Do What You Like, Be Free To Be Whatever!

This is probably one of the most cheesiest titles you’ve read or maybe not….if I’m being honest this title is a combination of two different lyrics from two different songs, both favorites of mine and by two artists that I admire! The first part of the title come from the song Living In Colour by non other than my all time favorite artist Alexz Johnson while the other part, kind of comes from the song No Regrets by an artist named Dappy at least it’s inspired by it anyway….I don’t know how many people know of either artist, but Alexz Johnson has always been one of my favorites since the moment I saw her show Instant Star, it was then I knew I found an artist I was going to listen to forever!

As for Dappy, I was introduced to his music by my partner whose a really big fan of his, the first song he ever had me listen to by Dappy was called Money Can’t Buy, it’s a love song of course, but it’s an amazing song and one of my other favorites!! Now Dappy isn’t just a singer he also raps too and comes from the UK, he also had this group called N-Dubs which had him, his cousin Tulisa and a friend of his I believe named Fazer who happens to rap as well! Now I’m not here to talk about these two artists, although they are great and their music is always a pleasure to listen to, I just wanted to explain the title name…..however I should point out that the actual lyrics to Dappy’s No Regrets is “I’m Free To Be Whatever I….”following a few bar flows after those lyrics!

What I really wanted to talk about is what I mean with the title I have there, well I will do my best to explain it at least! Now to me, both these lyrics have an encouragement feel to them, “Do what you like” by Alexz Johnson meaning “go for it” while the actual lyrics to Dappy’s song No Regrets ” I’m free to be whatever I…” that one goes more on the fact of having that freedom to do, well going back to the first song, pretty much whatever you like, being whoever it is you choose to be and allowing yourself to have the confidence to say “this is my life and I will decide how I want to live it” it’s letting you know to go after anything you believe in and are truly wanting without those regrets in the back of your mind, where you’re asking yourself “what if”

Keeping the what if’s in your head will always make you feel like, you have to just go with what’s there, but life isn’t about being okay with that, you have to be okay with change no matter how scary it is…..you don’t want to sit back and think to yourself “I didn’t, I should’ve, maybe” We always hear how short life is and the thing with it is, we think because we are still here doing the things we’re doing and getting to certain ages that it’s not really short, but it actually is….because you can walk past someone and that day their fine, but when you go to see them again….something is different and then next thing you know….you’re no longer seeing them!!

It’s a frightening scary thing and it’s something I don’t like to think about, but when you really look at it, it really does say a lot….we’re always worrying about everything, but that’s because we’re feeling things that we don’t even understand sometimes…..but it comes with the experience of life, but life is also meant to be experienced, you’re meant to be inspired, to be entertained and say “woah I’ve never seen that before or let alone known that it could exist” You’re meant to explore and feel different things, in different ways then imagined!!

There’s a lot of fear that is hard to shake within us, I have a few fears myself and one of them used to be change, I didn’t like things changing, I liked being safe and comfortable, I always thought that I wanted everything to stay the same, until eventually I witness change happening around me, forcing me to become uncomfortable and really see things differently and before I knew it…..I started to change and I saw how me changing and wanting different started to effect people around me!

I was always a certain way and when I stopped being that certain way and being vocal about it….it wasn’t well received, but I knew that it needed to happen because had it not happened, I would’ve still been in that situation…..the older I get the more I’m realizing how important it is to really go after what it is you want and not be afraid or feel bad for wanting those things, we’re allowed to want things, we’re allowed to say “hey this is what I’m doing, it’s okay that you don’t agree or like it, but I’m doing it anyway” it may be a scary thing to do, but it’s better to be brave and do it while shaking the nerves away, then to not do it and stress yourself out about it and how you should’ve done it….it’s okay to take that breath if needed, but if you find yourself feeling something like this lately then you may just want to consider some of these words

You don’t necessarily have to, but if you know there’s something in your heart that you would like to do and have been thinking about for a while, it really doesn’t hurt to give it a go and try, the only thing that will happen is that you’ll find yourself growing more and possibly enjoying yourself as you experience that new thing that is speaking to you!

That’s all I want to say, hope you all have a good rest of the day, stay safe and take care!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

It’s Feb 22, 2022 (2/22/22)

You might have noticed that today feels a little more significant compared to other days and even if it doesn’t feel different, I’m sure that you had a moment where you might have looked at the calendar today and thought “huh interesting” after realizing todays date! Now I’ve spoken about numbers and numerology before all while explaining how I’m not that the biggest fan of math, but regardless to my feelings with the number subject, numerology is just one of those things that is kind of hard to pin point and what I mean by that is there’s just something about it that always leaves me curious with it to where I feel the need to what to look up certain numbers when their lined up like today’s date is or just when seeing the number 11:11 or 555!

Now I won’t go too into it as I know I already shared my thoughts about it previously before, plus I wouldn’t even know what to say exactly, so who knows how long this post will be, I honestly don’t feel it’ll be too long, but then again I’m not sure if it’ll be true, there’s times where I think a post is just going to be, only but a few lines long and it’s more than what I expect so haha!

Now if you’ve been wondering just what the numbers 2/22/22 means well, I wouldn’t be able to tell you off the top of my head, without looking it up myself, speaking of I actually did look it up because as I stated earlier I was very curious and just wanted to know it’s meaning and in case some of you would like to know or have been curious yourself about it, to try and sum it up really…the number 2/22/22 it’s got a very detailed meaning within it and one of those meanings comes in the form of taking charge of your life and not feeling bad about how you choose to live it, it also talks about balance and instability, but also not allowing yourself to get caught up in the chaos of your surroundings and learning to keep positive even during difficult times!

I know with that last part it’s a lot easier said and then done, believe me I know, for me yesterday was a very rough day, these past few days have been a bit harder to handle, but yesterday I have to say definitely took the cake, but it’s not really about pretending that your emotions don’t exist or that you have no right to feel the way you might be feeling, what it really comes down to is letting yourself feel the things your feeling, but also being aware of how you react to situations!

Look I’ll admit that sometimes it’s harder to push through days when you already can feel it within yourself that it’s not your day or a day in general, I think in order to really embrace what number 2/22/22’s message is trying to share, we need to allow ourselves to feel our emotions, so that we’re not just pushing them down and keeping everything bottled up! I understand that not everyone likes expressing themselves because they either don’t want to be a burden, they don’t want to share what is actually bothering them or they don’t actually know how to express their thoughts well so they just keep it all to themselves….but when you hold your thoughts and feelings in especially for a prolonged period of time, you’re only hurting yourself,

Eventually all the things that you’ve hidden under the surface will start brewing and before you know it, you’ve gone from being an inactive volcano to an active volcano and everything that you’ve tried so hard to keep within starts looking like magma flowing about and you find yourself looking at it wondering how you allowed yourself to let it get that bad! I know I’ve gone all science here, but what I’m trying to get at is, we have to be okay with feeling our feelings, but also not think that because we feel them, we can’t talk about them if we feel we need to, although sometimes we may not want to share them right then and there, which is okay….

It’s alright to want space and time to think about things and really take them in, if you feel that to help you best! Most times it helps to take that moment so you’re able to keep all those thoughts and feelings at a happy medium so they’re not just coming out without much of a thought, it’s better to think and then react then to react first then think! It helps to really bring clarity and a different responds and way of explanation compared to just going off to what the first reaction might’ve been!

It also helps if we didn’t give ourselves a hard time about it as well, most times we forget though….but back to what today brings and what this once in a lifetime line up of aligned numbers is wanting us to take in and keep as a reminder, what is that reminder exactly!? Well today brings the message to keep going and to know that whatever struggles and difficult times that we may find ourselves in that no matter what we can overcome them! We have to keep in our minds the saying of “This Too Shall Pass” and that “all is well and will be well” even when it may seem like it won’t in the moments!

We have the ability to turn any situation into a positive one in someway or form, honestly I feel like with yesterday being the way it was…..it kind of felt like a test with the chaos happening, like it was a challenge to see basically saying “how do you chose to react!?” So it really comes down to knowing when to choose a battle, most of the time, the universe will play out certain scenes/scenarios for you so you can really be aware and understand which approach to take!

That also just goes with when choosing where you want to go, no matter what you do and how you choose to live your life, you will always have to know when to react to things and when not to react, as well as how to react….we always have a choice and it’s important that we pick our next action to those choices wisely so that way we know we’re doing our best to making sure that things go smoothly and that we’re really taking everything in properly!

We’re coming to the last hour of Feb 22, 2022 so whatever you feel it’s meaning to mean to you, keep it in mind and if life is feeling a bit upside down at the moment, know that it doesn’t always mean it’s a bad thing, so just keep pushing, keep doing your best and live your life how you feel you want to live it…..it’s okay to be afraid, change isn’t always an easy thing to embrace, but it is necessary in growth and when you allow yourself to grow, that’s when you start seeing things really kick off…..in a good way and sometimes you have to go through those tough periods in order to see what is really going on and is being brought to you (as hard as it is to see) so even when the nerves start up, keep going and do what you like and what you feel you want to do!

I would definitely say to look up this number you’d be surprise to what you may find, that’s all I have here, I hope that you had a good/decent/okay day and happy synchronistic Tuesday!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

How To Title A Post That’s Filled With Emotions…

I have a lot of feelings at the moment that I’m trying to hold in, I wish we didn’t always have to feel as though we need to be strong, It would be nice to just let emotions out without worrying everyone close to you or where you’re being questioned about it! Unfortunately though, that’s not possible…..if I was the kind of person to not be bothered with expressing my emotions, you’d always know what I was feeling, but I’m not that person, I only share my true feelings with those that I’m really close to and even then am I wary of that…..I don’t do well with my emotions, it’s hard for me to really say what I mean without my eyes being overflown with water trying to escape, for someone that’s an Earth sign, I sure got a lot of water in me!

I’m an emotional person and I guess that comes with being an Earth sign and feeling everything deeply, a lot of the time it’s more frustrating then anything, when you’re an emotional person like I am, you feel you always need to hide yourself, because being around others when you know that you may start having a breakdown or just randomly start bursting into tears is anxiety inducing then being someone whose always angry…..I always feel I need to go somewhere that will allow me to just be at my most vulnerable, somewhere that’s quiet and won’t judge me for feeling the way I do and allow me to just let that side of me out!

I guess that’s why I love nature so much because I can be me regardless to what feelings I’m feeling! You don’t ever have to worry about hurting someone or lie to people about being fine when you’re actually not! It’d be good to actually be able to not care, but when you’re someone who cares deeply about everything, you’ll realize that not caring isn’t apart of your nature nor vocabulary…..I can say I don’t care, but inside that’s not how I actually feel, I care even when I try not! It’s the people that care too much that always feels the most and that find themselves getting caught in shit that they weren’t even supposed to be around for…..

You can have the most tough exterior known to man, but if you have just a hint of that nature side to you, just a hint of empathy…..no amount of armor can keep you from hiding away from your emotional side…you can keep it calm yeah, but there’s only so much you can do before you find yourself getting overwhelmed and watching as the tide slowly start coming over you and once that happens…..there’s nothing you can do to stop it because whether you want it to or not, it will hit you and force you to observe that emotion and if you don’t observe it then it’ll keep hitting you until you end up accepting it and allow it to happen or just watch yourself drown from those emotions constantly!

It’s a lose/win/lose battle here, lose because everyone can almost always see it and you can’t really hide, win because you’re letting those feelings out and allowing them to be seen for what they are, which is always important, but it’s a losing battle because it’s something that is unavoidable, something that no matter how hard you try to put in the back of your mind, it will always find a way to make you see it, be it by just nudging you or giving you a whole wave of it just so you can’t ignore what’s really rising under the surface!

I want to be the one to say I’m okay, but I wrote this post for a reason even though it took a lot in me to keep my emotions at bay, but in reality the truth of the matter is I’m sad, but I don’t want anyone to know, yet here I am writing about it and talking about emotions! I’m full of nerves, because I’m feeling emotional and I’m frustrated because I know that although I’m fine at the moment, my emotional side will show it’s face again and because I know myself on that aspect it’s going to be hard to calm it down when it does get too overwhelming for me…..

Just to clarify, this is my way of acknowledging my emotions and being aware to the way I’ve been feeling today, I haven’t cried yet, which is good for me, I’ve come close to it quiet a few times while I was writing all of this, but I’m trying to keep the calm as best as I can, it’s been really hard though and although I’ve just written about being emotional and everything, I’m not going to talk about why, because that’s personal and I’ve not written this for it to make anyone feel a certain way, I just honestly needed to write this out because it was the only way I could get my words/thoughts out without it sounding weird!

I may be able to express on my feelings a lot better vocally, but I always feel when I write it down, it helps me to understand my own thoughts better and keeps me from worrying about whether I’ve said everything all right (Not saying I don’t still worry, it’s a habit that is hard to shake sometimes) but the fact that I was able to write this out, it helps me to feel a little better…..sorta

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

How To Organize The Day…Not Quite The Title You Think It is!

It seems like a fairly easy thing to do yeah!? Yet somehow you find it’s not actually quite that simple, see the way I see organization is to list everything that I have in mind to do and then pick the one that I want to do most throughout the list, not the most efficient way to do things and really get the most out of the day, but honestly that’s the truth to how I tend to organize myself.

I’m usually someone who wings a lot of things, I’ve said this before and I’ll most likely keep saying it until I’m blue in the face or until I eventually sort it out, but planning is just a very hard thing for me and it’s not that I don’t want to plan anything, but the concept in my mind as simple as it may be….I just find it quite challenging! Whether I’m trying to work out the day or really think of a solution to something that is very important and needs sorting…..I don’t plan the way most people plan and if I’m being completely honest here, I’m not the greatest decision maker, I always do my best to make decisions, but I know that it’s one of my things that’s still being worked on!

I have gotten better, I mean if you met me before, not that many of you have met me now and I mean actually met me, but I was a lot worst at making decisions then compared to now and speaking of that, really looking at it now…..I have gotten better with it through time, at least I feel I have anyway, is it something I’ve mastered…..no, not at all….am I better at it completely? For the most part yes, but it’s still a work in progress and that’s something I can say I’m not afraid to admit! I normally would use this kind of post as a positive way of explanation and by that I mean doing my best to help you “Organize the day” with by giving some pointers if you want to call it that if it’s something you too are having trouble with, but I thought instead of doing that,

I’d tell you how shit I am at planning things, I mean I don’t even know what to do whenever my birthday rolls around sooo there’s that! However, I’m not going to call it a weakness of mine at least me now won’t, we all have things that are a little more challenging to us then what it’s like to others, but it doesn’t mean that we can’t still improve on the things we’re finding ourselves getting a bit lost in, because the way I see it is….

There’s different types of planning, you may not be the best at planning parties or any kind of social gatherings, but there may be something within you that you’re either not aware of or that you feel doesn’t count and you’re just doing whatever it is you’re doing, but you’ll find that other people have taken notice of how well you do a certain thing and how well you’re able to lay it out without realizing, for you it’s a natural thing….however for others, it’s something they would’ve never thought of! We all have our own way of figuring out what goes where and how to set it out properly, it may take a while for some, while others might get it like “snap” that!

Some of us may need to explore and see what we’re working with in order for us to gain some kind of solution and really understand, so that we have the knowledge or at least a little bit of it, to move forward in confidence with whatever the next part is! It’s like video games….hear me out…..when we’re playing a video game for the first time without knowing anything about it….what is that we do?…..we explore our surroundings and see if we can get information in some way about the objective at foot.

Now most of us will look into every nook and cranny (ha) continuing sorry not sorry…..until we’ve found something new, there are games that have specific goals that need checking off, while others will let you explore without any prior knowledge about what’s actually meant to be going on, yes you have your story with it, but it’s up to you to unfold what’s ahead of the game all while trying to understand what message it’s trying to convey!

Now how you choose your gameplay to be when exploring and discovering, will help to give you the idea and answers you’re looking for! It’s pretty much stuff like that….I don’t mean with real life situations, although you do have those random occasions where you can use video games and life in the same sentence, but I’m just speaking on the planning and decision making aspect of it, it’s not always that way, but it can help to possibly understand better and use what you get from it in someway or form!

Update:

I know that it’s been quite some time, but I recently recorded a new episode on my podcast, it’s the first episode back since my last episode as well as the first episode of 2022….now it’s not what I originally wanted to return with, but I felt it would’ve been a bit odd to record a new episode on something I enjoyed knowing I hadn’t recorded in 2 months…..plus I wasn’t really feeling quite energetic today, so I ended up turning this post into an episode….sorta, it’s a bit different to what I’ve written, honestly I should’ve just read what I wrote because my nerves started getting to me while recording so if it sounds odd you know why, hopefully it’s okay, but here’s the episode: https://anchor.fm/lexa-marie3/episodes/Getting-Organized—-Where-To-Start–Blog-Post-Ep–47-e1e3at5

Getting Organized….Where To Start? (Blog Post) Ep. 47 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy Late New Year….it's been a good while since the last episode, you would think that I'd know what I'm doing and yet here I am with heighten nerves trying to share some thoughts with this episode! A bit of a rough start back, I'll admit, but I shall do my best anyway, so without further ado, let's have a bit of a chat!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

It’s FE BREW ARY…

So we have officially entered the month of February, the shortest month of the year with only 28 days on the calendar, unless leap year is added of course then we get that extra day where it’s 29 days instead! I always find February to be quite interesting for the simple fact that there are only 28 days to it, while the rest of the months have 30 or 31 days to it….it’s quite fascinating really! That being said I do have to be honest about my feelings for February and those feelings are…..it’s not really my favorite month of the year….I don’t mind it, but I also don’t quite feel much for it….sorry February, nothing against you I promise!

Now that I’ve let my true feelings out with this month, let’s share some good things about the month…..although it’s not my favorite…..I still appreciate it for what it is, I mean without February we wouldn’t have Black History Month to help celebrate all those that really helped change the world to what we know now, it’s important to celebrate each culture and race to help gain knowledge of what’s different and try and embrace that as best as we can, all while never forgetting those who made an impact be it in a huge way or ways that we haven’t even heard of, we don’t always have to do something big to make an impact…..always remember that even the smallest effect can make a big difference in some way!

It’s good that we get this month to celebrate those of color, being mixed myself, it’s good to know that we too are celebrated in some way!

On to some other things about February though….many of you may or may not be aware, but this is the first time since we started 2022 that we will be getting not one, but TWO synchronistic days this month…..those days being tomorrow’s date of 2/2/22 (February 2, 2022) and a little bit toward the end of the month with 2/22/22 (February 22, 2022) now if you’re reading this and don’t really feel anything with it, that’s fine, I know Numerology isn’t for everyone, to be fair….I’m not a big number fan myself (I mean math is my least favorite subject after all which I’ve stated a few times) but if we’re on about synchronicity then that’s a bit of different story….it’s a bit hard to explain really, I guess I just find it cool that we’re in a month where the Two’s are really standing out this year!

It’s like with 11:11, quite the number I know, however if you were to ask someone what is it about the number 11:11 they might not be able to give an answer, other then having the urge to make a wish every time they see it! Now I’m not saying that this goes for everyone, I know there are quite a collective of people that do understand these aligned numbers as well as numerology as a whole, but if this kind of thing isn’t of interest to you and you just see them as regular old numbers then there’s no need to worry about it, but if you do feel something when seeing these kind of numbers or you have seen numbers like 11:11, 222 or 333 ect a little often then you like to admit…..you might want to check them out and see if there’s any messages with them!

Sometimes it’s just good to look something up just for the fun of it and nothing else, it doesn’t have to be about anything, but curiosity if you find it in your mind a lot! Numbers do have meanings to them, but it all comes down to whether it’s of interest to you as a person and what you believe in, if these numbers mean nothing to you…..that’s quite alright! I know people see things differently and as humans (good humans) we have to respect that, this is just something that I find intriguing and wanted to share, call me a weirdo if you like….I call myself that most times, but it’s something I embrace so I don’t really mind lol!

I just wanted to wish everyone a good February…..I probably could’ve just said it and left everything else out, but….I clearly I had other things to say and one of the reasons I wrote this post was because of the whole number thing being quite interesting to me where I just felt the need to share all about it, what can I say it’s cool to see numbers line up sometimes, anyway hope you all are having or have had a good start to the new month, take care of yourself, stay safe, be kind and I’ll see you in the next upcoming post!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

M O N D A Y S!

Mondays are the days that begin again, it brings connection which allows the rest of the days to follow soon after! We often see Mondays in a Garfield the cat sort of way, it’s not everyone’s favorite day, but the way I like to see it, with Mondays you get more of a clean slate with it. Monday’s aren’t really a favorite of mine either, but I have grown to appreciate it a little more, it’s not a bad day specifically it all just comes down to what actually transpires within the day that can leave it feeling like the best day ever or the most crappiest day ever, but it also comes to how well you handle and get through the day in the start of the week!

Mondays can always feel like a chore to get through, but the reason for that isn’t the day itself, but the energy we put out with it, we look at Monday’s and think “Ugh” not realizing that those thoughts have the ability to lead out the rest of our days for that week. It’s true…..the energy that you put out will always be the energy that is given back to you, it’s a reflection and if you keep the reflection the same, you leave no room for it to be different….unless you switch up the energy!

You can still feel those emotions, you just got to be mindful of them…..which can be a bit hard, to be quite honest, I struggle with this sort of problem, now I don’t mean in a sense of not liking Mondays, like I said I’ve grown to respect Mondays, I see it in a different way and feel it to have a specific theme! To explain it, would be hard, so it may not make much sense! The way I look at it, is…..we all feel the days differently in a more deeper way that can be hard to pin point, yet it still feels to be of some kind of importance, now what kind of importance it is, comes down to what it feels like to you!

I’ll try and give an example the best way I’m able to, so it can kind of make sense…to me, Mondays have this sort of putting pen to paper kind of thing to it, so brainstorming in a way, preparing for whatever it is that needs preparing and working towards how you want the rest of the week to play out, not in a busy way, but in a more efficient way that’s not going to leave you feeling like there’s still loads to do at the end of it! I also feel music to be involved in some way, but that’s because I love music, but for some reason for me I think of Mondays and music comes to mind first, but it also has that feeling of coming across something new, new music, new video games, potential ideas of some sort those kind of things, just full of new discoveries!

Mondays have a practice vibe to it, it’s not about getting everything done all at once, but just trying to figure out efficient ways of doing things, learning to include the practice of managing things better and seeing how well you’re able to prepare yourself in a more still kind of way if that makes better sense….if it doesn’t that’s okay, but that how I always feel Mondays to be like at least to me when thinking about it!

Now I may have wrote all of this, but it doesn’t mean I’ve mastered any of it….it’s actually one of the things I struggle with, knowing how to prepare things out properly, now planning may not be a strong suit of mine, I’m more with the go with the flow kind of girl, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying to figure it out, eventually it will click and I’ll know that I will better understand it in a way that it becomes second nature in way, it just comes with practice same with everything else!

Back to the whole energy of Monday’s though, hopefully I didn’t get too off track there and that this all still makes sense, my deliveries aren’t always the greatest I know, but to wrap everything up in a somewhat slightly nice slanted bow…..Monday’s don’t have to always seem so draggy and chore daunting, it can be fun and full of excitement, you just have to give it the energy you want out of it and shield off any negative projectiles coming at you the best way you can….really it just comes down to making the best out of a situation and being mindful of what thoughts and emotions you’re giving off for the day!

If you start the week off in a panic….the rest of day is going to be filled with chaos most likely (not always) but it will feel like it! If you wake up thinking to yourself “I just want it to be Friday already” knowing the week just started then don’t be surprise when you feel it to be Wednesday, but it’s actually Tuesday! We have to try and give each day the best energy we can, we don’t have to be feeling 100%, however if the day is feeling super crappy, find something that will help change up that crappy energy or if you find it’s going slow….and you’ve done everything you needed to do that day….don’t be afraid to use that extra time on yourself if it’s needed!

Maybe there’s something you meant to do, but never got around for, you can always use that extra time for that thing you’ve been wanting to do….if you have that extra time, try and see in what ways you can use it! Maybe you don’t have that extra time and the day has flown away from you, if that’s the case try not to get too upset on not getting all that you wanted done that day, like I said not everything needs to be done all at once…..allow yourself to leave room for what hasn’t been done then for another time, because 9/10 it’s meant for another time, allow yourself to finish up what it is your doing in the moment and leave what you weren’t able to do for later.

Mondays are at the beginning of the week for a reason…..we need Monday in order for the other days to flow properly without, it would always feel like something is missing…..Mondays are what a blank canvas is before the creativity start flowing, it’s about preparation in getting things ready before you’re really ready to go, that’s what Monday’s mean to me, maybe it means something different to you! Feel free to share what you feel when you think of Mondays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

It’s Definitely Winter!

OH MY GOODNESS is it freezing out and we still got a few more days as this WHOLE week is meant to be super cold! You know I really don’t know how people who live in places that are always majority of the time cold do it, although I prefer to be cold then hot….I wouldn’t live in a place that’s always freezing, just like I wouldn’t live in a place that’s always hot! I need to be in a place that has both the balance of cold and hot, but not to the extreme, just a nice warm place that has the mix of both Spring time weather and Fall time weather!

Those are probably the only two seasons that I could live in with no problem….I guess if I were to say what the best thing about Winter is, it would have to be that fact that you get to warm up with it, you know have a nice warm beverage, pull the covers over you that kind of thing…..but if I were to go based off seasonal things I enjoy about Winter…..I’d say getting to see the snow, I mean I’m sure we all like watching it fall down the first few times we see it, it’s the aftermath of it being a pain to shovel that most people don’t like, but you can always have a snowball fight it which is fun!

I also like the fact that you’re able to just chill and relax with the Winter season you don’t have to do a lot, I guess just the thought of having to go somewhere in the cold is what isn’t the most favorite thing about it, but I always enjoy getting to wear winter clothes to keep warm, I like being warm so anything that allows me to do that I’ll always count as a bonus, I know that there’s some good things to Winter as well, it’s just whenever the temperature decides to drop and you’re feeling that very cold air, yeah that’s when you wish for the warm weather to start coming around, but I will admit that it’s got it’s perks too so can’t really complain, I’ll just always have mixed feelings with the Winter season, but I will continue to do my best to appreciate the good parts of it just as much!

I know this ones a bit a short one, but hopefully it was still good in it’s own way! Take care, stay safe and keep warm cause it’s only going to get colder outside so be sure to bundle up real nice!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

2022….Feels Weird

Happy New Year to you all! I hope that you were able to enjoy your weekend slash holiday season, it was a bit weird how both Christmas and New Years fell on the same weekend like day, both were on a Friday and Saturday, apparently it’s not the first time it’s happen….I’m just noticing it now, I guess that tells you how much I pay attention when it comes to the calendar!

I still can’t believe that we’re already in 2022….I wrote the date down for the first time today and it just felt weird to kind of see, it’s like even when you know it, seeing it can be a bit hard to process for a while, at least within the first couple of days whenever we arrive in the new start of a year, although 2021 was just 3 days ago, but it’s still leaves you a bit surprised!

Hopefully most of you out there have had a good start to the year already, there may be a few of you that are still trying to find your footing into this new year and if that is the case, just know that you don’t have to be hard on yourself if 2022 has left you feeling as though you have to have most things in play already, it’s okay if you’re still trying to sort out how you want this year to mean for you, not everyone is the same, we all process things differently and some of us need some time to work out how we’re going to stack those Legos and decide what it is we want to paint, whatever pace you’re at right now just keep going!

If you find that things are moving for you nice and smoothly great, but if you feel you’re having to tinker with a couple of things here and there and think a little bit that’s fine too, there’s nothing wrong with knowing that you may sigh as you’re working on certain projects and what not, realizing it’s going to take a bit longer! Sometimes you have to tinker and look into what might be the problem of the situation in what you’re focusing on to be able to understand it better, you may even find that there’s absolutely nothing wrong with it and that maybe it’s just a small issue at hand that can easily be fixed!

And if not, well that’s why you try something new and see if that works out better, there’s ways to get anything to work, sometimes all that’s needed is a bit of tweaking for something to come together, it could be in a way that you had envision or in a way that you may not have saw it at first, but found it to be better than what you originally had in mind, now those moments are my favorite sometimes, although I like when things come out how I had felt it to look like, but there are days where it doesn’t happen like that and I’ll change it as a temporary fix only to like it better the temporary way because it looked best over the original!

I find when that happens, you come across unexpected inspiration that you weren’t even looking for, but it just so happened to come across to you accidently, although I like to think that nothing is accidental when it involves being inspired it’s just the fact of certain inspirations coming to you in unexpected ways, if you stumble across it, it was probably because you were meant to stumble across it, be it accidental, on purpose or just randomly! There’s no coincidences in anything, at least it’s what I like to believe!

What was the actual point to this post!? I’m not sure, I just know it’s been a good while since I’ve written anything and I guess I’m feeling 2022 will be more of inspiration in some way and that could mean a lot of different things for some of you out there, whatever it means to you is how it will show itself and I guess whatever it means to me….will show itself the way it feels best, in the mean time I’ll be tinkering with different ideas!

That all being said, I do hope 2022 is treating you guys well, we’re already on the 3rd day of January….weird to say, I know….but I hope you’re doing well and that you’re taking care of yourself, please stay safe out there, I know there’s a lot of people that have been catching this virus left and right these past few days, so please protect yourself and keep others safe, keep your hands clean, wear your masks, all the safety things that is needed, just be careful if you’re out…..Happy New Year and welcome 2022

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

It’s Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas…However It Sure Doesn’t Feel Like It!

So it seems we’re getting closer to Christmas time along with the new year, we got 4 more days before everyone’s saying Merry Christmas and one more week left before we’re saying farewell to 2021 and how’s it going 2022! I can’t even begin to tell you where this year has gone especially when it comes to the month of December….this month approached us so quickly and just as we were getting comfortable with it, thinking it was going to stay a while like the rest of the other months, it surprised us all with how close it is to finishing, LITERALLY December is over next week and I don’t know how to feel about that exactly!?

You know I was thinking out loud to myself earlier this morning, I had a few thoughts and the best way for me to get my thoughts out is speaking out loud to myself, it helps me to not keep certain emotions in…..I probably could’ve written it down as well, but it wasn’t in my mind to that in the moment so I was just letting it out to the air! I know that probably sounds weird, but I feel it to really help, sometimes I don’t always want to talk about things to people so I say it to myself that way it’s out of my head.

I won’t talk about everything I thought about, but I will talk about a specific thing…which actually came out of nowhere to be fair…..I had a thought where I thought about dealing with things, now this may come out as deep, although it’s not what I’m intending for it to be, but if it does then it does…..anyway when it comes to dealing with things and this could be in a general state…..as humans….we don’t necessarily have to deal with anything really, yes there are things that we have to accept in our lives, but the real question or statement to it shall I say isn’t about dealing with things, but more adapting to it, where it’s a choice!

What I mean by that is, when we’re surrounded with different scenarios, situations, people even, we have the choice of whether we want to allow those things into our lives, as well as choosing whether we want to adapt to those things…..life is always going as we know, we also know that there’s always something new to experience with it and a lot of the time we aren’t aware to what those things are and so we tend to be left with surprises from it!

That being said….just because there’s a lot going on with life it doesn’t mean that we have to always adapt to everything, although we should try our best to accept things as they are, even when it’s something we may not want to accept in the moment, it’s important to know that there’s a difference to accepting something and having the choice to adapt to that same thing…..it’s like flowers…..I know weird example I’m about to give, but it’s the first thing that came to mind so it’s what I’m going to use, flowers are very interesting!

If you’re lucky you may just see one sprout through concrete…..but with most flowers they all have a season, most of them tend to grow during the Springtime, but there are others that grow in the Summer and Fall and there are very rare and unique ones that might just grow during the Winter time, now you might be asking yourself where am I going with this…..to bring it back the best way I know how…..with most flowers they know their season and although there are flowers that will adapt and grow in the other seasons, most of them are Spring time flowers and won’t grow in any other season, but it’s because it’s how their made, they accept it!

What I’m trying to say here is, we’re not always meant to adapt to certain things, we can choose to adapt and put ourselves into something and be around people that are a little different to us, but that we know can help us in some way, however we don’t have to feel like we have to force ourselves to adapt to things that we know within ourselves isn’t who we are! When we find ourselves in those situations, it’s important to hear what our inner voices are saying, so if you’re in a place and you start to feel like you’re not meant to be there….really listen to that feeling!

If you find yourself surrounded by people and you’re feeling more out of place then you are enjoying yourself then really look at that, sometimes you can have moments where it’s more out of shyness then you feeling you’re just there and that’s it, it really depends on the situation there, but if you genuinely feel like you’re always invading people personal space even when they tell you you’re not or you just feel like it’s not your kind of scene then that’s when you want to look into it deeper!

Now I’m not saying don’t go out of your comfort because it’s important to do that every now and again, because it allows you to gain new experiences and see things in a whole new way to what you were use to, as well as getting to meet new people, some of them will have shared interests and will be similar to you and some will be the complete opposite to you, but sometimes that’s the best thing because you don’t want everyone to be like you it’s good to have that one person that’s more realistic and will tell you “hey you might want to re look at this” or tell you if you’re going a little off track, but not in a way of saying their way is right and your way is wrong, but just by letting you know they care and always want to make sure you’re good!

Those are the people you want in your life, you want someone to be your Ying to their Yang, you can’t have one without the other….but to get back on track…..It’s important to know yourself and what feels right to you and what doesn’t…..in terms of people, as much as we may want all that come into our lives to stay…..not all of them are going to….so as we wrap up the year within the next few days…..whoever chooses to adapt and stay in our lives will and those who feel it’s time for them to move on in whatever way or form…..

Well you should always choose to thank them for being with you for the time that they were and accept the situation however it may come, when it comes to all the other things look at what they are and decide if whether you want to adapt to them or not and whatever you choose, always try your best to accept even if it feels hard at first, always accept it!

Take care, stay safe and happy holidays!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I Don’t Know If You Know This, But Christmas Is Literally Next Week!!?

Happy Holidays!!

It was yesterday that I came to the realization that we’re only 1 week away from Christmas…..1 WEEK!! I don’t know why December feels like it both just started and has more days to it then normal!? At least this year, am I the only one that feels that way? Possibly…..maybe…..I guess part of me isn’t ready to start 2022 yet, although I also am because I’m hoping for this upcoming year that is 2022 to have some kind of big change that ends up good and more than I could ever hope for!

Not saying I can’t make something big happen myself although when it comes to trying to make big things happen it can be kind of intimidating because who knows if it’ll be really big or something that feels big, but is actually just small, you know what I mean!? Not that there’s anything wrong with having something feel big, but is actually small in comparison to what you may have had in mind…..what I’m trying to say is I just would like 2022 to be the year that everything falls in to place, however way it may land or choose to land!

To be able to make up our minds about certain things that we may have wanted to do for a very good while now, but somewhere deep down we’re still afraid to do anything about it, finally choosing a direction to go in and sticking with it because it something we truly believe in and truly see it to be the better thing for us in the end or because we know we’re really interested and happy doing those things we love!

Not wanting to regret a single thing that comes next and just allowing ourselves to just go for those things, not wanting to be afraid and feeling like we soon won’t have a choice because we already made the choice, even if it feels wrong at first, but really just turns out to be something we were actually looking for and wishing to happen or maybe even weren’t looking for…..

Don’t you just want to be able to get up in the morning and always know you have something to look forward to, wake up knowing you’re where you’re truly meant to be!? Where you have always wanted to be despite the fears and doubts that constantly float around in your head? Don’t you want to be happy? Maybe you’ve really been wishing to be near that special someone for quite sometime and at the moment you haven’t really been able to see that person, but you know you’re wanting so bad to have them close by without always having that thought of I wish they were…..

maybe there’s something you’ve had your heart set out to finally pick up a new hobby or creative spark, but have been feeling a little low on energy or not feeling it to be the best time, due to being overly busy or just because you really haven’t had time to get around to it! If there’s anything I would like to come from 2022 that I can honestly say would make it if not the best year, but where I would consider it the best year overall, is to uncover a new found creative spark where I can have endless amount of creativity where I’m left happy everyday and to finally reunite and have my guy by me always….

Those two thing…..would make 2022 an automatic favorite, everything else that follows and comes with the year will be bonuses, but if I had to really say what I would like to come from this upcoming year it would be unlimited amount of creativity and reuniting with my love….if I were to add some other things in there…..I would say…..more adventures, letting go any fears and uncertainties, new transformations…..I guess I would just be open to anything that I have yet to discover! 2021 has been rough…..there’s been some new things, but there’s also been a few postpones, which I know happens sometimes it’s for the best and maybe you find you need a bit more time to sort things out properly!

I think we’re all in need for 2022 to be that sense of fresh air that we haven’t had in a while, be that start of something new and different to what we already know, a new kind of adventure that we know is calling to us, but are having trouble answering and letting in because we don’t know what will come of it…..that’s how I’ve been feeling these days I guess….and it’s the first time in a very long while that I’m sharing my own personal thoughts where I don’t feel like I have to figure my words out….this is just what I feel, what I have been feeling, but didn’t come around to truly knowing how to express these thoughts until now!

I guess winter really is the best time to reflect on all that we’ve kept bottled in…..2021 had it’s best and not so great moments and the realization that it’s practically over is really….something, we only have Christmas and then we’re off to a new year, so if you have any last minute reflection to do…..definitely think about them, ask yourself what it is you want to happen for this upcoming year, leave the fear to the side, the worries and try to just look for the road and if you can’t find it…..let your heart and intuition guide you to what feels right and when you do…..keep following it even if you are scared, you will always get to where you need to, you just have to be willing to take that leap and trust that where you land is going to be safe and lead you to where you’re meant to be!

Safe travels wherever you go, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa