Lets Talk Mental Health: Eating Disorders And The Return Of Eugenia Cooney (Long Post)

Quick Note: I started this on the 20th of July, but had to do some more looking over and that, some of my original thoughts I kept in and some I added, I also removed some that I felt weren’t needed, I did my best on this topic so I hope it came out okay and I hope you enjoy the read.

Okay so this is a bit of a hard topic to discuss, i’m not sure how this post is going to turn out, but hopefully it comes out okay…….just a bit of a disclaimer warning, the topic that will be discussed in this post has to do with Eating Disorders so if this is a very sensitive topic for some of you out there and a bit triggering, I understand not wanting to read on, but if you’re comfortable and are okay reading upon this topic then by all means do so…..

When it comes to Mental Health a lot of people don’t really take it as seriously as it should or needs to be and it’s sad because, it’s important to treat it seriously, just because it’s not physical doesn’t mean there’s no effect and that it’s not still harmful……

There’s many different mental health disorders out there, although they’re different, they still share the same effect inside, however there are some that are much more dangerous than others, one of them being Eating Disorders…….i’ll be honest here, I don’t really know too much when it comes to eating disorders, but I have learned a bit about it,

By looking into it a little to get a better understanding and even getting some insights on what it’s like dealing with it and from the knowings of it and the effects it can have on you, lets just say it’s a real tough road walking down, especially when it comes to the recovery process of it.

Now i’m not sure how serious people take Eating Disorders, you would think it’d be one of the topics that is talked about a lot, but when you really think about it, we don’t really hear that much on it, which is a bit surprising because it’s something that should be payed more attention to.

Now I want to talk properly about this, because there’s a lot of things to eating disorders that not many are aware of, most people have a stereotype on it, which isn’t really fair because there are things with it that you won’t know unless you personally lived it, which a lot of us haven’t, but there are some that have or are living it right now and we don’t even know…..

What we may see it as, is completely different to what it actually is like, now my reasoning for wanting to talk upon this topic is for a few reasons, but also because of a video that I watched a few days ago, that was sent to me by my boyfriend who……well had a very similar experience with it…..

I won’t express too much on it though as it’s his story to tell, but he did say it was okay to talk about how he’s been though something similar to the story here……the video that i’ll be giving some insight on is about a Youtuber by the name of Eugenia Cooney, not sure how many of you exactly know of her, maybe you know her well or have just heard about her……a few days ago, Shane Dawson (another Youtuber) made a video on Eugenia,

I don’t know how familiar some of you are with Shane or if you even watch any of his videos, but he has a few series that he does, one of them is focused on helping people and sometimes even going back and revisiting pasts things that he hasn’t really been able to face before, it’s pretty good, i’ve watched a hand full of them……this specific video however, discusses Eugenia and her struggles with her Eating Disorder…….

I gotta say, this video has to be one of the most serious videos, Shane’s ever done and he’s made quite a lot…….I don’t know a whole lot about Eugenia Cooney, i’ve heard of her and have seen her before, but i’ve never actually watched any of her videos…..watching this video though, i’ll admit was really hard, it was also very emotional, I held my breath a lot watching it.

It’s kinda tough to describe this video, I feel it’s something you have to watch for yourself in order to really understand the situation and everything with it, but what I will say, is that you learn a lot from this while gaining insights to what it’s like for those who suffer from eating disorders, as well as learn on the different types of eating disorders and what kind of things happen with those types, if that makes sense!?

There’s a lot of mixed emotions in this video, although it’s very serious, there’s also some pretty nice light hearted and good moments within it as well, there was a few moments in the video that were a bit hard to watch, one of the moments was when they would show Eugenia’s videos….

Now I don’t know if it was a streaming kind of video that she did or a live chat event, but there was this girl and i’m not going to say what she said because you’ll see it in the video if you watch it, but…..

She started off with a very sweet and lovely comment to Eugenia letting her know how pretty she is which was really nice…..a few moments later however, she said something that…..probably shouldn’t have been said, it was that uncomfortable of a moment that I had to actually pause the video.

I mean i’m sure the girl didn’t intend for what she said to come out the way it did or anything, I mean you knew she was a fan of Eugenia and that she cared, she sounded like a very lovely girl, but I don’t think she understood by her saying what she did especially LIVE, the way she did……really set with Eugenia, like you could literally see the change of expression on her face and her eyes, it was one of the toughest moments to see in the video…..

Sometimes we don’t realize the things we say, as well as the way we say them, to us it may not be that bad…..however to others it’s a whole different story, especially when you see or know someone is going through something difficult that they may not be able to see or may not even know about……it’s important to really think about that kind of thing.

If you know or see someone isn’t well or they’re just getting well again, take a moment to really think about the things you’re saying before you find the words coming out of your mouth…….but i’m sure the girl didn’t mean harm with it, so no blame game here, sometimes we make mistakes, even if it’s the tiniest of ones, it happens, it’s just live and learn that’s all.

There were other moments that were a bit hard to watch, but a specific moment that I also wanted to talk about was not one that was hard to watch per say, but one that made me a bit nervous and that was when it came to Shane asking Eugenia questions on everything…..in the beginning of the video, there was this lady I can’t remember her name, but she was explaining to Shane the different questions you shouldn’t ask someone dealing with an eating disorder and the things you shouldn’t say to them…..

Watching the whole video, I was just nervous, thinking to myself “I hope the questions he’s asking are alright” luckily it all went well with the questions, even though the topic of it was hard as well.

I liked how comfortable Shane made Eugenia feel when he visited her and talked to her, it was real nice, i’m sure she was very nervous about doing this whole thing and talking about it as well, but it was good to see that there wasn’t any awkward moments with it.

There was a lot of moments that were very interesting to learn about within the video, if you want to check that out for yourself to get a better insight about Eating Disorders I linked it for you guys, it’s worth watching.

Watch the video here: The Return Of Eugenia Cooney

Continuing on the topic of Eating Disorders as a whole…..I can’t really say what exactly it’s like dealing with it, because i’ve never actually experienced it before, for people who have dealt with the disorder or are dealing with it now even, I know it’s not an easy topic to talk about it.

This is a real issue that shouldn’t be overlooked…….there are a lot of people who are secretly suffering with this and aren’t asking for help and that kind of thing is scary, because even though they aren’t directly asking for help, in way they are, only they’re going to say it…….

Sometimes it’s hard to see what’s going on in these kind of situations and unless you’re very close to someone, you won’t really see it, you might get hints here and there, but it’s not going to be something you catch on to right away……learning a bit about it, i’ve learned that people who suffer with eating disorders are really good at hiding it, again you may think you’re able to catch on to it quickly, but that’s not always the case.

Something i’d like to point out is that, when we think of eating disorders, our brains naturally and automatically think females suffer from it and that’s because it always been seen as and I know this is probably the wrong way to quote it and I apologize in advance, but it’s always just been seen as a “Female thing only”

When in fact that is faaar from the truth…..on the stereotype side of town, it’s like that, if you only knew the half of it though….because if you did, you’d find out males suffer from it too, maybe even more, we wouldn’t know about that though because a lot of the males that do suffer with an eating disorder, don’t speak up about it and that’s because there’s already a perspective on it, which isn’t right……

When you think of other disorders such as anxiety, depression, bi-polar disorder all those things, it’s not just seen as a one sided thing, any person, guy or girl can suffer from them, yet when it comes to eating disorders, it’s only looked at on the females perspective and maybe that has to do with the fact that more females speak up on it, however that doesn’t mean that it should be normalized as just females go through it because that’s not true.

Males that suffer with an eating disorder, don’t really get taken that seriously causing most of them to suffer in silence when they shouldn’t have to……I don’t want to say it’s an image thing, however it kinda is in a way, which is sad because it shouldn’t be like that, we shouldn’t have it where if a male is struggling with an eating disorder they shouldn’t come out about it…….not trying to go away from the topic, but I will for a second,

Only because it’s the same as if someone was being abused, majority of the time, people will only see it from a girls perspective when in fact guys also get abused……yet we don’t talk about that and sometimes that can be one of the main factors of an eating disorder starting because of the way they’ve been treated before, but my point to this though is just like girls,

Guys too can be affect by it, just because we don’t hear much about it, doesn’t mean it’s not happening……we aren’t the only ones that go through rough times, although guys are built to be strong and protect and all that, we need to understand that they too have feelings and they also go through these kind of issues. We shouldn’t be shutting them out and making them feel as though if they do suffer from any sort of disorder or other things in general that they shouldn’t be allowed to share it or speak up about it.

It’s important to not only treat these kind of things seriously, but also treat each individual the same way, especially when dealing and suffering with things like eating disorders and that, everyone should have a right to express they’re emotions and feelings as well as things they’re going through.

We should never make someone feel as though their feelings don’t matter or that the issues they’re dealing with aren’t as important as someone else’s……there’s a lot to learn with this topic, things that may be seen as simple, aren’t always and when it comes to things we think we know on this topic or even someone, there’s a high chance that we have no clue, what we say and how we say it does have an affect, even when we see it as harmless.

Final Thoughts: We don’t know what people are going through and with this kind of thing it’s really important that we take it seriously and try to help in the best way possible, even if we aren’t sure how…….

If you know or sense someone close to you or someone you think needs help is suffering help them, try and be there for them, talk to them and if you’re worried or you aren’t sure what to do, there are people that can help and there’s even numbers to call.

If someone out there is reading this and is suffering with an eating disorder or recovering from one (GUY OR GIRL) know that everything is going to be okay and that there are people that can help you get better, I know it won’t seem like it, but you aren’t alone and again if you’re a guy or a girl whose just starting to recover or have successfully recovered,

I’m proud of you and i’m sure those around you, are proud of you as well (although I don’t know many of you) still, I know it’s a hard road you’re walking or have had to walk before and I know that even though there maybe some of you who have fought through this, I know that the journey of it will never be over as it sticks with you for life, but even though that maybe so, you should be very proud of yourself, not only for how far you came from it,

but also because you went through it and are still going through it, but have stayed strong and continued on, I know it’s not the easiest thing and I know that for some of you, there might even be a time where you fall into a relapse with it, but just know if that does occur don’t feel ashamed about it and don’t think that you did wrong, because you didn’t, you’re not weak or anything like that, it’s just a rebuild and process thing, but it’ll all be alright.

If there are people out there who have had someone in their life relapse or know someone whose relapsed, don’t scold them about it…..reassure them and let them know that you’re there for them, support and love them through those times, because believe me they’re already beating themselves up about it, they don’t need scolding or any of that, all they need is love and support.

There’s still a whole lot more to eating disorders than i’m able to explain, this was just my observation and thoughts on it from what I learned, again i’m no expert and have no experienced with it, the only people that can really tell you what it’s like dealing with it and the situation with it as a whole are the ones that have or are going through it……

If you have any thoughts you want to share or add to any knowledge that you think I should know on the topic of eating disorders go ahead, if there’s something I said wrong or messed up on, please do let me know, in the best way possible of course, I really would like to understand this better.

Last thing, if any of you out there, need a place to go to chat or anything like that, you don’t have to, but you’re more than welcome to here, but if you’re wanting or looking for a bit more help, here’s a few links to websites that might just be what you need and for those who want to understand more about this as well, I left some links for you as too.

  1. Better Help
  2. NEDA (National Eating Disorders Association)
  3. Alsana
  4. Understanding Male Eating Disorders
  5. Males And Eating Disorders

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

1 Year Of Blogging With AJ Gifs Feat Paige (A Little Late I Know, July 11, 2019)

So we’ve made it, it’s now been officially a year since I first created this blog!! Yaaay i’d say a little celebration’s in order, wouldn’t you say!?

It’s not really a big one, it’s just me sharing one of my favorite gifs and the closes reaction to a yaaay that I could find and when I say find, I mean I personally searched for this, not this gif in particular though, more like (AJ Lee excited gifs) I wanted something that fit, but also something that said “I know i’m late with this post, but yaaay we made a year on this blog”

I’d say this one wins!! As I was saying though, yes i’m aware that it’s the 13th and not the 11th, originally I wanted to write something the day of it being a year, but I ended up having a bit of a busy day Thursday last week, so I didn’t really get the chance to really write anything (I went to the same place 3 times at different hours in one day)

Even though I didn’t write the day of it being a year, doesn’t mean I wasn’t thinking about writing anything for it. I mean I was thinking about how exactly I was going to start off the post as I was coming back from picking up milk from the store a few days ago, yeah I know weird…..

I even kinda wrote a draft posts in one of my journals just to kinda have an idea on what I was going for, but we all know our thoughts change and we never really go based off our first reaction or idea…….unless it’s one that sticks with you for a while then you might go with the reaction.

So 1 year of blogging, what’s it been like you might ask!? That’s a question, no i’m kidding…..see I would say it’s been great, easy and that I rarely had an issue writing, but that wouldn’t be quite accurate would it now!?

Everyone has a different kind of blogging experience and for me, my blogging experience it’d say……has it’s days……sometimes I feel great and happy with the posts I publish and share and other times I tend to struggle on what to write about (happens quite a lot actually)

Most of the time I never really know how my posts are going to come across if that makes any sense!? Blogging and to be honest i’m sure we’ve all been down this road at some point, we all know that blogging is tough and it can be very discouraging at times as well……

I can’t tell you how many times i’ve questioned my own content as well as myself, sometimes i’ll write something and worry about whether I should’ve posted it or not or if I should delete it when no reads it (I never do) but I also had to let myself know that not everything you post is going to be read and if it is, not everyone is going to react to it…….

I still have those moments at times, but I think we all do, I don’t think that it goes away, but I try to look at it as,”okay so this one didn’t do that well, we’ll just try again in our next post” I think looking at it in that way helps you to not give in to the negative feelings you feel when that happens.

Now I don’t normally express this much, but there have been a lot of moments where I wondered whether or not I should even continue blogging and whether or not my writing is even good enough…..

It’s not the first time i’ve felt like that though, it happens with pretty much everything that I start, I could be doing well with it, but then feel as though, it’s not good enough and so i’d stop……..I never really understood why that was, but it was just a recurring thing all the time, i’d start something, do well with it, feel it wasn’t good enough then stop…..*Repeat process *

I’ve backed out of a lot of things because of that pretty much and that’s due to not really having a lot of believance in myself (i’m sure believance isn’t a word, but I wanted to use it) I still struggle with that actually, but I try to pull through that as best as I can and not have it be something else I stop before it can really get anywhere, that’s why I try to mix things up on here when it comes to my writing……originally when I started my blog,

it was meant to be a place where I could express myself and get my thoughts out of my head, I was feeling a lot of things and wanted to kinda let some of those emotions out, thinking back on it however, i’m not really sure if I ever actually express the emotions I was feeling then……!?

I’m not really the best when it comes to talking about my actual feelings, i’m sure most of you already know that though……I can talk about anything else (depending on the topic that is) but try and ask me how i’m feeling and believe me you’ll be here for a while…..it actually frustrates people whenever they ask me what i’m feeling and i’m unable to answer quick enough, it’s why I don’t really bother on really expressing much.

Along the way of using this as a place to leave my thoughts we’ll say….I wanted to add a bit more to it, so I ended up adding a few of my interests as topics to write about, things that I knew or felt I could write about, favorite games, music, things like that…..i’m not really good at sticking to one topic if i’m being honest and that’s not only with my writing, but also with my personality……kinda, i’m constantly thinking of things,

So adding a bit more variety i’d say has helped me really stick with this whole blogging thing. Before I continue on, I wouldn’t actually have this blog if it wasn’t for a good friend of mine, her name is Ray and I always mention this because it was her that shared WordPress with me and helped me set it up so I always have to thank her for that one and I always will…..

Thanks Ray!! ❤ ❤ ❤

Back to the rest of this post though, I gotta say with blogging, sometimes I don’t always know what i’m doing, it can seem really complicated at times because it always seems like there’s a certain way you need to write when it comes to blogging, which can be a little frustrating, if you feel your writing isn’t the best…….not to compare here or anything, but whenever I read other blogs, I always admire the different writing styles each person has…..

Makes you sometimes wish you could write the way half of the other blogs do, most of those writers know the kind of content they want and how exactly to write on it, they just know how to really express…..but thinking that way in terms of comparing your writing style to others I guess isn’t the best way, because again everyone’s writing style is different, if everyone wrote the same it wouldn’t really be interesting would it!?

I’d be stupid to think each writer had it all figured out, when it came to what they wanted their blogs to represent or just how they wanted it to reflect them if that makes sense!?

With me and my blogging experience I still wonder on how I want my blog site to reflect me…..so far it’s uncategorized, even though there’s some categories to choose from…..it’s still pretty randomized and kinda everywhere, which I guess in a way is me in real life (just got a tad anxious writing that haha, but i’m alright)

I don’t know…..maybe I don’t need to really know exactly what i’m doing when blogging, I mean each of us started our blogs for different reasons, be it to use it as a personal outlet for our thoughts, to share certain interests, moments or maybe even to share photos and that, we don’t always need a specific theme to focus on I guess, sometimes variety is good, it can bring in different people and keep things interesting as well!!

What may not be good enough to us, might not be the same way for others, maybe my uncategorized content is my thing, maybe it brings out and suits my writing style the best who knows…..so far it’s been alright, i’ll have my best days, but I know i’ll also have my not so best days and that’s okay.

Blogging shouldn’t be all about comparing or feeling like you have to be the best in the way you’re writing, in all reality, we’re all really just writers, but in different ways, some of us are and have a bit more expertise than others, but it doesn’t mean the rest of us aren’t good….We all just have a different way of sharing, some of us like to be informative, some creative, personal, you name it……so some of us are unlisted or uncategorized,

It’s not a bad thing, it just means we can rotate through any topic we’re feeling, maybe my writing style isn’t like everyone else’s, but it’s how I write and even if I have days where I question it or myself, I should be proud and happy about it…..there’s no limit to a topic with it, so i’ll keep picking ones that I feel good about and hopefully it’s does it’s best to connect alright.

For those who have enjoyed and come back to my a bit everywhere content, I just want to say a HUGE thank you for it, knowing that some of you really do like what I write, means the absolute world to me!! This blog has grown a little bit more each time since I created it and for that I thank you as well.

Whether you’ve connected with me personally, not like personal, personal, but you know what I mean, whether you’ve liked my posts or have just taken the time to read them and enjoyed my site in general, I just want to let you know that I really do appreciate it and that i’m thankful and grateful not just for you guys, but also for giving me a chance and letting me express myself in the way I know how…..even on the days I struggle, it means a lot.

I don’t know if any of this is going to make much sense, I honestly didn’t expect this to take as long as it did to write, i’ve written and looked this over so many different times, changed a couple of things, added a bit more to it….

I really tried to lay out everything in the best way possible so, hopefully it came across alright……anyway that is all I have for you, thanks once again for all the support and for reading my content, I hope you’re all doing well and having a good day, afternoon and or night!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

P.S. I wrote this originally on the 13th, but took a bit more time with it then I expected, which is why you’re reading it now…….also if you’re wondering why I added AJ Lee gifs for this post, I don’t know I just did……

She’s just a favorite of mine so I figured why not, it was only meant to be one, but I ended up adding a few more.