Tag: Awareness

How To Title A Post That’s Filled With Emotions…

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I have a lot of feelings at the moment that I’m trying to hold in, I wish we didn’t always have to feel as though we need to be strong, It would be nice to just let emotions out without worrying everyone close to you or where you’re being questioned about it! Unfortunately though, that’s not possible…..if I was the kind of person to not be bothered with expressing my emotions, you’d always know what I was feeling, but I’m not that person, I only share my true feelings with those that I’m really close to and even then am I wary of that…..I don’t do well with my emotions, it’s hard for me to really say what I mean without my eyes being overflown with water trying to escape, for someone that’s an Earth sign, I sure got a lot of water in me!

I’m an emotional person and I guess that comes with being an Earth sign and feeling everything deeply, a lot of the time it’s more frustrating then anything, when you’re an emotional person like I am, you feel you always need to hide yourself, because being around others when you know that you may start having a breakdown or just randomly start bursting into tears is anxiety inducing then being someone whose always angry…..I always feel I need to go somewhere that will allow me to just be at my most vulnerable, somewhere that’s quiet and won’t judge me for feeling the way I do and allow me to just let that side of me out!

I guess that’s why I love nature so much because I can be me regardless to what feelings I’m feeling! You don’t ever have to worry about hurting someone or lie to people about being fine when you’re actually not! It’d be good to actually be able to not care, but when you’re someone who cares deeply about everything, you’ll realize that not caring isn’t apart of your nature nor vocabulary…..I can say I don’t care, but inside that’s not how I actually feel, I care even when I try not! It’s the people that care too much that always feels the most and that find themselves getting caught in shit that they weren’t even supposed to be around for…..

You can have the most tough exterior known to man, but if you have just a hint of that nature side to you, just a hint of empathy…..no amount of armor can keep you from hiding away from your emotional side…you can keep it calm yeah, but there’s only so much you can do before you find yourself getting overwhelmed and watching as the tide slowly start coming over you and once that happens…..there’s nothing you can do to stop it because whether you want it to or not, it will hit you and force you to observe that emotion and if you don’t observe it then it’ll keep hitting you until you end up accepting it and allow it to happen or just watch yourself drown from those emotions constantly!

It’s a lose/win/lose battle here, lose because everyone can almost always see it and you can’t really hide, win because you’re letting those feelings out and allowing them to be seen for what they are, which is always important, but it’s a losing battle because it’s something that is unavoidable, something that no matter how hard you try to put in the back of your mind, it will always find a way to make you see it, be it by just nudging you or giving you a whole wave of it just so you can’t ignore what’s really rising under the surface!

I want to be the one to say I’m okay, but I wrote this post for a reason even though it took a lot in me to keep my emotions at bay, but in reality the truth of the matter is I’m sad, but I don’t want anyone to know, yet here I am writing about it and talking about emotions! I’m full of nerves, because I’m feeling emotional and I’m frustrated because I know that although I’m fine at the moment, my emotional side will show it’s face again and because I know myself on that aspect it’s going to be hard to calm it down when it does get too overwhelming for me…..

Just to clarify, this is my way of acknowledging my emotions and being aware to the way I’ve been feeling today, I haven’t cried yet, which is good for me, I’ve come close to it quiet a few times while I was writing all of this, but I’m trying to keep the calm as best as I can, it’s been really hard though and although I’ve just written about being emotional and everything, I’m not going to talk about why, because that’s personal and I’ve not written this for it to make anyone feel a certain way, I just honestly needed to write this out because it was the only way I could get my words/thoughts out without it sounding weird!

I may be able to express on my feelings a lot better vocally, but I always feel when I write it down, it helps me to understand my own thoughts better and keeps me from worrying about whether I’ve said everything all right (Not saying I don’t still worry, it’s a habit that is hard to shake sometimes) but the fact that I was able to write this out, it helps me to feel a little better…..sorta

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Slow Down….

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When you find some pressure on the rise or you’re feeling a little irritated, take a moment to just slow down a little, feelings of pressure and stress can cause irrational ways of thinking and with that you won’t really be able to focus much on anything……so take a moment to firstly breathe when you feel the height of the pressure and guide yourself to slow down a bit.

I know it’s probably not the easiest thing to do once you’re already in a state of pressure, but it’ll help to re focus your thoughts to become a little more clearer, all while helping you to get back to a clam state of being…..now it may take some time before you’re fully back to feeling at ease again and that’s okay, it’s not about how quickly you can do it, but just taking the moment to become aware so that you can not only process things,

but also just be fully present towards what you’re doing…..slowing down doesn’t always necessarily have to mean doing things slow, it can mean to just….take your time and maybe take things in a little more, look around a bit and while you’re at it, breathe a little deeper than you might’ve before.

Try and appreciate the small things that you maybe missed before, find enjoyment it all that you do big or small, but most importantly have patience and trust that it’s all going to work out and be alright!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Hold Your Defenses…..and Judgements……

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By keeping our defenses at bay we keep from allowing what could potentially cause some kind of harm from entering, meaning if we go and pull out our defenses too soon, we may accidentally expose ourselves to unwanted situations, just by unawarely stepping on an unnoticed land mine, lying around……we have to try and stand guard even when we may not agree on certain circumstances, if we don’t allow judgements to target our mind, than they can have no affect on our state of mind.

Meaning our defenses are safe from impulsive actions, it’s not about always giving a reaction or feeling the need to add an opinion to every little thing we seem to disagree upon, but by allowing the judgements to seep through like sap from an oak tree, we keep from enjoying the sweetness of the sap and instead put our focus on a more bitter taste, that is not really meant to be there, but is now, because we chose to keep our attention on what could’ve had less of an affect had we just thought it through a little.

Now this isn’t something we need to wrap ourselves in frustration with if we did happened to go on our first instinct and find that it may not have been the best reaction and only affected us in a negative way than what we may have initially intended, while in the process also plummeting our own energy in the not so best way…….when that happens, keep away the judgements towards yourself and instead try and regroup, by doing that we learn to settle the mind and bring it back from a stressful state instead of allowing it to fully go out of control, become aware of your thoughts within that moment, show patience towards yourself as you’re regrouping,

and just keep your focus centered and know that sometimes the battles we think of challenging, may not actually need to be challenged, standing ground doesn’t always mean going at the first attack and when you see judgement heading towards you, allow it, but try and keep the interaction at a minimum or don’t interact at all and keep your peace of mind at peace.

You don’t want to lose any energy that keeps you afloat, when you pass judgement or receive judgement, that energy then turns bitter causing drainage (again in the not best way) losing you to miss out on any enjoyment that you might’ve been looking forward to whether planned or not in the process, so when you feel your guard getting ready to jump on impulse or you feel a judgement coming along, remember to take a second look at it and choose that battle wisely before taking action (preserve the energy)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Why Does Everything Have To Be So Negative!?

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Good day to you all, I hope you’ve all been doing well and are having a good, productive, occupied, nice kind of day with whatever you’re doing!! Let’s talk about some stuff yeah!? I feel like it’s been a while since i’ve written anything on a serious topic so let’s see what comes out with this one, that i’ve just gotten in the mood to talk about.

Before we get to writing, I just want to say that I hope you all are staying safe and well and that things are going okay with you, I know with everything going on it’s not really been the best of days lately……speaking on that topic actually, you’d think that things would be a little upbeat or at least attempt to be upbeat anyway, but it just seems as though things keep lowering on the energy level, by that I mean, negative feelings!!

I mean you do your best to keep things afloat and try and keep the energy up, but for some reason it’s like the negative over powers what could be positive!! I’m fully aware and understand the events of what’s going on in the world, I know it’s a serious manner, but that doesn’t mean we should allow the negative effects of it, to be our only focus, that being said now,

In this time it’s important to be of support to each other, be it who we’re around or even just talking via social media and that, we shouldn’t keep ourselves down and we shouldn’t let others feel down either, with what’s going on it’s important to take this time to not only give focus to the things that need our attention, but also do our best to be there for one another,

We all are feeling in different ways, some of us have learned to stay calm, some are struggling with this social distancing a little more than others and some have learned to use this time both a little and quite productively, there’s different ways we’re coping with everything going on, some of us may not know how to handle this whole thing, but that’s why we’re here.

We don’t always need to have things to say, but giving a little support towards each other does wonders believe it or not, we don’t have to keep our focus on the negatives so much, sure it’s a little difficult to do, but there’s ways to turn it around, we just have to allow ourselves to do so.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

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You might be wondering why today’s post is titled after todays date well, let’s just say it’s for a reason…….as I was about to write a post with the same title, but I felt I was approaching it way too seriously then I normally would,

So I thought i’d try it again and open up a new post tab and try not to overthink it so much this time, which is ironic since today’s day is literally all about being aware of your thought and feeling and making sure you’re telepathically, I guess you can say sending out a more positive feeling and thought wave of…..well thoughts and emotions really out into the air or space and all that jazz as what we gather information wise will make it’s way into our lives possibly and by possibly I mean yes definitely!!

As we all know thoughts and emotions are tricky to keep under control especially when you’ve got a lot happening as well as feeling and thinking going on, sometimes you’ll have days you feel you need to take multiple breaths throughout the day then you normally would and that was pretty much the kind of day I was having a bit today, why!? Not sure……

I guess in a way I felt it would help to keep my mind and thoughts centered and not have it decide to take a bit of a short cut or detour shall I say toward places that it needs not to go pretty much, for the most part i’d say taking a few breaths here and there has kept my mind a bit ordered, doing a fair job, however I will admit i’ve almost drifted the path a few times….

But I made sure to pull myself back before it could do any real damage, it’s really tricky trying to keep your mind focus and emotions in check because they technically at times have a mind of their own and sometimes it’s hard to settle them down properly, kinda like a hyper child at times,

but I guess the key here would be to just be aware to what your thoughts deliver to us and how your emotions start up, I think it’s okay if they go a little off course and do what it does best and wander about wherever it pleases to go, as long as you keep and eye out and be mindful of where it wanders off too, then you’ll be able to bring it back if it gets too close to an edge or muddy puddle, we all love a little rain or a lot if you’re a big fan of the rain, but we all know that too much rain can sure make a mess.

That all being said, when we keep our thoughts and emotions as centered as we’re able to, we help to bring in positive energy, but mainly we allow other things to flow in giving us the ability to create a bit of a better reality to our lives, so it’s important to always be aware of the way we not only feel,

but also think too, sure it won’t always be the easiest to do, but as long as we are at least aware to what we’re feeling and thinking, the easier it’ll start to be to keep it from running too far away from us, no matter how many times our minds try to hide behind trees and get us to become distracted, we will always do our best to not let it, at least not too much anyway……

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk…..

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I think i’m going to keep this post short and sweet, well i’m not sure whether it’ll actually be short, but I know it won’t be super long either, I don’t know what it is, but i’m not really all that sure on today and by that I mean, that really actually, I don’t know if that makes sense….

It’s just one of those i’m not really sure how to feel kind of days, i’ve been more in thought mode than speaking mode most of the day and to tell you what i’m thinking about, well lets just say, okay well you know when you’re looking straight out towards the ocean and the waves are going in and out onto the sand, yeah that’s how my head has been, just in and out,

You’d think that be a good thing and quite calming if you’re thinking about waves, well it’s not all bad, it’s just moments when you find yourself deeply thinking where you’re supposed to be careful and you tell yourself that, but you can’t seem to keep away from the whole ocean, so to prevent a full on emotional wave, you have to snap yourself out from going that deep and i’ve been having to do that a few times today……today has been a bit weird,

but I think if you just take a bit of time and be aware of ones feelings instead of trying to ignore it it’ll keep you from having to over feel it, you know what I mean!? All i’m going to say is, if you guys are having one of those days as well don’t be afraid to accept that you’re feeling weird or sad and just not really sure on how to feel, it’s okay to allow yourself to be aware of those feelings, ignoring them will only heighten them to become louder.

You don’t have to like it and you don’t have to want to share a space with it, but it’s important to be aware of them, if you feel emotions coming along, just them out, don’t keep them buried beneath, if you need some time, take it, don’t feel like you can’t, just be aware and accept what you’re feeling. In the moment it’s hard, but eventually it’ll pass and be okay, maybe not fully, but a least you’ll feel somewhat better knowing you’ve given yourself the time and allowance to just feel what you’re feeling.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa