Thought For The Day……..

You ever have a moment to yourself where you’re just thinking about a lot of different things and you don’t know why, but little by little certain things start to become clearer to you for some reason, i’m not really sure how to explain what I mean exactly, I can try and bring you into my mind so you can see what i’m talking about, but I don’t even know if i’ll be able to explain what i’m talking about in the way that I want, but i’m gonna try and layout it out for you guys as best as I can. Okay so where do I start……..uhhhh so I was writing a different blog post on not really knowing what to write because I was having trouble writing at first and I got a pretty decent way with it, not too far but a few 100 words actually it was along this paragraph here only shorter (149 words to be exact, we’re at 164 words here and counting as i’m writing this lol)

Anyway so I was writing a different blog post at first and then my mind took a smooth turn and I stopped writing that blog post and I just started thinking about a lot of things, while I was thinking I started looking into the sky out my window and it was kinda dark, possibly because it was going to rain, but it still hasn’t rained yet, it’s hard to say whether or not it will because the weather here has been Sunny then dark, then Sunny again and then dark once more and so i’m not sure what the weather has in store for us today, but yeah going back to what I was talking about……..I was looking at the sky, just staring out my window, trying to figure out what I should write about and I couldn’t think of anything, so I went to grab one of my journals where I write blog post ideas, I don’t really have a lot of ideas just about 15-16 i’d say (just checked 17 actually) so I looked for a blog post idea in my journal and I saw one that caught my eye and I picked it, the title of the blog post idea I was going to write about was called, finding your path in life and although i’m not really writing about that blog post I picked to write about, it did have me thinking.

Remember when I talked about Finding My Niche, if you don’t you can read it here if you like Finding My Niche (My Confidence Struggle Story) it’s just all about finding my thing in writing and also talking about my struggle to find confidence in myself from time to time. Going back to what I was talking about……..so I wrote about finding my niche with writing before and believe me i’m happy that I started this blog because i’m able to write down my feelings and share my thoughts with all of you as well, but I had this thought come in my mind and I always find myself going back to all the things I use to do that also brought joy to me before starting this blog and I can’t help but think that maybe I have more than just one niche you know!? Hear me out, so we all have something in us that speaks to us more then other things and everyone has a special or hidden talent that they become interested in.

People who were born with a talent or find a thing that speaks to them, obviously they go after that thing they enjoy, because it brings them happiness and there’s just something about it that gives them that feeling of finally belonging somewhere and so when they find that passion that calls to them, you know they’ll become a force to be reckon with, because they have so much passion, I’m not sure if any of what i’m saying is making any sense but i’m just trying to gather my thoughts and bring to you what it is i’m thinking. What i’m trying to say is I feel like I don’t really have a specific passion for anything, the closest thing to a passion that I have is maybe writing due to the fact that I write a lot and I enjoy writing, but when it comes to passion and what I love the most, I can never just chose one thing all the time, I’m always switching it up from time to time.

I just feel this thing in me where, I go back and think maybe I should try this again and speaking of trying something again, I feel like I should go back and give Youtube another try, because i’m starting to miss it, I really am…….I miss sitting in front of the camera and talking about something I love or am interested in and talking non stop about it to the point where I get so lost in what i’m saying, i’ll get distracted and then lose my train of thought and then go on to a different topic and just talk about that. I miss being able to talk about the things I once enjoyed like wrestling, a lot of you don’t know this, but I LOOOOVE watching wrestling and then talking about the matches and who I think should get more of an opportunity and ranting about certain people in wrestling (my friend ray knows who i’m talking about)

I think I now know why it is that I feel like even if I do one thing like writing for example, I love it, don’t get me wrong, I enjoy writing down my thoughts and sharing it with you guys, but I also miss talking about the things I enjoy and giving my opinion on certain topics that interest me and just having other people who too share my interest get involved as well, although there wasn’t a lot of people interacting, there was still a good amount to where we all were able to just have a good time talking about something we all enjoyed, even though wrestling nowadays isn’t the greatest I still have a love for it, I mean it’s because of wrestling that I met one of my greatest friends and my boyfriend as well. I just really miss it, because it gave me an outlet to help me kinda break out of myself and oddly enough gave me confidence that I didn’t know I had and after a while yeah I lost that confidence, because I didn’t believe in my ideas and I didn’t believe in me and I should’ve, I should have just went with my ideas even if no one liked them and it wasn’t the most popular thing, I should’ve just went with them because I liked them, I  know i’m probably getting off topic here, but I just really feel strongly about this.

I don’t have a specific passion and I always felt that, I always just went with anything that interest me and i’m at the point where I kinda want to do more then just write, I want to express myself based off my interest and share my thoughts with others and hear their thoughts too and possibly make more friends along the way, there’s nothing wrong with dabbling in more than one thing, if anything it should be something you want to do because then you’re not just limited to one thing, you can do everything and still do the thing you like best. My thing is writing, but it’s also creating and other things and I should learn to be more confidence in myself and my ideas if it’s what I like, it’s okay to like more than one thing as long as it makes you happy and you enjoy it.

If I can write everyday on here, why can’t I do videos also!? You know I have to thank writing because it showed me that i’m capable of sticking to something everyday if I put my mind to it, lets just see if I can do the same with my videos again. I also want to thank my friend Ray and my boyfriend for always being there for me and supporting me in everything that I ever wanted to do, I probably spun them around a few times trying to find something that I could finally stick with, but they never left my side even when I was a mess, they just always believed in me and support me in everything I shared with them, I couldn’t ask for better people in my life so thank you guys, also for those who support my blog and come back and read my stuff even when some are longer than others, I really appreciate you and it always means a lot to know that you enjoy my writing, just the fact that you even take the time to read it means the world so thanks.

That’s all I have for today, I hope you don’t mind this being too long, I just felt I needed to share this I don’t know why, but I did……..I don’t even know what the title to this should be, I wrote this first before I wrote the title. If there’s anything to take from this blog it’s don’t worry if you don’t have a passion for something, just try everything and if you still don’t know what it is you want to do, just do all the things that make you happy and go with that, just promise that when you try everything that interest you, you take a necessary break from it when you need to, remember not to stretch too thin for something, go with what you can handle and isn’t too overwhelming, if you want to add something new, make sure to look at all the things your doing and whatever you find yourself not really taking interest to anymore get rid of that and add a new interest.

Lastly always and I mean always believe in your ideas and yourself, don’t worry about whether someone will like it or not, if you feel good about it and you’re happy with it then do it and if there’s an idea that you tried and you know isn’t really working much for you anymore then it’s okay to let it go and come up with other ones you feel will work for you and with that, I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening 🙂

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Being Inspired By Others And Finding Inspiration In Everything……

When it comes to inspirations we all have our fair share of people who inspire us, whether it be the way they do things, how their character is or just their personality, we all have someone we look up to or want to be more like, although we shouldn’t try to be exactly like someone but ourselves, there’s nothing wrong with wanting to aspire to be like someone a bit, maybe they have some kind of trait to them that you may be looking for in yourself as well or maybe there’s something that they do that makes you want to give a try too, it doesn’t have to be anything like making something, i’m talking more on the way they do something (if that makes sense) I find myself always observing those who I either look up to or those who inspire me and just think to myself “how it is they do what they do so naturally and are able to go about doing those things!?” So in order to figure that out, i’ll start taking in and observing their characteristics and just everything about them just to kinda get a clue, so like taking notes in a way.

Everyone has something special within themselves, but everyone also does things differently, so what others do isn’t always going to be in the same way we do things, we’re all different for a reason, but we’re always gonna have certain people we look to, that either match our personality and is someone we can relate to or there maybe someone that is different from us to where how they are, starts to interest us and we may want to see what it is that is making us get drawn to them and once we figure it out we sometimes end up picking up their habits or ways of doing things without even knowing we’re doing it. It’s just one of those things where the more you interact with those who inspire you or just those you like being around, the more you’ll be inspired by them to try to either do what they do if what they do is also something you like or just do your own thing, but do it in a way that you think they would do it, that could also benefit you and possibly help you as well.

The fact that our inspirations are people we feel a strong connection to says a lot about our personalities and us as a person as well, we attract like minded people like ourselves, people we’re able to bounce off ideas with or who share the same views and perspective as us, sometimes we’ll also come across those who are total opposites from us, but for some reason they have this way of balancing us out and helping us see things in a different perspective then to how we see it, which tends to actually make things a lot better for us in the long run. Anyone can be an inspiration to you, it could be someone in your family, a friend, a partner, even those who see you as inspiration even though you don’t see that in yourself, it doesn’t have to be just celebrities or an artist you like listening to, you can even be an inspiration to yourself and not realize it, you just gotta believe that you are.

Inspiration comes from all sorts of places, nature, music, art, anywhere really, there’s always going to be something that inspires you and that makes you want to be better and that keeps you going, whenever you’re feeling down or worn away. Inspiration doesn’t have to come from a specific place or person, because there will always be something that sparks a light in our brain that makes us want to change something and make that difference that we’re needing or that others may need. You could go through the worst of times and someone will still see you as an inspiration, you could be at your lowest and have the worst mind ever and still have someone rooting for you to keep going and tell you that they believe in you and you are the reason they are who the are and you may not believe it, but to them whether you think you did or not, you somehow changed their life and impacted them in the best way and you don’t even have to do anything big, it could be the tiniest of gestures to you, but it maybe a big thing to them and whoever sees you in a good light.

To inspire you have to be inspired so if you want to change something and you want to make an impact of some sort, find something or someone that inspires you and when you get that spark of light or lighting in your mind keep it, hold on it and let that be your fuel to keep going and find happiness from within if you need it and if you’re unable to find the inspiration that you’re looking for from someone or something, try looking at the things that make you happy and use that as inspiration. Think of this, say there was a day you were down and while walking you found the most prettiest of leaves or flower on the ground and when you saw that flower or leaf, you began to smile and admire it for a while and after you finished admiring it, you went on about the rest of your day feeling better, telling people about it and to them it’s not the biggest thing, but to you it mean’t something and made you feel happy, so whenever you’re feeling un-inspired and down about things, just remember that flower or leaf you once came across that brought happiness to you again and use that as inspiration and fuel to keep on going.

Sometimes it the smallest of things that can bring more light, spark creativity and inspire you in a way that no one or nothing else can. When feeling inspired by others though, make sure you let them know how much you appreciate them and how much they mean to you if you can and whatever they do be sure to support them and if their looking for inspiration, try and give them that if you’re able to, i’m sure they’ll really appreciate it.

Annnd with all that, that is the blog for today……I just want to say sorry for not posting that much lately, i’ve been going through some stuff within myself and i’ve just been trying to sort it, but I haven’t quite got it yet, but i’m working on it. I always try and bring you guys positive blog posts, but sometimes it’s hard when you yourself aren’t always positive, you know!? When it comes to writing I know that your writing is a reflection of you and when you write, you’re pretty much letting others in with your emotions and your thoughts and it wouldn’t be right to write something for the heck of it knowing that you’re not really all there and your mind isn’t there either, I always want to write positive blog posts and have it be helpful to you guys if you’re ever going through something similar or just want to read something to make you feel better if you’re feeling a bit down, but anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Choosing Your Battles Wisely While Still Trying To Keep The Peace Of Everything………

There are two types of people, we have the ones that when it comes to certain situations, they like to stay clear of whatever storm is headed in their directions, because they know that if they were to get involved there may possibly be a chance that they will get caught in the crossfire of it all, not being able to escape it. As for the other type, they LOVE to be in the middle of the storm and I don’t mean in a way that is good for them, no I mean they LOVE IT!! It’s like the minute they feel the wind pick up they become the storm and start to take down everything in their path no matter how anyone feels about it, I mean sure everyone gets worked up over something every now and then, but if you find yourself getting super worked up over something that really shouldn’t be a huge thing to where it’s causing you to take all the rage you have in you, burn people and then not even feel bad about all the destruction you just laid out everywhere, especially when you know that no one is hurting you or all they’re doing is trying to help you…..that should say a whole lot about yourself as a person.

You never want to be that person who has to go and ruin everyones day because you’re unhappy with the way everything is going in your life or just unhappy about a situation in general. i’m not saying this to put anyone down, but i’m just stating the facts here, no one wants to be around someone who they feel they have to be a certain way with because they’re scared that if they say the wrong thing a natural disaster is gonna form and everyone is gonna feel the wrath of that person’s anger, having people be intimidated by you isn’t something you should want, because that just keeps them from ever wanting to speak to you, let alone be around you. So if you want to know exactly how to keep away from the storm of a person’s wrath, i’ll do my best to give you some kind of advice on it. If you’re in the middle of the storm and there isn’t a way to get away from it, the best thing to do is just face it, but don’t roar back unless it’s absolutely necessary where you feel you have to, although you know that saying choose your battles wisely!? Yeah that saying is true, you don’t want to constantly have a back and forth with someone that you know no matter what you do or say they just always feel the need to one up you all the time.

People who feel the need to priorities their opinions over someone else’s, don’t really take other peoples opinions into consideration because the only opinion that matters is their own and that’s just how it’s going to be whether we agree or not. The only time someone else’s opinion matters is when they’re trying to get people to agree with them on their opinion, preferably those who respect them and see them as they could never be wrong. Pretty much there’s no winning unless you can say something to where they can’t say anything back because they know they are wrong and their defense mechanism is to either not continue the argument or disagreement they started or they just dismiss the whole thing while still being angry about whatever situation just occurred. Unless you have to, just let them say what they have to say even if what they are saying is completely wrong and most times they even they know that, but they won’t ever admit it because their pride is so strong and they will never let anyone else tell them they are wrong.

Just remember to pick your battles wisely if you’re ever stuck in a storm full of someone else’s rage and if you know that they aren’t going to listen to your side of things or just not listen to you in general, there’s no point in trying to compete with them on that level, sometimes things are just better left alone because people who like destruction feed off of more destruction, so it’s best to not add more fuel to the fire due to……..well because that’s just what they want, so just pick your battles wisely if you want to get out of there quickly. Now let’s talk about if you feel the storm coming, my advice is if you can, avoid it at all cost, some people say it’s best to stay in it like I just finished talking about, but if you know that you want no part in the storm and you can avoid it, do it, because it’s not worth it one bit to have someone try and over power you while belittling you and thinking that they can control you. No one can control you, but yourself and if you don’t want to be one of those victims taking part in the destruction of someone else’s wrath then you don’t have to. You can just go about your own business while that person is just making themselves unhappy, Do everything you can to just keep the peace around you and all that good energy within you, don’t let anyone take that away from you ever.

Things maybe be falling apart around you and becoming a mess, but as long as you keep the peace within yourself by staying calm, keeping positive and not getting sucked into the negativity that’s going on around you, then everything will be fine, maybe not in the moment around you, but it will be within you if you just trust yourself and keep yourself away from it all. Something in you will pull you away from all the drama and disaster going on and when it does just go with it, don’t question it, it’s doing it for a reason and that reason is because it doesn’t want you to have to deal with the negatives going on. Listen to your instincts and trust yourself whenever it’s trying to either tell you something, guide you away from where you don’t need to be and or when it’s guiding you to where you do need to be, You are the only person who you should be listening to when it comes to where you’re going in life and when it comes to your well being.

So that’s all from me for now, I know I wrote a bit but I just wanted to share this with you guys, I hope this helps if you’re in a situation like this and I hope you guys were able to take something with you from today’s blog post, anyway I don’t have much to say here so I hope you all have a lovely night/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Believe That Where You’re Headed Is Where You’re Mean’t To Go In Life…..

We all know that life likes to throw a whole lot of curve balls at us along with putting obstacles in our way whenever we think that everything’s going well, but did you ever wonder why it does that!? We don’t all have the answers to why certain things happen to us and why there are times when even when we push ourselves to being a different version of ourselves everyday, there will always be a time where we will come to a roadblock and then have to decide whether we let it stop us from moving forward or do we continue to keep moving on by either finding a different route or hop over it (if we’re able to) and just keep going. For some people they would probably chose a different route and sometimes a different route is a good choice, I mean it could take you to where you need to go quickly, but would it really be worth it to avoid the obstacle compared to just facing it head on and continuing to push through it even though it’s mean’t to keep you from progressing on your journey!? Some of you may say probably and some maybe thinking gee i’m not sure…..it’s okay if you don’t know the answer to this or if you have a different outlook on the situation, everyone has their thoughts and wonders of why life puts us in all these different predicaments sometimes, it’s normal to question why things happen and also wonder could all of this be for a reason or am I just having bad luck?

I’ll tell you though it isn’t bad luck, what is happening is every situation you happen to come across be it bad, good, humiliating or just anything really is all for a reason. I’ve been learning a lot lately and what I keep coming across is, whatever your mind is like that is how your life is going to be projected to you. What i’m saying is just in case I didn’t make sense there, whatever thoughts you think on a daily bases your mind is going to make your thoughts come to life and mirror it in front of you, whether you’re aware of it or not. Your thoughts control your life, so if you’re the type of person to always think on the worst side of things that’s gonna be your reality, same goes for if you’re the kind of person to think on the best side of things, no matter what your thoughts are that is what is gonna be portrayed in your reality. So if you want things to be less hectic and you want a different outcome in your life, try focusing on how your mind is because that will determine your reality and what your life will be like as well.

Now moving on from how your thoughts determine your reality, when it comes to the life your aiming for whatever that is, it could be anything that is fulling to you and that makes you happy. When you find that something that makes you happy and it doesn’t ever seem like a chore to you that’s when you know that you found what it is you were mean’t to do, sure you have other things you like doing, but if you find yourself constantly being drawn to something and you don’t really have an idea why, just go with it, especially if you know that when you’re being pulled towards it and you feel nothing but goodness inside you and you find yourself smiling because of it then go with the feeling. Sure it may not make sense at first and you’ll probably wonder why it is your so drawn to whatever is bringing you to realize what it is your made to do, but if you feel like something is saying “hey this is what you’re suppose to do” and you too start to feel something inside you change then that’s saying something. That’s telling you that, that’s where you thrive at the most. We all have things that pull us in from time to time and makes us want to take an interest just to see what it’s all about and see if we like it or not.

That’s just how we start to determine what category we fall in when it comes to our interest if that makes sense. When we finally find what it is we are mean’t to do, everything becomes clear and not as stressful, I actually saw a post I think it was today or yesterday, but it said something along the lines of when we finally find something that we want to do and commit to it then everything that feels overwhelming and that made you think i’m never gonna find something, all that will just start to fade away because you finally have that something that makes you happy and where you’re able to say  that’s my thing you know!? Finding that thing that makes you feel good inside and where it just naturally comes to you, that is the best feeling ever. Everything else that interest you sure that’s good as well, but the feeling you get when you have that thing, where you can call it yours that feeling is beyond compared.

So when you find that thing where something inside you is calling you to it, go with it, because it’s calling you for a reason and if you know in your heart and you feel in your soul that, that’s what you’re made to do, don’t pull away from it. Let what is made for you guide you toward where you want to be headed, trust that everything that is going on in your life is for a reason and never let anyone stop you or tell you how you should be living your life. Your life is your life and even though other people may not agree with the way you’re doing things, if you know that deep down you’re doing the right thing and you feel that what you’re doing is the best thing for you, then keep going and keep working towards where you feel you’re headed. You don’t have to know where you’re headed exactly, not everyone is gonna know that, some do, but for others it’s not always the case and that’s okay, some people do things best when they’re just going with the flow of things, knowing where you’re headed is good, but sometimes it’s not knowing where you’re headed that makes things just a little more fun along with a little scary as well. It’s okay to let life blow you all around the place, that’s just it’s way of saying that eventually you’ll know what is made for you until then just keep exploring and enjoy the journey.

Trust the waves of life and if you can’t fight against the current, try floating along with it, it may help you find where you’re meant to be along the way. Alrighty well that’s all from me for now, I thought i’d share this with you guys because right now i’m in the process of doing what I feel is right even though people around me think it’s not and just in case you’re in that predicament or you’re in that mindset where you’re not sure if what you’re doing is the right thing, if it feels right and you feel happier doing what you’re doing, then just keep pushing and keep doing your thing and if no ones told you this before well, you’re doing the best you can and i’m proud of you for how far you’ve come even if it’s not the biggest thing to everyone, if it’s big to you then i’m proud of you and you’re doing great. Hope you all have a lovely night/morning and evening and remember to hang in there and when the going gets tough just keep on pushing, you’ll get there.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Fighting For Love

You ever wanted someone so much to the point where if you could, you’d fly or teleport to them!? (I mean you can fly somewhere by taking a plane, but i’m talking superpowers here, you probably guessed that) no but in all seriousness, not to be all cheesy or sappy or anything, but it’s like………love is a beautiful thing okay, especially when you know that two people really genuinely love each other, love is also pretty rare nowadays…..we all know how it’s not everyday you find someone who really cares and loves you for who you are, whether you’re weird (in a good way) random or just anything that you would see as “oh who’s gonna want to be with a person like me who constantly freaks out about small things!?” or whatever you find a not so good trait about yourself, you know what I mean!?

It’s like we all have our fair share of things we don’t quite see as a good thing about ourselves, but it takes someone who really cares deeply about you and loves you unconditionally to see pass all of those bad traits we think we have and just accepts our flaws as just being apart of us. There are some people who don’t really understand what it’s like to love someone so much that all you want is for them to be next to you and just be there when you need them or just need that safe place to turn to and that’s because they aren’t going to get it, because it’s hard to find something so real once you’ve got it and when you know that you have it, you don’t ever what to let it go because who knows if you’ll ever find something like that again.

You want to know the best part about being with someone you love deeply!!? That no matter what is going on and how you’re feeling, you know that you can’t fall too hard because they’ll always be there to catch you and keep you from hitting rock bottom completely and not only that, but they’re also your biggest supporters and will be proud of you no matter what you do…….knowing you have someone who is not only your partner in life, but also your best friend as well is the greatest thing in the world, because having that kind of relationship you know that you don’t need to be anybody else but yourself and no matter what you do they’ll always make sure you know how much they love you.

You know you found that person you want to spend your life with when you can just talk about literally anything and it doesn’t feel weird or awkward, it’s just natural and casual and not seen as a big deal which is nice, because you can talk about embarrassing things and just laugh at it, without both of you getting uncomfortable and those kind of conversations that are hard to bring up to someone like a friend or family member even, is natural between two people who care about one another on not only a personal level, but also emotional and mental level as well.

I gotta say though my favorite thing about being with someone you truly love is they won’t let you feel a certain way about yourself, they will do everything they can to make sure that you’re always happy and well and when it comes to dealing with things they won’t let you do it alone, because they want to deal with them along side you and fight all your battles with you because to them…….your fights are their fights and vice versa.

To sum this all up because i’m not sure if any of this made sense or if i’m just gushing about love, but when you find and finally have that special someone in your life who you can be yourself with, without judgement and you know that if you need them they will always be there and just everything that I said already…….hold on to them, because a love like that is really rare nowadays, especially when you’ve connected in all of the ways you’re mean’t to connect with someone who just makes everything feel………..just everything is better when they’re around.

Once you have that kind of love, don’t let it go because if you do, you’ll regret it and you’d wish you hadn’t…….also just a heads up to never let other people try and convince you that what you’re feeling isn’t love or that you don’t know anything about it, because in all reality it doesn’t matter what they think or feel………it’s how you feel and what you feel doesn’t concern everyone else, no ones gonna feel the same feelings as you and that’s okay because they’re not mean’t to, only you know what’s right for you and that’s all that matters. So fight for the love you want and go on and be happy because life is too short to not be fully happy 🙂

 

Anyway it’s late, 12am to be exact not that, that matters or anything XD I started writing this around 4pm yesterday but I had one of those days again where I didn’t know what to write about and so I went and did other things until something came to me and for some reason, love was the topic that was on my mind, so I hope you guys are able to take something from this blog here, it’s different…..but I think it could be something useful for someone hopefully……….anyway hope you all had a lovely day yesterday and I hope you have one again today depending on what the time is where you guys are…………you all have a goodnight/morning/evening 🙂

 

All the love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

 

Edit: i’m now publishing this at 1am, yaaaay XD