I’M BAAAACK!!

Did you miss me!? I’m kidding, I was only gone for a week, nothing too big I went on a little vacation if anyone was wondering, like literal vacation, also we’ve officially made 3 YEARS on this blog on the 11th of July!! “CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES COME ON!!” I cannot believe I’ve continued this far in with this blog, even though I told myself I was to keep doing this and not allow this blog to be a thing I start and then stop, I never actually thought I’d still be writing on here and that I’d come to 3 years of it, I started this blog as a way of expression when I felt I couldn’t express myself out loud, a lot of the time it helped me to release anything I felt I was having a hard time saying, now I use it to say anything I want and talk about anything I feel I want to share!!

It really helped me to grow in different ways and helped me find that voice I was having a hard time finding for a good while, but I honestly feel like, I’ve done a good job finding that voice, even though I have some days where I may not always know what to write about, I know that when I do, this is the first place that I will go before I choose to say it out loud, that and the fact that I always find it better and easier to express my thoughts in writing before speaking it, but once I have it down on paper or blog in this case…..I then am able to share it speaking wise, without this blog, I feel like I wouldn’t know what to do with my voice, so the fact that I have something I can go to whenever I have too many thoughts that is hard to share or when I have something important to me that I want to talk on, I love that I can say it all here if I felt it to be best and that I don’t have to worry about it too much!

3 years though, is mad and I hope to continue on sharing what I feel with you guys that read and share on things that mean a lot to me, but yeah….. I will be writing and sharing on my personal vacation time and where I went and everything soon! I have a good amount of pictures to share, I’m going to have to choose which ones I share though cause there’s a lot, but I’m excited to show you all….I know I said I wanted to do something special for my 3 year blog anniversary…..I still don’t have a clue what exactly that’s going to be, sometimes I wish I would’ve had the podcast be reveal that day….but again I did it a little early, but it’s okay, because I feel like I did it when I felt I wanted to do it and I wouldn’t change it!

However I was thinking…..maybe I could have this blog go into a transition in honor of it being 3 years of me blogging, so whatever new experiences I encounter or am about to have come into my life, I can share that with you guys, have it be a journey kind of thing, I mean I did name this blog Life As A Daydreamer so it might be time to have it grow and bloom into a new thing…..it might take a bit to become what it is I want it to become or have in mind at least for it sooo bare with me, it won’t be a right away thing, but I think when I feel it to be a good time, you’ll just start seeing it happening, probably not in a big way, I’m not a showy showy kind of person, I’m more subtle and little by little

But I feel that I’ll know when to do it! Soooo expect or be on a lookout for a bit of travel stuff coming later down the line, where I share places I’ve explored, personal journeys that I might share later as well and some other stuff that I have yet to think about, but don’t expect me to not continue to not talk about music, video games and anything else that’s in my interest, because I will, that’ll be for the time remaining until my next adventure whenever that is and even after because I can’t help myself, I like talking about those things, but I feel a change is coming and I’m ready for it, a little nervous, but a lot excited too!! Here’s hoping that is all turns out well, but I have hope and believe that it will!!

Like I said….little by little, but patience is a virtue and I believe that it’ll be worth it!! Anyway stay tune for my travel destination experience that I was on recently…..I think you’ll like it!! Thank you for reading and for all your support for those that follow along, read it even if you’re just passing by and won’t read it ever again, just anyone whose liked my content and have enjoyed themselves for the moment, I appreciate and love you all and I hope you continue to go on this weird, random and wandering journey with me!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Gris

Good evening, hope you’re all doing well and are keeping cool and safe in this very very hot weather, at least it’s super hot where I am, hopefully it’s a little cooler where you are! Hope you all enjoyed your weekend as well, my weekend was pretty alright, wasn’t too bad, It’s just been really hot that’s all, at least we’re getting rain soon so that’s good, we kind of need it! You know we’ve headed into summer when it starts getting REALLY hot!

Enough about the weather though, let’s talk about something different, let’s talk about video games and feeling, don’t worry it’ll be a good one…..I’m hoping anyway….nah you might’ve already guessed what game we’re going to be discussing, that game being Gris, I never know how it’s meant to be pronounced so I pronounce it as I see it and to me it’s like Bliss, but Gris, weird I know…..I really love this game, I haven’t played it in a very long time though, I think the last time I played it was…..about a few months ago, but the gameplay of it is so interesting, I remember when I first saw the trailer to it, it was actually from one of the video game blogs I follow on here, if I’m not mistaken it was the blog Video Games Blogger that I saw the trailer on, I thought it was the coolest looking game I ever saw and I made sure to put it one my games to get list…..I think I ended up getting it not last Christmas, but the Christmas before that!

Now even though I got the game, I didn’t actually play it until a couple months after I got it, sometimes when I buy a game, I don’t always play it right away, most times I’ll wait a while to play it, it all depends on the game really and how I’m feeling, the day I actually played the game, it was on a not so great time, I played it on the day I lost my dog, I remember I tried playing Animal Crossing, but I just weren’t feeling it that day and so I switched games (no pun intended) and played that game, I don’t know why I chose that one on that day, I guess it just felt like the right time even though I weren’t really aware of it then…..but I played it and what’s crazy about that game is, It’s all about emotions and going on a journey with those emotions, when I found out about my dog, I was having a hard time processing everything and so that game helped me to focus my attention on something else for a while

The only thing with it is that, I played it to get out of my head for a while, but I didn’t actually expect to connect with it so much, there’s a lot of depth with this game, it’s story is literally all about getting through rough times, there’s a lot of serious issues covered in it and although I knew that when I got the game, I didn’t think it was going to be so relatable in that moment, I remember playing it for a few hours that day before I started to thinking about everything again, but in the moment that I played the game, it really helped me to feel better and it helped me to kind of get through things…..it took a while before I learned to accept what had happened, but I really appreciate what this game gave me in the moment that I needed it, it took me on a journey that I didn’t expect to go on, but I enjoyed it!

Now I’m not saying I finished the game, I still have a bit to go…..I think I’m close to the end of the game, but I’m not done with it, I don’t play it all the time, only when I feel I need to and a lot of the time, when I choose to play it, it’s because I feel I need to, when I start to get a little down or I’m thinking a little too much or I’m just not in the best of moods, I play that game, I do it every time I feel low, but like I said just when I feel I need to! One of my favorite parts about the game is when I get to boss fights and as much as they give me heart attacks (not really) but I do get a bit of anxiety playing it, but that’s only because the boss fights are pretty intense, however whenever I help the character in the game overcome the fears and difficult moments that she’s faced with…..a part of me also feels like I’ve overcome something as well….that might be weird to say, but I don’t know it’s just how I feel!

Also it’s just very pleasing to the eye, it’s such a beautiful game, the art style is super fantastic, it also has some adorable moments to it, it’s a really great game, probably one of my favorites, although I don’t play it quite often, whenever I do pick it up, I always remember why I enjoy it! Now some of the boards can be very hard to get through, but you figure them out, you grow to enjoy it and embrace it for what it is, at least that’s how I see it, it’s probably different for everyone else, but I enjoy it, Gris is a really good game and I would recommend those looking for a game to try or would like to have a game to connect with to give it a go or if you just want to play it because it sounds interesting, It’s an adventure/platform type game so if that’s what you’re into, check it out, I don’t think you’ll be disappointed!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Bursting Energy…..

Happy Friday! Hope you’re all doing well this fine afternoon…..I got a bit of too much energy right now as I’m writing this and I’m not quite sure how to handle it, I feel good today, I feel a lot better than these past 2 days, the only thing is, I just don’t know what to do with myself with this amount of energy, I don’t want to use it all in one go, I would like to pace it better, but I’m finding myself slowly draining it by each super thought that fills me with excitement or just by thinking too much about things….not in a bad way, but just by like I said getting myself excited with ideas and looking forward to things, for example I’ve got 2 podcast episodes that I’m eager to do that will be coming in the next week or 2, they’re both childhood related and I’m excited to put my thoughts on them after so long, you’ll know about them in due time don’t worry!

Now as for the other thing that always tends to leave me excited when thinking about it, is something that I find myself going back to, that I want to try, that I have yet to try my hand at, I always think about it, but I’ve not yet decided on fully giving it a go even when I do feel it! Recently I’ve been researching on it more and every time I do, I get both happy and nervous about it, but I don’t know I just feel it to be something that keeps kind of calling to me to check it out, I just get nervous!

Although, I always on occasion and if not that, then here and there looking more and more into it and I feel like it’s a good time to see about it and see if I can find myself getting used to a lot, again I just get nervous thinking about it because I don’t know if I’ll be good at it, but then I think well I won’t know unless I give it a try and it’s not something that I need to be serious about in a sense of I can just be me and do it how I feel it to naturally come out, it’s just a nervous feeling one reason being because it’ll require me to show my face again and not just my voice which is something that I haven’t quite done in the past few months and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t decided on it just yet.

I know I’m still becoming more comfortable with my voice and so combining the two is a bit nerve-racking for me, I just get very uncomfortable in front of a camera, even though I’ve done it plenty before, but regardless to if it’s been so long or not it still takes me time to adjust when in front of a camera, part of me doesn’t mind it, but there’s also a part of me that would rather not, yet I also find myself thinking about doing it again…..I’m a weird one okay, I’ve accepted it!

I’m also very expressive though, when I’m passionate about something I either talk with my hands or I move my whole body and this even happens when I’m writing, I can’t help it lol! I’m considering it very thoroughly though it’s always in the back of my mind, I feel like if it was something that I felt strongly to do where it kept coming to me…..I’d pick a random day that felt good to do it and then tell you about it after I’ve done it and that’s how you know I went for it by being very curious and then saying you know what “let’s try it” Prepare yourself because that just might happen!

P.S.

I uploaded another episode to my Podcast yesterday so I’m just updating this post to share it, it’s a bit of a weird episode somewhat, but I feel there may be charm with it, possibly lol, if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Let’s Talk: Months & Animal Crossing (Friday Mood) You can also listen to it on Spotify as well!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Train Of Thought…..

I think I can, I think I can……

What if I can’t, what if I mess up…..

I think I can, I think I can…..

Caaaan’t do it, no, no……

I Think I Can, I Think I Can……

Aren’t you listening to me!? I don’t think this is a good idea, we’re not good enough here, it’s not going to work!!!

I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I KNOW I CAN……..

WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? GO BACK!!

I CAN DO THIS, I KNOW I CAN, I JUST GOTTA KEEP GOING…….

YOU’RE MAKING A BIG MISTAKE!!!

DON’T YOU DARE LISTEN TO THAT VOICE OF YOURS,YOU CAN DO THIS, YOU KNOW YOU CAN, JUST KEEP GOING!!!

DON’T LISTEN TO HER, LISTEN TO ME I KNOW WHAT’S BEST FOR YOU, STOP!!!

DON’T GIVE IN TO THAT DOUBT, DON’T GIVE IN TO THE WORDS THAT TELL YOU TO BACK DOWN, YOU CAN DO THIS……TRUST ME YOU GOT THIS, YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!

SHE DOESN’T, SHE DOES, DON’T YOU LISTEN TO HER!! LISTEN TO ME!!

I THINK I CAN….CAN’T……CAAAAAN……..TTTTT………TRUST…….DON’T…..

YOU GOT THIS, IT DOESN’T MATTER WHAT YOU BELIEVE, YOU GOT THIS, JUST KEEP GOING!!!……DON’T………GO!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Topic Of The Day: Why Is It That Our Voices Sound Weird To Us Then To Others!? (Inspired Blog Post)

Hey there everyone hope you’re all having a lovely day, so today’s blog post is gonna be a little different, normally when I go to write a new blog post I normally don’t know what to write about, today however I do, while I was having my coffee I went and watched some youtube videos just to kinda start off my day a bit and one video caught my attention, it was very interesting and I learned a lot from it, if you are interested in watching the video you can watch it here: Why You Don’t Like The Sound Of Your Own Voice

The speaker touching upon this topic is named Rébecca Kleinberger in the video she talks about the way our voices are and why we don’t like the sound of our own when we hear it back recorded. Did you know that our voices change depending on who we’re speaking to!? Also the way our voices are can determine a whole lot of different things such as depression, certain diseases and just a whole lot of interesting stuff. She also talked about how Alexa the device can tell when you’re pregnant before you even know based off your voice!! that probably sounds weird and you’re probably like “yeah okay” but seriously watch the video she’ll explain it better than I can, when I heard that I was like “WAIT WHAT…….SERIOUSLY!? ” everything she discussed when explaining how our voices are, really had my mind going. Who would’ve thought that just based on our voices so much can be detected and figured out!? That is some mind-blowing stuff there.

The reason I wanted to talk about this was because she also talked about how our voices the way we hear them, is completely different to how everyone else hears them as we all know, but what really had me go “Huh, I didn’t know that” (well there was a lot of different things that made me say that haha) but the main thing that caught my attention was when she talked about how when our voices are being recorded and we hear it back, it sounds weird to us, which is very true. I remember the first time I recorded a video of myself singing and hearing my voice back, was the weirdest thing to me because when you sing whether it’s your profession or just for fun, hearing it out loud whether you have a good singing voice or not is different to when you hear it on video or just when listening to it through audio, it can also be the same when you’re just talking.

Whenever I would record a video for my channel with just me speaking, it still sounded weird to me and I always thought…..”Is that what I sound like, why is my voice so deep!?” (my voice being so deep was the main thing though) it always just sounded like a completely different person to me. I remember I would ask my friends how my voice sounds when i’m talking to them and they never could give me an answer, it would always just be one of those what do you mean kind of questions and i’d explain to them how deep my voice was to me when I would speak to them on the phone in person. To them though my voice sounded fine, so i’d always say that maybe it was just me.

I would always still wonder why it was, my voice sounded so weird when being recorded to when i’m just speaking and from listening and taking in what Rébecca (the speaker) was explaining, I found out why that is, the way she explain it was we have, 3 different kinds of voices, outward voice, inward voice and inner voice. I hope i’m not confusing you, i’m trying my best to explain what she was saying in my own words, so I hope i’m coming across okay.

She also talked about how, the way we hear our own voice, she described it as having a mask on and trying to see that mask (more like hear since we’re talking about voices) but not having much luck seeing it, due to the fact that when we try to see the front of the mask, we just end up seeing the inside of it. She then explained how our inner voice is pretty much the puppeteer behind our outward and inward voice and how our brains don’t really pay any mind to our voice, if that make sense, for example think of it like this: You’re talking to someone, be it friend or someone you just met and you’re having this conversation right, yet you feel like you’re just talking to yourself and when you ask that person if they’re listening to you they go “yeah I hear you” and then you go, “yeah i know, but are you listening though!?” that’s what our brain does it hears the voice we speak, but doesn’t actually listen to it, it’s quite funny to think about because you would think your brain would be listening to you, only to find out it’s not, I hope i’m explaining everything okay, i’m trying really hard to make sense here, but i’m not sure if I am haha.

What I was trying to get at was how amazing it is knowing that a lot can be picked up just based off the sound of our voices and how different it is to us when we hear it being recorded compared to just talking normally, as well as to how other people hear it. There was another thing that she said and what she said was because our voice is something we hear the most, we actually hear it less, which can be very confusing to a lot of people, but it has to do with the way we hear it within ourselves compared to when it’s being projected out in the air, I can’t really explain it well so i’ll let her explain that part. It’s amazing though, it really is!! You don’t really think about stuff like that because it’s just  something you do casually, so you don’t really pay that much attention to it, but when you really look at it from that side of town you find that there’s always so much more to something and that right there is incredible.

There was a whole lot that she spoke on, but the last thing I want to talk about that I learned was how when it comes to our inner voice, we all know that sometimes it’s impossible to turn it off at times, but for some it’s much more difficult to stop which is why people with schizophrenia deal with all the emotions that they do, because they aren’t able to make out the difference voices coming from inside and outside their heads and with that kind of information you kinda are given a glimpse to the way their minds work knowing they aren’t able to tell the difference between their inner and outward voices and with that it can also give you a different perspective on the mental illness they go through on a daily basis.

I really enjoyed that video, it was actually quite interesting to learn because again you wouldn’t normally think about why our voices sound different to us compared to when others are hearing it, along with how our voices can pretty much tell you a lot about yourself…….it’s weird and fascinating at the same time, but yeah I enjoyed that a lot, anyway that’s my blog post for today just something different, fun, interesting at least I hope it was ha.

Tell me what you’re thoughts are on this topic!? Did you find it interesting, Did you not, did you already know some of this, feel free to share your thoughts. I just wanted to touch up on this topic because it was very interesting to me and I wanted to share this with you guys and just talk about it, but yeah I hope you enjoyed it, anyway I hope you all are having a good day and I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening.

 

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~