The Second Month Of Summer……

Soooo if you haven’t already noticed we’ve now entered the month of July……that came around pretty quickly, it was a little unexpected actually, just like the month of April, I also thought there’d be a 31st to this month, buuut there wasn’t, making yesterday the last day of June…….

Kinda crazy ain’t it, I think i’m always expecting there to be a 31st to every month, now that i’m thinking about it, but I always forget not every month has a 31st to it, leaving out February, that’s the only month I know without question that there’s only 28 days to it, unless there’s a leap year happening than of course there’s that extra day to it, making it to be 29 days of that month…….still find it weird that it’s like that, but I guess it keeps it different.

Not a lot to say with this month…..I mean to be fair it literally just started so it’s not really to be expected to have a lot to say, unless some of you have already had something happen to you today that you’re eager to express on whether that’s big or small than that’s a different story ha……

Last month was okay I guess…..at least until the end of it, yeah this past weekend wasn’t really all that great, some unexpected things happened, that I wasn’t really prepared for, so the ending of June ended up being a little bit of a bittersweet moment……but we’re now in July and having to leave June where it’s at……I just thought of something,

I know I said that this month showed up pretty quickly, but it actually didn’t……if anything it took it’s sweet time arriving and is more unexpected than feeling like it came rushing on through, I actually feel like the summer’s been a lot longer than usual……maybe that’s just me though!?

Either way, even though June had its ups and downs so to speak, July….well I don’t really know how it’s going to go or what to expect from it, I know in someway though it’s going to be different now and there’s a lot that might happen, most of it is most likely going to be unexpected and it’s either going to be a lot or in the middle, whatever way it goes, I feel i’m going to need to keep my feet planted in the ground a little more firmly all while doing my best to keep it all together somehow…….but it should be alright though

It might be tough and it’ll probably get overwhelming, but as long as I remember to breathe to keep calm……it should be fine…….

How’s July starting out for you guys!?

P.S. Here’s a new doodle I just recently gave color to, I created it in early June, but didn’t color it in until about the middle close towards the end, i’d say middle like probably a week after or so creating it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Daytime Firefly

So I see you came by for a visit, I knew that was you the other day and to see you again this morning, I knew you showing up by my window wasn’t just me being crazy haha…..where you came from i’ll never know, all I know is that you showed up during the daytime, when fireflies usually come out towards the night……maybe that was your way of letting me know that yes that was you the other day and you were just saying hi this morning!!

I thought I heard you yesterday a few times, at first I thought it could’ve just been me hearing things, but than again I don’t think it was, I know how you sound and whether it was just me or my thoughts about you being around was right and you were following me making sure I was okay and that, you always did follow me around and sometimes it drove me nuts, you didn’t know how to stay still, but I could never blame you for it, it was just you!!

I mean it was in your nature…….although it’s only been a few days, I miss you everyday my crazy girl……the way you’d spin around every time you thought we were going outside, how you’d get so excited about EVERYTHING!! So hyper you were, the word calm never appealed to you, you just did your own thing, we couldn’t tell you anything……..

It’s really hard not seeing you, right now you’d be sitting by my door or near it in someway or sitting by the front door, you always liked doing that for some reason, i’ll never understand that……and even though it’d do my head in, i’m going to miss how you’d let me know someone was at the door even when I was already heading towards it lol, again you were crazy,

but I loved you for it anyway……I know i’m going to have to keep strong and get through this somehow……and I know I will get through it, but that doesn’t mean i’m not going to wish you were here…..now even though your not with me, with me……I do know you’re around in your own way, i’m sure you haven’t quite left my side, again you were always near me,

but it’s just different and i’m having to find ways of dealing with it right now I don’t know if you’ll understand that…….it’s weird because I didn’t think it’d be this tough, yet it is…….and maybe that’s because we’ve had you for so long……but I know that eventually it won’t be so hard, yeah i’ll still miss you, but it’ll become a little easier……I just need to give it a bit…….

but i’m gonna try and be strong and keep looking up and around for you, you’ll probably show up unexpectedly, but I know you’ll make sure I know you’re with me someway, like today….you don’t know that fireflies don’t show up during the day much, but again you always did do what you wanted and you showed up anyway, just like the little rascal you are!!

Thank you for that, I know you felt me missing you and you made sure to let me know you were okay and it made me happy knowing that, I even saw you Ang flying around to give me reassurance that all is well and fine, thank you as well for that……I miss and love you so much my now little firefly……You behave yourself and please listen to Angel don’t cause him too much trouble alright…..knowing you though you still might, because of how sassy you are, but I just wanted to let you know I saw you and heard you and that i’m always going to look for your face!! I love you peanut!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

The Different Feelings To Music…….

You ever hear a song and just feel that it fits perfectly with what you expect it to feel like!? It might sound a little confusing to what i’m getting at so i’ll try and explain it in the best way possible……I don’t know if it’s just me, but anytime I hear a certain song and say it’s titled “Sounds of the Evening” just to give an example to what i’m talking about, now when you look at that title, tell me, what to you would an evening sound like if it was somehow turned into music!? Would it be something peaceful and quiet like, maybe there’s a little bit going on, but not too much going on if that makes sense!?

What kind of scenery would you add and if you had to pick an instrument or some kind of sound say being processed to showcase what an evening sounds like to you if it was turned into music what would you pick!? Sometimes when we listen to music it can have this specific way of sounding to where it almost always fits a theme of some sort…..so say you’re having a nice chilled morning, there’s certain songs that can fit well with the kind of morning you’re having, if you’re going for a bit of a walk even,

You’ll find that there’s something to listen to, that’ll go along well with that movement, it’s actually odd cause for me I find that music helps me to take everything in a little better than say if I was walking without music, I actually find that weird…..I can sit without sound, but when it comes to going on a walk, I need to have music playing otherwise it’s going to feel odd and maybe some of you also feel that and maybe some are fine either way, I know everyone’s different…….but I love when i’m listening to something and can feel what the song is and I mean not just lyrics,

but the music itself, it’s even more amazing when there’s no lyrics to it and it’s just the sound to the music, because you then are able to form an imagery to the sound where it just takes you to a place with all these different things……but sometimes, it’s like that when you’re just hearing a song that has words added to it, they say when you close your eyes,

You tend to feel things a lot more deeper than if you were just hearing it or seeing it even and with music you find that it just takes you on this journey when you listen with feeling and that can just make everything so much more beautiful, it’s like how a painting would feel to a painter or just any other admiration that you may have a connection towards, but to be able to listen to a song and truly appreciate these little aspects that it both brings and has to it, is probably one of my favorite things about music!!

That’s What It Was!!….

We’ve all said this word before when remembering something that needed to be remembered……sometimes though, those words come a little late at times, why!? It’s just how our brains work sometimes, now the reason i’m writing about this is because I was trying to remember the name of an actor that played in one of my favorite shows the other day (real life name) I remembered the last name, but for some reason could not pin point what his first name was and I knew that I knew it because I follow this actor

On one of my social medias, but for some reason it just wasn’t coming to me at all, I figured i’d remember it eventually, but still, it was pretty frustrating knowing I knew what it was, but could not get it when thinking about it, i’m sure you all know those moment pretty well, it’s like it’s on the tip of your tongue, but your brain is like “mmmm I feel I should know this, but nope nothing…..” and your mouth wants to say it, but your brain just goes blank for some odd reason, those moments are always something, aren’t they!?

Sometimes you’ll spend the whole day trying to get it, but than you just end up getting more and more stressed out because you can’t figure it out and than later give in and hope that eventually it’ll come to you and most times it does and sometimes you just forget, maybe those moments are rare, but it happens, long story short though, it did come to me the actors full name…..

It was Sam Palladio…..such a simple first name, it took singing a song from one of my favorite shows called Nashville to myself for it to finally click and it only took like…..2 days or so i’d say for me to remember it…..

I think that’s a new record, it would normally take a few hours, but then again I might’ve had that happened before…….if I remember correctly though I think that thought came up because I realized, well remembered that both actors that played on the show Nashville weren’t even southern one’s Australian that’d be Clare Bowen and the other is British which is Sam Palladio…..yet they played their characters so well……like seriously!!

I bought it and then I find out it wasn’t actually their natural accents, that was a bewildered or more surprised moment, the first time I learned that!! However it was also pretty cool to learn, being able to change your accent and make it sound like it’s natural, I think in a way we all are able to do that with certain accents, does it always work!?…..probably not, but it’s still fun,

It’s cool how easily actors are able to do that, i’m sure sometimes it takes a bit of practice for them or maybe they’re just naturally good at it who knows, either way it’s pretty fascinating!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

What Day Of The Week Was It Written!?

Okay so a lot of you might be confused to what this is about looking at the title here, there’s also a chance you might just be curious about the title, I don’t know, but what I will tell you is that, this was literally something that just came to mind a moment ago…..now we all listen to music, some of us may have the same taste on the kind we listen to, some a little more different or maybe in between somewhere, nonetheless though we all enjoy it in some way or form……okay so it’s going to probably get a little weird, but also possibly interesting……maybe……I don’t know, maybe it’s just me

Like I said this is something that just randomly came to mind, i’m going to ask a question and you tell if you want, if you sometimes wonder this….have you ever listened to a song and thought “I wonder what day of the week this song was written on!?” Now I don’t think about this all the time, today is literally the first time that thought came to mind!! I mean it’s quite interesting if you think about it, we all know when an album of an artist released (do let me know if that made sense, because to me it doesn’t feel like it does, but I hope you at least know what I mean there)

In case it got a little confusing, we know when an artist released their album, because it’s first announced when they’ll be releasing it, but also there’s an anniversary for that album so if you we don’t know, we learn later, but how come we never really think of the day a song was written!?

Is that a weird thought to have!? Is that not as important compared to when an album is said to come out!? I mean yeah okay it’s a small thing, but I believe that it can also be a significant thing too, I mean we hear a song and depending on whether we like it or not, it’s still pretty fascinating to think about and possibly discover those little details even if they aren’t as important, sometimes it’s the minor details that unveil the magic if you will that had the song come to life in the first place, don’t you think!?

Now i’m not saying we need to know every detail to it, just certain aspects, like what part of that said day was it being created, was it early in the morning as they were having breakfast or taking a walk somewhere, maybe during the afternoon hanging out in a garden…….maybe it was later in the evening or a little late at night just as they were about to go to sleep…….

I know some artists have even woken up in the middle of the night, because they had a dream and a song played from there and they did not want to forget it most likely……which is a pretty awesome thing to discover….maybe it’s not that big of deal and not many people care for that kind of thing, but seeing as i’m thinking about it…….I feel it to be important even if it is a small little detail……sometimes those are the best kind……at least to me it is……

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

May To Go With June To Arrive…..

So it’s the end of a month that month being May and tomorrow we’ll be closer to Summer and into a new month called June…..I wish I could tell you how exactly I feel knowing we’ve reached Summer territory or just about going into a new month all together, but I really don’t know,

It’s weird because toward the beginning of this year everything felt like it was going slow….mainly around March time, that was a very long month for some reason and then everything started happening and we had to go into lockdown and practice social distancing, still do to be fair……this year just really turned everything upside down and threw us in all sorts of directions.

Now I won’t go fully into it, because I don’t really like going into things that are very personal…..but yesterday was a very odd day, well actually the odd day started Friday into yesterday…..but it was just a very busy day, but not in the way you would think…..it was also pretty overwhelming at least for me, there was just so much happening some things out of enjoyment and some not expected, but expected at the same time if that makes sense!?

It’s hard to really explain without going into full details about it, it’s like have you ever looked around and seen so much going on, yet at the same time, you find that you don’t really know how to feel!? Not only that, but you then notice how what you’re feeling is completely different to everyone’s feelings……again it’s hard to explain…..point is……

Yesterday was a lot and it took way too much energy than expected out of me……it was sorta like, the energy was borrowed in a way and once I had used it all, I had to find some more energy to keep going I didn’t really get time to find a little peace and quiet and when I did it was when a lot of things weren’t really happening…..it was just a lot to take in within the moment and just a day as a whole………it wasn’t a favorable kind of day,

but it was okay I guess……I can’t really explain yesterday…..let’s just say it was filled with a lot of emotions and some unexpected things.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Slow Down….

When you find some pressure on the rise or you’re feeling a little irritated, take a moment to just slow down a little, feelings of pressure and stress can cause irrational ways of thinking and with that you won’t really be able to focus much on anything……so take a moment to firstly breathe when you feel the height of the pressure and guide yourself to slow down a bit.

I know it’s probably not the easiest thing to do once you’re already in a state of pressure, but it’ll help to re focus your thoughts to become a little more clearer, all while helping you to get back to a clam state of being…..now it may take some time before you’re fully back to feeling at ease again and that’s okay, it’s not about how quickly you can do it, but just taking the moment to become aware so that you can not only process things,

but also just be fully present towards what you’re doing…..slowing down doesn’t always necessarily have to mean doing things slow, it can mean to just….take your time and maybe take things in a little more, look around a bit and while you’re at it, breathe a little deeper than you might’ve before.

Try and appreciate the small things that you maybe missed before, find enjoyment it all that you do big or small, but most importantly have patience and trust that it’s all going to work out and be alright!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Hold Your Defenses…..and Judgements……

By keeping our defenses at bay we keep from allowing what could potentially cause some kind of harm from entering, meaning if we go and pull out our defenses too soon, we may accidentally expose ourselves to unwanted situations, just by unawarely stepping on an unnoticed land mine, lying around……we have to try and stand guard even when we may not agree on certain circumstances, if we don’t allow judgements to target our mind, than they can have no affect on our state of mind.

Meaning our defenses are safe from impulsive actions, it’s not about always giving a reaction or feeling the need to add an opinion to every little thing we seem to disagree upon, but by allowing the judgements to seep through like sap from an oak tree, we keep from enjoying the sweetness of the sap and instead put our focus on a more bitter taste, that is not really meant to be there, but is now, because we chose to keep our attention on what could’ve had less of an affect had we just thought it through a little.

Now this isn’t something we need to wrap ourselves in frustration with if we did happened to go on our first instinct and find that it may not have been the best reaction and only affected us in a negative way than what we may have initially intended, while in the process also plummeting our own energy in the not so best way…….when that happens, keep away the judgements towards yourself and instead try and regroup, by doing that we learn to settle the mind and bring it back from a stressful state instead of allowing it to fully go out of control, become aware of your thoughts within that moment, show patience towards yourself as you’re regrouping,

and just keep your focus centered and know that sometimes the battles we think of challenging, may not actually need to be challenged, standing ground doesn’t always mean going at the first attack and when you see judgement heading towards you, allow it, but try and keep the interaction at a minimum or don’t interact at all and keep your peace of mind at peace.

You don’t want to lose any energy that keeps you afloat, when you pass judgement or receive judgement, that energy then turns bitter causing drainage (again in the not best way) losing you to miss out on any enjoyment that you might’ve been looking forward to whether planned or not in the process, so when you feel your guard getting ready to jump on impulse or you feel a judgement coming along, remember to take a second look at it and choose that battle wisely before taking action (preserve the energy)

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Ways Of Productivity…..

It’s the 5th of May today and I believe I just rhymed a moment ago……I know this month just started a few days ago, but anyone else feel it moving a little quickly and slowly at the same time!? Just me okay…..how are you guys doing, have you been holding up well with everything!? Are you feeling okay, how’s the week been treating you so far!? I know things are still ongoing, but I do hope you’re all doing alright at least!!

On to productivity…..we all have different ways of being and keeping productive, some of us are more productive in the morning, some around the afternoon and then you have those little percentages of people that are more productive around the evening, towards the dead of night to be exact

We all have a specific time of day that we may feel more energized, creative or just have times that we prefer overall, whether those times work within or productivity or not. Now even when we try to be more productive with our time, we don’t always know the best way to keep productive, I don’t know about you guys, but I find that my productivity switches at times,

Some days I find that I can be more productive in the morning time and sometimes I do better around the afternoon, it’s actually a preferred time for me and where I feel my productivity works better, on rare occasions i’ll have some random energy that finds it’s way to me somehow and will feel inspired for a moment to use my productivity during the evening,

but those are rare times, I tend to have my productivity come through between the morning and the afternoon, but mostly around the afternoon. Some may say the mornings are better to be productive, but it’s all on where you feel most inspired and creative!! I won’t say i’m always super productive and I don’t always use my time wisely the way I should i’ll admit

but trying to focus on being more productive with my time is something, i’ve been doing my best with, trying to keep in mind and take notes on (both mentally and actually) speaking of I did a video (I know lame way to add that in…..believe me I always find it a little awkward at times doing that)

no, but I did do a video talking about Productivity and trying to prioritize our time a little better, what is expressed in the video i’ll just keep there so you can hear it for yourselves in case you’re curious, you can check it out here: Productivity & Prioritizing I feel there’s some stuff that I should probably expand on now that i’ve written this post…..if it’s still in my head i’ll do it, but for now i’ll just write it down as a later idea, I might not choose to have it be recorded in a video kind of way, but more in a way that i’ve kinda been going back in forth with as an idea for a bit now…..

Where would you guys say you’re more productive in the day!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Getting Back On Track…..

Trying to come up with some kind of a grand opening for these post or at least one that makes sense anyway isn’t all that easy at times, sometimes there’s gonna be days where you just have to not try so hard and just let things come out as it wants to, right now I have no idea where this post is going to go nor do I know what exactly i’m going to be typing next, i’m kinda just going off the top of my head here and you know what!?

Sometimes you gotta say to yourself that “hey that’s alright” no need to think of something so intensely all the time, just go as you’re going, will it makes sense!? Maybe, but also maybe not, the important thing is you’re trying to get back on track in someway right!? I’ll be the first to say these past two weeks haven’t been the most productive at least not in the productive kind of way that it probably should have been,

but sometimes that happens, you’re gonna have days, more than that even where you find you’ve ended up by a pond of some sort not really knowing exactly how you got there, until you’ve realized you’ve been there a bit longer than you should’ve you know!? Once you realize though,

You know that from there, you’re going to have to find your way back on track again and sometimes that can be a little hard……not really knowing where you should start or what you should get back to first, there’s times where we may even forget where exactly we left off and that’s alright.

Going off track even though it can be a little of a hassle, especially when you know that you really should be staying focused, sometimes it can a little helpful too, it may not seem like it, but stepping away from walking a good few miles can be a good way of refueling any lost energy we may have needed to recharge on, sure we may have wandered off unknowingly or maybe knowingly, in the end though, we always do find our way back from where we wandered off to, sometimes it can just take a bit…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa