River Run, River Flow….(May 24, 2019)

Two different songs play in my head when I read the word River…….Ed Sheeran Ft Eminem’s song river and Scott James’s song (you might not be aware of this artist as he’s not well known, but he’s good and one of my favorites to listen to)

One comes in hard hitting, the other soft and mellow, although they are completely different to each other, really different actually……they do have something in common and it has to do with their songs, when you listen to them you’ll realize that the way their songs are (music style wise) that’s how rivers are…….sometimes they flow very harshly…..

While other times they can flow nicely and smoothly, it all depends on the way they are and the way their made really……..Eminem’s version of the song (featuring Ed Sheeran) starts off nicely and then moves a little more rapidly as it goes along…….Scott James song on the other hand, he goes for a softer approach and just let’s it flow along while taking in everything.

Similar to some rivers, some move quite rapidly and some are calmer and have a more mellow flow to it…….some rivers may even have a combination of both rapid and calm to it, again it all depends really on the way their formed, but to tie it all together somehow…….these two different songs both share the similarities with the way rivers run and flow, not lyrics wise or anything, but based off the style both songs are sang/ free-styled in.

One song gives you the feel of being caught within the rapidness and intense part of the river, while the other song gives you more of a chilled out feeling, with just sitting by the river, enjoying it’s company as well as everything that comes with it.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

From A Bird In A Window To This…..(May 16, 2019)

I’m going to be completely honest with you here…….I don’t know what this is and I made this haha, I could tell you the backstory to this one, but just to give you a disclaimer, it’s not really a long one, in fact this here pretty much formed on it’s own…….

I had something completely different in mind, but it didn’t come together as I hoped it would, but after a bit of frustration turned calm, some tinkering to it here and there and animal crossing music, this is what flourished…….

It took 2 days for it to come out this way, but i’d say it’s quite something and I mean that in a good way, but yeah……don’t know what i’ll be naming this one, but whatever the name, i’m happy with this!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Elements: Water

One of the best ways to healing

It’s calm, just like the waves on a shore

And it keeps you relaxed when tension starts to rise….

Sea animals love it and that’s why some of them call it home

Water lets you float about and just drift away

It has it’s good areas and it’s gray areas

But there’s no denying, nothing like the feel of it….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Reflection (December 5, 2018)

Hey everyone hope you’re all doing well today, as you all know we’re still in the beginning of the month December, todays the 5th of course and so I thought let’s do a little reflecting on some stuff……….where do we start!? We all do a little reflecting from time to time, sometimes their good and other times they don’t feel the best, but no matter how they come about, they can help even if in the moment it doesn’t seem like it.

Today for me, my reflective state is more on the not sure side of town, I feel alright kinda, I guess…….it’s just i’m not sure on a lot of things and I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing, I don’t know how to really balance things out or if I do balance things, i’m not sure whether to look at it in a positive light more or the opposite. I don’t really want to look at it in a bad light, it’s just when you feel something, it’s hard to not really look into it a certain way you know!?……..I’m not sure if i’m making sense right now, but I hope you understand what i’m trying to say. 

I’ll just get to the point of why i’m in a reflective mode at the moment. So I was looking to add a different profile photo to my blog site and my social medias, but as I was doing that, I couldn’t help, but look at some of my other photos in my gallery and looking back at them………well i’ll just say it, I smiled for a bit…….and then I found myself getting emotional after………..I don’t know why………okay I do know why, it was because I realized how much I really changed from those photos. In them I would always smile, I would even take random photos of myself when I was having a really good day or if I liked the way I looked, I know that probably sounds real shallow or something, but believe me I wasn’t doing it for attention or anything. 

I’d just take random silly photos because I was happy and those photos I never posted because I didn’t feel the need to, I just felt I wanted to take them so I could look back at them. It sounds crazy I know, but really they were just photos to look back on for me. As I was looking back on them though, I couldn’t help, but go into deep thought mode……….I wrote in my writing journal that most people when they reflect they don’t question their changes, at least I don’t think they do……….me though i’m always going back and forth with my changes, had I not changed would things be different!? I don’t know…….it’s like I have days where I feel the changes that happened to me are i’m sure for the better, but at the same time I also wonder if me changing………was it wrong!? should I have done that!? I don’t know……….

I know a lot of us don’t plan on changing, it just happens and a lot of the time we aren’t prepared for it, I didn’t expect the changes that occurred, to turn things upside down. It’s kinda like being in the middle of an ocean or river………everything’s fine you’re enjoying all that is happening around you and it’s just great, you feel great………then out of nowhere you find that the current of the ocean or river start picking up, at first you think you’re able to handle it and that you will bounce back and everything will be okay again………but then it starts to get worst and the current from the river or ocean, you find is going into speed mode and you’re holding on as best as you can, but you know that it’s not good enough.

You’re trying to stay calm and not panic, but it just keeps getting stronger and faster, now you find yourself starting to freak out “What is happening!?” “Why is this happening” “I don’t know what to do” all of those things keep running in and out of your head, but even though all that is happening, you still do your best to stay calm even though you’re freaking out. After a good while of dealing and going through all that mess, things start to calm down and the current starts to go back to normal a bit………the only thing is now, you find yourself constantly having mental breakdowns and becoming unsure of a lot of things, some days your good, other days your not……..time passes though and you feel a little better, you find yourself kinda getting back into the groove of things, you’re doing the best you can, yet you know that deep down, not only are things not the same entirely………..but neither are you.

You sit with yourself, contemplating in your mind how everything go so out of wack so quickly, what happened!? why did it happen!? and then you kinda start to blame yourself, saying things like “If I hadn’t changed or if I hadn’t done this……..everything would be fine, non of this would’ve happened”……….It’s crazy you know, that saying that goes ” A lot can happen within a year” is true, you could go from feeling the greatest that you’ve ever felt in a long time, to constantly feeling unsure of everything and constantly wondering………now maybe all that is for the better, who’s to say it isn’t right!?

Sometimes though, it’s that curious side to us that has to always wonder whether it is or not. Even if we ended up getting caught in a huge current, that we weren’t prepared for………..we still should look at things from a different perspective, maybe all that was to see how much you could handle, maybe you’ll look back at it and reflect on it differently, who knows………for now, we’ll just do our best and try to take in everything around us again and when the current starts to pick up again, we’ll be as prepared as we can be and hopefully this time it isn’t all that bad.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~ 

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