Chatting Sessions: Let’s Talk The Holidays & What’s On Your Christmas List!?

So as we all know, we’re in our last month of the year 2018, most of the big holidays have come and went and one of the last big holiday’s of the year is coming around the corner in a couple of weeks, 2 weeks to be exact I believe. We are close to entering the season of Winter (although it already feels like it’s Winter) Winter officially arrives next week, so for those who aren’t a big fan of the cold or maybe you are because you’re weird (ha kidding, we all have favorite seasons) be sure to get your Winter gear ready, if you haven’t already done so, because from the feels of it, it’s gonna be quite the season. So keep warm and keep your teas, coffee and or hot chocolates ready for stand by, just so you have something to reach for when you need a little warming up……..but anyway let’s move on and talk about everybody’s favorite holiday (well those who celebrate it) let’s talk about Christmas!!

Okay we all know Christmas is around the corner as I stated earlier and we also know that the holiday is celebrated intensively and brings excitement to people in a lot of different ways. Once we arrive into the cheerful and cold month, we all like to welcome it with open arms while bringing on the decorations, the festive music and of course most peoples favorites, Christmas gifts……….you know when you really think about, have you ever noticed that Christmas is the only holiday that really gets a lot of attention!? I mean think about it, no one gets all hyped up over Easter, Halloween (except for those who really love the holiday) and let’s not even talk about Thanksgiving, people practically almost, always skips over this holiday and the only time we remember it, is when it’s like a week or hey even a few days away.

We literally treat Thanksgiving as if it’s the ugly duckling of all holidays, the only difference is in the ugly duckling story, they learn to appreciate the duck and learn to love it the way it is……….we don’t really appreciate this holiday, which is kinda sad……..because it’s like we know it exist, but we just don’t really care much about it, take Halloween for example: it’s like the 3rd best holiday in my opinion, it comes around we get all excited (well I don’t, I don’t really like Halloween, sorry not sorry) 

We treat Halloween better then we treat Thanksgiving, once the scary holiday is over, we start bringing out the Christmas decorations, we put on the music and prepare for the gift, all before Thanksgiving even arrives………..it’s like walking into a place and you see everyone having a good time and then you show up excited to join, you say something to everyone, they turn around, give you a look and then go back to what they were doing and you’re just standing there awkwardly, with a not hurt smile and that’s what I like to imagine Thanksgiving feeling like every year. 

Moving on though, I know I went off track there, back to Christmas………so like I said we prepare for this holiday a lot earlier before it arrives and I get it, it’s one of those holidays that everyone looks forward to because there’s something about it that just makes you feel good, maybe it’s the Christmas music (totally the Christmas music) it could be the decorations (I mean who doesn’t love decorating, right!?) oooor it’s probably the gifts people look forward to (I don’t have anything for this one) whatever it is (could be the whole holiday) we know we really embrace the holiday season. Now when it come to December, we all get that question, that question that we can’t avoid even if we tried, you know the one………and if you don’t, it goes like this: “So…….what do you want for Christmas!?” yeah that one. 

I’m not saying everyone hates that question, i’m sure there’s a lot of people who once that question is asked, they’re already writing it down on a piece of paper or even before it’s asked their handing you an envelope of all the things that have caught their eye and I know what you’re probably thinking “Why would they have an envelope!?” you don’t know, maybe they’re secret agents of some sort or they just really love the holiday ha, no, but in all seriousness, sometimes that question isn’t easy to answer. I mean when we’re kids, we want everything that is displayed around us and don’t say that’s not true, because you know it is, it’s very true, kids love stuff.

However the older we get, we tend to have trouble really telling those around us what we want for Christmas when the question is asked to us…………i’ve been asked 3 times and more of course, what it is that I want for Christmas, since the beginning of November and when December arrived and the only answer i’m able to give is………”I don’t know.” Every time, well I should say every Christmas i’m asked that question, I never actually know what it is that I want and a lot of people will have a list of things that they saw and was like “I want that” me on the other hand, I don’t write down list of things I want, surprising right!? I write everything else down, just not that.

I don’t know, I always feel the older you get, the things that were once a huge thing, aren’t that huge as much and when it comes to the holidays, at least for me, it just isn’t the same, everyone does their own thing and no one likes spending time together, when it comes to the holidays, you would think that’s what it’s about and then you realize……it’s not, but i’m not trying to bring down anyone’s holiday spirit, you keep those spirits up as high as you can, because you deserve to be excited for it. 

I’m just expressing my thoughts on how it is from my side, but I know that everyone’s different, but anyway back to the whole What’s On Your Christmas List!? topic, I don’t have a lot of things on my Christmas list, whether that’s a mental list or an actual list……….I don’t know, maybe when it comes to me, there isn’t much physical things that I want, if that makes sense!? I mean when you’re younger again you want everything, that’s all because we’re kids and that’s how kids are, they want all the toys and things that interest them, but I haven’t been that way for a long while and maybe that’s just me, who knows………….but anyway, to bring the spirit back up on this post, you know how I talked when people ask you what you want for Christmas and sometimes it’s hard to answer!?

Yeah well, try reverting the question back to the person asking you what you want for Christmas, 9/10, 8/10, depending on the person, their not always gonna know either. If you’re lucky they’ll tell you what it is they want or they’ll either say the same thing saying they’re not sure, they’ll tell you they don’t want anything or you have those kind of people who won’t tell you what they want and when you bring it up, they pretend or act like you didn’t ask the question……….anyone else know these kind of people!? Let me know, I can’t be the only one here.

Overall, no matter how you see the holidays, it’s important to make the most of it and appreciate the things around you as well, as the people you spend your days with and enjoy it as much as you can too, because not everyone is able to celebrate these kind of holidays and if they do celebrate it, they don’t always have people to celebrate it with. You don’t need a lot to have a good holiday, the holidays are meant to be enjoyed and spent with people who mean a lot to you, whether you’re spending it with family, friends or whoever you want to spend it with, as long as you’re having a good time and you have good people around you then that’s all that matters. 

I hope with this post I don’t seem like the Grinch or anything, I know everyone’s different and i’m not saying that you can’t enjoy gifts, because who am I to say that!? The holidays can mean a lot of different things to people and if gifts are something that get you in the holiday spirit, then be happy, jump around and do a dance, no ones stopping you, but I just wanted to share my thoughts on it.

Even though I don’t know what I want for Christmas and I don’t know what to get other people for Christmas, let me know in the comments below what’s on your Christmas list, what the holidays mean to you and let me know how you get in the holiday spirit, i’d love to hear about it!! ^_^ 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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It’s Gonna Be One Of Those Days Today….

You might be wondering what it is that I mean when it comes to the title of this and I don’t even have an answer for you to tell you what it means, but I can do my best to tell you what it feels like………..it feels weird for one and it’s literally just that, i’m just having a very weird day for some reason, I have this sort of feeling to something and I can’t explain what that is exactly. It’s like I feel alright, i’m having an alright day, but i’m just feeling very weird……….it’s hard to describe. it’s like, I don’t know……..I don’t know. Don’t even ask what it is i’m thinking about, not that you would or anything, but if you did, I wouldn’t be able to tell you anyway, does that happen to you guys!? 

Do you ever have days where, you feel fine and alright, but at the same time you also feel a little odd too!? If I had to describe it in someway I would describe it as like confusing. It’s confusing because you know you’re feeling a certain way, but you don’t know why or what that feeling your feeling is exactly, does that make sense!? I have no idea if what i’m talking about makes sense, it probably just looks like random words being mushed together to form a whole lot of sentences. 

It’s just one of those days I guess……

Let me know in the comments if you either are having one of those days as well or if you’ve ever had one of those days. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~ 

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Monday Randoms: Welcoming December With Some Random Thoughts Added

Although I know it’s 3 days late into the month, I just want to say welcome December, I hope that you’re doing well. You’re the last month until the new year rolls around……it’s crazy how quickly the year went, the last thing I remember is being lost and stuck in the summer months and now we’re here, December 3rd, beginning of a new month as well as the ending of an old year. I know we still have a few days to go until Christmas arrives and the year goes from 2018 to 2019…….it’s a little scary knowing how close we actually are, will 2019 be a different year, will it be a better one!? I don’t know, all you can do is hope that it will be and do your best to make sure that it is. 

However, we shouldn’t stress ourselves out wondering what’s to come for the new year, we should just always do our best to appreciate and admire the days as they come, doing that won’t leave you to feel overwhelmed about every little thing, you can just enjoy and also flow with it if you want. You know when you really let yourself take in all the days that come, it brings you into a whole different mode and gives you this feeling of wanting to look at everything deeply, it makes you wonder on a lot of different things and by that I mean like if you were to look at a tree or at the clouds, you know……..makes you wonder how exactly they were made, before we even became apart of this world.

The other day, well a few days ago I was in the car with my mom and I was wondering how people we’re able to create the highways and all that, I mean the world wasn’t always highways, roads, houses ect……..it was all nature and everything, it’s crazy when you really think about stuff like that. You also have the way we are, there’s a lot of different theories on where exactly we came from, there’s just a whole lot of wonder and questions that we don’t entirely know the answers to, we know a certain amount, but we’ll always have that wonder inside of us in wanting to know a definite answer on everything.

If you really think about it, having that mystery of not knowing everything exactly, I mean it’s both scary and exciting in a sense. I mean why should we know everything, that’s why when we’re born, we’re born curious…….to us everything is like a huge giant puzzle, only we don’t ever solve it completely. Normally we can finish a puzzle on our own, but in this case it’s impossible, because even when we think we’ve figured it out, we’ll always have pieces missing and that’s okay, we don’t have to solve every puzzle, we’ll always find certain pieces to fill it, but we won’t entirely figure it out and we don’t need to always figure it out, sometimes it’s just about the feeling of it and by it, I mean………..well everything, everything is just a big huge ball of wonder.

Hey that just reminded me of the Wonderball commercial, if you guys don’t know what a Wonderball is, well it just a chocolate ball with candy inside, it was one of mine and my brother’s favorite candy growing up, they brought it back, but it’s not quite the same as it was before.

This sure went off track, didn’t it haha……don’t ask, I just had a lot of random thoughts floating around and felt like writing them down, I just didn’t think it’d be all of this. It was meant to be about the month December, but it kinda took a different turn after a bit, hey it happens. Feel free to share some of your random thoughts down in the comments below if you have you any and also if December was a person, what kind of stuff would you say to it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~  

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Dream Journal: The Stone And A Singing Bird (Nov 17, 2018)

Hey everyone I hope you’re all doing well, i’m not really sure what to write about today, i’ll be honest i’m not really in a mood for writing, because i’m super tired, but I didn’t want to not write at the same time and so I said to myself if i’m gonna write something I don’t want it to sound like I don’t really care about it, so what i’m saying is I don’t want to just write something for the heck of it you know, I want it to be something i’m happy to write about and not have it to where I just pretty much say here you go and call it a night, you know what I mean!? Who wants to read that!? 

It’s not easy to think of topics when all your brain wants to do is sleep you know!? So I thought about what I could share with you guys that would be interesting to read and I came up the perfect i’d say, topic to share. As you can probably guess from the title, I will be sharing a new dream journal entry with you, hopefully you find it interesting…….I had this dream the other day and was thinking of sharing it when I had the dream, but I wasn’t sure on it and then I had another dream last night and so I thought why not share both dreams and write it in a blog post.

Now these entries aren’t gonna be very long, hopefully they won’t be long, but we’ll see. The dream I had last night is gonna be a short one, but the one I had the other day i’m not quite sure, anyway let’s head on down to my dreamland shall we!?

This dream is the one I had the other day:

Okay so………I was walking down this hallway…….it looked like a school hallway and I was walking with a group of people, however I stopped, while the others went ahead…….I remember walking into a classroom and it was weird because at first I didn’t walk in right away, I said something to everyone that was in the classroom…….now I can’t really remember everything I said, but what I do remember is me, pretty much warning them about something. You’re probably gonna ask me what I warned them about, but I wouldn’t be able to tell you anyway, it was really weird because it did’t feel like anything bad, but it also didn’t feel good either…….All I remember is me saying “Something’s gonna happen, but I don’t know what it is” that’s what I said again I wasn’t sure whether to take it as bad thing or a good thing.

So after saying that, I remember everyone is that classroom getting up to leave and I started to walk a little quickly, not running, but a little speed walk……..I also remember being in a room that was also a classroom with the group of people I was walking with before and I don’t know why, but we were all kinda like what seemed like gathering everything that was in that room, I remember passing a bookcase and then walking to a certain corner of the room……….clearing out what looked to be like a nightstand side table, weird I know………I also remember looking out towards the window, it was one of those big school windows and I remember seeing a whole bunch of people heading towards a bus or some kind of transportation thing and I actually just remembered this now, but I think everyone who was outside, when I looked out the window, I think they were carry colorful flowers, I remember seeing bright colors like Yellow, I think pink and baby blue or something, i’m not sure, I do remember yellow for some reason……

I remember there being a nice kinda sky, you know sunny, kinda clear with a few clouds, it was also weird though, because I remember seeing a building and it being on fire and seeing smoke coming from it, which was weird, in my dream I felt confused in a way……what else!? I remember clearing the rest of the nightstand, so anything that was one it, I was putting in a bag, but it was really weird, because while I was doing that, I had this feeling of “Do I really need to do this, do I really need all of this!?” I remember looking over to a friend of mine who was in my dream, asking him if he thought I needed to take everything pretty much and he looked at me and said no and I thought about it and I looked over to someone else who I would presume was like the guidance/teacher of all of us we’ll say, it was a woman and I asked her and she also said I didn’t need to,

I started putting everything back not where it was originally, but kinda where it was at first, if that makes sense and the last thing I remember is putting stones in this bag, but I remember grabbing one and observing it and then I put it down, what was interesting about the stone though was…….it was one of those flat smooth ones that you’d find at the lake or something, but it had like 2 to 3 round flat pebbles attached to it, which i’ve never seen before so that was something and yeah that’s the end of that dream, it was really odd, yet very interesting. 

The dream I had last night was also weird, all I remember from that one is walking in some kind of backyard, only this backyard was huge, it was like a horse farm or something or some kind of field, i’m not sure……..I remember walking in the backyard and this bird just flying around singing to me and I don’t mean one of those bird songs, no I mean ACTUALLY SINGING TO ME!!! I’m not really sure what kind of bird it was, it was medium size though, it could’ve been an owl or some other bird, but either way this bird had some real talent. The song that was sung to me, you guys might not know it, because it’s kinda like a Disney song, but not a Disney song, it’s called Rush by Aly & AJ and I even remember the line that was sung to me because it’s been in my mind all day, the line that was sung was “Don’t let nobody tell you, your life is over, be every color that you are” that’s all I remember hearing and then I woke up. 

Those are both my dreams, they happened on different days, just in case you were confused, but yeah that’s it really, I hope you found these dream to be interesting, I just wanted to share them, i’m not quite sure what they mean exactly, but yeah………anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening. 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~ 

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All About Writing (Nov 16, 2018)

Today has been a day, i’m saying that as if the day just flew by already haha, no it’s only around 3pm at the moment as i’m writing this, if I were to tell you what my days consist of, you’d look at me as if I was nuts, not because I do a lot, or anything, it more because I just pretty much do the same things all the time, not that interesting I know. I’ll be honest I don’t really know what to write about today, I pretty much did most of my writing in my writing journal, I wrote about 12 pages of whatever was on my mind, insane right!? I didn’t quite expect to write as much as I did and even when I was writing there I didn’t know what I was gonna write about, I just started writing and whatever came out, came out………it’s crazy how just writing things out helps you.

I know I have loads of journals, but I gotta say I didn’t think i’d ever write this much in my life compared to how much i’m writing now, hopefully that made sense. I use to just write whenever I was really feeling something and that use to be rare, this year I find myself writing more than I ever would have imagined, everyday I feel something and now whenever I feel something I find myself reaching for my pencil and ready to write. I use to be so cautious though of the things i’d write, I only wanted to write positive stuff as best as I could………that’s what my thought journal was for, now I barely write in that which is weird. I only ever write in my writing journal and that’s where I write my thoughts now and I mean my actual thoughts. 

Not my “let me try and write this a certain way to where I only understand”……..I won’t lie to you, I only would write a certain way in my thought journal because well, for one it was the only way I knew how to express myself, without really expressing myself, if that makes sense………another reason was……..I guess……I was scared to really put down how I was feeling, because to me it was just me focusing on the negatives and I didn’t want to do that, that’s why when I started my thought journal I said to myself it would only be used for a positive outlook and then later I started realizing I was writing my actual feelings more and more and I couldn’t write it any other way, so I stopped writing it in.

Then when I heard about morning pages to where you learn that the purpose of it, is for you to get everything that you’re feeling out, not matter what it is, you just write, no cover ups or anything, just full on writing and having that option to where you’re like “So wait I can write anything!? no matter what it is, I don’t have to write it a certain way or anything!?” having that put in front of you, saying no strings attached, all you gotta do is write, it gives you both this sense of “okay I think I can do that” as well as “Wait can I do that!?” I don’t know, it’s helpful and it gives you that feeling of trust in a way if that makes sense, like as if you’re being told “hey you can do it and I believe in you”, I don’t know if that’s a good example, but I hope you know what I mean when I say that.

I guess what i’m trying to say is, i’m glad that writing was always one of my favorite things to do and i’m glad that I learned all about morning pages even though, I tend to write them in the evening a lot of the time………being able to just write without having to think about it too much, really really does help, plus once you’ve written down everything that you wanted or you were feeling, it always makes you feel better and it gives you that sense of focus that you need when everything seems like it doesn’t make sense and when it starts not to make sense, writing let’s you just drift away and escape from it all, well at least for me it does. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Why Do We Doubt Ourselves!? (Evening Pages Nov 14, 2018)

So i’ve been trying to figure out what to write for a bit now, i’ve been writing in my writing journal, earlier I wrote a new evening page, it was on what was in my head this morning, I started to write another journal entry on something and the title I wrote here, is the same title I wrote in my writing journal. The question I ask is why when it comes to self doubt…….why is it that we doubt ourselves so much!? It seems like when we were younger, we had more confidence then we do now in ourselves, which is crazy to look back on, i’m sure a lot of us were super energetic, didn’t have a care in the world on anything, we just all did our own thing without having to worry about it.

It’s like the older you get, the things that you would normally feel confident about as a kid, you don’t feel as much getting older. Now i’m not saying everyone does that, i’m sure there’s a whole lot of people who were the same from a child to now. However most of us, we know what it’s like to change in order to meet peoples standards the older we get. If someone doesn’t like something we do, we change ourselves so that way they do like us better, we try and mold ourselves to everyones perception of us that when it comes to really looking at yourself in the mirror, it’s hard to know who you really truly are……..and when you try to break out of those molds, you find yourself getting backlash for it.

People see that you want to change and you know you want to change, because you feel that there’s just so much more to you then what meets the eye and you want to see what that is, but not everyone will see it the same as you and that’s something that not only they need to come to terms with, but you need to come to terms with yourself. Everyone will have their opinions, judgements and thoughts about it, but you…….you have to know that this change, this thing that you find yourself in the middle of, you have to know that it’s not all bad, sure it may seems like it, but it’s not. Everyone changes and not everyone is gonna be the same for long.

If you’re going through some kind of change, maybe it’s because you need the change because maybe the way you were and the things you did before…….maybe they just aren’t meant to be there forever with you, maybe they were just there for the moments that you needed it………I find myself wondering whether the person I am now this version of me, I wonder whether I went wrong with her or something and the thing is………I actually don’t feel like I did, I know i’m not the same as I was a few months ago, a few months ago I was happy, happier than i’ve ever been, me now……..i’m half kinda happy, but also half not fully completely happy and you’re probably thinking what does this have to do with self doubt!?

Well……..when you know that you’ve changed and that you just aren’t the same person everyone was used to and that you were use to, it makes you look back on a lot of things from the moments that you were, to how you are now and it makes you question, even when you feel like this new you, this new version of you might just do you good…….it will still have you question yourself and it will leave you to doubt yourself and if you’ve always been the kind of person to have issues with self doubt, whether that be in yourself, the decisions that you’ve made, it will still effect you.

Even when it does though, you just keep in mind that everyone changes, you included, you may not understand why and you may not like it at first, but eventually you’ll come to realize that you changing isn’t a bad thing, it’s far from it. The only thing that comes from change is new opportunities and a new kind of growth, so again, no matter how many judgements you get, keep in mind that when you start to doubt yourself when it comes to how you’re doing things and all that, know that you have nothing to worry about, because you’re doing fine, you just gotta keep going and eventually you’ll see that the change you’ve come across will only be for the better even if you think it wont. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Decided On A Title For This, I’m Calling It: Movie Talk……Yeah That Should Be Good!!

I’m not quite sure what it is that I want to title this post yet, but by the time you guys read this, i’m sure I would’ve come up with something. Alright so i’ll be honest, i’m a little lost on what to write today, I had something earlier and at first I thought it was starting out alright, but after a while of writing it…….I don’t know I wasn’t feeling it as much. What I was originally going to write first, was all about bad movies………well not to the extreme, I was gonna write how there’s two different kind of bad movies, you have the bad movies that you know are bad, but you still kinda enjoy in a way and then you have BAD movies to where, they just leave you completely disappointed after watching it.

With what I just said though, I was trying to explain how with me……….i’m not a super movie fanatic the way other people might be, so movies rarely leave me disappointed. It’s different with me, if I like a movie it will stick in my mind for a very good while and if I don’t, I just don’t watch it again, simple. The reasoning for why I wanted to talk about bad movies is because yesterday, I came across a video and it was a review on the Powerpuff girls movie, I don’t know if any of you know about the Powerpuff girls, but it was one of my favorite shows growing up as a kid and they made a movie about it.

Just to give you a quick synopsis on the whole thing, the movie is based around 3 girls named Blossom, Bubbles & Buttercup and they all have superpowers, now you might be asking “Why do they have superpowers or how did they get it!?” That I can tell you……….it all started in a laboratory, there’s this professor he goes by professor utonium (but he’s just referred to as professor in the show and movie) he goes and tries to create perfect little girls to pretty much have as his own, but before he created them, he had this monkey I guess as a pet or something.

Long story short, while the professor was creating the girls, you know adding sugar, spice and everything nice……..the monkey wasn’t happy because I guess it was feeling neglected and jealous, I can’t really remember everything about the movie because it’s been so long, but to sum up everything, the girls were mean’t to just be normal, but also not at the same time and well the reason for them having superpowers was because the monkey went crazy in the lab and started destroying everything and he made the professor accidentally drop this Chemical X into the mixture of where the girls were being created and that’s pretty much how the Powerpuff girls were born.

The whole point of me explaining that was because that’s how I came across the youtube channel, he was reviewing that movie, by the way the channel is called Channel Awesome, however the one reviewing the movie I just mentioned goes by the name of Nostalgia Critic and the way he does things is he just does what his name says, he reviews a movie (all the throwbacks mainly) and sometimes tv shows as well and criticizes them, saying whether he liked it or hated it. The good news is he actually didn’t mind that movie. The bad news is, the movies he did mind were movies I actually enjoyed as a kid and still enjoy on occasions, those movies are: The Cheetah Girls (the first one) Inspector Gadget: The Movie & Camp Rock 1 & 2.

Yeah he really hated those and what I was trying to get at before was that when it comes to movies, I don’t really hate the bad ones even if a lot of people see them as bad. I just watch them and if I don’t like it, I just move on and watch something else. I don’t really sit down to talk about what I didn’t like in a movie, because I don’t really know how to criticize movies anyway. I may be able to do it with music, well at least when it comes to my favorite artists, considering i’m more of a music person than I am of movies. So if I were to say I don’t like something, it would be more with music and other things of course than with movies, only because I feel I would do well in that department then in the movie genre scene, if you get what I mean!?

So that’s all I was trying to say in my other post that I haven’t finished, although I don’t really have to now, because I pretty much summed it all up here, I actually think a lot better than I did earlier………so yeah, I guess I ended up telling you about it anyway…….huh never mind. P.S. I know I may have sounded weird explaining the show well movie, but I promise this was a real thing, the Powerpuff Girls was awesome!!

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Mood: I’m Feeling Both Calm & Happy Today (Nov 12, 2018)

How’s your day going everyone I hope you’re all doing well, right now it’s around 1pm close to 1:30pm where i’m at and I don’t really know why, but today i’m feeling really good, i’m happy which………yeah, I don’t know i’m just very happy right now, which is good. I’ve been smiling to myself for a long while now which doesn’t happen very often but i’m gonna take it and just really enjoy this because……..yeah it’s been a while, I was just posting both blog post from yesterday on my social media and when I went to post my 4 months of me blogging post it was like……….I don’t know I still can’t believe that it’s been 4 months since I started this blog, now I know that doesn’t seem like a very long time, but at the same time it feels like it’s been a very long time.

To me it feels like i’ve been blogging for longer than that, even though I just recently started not too long ago which is weird, but looking back on it………I don’t know it’s crazy like wow…….to think I came here thinking that I was just gonna use this to express my emotions, but then after a while of doing this, I was able to add some fun stuff to it, or at least what I think is pretty fun and interesting, ummm but yeah……..i’m just really happy today I don’t really have much that I want to say, i’m just feeling happy and good.

You know, it’s crazy, because when I was trying to figure out what to write, normally I sit and ponder for a very long time and get a little frustrated because i’m trying to come up with something, however today was different, I mean although I still wasn’t sure what it was that I wanted to write……I didn’t stress out about it, which i’m glad, because I don’t like stressing even though it can happen more often then I’d like, but that’s not gonna happen today, today i’m gonna take in and really enjoy this feeling of feeling good, does that make sense I hope so haha, but yeah, I feel good and that’s all I can really say at the moment.

I hope that you guys are doing well and you’re having a good day, if not I hope that you find something to brighten up your mood to where you feel better, if it’s tough today, just do your best to keep going and know that whatever it is that is bothering you, stressing you out or is just too much, it’ll get better and everything is gonna be alright, no worries.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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Just Chatting Away

Hey everyone I hope you’re all doing alright, okay so just to give you a heads up, i’m very tired, but I will give you guys a post before going to sleep, don’t you worry. Right now it’s around 11:30pm so close to midnight as i’m writing this, I don’t know why I tend to wait this late to write at times, but it’s happening, this isn’t gonna be a very long post I don’t think…….i’m gonna do my best to make sure it’s not. Now i’m not really sure what to write about here for you guys, I could write about my day, but there wasn’t really all that much to it, I just pretty much did the things I always do.

My day was a bit weird earlier though, I don’t know why, but I became very anxious for some reason out of nowhere, I didn’t wake up feeling that way, it sorta just hit me randomly, I calmed myself down though, but it did appear a few times throughout my day, i’m okay now though, I was just having a weird day is all, but i’m fine now.

What else can I tell you!? Oh I might have something worth sharing, so I was watching this video earlier and it was on one of my favorite bands, you know the one, yes PVRIS. I was watching one of their live shows and Lynn Gunn was singing one of her songs off their album All We Know Of Heaven, All We Need Of Hell, the song that she performed is called What’s Wrong but she did a stripped down version of it, so instead of singing it the original way, she sang it with just the Piano and her voice. Long story short, she was towards the ending of the song and in the song she sings the line “No I never sold my soul”

Now when she sings that line, she repeats it a couple times in the song, so she sings the lines a couple times and after she sang it, she asked the audience to sing along, and get this………….okay so you know how we all have things that bother us, it can be the smallest of things, but we’ll make it a little bit bigger than what it is, because there’s just something about it that just drives you a little mad and this, this is just one of those things that drove me mad………..So she tells them to sing along to the song…………and guess what they did, yeah that’s right…….NOTHING, NOT ONE SINGLE LINE WAS SUNG WITH LYNN!!!………I know you’re probably like “okay why is that a big deal!?” You want to know why, i’ll tell you why, how can you go to a concert or festival and not sing along to the song!?

I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND THAT!? I mean okay I get it if you’re new to the band and don’t really know them all that well or any of their songs, BUT IF YOU’RE THERE AS A FAN OF THE BAND OR ARTIST YOU WENT TO SEE AND YOU DON’T SING ALONG TO THE SONGS THEIR PLAYING FOR YOU, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEIR ASKING YOU TO JOIN IN AND SING ALONG……….WHY ARE YOU THERE FOR!? Like you know what I mean!? I just don’t get it, like okay maybe I am over reacting a bit and who knows, maybe some of them we’re still learning the song, but still.

I enjoy going to concerts or being at events where the crowd is apart of the show. Like I can’t believe i’m bringing this up……….but I was at Disney on Ice, with my mom and little cousin, last week I believe and obviously there were kids there and one of the parts to the show was Frozen………now i’m not a HUGE fan of Frozen, it’s okay, but when the song Let It Go came on………….you should’ve heard the crowd it…..was…..beautiful hearing all the kids in the arena and maybe even parents I don’t know, it was wonderful just hearing them sing along to the song and the feeling it brought, that was the best and when that happens at concerts or events in general where the crowd gets involved………it’s just the greatest feeling ever!!

So watching Lynn sing one of her songs in a stripped down version and her wanting the crowd to join in at a certain part of the song AND THEY DIDN’T, yeah that bothers me, I was like “someone tell me why no one is singing with Lynn!?” I also said if that was me and I was at that concert and Lynn told me to singing along………i’d sing at the top of my lungs if I had to, just because Lynn wanted me to sing with her, seriously. I guess I can’t get super upset though, I mean let’s face it we all had moments where we’ve been to a concert or an event where, we really didn’t know the song or where you see or hear everyone else cheering for something and you feel left out because you don’t actually know what it is they’re cheering for……….it happens, but I still wish some people sang along to the song though, it just makes me happy inside when everyone just joins in.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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I Don’t Even Know, What To Title This

Hey everyone, i’m back with another blog post, i’m gonna try and make this one not so long, so that way I can get some sleep, you’re probably thinking “well gee why don’t you just sleep if you’re so tired!?” I could do that yeah, buuuut I told myself i’d write two blog posts today, since I not only didn’t record a new video, but I also haven’t uploaded my other video from last Saturday, which is kinda stressing me out a bit, but that would be my fault because, I could’ve did it earlier, but I didn’t so I have to deal with it of course.

I will upload it in the morning though, although it should’ve been uploaded already, talk about making things harder on yourself right!? It’s just too much at times, especially when most of your days are up and down, there isn’t really ever a middle ground most times, but I guess it could be if you just make the most of it right!? As well as making things a little bit easier for yourself and not stressing yourself out every minute of the day with trying to do everything all at once or thinking you have to do loads, because you really don’t have to, you just have to find some kind of balance to where everything seems manageable. Maybe by doing that, it will become less overwhelming and you’ll tend to feel a little bit at ease doing things that way……….am I making sense!? I hope so, right now I don’t have any idea whether or not what i’m writing is coming out right, that’s how tired I am at this very moment, but i’m trusting myself and hoping it is coming out okay.

Do you guys just have days like that where, sometimes you just write, but you’re not quite sure if what you’re writing about is coming out alright or if it’s making any sense or is that just me!? I can’t be the only one, I hope i’m not the only one……I think we all tend to have days like that, I feel with days like that, it might actually be good, because then whatever has been hiding away from you, could come out without a care and then maybe you’ll feel better because of it.

I mean who says we can’t have days where we just write whatever is in our minds or just random posts to where it doesn’t have to make sense for once it can just be freely writing, if that makes any sense, I don’t know if it does, but I hope you all know what it is that I mean………I feel i’m gonna look back on this post and just go “WHAT DID I JUST WRITE” I might regret it, I might not, hey I might just even look back and laugh at it or even be surprised I don’t know, I guess i’ll see tomorrow morning.

I’m gonna head to sleep now, okay i’m gonna get a snack first and then head to sleep, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening, it’s gonna be something looking back at this post tomorrow.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

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