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Last Day Of December And 2018……LONG REFLECTION!!!

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So it’s the last day of December and there’s only a few more hours left until we enter 2019………..maybe for some it’s already 2019 i’m not sure, I know some people are closer to it being 2019 then we are though. It’s been quite a year 2018 has, a lot happened, I met my boyfriend in person in the beginning of January of 2018, he came back again in March and pretty much lived over here for 3 months, we got to spend our 1 year anniversary together and he even spent my birthday with me………that was the happiest i’ve ever been having him with me and being together for that long, it’ll always be one of my favorite moments of the year.

He got to meet one of my internet friends who became one of my best friends and who actually was the one that helped me create this blog of mine, so that was another moment that i’m thankful for with this year. He got to meet one of my best friends I went to high school with which was nice as well, it was just real nice having him with me and getting to know everyone and everything in general…………so many different moments that I could put here that was just very memorable in 2018 and I want to keep those in mind and put them in my memory box as I hold on to them real tightly and that’s what i’m gonna do my best to do, because those are the things I should be remembering and focusing on.

I know I talked about this year being both the best and not the best at the same time, but i’ve found myself only focusing on what wasn’t good about this year and i’m real sorry about that……….I put all my energy and focus on what happened that wasn’t good and wondering why it happened that I didn’t appreciate the good parts about this year……….I put myself in this state of mind that I hated, kicked myself down a whole lot, blamed myself for everything and that’s not something that should’ve happened, although yeah there was a lot of hard times especially around the summer, I still shouldn’t have looked at the negatives with this year……….this year would’ve turned out a whole lot differently, had I looked at it differently.

Did I make a lot of mistakes!? yes, am I proud of them!? no I am not, but that doesn’t mean that I should only look at the things I did wrong, i’m not perfect, I always tried to be and the truth of the matter is i’m not and i’m not going to ever be…………..and that’s something that was always hard for me to come to terms with, because i’ve always had this perfectionist in me that felt that everything I did had to be perfect, that’s why for so many years, i’ve always did what everyone wanted me to do, because I thought that’s what I needed to do, I always wanted everyone to be happy…………but constantly wanting everyone to be happy, you find that you become unhappy in the process of that and that’s when you start breaking down.

This year……….I guess I finally broke down and I didn’t know what to do, so I ended up doing what came naturally to me and that was to shut down……..and that took me away from everything, some would say otherwise, but it was me who broke down, it was me who made myself the way I was…………and the weird part is…………I never once stopped to think that, I never once asked myself why I was the way I was, but you realize that sitting with yourself and being in your head 24/7 there’s a lot of things that you uncover about yourself and there was a lot of things that I uncovered about myself and I began to like myself less and less because of that, which made me become very hard on myself and i’ve always been hard on myself, but it was never to the point of where I was this year.

There’s a lot of different things I learned this year, I learned that blaming yourself for things all the time isn’t good, I learned that although you may want to change things and you wish that certain things would go back to how they use to be, they won’t and you can’t……….and yeah it’s real frustrating, but you can’t change the past, you can only work on trying to makes sure the next thing that you do doesn’t turn out the way it did before.

I learned that you can’t keep dwelling on what happened in the past, you’ll only keep yourself there by doing that and that’s not something you want. I learned that we’re not the only ones that have a hard time, there are worst things that happen and when we feel as though, we’re going through so much, we complain about it, it’s just a human thing, it’s okay to complain once in a while, but you also have to make sure that you know that, there are people who go through things a whole lot more than what we are going through, in the moments when we’re feeling at our lowest of lows, but know it’s also alright to have a few bad days yourself, just make sure you’re not having them all the time.

Those are a lot of lessons that I had and still need to keep in mind, but the main and big thing that I learned this year is, in order to move forward you have to let yourself move forward and not let fear keep you from putting in hard work to things, as much as we may want it to, life doesn’t come easy, but that still shouldn’t stop you from living life. It’s easy to get caught up in wanting to know how everything is going to play out and how it’s going to be, whether you’ll do well and everything……….but when you find yourself doing that, you end up putting so much more stress and pressure on yourself for it, that it makes your brain think that it’s scary and that you’re unable to do it, which will make you freeze up and it’ll make you think that you’re not going to be good enough for it and you don’t want to ever do that.

You don’t want to let fear keep you from being happy and enjoying things, because you’re afraid that it’s not going to go well or that you’re going to mess everything up, you have to do your best to keep your mind away from those sorts of thoughts, because if you let it take over, you’ll never want to move and believe me that’s something you want to avoid doing. If there’s anything you should avoid, avoid holding yourself back and keeping yourself from where I kept myself all these years, i’ve been afraid my whole life and because I was afraid and scared I ended up not really trying as hard as I should’ve, keeping myself within four walls everywhere I went and trust me that’s not how you want to live, it gets boring after a while of it.

This coming from me and from someone who has kept herself to herself for a very long time, if you ever find yourself wanting to hold yourself back from something that you feel deeply for or just anything, DON’T unless you feel it to be super important, don’t hold yourself back, be happy and give things a try even if you end up not liking it, try, you’ll thank yourself so much for it and you’ll be able to look back and be proud of yourself for it too.

This year has been full of lessons, emotions and a whooole lot of thinking, i’m a little nervous for this year i’ll be honest, although it’s just another year, it’s a year that I really need to make count and not be afraid of and that’s scary, but I know that by changing things around, i’ll feel better for it.

So……..what’s your reflection on 2018!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Friday…..

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Update: I wrote this post 2 days ago as you can probably tell, but I wanted to keep it how I originally wrote it, so here are my thoughts and feelings from Friday.

I just realized that we have 3 more days left until this year switches from being 2018 to 2019……….i’d say that’s insane, but is it really!? Based off my expression that you’re unable to see, yeah it’s insane!!! This year really went by like nothing, I can’t believe this is the last Friday of the year and that December is close to being over………i’ll be honest with you I might be freaking out to myself a bit, i’m trying to stay calm about it though, i’m not exactly sure why i’m freaking out though, I really shouldn’t be, but I am.

I guess if I have to do some reflection on this year I might as well do it now, this year has brought some good and also some bad moments that I wasn’t expecting……….i’ve gone through a whole lot of emotions more this year than any other year before, I made a few mistakes, i’ve thought a lot and when I say a lot I mean A LOT……………i’ve been thinking about my future more than ever this year and what I would like for it to be like, you’d think i’d know, but i’m still not exactly sure, there are things that I want to stay in my life and there are things that I know i’m needing to desperately change.

Am I frightened about this upcoming year!?…………Yeah, I am………I don’t know what to expect and what’s gonna come from it and that’s kinda what scares me the most, it shouldn’t, but it does……….i’m hoping to really have a lot of courage and surprises coming from myself this year…………i’ve been holding on to my comfort zone for so many years now, i’m not really sure how to let go of it……..it’s very scary for me, because it’s all i’ve ever known, but I know that if I want to live a better and happier life, me keeping myself to myself and in my room 24/7 that’s not gonna make me happy, that’s just gonna keep me more closed in myself and I can’t keep doing that, it’s not healthy and I know that even though i’m really scared, I have to move on.

I have to stop being afraid and I have to let myself embrace things that i’m unsure about, if I continue to let fear keep me from moving forward, i’ll never be happy and I want to be happy and if being scared, but trying my best to move forward and not stop myself like i’ve been doing is the only way that’s gonna happen then I have to let myself be scared………and that’s something i’ve always tried to avoid, but I can’t keep avoiding it, I have to learn to face it and even if I hesitate, I can’t let those hesitations stop me unless I feel it’s really really important………..I don’t know what 2019 is going to bring and what it’s gonna be like, but i’m really really hoping that I can make this year a surprising one for myself and not let my fears interfere.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Mistakes….

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We all make them, we wouldn’t be human if we didn’t would we!? They say that mistakes are apart of our lives journey, which you can’t really disagree with I guess……..although we shouldn’t give ourselves so much pressure for the mistakes that we make or made, we always do even when they’re old mistakes. Now you would think that it’d be easy to let go of old mistakes and if you thought that, well you would be a little wrong there, because it’s not always easy especially when they’re past mistakes and they’re ones that we have a hard time letting ourselves escape from, as we all know, a lot of us don’t really know how to let go of old things.

Even though we may try………we’re not really good at letting go of the past even when we know we should………I guess it also depends on the kind of person you are as well on whether you’ll able to let go of past things or not. I don’t even know why it is we feel the need to hold on to things that only do us more harm then good, that’s why a lot of us tend to be unhappy and stressed out all the time because we are always focusing on the old things and things from the past, to all the mistakes that we’ve ever made.

We do it all the time, if we didn’t like something we did or that happened, we always think of different things or scenarios that could’ve possibly turned out better than what originally took place, thinking that it’ll change something and the reality of it is, it won’t, it’s not gonna change, no matter how much you want it to change and go back to what it use to be like, it’s not and it’s like we know that, yet we can’t get that into our brains at the same time……….the mistakes that we make or the things that happen, we can’t change them and a lot of us try so hard to fix things that we know are unfixable which then leaves us disappointed, because no matter what we do, we know deep down it’s not gonna be the same as it once was.

At the same time………we can’t say that we don’t know that, we do know it, we just always have that thing in us that wonders on a different outcome to a situation or thing instead of the outcome that we’ve got, no matter how hard we may try and how much we may want it, we can’t change something once it’s happened……….so what can you do!? Well as much as i’d like to say just let it go, I also know that it’s not easy to just let things go like that, we’ll always have those emotions that came with the situation or thing that happened, we’ll always go back and think about all these different scenarios and outcomes that we would’ve liked to happened.

Even knowing that though, I know holding on to past events isn’t any better either, no matter what you choose though, it’s gonna be extremely hard either way………………We always feel as though because we made the mistakes that we made, we make ourselves think we need to continue suffering those mistakes even if they were in the past and we need to realize that, we don’t have to do that, we don’t need to feel as though, because we did the things we did and looking at the way it made everything turn out because of it, it doesn’t mean we have to keep tearing ourselves down for it………..what i’m trying to say is, we all make mistakes and we’re going to continue to make mistakes……..and although it’s hard to move ahead and it’s a lot easy to go back blaming ourselves for all the things that happened in the past and everything.

We gotta try and move on from it and know that it’s okay to fall and have a few downs, it’s okay to mess up and make mistakes, like I said before mistakes are apart of our lives journey, they aren’t always the best and sometimes our mistakes can make a mess of things more than what we’d like them to, but mistakes happen and we’re not always gonna be able to change them, but one thing we can do is learn from them and try and change certain things within ourselves as best as we can, we’re not perfect we’re just human and sometimes we hit a wall and that’s okay.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Chatting Session: Letting It Snow While Reflecting & Talking All Things Random (Dec 13, 2018)

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Disclaimer: This was written earlier in the day 

That title there kinda makes it sound like I have some kind of super power or something, although I wish I did have some kind of superpower and it would be real nice to control the weather a bit, i’m not storm from X-Men though, so I can’t do that. Even if I did have a superpower I wouldn’t chose to control the weather actually, i’d go with teleportation I don’t know I always thought i’d be cool to just be able to be anywhere you wanted in flash you know!? How about you guys, what would you’re superpower be if you were giving one!? Also I hope you’re all doing well.

Okay now that we’ve talked on what kind of superpowers we’d have if given one, let’s talk snow!! The reasoning for talking about snow is because it’s snowing where I am, not sure when it actually started, but when I woke up it was snowing which then made me start sing one of of my favorite Christmas songs, Let It Snow sung and maybe written by Dean Martin, I know he sings it, but I don’t know if he wrote it, but anyway, I like the snow, not a big fan of the cold, but the snow it’s pretty alright. It always looks so nice when it starts coming down, it starts off slowly and then quickens the more snow there is………I love the peaceful feeling the snow brings, it keeps you calm and when you’re looking at it, you don’t feel stressed, you feel cold, but not overwhelmed or anything like that.

You know it’s quite interesting when you learn that all snowflakes aren’t the same, they all fall a different way, they’re different sizes and shapes, but even though that is true, you know that they all get to the ground eventually. It’s crazy how some of them are very noticeable and then you have those that aren’t as noticeable, some are for a second and others you don’t see them, when there’s a lot of snow though, that’s when you start wanting to sing Winter Wonderland. Seeing a whole blanket full of snow is like being in a whole new world, makes you want to lay in it even though you know that if you did, you’d be freezing………i’m sure it would still feel nice though in a way ha. Everyone loves whenever there’s snow on tress, it’s probably because it gives them some sort of character, you look at them and right away you’re in awe.

The fact that it’s even snowing tells us how close Winter is, it’s literally next week I believe, gotta love the cold weather right!? You know it’s crazy because even though, i’m not a huge fan of the cold, it seems to be the one season that sticks with me through all the seasons, there’s not one day where i’m not super cold, unless it’s very very hot. If I were to turn on the fan I have, give it a few minutes or so and i’ll either be putting on a cardigan or i’m turning it off, that’s how easily cold I get, don’t know why, i’ve just always been the cold one. I’m sure you all know the movie Frozen right!? Well i’m not a huge fan of the movie, it’s not a bad movie it’s just not my favorite, but i’m pretty much Elsa when it comes to the cold, just to give you an idea. 

I’ve been doing some reflecting today a bit, which I tend to do quite often these days I find, maybe this years just a year of reflection I don’t know………Christmas is around the corner, I hope you guys are excited, it’s crazy how close it actually is, once that’s up the New Year will be here………..it feels like 2018 just started and now it’s coming to an end, I guess we say that every year don’t we!? I think it all depends on whether the year made an impact on you or not when it comes to reflecting on it. I think if the year didn’t leave you looking back on it, it wouldn’t feel like anything changed for you, it just would feel like another year.

Everything goes by so quickly, which I can see why they say not to blink otherwise you just might miss something important……..although we have our reflection kind of days, it’s not until you get to the end of the year where you find yourself really looking back on things, I didn’t really start reflecting much until the ending of 2017 for certain reasons, before then I didn’t really look back on the years prior, at least not as much as I have this year. I know we still have a few more days, 2 more weeks until this year is over, so i’ll be reflecting a bit more, as i’m sure you guys will too before we have to look back on 2018 one last time.

Let me know in the comments below what your reflections are for today and feel free to share if your guys are excited for Christmas and if you’re looking forward and are ready for 2019 to arrive.     

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Chatting Sessions: Let’s Talk The Holidays & What’s On Your Christmas List!?

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So as we all know, we’re in our last month of the year 2018, most of the big holidays have come and went and one of the last big holiday’s of the year is coming around the corner in a couple of weeks, 2 weeks to be exact I believe. We are close to entering the season of Winter (although it already feels like it’s Winter) Winter officially arrives next week, so for those who aren’t a big fan of the cold or maybe you are because you’re weird (ha kidding, we all have favorite seasons) be sure to get your Winter gear ready, if you haven’t already done so, because from the feels of it, it’s gonna be quite the season. So keep warm and keep your teas, coffee and or hot chocolates ready for stand by, just so you have something to reach for when you need a little warming up……..but anyway let’s move on and talk about everybody’s favorite holiday (well those who celebrate it) let’s talk about Christmas!!

Okay we all know Christmas is around the corner as I stated earlier and we also know that the holiday is celebrated intensively and brings excitement to people in a lot of different ways. Once we arrive into the cheerful and cold month, we all like to welcome it with open arms while bringing on the decorations, the festive music and of course most peoples favorites, Christmas gifts……….you know when you really think about, have you ever noticed that Christmas is the only holiday that really gets a lot of attention!? I mean think about it, no one gets all hyped up over Easter, Halloween (except for those who really love the holiday) and let’s not even talk about Thanksgiving, people practically almost, always skips over this holiday and the only time we remember it, is when it’s like a week or hey even a few days away.

We literally treat Thanksgiving as if it’s the ugly duckling of all holidays, the only difference is in the ugly duckling story, they learn to appreciate the duck and learn to love it the way it is……….we don’t really appreciate this holiday, which is kinda sad……..because it’s like we know it exist, but we just don’t really care much about it, take Halloween for example: it’s like the 3rd best holiday in my opinion, it comes around we get all excited (well I don’t, I don’t really like Halloween, sorry not sorry) 

We treat Halloween better then we treat Thanksgiving, once the scary holiday is over, we start bringing out the Christmas decorations, we put on the music and prepare for the gift, all before Thanksgiving even arrives………..it’s like walking into a place and you see everyone having a good time and then you show up excited to join, you say something to everyone, they turn around, give you a look and then go back to what they were doing and you’re just standing there awkwardly, with a not hurt smile and that’s what I like to imagine Thanksgiving feeling like every year. 

Moving on though, I know I went off track there, back to Christmas………so like I said we prepare for this holiday a lot earlier before it arrives and I get it, it’s one of those holidays that everyone looks forward to because there’s something about it that just makes you feel good, maybe it’s the Christmas music (totally the Christmas music) it could be the decorations (I mean who doesn’t love decorating, right!?) oooor it’s probably the gifts people look forward to (I don’t have anything for this one) whatever it is (could be the whole holiday) we know we really embrace the holiday season. Now when it come to December, we all get that question, that question that we can’t avoid even if we tried, you know the one………and if you don’t, it goes like this: “So…….what do you want for Christmas!?” yeah that one. 

I’m not saying everyone hates that question, i’m sure there’s a lot of people who once that question is asked, they’re already writing it down on a piece of paper or even before it’s asked their handing you an envelope of all the things that have caught their eye and I know what you’re probably thinking “Why would they have an envelope!?” you don’t know, maybe they’re secret agents of some sort or they just really love the holiday ha, no, but in all seriousness, sometimes that question isn’t easy to answer. I mean when we’re kids, we want everything that is displayed around us and don’t say that’s not true, because you know it is, it’s very true, kids love stuff.

However the older we get, we tend to have trouble really telling those around us what we want for Christmas when the question is asked to us…………i’ve been asked 3 times and more of course, what it is that I want for Christmas, since the beginning of November and when December arrived and the only answer i’m able to give is………”I don’t know.” Every time, well I should say every Christmas i’m asked that question, I never actually know what it is that I want and a lot of people will have a list of things that they saw and was like “I want that” me on the other hand, I don’t write down list of things I want, surprising right!? I write everything else down, just not that.

I don’t know, I always feel the older you get, the things that were once a huge thing, aren’t that huge as much and when it comes to the holidays, at least for me, it just isn’t the same, everyone does their own thing and no one likes spending time together, when it comes to the holidays, you would think that’s what it’s about and then you realize……it’s not, but i’m not trying to bring down anyone’s holiday spirit, you keep those spirits up as high as you can, because you deserve to be excited for it. 

I’m just expressing my thoughts on how it is from my side, but I know that everyone’s different, but anyway back to the whole What’s On Your Christmas List!? topic, I don’t have a lot of things on my Christmas list, whether that’s a mental list or an actual list……….I don’t know, maybe when it comes to me, there isn’t much physical things that I want, if that makes sense!? I mean when you’re younger again you want everything, that’s all because we’re kids and that’s how kids are, they want all the toys and things that interest them, but I haven’t been that way for a long while and maybe that’s just me, who knows………….but anyway, to bring the spirit back up on this post, you know how I talked when people ask you what you want for Christmas and sometimes it’s hard to answer!?

Yeah well, try reverting the question back to the person asking you what you want for Christmas, 9/10, 8/10, depending on the person, their not always gonna know either. If you’re lucky they’ll tell you what it is they want or they’ll either say the same thing saying they’re not sure, they’ll tell you they don’t want anything or you have those kind of people who won’t tell you what they want and when you bring it up, they pretend or act like you didn’t ask the question……….anyone else know these kind of people!? Let me know, I can’t be the only one here.

Overall, no matter how you see the holidays, it’s important to make the most of it and appreciate the things around you as well, as the people you spend your days with and enjoy it as much as you can too, because not everyone is able to celebrate these kind of holidays and if they do celebrate it, they don’t always have people to celebrate it with. You don’t need a lot to have a good holiday, the holidays are meant to be enjoyed and spent with people who mean a lot to you, whether you’re spending it with family, friends or whoever you want to spend it with, as long as you’re having a good time and you have good people around you then that’s all that matters. 

I hope with this post I don’t seem like the Grinch or anything, I know everyone’s different and i’m not saying that you can’t enjoy gifts, because who am I to say that!? The holidays can mean a lot of different things to people and if gifts are something that get you in the holiday spirit, then be happy, jump around and do a dance, no ones stopping you, but I just wanted to share my thoughts on it.

Even though I don’t know what I want for Christmas and I don’t know what to get other people for Christmas, let me know in the comments below what’s on your Christmas list, what the holidays mean to you and let me know how you get in the holiday spirit, i’d love to hear about it!! ^_^ 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Reflection (December 5, 2018)

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Hey everyone hope you’re all doing well today, as you all know we’re still in the beginning of the month December, todays the 5th of course and so I thought let’s do a little reflecting on some stuff……….where do we start!? We all do a little reflecting from time to time, sometimes their good and other times they don’t feel the best, but no matter how they come about, they can help even if in the moment it doesn’t seem like it.

Today for me, my reflective state is more on the not sure side of town, I feel alright kinda, I guess…….it’s just i’m not sure on a lot of things and I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing, I don’t know how to really balance things out or if I do balance things, i’m not sure whether to look at it in a positive light more or the opposite. I don’t really want to look at it in a bad light, it’s just when you feel something, it’s hard to not really look into it a certain way you know!?……..I’m not sure if i’m making sense right now, but I hope you understand what i’m trying to say. 

I’ll just get to the point of why i’m in a reflective mode at the moment. So I was looking to add a different profile photo to my blog site and my social medias, but as I was doing that, I couldn’t help, but look at some of my other photos in my gallery and looking back at them………well i’ll just say it, I smiled for a bit…….and then I found myself getting emotional after………..I don’t know why………okay I do know why, it was because I realized how much I really changed from those photos. In them I would always smile, I would even take random photos of myself when I was having a really good day or if I liked the way I looked, I know that probably sounds real shallow or something, but believe me I wasn’t doing it for attention or anything. 

I’d just take random silly photos because I was happy and those photos I never posted because I didn’t feel the need to, I just felt I wanted to take them so I could look back at them. It sounds crazy I know, but really they were just photos to look back on for me. As I was looking back on them though, I couldn’t help, but go into deep thought mode……….I wrote in my writing journal that most people when they reflect they don’t question their changes, at least I don’t think they do……….me though i’m always going back and forth with my changes, had I not changed would things be different!? I don’t know…….it’s like I have days where I feel the changes that happened to me are i’m sure for the better, but at the same time I also wonder if me changing………was it wrong!? should I have done that!? I don’t know……….

I know a lot of us don’t plan on changing, it just happens and a lot of the time we aren’t prepared for it, I didn’t expect the changes that occurred, to turn things upside down. It’s kinda like being in the middle of an ocean or river………everything’s fine you’re enjoying all that is happening around you and it’s just great, you feel great………then out of nowhere you find that the current of the ocean or river start picking up, at first you think you’re able to handle it and that you will bounce back and everything will be okay again………but then it starts to get worst and the current from the river or ocean, you find is going into speed mode and you’re holding on as best as you can, but you know that it’s not good enough.

You’re trying to stay calm and not panic, but it just keeps getting stronger and faster, now you find yourself starting to freak out “What is happening!?” “Why is this happening” “I don’t know what to do” all of those things keep running in and out of your head, but even though all that is happening, you still do your best to stay calm even though you’re freaking out. After a good while of dealing and going through all that mess, things start to calm down and the current starts to go back to normal a bit………the only thing is now, you find yourself constantly having mental breakdowns and becoming unsure of a lot of things, some days your good, other days your not……..time passes though and you feel a little better, you find yourself kinda getting back into the groove of things, you’re doing the best you can, yet you know that deep down, not only are things not the same entirely………..but neither are you.

You sit with yourself, contemplating in your mind how everything go so out of wack so quickly, what happened!? why did it happen!? and then you kinda start to blame yourself, saying things like “If I hadn’t changed or if I hadn’t done this……..everything would be fine, non of this would’ve happened”……….It’s crazy you know, that saying that goes ” A lot can happen within a year” is true, you could go from feeling the greatest that you’ve ever felt in a long time, to constantly feeling unsure of everything and constantly wondering………now maybe all that is for the better, who’s to say it isn’t right!?

Sometimes though, it’s that curious side to us that has to always wonder whether it is or not. Even if we ended up getting caught in a huge current, that we weren’t prepared for………..we still should look at things from a different perspective, maybe all that was to see how much you could handle, maybe you’ll look back at it and reflect on it differently, who knows………for now, we’ll just do our best and try to take in everything around us again and when the current starts to pick up again, we’ll be as prepared as we can be and hopefully this time it isn’t all that bad.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~ 

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Monday Randoms: Welcoming December With Some Random Thoughts Added

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Although I know it’s 3 days late into the month, I just want to say welcome December, I hope that you’re doing well. You’re the last month until the new year rolls around……it’s crazy how quickly the year went, the last thing I remember is being lost and stuck in the summer months and now we’re here, December 3rd, beginning of a new month as well as the ending of an old year. I know we still have a few days to go until Christmas arrives and the year goes from 2018 to 2019…….it’s a little scary knowing how close we actually are, will 2019 be a different year, will it be a better one!? I don’t know, all you can do is hope that it will be and do your best to make sure that it is. 

However, we shouldn’t stress ourselves out wondering what’s to come for the new year, we should just always do our best to appreciate and admire the days as they come, doing that won’t leave you to feel overwhelmed about every little thing, you can just enjoy and also flow with it if you want. You know when you really let yourself take in all the days that come, it brings you into a whole different mode and gives you this feeling of wanting to look at everything deeply, it makes you wonder on a lot of different things and by that I mean like if you were to look at a tree or at the clouds, you know……..makes you wonder how exactly they were made, before we even became apart of this world.

The other day, well a few days ago I was in the car with my mom and I was wondering how people we’re able to create the highways and all that, I mean the world wasn’t always highways, roads, houses ect……..it was all nature and everything, it’s crazy when you really think about stuff like that. You also have the way we are, there’s a lot of different theories on where exactly we came from, there’s just a whole lot of wonder and questions that we don’t entirely know the answers to, we know a certain amount, but we’ll always have that wonder inside of us in wanting to know a definite answer on everything.

If you really think about it, having that mystery of not knowing everything exactly, I mean it’s both scary and exciting in a sense. I mean why should we know everything, that’s why when we’re born, we’re born curious…….to us everything is like a huge giant puzzle, only we don’t ever solve it completely. Normally we can finish a puzzle on our own, but in this case it’s impossible, because even when we think we’ve figured it out, we’ll always have pieces missing and that’s okay, we don’t have to solve every puzzle, we’ll always find certain pieces to fill it, but we won’t entirely figure it out and we don’t need to always figure it out, sometimes it’s just about the feeling of it and by it, I mean………..well everything, everything is just a big huge ball of wonder.

Hey that just reminded me of the Wonderball commercial, if you guys don’t know what a Wonderball is, well it just a chocolate ball with candy inside, it was one of mine and my brother’s favorite candy growing up, they brought it back, but it’s not quite the same as it was before.

This sure went off track, didn’t it haha……don’t ask, I just had a lot of random thoughts floating around and felt like writing them down, I just didn’t think it’d be all of this. It was meant to be about the month December, but it kinda took a different turn after a bit, hey it happens. Feel free to share some of your random thoughts down in the comments below if you have you any and also if December was a person, what kind of stuff would you say to it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~  

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