It’s A New Dawn, New Day, New Month! Well…..Almost…..

Anyone else feeling exhausted!? This month is nearly over and I can’t tell you how tired I am, I’ve not been able to really sleep properly for the past few days, I just started getting a little bit of sleep, not fully, but somewhat! I don’t know if it’s just me that’s been feeling that way though….all I know is I’m ready for a nice chill break! Last week….let’s not talk about it actually….weekend kind of similar, but it was fine! We’ve arrived half way through this week with it being Wednesday and we’re on the last few days of October with Halloween being this Sunday talk about crazy yeah!?

We’re coming to November next week, hard to believe, but it’s true! I want to say that I’m looking forward to the arrival of November, I mean I am, but I’m also just very nervous about it….I have this trip planned for next week and I just don’t know how to feel about it, really….I want to be excited about it, but I don’t know if I should approach it with caution or if I should just embrace it regardless to how I’ve been feeling lately!? November is usually one of my favorite months during the fall season, it’s the first time I’m not sure how to feel about it…..although I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about it before either to be honest!?

I never really understood why that is!? Why it’s one my favorites is what I mean….I’ve just always been drawn to it, like if I had to pick a new month to switch my birthday on, it would be November! Now I’m not saying I don’t like May….I’m glad that I was born during the Spring time, May is actually one of my favorite months and no it has nothing to do with that fact that I was born during that month, I just always liked May, plus I always felt it made for a nice name!

I’m just saying there’s just something about November that I’ve always liked, I guess cause it’s one of the Autumn months and Autumn is my second favorite season, Spring being my main favorite, again nothing to do with my birthday! There’s so much to this season….fall is the season of change, sometimes good and sometimes not always…..but still we have no choice, but to just allow it even when we may not want to allow it….I mean you can’t change a season, the only way the weather can change is if it changes itself! Sounds similar to how us humans change huh!? Some times it comes naturally while other days it may be a little forced!

One thing I’ve learned though is how important change is, we all know change is inevitable, there are things that happen that we may not want to happen and it can leave us confused, as well as unsure about a lot of things! One minute things are good and one minute you feel it shift and you don’t know how to feel about it when that does happen, what I’m saying is Change is frustrating ha! I used to strongly dislike change, but later down the line, I started to be okay with it, because I knew that it was needed in order to grow and be who you felt yourself transforming into, sometimes it hard though and you don’t always know the ways you’re changing, you just know that things are different with it!

You feel different, the way you used to see things are different and you tend to notice that what once was….is no longer the same, at least what it used to be anyway and not a lot of people like that, nor can they handle it…..but as much as you may want it to be, not everything is going to be in our control! You have to let people do what they feel they need to do, you have to allow them to grow and figure out what it is they want for themselves, not what you want it to be! Not a lot of people get that though….but it’s very important that we do get that and understand it as well….

It may leave us not feeling the greatest, but when you deeply care and love someone, all you truly want is just for them to be happy and so it takes a lot of courage and maturity to say “Hey if this is what you want, I support you” You always want people to be the best they can be for themselves even if they stumble a bit, it all comes down to just letting them know that you’re always going to be there, no matter what their choices are or the mistakes they make along the way, that regardless you’re going to love them anyway! We’re always so quick to assume or judge and although it’s not how we may want it to go, it’s how life is in reality and that’s coming from someone that continues to learn that….but that has nothing to do with November, it’s just what I’ve been feeling this season to, well feel like!

I have hopes for November though and faith, I need something to hold on to and those two things have always been with me since I was old enough to remember, I’m just hoping for something good to come from and I’m hoping that thing to be what I truly believe in and have always believed in….

I took this one when I went Pumpkin picking….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Transitions With Rain….

Good Morning and Happy September 1st! Hope that you all are having a good one so far, it’s a bit mad that August is now over, which means that we’re getting closer and closer towards the cooler and colder days so say farewell to the short sleeves, capris/shorts and beach days, unless you’re planning to go somewhere where it’s summer year round or your moving to a more hotter environment if you are then you can just keep all your summer clothes out and say hi to summery weather again pretty soon! I’ll never understand how people can live in very hot places, I was in PR for a week and a few days back in July and oh my gosh, I could not handle the heat every single day, I was done with it by Day 3 of being there, I wouldn’t be able to live in a place that’s hot all the time, so it always mind boggles me how some people genuinely talk about how their going to move to places like PR or Florida!

Ask me that and I’m like no thanks, I never wanted to live in hot places, I really don’t like Summer that much, some days are fine, but after a while I’m hoping for Fall or Spring to roll around, I love Spring and Autumn, because with Spring it’s not too hot and you can enjoy the weather without it being too much, it’s always breezy during that season and with Autumn…..it’s always just cool, not too cold, you can wear cardigans, boots, sweaters, both Spring and Fall have the right amount of warm and cool and you can’t go wrong with that, might be just me that thinks that, but it’s true!

I probably already spoke about this a few times, but when I was younger I always wanted to go to the UK and visit, not only that, but I always pictured myself living there as well, I don’t know why!? I just always felt a connection with it and so it was always on my Wishlist to go over there and see what it’s like, I still feel that and still hope to go there, plus I always thought that it had pretty good weather, like over there is always just cool weather and that! I know it tends to rain over there a good amount, although I did learn recently that it’s not all of the UK where it rains! I guess we just assume that it’s always raining overseas because it’s what we hear….like I used to think that it always rained in London,

but noo, in England it doesn’t rain as much as people think, it’s actually just in Scotland that it rains mostly and if I remember correctly that’s because they’re closer to the mountains compared to other places within the United Kingdom, it’s quite an interesting thing to learn! England’s weather is similar to our weather though, which is cool, it’s nice knowing that it’s both the same and different at the same time! Don’t really know why I’m taking about the weather over in the UK, I guess it was in my mind and so I thought I’d let it out!

Let’s talk about September that was the whole point of this post anyway right!? It’s a weird start with a September for me anyway, although now that I’m thinking about it, I kind of have been feeling like that with these past few months lately, them being weird and all, not sure why, but today specifically started off weird, I woke up feeling fine and then emotions started coming to me and fear crept up on me, right when I was about to record a new podcast episode, I have no idea why it happened, but I did push through after I gave myself a bit, but it was just very weird, I recorded the episode and even talked a bit about what I was feeling and other things, I’m debating on whether or not to post it, but I feel seeing that I’ve got and mentioned it in this post that I might as well go through with sharing it!

I feel like September is going to be another odd month, but I also believe that it will hold something good and unexpected and that we shouldn’t give up on it too quickly, I mean it just started so it’s best to keep our heads up and look for the good that it has in store or at least expect what is coming without expecting it if that makes sense!? Pretty much just keep a look out for it, but still try and keep yourself productive and slightly busy and whenever it arrives you’ll be both happy and a little surprised as well, sometimes that’s the best experience!

Update:

Here’s my new podcast episode, it’s got a mixture of both August and September thoughts as well as some other things!

Let's Talk: A Bit Of August and September (Plus Some Personal Thoughts) Ep. 36 Daydreamer's Podcast

Happy September 1st everyone, hope all is well! In today's episode we discuss quite a bit, it's kind of a weird one! There's some thoughts about the month of August and how it went, as well as how the start of September is going! I've also shared some personal thoughts both with the start of this month and in general, a lot of different emotions going on in this episode as well! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Plans & Decisions…

I’ve never been one for planning you know, which you probably do because I’ve mentioned it a few times on here, me and plans….don’t mix, however I’ve come to a point in my life where, I’m finding myself trying to plan for things which is usually not my department, but if the time has come for me to really sit and plan things properly then I’m going to do it! I’m going to put myself in an uncomfortable situation and face it the best way I can, scared and full of nerves combined!

Today has been a bit of a rough day for me, I’ll admit, I woke up with soooo many thoughts in my head and trying to sort them is completely new to me, I don’t normally sort my thoughts out well and so trying to do that today has got my head just full of aches lol…..but it’s okay because I know that there’s something that is very important I want to do and if I end up losing a little bit of sleep from it or feel myself getting slightly anxious on, I’m alright with that! Plans aren’t my normal cup of tea, but I’ve been trying to embrace it a little better instead of getting intimidated by them,

Plans are important they can help layout things so you don’t feel all over the place! Normally I like going with things naturally, but I’ve also been learning that sometimes you need to plan for things in order to work them out, if you just let things always go as they are, whatever is most important to you can get away from you and if that’s something you don’t want then you have to really work at them and take those steps to having them come to fruition and making them happen…..I’m always being told that life is short and you want to make sure you’re always giving attention to the things that matter most even if it seems hard, it can seem like you won’t get there, but if you want it enough and you believe in it enough….you already know that it can get there, you just have to take those steps to get them there!

Now with the things that I’m planning, there’s a few decisions that I’ve come to realize I need to face and deal with, even though some of the stuff may not be my favorite to want to deal with…..it’s up to me to take that breath, put on a brave face and do it anyway…..with planning you also have to make decisions tough or not, because that’s the only way for you to grow better and to experience things without all the limits of it all it all, you have to allow yourself to fly even if you are bat scared shit of it and yes I’m saying it just like that because it’s how I’m feeling it at the moment….if we continue to always keep ourselves on the ground, as safe as it may be sometimes you have to also fly or float otherwise you’ll always be there wishing you could soar that blue sky!

I recently went on a trip as you may know if you read that post and I was really nervous when I was waiting to go on the plane, but once I got on the plane…..I don’t know I was very happy, I smiled to myself knowing I did something that scared me and even when I was on the vacation I was on…..I was ready to go back on the plane……it just felt good and I really enjoyed myself knowing that I was ahead somewhere that I hadn’t been yet and that’s what I want to continue, I want to keep discovering, exploring and going on adventures…..but also I want to share that experience and so if I need to plan in order to do that, like I said…..I will!

The upcoming plan idea is to finally be able to see my love again and figure out how we can be together permanently, we both have wanted that for a good now sooo, I’m just hoping that it all goes well for us this time, which we’ll make sure it does!

Planning By A Non Planner (Personal Thoughts) Ep. 32 Daydreamer's Podcast

Hiya everyone, hope you've been having a good week so far! In today's episode, I talk about some of my own personal thoughts that I've been feeling today and about planning….something I see as intimidating normally, but I've been trying to embrace it a little better this time around and really do my best with it all! 

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

My Trip To PR (Puerto Rico)

Happy Friday everyone, hope you all are having a good day and enjoying yourself!! Not going to lie…..It really doesn’t feel like Friday today, I actually woke up unsure if it was Friday or not and then I learned it was Friday, which is weird, I think the trip I just came back from sorta messed up my days a bit…..regardless I hope you’re all well and keeping safe! Now you may have noticed I hadn’t written in while, with the exception of yesterday’s post stating that I’m back and better than ever lol (if you get it, you get it)

Anyway so we don’t delay on what this post is about, you can probably take a huge wild guess, seeing that I’ve just come back from an unexpected vacation, I thought I’d share my experience on that with you guys, now even though I say unexpected, I did know about it, I just weren’t expecting myself to go to it, it was actually a last minute decision when I decided and it was preety hectic as well, I was calm about it though, everything else was kinda chaotic, not too much though, to jump into it…..I finally went on a trip to Puerto Rico, it was the first time I had ever been there, which you would think I’d gone a lot seeing that my mom is from there, buuut no I’ve never been to Puerto Rico until recently, like literally went on the day of my 3 year blog anniversary!

I was there for a week, left Sunday (July 11th) and came back early in the morning on Monday (July 19th) the flight was actually pretty cool….I was a bit nervous going on a plane, although it wasn’t my first time, but it’s been a while, but while on the plane I actually found myself loving being on it, it took about 3 and half hours to get there from where I’m from, but it wasn’t all that bad, to be fair I did have my headphones in throughout the trip heading to PR that and I was enjoying looking out at the sky through the window soooo that’s the flight part of the journey (I did have a picture of it, but it wasn’t off of my phone so sorry about that)

Now let’s get into the days of the adventure shall we!?

Day 1 (Uno) -Settling In Morovis (July 11th)

My first day in PR was…..very hot, like the heat was intense, it was sooo humid over there, however Puerto Rico’s heat is a lot different then the heat in New Jersey, where I’m from, also you’ll find if ever any of you decide to take a trip over there, just know that the weather is very weird, one minute it’s hot and another minute rain shows up, like literally it’ll rain then stop and the suns and repeat after that, I thought my mom was kidding, but she wasn’t when she told me about it every time she would go, now I can say I’ve experienced it myself!!

When I got to Puerto Rico though, I wasn’t actually sure what to expect, obviously it’s an Island so I expected that, as for everything else I didn’t know what I was going to be exploring until I got there, it was nice, just very hot, we didn’t really do too much the first day, we did a little bit of running around, grabbed some food, which by the way I ordered in Spanish…..we’ll half Spanish, but I still tried so I was proud of myself for attempting to order in Spanish, I know a bit, but not that much, I do understand it, I just don’t know how to really speak it, yeah I know….

There’s a couple of things that I learned while there on the first day and one of those things is there are some very windy roads, like you’re always turning corners and you’ll find out how small the roads are, highways are different, regular roads, let’s just say there should not be a two entrance on some of them, that’s how tight the roads are seriously, on a different note….you’ll also learn there are a LOT of animal, cows, chickens, lizards, Horses, just a lot of animals and in the morning if your not an early person just know the roosters will wake you up, especially if you’re a light sleeper who likes sleep…..I didn’t mind it, I wake up pretty early anyway, not super early, but early enough!

Another thing you’ll notice is there’s a lot of natural fresh grown fruits and vegetables, although I probably seen more fruits then veggies, the supermarkets are a bit different, but also not different, but there are places you wouldn’t normally see on a regular basis unless you lived in PR, now that I think about it Day 1 was pretty eventful even though we didn’t do too much!

Day 2 (Dos) – Cero Gordo Beach (July 12th)

We’ve entered day dos in PR, up early had coffee, took a few photos on this day, I wrote in my journal/notebook, I made sure I took one with me so I could have an idea for when I came back to share on the blog, but when I took some photos I was just getting the hang of the manual setting of the camera I have and so I was excited so I mentioned it…..fast forwarding toward what the day for Day 2 was like, we went to a beach, now I’m not the biggest fan of beaches, it’s like my least favorite place to go, beaches are beautiful don’t get me wrong…..I just don’t like to go to them, I sit in the sand and watch and listen to the waves, everyone knows how calming they are, but going in the water…..is a meh for me, that being said, I did go into this beach water, it was pretty clear and you could kinda see everything, lots of seaweed in the water, which I didn’t like….although it made me laugh because it tickled my feet,

but I still didn’t like the feeling, also the water at this beach was EXTREMELY SALTY, I know beaches are meant to be like that, but I’m telling you if you went to this one and went under the water and came back up, your sinus would be CLEARED so if you’re having a bit of Sinus issue this water will clear it *snap* like that lol I only went into this beach water once and then I just sat in the sand, wrote in my journal and took pictures of the scenery around me which was nice there was a lot of Pelicans and a lot of them we’re flying in the air and then just dove in the water and it always looked like they were hurting themselves, but they were just looking for food so no worries! I also experienced an albino crab in the sand, I took a video of it, it did not like being bothered, I don’t have the video on the computer, but I do have a picture so you’ll see it in a moment!

After we finished on the beach we got a few icy’s I had a coconut one and snickers, I didn’t quite like the coconut one, okay I did, but I didn’t and that’s because I don’t like actual coconut flakes, I like the flavor of coconut, but not the flakes, the actual coconut itself and so forth and my icy had a lot of the flakes and I could not enjoy it, the snickers one however was great….I had it a little bit after we were meant to leave, but hey it was still good!!

Day 3: Tres -Goza Landia (July 13th)

Day 3 of PR the morning started on the delayed side in terms of breakfast, it took forever just to get a couple of sandwiches, but just leave it there on that! Day 3’s journey was a bit of a long one, it took a while to get to where we were going, but when we did get there…..it was good time, we went to this Waterfall place, but it wasn’t your typical kind of waterfall, this waterfall you could actually swim in which was very nice, also it felt like a hike to me, because we kind of did sorta hike, there were different sections of the Waterfall place we were at that you could go into,

If you wanted to be at the very top you had to walk a distance, if you wanted to be at the bottom you only had to go a little while, we ended up in the middle section, it was the one we chose, but also one I preferred, plus there was a lot of people at the top of the waterfall and we were kind of looking for less people so the middle worked just fine, it was pretty deep too the water, it didn’t look it, but when you go into it, you see it, it wasn’t too deep, I can’t handle water that’s too deep….it frightens me also I’m not that great of a swimmer anyway sooo yeah lol…..

The best part about this Waterfall place was you could swim in it while enjoying the view as well, if I had to say what my favorite place was, this would be it, because it’s so different, you wouldn’t think you could swim in a waterfall like that, you also had places to sit if you wanted to get out of the water a bit, didn’t have to worry about no sand, although you did have to watch your step because it’s quite slippery! There were moments where I felt like I was rock climbing and I don’t know I just felt like I was in my element in that place, the waterfall place is what I mean, it was just a cool experience and the best thing I ever got to do, if anyone reading this ever goes to Puerto Rico go to that place, I think you’ll enjoy it!!

Also I saw some turtles, I saw a crane, Crawfish and Shrimp, it was a good time, I really enjoyed myself there!! P.S. I also tried a passionfruit for the first time, it wasn’t bad!!

Day 4: (Cuatro) – Colorful Shopping Center (July 14th)

Day 4’s journey…..we didn’t really do all that much for day 4, not a lot was happening entertainment wise, sooo we ended up exploring the shopping centers around wherever the heck it was, I don’t remember the name of the area we were in, now I call it the colorful shopping center because it was colorful, I didn’t actually take pictures of it because I didn’t feel like I needed to really bring my camera so sorry for that…..after we did some shopping and looking around, we went for something to eat, I tried this place called Mango where they have a lot of fresh food, I saw it last time and wanted to try it so when we went again I made sure to give it a look….surprisingly it was pretty good, their stuff is healthy, I had a veggie power bowl, I’ve been changing my way of eating, I don’t want to say I’m Vegetarian exactly because I still eat Chicken, I just don’t eat pork or beef anymore, but I eat more fish then chicken sooo….

I’m just eating better for myself let’s just say that….the Veggie power bowl was good, I was curious to try it, I thought it was going to be a hot meal with rice and steamed Vegetables ….but it was cold…..I then came to the conclusion that it was a salad…..but let me tell you it was an amazing salad, like I enjoy a good salad here and there, my favorite salad is the Parmesan Cesar salad from Wendy’s, but this one like I don’t know what it was, but it was lovely, it had Spinach, tomatoes, black beans, cheese and I think some other stuff, I can’t remember and the dressing was great, I think it was an Italian/Vinaigrette type dressing, regardless it was lovely and I loved it, very nice, I also had a Banana Strawberry smoothie with it, that was nice too, I did take one photo though,

I took a picture of a rainbow, it was raining when we got back and getting dark at the same time, but luckily I was able to catch the rainbow before it disappeared fully, it’s a little dimmed, it was kind of faint by the time I caught it, but hopefully you can still see it okay!

Day 5 (Cinco) – San Juan Beach (July 15th)

Day 5….we went to another beach…..again not a big fan of beaches….however I liked this beach more than the first one, the first one was nice don’t get me wrong, but I don’t know I liked this one more, also the water was pretty clearer here, it was clear in the other one too, just want to let you know that, both beaches had clear water, this one was clearer though and less Salty, it has salt obviously, I mean it is a beach after all, but it wasn’t too much of it compared to the first one we went to! One of the reasons I enjoyed this beach a lot was for the simple fact that it had a LOT of stones for me to choose from, like a lot, I mean we practically on a mountain of rocks when we went sooo….of course I was going rock and shell hunting on it, I mean wouldn’t you!?

You see I’m a collector of stones and shells sooo seeing that, I was loving every moment, I had a bag full of it, that’s how many I had, okay half a bag, I tried not to go too crazy, although I still ended up grabbing a good amount…..leave me alone okay, It was my first time in Puerto Rico sooo if there’s nice stones and shells I’m grabbing them!! I enjoyed the water this time while there like there was a shallow section, where the waves weren’t so in your face that’s where I was, also the waves were too much, because there were big rocks blocking it from splashing on you, but it wasn’t blocking it too much to where the waves weren’t able to go over it, they were nice!!

This beach was very beautiful, you could see little fishes in the water, they’ll stay by your feet if you let them and if you don’t move, but they won’t harm you, I think they just like the company, I saw a duck as well and a few doves, there were boats going by, it was just really nice, after being there for a couple of hours, we eventually let and got something to eat, the food was somewhat alright, but it wasn’t the greatest where we stopped, which is a shame because it a famous place, but hey they can’t all be great, I didn’t mind them though!!

Last journaled entry

Day 6-Seis Day 2 in San Juan Battlefield Fort (Going Sight Seeing)

We’ve come to Day 6, Friday’s journey…..back in San Juan this time with a different agenda, SIGHTSEEEING!! It was a pretty good time, saw a lot of different things, we went to this historical place that’s pretty popular, we had a bit of lunch at this GREAT restaurant, oh my gosh, had the most amazing appetizer, it was fried plantains (Tostones Rellenos) which is stuffed plantain cups if that makes sense and on top was shredded king crab and let me tell you, I was in love,

It was soooo good like, I couldn’t stop talking about it, it was that good, also I love food so when I eat something and I can’t stop talking about it, you know you did good!! I also had a seafood Mofongo, so it had shrimp….squid and clams or mussels one of them…..but I can’t stand clams and mussels sooo I just ate the shrimp and the squid, yes I like squid, but I also like fried calamari soo, I actually thought the squid was octopus, but then I learned it was squid, but it taste just like octopus, the squid was cooked with the shrimp though,

I’m a weird one, I’ll try anything as long as it’s good and squid and octopus is good to me, also in case you’re wondering what Mofongo it’s pretty much the same thing I had for an appetizer only mushed up and it’s good, I had my seafood Mofongo with garlic sauce, it was a good lunch! After lunch we then continued to walk around the area and continue our sightseeing, we ended up checking out this historical fort place, fun fact the fort that we visited was actually once a battlefield in the war days, like a base in a way, they would look out for any invaders or ships and that and then eventually it turned into a popular spot for tourist to check out, which is pretty cool, it’s also kind of like a castle, like it looks like one and you’re able to explore the inside of it, I didn’t get to unfortunately,

cause it was closed, but I did see a lot of it so it was okay, the hills on the fort are tall and it’s a bit of a walk, not too bad, it’s more intimidating to walk it looks wise, but actually walking it, not as bad, you get there pretty quick actually!! After exploring the area and taking lots of pictures, we headed back to where we stayed, but not before getting Gelatos, it was actually my first time trying it and it’s pretty darn good, I wanted to try this Strawberry Cheesecake flavor with vanilla…..but they didn’t have it, so instead I picked Coffee and Vanilla and that was delicious, I’m glad my back up was a good choice, but yeah day 6 was eventful!!

That’s everything I’ve journaled out, Day 7 and 8, we didn’t really do too much, plus it was the weekend we we’re going back, although Sunday night before our flight back we went to the movies over in PR and watched Black Widow….it was pretty good, I enjoyed the movie, I also had a mac and cheese in the theater and this Hershey triple chocolate cupcake, both good by the way and after the movies, we headed straight toward the airport, we meant to get some dinner, but we didn’t, however we could’ve because our flight got delayed, the pilots were late so we had to wait up until almost 3am before we headed back to the states…..and thinking about that is making me tired lol

Overall my first time in Puerto Rico…..it was a good experience, I’ve never been there until the days i’ve been, but it was a good time, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy myself, I did! Would I ever live there….no not at all…..I hate the heat and even though it’s beautiful and really nice, it just doesn’t feel like a place for me to live, but visiting it, yeah sure why not, I’d go back to a few places here, like that Waterfall place, the beach in San Juan with all the rocks, the place with the food, with the Tostones Rellenos topped with King Crab and that historical fort area, I liked that a lot, maybe one day I get to actually go inside it, but that’s all for my journey and exploration of Puerto Rico, there’s a lot of places I haven’t gone just yet, but i’m sure I’ll discover them at some point, I hope you liked this adventure post, enjoy the pictures, I’m really proud of them so I hope you like them as well!!

It’s about 10pm now sooo, I probably should sign off now, you have a goodnight and I’ll see you in my next post, have a happy rest of the weekend!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’M BAAAACK!!

Did you miss me!? I’m kidding, I was only gone for a week, nothing too big I went on a little vacation if anyone was wondering, like literal vacation, also we’ve officially made 3 YEARS on this blog on the 11th of July!! “CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES COME ON!!” I cannot believe I’ve continued this far in with this blog, even though I told myself I was to keep doing this and not allow this blog to be a thing I start and then stop, I never actually thought I’d still be writing on here and that I’d come to 3 years of it, I started this blog as a way of expression when I felt I couldn’t express myself out loud, a lot of the time it helped me to release anything I felt I was having a hard time saying, now I use it to say anything I want and talk about anything I feel I want to share!!

It really helped me to grow in different ways and helped me find that voice I was having a hard time finding for a good while, but I honestly feel like, I’ve done a good job finding that voice, even though I have some days where I may not always know what to write about, I know that when I do, this is the first place that I will go before I choose to say it out loud, that and the fact that I always find it better and easier to express my thoughts in writing before speaking it, but once I have it down on paper or blog in this case…..I then am able to share it speaking wise, without this blog, I feel like I wouldn’t know what to do with my voice, so the fact that I have something I can go to whenever I have too many thoughts that is hard to share or when I have something important to me that I want to talk on, I love that I can say it all here if I felt it to be best and that I don’t have to worry about it too much!

3 years though, is mad and I hope to continue on sharing what I feel with you guys that read and share on things that mean a lot to me, but yeah….. I will be writing and sharing on my personal vacation time and where I went and everything soon! I have a good amount of pictures to share, I’m going to have to choose which ones I share though cause there’s a lot, but I’m excited to show you all….I know I said I wanted to do something special for my 3 year blog anniversary…..I still don’t have a clue what exactly that’s going to be, sometimes I wish I would’ve had the podcast be reveal that day….but again I did it a little early, but it’s okay, because I feel like I did it when I felt I wanted to do it and I wouldn’t change it!

However I was thinking…..maybe I could have this blog go into a transition in honor of it being 3 years of me blogging, so whatever new experiences I encounter or am about to have come into my life, I can share that with you guys, have it be a journey kind of thing, I mean I did name this blog Life As A Daydreamer so it might be time to have it grow and bloom into a new thing…..it might take a bit to become what it is I want it to become or have in mind at least for it sooo bare with me, it won’t be a right away thing, but I think when I feel it to be a good time, you’ll just start seeing it happening, probably not in a big way, I’m not a showy showy kind of person, I’m more subtle and little by little

But I feel that I’ll know when to do it! Soooo expect or be on a lookout for a bit of travel stuff coming later down the line, where I share places I’ve explored, personal journeys that I might share later as well and some other stuff that I have yet to think about, but don’t expect me to not continue to not talk about music, video games and anything else that’s in my interest, because I will, that’ll be for the time remaining until my next adventure whenever that is and even after because I can’t help myself, I like talking about those things, but I feel a change is coming and I’m ready for it, a little nervous, but a lot excited too!! Here’s hoping that is all turns out well, but I have hope and believe that it will!!

Like I said….little by little, but patience is a virtue and I believe that it’ll be worth it!! Anyway stay tune for my travel destination experience that I was on recently…..I think you’ll like it!! Thank you for reading and for all your support for those that follow along, read it even if you’re just passing by and won’t read it ever again, just anyone whose liked my content and have enjoyed themselves for the moment, I appreciate and love you all and I hope you continue to go on this weird, random and wandering journey with me!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Jan 15, 2019 (A Bit Of A Long Entry Of Memory)

So today marks a year since my boyfriend first came to visit me, this time last year I was counting down the hours for him to arrive all excited while also super nervous at the same time. I remember it like it was yesterday, I literally couldn’t focus on anything else except him arriving, I kept looking at the time wanting the day to go by quicker that’s how excited I was, I remember before we went to pick him up I was talking to my friend Ray on the phone and telling her about him coming to visit and everything, when it came to finally going to meet him I was so nervous, like I don’t think I ever felt that nervous in my life.

When we finally arrived at the airport to pick him up, I couldn’t stay still in my seat, I kept looking back in the car waiting for him to show his face, it took a while so while we waited, my mom and brother were there with me and my mom went inside the airport to get him while I was in the car with my brother listening to music or something. I think he was showing me a video when Jordan (that’s his name) finally got to the car, I didn’t realize he was there until I heard my mom start opening the door and when I realized he was there, I hopped out the car and hugged him right away.

If you ask him how the first meeting went, he’ll tell you that I speared him when I saw him haha, but I don’t remember it that way, I was just really excited to finally get to meet him in person and have him there, my mom actually has the meeting on video, after what probably felt like the longest hug a persons ever had, it was the longest one I ever had, I didn’t want to let let him go, but it was cold for one and we decided in the car that we were going to get some food afterwards. We ended up going to Panera’s for dinner. We sat and chatted, asked him about his flight and everything, him and my brother got along right away which I was happy about, he was very nervous but also calm, I was nervous and still very excited about everything, if you ask him he’ll tell you how nervous he actually was.

It was a good time, his flight was about 6-7 hours so as you can probably guess he was very very tired, plus the whole time zone thing was new to him so he had to kinda get use to that, it took a few days but he adapted to it i’d say nicely. After we had dinner we went back to my house and just enjoyed the rest of the night talking and learning more about each other and the different ways we do everything, he and my brother talked as well as my mom and him, I think we ended up watching some stuff for a bit, it was getting late, I don’t think it was super late, but it was late and yeah that was pretty much the meeting.

There was other stuff that happened of course, but those were the main things I remember……….after a while of being up we started heading to sleep and that was pretty much the rest of the night. I just really love that memory, it’s one of my favorites, having him with me was the greatest thing, I didn’t want him to ever leave…………..P.S. If you’re wondering how long he stayed for he’s was here for 2 weeks the first time he visited.

It’s crazy though because even though we had just met and everything (in person is what I mean) it’s crazy because it always felt like we knew each other even though we had just met and I know that probably sounds cheesy and i’m not trying to be sappy with all of this, it’s just, it’s insane how you can come across someone for the first time, but feel like you’ve known them for longer than you have and i’m not just talking about me and him, that also happened with me and my friend Ray, when I first met her in person too, we clicked automatically and it felt like I had known her for years and that’s how it was with my boyfriend, it felt like we’ve been together for years, yet we had just met…………..that’s wild and man, very.

Me and him are complete opposites though, but we also have this thing where it’s like, although we like different things and we’re from two different worlds, we still fit well with each other, he gets me and I get him and although we’re different we’re also the same in some senses as well, it’s hard to explain, but overall, he’s one of my best friends and although sometimes we see things a lot differently to each other, I wouldn’t and couldn’t ask for anyone better.

I could sit here and talk about him the whole day, but i’m sure you guys would find it to be very boring so I won’t, but I just wanted to share that little memory here with you guys since it’s something that means a lot to me.

Disclaimer it’s going to get a little sappy so if you don’t want to read this part I get it XD, anyway:

If you’re reading this my love, I just want to say how much I love you and how grateful and thankful I am to have you, you really do make me the happiest girl in the world and I wouldn’t trade you for anyone else. Thank you for everything that you do for me and for always being there when I need you the most, I appreciate and adore you like crazy and I really am truly lucky to have you in my life, you’re my absolute world and I miss you everyday like mad. I’m also very proud of everything you do, always remember that. I love you loads and with all of my heart, always will.

Okay sappy part is done now, you can read on if you haven’t already left haha, there’s not really much else to read though so yeah……..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~