The Cycle Continues….(July 10, 2019)

“It’s a circle, I mean cycle” may not seem like the grandest lyrics, but it sure is one of the best lyrics written by the band Paramore, from their song Ignorance, it’s quite simple, yet still affective and one of my picks for the song of the day (if you haven’t heard the song, i’d say give it a listen, if you like that kind of music anyway)

Now i’m not sure if any of what i’m going to write is going to make sense, but let’s see how it all turns out, it might just do……I don’t really understand why some of us do this, why do most of us feel the need to put energy into something that isn’t going to benefit us in the long run!?

Seriously….I mean I get that there are just some things that are hard to ignore, but why bother going out of your way to let certain situations, things and even people affect you!? I could understand if the feeling of the affect is mutual, especially if the affect is coming from certain people, but if you find yourself being the only person getting fired up and agitated all the time, wouldn’t you just leave it alone after awhile!?

Why feed the beast, if you know the beast isn’t going to budge when you’re feeding it!?……I know this is probably a random example, but it came to mind so i’m going to use it, you know in the movie Napoleon Dynamite where he’s trying to feed Tina the Lama or Alpaca dinner (not really sure which one it was, might’ve been a Lama if correct, but I could be wrong)

In the movie he’s trying to feed her, but she’s not eating the food that he’s giving her and you can see, if you’ve watched the movie, how the more he tries to feed her and he sees she’s not eating, the more he ends up frustrated about it…….now i’ve watched that movie a couple times……it’s quite a classic actually, maybe not for everyone and that’s okay.

Thinking back at that scene though, if he noticed she wasn’t eating it right away, had he just maybe given her the food and left it for her to eat when she was actually hungry, it probably would’ve kept his frustration levels low…….what i’m trying to get at is, instead of getting angry or annoyed and letting your emotions run wild as well as continuing to have your stress levels on the roof all the time,

Try just leaving it……actually scratch that, leave it alone, keep it from affecting you so much to the point where it starts affecting everyone else around you, because you may think that your the only one that feels the way you’re feeling, but deep down whether we want to see it that way or not, deep down we know that our moods and the energy that we tend to bring out, affects everyone that is near……

However when it comes to people and certain situations that’s giving you more of a cloud over your head, it doesn’t necessarily mean that person or situation is going to put the same cloud over everyone else’s head, the only thing that will affect everyone is the kind of energy that is being put out…..so if your energy isn’t the greatest and sucks (sorry, yet not sorry) as well as your attitude, It’s going to scatter out on everyone else……

The same way rain falls from the sky and unless you enjoy gloomy days (I do at times, not always, I enjoy rain though) I would avoid or at least minimize and not bother as much on the things, situations or people that really doesn’t keep you on at least a good neutral scale.

If it’s affecting you more than it should and it’s taking you away from having some kind of peace of mind, stop going out of your way to feed it, stop worrying about it, just take the Beatles advice and “Let It Be”

It’s not worth your energy, time or sanity……if we can be good at avoiding calls and messages to some people, than we can manage to not put ourselves in harms way with things that drives us up the wall. We have the ability to tune people out, which by the way isn’t always ideal, because it’s important to listen to people when something is being said, even if we don’t want to hear it and we’ve all been there and done that many times…..

Overall, don’t worry about things that aren’t your things to worry about, especially when it involves only you with a sword, just focus and worry about you, as well as the things and people that keep you grounded.

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Jan 7, 2019

So today’s been a little stressful and that’s because i’ve been thinking about a whole lot of things today and i’ve been worrying about some stuff as well, that I won’t talk too much about because I don’t want to make this a sad post, with that being said i’m doing and trying my best to stay calm and not get wrapped up in the emotions and stressfulness of everything happening, is it hard yes, but when things are a little hard and stressful, you have to remind yourself that it’s probably not as bad as what other people might be going through, so for me I just gotta deal with it.

To actually quote one of my favorite songs at the moment, it’s a Paramore song and it’s called Idle Worship, it’s from their latest album After Laughter and the line goes: We all got problems, don’t we? We all need heroes, don’t we? I actually really love this song, it’s a realization kind of song in my opinion, if that makes sense at all, hopefully it does, I actually talked about this song in a post when I was reviewing their album, which i’ll be honest didn’t do well………….i’ll have to look back at it and read it again, but it’s a great album though I would suggest checking it out, different kind of Paramore, but also a really good kind of Paramore as well.

Let’s switch to a different kind of light here shall we!? So as I said a little earlier I was doing a lot of thinking and a doing a small amount of reflecting as well, I ended up looking back at some of my old journals that I filled completely and those journals I actually use to write wrestling reviews in when I watched wrestling. I don’t know why, I think it’s because i’m missing it a whole lot, I probably told you guys this before on how much I enjoyed wrestling, but I don’t think I ever told you how much I enjoyed it.

I won’t explain it any other way, i’m just gonna say it, I was obsessed with wrestling, like it was my life in a way pretty much and that probably sounds crazy and all, but it’s true!! I would watch it every week it came on and while it was on i’d review it every week by writing it in my journal and then most times reviewing it on my Youtube Channel, if I decided to make a video on it which was pretty much the whole purpose of reviewing it.

I’d watch it every Monday & Tuesday mainly, Monday’s was Raw and Tuesdays Smackdown Live, I use to watch 205 Live as well which came on after Smackdown, but I stopped watching it after a good while, also PPV’s were on Sundays each month, but the days they’d land on were always different, and if you think i’m pulling your leg on how much I love wrestling, although I don’t think you would think that, but i’ll just say this, when my brother was in the Marines, he told me to keep him updated on everything that was happening in wrestling and weeeell I definitely kept him updated that’s for sure.

There was about a few pages, i’d say probably 2-3 pages, maybe 4 i’m not sure, but yeah that’s how much I loved it. I haven’t watched wrestling for a long while now which I probably stated in other posts, it’s always on my mind though for some reason. Today I ended up looking to see if there were any wrestling bloggers and I found a few, but the main one I came across went by the name of hairywrestlingfan, his whole blog site is dedicated to wrestling and he even writes poems on specific wrestlers, to you it probably seems weird, but they’re really good, the way he writes the poems, they’re definitely worth reading, i’ll tell you that.

I only read one of the poems and the poem was dedicated to a wrestler by the name of Daniel Bryan, some of you might’ve heard of him and a lot of you probably haven’t, but for those who are wrestling fans and for those who are fans of Daniel Bryan, I would suggest checking it out, because it’s a really amazing poem and it’s also a really great dedication to Daniel and his wrestling career as a whole as well so check it out, you can find it here if you’re interested in reading it: https://hairywrestlingfan.com/2018/04/04/the-american-phoenix-an-original-poem/

Besides the poem though, I also ready his Top 10 things that happened in pro wrestling in 2018 which even though i’ve been missing a whole lot of wrestling, I still enjoyed the post, I sorta caught up on what happened, but I still got a lot to catch up on, but it was good to read a lot of what happened already, surprising stuff in it, check it out, it’s a good list, also be sure to check out hairywrestlingfan’s site as well, it’s there for you guys just in case and show them some love and support, i’m sure they’d appreciate it.

If you guys have anything you want to share or any thoughts, feel free to comment them down below, i’d love to hear about them!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~

Pain…..

“Why do we like to hurt so much!?” That’s the question that Paramore sung about in their song That’s What You Get from their album Riot. It’s a good question at that as well, why do we like hurting so much!? Is it because it’s an easier feeling to hold on to!? or it is because deep down we secretly like when we hurt!? So many questions, yet not really enough answers to them. I’m not quite sure whether to consider hurt and pain the same thing, I think they are the same, but I think they’re also different in a sense too, which would make them one in the same I guess you can say.

I mean when you feel hurt there’s some kind of pain involved and when you’re in pain, you’re hurting, I think it’s only different in the way you’re using it, you know like context wise which makes it confusing, but anyway another part to the song That’s What You Get by Paramore goes: “Pain, make your way to me, to me and i’ll always be just so inviting” 

When you really think about this line, what she sings here is actually very true, we’re always so easy to let any pain we’re feeling stay longer than it needs to, we don’t ever tell the pain and hurt to go away, it’s like we crave some kind of pain in a way and that’s the crazy part, why!? Why let pain and hurt stay around when we know it’s not doing us any good!? That would explain why we’re not satisfied with a lot of things and why it is we feel unhappy all the time………….it’s just easy to feel and deal with pain, then any other better emotions that we have. Why do we question and wonder why it is that we can’t feel happy, why we can’t feel joy or laugh and smile!?

Why are those the hardest things to feel, but pain and hurt isn’t!? The fact that we have to wonder that, should say a lot shouldn’t it!? We let it in like nothing and a lot of the time it comes around, half of the time it doesn’t even knock, it’s just there and when it does leave, it doesn’t go away permanently and it won’t go away, it’s always going to be there, but we shouldn’t have to keep letting it in so easy when it does decide to show up.

So is there even an answer to why we like hurting so much!? I don’t know, there could be, but I don’t know the answer to it…………..to me it’s unknown why we prefer to hurt then to not hurt, I think we prefer it because it’s easier, but then again it’s like we feel more pain inside, yet try and hide it as if we’re always happy and that everything’s alright, it always circles around in someway doesn’t it!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

~Lexa~