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A Slight Reflection, But Not One Completely…..

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Hiya, so how has everyone’s day been!? I hope good…..today’s been a bit on the rainy side over here, but it hasn’t been all that bad so that’s something right!? I actually didn’t realize I hadn’t written anything for about 3 days, I thought it was only 2, but I guess I skipped the 27th, I remember that because I had a really bad headache that day, as for the weekend…..

I didn’t have much to write about so I didn’t write anything, I hope all of your weekends were alright though, can’t believe tomorrow is the last day of December and of 2019…….*deep breath* and *exhale* I……I don’t even know what to say really, just wow……that is all I want to say on that!!

To be honest, there’s a lot that i’ve been reflecting on with 2019 and just thinking of as whole, but I really don’t want to express on it, at least not right now anyway, sometimes it’s best to just think silently on everything at least until you’re able to really gather everything together,

It’s like if you’re searching for wood or any kind of scraps you can find to add to a campfire, you look for the best kind of wood or ones that you’re sure will burn the longest, but also have the fire last the longest so you don’t have to go and search for some for a while, you know what I mean!?

Once you actually find the wood you’re looking for, you know you’ll soon be closer to being able to enjoy the campfire and all it’s warmth and all that jazz!! What’s funny though is, i’ve never actually made a campfire before so I have no idea why I even just made that comparison, but hey, I did so…..hopefully it worked and made sense, if not just go with it okay!!

All I can tell you is i’ll be searching for some bark for a good while, before I actually enjoy the campfire and it’ll be interesting considering i’ve never made one before so, who knows how it’ll go, hopefully it’ll all work out okay though and hopefully it’ll be in the way that i’m hoping for it……the only thing that is needed is patience, faith and trust that it will work out fine!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: The Holidays

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Merry Christmas everyone and for those who don’t celebrate Christmas, happy holidays!! I hope you all had a nice and chilled out day and or overall good day and I hope you were able to enjoy yourself, I didn’t really do too much for Christmas, I saw some of my cousins later in the evening for a bit,

Originally we were meant to just drop something off, but we ended up spending some time with them, which was nice, I don’t normally see them all that much so it was different, but pretty nice too, although it didn’t really feel like a holiday, it just felt like a regular old day, except everyone was saying Merry Christmas and you had to go “oh yeah, Merry Christmas”

It’s weird, but it was alright, had a tea party with my little cousin a few times, yes you read that right, a few times, she told me to put it away and then wanted me to take them out again so that was something, I was trying to get her to play something else, she had a lot nice toys, I asked her if she wanted to play with them and she said no, so we continued to play tea party, we almost made some bracelets until we had to go, but it was fun!!

She also got mad at me for something, not sure about what exactly, but that happened, after a while though it was fine, I tell you kids are weird and very confusing sometimes, but you gotta love them right!?

After that, not much else happened really, today just felt like a regular day, nothing too fancy, just yeah, a Wednesday that was also a holiday, it wasn’t all bad though, not at all bad……now all that’s left to do is get ready for the New Year…..how do I feel you might ask!? I couldn’t tell you, i’m just going to try and make the most of these few days where 2019 is still a thing…….

Okay well that’s everything I have I guess, I could write more, but i’m not sure where else I should go with this post, so i’m just going to leave it here and just do my best to not worry or freak out about everything i’m trying not to freak out about, don’t ask okay, my brains doing gymnastics and i’m trying very hard not to get anxious…….

With that, I hope you all enjoy the rest of your night and or day depending on where you are and I hope you’re all enjoying your holidays, also let me know how you spent your Christmas or holidays, i’d love to hear about it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Just A Quick And Short Post….

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Okay so this post is a little late, it’s around 11:30pm so pretty close to midnight…….if I knew what I was writing, I’d be the one to express it right now, but I do not know therefore, i’m not really sure how this post is going to go so there’s a good chance it’ll be pretty short.

At midnight it’ll be Christmas Eve, yeah I know how crazy is that!? This year has gone by pretty quick yet also pretty smooth in terms of giving certain months their time to hang around, preferably October and November so the towards the end pretty much!! Now i’m not sure about you guys, but Christmas and the whole month of December, isn’t really feeling all that high spirited, most people love this time of the year and it should be like that for everyone, but that’s not always the case, but people should still enjoy themselves even if a lot of people aren’t really loving it this year!!

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day for me, will just be seen as another day, but for those of you who love the feeling that December brings and love Christmas, I hope you have a fantastic, beautiful and most enjoyable holiday today (kinda) and tomorrow (Wed) I say that because by the time this is posted it’ll already be midnight, which will make it Christmas Eve.

I do hope that you all have a wonderful holiday and that the rest of the year and the start of not only a new year, but decade as well….goodness gracious, that’s truly insane, I don’t even want to think about it……but, anyway you all have a Merry Christmas and a lovely day, whatever you do, I hope you all enjoy yourself massively and get at least one thing off your wishlist that you’ve been wanting and you know just enjoy everything!!

I don’t think I have anything else to say, so you have a goodnight and a good time whatever you do, i’ll write you all in my next post!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Sit And Chat: Somewhat About 2019 and So On….

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It’s been a few days, but I made it before it hit a week, (which is tomorrow) hurray!! (clap, clap) in case any of you are confused, i’m talking about my lack of posting, i’ve gone a few weeks before, so I figured since I haven’t written in a while, I should probably write something soon and by soon, I mean today so here we are, Sunday the first of December.

First I just want to say, where the heck did all the months go!? November didn’t go by quickly, but it’s now over, I woke up this morning thinking we had one more day left for November, but as I was adding a reminder onto my phone for something (totally not game related whatsoever……I did not set a reminder to visit someone’s house in game, nope what are you talking about….!? ANYWHO, being serious now, while looking at my phone calendar, I noticed a 1 and realized it was December…….well that came by pretty sudden, okay not really, but it felt like it at least…….

I don’t know if this is just me, but i’m pretty sure there was a 31st in November, either that or I just didn’t notice their wasn’t, i’m going to go for the second one here, so yeah there was that moment earlier, what else can I tell you!? Beside the Thanksgiving holiday we have here being kinda okay, I don’t think I have anything else…..I got to spend time with one of my best friends for a few days so that was pretty good, I didn’t realize we hadn’t seen each other properly for about almost a year until we talked about it on our way to the store to grab something, that was insane, like crazy!!

On a different note, things have been alright I guess you can say, November was an interesting month, but it wasn’t all that bad, but now we’re in December and yeah this month just started, so I can’t really say much about it, not yet anyway…….sheesh I can’t believe we’re in the last month of this year already, some months zoomed by and some they took their time,

You also had those months that felt like they’d gone forever, which wasn’t too bad, but still, still…..this year has just been inexpressible or as I was going to originally write un expressible which probably isn’t a word, but still wanted to use it for some reason, now when I say that, I mean I couldn’t even begin to express 2019 to you guys, it’s just been 2019 let’s just say that.

Has it been bad!? I don’t know, has it been great!?….I don’t know, it’s just that, I do not know, sometimes I think about it though, it used to be a lot, now it’s on and off, most times though it’s secretly on in the background and as you try and keep it there, you know it slowly creeps up on you, yet you do your darn hardest to pretend you don’t notice, but you do, you do.

Sometimes you find it’s just hard not to……but you try and keep busy or as occupied as you can to keep from getting overwhelmed you know!? Sometimes it works and helps and other times you have to try just a little bit harder to keep calm and keep those stress level’s at a minimum.

I don’t really have anything else to say at the moment, sorry if this post is a little or really boring, I really don’t have a lot to say these days, it’s the reason I don’t write much in case some of you are wondering, but I still always try and give you guys something when I can and I hope that’s okay!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

November…..

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Well it’s November already, October sure came and went didn’t it!? We’re getting closer to Christmas, but before we try and zoom by into the winter of wonderlands, we should really let this month sail nice and smoothly downwards before getting out the Christmas tree and letting deck the halls and let it snow play all over the place……

(not saying I don’t enjoy Christmas tunes, i’m just saying we really should let the months have their time in the spotlight and November is the month where we for some reason always feel the need to skip over, which I get it, November has Thanksgiving which isn’t all that big of a holiday, but still let’s give it the moment it needs, we’ll get to Christmas in time, it’s only another month away, i’m sure we can deal…….who am I kidding, November will always be that month that, people will continuously, yet quietly tell to move along…….)

Moving away from November being the “skip over” month, hope you all are doing well, long time no write I know, it’s been a pretty long while, 3 weeks i’d say……3 weeks today anyway, you might be wondering why I haven’t written in a while, well i’ll tell you, I kinda went and took a break from writing, there was a lot of stuff going on in my personal life,

plus I was feeling pretty stressed out and I just wasn’t doing well and needed to take a bit of time away, I ended up doing it naturally, it wasn’t until I was maybe close to 2 weeks in to where I actually went and wrote a post that I never posted expressing how I was going to take a break because there was just so much happening and going that I couldn’t even focus,

I wasn’t trying to keep from writing, I just didn’t feel the need to write, I didn’t have the mindset to write is what i’m trying to say, my head wasn’t in it and so that’s why I haven’t posted in a while. I was also going through my own thing that I needed to sort through, still trying to sort it all, it’s one of those things that’s going to take a bit of time, but compared to how I was feeling before to how i’m feeling right now……i’m okay, as okay as I can be anyway.

There’s still a lot that I feel needs work personally, a lot of work if i’m being honest…..but overall i’m okay, everything is pretty much in the okay bracket right now to be fair, this year has been quite the year I gotta say, I won’t say too much on it right now, but i’ll do my best to write a summary on it when I get the chance, sometime next month hopefully, I might have to pre write it so that way i’ll be able to have everything laid out even if what I have written down isn’t exactly what I have written down if that makes sense!?

For now, i’ll just share a little update as well as say i’m back from being away for a while, sorry for disappearing like that, I think that was the longest i’ve gone without writing……not good, but I hope you all have been doing well and you guys had a good October month as well as a fun and interesting Halloween, I didn’t really do much for Halloween,

It’s not really my favorite month, although I did watch a few Halloween classics (movies), well kinda, I watched maybe half of certain movies…..I think the only thing I enjoy about Halloween is the movies, the holiday isn’t bad though, I just don’t really celebrate it much, but it’s a pretty alright holiday, as for this month, we’re 2 weeks away from Thanksgiving, well from most it is, I know not everyone celebrates it, but it’s close by, which is pretty insane because soon December will be here, which means we’re coming extremely close to the end of the year that is 2019 and…..yeah…..

I’m just going to try and keep my head in the remaining days and months of this year and worry about everything else when it comes, not saying i’m not already thinking about the future, I am, believe me, but sometimes you gotta set a reminder for yourself that there has to be some kind of balance with it otherwise, you’re just going to end up losing your mind.

That’s the update, I should be good on getting back to posting now, but I just have to figure how much I want to be posting, it’ll come to me!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa

Decisions……

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Happy New Year Everyone!! I hope you’re all doing well and enjoying the day, as you all know we have now officially entered 2019 and with 2018 behind us, you’ll find yourself thinking on a lot of things, like for example whether you should have tea or coffee in the morning, probably should’ve had coffee, but I thought tea would be better even though i’m tired, but that’s alright, my point is, always go with the better decision.

Speaking about decisions, we all end up with a few on our belts, we come across something that catches our eye and we become interested in wanting to check it out and when we do finally check it out, we aren’t always quite sure whether we should give it go or not or you find yourself having to choose between two different things or more, but again you keep finding yourself up in the air with both decisions, so how do you decide exactly!? Well that can be a bit tricky for some who aren’t the greatest at making decisions, it can also feel like a task just to try and figure something out.

Let’s be real here, we don’t all have things figured out, some of us figure it out eventually and some of us still aren’t sure, but that’s okay that’s gonna happen, but when it comes to figuring things out, it’s all about how you figure them out, stressing and putting pressure on yourself, well that’s gonna make your decision making a lot harder to sort, giving yourself a hard time with anything that brings you frustration will only lead you to become more frustrated.

To prevent that from happening, the best thing to do is to try your best and make it simple for yourself and it doesn’t hurt to go a little easy on yourself as well. We all have that self critic in us and when it comes to things we aren’t liking or things that kinda give us a hard time, we don’t tend to realize how much we dial up that self critic version of ourselves, it’s not a bad thing to be hard on ourselves, because it’s gonna happen it just means we want ourselves to do better, but we should really pay attention to how we talk to ourselves because we may not think it is, but it’s super important.

Moving on from that though, decisions how do we decide on something when we aren’t sure on it!? Well I know that when we aren’t sure we tend to make rash decisions, sometimes we’ll wave things away without really giving it a try and sometimes we don’t really sit and think about the things that are in our minds and you really want to have a little balance of both. Thinking too much on something, is the worst thing you can do, because not only will it drive you nuts, but the more you find yourself thinking on things the more chance you’ll try and convince yourself not to give it a try.

As for the just trying something and not giving it much thought thing, that one is a balance in itself because there’s a chance you’ll end up enjoying it or you’ll end up saying that you probably should’ve though it through, so with this one it’ll just be a win, lose, win situation, why do I say that you might think!? Well at least with this, you can say you tried it, even if you end up not really feeling it as you’re trying it out, but again you’ll be able to say you gave it a go which is a good thing here. What i’m trying to say is when it comes to decisions: Try and make it simple for yourself, go a little easy on yourself as well and have a little balance with thinking it over, but don’t do too much thinking on it and just give a try and see what it’s like.

How do you guys handle decision making, do you find it easy or a little harder to master!? Feel free to share your thoughts down in the comments, also let me know how your days going, i’d love to hear about it!!

All the love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Last Day Of December And 2018……LONG REFLECTION!!!

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So it’s the last day of December and there’s only a few more hours left until we enter 2019………..maybe for some it’s already 2019 i’m not sure, I know some people are closer to it being 2019 then we are though. It’s been quite a year 2018 has, a lot happened, I met my boyfriend in person in the beginning of January of 2018, he came back again in March and pretty much lived over here for 3 months, we got to spend our 1 year anniversary together and he even spent my birthday with me………that was the happiest i’ve ever been having him with me and being together for that long, it’ll always be one of my favorite moments of the year.

He got to meet one of my internet friends who became one of my best friends and who actually was the one that helped me create this blog of mine, so that was another moment that i’m thankful for with this year. He got to meet one of my best friends I went to high school with which was nice as well, it was just real nice having him with me and getting to know everyone and everything in general…………so many different moments that I could put here that was just very memorable in 2018 and I want to keep those in mind and put them in my memory box as I hold on to them real tightly and that’s what i’m gonna do my best to do, because those are the things I should be remembering and focusing on.

I know I talked about this year being both the best and not the best at the same time, but i’ve found myself only focusing on what wasn’t good about this year and i’m real sorry about that……….I put all my energy and focus on what happened that wasn’t good and wondering why it happened that I didn’t appreciate the good parts about this year……….I put myself in this state of mind that I hated, kicked myself down a whole lot, blamed myself for everything and that’s not something that should’ve happened, although yeah there was a lot of hard times especially around the summer, I still shouldn’t have looked at the negatives with this year……….this year would’ve turned out a whole lot differently, had I looked at it differently.

Did I make a lot of mistakes!? yes, am I proud of them!? no I am not, but that doesn’t mean that I should only look at the things I did wrong, i’m not perfect, I always tried to be and the truth of the matter is i’m not and i’m not going to ever be…………..and that’s something that was always hard for me to come to terms with, because i’ve always had this perfectionist in me that felt that everything I did had to be perfect, that’s why for so many years, i’ve always did what everyone wanted me to do, because I thought that’s what I needed to do, I always wanted everyone to be happy…………but constantly wanting everyone to be happy, you find that you become unhappy in the process of that and that’s when you start breaking down.

This year……….I guess I finally broke down and I didn’t know what to do, so I ended up doing what came naturally to me and that was to shut down……..and that took me away from everything, some would say otherwise, but it was me who broke down, it was me who made myself the way I was…………and the weird part is…………I never once stopped to think that, I never once asked myself why I was the way I was, but you realize that sitting with yourself and being in your head 24/7 there’s a lot of things that you uncover about yourself and there was a lot of things that I uncovered about myself and I began to like myself less and less because of that, which made me become very hard on myself and i’ve always been hard on myself, but it was never to the point of where I was this year.

There’s a lot of different things I learned this year, I learned that blaming yourself for things all the time isn’t good, I learned that although you may want to change things and you wish that certain things would go back to how they use to be, they won’t and you can’t……….and yeah it’s real frustrating, but you can’t change the past, you can only work on trying to makes sure the next thing that you do doesn’t turn out the way it did before.

I learned that you can’t keep dwelling on what happened in the past, you’ll only keep yourself there by doing that and that’s not something you want. I learned that we’re not the only ones that have a hard time, there are worst things that happen and when we feel as though, we’re going through so much, we complain about it, it’s just a human thing, it’s okay to complain once in a while, but you also have to make sure that you know that, there are people who go through things a whole lot more than what we are going through, in the moments when we’re feeling at our lowest of lows, but know it’s also alright to have a few bad days yourself, just make sure you’re not having them all the time.

Those are a lot of lessons that I had and still need to keep in mind, but the main and big thing that I learned this year is, in order to move forward you have to let yourself move forward and not let fear keep you from putting in hard work to things, as much as we may want it to, life doesn’t come easy, but that still shouldn’t stop you from living life. It’s easy to get caught up in wanting to know how everything is going to play out and how it’s going to be, whether you’ll do well and everything……….but when you find yourself doing that, you end up putting so much more stress and pressure on yourself for it, that it makes your brain think that it’s scary and that you’re unable to do it, which will make you freeze up and it’ll make you think that you’re not going to be good enough for it and you don’t want to ever do that.

You don’t want to let fear keep you from being happy and enjoying things, because you’re afraid that it’s not going to go well or that you’re going to mess everything up, you have to do your best to keep your mind away from those sorts of thoughts, because if you let it take over, you’ll never want to move and believe me that’s something you want to avoid doing. If there’s anything you should avoid, avoid holding yourself back and keeping yourself from where I kept myself all these years, i’ve been afraid my whole life and because I was afraid and scared I ended up not really trying as hard as I should’ve, keeping myself within four walls everywhere I went and trust me that’s not how you want to live, it gets boring after a while of it.

This coming from me and from someone who has kept herself to herself for a very long time, if you ever find yourself wanting to hold yourself back from something that you feel deeply for or just anything, DON’T unless you feel it to be super important, don’t hold yourself back, be happy and give things a try even if you end up not liking it, try, you’ll thank yourself so much for it and you’ll be able to look back and be proud of yourself for it too.

This year has been full of lessons, emotions and a whooole lot of thinking, i’m a little nervous for this year i’ll be honest, although it’s just another year, it’s a year that I really need to make count and not be afraid of and that’s scary, but I know that by changing things around, i’ll feel better for it.

So……..what’s your reflection on 2018!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Friday…..

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Update: I wrote this post 2 days ago as you can probably tell, but I wanted to keep it how I originally wrote it, so here are my thoughts and feelings from Friday.

I just realized that we have 3 more days left until this year switches from being 2018 to 2019……….i’d say that’s insane, but is it really!? Based off my expression that you’re unable to see, yeah it’s insane!!! This year really went by like nothing, I can’t believe this is the last Friday of the year and that December is close to being over………i’ll be honest with you I might be freaking out to myself a bit, i’m trying to stay calm about it though, i’m not exactly sure why i’m freaking out though, I really shouldn’t be, but I am.

I guess if I have to do some reflection on this year I might as well do it now, this year has brought some good and also some bad moments that I wasn’t expecting……….i’ve gone through a whole lot of emotions more this year than any other year before, I made a few mistakes, i’ve thought a lot and when I say a lot I mean A LOT……………i’ve been thinking about my future more than ever this year and what I would like for it to be like, you’d think i’d know, but i’m still not exactly sure, there are things that I want to stay in my life and there are things that I know i’m needing to desperately change.

Am I frightened about this upcoming year!?…………Yeah, I am………I don’t know what to expect and what’s gonna come from it and that’s kinda what scares me the most, it shouldn’t, but it does……….i’m hoping to really have a lot of courage and surprises coming from myself this year…………i’ve been holding on to my comfort zone for so many years now, i’m not really sure how to let go of it……..it’s very scary for me, because it’s all i’ve ever known, but I know that if I want to live a better and happier life, me keeping myself to myself and in my room 24/7 that’s not gonna make me happy, that’s just gonna keep me more closed in myself and I can’t keep doing that, it’s not healthy and I know that even though i’m really scared, I have to move on.

I have to stop being afraid and I have to let myself embrace things that i’m unsure about, if I continue to let fear keep me from moving forward, i’ll never be happy and I want to be happy and if being scared, but trying my best to move forward and not stop myself like i’ve been doing is the only way that’s gonna happen then I have to let myself be scared………and that’s something i’ve always tried to avoid, but I can’t keep avoiding it, I have to learn to face it and even if I hesitate, I can’t let those hesitations stop me unless I feel it’s really really important………..I don’t know what 2019 is going to bring and what it’s gonna be like, but i’m really really hoping that I can make this year a surprising one for myself and not let my fears interfere.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Chatting Session: Letting It Snow While Reflecting & Talking All Things Random (Dec 13, 2018)

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Disclaimer: This was written earlier in the day 

That title there kinda makes it sound like I have some kind of super power or something, although I wish I did have some kind of superpower and it would be real nice to control the weather a bit, i’m not storm from X-Men though, so I can’t do that. Even if I did have a superpower I wouldn’t chose to control the weather actually, i’d go with teleportation I don’t know I always thought i’d be cool to just be able to be anywhere you wanted in flash you know!? How about you guys, what would you’re superpower be if you were giving one!? Also I hope you’re all doing well.

Okay now that we’ve talked on what kind of superpowers we’d have if given one, let’s talk snow!! The reasoning for talking about snow is because it’s snowing where I am, not sure when it actually started, but when I woke up it was snowing which then made me start sing one of of my favorite Christmas songs, Let It Snow sung and maybe written by Dean Martin, I know he sings it, but I don’t know if he wrote it, but anyway, I like the snow, not a big fan of the cold, but the snow it’s pretty alright. It always looks so nice when it starts coming down, it starts off slowly and then quickens the more snow there is………I love the peaceful feeling the snow brings, it keeps you calm and when you’re looking at it, you don’t feel stressed, you feel cold, but not overwhelmed or anything like that.

You know it’s quite interesting when you learn that all snowflakes aren’t the same, they all fall a different way, they’re different sizes and shapes, but even though that is true, you know that they all get to the ground eventually. It’s crazy how some of them are very noticeable and then you have those that aren’t as noticeable, some are for a second and others you don’t see them, when there’s a lot of snow though, that’s when you start wanting to sing Winter Wonderland. Seeing a whole blanket full of snow is like being in a whole new world, makes you want to lay in it even though you know that if you did, you’d be freezing………i’m sure it would still feel nice though in a way ha. Everyone loves whenever there’s snow on tress, it’s probably because it gives them some sort of character, you look at them and right away you’re in awe.

The fact that it’s even snowing tells us how close Winter is, it’s literally next week I believe, gotta love the cold weather right!? You know it’s crazy because even though, i’m not a huge fan of the cold, it seems to be the one season that sticks with me through all the seasons, there’s not one day where i’m not super cold, unless it’s very very hot. If I were to turn on the fan I have, give it a few minutes or so and i’ll either be putting on a cardigan or i’m turning it off, that’s how easily cold I get, don’t know why, i’ve just always been the cold one. I’m sure you all know the movie Frozen right!? Well i’m not a huge fan of the movie, it’s not a bad movie it’s just not my favorite, but i’m pretty much Elsa when it comes to the cold, just to give you an idea. 

I’ve been doing some reflecting today a bit, which I tend to do quite often these days I find, maybe this years just a year of reflection I don’t know………Christmas is around the corner, I hope you guys are excited, it’s crazy how close it actually is, once that’s up the New Year will be here………..it feels like 2018 just started and now it’s coming to an end, I guess we say that every year don’t we!? I think it all depends on whether the year made an impact on you or not when it comes to reflecting on it. I think if the year didn’t leave you looking back on it, it wouldn’t feel like anything changed for you, it just would feel like another year.

Everything goes by so quickly, which I can see why they say not to blink otherwise you just might miss something important……..although we have our reflection kind of days, it’s not until you get to the end of the year where you find yourself really looking back on things, I didn’t really start reflecting much until the ending of 2017 for certain reasons, before then I didn’t really look back on the years prior, at least not as much as I have this year. I know we still have a few more days, 2 more weeks until this year is over, so i’ll be reflecting a bit more, as i’m sure you guys will too before we have to look back on 2018 one last time.

Let me know in the comments below what your reflections are for today and feel free to share if your guys are excited for Christmas and if you’re looking forward and are ready for 2019 to arrive.     

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Monday Randoms: Welcoming December With Some Random Thoughts Added

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Although I know it’s 3 days late into the month, I just want to say welcome December, I hope that you’re doing well. You’re the last month until the new year rolls around……it’s crazy how quickly the year went, the last thing I remember is being lost and stuck in the summer months and now we’re here, December 3rd, beginning of a new month as well as the ending of an old year. I know we still have a few days to go until Christmas arrives and the year goes from 2018 to 2019…….it’s a little scary knowing how close we actually are, will 2019 be a different year, will it be a better one!? I don’t know, all you can do is hope that it will be and do your best to make sure that it is. 

However, we shouldn’t stress ourselves out wondering what’s to come for the new year, we should just always do our best to appreciate and admire the days as they come, doing that won’t leave you to feel overwhelmed about every little thing, you can just enjoy and also flow with it if you want. You know when you really let yourself take in all the days that come, it brings you into a whole different mode and gives you this feeling of wanting to look at everything deeply, it makes you wonder on a lot of different things and by that I mean like if you were to look at a tree or at the clouds, you know……..makes you wonder how exactly they were made, before we even became apart of this world.

The other day, well a few days ago I was in the car with my mom and I was wondering how people we’re able to create the highways and all that, I mean the world wasn’t always highways, roads, houses ect……..it was all nature and everything, it’s crazy when you really think about stuff like that. You also have the way we are, there’s a lot of different theories on where exactly we came from, there’s just a whole lot of wonder and questions that we don’t entirely know the answers to, we know a certain amount, but we’ll always have that wonder inside of us in wanting to know a definite answer on everything.

If you really think about it, having that mystery of not knowing everything exactly, I mean it’s both scary and exciting in a sense. I mean why should we know everything, that’s why when we’re born, we’re born curious…….to us everything is like a huge giant puzzle, only we don’t ever solve it completely. Normally we can finish a puzzle on our own, but in this case it’s impossible, because even when we think we’ve figured it out, we’ll always have pieces missing and that’s okay, we don’t have to solve every puzzle, we’ll always find certain pieces to fill it, but we won’t entirely figure it out and we don’t need to always figure it out, sometimes it’s just about the feeling of it and by it, I mean………..well everything, everything is just a big huge ball of wonder.

Hey that just reminded me of the Wonderball commercial, if you guys don’t know what a Wonderball is, well it just a chocolate ball with candy inside, it was one of mine and my brother’s favorite candy growing up, they brought it back, but it’s not quite the same as it was before.

This sure went off track, didn’t it haha……don’t ask, I just had a lot of random thoughts floating around and felt like writing them down, I just didn’t think it’d be all of this. It was meant to be about the month December, but it kinda took a different turn after a bit, hey it happens. Feel free to share some of your random thoughts down in the comments below if you have you any and also if December was a person, what kind of stuff would you say to it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~  

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