The Heat & Rain Of May….(Monthly Talks)

Happy Sunday! As you may all already know, we’ve come to the last 2 days of the month of May and boy have a lot of things been happening this month, I’d like to say that, it’s been more eventful during the months of May then the other months that have gone by, but then again, every month has it’s moments, don’t you think!? I’m now 27 thanks to May and no my birthday is not today, it was earlier into the month, I don’t normally speak on when my birthday arrives, because I just don’t like to, let’s just say I’m not one to like too much spotlight on me!

I’d like to think my birthday was somewhat decent this year, I didn’t really do too much, but I did sorta enjoy myself leading up to my birthday…..I was kind of nervous and then it came and yeah I didn’t know what to feel, if i’m being honest I still don’t know what to feel…..it’s a little hard to believe that I’m already 27, but we all know that eventually we’ll just keep getting older even when we don’t actually feel it! If anyone is even curious at all to what I think, I feel that this month has taught me a lot, to explain it would be very difficult on my part, but if I had to try and put it into words the best way that I can…..one of the things May has had me really look at is, how ready you actually are, plus really seeing the kind of growth and transformation one has made…..

Does any of that makes sense!? I’m not sure, but I did say I would try and explain it the best way I could didn’t I, well that’s my way of explaining it, I felt a lot of emotions this month and excuse me for a moment because I’m going to do something I never actually do too often and that’s being honest with you all…..I like to keep my emotions and thoughts to myself usually because to express them out loud, is not only very and extremely difficult for me, but you might as well knowing everything about me! You see if I were to just say everything that’s in my heart and in my head….I think I would be in a lot of trouble because I know that there would be a hand full of people that would not be happy with me…

So as much as I struggle to keep everything under control and away from the mic when asked what it is you feel….I do my best to swallow all those things and keep them from escaping my mouth because I don’t know how else to do it, but I’d like to think I’ve improved at making people believe that it’s all good under the surface, but I’m also a little aware that people aren’t stupid and if my hunch is right then their able to sense something within me that I’m not saying, but are kind enough to not ask me unless I feel the need to want to talk about these things….little do they know, I’ll never be the one to go up to them and just say what it is i’m feeling.

It’s not something most people would admit, but it’s the truth…..the only way you’re going to get me to say what I’m thinking is knowing me extremely well, but take what I just said there with a pinch of salt because even though there are very few and I mean it very few that I can sit and genuinely speak to about my feelings without judgement or worry, I still won’t express myself to just anyone, not my family and sometimes not even my best friend and she’s my best friend….but I don’t like to talk about my feelings so I keep them to myself…..there’s only 1 person whose able to get me to say what I need to say without fail and that’s only because eventually I just tell on myself and let it out, but if I can help it….I won’t say a word!

I always feel whenever I do express myself, I wish I hadn’t, my emotions get too much for me and so when I am being honest about my feelings, it makes me feel as though it’s too much for other people and then I get upset with myself where I’m always thinking “I always say too much or write too much” and then I wish I could just take everything back into a vaccuum (or hoover is some places) it’s already hard for me to want to be open with some people and so when I do I always want to feel that it means something and is being understood properly and that I’m not just talking a load of rubbish shit and things like that…..but another thing that I’ve really tried soaking in this month is that, there are things that you have to be brave enough to say by yourself even if you find it hard to say out loud, you still should say it in the ways you do feel comfortable!

I know I’ve not written a lot these days and that’s because I was trying to challenge myself a bit, see if I could be open about specifics with just saying it, not by writing, but by actually saying it….spoiler…..it’s not really been vocalized too much and whenever I felt I failed to speak it out loud, I would get frustrated with myself because I would find myself going for it, but would hold back so I didn’t….however with every non vocal words….i’d force myself to write about it even when I didn’t want to….I felt like if I didn’t I was going to become angry with myself, due to the fact that I was holding it in.

It took a minute before I realized that, just because I can’t say it out loud just yet, doesn’t mean that I need to get upset with myself, I had to give permission and be okay with the fact that I use writing as a way of expressing what I have hard time saying out loud, not that I didn’t already know that, I mean it’s the reason I started this blog in the first place I needed something so I didn’t feel like I was holding everything in, so if writing is my way, then I have to accept that and remember it helps me to get my real feelings out, at the end of the day, I still try and so the more I try, the better I know I’ll become!

This month has also given me insight of what happens when you continue to hold yourself and take it from me if you can help it….do NOT wait too long….if you have something in your heart and on your mind constantly, don’t about too much, just go for it…..the longer you wait the more likely you are to lose it….I might’ve risked something extremely important to me and the fact that I always take forever on everything is one of my traits that I absolutely, I won’t say hate because that’s a strong word, even though I just kind of said it, but it’s one I really don’t like….although I understand…..it really does bother me….but the way I need to look at it is,

That part of it is done and has been like it for a while, but just because 1 road closes, that doesn’t mean that there aren’t other back ways to take….so I need to be brave enough to go a different route, I’m not going to give up and although I know I haven’t been given up on…..I still feel like it’s my job to really do something this time around and not wait anymore, so however it’s going to play out….I need to allow it, because if I want to get there, no amount of words is going to get you there…..you have to be willing to really go for it, even if it does leave people upset with you, life doesn’t wait, so you have to not be scared to do what it is you want, you have to show yourself that you can do it and that you will, otherwise you’re going to be there waiting forever!

So I just hope that I didn’t lose that chance to proving myself and going after something that’s important to me, other then that, that’s everything I needed to say for this month….hopefully you all had a good month to May!

All The Love ❤ ❤ ❤

Lexa

Early Morning Thoughts….

Well it’s about 4am at the current moment, yeah I’m not really sure why i’m up so early either…..I’ve tried going back to sleep, but I haven’t had much luck so here I am writing a post this early in the morning! Hope everyone’s morning is going well so far, I know it’s been a bit of a while since I went ahead and wrote anything….I’ll be honest I haven’t really felt the need to write, lately I’ve only been writing every now and again. I guess that’s just where I’m at currently just writing every now and again, when I started this blog, it was because I felt I didn’t really have much of a voice, I was having a very hard time expressing myself out loud vocally

It was thanks to a very good friend of mine where I found out about WordPress, she helped me set it up and everything and from there I now had a place to express myself freely in anyway I liked and saw fit, plus I always used to write anyway just in a journal, I never really thought to express my feelings using a blog site before, but after learning about it, I started writing to help me get my feelings out that were hard for me to express naturally! It’s coming to 4 years of creating this blog and although I don’t write as much to when I first started, I still hold a very big fondness of the site I created….I know it probably sounds weird that I’m speaking about this especically so early in the morning, let alone randomly, but I’m hoping that you understand regardless!!

I’m always writing, even when I’m not writing if that makes sense!? No matter where I am or where I go I tend to have some kind of journal on me, I may not write in it all the time, but I know that if I were to need it, all I have to do is go into my back and jot down a few things and then some….but I should try and be honest and say that I do sometimes get tired of writing and when I say it like that I don’t mean it in a bad way, I’m not saying I don’t ever want to write again….I just for one know myself very well and I know that me not writing just won’t happen, but sometimes I write a lot, like more than I expect sometimes and although I’m always amazed by how much I get out that way…..

I just would like to be able to show myself more and be okay with expressing it vocally without feeling like I’m going to say the wrong thing or just not have that same confidence that I do when I am writing, I really don’t like having to be afraid of saying what it is that is on my mind and hoping that when I’m expressing it, I’m not sitting there wondering to myself “is it going to be understood, will I say it the same way I’m thinking it!?” because I always know that it’s not going to come out the same, it always comes out a totally different way and having to explain what I actually mean to certain people, just….raises my Anxiety and stress levels up, I try not to be that way at times, but sometimes it’s a little impossible especially when you’re someone with a lot of patience who does their best to make sure they’re really understanding people and what their feelings!

That all being said however, as much as I may not want it to be sometimes, writing is my way of expressing myself clearly without much worry, even when I’m afraid to say things….it always shows patience with me as weird as it is to say, but it’s the truth! If were to tell you the many times I was terrified of writing things down, always getting myself anxious and stressed out because I didn’t know where to start, but eventually something would come out and I would just follow it from there, I know I’ve improved in being more open when I speak,

but I also know that I still struggle to get my true feeling inside out, especially when I need it to count most and that’s what where I need to build my courage towards standing up for the things I feel strongly about regardless to how it gets interpreted and if I have to write it down just to get it out there, then I need to not be afraid of using what works to my adventage when I feel myself struggling the most to get it out vocally…..it will always leave me emotional, for different reasons 1. because of how easily frustrated I get with myself and 2. because I know that once I do get out what it is I need to get out, that I am going to feel loads better about it and say “see it wasn’t so bad….sorta” right after i’ve given myself so much headaches about it!

It can be a lot to deal with sometimes, but I know that the only way things move forward is by trying even when it seems hard, I always feel the need to say something, but never do because I hold myself back a lot, I know I’ve evolved a lot from before, it’s just putting those things into orbit that I have trouble with, oh and in case it wasn’t clear….this is me also apologizing for not writing in a while, even though I did say that my writing was slowing down and that I wouldn’t be writing as much, but still I always feel I should at least write sometimes….but I’m giving myself permission to be okay with writing when I feel it to be necessary,

We’re all human and we shouldn’t put ourselves in a tight hold so much, but anyway it’s almost 5:30am as I wrap up this post, I’m going to try and get a bit more rest, I’ve only slept 4 hours, I’ll be missing the sunrise, but that’s okay I’ve seen half of it, hope you guys have a good rest of the day, take care and stay safe!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

It’s A New Dawn, New Day, New Month! Well…..Almost…..

Anyone else feeling exhausted!? This month is nearly over and I can’t tell you how tired I am, I’ve not been able to really sleep properly for the past few days, I just started getting a little bit of sleep, not fully, but somewhat! I don’t know if it’s just me that’s been feeling that way though….all I know is I’m ready for a nice chill break! Last week….let’s not talk about it actually….weekend kind of similar, but it was fine! We’ve arrived half way through this week with it being Wednesday and we’re on the last few days of October with Halloween being this Sunday talk about crazy yeah!?

We’re coming to November next week, hard to believe, but it’s true! I want to say that I’m looking forward to the arrival of November, I mean I am, but I’m also just very nervous about it….I have this trip planned for next week and I just don’t know how to feel about it, really….I want to be excited about it, but I don’t know if I should approach it with caution or if I should just embrace it regardless to how I’ve been feeling lately!? November is usually one of my favorite months during the fall season, it’s the first time I’m not sure how to feel about it…..although I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about it before either to be honest!?

I never really understood why that is!? Why it’s one my favorites is what I mean….I’ve just always been drawn to it, like if I had to pick a new month to switch my birthday on, it would be November! Now I’m not saying I don’t like May….I’m glad that I was born during the Spring time, May is actually one of my favorite months and no it has nothing to do with that fact that I was born during that month, I just always liked May, plus I always felt it made for a nice name!

I’m just saying there’s just something about November that I’ve always liked, I guess cause it’s one of the Autumn months and Autumn is my second favorite season, Spring being my main favorite, again nothing to do with my birthday! There’s so much to this season….fall is the season of change, sometimes good and sometimes not always…..but still we have no choice, but to just allow it even when we may not want to allow it….I mean you can’t change a season, the only way the weather can change is if it changes itself! Sounds similar to how us humans change huh!? Some times it comes naturally while other days it may be a little forced!

One thing I’ve learned though is how important change is, we all know change is inevitable, there are things that happen that we may not want to happen and it can leave us confused, as well as unsure about a lot of things! One minute things are good and one minute you feel it shift and you don’t know how to feel about it when that does happen, what I’m saying is Change is frustrating ha! I used to strongly dislike change, but later down the line, I started to be okay with it, because I knew that it was needed in order to grow and be who you felt yourself transforming into, sometimes it hard though and you don’t always know the ways you’re changing, you just know that things are different with it!

You feel different, the way you used to see things are different and you tend to notice that what once was….is no longer the same, at least what it used to be anyway and not a lot of people like that, nor can they handle it…..but as much as you may want it to be, not everything is going to be in our control! You have to let people do what they feel they need to do, you have to allow them to grow and figure out what it is they want for themselves, not what you want it to be! Not a lot of people get that though….but it’s very important that we do get that and understand it as well….

It may leave us not feeling the greatest, but when you deeply care and love someone, all you truly want is just for them to be happy and so it takes a lot of courage and maturity to say “Hey if this is what you want, I support you” You always want people to be the best they can be for themselves even if they stumble a bit, it all comes down to just letting them know that you’re always going to be there, no matter what their choices are or the mistakes they make along the way, that regardless you’re going to love them anyway! We’re always so quick to assume or judge and although it’s not how we may want it to go, it’s how life is in reality and that’s coming from someone that continues to learn that….but that has nothing to do with November, it’s just what I’ve been feeling this season to, well feel like!

I have hopes for November though and faith, I need something to hold on to and those two things have always been with me since I was old enough to remember, I’m just hoping for something good to come from and I’m hoping that thing to be what I truly believe in and have always believed in….

I took this one when I went Pumpkin picking….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

June Reminds Me Of The Color Yellow….

Good Morning Everyone! Hope you all are having a good Monday and enjoying the time off with Memorial Day if do have time off, we’re getting close to the afternoon hour and pretty close to closing this month as we move on into the month of June, it’s a bit crazy innit knowing that May’s pretty much over, it feels like some of these months have came by a bit slowly while some not so slowly, it’s like they arrive hang out for a pretty good while and then go off on their merry way!

For the month of May I feel like it just arrived, but is also now just leaving and that’s something I always tend to feel each time it comes around I don’t know why, but it’s always like that…..to give some thoughts on May well….I feel like it’s been a pretty alright month, it had it’s mixture of good and not good parts, but for the most part, I wouldn’t say it’s been that bad, now from the title you can see I went ahead and gave June a color, if I had to give May a color, I’d say she’d be….like a Green mixed with Violet and other warm colors!

I know it’s probably very weird to want to give months a color, but sometimes when thinking about whatever months arriving I can’t help, but feel a color with them and yeah that’s just what I think them to be…..actually if I had to pick a color for May…..it’d be the album cover of Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album, which was released in May….pretty much, now I thought and felt the color Pink when thinking about May….. I just didn’t want to say Pink, but if I’m being honest every time I look at that album….it feels like it, although I will still consider May to be a Green/Violet color mixed with other warm colors!

I gotta say real quick the album artwork for Still Alive, is probably by far one of my all time favorites it’s so simple, but it’s got this all around aura of innocence’s, but not that entirely, just by looking at it, you get a breath of fresh air it’s just got this something to it that is hard to explain, it’s my favorite album art and it’s just her with a nice pink background and other colors added, the simplicity of it is what I like pretty much!

Back to talking about the month of May…..it’s been alright, I mean May is my birth month, so I think I’ll always have a soft spot for it and I think I would consider it a favorite month of mine, not just because I was born in that month, but because I just kind of always liked it…..but we’ll be soon moving on from May and entering the month of June in a couple of hours and who knows what will come with June, it could be anything, maybe some of you already know what will be arriving, but it’s okay if you don’t, sometimes not knowing can be good, we all enjoy a little surprise!

Until we see June…..let’s continue to enjoy the rest of May’s company in the last hours of the month and wish her safe travels with the rest of her upcoming journey, thank you for hanging out with us May, we shall see you on your next visit!

P.S.

Seeing as I spoke about Alexz Johnson in this post, I just wanted to share that she read my thoughts about her latest album in my last blog post….and she liked it…my day is made!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Next Up….Still Alive By Alexz Johnson (Updated) With Added Thoughts

Good Afternoon and Happy Monday, hopefully it’s a good one for you all so far! I’m feeling pretty good today, I’m a lot older than I was yesterday…..still getting used to that though, but other than that, I’m feeling pretty alright, hope you all enjoyed your weekend by the way…..have I mentioned it’s now Tuesday, no!? *Writes in Tuesday* sorry about that, I tend to confuse the days….hope you’ve all been having a good day so far, my mood today is a bit less energetic compared to yesterday, but I still feel pretty okay I’d say!

So today’s topic of the day is a Now Playing as you can see up there in the title, at least that’s what it was supposed to be, I think I’m going to move this post to a different day so it matches with the podcast episode that I want to re record! I’ve been doing a lot of these lately, that being due to the fact that there’s a lot of artists that I like talking about…..originally I had this in mind as a Podcast episode where I’d go over the track list and give my best thoughts about it and I’ve done that…..only it turned into an hour long episode and I didn’t feel like anyone would want to listen to me talk for an hour, plus I wasn’t able to really share it on the day of the anniversary like I wanted…..there’s some reasons there, but I’m not going to get into that, personal stuff!

So I went ahead and recorded it again to see if I’d be able to have it be less of a long episode which I did manage…..but I kinda want to do it over again because I want to get it right, not saying the first two ones weren’t good I just feel like I could do better with it so because I missed both the anniversary upload I wanted originally to do and missed my first Monday episode upload….I’m going to try my hand at it again tomorrow and possibly have it scheduled for either Friday or Saturday! Friday seeing as though she released the album on a Friday last year on the 8th of May, only instead of the 8th it’ll be the 14th…..and Saturday being because she had a listening party for the album, buut it was on the 15th of April….that I didn’t know,

I was there for the listening party, but I forgot that she did it in April…..however because it’s the 15th this Saturday and this past Saturday was the 8th, the day the album was released….I’m probably going to lean more toward Saturday in posting it, even though it’s already a year since the albums release, but it’ll be a year and a 1 week so I feel like it’ll still counts, plus 5 is my lucky number, I like to think of it to be lucky anyway, so the 15th is looking like the choice and winner here! I also kinda had something I was going to try my hand at on Friday, even though technically the topic I have in mind was an April thing that I had no clue about until April was pretty much over…..

but the day being the 14th still in a way makes it count and that’s the story I’m sticking with alright, I’m still thinking on that one though, but I might just do it, so stay tune for all of that! That’s pretty much all I got for this post, keep a look out for my album thoughts on Alexz Johnson’s Still Alive album coming to you guys this weekend and whatever I have for you guys this Friday!

P.S.

Don’t know why I’m just thinking about this now, but I probably should do these type updates more often for my podcast, might be useful….

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

25-26

Quite the title I know, I’m just kidding haha! Don’t really know why I chose that as the title, it just randomly came to me and I thought it was a neat one, plus it’s pretty themed too, I’m just going to say that….I’ve got a couple thoughts that I wanted to get out, I’m doing a bit of self reflecting, been kind of doing it for about a few days now, maybe a couple of weeks….I tend to self reflect on random occasions to be fair! I already sorta let most of my thoughts out yesterday as a Podcast episode, although I haven’t actually quite posted it just yet, I’ve been thinking about it though, I don’t normally like to talk upon my own thoughts and feelings as I’ve stated a few times before on here…..I don’t like talking about what I’m thinking, It feels weird to me, I don’t really like having that kind of low energy type thing….

I prefer to talk about things that I enjoy and mean a lot to me instead of my actual feelings, because no one really likes to share that kind of thing especially when you know you’re in this deep thought mode, you try and brush it off and put it away, but you tend to notice that it’s never quite far from you and with the way I always find myself thinking….no one wants to hear that all the time and that’s just how I genuinely feel, it’s why I rarely share on what I’m feeling, like I know it’s alright to share your emotions at times, but I just always find it hard for me to do, because I never can find the words to make it sound less…..complaint like, I don’t know why I always feel it to be such a bothersome thing, I just always do! I know there’s nothing wrong with it…..I just have a hard time expressing my true emotions to people,

I rather try and work through my current thoughts in the moment when I’m feeling it and not have to talk about it to people…..but I guess when you need to let it out, you need to let it out….keeping it to yourself isn’t always the best thing, although if it’s not your thing then you shouldn’t force yourself, because eventually when you feel like you’re ready to express yourself, I always feel you will in some way or form….we all have moments and sometimes we all just need to allow ourselves to have those moments, be it in private, sharing to someone else or just when you feel you may need a bit before actually being vocal about your thoughts and emotions, it all comes down to preference!

When it comes to sharing on things that can be hard to share, it’s okay if you’re the type that only shares every now and again and if you’re someone that finds it works better when you share you’re thoughts not daily, but every other day that fine too, but if you’re someone that rarely shares because you find it a bit hard or because it’s not your thing that’s alright too, whatever works best, we just got to accept the type of person we are when it comes to that, I’m in between every now and again and rarely, sharing upon my thoughts is something I don’t really like doing, but if I feel that I need to, in order to give myself a bit of a clear and refresh mind then I will even when it’s a bit hard,

For the most part though a lot of my thoughts lately are out of my worries and fears and me overthinking everything, not that I do it on purpose, I really do try not to think the way I do, but sometimes my mind can just get to me a bit, I guess you just have to allow it to be sometimes as well as do your best to not let it get to you too much! How have you all been feeling lately!?

Update A.K.A Promo Time!!

I ended up re recording that podcast episode I was talking about earlier in the post, I wanted to do it differently, so if you would like to check it out you can find it here: Just Chatting it’ll be up on Anchor as well as Spotify just a heads up (on Anchor it’ll say May 7th and on Spotify it’ll say May 8th, I think the times a bit different on Spotify I’m not really sure) but it’s just a chill chatting session on a few thoughts I had similar to this post, just with a bit more added so if you get curious check it out!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

I’ve Got The Month Of May

I was going to go with N’SYNC, but I chose to do it old school and go with The Temptations, plus I thought it was best suited seeing that I literally do have the month of May so it works out! I seriously cannot believe that we have just arrived at the end of April, I do got have to say though, I do appreciate how the months are taking their time to arrive, at least that’s how I personally feel, can’t really speak for everyone else, but I like to think that each month so far has stayed a while, in a sense of they haven’t over stayed, but have just been enjoying themselves for the time they were here for, it’s nice, but that’s just how I have been looking at it, might be weird to say, who knows!

Now although May is set to arrive in a couple of hours, we still have to spend one more day with April and really let her know that she did alright, sure we probably had our up’s and downs, but I got to say that I have a soft spot for April, I mean she gave us a beautiful Super Moon the other night, so gorgeous it was, I didn’t get a photo on the day of it, but I did get one where it was big and bright before the actual Pink Super Moon, I did see it glow though! April for me, has it’s mixed feelings, I do like it, but it also makes me go “oh gosh” that’s only because it’s quite a special and important month to me in many different ways, but yeah April and I see eye to eye and at times don’t, but I still like to acknowledge it as well!

When it came to the month of April, I won’t say it was bad, but it definitely had it’s frustrating and non favorite moments we’ll say, but all that aside, it wasn’t a terrible month, I’m going to choose to take the positives of this soon ending month that is April and I’m going to hope and count on this month that will soon be called May and just trust that all is well with it, because to be honest…..I’m slight wary on it, you might be thinking why!? I have my reasons, but I have a lot of hope that it will be fine, because I’m going to do my damn best to make sure that it is! Just like April, May and I have our moments, but it’s still the month that I have a soft spot for, can’t really tell you how it’s going to be this month, to be fair we all won’t really know how it will be…..guess we’ll find out once we’ve entered it and sat with it for a while, but until then, we’ll wish April a safe and well trip and welcome May once she’s all set!

Here’s a few photo’s I’ve taken throughout the month of April and just some personal favorites of mine ^_^ a bit crazy knowing this is the last blog post of the ending month, hope you like the photos I’ve shared, I’ve been kind into taking pictures of things that inspire me lately, not as much, but somewhat!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

May To Go With June To Arrive…..

So it’s the end of a month that month being May and tomorrow we’ll be closer to Summer and into a new month called June…..I wish I could tell you how exactly I feel knowing we’ve reached Summer territory or just about going into a new month all together, but I really don’t know,

It’s weird because toward the beginning of this year everything felt like it was going slow….mainly around March time, that was a very long month for some reason and then everything started happening and we had to go into lockdown and practice social distancing, still do to be fair……this year just really turned everything upside down and threw us in all sorts of directions.

Now I won’t go fully into it, because I don’t really like going into things that are very personal…..but yesterday was a very odd day, well actually the odd day started Friday into yesterday…..but it was just a very busy day, but not in the way you would think…..it was also pretty overwhelming at least for me, there was just so much happening some things out of enjoyment and some not expected, but expected at the same time if that makes sense!?

It’s hard to really explain without going into full details about it, it’s like have you ever looked around and seen so much going on, yet at the same time, you find that you don’t really know how to feel!? Not only that, but you then notice how what you’re feeling is completely different to everyone’s feelings……again it’s hard to explain…..point is……

Yesterday was a lot and it took way too much energy than expected out of me……it was sorta like, the energy was borrowed in a way and once I had used it all, I had to find some more energy to keep going I didn’t really get time to find a little peace and quiet and when I did it was when a lot of things weren’t really happening…..it was just a lot to take in within the moment and just a day as a whole………it wasn’t a favorable kind of day,

but it was okay I guess……I can’t really explain yesterday…..let’s just say it was filled with a lot of emotions and some unexpected things.

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa