead, hopefully I have a better post for you guys lined up tomorrow….

Sorry for it being so short, but I hope you enjoyed it somehow, I hope you all have a goodnight and day if it’s daytime, not sure where you guys are exactly, but I hope you’re having a good one wherever you are!!

P.S. It’s now 11pm, well it will be when I post this

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Think I’m Going To Make This A Short One……

I’m going to be real here, i’ve been slightly stressing out on what to write about today, I don’t have anything interesting to talk about so i’ve been trying to do other things for the time being so that way in case something did pop up to me, i’d be able to write about it, but all that came up was me getting anxious for what, I have no idea, I just was and still am a little!!

I think maybe today I just need to calm, no need to get stressed because you don’t have something to write about right!? If I happened to have something come up before I head on to bed, then i’ll try and write it before then, but if not, I hope this post is okay for now……..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Last Minute, Check In….

I thought about you today, as I know that today, well yesterday now was your birthday…..i’ll admit in my head I was slightly debating whether or not I should wish you a happy birthday or not, I kinda wanted to, but I didn’t, I didn’t forget about it though, how could I!? I hope you had a good time today and that you enjoyed yourself whatever you did, not sure if you did what you planned on doing originally or if you decided to save it for another day and just relax and enjoy your time with the day…….whatever you did or ended up doing, I really do hope you enjoyed yourself.

I hope you’re doing alright too, the last time we spoke you said you were happy and in a better place……I hope you’re still feeling like that, I always hope and want you to be good and i’ll always want you to be careful and safe as well, I know I didn’t have to write this, but I wanted to, it was in my mind to do so for some reason, I know your birthday’s over now where you are and it’s pretty late over there, but it’s still your birthday here and I just wanted to wish you a happy one and say I hope all is still well which i’m sure it is and that I hope you got to do something nice for it!!

I don’t think I have anything else I want to say, I just hope everything continues to go well for you and I hope you’re doing okay, there’s never a time I don’t wonder how you’re doing……but anyway, you keep safe and be careful and do always take care of yourself, happy birthday!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Alright Okay, Okay Alright….

These are the words that i’ve been saying to myself today so i’m going to use it as a title to this post, reason you ask!? Well i’m feeling slightly on edge today, i’m pretty much everywhere let’s just say and i’m rhyming wow can you believe that!? I’m having to keep myself extra focus even though i’m not having really much to focus on and that’s why i’m having a little trouble keeping my thoughts centered……..

I’ve been thinking again about careers not too intensively, but just slightly deep thinking about what i’d really like to do you know!? I’m going to try and keep this from sounding like another frustration kind of post, because I want to be able to think about this and work it out calmly without bringing my stress levels up and feeling anxious.

Which I already started to feel, the anxious feeling, stress not that much, but I know it’s standing in the background somewhere, as for my nerves well they’re mixing all around my stomach at the moment so i’m feeling very breathy today, you know trying to keep myself from going over the meter, not sure if breathy is a word, if not well it is for this post (it actually is a word I looked it up) i’m calm though don’t worry, i’m just in thought is all……I know they say to not think about it too hard, I try not to, but it’s just hard not to want to at least have something in mind, know where you’re possibly going…..I guess it’s just been one of those days, i’m alright now.

I hate the whole feeling on edge kind of days, it leaves you feeling like you need to be doing a million and one things and has your head just running all over the place, it’s just hard not to feel on edge when you’re still wandering and wondering where you’re going to be headed and whether your heading in the right direction at all…..

I know it’s no good worrying so much about it, the best we can do is just to keep moving even when we’re feeling edgy and unsure, but even if we are feeling that kind of way, we have to know and believe that things are going to be alright and that we will get where we’re suppose to go.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Late Night Chat…..

So it’s midnight, first day of October, goodness gracious did that go by quick…….I just wrote and reviewed one of my posts, that’s very long for those who happen to read it, sorry for the longness of it, I had a lot I needed to get out on a personal level, i’m sure you knew that if you did read it, it has a lot of feelings that I felt obviously not good ones, hopefully you just bypassed it, but i’m sure you didn’t, I was very nervous posting that.

I knew once I did, it was going to be there for everyone to read, but I wrote it for a reason, for someone specific and the only way I felt they’d possibly look at it is by posting it, I debated sharing it on my social medias because of how personal it was, I haven’t posted it on my social medias, it’ll be there here though, they say when you feel something, you have to let yourself feel it and be aware you’re feeling it and you have to ask yourself why you feel that way, I never ask myself why I feel a certain way, I just know i’m feeling it and when I feel it, I feel it really hard and I just let it out naturally.

If you read my last post you might be wondering what that was all about, i’d tell you, but you might already have it pieced together and if you don’t I wouldn’t want to share how it is because it’s very personal, not personal enough to write all that I did I know, but the writing and feeling behind it was just a little letter/message, remember when I said I have a hard time expressing how I actually feel, yeah out loud I can’t say how i’m feeling, to most people, I think it as loud as possible in my head, but never express it.

Writing helps me express those pent up emotions like that, I didn’t know what else to do, I just had a lot in my head and the first thing I did was grab my laptop, okay I grabbed my phone first, but when I realized I had a lot that wanted to come out, I grabbed my laptop and typed away, I sat with what I wrote for a bit, read it a few times, when I felt it was alright I posted it, I then started to panic a little and re looked at it, I took a few things out then changed some stuff and then updated it and then I sent it to the person I wrote it for after going over my head about whether it was a good idea or not, I still don’t know if it was, they might not even read it….I hope they do.

I’m really tired and it’s pretty much 1am already, I should sleep, but i’ve been having some trouble sleeping these past few days, so me sleeping now i’ll just end up tossing and turning and thinking too much, relaxing isn’t really my strong suit, you see, I try to, but i’m just not good at it.

It’s now 1am am as i’m writing this, I could sleep now, but the question is how long will it take me to sleep!? I hope what I wrote didn’t come off in a way that to how I tried to prevent it from coming out, if that makes any sense, these would be the thoughts that keep me up in the night. I just can’t help not thinking, when something goes off balance to me, everything is just off and it feels weird and although weird can be a good thing at times…..

The weird i’m talking about isn’t, it’s uncomfortable to where you just can’t sit still and you want the time to go by quickly, but it doesn’t and it drives you mad and you just don’t know what to do with yourself in that moment. I don’t have anything else to say, I think I said the last of what I wanted for now, so i’m going to try and get some sleep, I don’t know if i’ll be able to, but we’ll see, I let you know in my next post if I have anything good to write tomorrow now today, but anyway thanks for reading and listening if you did, you all have a good night or day since it’s morning already.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa