Hiii…..Happy Late New Yeeear Along With All The Other Holiday’s Prior!!

Alright let’s get this all out of the way without being awkward about it!! I’ve been gone for quiiite a while now as most or some may have noticed, my last post was back in October of last year, but as we all know we’re now in the year of 2021, it’s a bit crazy when you think about it I know!! Now we are in mid January close to moving to a New month, but we’ve still got a couple more days to this month before we transition over to that month so don’t go worrying too much about it!!

You might be wondering why i’ve been away for quite some time and the truth to that is……there was nothing for me to bring here…..I didn’t have much to say…..i’ve been also trying to figure out a lot of things in terms of not just new ideas, but I wanted to bring for myself, now whether that makes sense or not is to tell…..I didn’t feel happy with a lot of things, as much as I tried to share here, nothing ever felt important to share and because of that…..I just felt like I needed to step back from the things that I was doing within that time.

There was a lot of sorting that was needed from me and I felt and knew that, i’d like to say that i’ve sorted it all and i’m all good to go, but the truth is that’s not the case lol, there are still things that i’m working on, but from where I was and where i’m at now i’ve gotten a bit better that i’ve had the most trouble with, that aside I do still feel like I have a bit more to go before i’d say i’m at least 80-95% good!! 100% is a little too high right now for me to rate, but i’m in no rush to get to that percentage if i’m being honest I know i’ll get there eventually!!

In terms to how i’m feeling, obviously you have your days, that’s just part of being human, but for the most part i’d say i’ve been pretty alright, I feel good, but not GOOD with capital letters, it’s a little hard to explain,

I guess it’s kinda like a temperature thermostat, but instead of it telling you where you’re at on a hot/cold scale, it tells you where you’re at on a feeling scale and mine is at pretty alright/good, pretty alright is the middle and good (lower case letters) is just above it!! That’s where i’m at right now overall, which is good for me for now, I still worry about a lot of things that’s never going to change, but i’ve been slowly trying to embrace things more which is still new to me, but i’ve gotten better at it that I can say!!

I like to say that i’m still a work in progress, but slowly, yet surely I feel myself getting there little by little and i’m happy with myself about that, I still feel scared a lot of time with not really knowing where i’m going next, but that’s a fear within me that i’m doing my best to get over, I have been thinking of ideas where I have in mind of heading next, it’s something I have yet to try, but it’s something that has caught my interest and once I sort that all out i’ll speak of it more later down the line of course….

I do have another idea in mind that i’m probably going to try to mix in with my other idea, however this idea is one i’ve already had in my head for a while now…..again still have to sort it out first, obviously i’ll be doing it one by one because that’s the only way i’ll be able to fully give attention to it, but that’s just the half of it kinda….i’ve already written down slight notes to what I have in mind so i’d have an idea of how to do it, but because it’s something new and something that i’ve yet to try, I get nervous about it not knowing how it’s going to be, but if i’ve learned anything lately it’s to just let things happen when they happen and try not to think about it too much….which is something i’m still getting used as you can tell ha……

I’m sure once I get there, everything will just come through right then there, I just have to not think too much on it and let myself explore and figure it out on the way as scary as it may be and all, I just have to keep my focus on one thing at a time and know that everything else will follow along in the time that it’s supposed to. Excited, yet terrified in a good way of course!! I hope you all have been well and that this year has been treating you well, if you too are still on the journey of discovery of ones self,

know that no matter how worried you may be or how scared you may be…….it’s okay to feel that way….just take it one by one and whatever moment you’re in right now, embrace it and let it lead you somewhere you’d never think of going, in someway it’s bound to surprise you with where it takes you and wherever that may be….I wish you all the best on your adventures ^_^ Happy New Year and here’s to unexpected journey’s!!

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa

2 Years Of Blogging (Part 3)

Alright so this will be the 3rd and final part to my 2 years of blogging, I did originally write something already, but I haven’t yet posted it and i’m not sure if i’m going to post it, so whatever this post turns out to be this will be the part 3 of it, now in case you’re wondering what the other one was about, I was pretty much just about not really having a theme for this blog, it was kinda what I had already written within the second part to this and it’s kinda why i’ve not shared it yet, I didn’t want it to sound like I was repeating myself, even though it felt like I was so yeah……

I’m not really sure where I want to start on this third part, I probably could’ve left it at 2 parts, but in the moment of writing the second part of this post, I did feel like I had more I wanted to say and I thought it would’ve been too long of a post to say whatever it was I was going to say within two parts and so that’s why I said i’d make a third part to this…….

This blog really doesn’t have a theme with it as i’ve already stated this is just a place of expression, be it serious or just because I really want to talk and share something here, I feel like i’ve gone from writing whatever to really thinking of what I want to bring to this blog and so I guess that’s why I have all these different sections/categories for things, I want to always keep it interesting, even though i’m not actually sure what part of my posts you guys enjoy, sometimes you really don’t know what people are going to be interested in and so I find that when you just go with something just to see if it’ll stick I guess you can say or not, it can really be of help……

To be honest I never actually know what I want to bring to this blog, I just go with what feels right in the moment even if I may not always feel 100% about those ideas……with blogging there have been posts that i’ve written to where I thought “I probably shouldn’t have wrote that” and there have been some where I wasn’t sure if I should’ve written them, but found that it ended up working someway……it’s weird you know!?

With blogging/writing really one thing I like about it is that you can express however you want, it doesn’t have to be specific, I feel it’s easy if you don’t think too hard about it, you can just go with what feels right to you in the moment and if you ever want to change it up later, you can, at first for me it was to say what I felt I couldn’t at the time, now, when I look at it, I think how should I express today!? Most of the time, it turns out to be random, but I still have moments where I want to express on something that’s a little more deeper and kinda serious…….if you’re thinking of starting a blog,

but you don’t know where to start, maybe you’re not sure what theme you want if your a theme person, just go with what feels good to you in the moment, it doesn’t need to be specific, sometimes you find what your theme is a little later, maybe you’re not meant to have theme and you’re just suppose to go with it……inspiration strikes when you least expect it so until then just go with the feeling and see what comes out from it, because you never know what could work, but I do have to thank this blog for giving me a place to express when I felt I couldn’t at one point, if i’m being honest,

Having this blog, really did help me to express more and it’s for that reason that I guess I still have it and why i’ll do my best to stick to it, even when there are days where I have no inspiration or just don’t feel like writing, i’ll still have it, because I know that eventually there’s going to be something that I will want to share and I know this will be the place i’ll come to, to do that…..but to wrap this post up I just want to say thank you to those who have been apart of my blogging experience and for those who have just arrived and if you were here, but aren’t anymore, thank you as well for taking that time and being here for the moments that you were here for.

For those still apart of my journey here, I hope I can continue to bring you guys posts that you find interesting and some that you may find help at times, however you have enjoyed, I hope you continue to enjoy and all that in between, I think that’s all I have to say, if you read all of this to the end thank you and if not, it’s fine, I just wanted to express my thank you’s and that, but I hope you all are having a nice day and are doing well,

If you haven’t read the first and second part to this post, you can find them both here, you all take care and i’ll see you in the next one:

2 Years Of Blogging (PartΒ 1)

2 Years Of Blogging (Part 2)

All The Love ❀ ❀

Lexa