It’s FE BREW ARY…

So we have officially entered the month of February, the shortest month of the year with only 28 days on the calendar, unless leap year is added of course then we get that extra day where it’s 29 days instead! I always find February to be quite interesting for the simple fact that there are only 28 days to it, while the rest of the months have 30 or 31 days to it….it’s quite fascinating really! That being said I do have to be honest about my feelings for February and those feelings are…..it’s not really my favorite month of the year….I don’t mind it, but I also don’t quite feel much for it….sorry February, nothing against you I promise!

Now that I’ve let my true feelings out with this month, let’s share some good things about the month…..although it’s not my favorite…..I still appreciate it for what it is, I mean without February we wouldn’t have Black History Month to help celebrate all those that really helped change the world to what we know now, it’s important to celebrate each culture and race to help gain knowledge of what’s different and try and embrace that as best as we can, all while never forgetting those who made an impact be it in a huge way or ways that we haven’t even heard of, we don’t always have to do something big to make an impact…..always remember that even the smallest effect can make a big difference in some way!

It’s good that we get this month to celebrate those of color, being mixed myself, it’s good to know that we too are celebrated in some way!

On to some other things about February though….many of you may or may not be aware, but this is the first time since we started 2022 that we will be getting not one, but TWO synchronistic days this month…..those days being tomorrow’s date of 2/2/22 (February 2, 2022) and a little bit toward the end of the month with 2/22/22 (February 22, 2022) now if you’re reading this and don’t really feel anything with it, that’s fine, I know Numerology isn’t for everyone, to be fair….I’m not a big number fan myself (I mean math is my least favorite subject after all which I’ve stated a few times) but if we’re on about synchronicity then that’s a bit of different story….it’s a bit hard to explain really, I guess I just find it cool that we’re in a month where the Two’s are really standing out this year!

It’s like with 11:11, quite the number I know, however if you were to ask someone what is it about the number 11:11 they might not be able to give an answer, other then having the urge to make a wish every time they see it! Now I’m not saying that this goes for everyone, I know there are quite a collective of people that do understand these aligned numbers as well as numerology as a whole, but if this kind of thing isn’t of interest to you and you just see them as regular old numbers then there’s no need to worry about it, but if you do feel something when seeing these kind of numbers or you have seen numbers like 11:11, 222 or 333 ect a little often then you like to admit…..you might want to check them out and see if there’s any messages with them!

Sometimes it’s just good to look something up just for the fun of it and nothing else, it doesn’t have to be about anything, but curiosity if you find it in your mind a lot! Numbers do have meanings to them, but it all comes down to whether it’s of interest to you as a person and what you believe in, if these numbers mean nothing to you…..that’s quite alright! I know people see things differently and as humans (good humans) we have to respect that, this is just something that I find intriguing and wanted to share, call me a weirdo if you like….I call myself that most times, but it’s something I embrace so I don’t really mind lol!

I just wanted to wish everyone a good February…..I probably could’ve just said it and left everything else out, but….I clearly I had other things to say and one of the reasons I wrote this post was because of the whole number thing being quite interesting to me where I just felt the need to share all about it, what can I say it’s cool to see numbers line up sometimes, anyway hope you all are having or have had a good start to the new month, take care of yourself, stay safe, be kind and I’ll see you in the next upcoming post!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Different Feelings To Music…….

You ever hear a song and just feel that it fits perfectly with what you expect it to feel like!? It might sound a little confusing to what i’m getting at so i’ll try and explain it in the best way possible……I don’t know if it’s just me, but anytime I hear a certain song and say it’s titled “Sounds of the Evening” just to give an example to what i’m talking about, now when you look at that title, tell me, what to you would an evening sound like if it was somehow turned into music!? Would it be something peaceful and quiet like, maybe there’s a little bit going on, but not too much going on if that makes sense!?

What kind of scenery would you add and if you had to pick an instrument or some kind of sound say being processed to showcase what an evening sounds like to you if it was turned into music what would you pick!? Sometimes when we listen to music it can have this specific way of sounding to where it almost always fits a theme of some sort…..so say you’re having a nice chilled morning, there’s certain songs that can fit well with the kind of morning you’re having, if you’re going for a bit of a walk even,

You’ll find that there’s something to listen to, that’ll go along well with that movement, it’s actually odd cause for me I find that music helps me to take everything in a little better than say if I was walking without music, I actually find that weird…..I can sit without sound, but when it comes to going on a walk, I need to have music playing otherwise it’s going to feel odd and maybe some of you also feel that and maybe some are fine either way, I know everyone’s different…….but I love when i’m listening to something and can feel what the song is and I mean not just lyrics,

but the music itself, it’s even more amazing when there’s no lyrics to it and it’s just the sound to the music, because you then are able to form an imagery to the sound where it just takes you to a place with all these different things……but sometimes, it’s like that when you’re just hearing a song that has words added to it, they say when you close your eyes,

You tend to feel things a lot more deeper than if you were just hearing it or seeing it even and with music you find that it just takes you on this journey when you listen with feeling and that can just make everything so much more beautiful, it’s like how a painting would feel to a painter or just any other admiration that you may have a connection towards, but to be able to listen to a song and truly appreciate these little aspects that it both brings and has to it, is probably one of my favorite things about music!!

Slow Down….

When you find some pressure on the rise or you’re feeling a little irritated, take a moment to just slow down a little, feelings of pressure and stress can cause irrational ways of thinking and with that you won’t really be able to focus much on anything……so take a moment to firstly breathe when you feel the height of the pressure and guide yourself to slow down a bit.

I know it’s probably not the easiest thing to do once you’re already in a state of pressure, but it’ll help to re focus your thoughts to become a little more clearer, all while helping you to get back to a clam state of being…..now it may take some time before you’re fully back to feeling at ease again and that’s okay, it’s not about how quickly you can do it, but just taking the moment to become aware so that you can not only process things,

but also just be fully present towards what you’re doing…..slowing down doesn’t always necessarily have to mean doing things slow, it can mean to just….take your time and maybe take things in a little more, look around a bit and while you’re at it, breathe a little deeper than you might’ve before.

Try and appreciate the small things that you maybe missed before, find enjoyment it all that you do big or small, but most importantly have patience and trust that it’s all going to work out and be alright!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Closely Looking…..

Have you ever looked at a tree closely!? No I don’t mean up close and personal, but more while taking in the scenery around you, but keep your focus on something specific for a good while. To explain it, I like to go in the backyard and sit there for a while, either that or i’ll somewhat pace back and fourth, while doing one of those things, i’ll have my focus on the birds if I see any, sometimes squirrels and most times i’m looking up at the trees,

Yesterday though, I found myself in admiration with the way the trees were, while really glancing at them, I came to the realization that if you look at it long enough, they sorta look like roots…..yes I know trees have roots that they plant themselves in the ground with, but what I mean is that when there’s very little leaves on them, they look roots touching the sky and then I thought about how sometimes brain activity looks like that, scientifically speaking in a way I guess, kinda…..not actually really sure, I know what I mean i’m just not sure if it’s making sense coming out, but we’ll move on….

Lightning when it’s flashing in the sky during a thunderstorm can also look like it actually, which I find interesting, they’re all like root like, as weird as all this may sound…..long story short, I found it fascinating knowing that if you look at a tree that doesn’t have a lot of leaves to it long enough……..it becomes something different and sometimes it’ll remind you of things,

Whether they make sense or not, I also thought with the leaves, on certain parts of the tree, looked kinda like a paint brush, then again that might’ve just been me, I realize this post might look like a scratch on the head,

but the whole point of it, well that I was trying to make I think was that sometimes if you look closely at something, it can give you something interesting and maybe have you look at it a little different to how you might’ve normally seen it before or it might just have you admiring it, giving you a sense of appreciation for it, just a little more deeply…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa