Writing Prompt Friday: Message In A Bottle (June 21, 2019)

If someone told you to write a message and put it in a bottle to send out to sea, what would you write!? Maybe you don’t want to send it out to sea, but instead just wanted to write something and send it out a different way out of curiosity to who would find it and read it.

Would you even write anything and if you did would you send it out or keep it to yourself to read or leave alone!? We all have something we want to say, sometimes it’s hard to say it however, because it’s either, we’re not really open to express what it is that we feel, sometimes we think, if we say what’s in our heads it’ll be too much or it won’t be understood……

We may feel when saying something it won’t make sense and maybe we’re just rambling on about things that not even we understand once it leaves our mouths…….so with that a lot of the time we freak out and just don’t say anything because it feels easier, yet…..at the same time, it’s harder because you know you want to say something and you know it’s there, but for some reason it doesn’t come out and if it does, it doesn’t come out right…….

Which will then a lot of the time cause us to freak out more and from there we end up beating ourselves up for it and think “that was stupid” adding more and more pressure causing our thoughts to only expand in the worst things possible, asking yourself a million one questions, over analyzing and just getting so stuck in your head that you wonder, if you’ll ever get out!?

You might also wonder and ask yourself if whether you’re doing things right or just a whole lot of different questions that float around, causing your brain to just lose it’s own thoughts………tell me though, the picture above, what do you see when you look at it!? Probably nothing too special i’m sure, it might just be a random throw together creation and you might be right, but maybe some of you do see something to it, who knows.

When I look at it, I see waves just casually flowing by, but also something else I can’t, quite put my finger on at the moment……what kind of feeling do you feel when you look at it!? Maybe some of you don’t feel anything looking at it and maybe there’s a few that do feel something with it, maybe it’s the way you’re looking at it, everyone does sees things differently.

So what did you write!? You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to, it’s called a message in a bottle for a reason right!? Maybe it’s personal, embarrassing, or makes no sense just like this probably…….

If you do want to share however, i’ll listen.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

March 18, 2019

In my head I think………..and what is it I think you ask or wonder!? I think of where it is that i’m heading, what I should be doing and you know what!? I’ve been thinking this for a few years now……..i’m 24 in 2 months, pretty insane to think about when you still find yourself thinking on so much…….

They say you shape your own reality and the way i’ve been shaping mine, I know that it’s in need for a change, you know what they say when you feel or question whether you’re doing things right, it’s probably because you aren’t doing things right………right!? If you’re doing your best then you have nothing to worry about they say, am I doing my best, why do I have to always ask myself that question!?

Is it because we’re curious or do we actually feel that we aren’t!? Listening to everyone, seeing everyone and wondering what are their lives like, how do they do it, how did they do it!? Why should we even care, why do we even care, it’s us we should be focusing on, it us we should be asking ourselves how did we do that………but when you can’t ask yourself that, it can make you feel like your failing or you’re just not getting it……….

Mindset, it’s all in the mindset they tell you……….sometimes the mindset isn’t the greatest, but you have to dig deep and keep trying to find a way to get through to it, because deep down it knows, just like deep down you know………..it’s okay to ask yourself if you’re doing your best, it’s alright to wonder, but when you do just try and stay calm, because you know just as well as I do, stressing and thinking, never go well together…………

Just listen, try not to think so much, write things out if you have to!! When things are on paper you find that it can be easier to take in, but when it’s in your head it’s a little harder because everything just starts being scattered around everywhere, take a breath (like that Jonas Brothers song……if you don’t know it, just take a breath anyway)

If you find yourself freaking out more just relax…………keep your mind as calm as you can………there’s no need to go looking for what to do, you know what it is you want to do, it’s on your mind everyday without you even realizing it, all you need to do is believe that you can do it, believe that it will go well if you just give it a chance………..

I know it may be scary to see yourself as this person your afraid you won’t be able to live up to, but it’s time you come face to face and meet that person, believe me you have no idea how bad this person wants to meet you too!! You’re not this shy emotional person that you think you are……..

You have that light in you and that light has brought some great people in your life as well as other things………..it’s just really dim right now, but it doesn’t mean you can’t un dim it, you don’t need to be afraid of sharing that light you know, we all need a little light and you my friend, you’re one of the lights that we need, because whether you see it or not, you are needed……..you wouldn’t be here if you weren’t………….

You are more then what you see and you are more than what you feel and think………..you just have to feel and believe it for yourself, don’t let that wonder in you go positive wise, when it comes to the negatives though, you have to put it to the side……..it’s the only way that confidence in you will return and the only way you’ll get to meet and be that person you know deep down you are……………

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Curiosity & Meaning (Nov 28, 2018)

This post doesn’t have a title yet as i’m writing this, but i’m sure once I finish writing i’ll figure one out. I’m not really sure how i’m gonna write about the topic i’m gonna touch upon, i’m just gonna let it come to me as i’m writing so hopefully this all makes sense somehow………alrighty so I can’t be the only one who does this, but I tend to find myself really looking into things when i’m sure that I don’t need to………? I don’t really know how to explain it, but anytime I feel something or something catches my attention I have to look into it, I don’t know why, but I just do, i’m always super curious on everything, it’s like I can see something or hear something and I feel the need to looking more into it instead of just taking it as I see or hear it the first time. 

For example whenever I see certain birds, bugs and sometimes numbers I always go and look up the meaning to why i’m seeing them if that makes sense. Like today for a example, I took my dog for a walk because she was going nuts so I took her out for a quick walk so she’d calm down and as I was walking I saw a lot of birds flying around, now it might not mean anything to you guys, you’re probably thinking “Okay cool, you saw birds, I see birds all the time too, what’s the big deal!?” I don’t know I can’t explain it, all I can say is, it’s different……..I wouldn’t look too much into it, if it was just me seeing them once and a while or just once you know, but when you start to see certain birds, bugs or even numbers more often then normal, yeah you might start to look into it a bit too, would you not!?

I know it probably sounds weird and you’re probably thinking i’m weird or something and that’s okay, I know that everyone is different……….I always feel that everything has a certain meaning to it though, which is why I tend to look into things way more than I should sometimes, I don’t know, I guess I like to get a better understanding to everything the best way that I can so that’s probably why, even if a lot of the things I look into don’t have much meaning at all. To go back to what I was previously talking about though, when I was coming back home all these different kind of birds just casually flew by me, but there were a few birds with the group of ones that flew past me, that caught my attention and those birds were: a Blue Jay, a Red Cardinal, a Robin and a Gray Mockingbird.

The Robin flew past me, along with the Blue Jay, as for the Gray Mockingbird, it was in a different tree and so was the Cardinal. As I was admiring the other birds, I heard a noise and when I turned around I got surprised when I came across a dog that I hadn’t run into for a while, normally I used to see this dog whenever I took a walk or when I would bring my dog along with me, now this dog is obviously own by other people of course, so I would only see it in the backyard of it’s home.

Every time I would walk by, it would come running towards the fence and bark at me, but after a while I stopped seeing it. I would walk sometimes and go looking to see if it was around and it wasn’t so I wasn’t sure whether the people moved or something so I stopped looking for it…..kinda i’d always take a small peak to the backyard to see if he was there……..he wasn’t……..today though, I didn’t look at the backyard and the one time where I don’t look, here he comes running towards the fence, barking, it caught me off guard because again I hadn’t seen that dog in a long time, so when I did I was happy and said hi and that it’s been a while, I don’t think the dog remembered me though, I wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t either, but yeah that was interesting.

As I was walking back towards my house, I wasn’t really paying attention at first, so I don’t remember what happened exactly, all I remember is walking and then turning my gaze toward this bridge close to my house and I stop and looking at me was the Mockingbird. I was so amazed and shocked that I couldn’t take me eyes off it, it was so beautiful seeing it up close, normally if I saw it, it would be like away from me on a fence or in front of my house or something, but this time it was literally in front of me, well as close as i’m ever gonna get to it, it was sitting in between a tree, but we kinda I would say connected somewhat in a way or i’m probably looking way into it……..I know it probably sounds crazy, but I don’t know……..I felt a little sense of a connection with it, again it could just be me.

After seeing it and making eye contact with it, it flew past me onto another tree that was across the street from me. As I continued to walk I couldn’t help, but look back at the Mockingbird…….every step I took, I just looked back at it, I was just so amazed by it, it’s such a pretty bird, of course the other birds like the Blue Jay, Cardinal and Robin are too, but there was just something about the Mockingbird that stayed with me longer then if I were looking at the other birds I mentioned.

I’m sure that all of this won’t make any sense to you and that’s okay, I just wanted to share that with you guys. It’s weird because I find myself really looking more and more into certain things then normal people would, I was thinking to myself about when all of this started and I can’t really pin point when exactly, but I seem to find myself really curious to all these things i’m mentioning and I don’t really know or understand why, but I just do for some weird reason, I don’t know how to explain it. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~