Closely Looking…..

Have you ever looked at a tree closely!? No I don’t mean up close and personal, but more while taking in the scenery around you, but keep your focus on something specific for a good while. To explain it, I like to go in the backyard and sit there for a while, either that or i’ll somewhat pace back and fourth, while doing one of those things, i’ll have my focus on the birds if I see any, sometimes squirrels and most times i’m looking up at the trees,

Yesterday though, I found myself in admiration with the way the trees were, while really glancing at them, I came to the realization that if you look at it long enough, they sorta look like roots…..yes I know trees have roots that they plant themselves in the ground with, but what I mean is that when there’s very little leaves on them, they look roots touching the sky and then I thought about how sometimes brain activity looks like that, scientifically speaking in a way I guess, kinda…..not actually really sure, I know what I mean i’m just not sure if it’s making sense coming out, but we’ll move on….

Lightning when it’s flashing in the sky during a thunderstorm can also look like it actually, which I find interesting, they’re all like root like, as weird as all this may sound…..long story short, I found it fascinating knowing that if you look at a tree that doesn’t have a lot of leaves to it long enough……..it becomes something different and sometimes it’ll remind you of things,

Whether they make sense or not, I also thought with the leaves, on certain parts of the tree, looked kinda like a paint brush, then again that might’ve just been me, I realize this post might look like a scratch on the head,

but the whole point of it, well that I was trying to make I think was that sometimes if you look closely at something, it can give you something interesting and maybe have you look at it a little different to how you might’ve normally seen it before or it might just have you admiring it, giving you a sense of appreciation for it, just a little more deeply…..

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Everything Changes Eventually (Nov 23, 2018)

Evening Pages (Nov 23, 2018): If it wasn’t so cold outside i’d be writing this in the backyard, instead i’m writing this in my room with the window open a bit, listening to everything that’s going on outside. I did go outside though, only for a bit of course, I walked around a bit in the backyard, holding my journal and pencil close to me……as I was back there, I couldn’t help, but look at everything, I looked at the grass, the trees, I looked at the birds that flew by, just everything. As I looked around, I thought about how everything eventually changes, the seasons are a clear example of that, we all know Winter doesn’t stay long, same goes for Autumn, Spring and Summer, eventually those seasons come to pass after they’ve welcome their stay. The seasons know they can’t stay for long, which is why when their time comes to move on, they don’t, well sometimes they tend to stay longer then they should and sometimes they’ll even switch in between each other, just so they don’t have to leave so soon, at least that’s how I like to see it. (End of Journal Entry) 

This was a small entry from my writing journal, that I wrote yesterday……there was more to it, but I just wanted to write that part here and see if I could explain something different on this post. I talked about observing things in my last post and it seems as though I find myself doing that a lot, as well as reflecting on everything. While I was outside in my backyard, I was thinking on how I remember being back there and it being summer and the way I was during that time, I was a complete mess those days………i’d go back and although I wouldn’t dare admit this on any other day, I would go back there to mainly reflect and think, but whenever I’d do that, I would find myself crying a lot of the time back there too……..it wasn’t because I wanted to, but anytime I felt I needed to let my emotions out, that’s where i’d go, not a lot of people know that, so for those reading this you guys are the first to know.

I was really stressed out most of the summer and still kinda stress now, although I try and keep myself calm when I feel myself stressing nowadays, it’s not always easy though. You might want to know the reasons why I was or why I would cry to myself a lot of the time, if I sat here and told you why we’d be here all day, because there was a lot of reasons to it, one of the main reasons though was, well I was stressed for one and also because I would constantly worry about everything, whether I was doing okay, how everything was gonna go…….everything, I still worry about those things now, but I try my best to minimize how much I worry. In those days though, I think the best thing to come from all of that, was that I had my blog and my journals to write in when I needed something and although it took me a while, writing everything out I was feeling in the best way that I could, really helped.

It’s crazy how everything can just go from one thing and then be something completely different the next time you encounter it………It’s like when you really look at things from a different perspective and everything, you tend to find out different things then what you already know and in those things that you know, you find that it doesn’t matter what you do, some things are bound to change and no amount of trying to fix it is gonna work………but even then, it’s all about trying your best and doing your best to keep going, no matter the pain, stress, worry, uncertainty, all of it…….you just gotta keep going, even on those days where you aren’t sure whether you want to or not, just keep going. No matter what kind of changes take place, just try and go with it as best as you can, even if they aren’t the ideal changes that you wanted………..eventually things change and it’s just something we have to accept.   

My quote of the day:  You know I always loved Autumn, there’s just somethings about it, maybe it’s all the colorful leaves that lay on the ground or it could be the way the trees go from being brightly orange with a mix of red and yellow leaves attached………to nothing at all. It’s also the feel of it too.

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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Evening Pages (Nov 21, 2018)

Do you ever just observe something just for the heck of it!? I do it all the time, not exactly sure why that is, there’s just something about really looking at something, I know that may sound very weird and all, but for me I find it to be very soothing at times, it can also be very calming and relaxing as well. I like to observe this little bracelet I have, the reason being is because of the way it looks, it’s very simple and unique to me, that being said though, it broke a while ago, but I didn’t want to get rid of it, now I know you’re probably saying why keep a bracelet that’s broken!? Right you are with that question, the reason I haven’t gotten rid of it is because I just like looking at it.

It’s a Lokai bracelet and for some reason whenever i’m overthink about something or just in deep thought, I find myself lately admiring and observing it a lot more these days, sure it’s broken and all and yeah I can’t wear it, but I can still hold it and move it around in my hand, it may seem weird to a lot of you, but I find it to be very calming when I mess with it. I’m sure we all have something we like messing with just for the heck of it or just when we feel we need to calm down a bit, sometimes just observing things can help you think better and keep you from stressing out a whole lot, even if it’s just for a little while, it’s also good for reflecting on things. 

I know this one’s a very short post, I didn’t have much to say today, i’ve pretty much been in this mode all day, so much thinking, and less talking ha, I wrote a good amount of words in my writing journal earlier today if that counts, anyway I hope you all have a goodnight/morning and or evening, also for those of you who celebrate Thanksgiving, I hope you enjoy the holiday and for those who don’t really celebrate it and it’s just another day, I hope you all enjoy your day, I just want to say that i’m super grateful to each and everyone of you guys, who take the time to read my posts and wanting to continue to follow along with them as well, you don’t know how much that means to me, I really appreciate it, thank you so much. 

All The Love ❤ ❤ 

~Lexa~

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