I’m Just Thinking Out Loud….

Good afternoon! Hope your Tuesday is treating you all well, Summer is literally close by anyone else feeling this heatwave of sorts, I’m telling you Summer….not my thing! Besides that, let’s have a chat in writing shall we!? It’s been a bit, well more like 5 days, but whose keeping count right!? You know one thing I can appreciate with writing is that when you need to find words…..you’re able to take your time with it, there isn’t as much pressure with it compared to if you were podcasting an episode or making videos…..not saying I don’t like doing those things, I do it helps me to express differently and forces me to put myself out there in different ways, which is something I am both used to and not used to, however when I really need to think on things and I know I need the pressure lowered it really helps to just sit back and take my time to write about it!

I struggle with words most times, although I love to talk, seriously I enjoy talking especially when the topic is something that means a lot to me, BUT…..that being said…..really talking about things….I always have a hard time no matter how much I try and prepare for it! In order for me to really find my words…..I need to think deeply on it and having this blog and being able to say the things that can be hard to say talking wise really means a lot, if this was a live writing and talking….there would be a lot of ums and long pauses, which I try my hardest to not do…but it’s just something that is apart of me, it’s how I express and I’m trying to get used to that when expressing verbally, along with trying to keep those ums and long pauses short…still got a long way to go on that, but I’m sure I’ll get there!

I don’t think on it often, but in this moment, right here, right now…..I am very and extremely grateful to have this blog to be my voice on days when I am not sure what to say or when I feel I need a moment to gather my thoughts, I am a very expressive person, that has a hard time expressing, which is the weirdest thing lol! If you were to just see me at a natural state and just allowed me to chat about whatever comes to mind…..you’d see how expressive I actually am,

That being said, I’m still getting used to being my naturally expressive self that’s why I have so many different things that I do, from this blog to my still figuring out Podcast and soon probably something a lot different than what I’m used to, but that I feel would help to really be comfortable with myself, sometimes I wonder if I’m too weird for for people and if I should tone it down and that’s me being completely and from the heart honest, you can’t see me, but I’m trying my best to keep from getting emotional here, but it’s the truth!

It’s the truth that I’ve never really been open with, I always express how you should just be yourself, but honestly….I have a hard time fully being myself and I’m trying to become comfortable with being who I am and who I’m still discovering I am, even at the age of 26 lol, but I’m hoping I will eventually get it *literally scratched it* I have faith that eventually I’ll learn to be okay with it!

Now when it comes to how I choose to showcase my voice…..I choose to show it and embrace it in many different ways, be it blogging on it, stepping out of comfort expressing it on my Podcast and even in front of a camera as camera shy as I maybe at time, somedays I don’t mind it, but somedays I do, Just like Scott James once sang in his song Speck In The Spectrum “Part of me, likes this…..and part of me doesn’t mind it! All the rest is a Speck in the Spectrum, of a world that makes no sense to me”

Not sure what made me quote that song, I can’t share it anyway as he’s put is old songs private on his Youtube, but it was the first thing that came to mind, one of my favorites by him! Those are my thoughts though, don’t know where they came from, I just started writing and it just naturally came out, I didn’t even know I was writing it until I wrote it!

If you would like to get to know me better or my ways of expressing better I recently recorded an episode on my Podcast similar to this topic, you can listen to it here: Finding Ones Voice (Just Chatting) You can check it out on Anchor or Spotify whatever suits you!

Thank you for reading this post and just for being here in general, very much appreciated!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Still Alive By Alexz Johnson

Goood Morning, hope you’re all having a good one so far! Today we’re going to finally get to the post that I’ve been meaning to get to, we’re going to be discussing one of my all time favorite artists Alexz Johnson and her latest album Still Alive! Now I’ve been doing a bit of thinking and by a bit of thinking I mean I literally just thought about this a minute ago as I’m writing this post…now the thought here is that I’m going to give my thoughts in a form of writing with each track we take a look at within the album in the best way that I can express them, because for some reason I feel like with this album, I can better explain it in writing then when verbally talking about it.

That being said, I still am going to give other thoughts on it in one of my podcast episodes, well I’m going to try to anyway, I want to express on this album in both a writing sense and as a podcast episode because I feel there’s just so much to this album that is hard to explain in just a few words, plus I thought writing my thoughts on the album would be better than listening to an hour long podcast so to save you all from that we’re going to focus on giving our best thoughts in a blog post instead lol!

First up on the album is a song called Saving The Train:

When I first heard this song I actually didn’t really know how to describe this one, the first verse talks about about learning to let go of certain baggage’s, you know releasing all the things that we find hard to get rid of, be it emotionally, mentally things like that, as for the chorus I still don’t quite know what exactly it means, I felt like it could’ve been related to saving of a relationship in a way, but I’m still trying to figure out what it means, for the most part one of the messages in this song is in order to heal from past situations and just in general, you have to let them go so you have a better and clearer mindset/headspace….It’s a good song!

Next Up…..Chicago:

One of my favorites on the album, this one speaks of going on a journey full of adventure, moving forward, it’s also got a bit of self discovery to it! It’s also got a relationship feel to it, but it’s more rocky this time around, despite all those thoughts, it’s a pretty great song, the bridge is my favorite part she’s got some great vocals there which is why I like it, it’s simple, but still good, the whole songs great really!

Moving on to the third track of the album which is called…..Running With The Devil :

This song is actually one that’s been revisited, as well as Chicago and apparently Saving The Train (which I didn’t actually know) and a couple more that we’ll get to, pretty much this whole album is filled with songs that have been revisited and done differently then it’s original counter part except for maybe 4 songs some are new ones, but Running With The Devil, this one at one point I wasn’t the biggest fan of when I heard the very first version, I didn’t hate it, there was nothing wrong with it, it was just one of those songs that I never listened to that much,

That was until this album came out, now it’s one that is probably one of my if not favorites than most liked, I listen to it more now than I did the original…..there’s a lot that you can take from this song, for me I felt this song to be about facing inner demons, you know like when you just got a lot going on, but you don’t really express on it, it’s also got a hope feeling to it, there’s so much to this song that is just hard to explain so just listen to it and maybe it’ll make better sense, but this is a good song and is worth checking out!

4th track off the album is…..Living In Colour:

Yes that’s how color is meant to be spelled, I’m not trying to be fancy, it’s literally how it’s written on the album and in the UK so it’s right okay! Now that that’s settled…..I flipping love this song, it’s different to what I’m used to from Alexz, but I love it, it’s got a retro vibe going with it, it’s got a groovy sound, it’s such a great song, it’s all about living in the moment of things and just enjoying yourself in whatever you do…..there’s more I’m going to say with it, but later, just know it’s a good one, you might have to listen to it a few times to get into it, but it’s so worth it!

Mambo #5….okay not really, but we are taking a look at track 5 which has got to be one of my all time favorite songs off this album and that song is….. Still Alive:

This is probably one of the best songs off this album it’s soooo good, super emotional of course, she wrote this in tribute to her sister that had passed away from Cancer, it’s just such a beautiful, beautiful song, everyone just needs to give it a listen and check it out for yourself….I’m telling you, you’ll love it!

Moving on to track number 6…..Lost and Found:

This is a good song, I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s good, I did say this has a feeling about speaking your truth, it’s the only way I knew how to best describe the song, it might have a completely different meaning to it then what I thought it to be, also this is another revisited song that she did, but give this one a listen see what you think!

Track 7….Shout:

This song is different to the one I know, which by that you can probably guess it’s revisited and you’d be right, I remember hearing this version for the first time and just not being used it, I’ve listened to the original so many times, I mean it’s one of my all time favorites and to hear this one, I didn’t know what to expect, which version do I like better!? Both I love the original and really like this version too, I do have to say that some things with it haven’t changed, while other things did! So you’re still getting some of the original listen with it, but you also get something new at the same time which is a nice balance, like they both maybe different in a sense of arrangements and swapped lyrics here and there, but they’re still both great in their own way so I’m with it and I hope you guys give both versions a listen, I love this song!

On to the next one that is track 8…..Swallowed:

Second to last revisited song, Swallowed is an interesting song, the best way I was able to describe this song is similar to what anxiety and paranoia might feel like and I’m only saying that because of the lyrics, when you listen to it, you might sense a worry of many things, so like when she’s singing the lyrics it can sound like she’s having a bit of an overthinking moment happening, however when the chorus kicks in, it fades away, like I said it’s very interesting that for me it’s hard to really put words to it, my interpretation might now actually be what it means, but then again it is my interpretation of it, it’s going to mean something different to everyone, but nonetheless, it’s a pretty nice song and deserves to be listened to!

3rd to to last song, which is track 9 we have a very good song in…..No Shame :

I LOVE THIS SONG! It’s got such an upbeat chill vibe to it to where you just can’t help, but get into the groove of it, I can’t explain this one, just listen it, the lyrics literally speak for themselves, just by hearing the song….you’ll understand why it’s called No Shame, like Alexz knows what she wants with this song, but the way she does it, is clever, it’s tempting this song and I’m HERE for it!

Yaaaay I love talking about this one, I present to you my other favorite song, track 10…..Golden:

This is the other emotional song besides Still Alive, this song is so beautiful and breathtaking, her vocals are just heaven here, literally she’s got sooo much soul in this song and the best part about is it’s for her Daughter, need I say anymore!? I love it, it just leaves you in tears and fills your heart up, this song is literally Golden point blank, seriously listen to it you’ll fall in love with it, I promise, I always get happy when this song comes on, whether I’m sad, happy, just not feeling the day, the minute this song comes on…..my emotions and feelings don’t matter, they don’t exist, all that exist is this song and Alexz Johnson’s vocals with it and that’s the truth!

Last, but certainly not least…..we have the last revisited song on the album and last song of the album…..Weight:

Can I say favorite!? Cause it definitely is, it’s got a really nice message to it, it talks about feeling like you have so much going on like literal Weight that you’re carrying, feeling like you can’t ever catch a breath, but it also talks about not having to carry it all alone that when you need someone to take a bit of the load off, that they’re will always be someone there to be that support, at least that’s my interpretation of it anyway, I sometimes feel it’s got a bit of a different meaning going on with it, but I still feel like that’s what it can mean too! This ones a really good one, like I said it’s one of my favorites and I enjoy singing along to it when it comes on or to myself at times, it’s just that good!

Final Thoughts!?

Listen to the album, take in her beautiful powerful soothing voice, enjoy the lyrics and just bask it in man, it’s definitely one of her best albums, along with A Stranger Time, that was a good album, but Still Alive there’s just something about it that I can’t explain, maybe it’s just Alexz, every time she drops a new album or a song, I love it instantly, I’m probably being bias here, because she’s one of my favorite artist, but she never makes a bad song, even with the songs I don’t really listen to often, I still don’t think of them as bad, sometimes you just have certain songs you prefer more over the others, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’re bad, they’re just not ones that are often listened to, this album though is just *chef kiss* beautiful, I think most of you will enjoy it, but that is all my thought for the album, definitely check it out!

P.S.

It’s still May so the anniversary of it still counts, so with that Happy 1 year anniversary Still Alive, I love you!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Today’s Theme Word Is….Why!?

Confused aren’t you!? Yeah I figured I mean who writes that as a title….apparently this girl here! Now I’m not going to ask any why questions, because then it’ll just bring down the mood of things, what I’m going to do instead is try my best to turn it in a way, you might be thinking to yourself what I mean on that…..let me just state that I don’t really know myself I’m just going to go with it here! We have the word Why as our theme and we’re wondering what’s going on with it, well they’re both starter titles of two songs that ended up in my head, one of the songs that started my day was Sabrina Carpenter’s song Why which is one of my favorites by the way, I woke up singing it myself this morning for some random odd reason, didn’t question it, I just simply went with it while it was hanging about.

Then we have the song Why So Serious by Alice Merton, which I just found out is a UK artist a bit of moment ago when I looked up the meaning to the song, because it got stuck in my head, I mean I did listen to it a bit earlier today which could be the reasoning for that, but I also was listening to other songs which means either one of those songs could’ve gotten stuck in my head, but nope just this song so far, not that I’m bothered, I actually really like the song, I was just curious to what it actually meant and I found out what it meant and then I laughed and smiled to myself because it’s meaning is something that is hard for me to get passed, not in a bad way, just more on the sense of taking it as advice in a way, pretty much the song is all about trying to take life less seriously, which is something I always tend to have a bit of an issue with, I do try, but there are times when my mind gets the better of me and makes me worry about the smallest things that I know aren’t necessarily a big thing….it’s just how my mind is okay!

That aside, I like the song, both songs actually, but Why So Serious by Alice Merton is really good song, I just finished discuss a bit about it on my new episode of my podcast, yeah that podcast that I keep mentioning here and there, just to remind you guys in case you want to check it out, speaking of reminders this song is actually written as a reminder for Alice like, she wrote the song as a note for herself, I won’t get too much into because I actually spoke about it in my recent episode, even though I already kind of told you it’s meaning there still is a little bit more too it, not too much, but a bit and I actually think it’s pretty cool how she chooses to go about writing her songs….

I know that obviously everyone writes from personal experience and everything, I mean I like to think that every kind of music has something personal about it….whether it’s by lyrics or just instrumental wise, you can tell a whole lot on what someone is trying to say with an instrument, sure there aren’t any words to interpret it’s meaning and emotion, but if you really listen to an instrument at times you can just feel what it’s trying to communicate, sometimes without realizing it, it can catch you off guard, but I guess we can save that one for another time, because that’s not what this post is about is it!? I mean it can be, but I think I’ll save it for later, I didn’t quite expect it to go that deep there…..but you can always feel what an artist is saying with how well they express through their lyrics and I always love hearing it,

Sometimes it’s one of the best ways you can relate to and Why So Serious is one of those songs that I find myself connecting to a bit, plus you got to love it’s groovy electropop sound to it….I just found out she in the electropop genre, which is pretty cool, I only have one rule with music, I just gotta like it and it has to make sense so I guess that’s two!? As long as I feel the song and connect to it or just enjoy it in general I’m perfectly fine with it and I like Alice Merton, so far, she’s a pretty good artist…..same goes for Sabrina Carpenter she’s got some good songs too and she’s a good actress as well, definitely recommend checking them both out if you never heard of them before or are just curious!

PROMO TIME:

Seriously guys, I get really weird doing this, believe me okay….but I just uploaded a new episode to my podcast talking about Alice Merton and her song Why So Serious as well as some other things so if you want to check that out you can find the episode here: Now Playing…..Why So Serious by Alice Merton on Anchor where I normally record and it’s also on Spotify along with all the other episodes I’ve done *hint, hint* but yeah, check it out if you get curious, alright promo over!

Hope you all are having a good one!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing….Car Radio By Twenty One Pilots (Part 2!? I Might’ve Discussed This One Already… Let’s Just Call it A Revisit)

Good Afternoon, hope everyone’s doing alright! Now before I actually get to this topic, I’m not exactly sure if I already had a look at this song and spoke upon it, I just wanted to give thoughts to the lyrics and express my thoughts on the possible meaning in my own words of it…..if I already did talk on it sorry if this is a repeat, but if not then cool! Now onto the topic of today…..

Artist: Twenty One Pilots

Song: Car Radio

Album: Vessel

Why are we talking about this song today!? Well truth is…..I just wanted to look at the lyrics of it honestly and see if I can do a proper review on it, in a sense….now just to put this out there in case some of you that do read my posts are reading this now or maybe some of you have just discovered my blog site…..I know I already talked about Twenty One Pilots and I expressed how I’m not a HUGE fan of them, in a sense of I don’t really keep up with them, I do like some of their songs though and I think they’re very talented artists, even though I may not know too much about them, I still enjoy some of the music that they bring to their fans! I also like to think of them as very nice people which I’m sure they are!

Now on to the song that is Car Radio…..I can’t really say when I first heard this song and where I was when I heard it for the very first time, but I do remember hearing for the first time and watching the music video to it if that makes sense!? I can remember watching it on the tv somewhere and seeing Tyler, I believe his name is and him being in a….what looked like a red room on the floor and then randomly jammin’ it out on stage alongside his drummer and friend Josh. That is the best way I can describe ever encountering the song, now when we think of the lyrics or look at the lyrics, there’s a lot of deep meaning obviously to it…..you really feel each emotion that he brings to the song, to highlight a few of the lyrics, first you got the opening which reads:

” I ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire, exhale desire, I know it’s dire my time today….I have these thoughts so often I ought, to replace that slot with what I once bought, cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence…”

and then the one line I want to add is…..

“Sometimes quiet is violent”

Now with those lines alone, you obviously can see the frustration, well what I would call frustration anyway…that Tyler is delivering here, we all know the whole feeling of becoming hopeful and excited by something and then feeling like you have to dim it down because maybe in the moment, it can feel a little too good to be true right!? Now there’s that line of pondering, where you’re feeling yourself thinking about things a little too much then you probably should, mash that with the line “Sometimes quiet is violent” and you’ll soon find yourself just caught in this moment of just overly thinking, now you’re feeling overwhelmed, you don’t know what to do with yourself and you’re trying everything and anything just to get yourself out of that thought mode…..now we come to the lines that read:

“I’m forced to deal with what I feel, there is no distraction to mask what is real”

This line alone, first let me just say, is probably one of my favorite lines in this song, because it just without warning drops a whole lyric that makes you take a moment to come to the realization of, no matter how much we try and keep our minds distracted from all the worries, doubts, fears, whatever we’re stressing ourselves out about and pretty much says that not even music can be a distraction to what we’re feeling in the current moment that we’re feeling it and it’s a bit odd because a lot of the time we listen to music to escape or just because we love listening to it, but if you really think about it, we tend to only hear a song and sing along to it if we know it or it’s a favorite of ours,

Only do we truly listen to a songs lyrics….when we’re in the state of mind of feeling a certain emotion, if you notice it’s not until we’re feeling a bit crappy or just not having the best of days to where we really hear the lyrics of song, I mean it doesn’t necessarily have to be when you’re feeling low, it could be when you’re happy as well, but a lot of the time we pay attention to the lyrics when the day just feels off…..why is that!? It’s kind of like your ears just know the right moment to listen, the only time we actually truly listen to the lyrics of a song beside on a not so great day, is when we’re listening to it for the very first time, after that we already know the song, we’ll sing to it, do a little dance and just pretty much hear it from then on….we don’t listen to it until a random time calls for it, which is really weird…..

I guess in a sense, maybe we don’t always listen to the lyrics closely because in the moment we don’t need to, we just enjoy it, but it’s when we’re “in our feelings” so to say and I mean that more on the term of just in general, when our minds are becoming to feel as though it’s on an overload setting….where music just knows what it is we need, sometimes we need to force ourselves to deal with sitting in silence and dealing with whatever it is that keeps clouding our minds and trying to get through the issue that we keep trying to avoid and procrastinate on, which is why you’ll find some songs tend to come on more regarding that feeling if that makes sense!?

Like you have different categories for each emotion, guess that’s why we keep making playlists! That aside, Car Radio is literally the song to play when you know how you’re feeling and you just need to allow those feelings to take place as they’re happening, because sometimes that literally all you can do, play a song let it say how you’re feeling and hope that it does it’s job and helps you to feel a bit better in getting whatever it is you needed to get out….out!

Now I know there’s a lot more to the lyrics of Car Radio, but I actually feel I’ve said what I wanted to say with certain lyrics, I also feel like I already discussed on the second verse of this song in one of my old posts can’t tell you if it was the one on Twenty One Pilots or one of my entry post where I would just write on my thoughts, but I feel I brought that up already and so I think I’ve said what I felt I needed to say in a sense to these lyrics, I didn’t know where this was going to go I was just hoping it would make sense as I was going along with it, I just wanted to talk a little on it!

I really love the lyrics to this song, it’s got so much depth to it and it’s like what you expect it to be, it doesn’t give you any idea of being something else then what you see it as, it’s literally just saying “this is me, this is what I’ve been feeling, here you go” this song is not afraid of showing it’s vulnerable and real authentic side here and that is what I love and appreciate about it, It’s one of my favorite songs by the duo and I just love everything about it, it gives you a lot to feel to where you just resonate with it…..if it’s your kind of thing anyway, everyone’s different!

That’s pretty much it, hope you all are enjoying yourselves today!

P.S.

There’s two different versions of this song, I just found that out recently, I’m sure most of you already know about it though, I just thought it was cool!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Welcome To The Daydreamer’s Podcast

Happy Saturday, hope you all are having a good day!! Now I know that I haven’t properly talked about this so I thought I’d have this post be the introduction for it…..a late introduction, but an introduction nonetheless!! Now in case a lot of you don’t already know I went ahead and created a podcast, some of you may already know if you’ve read some of my latest posts, but if you didn’t…..I have a podcast now, it’s called Daydreamer’s Podcast and I created it out of curiosity, I was actually writing a post and had just finished posting that post when I saw an opportunity to be able to turn a post into a podcast episode and so that’s exactly what I did, so I kind of have WordPress to thank for giving me the idea of creating one, I only have 2 episodes right now, but so far I’ve been enjoying myself,

I have found that I actually get pretty excited to record the next episode, which is something that comes rarely for me, but this is something I kind of been wanting to do for a bit of a while now, I tend to talk quite a bit and sometimes a lot of the things I want to share can be too long to write in a post and so I thought this was the perfect thing to give a try, It’s something I’ve always thought of doing and it’s something that has literally presented itself to me and why not give it a shot!!

Now the content to my new Podcast is going to be a bit of everything in the sense to the way I do it here on my blog, it’s pretty much interest based, so for example music, video games and sometimes serious topics that I feel I want to share upon and discuss a bit about…..sometimes I’ll even incorporate some blog post topic for the days where I feel I want to express a bit more, the two episodes that are up now were based off two blog posts, but it’s stuff like that! I just want to create a place that everyone can just hang out and hopefully have a good time!! I already recorded a third episode which should be up pretty soon, but if you guys are curious and would like to check out the last two episodes of my podcast, that would really mean a lot to me, you can have a listen to both episodes here:

The Latest Episode:

Ice Breaker (A Blog Post)- Ep. 1

Let’s Talk: 1 Year Of Animal Crossing: New Horizons- Ep. 2

For those who do manage to check it out the podcast, first I just want to say I appreciate it in advance and I hope you all enjoy the episodes that you decide to give a listen to, with that said, Welcome to The Daydreamer’s Podcast, I’ll be your host, Alexa, but you can just call me Lex or Lexa, I prefer it anyway! I hope you’re all able to enjoy the content and atmosphere that I do my best to bring to this podcast, hope I can get some of you to hang around and stay a while!! ^_^

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: What A Feeling By One Direction (Lyric Observation)

Originally Written March 15th, Finished March 18th

Goooood Afternoon!! Hope everyone’s week is starting off well and that all your weekend’s were nice and enjoyable, hope you all are doing well too….now normally when I do these Now Playing….(Insert song or album here) posts we talk about a specific song and it’s meaning or we look at an album to a favorite artist of mine and give thoughts on the album…..today it’s going to be a liiiittle different, not extremely, it will still be at the core of it’s true heart, discussing music and all that jazz, only this time we’ll be focusing on two lyrics within the same section of the song, to put it in better words…..we’re going to be taking a look at the bridge part of this song….why!?

Well, I woke up singing this part of the song to myself this morning, as it still continues throughout the day and had some thoughts come through with it so that’s what we’re doing today, plus I feel like this will be a fun challenge of some sort to try for myself and see what comes with it!! Now I want to say this isn’t going to be a lyric breakdown, but I’m not sure how true that is so let’s not say that at all….even though I just did….on with the song yeah!?

Now if you were to hear the song as whole and listen to each lyric, you might not know right away it’s true meaning or you may know what it means or at least what it’s trying to say, as we know everyone has their own interpretation when it comes to music, artwork, even life itself, but that’s what keeps things interesting, knowing that everyone sees and hears things differently, if we all heard and saw things the same we wouldn’t have things like miss heard lyrics to laugh at, I love it when people interpret a song lyric that’s different to what it’s actually, it makes for a fun time getting to hear all the different things being heard

Although I do also get a little upset when lyrics are sung wrong, purposely mainly, not all the time, but if you sing a song and happen to sing a part of the lyrics wrong, 9/10 I’m there like “what are you doing, that’s not how the song goes” I’ll then sing the actual lyrics so you know how it’s meant to go, now if you didn’t know and you were just singing the song to what you thought it said, then I won’t bother with you too much….I will not, not bother you, because I’ll still want you to know it’s actual sayings, however I’ll be light hearted about it and laugh at it, call it the perfectionist in me okay…I mainly tend to do this most with music, because I love lyrics so much and so I get a little over protective of it…..

That being said I too have a little fun with messing lyrics up on purpose at times, not always, just when I want to mess with someone or just to make myself laugh….so I’m not one to talk…..now that we’ve gone and discussed that, let’s get to the actual post here, otherwise I’m going to have to change the title of this post to how I feel about miss heard lyrics…maybe we’ll make it a bonus post!

First lyric of the bridge that we’re going to be talking about is the line “Whatever chains is holding you back, holding you back, don’t let ’em tie you down” Now this line is quite obvious to what it’s saying, it’s talking about chains and the weight of them, it’s more metaphorically than literal, but these lyrics to me are expressing a form of overcoming and that could be of anything really, it doesn’t necessarily have to refer to something specific, it’s more of a reassurance that no matter how much things tend to get or how difficult something maybe to pull through, we don’t need to let the chains of what is holding us bound (figuratively) keep us at that low point!

Whenever there’s a will, there is always a way, even when in the moment it doesn’t seem/feel like it, sometimes we just need to think outside the box, as well as look at things from a different perspective to try and see it, even if that means literally going upside (Big Hero 6 reference) there’ll be moments where it may take a while, but it all comes down to just having hope and faith that it’ll be alright in the end!!

Moving on to the next part of the bridge, where we look at the lyrics reading “Whatever change is holding you back, holding you back, tell me you believe in that!? Now I remember listening to this song one time, really listening to the lyrics, all while singing along of course and I remember hearing this line and feeling a little realization, probably because I had just understood the lyrics, well this one at least and was pretty amazed by it!

When you hear the line, there’s a lot of things you might make from it, for me I felt the meaning to be of embracing something, embracing change….for a lot of us, change is a very hard thing, for a very long time I saw as a hard thing myself, still probably do if I’m being honest! The only difference to it now is, I’ve been learning to be okay with allowing things to change in the way that it feels the need to go, revisiting the lines “Whatever change is holding you back, holding you back, tell me you believe in that!?” Whenever Harry sings this line….it’s like he’s pleading with you to feel it….and what I mean by that is, he’s asking you to believe in that change, don’t run from it!

We all get scared when it comes to something that’s new, something we’ve never seen before or felt even and because of those feelings instead of embracing it as we’re meant to…..we run away, even when that something maybe good for us!! We run away out of fear, but not only that, we run out of defense, some of us are very guarded so when it comes to any sort of change we keep it at an arms length reach, however we don’t reach for it to see where it may lead and that’s the thing that hold us back, like the lyric repeats…..it’s not until we dig deep do we realize that maybe the reason we keep running or avoiding change is because we believe in it, in a way “Tell me you believe in that!?”

Tell me, you believe this thing that you’re trying to keep away from….it’s because we believe in the things that we do to why we get scared, why we choose to go the other way instead of just seeing what could be of it!! Here’s the thing though when we believe in something strongly no matter what we do, it’s always going to find a way to us even when we don’t want it to, you can’t run from something that’s chooses to be around, it always finds a way to get you to notice and sooner or later, you find that you do notice!!

Change is an inevitable thing it’s going to happen regardless to how we feel with it, but it doesn’t need to be something that we turn away from all together, we can be scared about it, but we have to trust that whatever happens that it’s going to bring us somewhere nice and somewhere it sees best for us that stuff being things we don’t quite see, but what we feel inside as individuals, we never know what path we’re going to take in life until we’ve gotten there ourselves, maybe not always completely, but we’re always lead in the right direction even when we don’t know it….in each of our journey’s we have something we are holding on to, something that gives us some kind of hope and with that hope we’re feeling something…..we’re believing and are trusting that whatever and wherever our journey’s lead, it’ll all be good, we just got to believe it!!

Now whose to know if that’s exactly what that part of the song means, it might mean something completely different to my interpretation of it, I might have to ask One Direction what the inspiration was behind this song or maybe I’ll just go with my interpretation of it, either way it’s got a meaning!! What’s your take on the lyrics!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Slow Burn By Kacey Musgraves

I heard this song for the very first time in a very long time yesterday and I forgot just how good this song is, it used to be one of my favorites to listen to, I hadn’t heard it in a while, but i’m glad that I was curious enough to revisit it and hear it again!! Kacey delivers this song so beautifully, I mean she literally takes her time to sing every lyric of the song going with the theme of it very well, I listened to it about 3 times today in one sitting within the same hour…seriously the lyrics are probably one of my favorites and i’ve listened to a lot of songs, if you asked me to name my top five favorite songs with the best lyrics this would probably be in the top five, it’d be pretty high on a list anyway!

Now i’m going to be honest here…..i’ve not really heard a lot of Kacey Musgraves songs, i’ve only heard a hand full of her songs, but she’s got a very unique voice and the songs that I have heard are really good, Follow Your Arrow, Rainbow, I even love her version of All Is Found from the Frozen 2 soundtrack, I like it a lot actually, Slow burn though, there’s just something about that song, I remember when I first heard it and in the moment I thought “I can really feel these lyrics” like I felt some kind of connection with them and I would listen to it constantly, I just felt it spoke volumes, if you’ve ever heard it you’ll understand what I mean by that!

If you never heard it before and you decide to give it a listen, you’ll find it right away, this song is literally about enjoying things at a slower pace, taking things in as they come and being okay with being a bit of a slow burner, I consider myself to be that as well if i’m being honest here, if you really think about it….this song is quite fitting with where we all are in life at the moment with the pandemic still going on, it’s not all the way done and it’s not going to be all the way done for a good while, but in some cases it’s getting there, but in others it’s still got a long way to go…..but that aside

This song is a really nice song to sit back and relax to, especially when you feel things starting to become a little overwhelming within the day or week even, it gives you a bit of a reminder that it’s alright to slow things down a bit if you you need to and tells you to embrace taking your time more with things and acknowledge small things around you!!

It’s even got it’s own witty and fun lyrics to it, one of my favorites being the opening line “Born in a hurry, always late, haven’t been early since 88′ I love that line, it’s like she’s making light of herself saying the last time she was early to anything was when she was born and now she just always running late for everything, I like songs like that, where the artist make slight fun of themselves, because their giving you a side to them that they probably don’t share often so when they add those little moments they’re letting you in on a secret part of them which is nice!!

You don’t always get that from artists, so when you do you feel like you’re apart of something which is one of the best feelings you can have……but Slow Burn is just a really nice song, Kacey really does perform it well and whether I listen to it all the time or every so often I think it’ll always be one of favorites to look for, hit play and just enjoy it, possibly along side some coffee, tea or while in nature, it goes well with that!!

If you’re into giving it a listen you can listen to it here: Slow Burn you can also search it up on Youtube or any other music streaming platforms that you have, you might even have the CD which works too, whatever you have do give it a listen it’s worth it!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Let’s Talk: Songwriting

The process of songwriting is a little hard to explain unless you yourself know a little about it, what I love about songwriting is the access of being able to express freely without feeling you have to hold much back, sure you can’t say everything you may want into just one song, but you can say majority of what it is your feeling in the moment and have it still be what you want to say, even if it’s just one of the things you want to say!!

It’s slight complicated, but also not that complicated, all songwriting is and expects of you is to speak what it is you feel to be true to you and say it with pride, you can’t write a song unless you feel something or have something to get you inspired by for a songwriting session to soon take form….and that can come from many places, a person, an object, heck even a flowing river can be taken as inspiration!! Maybe another song sung by someone else will be the thing to strike a cord within yourself to then get you to grab a pen/pencil and get expressing it can come pretty much anywhere which is the best thing in my opinion really!

A lot of the time I find myself singing random songs that come out of nowhere and most of the time, i’m either in the Kitchen or Bathroom (not going to go too far with that explanation don’t worry) it is true though, whenever I sing to myself those are the locations where I get my random sing alongs from, sometimes I also get them when i’m outside sitting in some grass, but those times are on special occasions though!!

There are moments where when i’m listening to an artist and listening to their songs and i’ll wonder just how they were able to write their songs the way that they did, for example Harry Styles…..now we all know him as a former member of One Direction of course, but Harry has some amazing songwriting skills, i’ve been listening to him a lot more recently hence why I chose to have him be an example to this post, I can’t explain his way of writing, but each time I hear his songs, they always amaze me, he expresses in a way that leaves you interested on the story he’s trying to convey as he’s singing about it, if you’ve never heard a Harry Styles song I would suggest you do, because you’d be surprised just how well he is at it!!

Another artist that leaves me wondering on their way of writing is Zayn , another member who was apart of One Direction yes, I know, but aside from both him and Harry both being in the band, once they exited out from One Direction, you saw a massive transformation within both their music and personalities as well, Zayn though after his departure you wouldn’t believe how different his writing style was compared to when he was in the band, like complete opposite to being in the band!!

I remember when I heard about Zayn’s departure from the band and at the time, I was just getting into One Direction after telling myself that I wouldn’t like another boy band after being a really big fan of the Jonas Brothers, like it was only them and no one else….but once I did allow myself to enjoy their music and soon later get to know a little about them, I was okay, I also told myself that they would be the last and only boy band that I liked along with the Jonas Brothers, only those two that’s it!!

I kept that vow to this day, but back to Zayn leaving the band, when I heard about it, I was slight upset not gonna lie, but I also said to myself that if that’s what he felt he wanted that i’d be happy for him and once he left, although it was weird, I was excited to see what kind of new sound he was going to share with us!! Fast forward a bit to where he just released his new album Mind Of Mine and what was shared was something I honestly wasn’t expected, but also kinda figured he’d do at the same time,

but nonetheless I was surprised about it!! To explain his style of writing, i’ll have to re listen to really get my thoughts on it, not that I haven’t already been listening to Zayn, i’ve also recently been revisiting some of his songs as well, but I still don’t know how to truly explain it just yet, but we’ll come back to it! The one thing I can say is that both Zayn and Harry, have similar ways of expressing themselves in their songs, however they are also very different, their tones are different, the styles are of their songwriting is different, but if you listen to them both carefully, you’ll be surprised on how in depth they are with their songs.

That’s the beauty though with songwriting you can either be very direct with the message you’re trying to express or if you’re the kind of person who likes to have people guessing, then forcing people to dig deep and discover the true hidden message you’re trying to get at is something that can works too, I love both tactics, because I always like looking for the meanings behind songs that are written! Lyrics have always been my favorite thing about a song, sure beats and instruments within songs are nice as well, but at heart i’m lyricist and that’s something I know i’ll always be and it’s for that reason I like songwriting!!

I love discovering artists that have a unique way of jotting down their thoughts, from Harry Styles, to Zayn, Alexz Johnson (who I love with everything in my heart and soul, she is amazing!!) The band PVRIS, Scott James, Lux Lisbon, Michael Kilbey, Ashley Tisdale…..there’s so many more, I just can’t think of them all, but there’s so many different artists that i’ve had the pleasure of discovering and listening to where i’ve listen to their songs and i’m just blown away with how they write their songs, it’s amazing and I just love it so much and it’s fun to listen and see if you can understand the meaning of what they’ve written as well as see if you’d be able to interpret it in many different ways, but for me mainly, I listen to these artists because their songwriting abilities are just so well written that when it’s performed you can’t help, but feel drawn and infatuated by their choice of words within the songs that they share with everyone and it’s great!!

P.S. This post was inspired by both Zayn and Harry Styles because of how much i’ve been listening to them these days, don’t be surprised if you see me reviewing their albums soon, it’s kinda an idea already anyway so this is just me giving you a heads up on it

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Musical Expression Of Scott James & Michael Kilbey….

Have you ever listen to a song of an artist and just admired their way of expression!? Of course everyone has their way of expressing something that their trying to say without having to actually say it, but I just can’t help, but be amazed with the way some artist go about their expression, especially Musicians, if you haven’t known already i’m pretty big fan of music,

I tend to give everything a listen, but there are specific kinds of music that I either prefer or just have a odd gravitation towards and for me i’ve always enjoyed and admired how Indie artist express their art of music, but I can also appreciate how other artist express as well, the reason i’m focused on indie artists is because I always find it interesting just how well they go about every lyric they write, I can’t explain it really, but there’s something about it…..i’m sure non indie musicians have done it this way too and i’m sure i’ve listened to a few or more before, I guess we’ll go ahead and keep an open mind on these other artist as well and not just the indie world of it.

What i’m trying to say is any song that has a very unique way of writing that’s hard to explain I like…..as you can see from the title two of my favorite musicians are within this category, both Scott James and British musician Michael Kilbey always leave me without words whenever I listen to their songs, they write so beautifully!! Scott James tends to have a wandering feel with his music, while Michael Kilbey is more mysterious with his music, but you always feel you’re going on some kind of journey of some sort, at least that’s how I feel about his earlier songs anyway….

To be fair these two might’ve switched a little for all I know, to explain their writing styles would be a hard one for me to do, I always tend to listen to songs and see if I can get a feel to what it sounds like to me and wandering, journey and mysterious is what I came up with when I tried thinking about it with these two, Scott’s voice when he sings is very melodic, his music gives me fall meets Spring vibes, it’s just really pretty his sound, I don’t know how else to say it, it’s really calming…..As for Michael Kilbey’s voice….

It’s very deep, yet angelic at the same time and his music gives me winter meets fall vibes, again his earlier stuff, I don’t know about his new stuff, I have yet to actually hear that, maybe it’s the same, but maybe it’s changed I don’t know, still though whenever I listen to his music, it always leaves me deep in thought, if I went and studied his way of writing……i’d feel like it’d be quite hard to figure out, but I know that it’d still leave me wondering.

Both these musicians always leave me curious with their music and I admire the way they use their words in their writing, also they remind me of both the night time and the evening, Michael Kilbey representing Night and Scott within the later times in their music, maybe that’s confusing, might be weird, but that’s what came into my head a moment ago,

I don’t know if that made sense or not, I thought it as if when hearing these songs where do I tend to listen to it the most, around the later times, this is how I think sometimes, so don’t mind me, but I just wanted to express all of that…..I made a video on this last week, which I posted last night, but I wanted to be able to explain it a bit better and for some reason this tends to be the only way it makes sense and so I wrote most of the other stuff I wanted to say then here, if you want to check out that video, you can watch it here: Let’s Talk: Musical Talents (Scott James & Michael Kilbey)

What favorite artist of yours do you feel have very unique writing styles!?

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa

Now Playing: Symptoms By Ashley Tisdale (Album Review)

May 14 2020 around 6:40pm close to 7pm

Before we get to this review I just wanted to quickly brief some things the reason I didn’t post this right after I finished my review is because I felt it was a little long with both updates I have going on right now,

I wrote the intro two days ago, but I didn’t hear the album until yesterday, the intro explains why, my mood has kinda been a weird one lately, but I did go and re listen to Symptoms and wrote all my thoughts about it after the second listen of it, I just wanted to shorten the length of this post and not have two things going on, hopefully it’s still not too long with this little update disclaimer, before we move on I just want to say that not a lots changed with my thoughts about it, only one thing, but it’s good so don’t worry…..not that you are i’m sure…..anyway let’s get to it shall we!?

May 12 2020 around 4pm in the afternoon

Okay so i’m about to re listen to Symptoms and re share my thoughts about it since my first listen of it, which was only a week ago actually, which is odd because it feels a lot longer than a week, I don’t know why!? Now i’ll be a little honest…….i’ve kinda sorta, have been putting it off, not because I don’t like it, but because I just haven’t been in the mode to sit and re hear it!!

The days I planned on re looking at it, I just wasn’t feeling it, so I would keep adding it towards a later date pushing it further and further back, but today we’re just going to do it, normally when listening to an album that i’ve gotten into or ones that I have on my listen to list that I feel I want to share and talk about, I like to record my reaction to it first and then give it at least a day to sink in before I write my thoughts on it as a post, it’s WAAAAY past a day as you already know……sorry about that…..but we are going to listen to it though and see if any of my thoughts went and changed within a week of the first listen of it, i’m excited to re hear it and get a refresher on it

Hopefully I still like the whole album, i’m sure I will, but opinions change so we’ll see!!

First song on the list…..which is the title of this album Symptoms:

Alright so here’s what I got on this song…..I felt it had a very nice chillness to it, I was feeling some emotions while listening a little, but that could’ve been some random ones trying to come up for all I know, but yeah,

There’s not too much to say on this one, the lyrics are good and so is the song….also remember when I said something changed a little from my first review of this album!? Yeah well this is what changed, when I first heard this song, I wasn’t sure how to feel about it, I knew I liked the song, but I didn’t know what to think of it at first, now i’m here to say that, it kinda feels like it could be a favorite…….probably need to hear it a third time,

before adding it to the definite list, that being said, i’ve also kinda set it out to be a favorite soooo……let’s just say……it is….but not definitely, definitely just yet, yeah!? okay glad we’ve discussed it!!

Next we have the runner up track of the album……Looking Glass

Have I set that up alright, did it make sense!? Hopefully it didn’t sound too cheesy, I know it might be a hit or miss there……i’ll take my chances….moving on though, okay so this song……..I love the grooviness of it and the lyrics are probably one of my favorites on this album, you just, you feel it……if I could describe it, i’d say it’s like a dance track, but it’s a very interesting song as well…..actually now that i’m thinking about it,

It sorta reminds me of another Ashley Tisdale song from her album Headstrong called Not Like That (which is one of my favorites off that album) because of the lyrics mainly, not comparing or anything, both songs are different of course, if you heard not like that and this song than you might hear it, but you might not as well, either way I really like this song,

my only thing with is…….I would’ve liked the beat to play by itself without some of the lyrics from the chorus finishing it off, only because I really like hearing the best, but that’s just a minor thing, when I heard it again, it really wasn’t that bad, so either way of it ending is fine, overall though the song is great, is it a favorite!? Kinda…..it’s the same as the first song, where it’s a favorite, but it’s not exactly on the favorite list, but also is…..

Let’s just say both Looking Glass and Symptoms are on the list…..they’re just written in pencil, but will soon be inked in the more I listen to them!!

In third place….no i’m kidding, the third track on this album is……Love Me and Let Me Go

Okay so this is probably one of what I would consider to be an interesting song to talk about, looking at the title you might think of it to be a specific thing, however when you hear it, you might find that it’s completely different to what you might’ve thought it to be……when I first heard this song, I felt it was a song written for herself as past tense or more like a letter to herself, but not at the same time, it’s hard to explain, but if you hear it, it might make sense, the second time hearing it though……

There was a song that actually came to mind when she was singing the lines “i’ve been chained up to my mind” and “tryna to leave it all behind” both from the first verse, however they have different lines to them, now at first I couldn’t quite put my finger on the song that it reminded me of, but after giving it a quick listen to it again…..I now know what it is…..it was a Matt Cardle song called When We Collide if you don’t know him he’s a great artist, he was actually on the X Factor (UK Version) great voice this one, but yeah this songs great, it’s actually one of my favorites,

but yes, Love Me and Let Me Go reminded me of that song, just with the way it was sung, he kinda does the same thing in the first verse of this song too and I just found it interesting that it reminded me of that, but back to the song we’re discussing off the Symptoms album it’s a great song, chorus is nice, the meaning with it is also pretty great, speaking of, I didn’t know what this song was actually about, I felt it was sung more towards herself, but when looking up the lyrics to get the lines to what I was talking about, I learned that,

I was correct in a way, it’s not a song towards herself per say, but to her Anxiety, which makes a whole lot of sense looking at it now and I gotta say I might just love it more, but even if I didn’t just find that out, I would’ve still said it was great and that I love it!!

On to one of my definite favorites on this album: Insomnia

Now I must note that when I realized this song was next when re listening to Symptoms, a smile came across my face, I LOVE THIS SONG!!!……LIKE LOVE IT!! it’s just soooo good this one, I mean if I had to describe it which I did when jotting down notes while listening to it……it’s quite subtle for one, definitely intimate, but not in the way where it’s too much, it’s the right kind okay!! There’s some temptation to it, but it’s not a bad temptation,

What I mean by that is, both the beat (music) and lyrics of the song just combined so well together, the beat does a great job at pulling you in and the lyrics just complement it sooo nicely, you know you’re getting a really nice meal with it, it’s great, I could try and explain it more, but i’m just going to tell you to listen to it, because it’s really great, after re hearing it,

I played it back about three times maybe before moving on the the next song that’s how much of a favorite of mine it is……..just…..beautiful!!

Moving on…..to track 5……Vibrations!!

Okay now just because the into of it is shorter than the others doesn’t mean that I didn’t like the song…….the same way I felt about it the first time, is the same way I feel about it now……it’s a pretty alright song, not a lot to say with it…..it’s one of those chill tracks, laying low and just enjoying the company of someone or maybe just your own company, which ever you prefer, but you can’t go wrong with a fun time and that’s what this song brings, I feel this might be a kind of soft spot kind of song, where it’s not a favorite per say, but I still can appreciate it for what it is and enjoy it at the same time!!

Track 6…….Under Pressure

Which happens to have some shorter thoughts to the one prior, which is just I love it!!…….seriously that’s all, it’s one of those relatable songs, that you feel once you hear the lyrics, the title really does say it all, but it’s a great song, but I really love about it though is, although the lyrics express on feeling under pressure, no pun intended……it also turns it around and makes it into a positive which is good……..so yeah, it’s good song!!

We’ve now reached track 7 or as I like to call it number SEVEEEEEEEN!! (if you watched my Jonas Brothers album review, you’ll get it!!) track 7…..True Romance

There’s a reason I say it like that, lately and don’t know why, but number 7 seems to be the number that just gets my emotions running because in my Jonas Brothers album review of Happiness Begins, number 7 was a favorite and had my emotions going a little and in this album review of Symptoms, number 7 happened to also get my emotions running and so i’m just accepting that it’s going to be like that with these kind of songs,

I’m not even going to express my thoughts on this one because it’s the same reaction I had when I first reviewed it, I still love it, the lyrics still get me and it’s still a favorite of mine and that’s a definite on that one!!!

Track 8……Voices In My Head

Now i’m sure most or if not some of you will remember that I gave my thoughts one this song around the time it was out for, if you haven’t you can find it here: Voices In My Head (Thoughts) because I heard this song, I wasn’t going in not knowing what to expect from it, like the other songs off the album when I first heard them, so re hearing it my reaction for it never changed, I actually love this song, it’s one of my favorite, I still listen to it from time to time and if I don’t……i’m most likely singing it to myself because it decided to get stuck in my head randomly on a certain day so yeah, but it’s great song, also very relatable and super catchy might I add!!

We’ve come to the last track of the album, track 9…..Feeling So Good!!

I actually don’t have that much to say about it…..when I first heard it I believe I had the same reaction, it a nice fun song, about feeling good and just enjoying yourself really……I did say that this could’ve been on the Happiness Begins album, because I could definitely see Joe, Nick and Kevin singing this song as well, maybe with Ashley, have them featured on it, you know…..just saying…….no, but seriously (hint, hint. wink. wink.)

Good song this one is, I feel like I heard some people in the background at the end of the song…..specifically Vanessa!? HSM cast cameo within the song!? others possibly, most likely…..who knows right!? Okay i’ll stop now, sometimes I just can’t help myself……

Final Thoughts:

Everything I said in my first reaction of it, I also said that I wish this album had more songs, because 9 wasn’t enough….still slightly feel that way with it, because I want to hear more Ashley Tisdale songs, but now i’m okay with what we got with the Symptoms album, there wasn’t one song that I didn’t like, which is good because that’s what I wanted originally and i’m glad that didn’t change in this second review of it!!

I really did enjoy re listening to it, Symptoms is a really great album, I love it and i’m looking forward to hearing more of Ashley Tisdale when we do, she really is a favorite of mine to both watch and listen to!!

That’s all for this album review, thank you for taking the time to read it if you did and I hope you truly enjoyed it, if you want to see my first reaction of when I first listened to it, you can find it here: Now Playing: Symptoms By Ashley Tisdale (Album Review) – First Reaction Review hope you all are doing well, staying safe and your days are going okay!!

All The Love ❤ ❤

Lexa