An Hour Before Midnight…..

11pm.

I was in a deep sleep, but was awaken,

By the sound of chaos filling this house….

I try and head back to sleep, but it’s no use

The chaos only grew louder and louder….

Stuck in a tense state, wanting to scream

Wanting to shut off the noise, but unable to….

My emotions then start to go into hyperdrive

A growl with the words “shut up” escaped my mouth,

Only no one could hear…..Chaos that’s all we ever hear

……..

Outside now…..it’s calm,

No noise, just me and the cold air

I sit with my tea in hand,

Looking at the night sky, gazing at the few stars in it……

Planes in the sky, oh how I wish that was me on them.

I look around a bit and then back at the sky

Thinking to myself about everything in my mind

The night sky sure is lovely don’t you think!?

Makes you not want to leave it…….

………

Back inside, I walk around a few rooms

Now in my room, tired, but also restless

1am, the clock reads,

Around 1:30am is the time I finally get to sleep

A lot in my head though, but not too long

That hour before Midnight,

Soon turned into the morning…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Cough, Cough, Cough….

Awww not again, why won’t you just leave,

It seems like the only one you feel the need to bother is me….

I drink water and I drink tea, I drink every beverage that I see (non alcoholic of course, I don’t drink)

I try and hold you in, but of course a stubborn mule like you,

Just keeps on pushing……we could be in the most quietest place,

Then BOOM RKO, OUT OF NOWHERE, there you go…..

You will go soon, I know it, even though you think you won’t

You and I both know, at some point you always do……

Now excuse me as I go on a coughing spree for the next few minutes….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Numb…..

Numb like a body in icy waters……

Numb like the presence of someone that drains everything out of you…..

Numb in the presence of something oh so familiar,

Numb like the emotions that’ll soon take over….

Why so numb you ask!?

Well, it’s cause I don’t know how to be anything else, but that…..

I could shake the feeling, I could try to feel something else

But I like it, even though I know it’s no good for me,

At least it’s a feeling that will never leave me…….

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All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~ ❤ ❤

Time……

Fast time, slow time, what time is it!?

My time, your time, who’s time is it!?

Is it wrong, is it right, why is it hard to pick a time!?

No time to worry, no time to stress,

All we need to do is figure out a time to sort it……

We can sort it, I know we can, it’s just all on the time.

No timing is right, no timing is wrong,

All that matters is that it’s sorted…….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Scattered Mind…..

Scattered Mind, Sleepless Nights,

Every Thought In My Head…..

I Toss & Turn, As The Feeling Continues To Stir……

Looks Like I’m Staying Up Instead…….

Morning’s Here, Up At The Sound Of The Alarm,

Restless From The Night Before,

Scattered Mind, Still In Gear, Still Being Lead By Fear……..

March 19, 2019…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Anxiety…..

What are you doing here!? I didn’t ask for your company……I’m trying to stay calm, yet you keep wanting me to worry!?

Although you maybe trying to take over completely, I will not let you in, I will continue to stay calm and keep you from getting to me.

I maybe stressed and unable to focus, but that doesn’t mean, you have the right to try and push your way in, so go away because you’re not welcome.

You can try and scare me off, but it’s not going to work, i’m in charge, you’re just an emotion, a fear that I refuse to let win.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Impatient…..

Impatient I am, Impatient i’ll be, impatient because of me……i’m calm, but i’m not, i’m trying, yet I still feel I need to try harder.

Can’t think straight and my mind is tired, but I know that I can’t stop……..holding on to my emotions, while trying to keep these thoughts from scattering.

Breathe I know, relax I know, i’m trying can’t you see!!? My frustration grows and emotions flow, but i’m trying to somehow keep it together……

Impatient I am, but patient is what I have to be, because even though my impatience is me……at least i’m trying…….

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Lost In Thought…..

My mind thinks, as i’m lost in thought. Every little thought calmly floating around in my head, thinking deeply as I add a little emotion to the mix.

These thoughts, I ponder and these emotions they linger, wanting me to hear them, forcing me to feel them, can’t hide it or ignore it if I tried…….

Lost in thought again, thinking deeper now, sitting still as i’m trying to keep my mind and emotions under control.

I’m no longer lost in thought, now i’m just thinking……

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~